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The Truth Hurt,But It Can Also Heal.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

It's been a little over 2 months and I'm down 25 pounds. My self-esteem is going up,my stress level is down,and the guilt is starting to go away. I don't know if you can get with that but I'm talking about the guilt you feel when you've just eaten a whole cake or a jumbo pack of cookies etc.. The guilt you feel when you are scheduled for your annual PAP. The humiliation of having to open up and your fatty legs are sagging and ALL your "bidness" is showing. I decided to share this because I wrote about it on my sparkpage but I know most times people don't read those. Anyway,my last pap was on July 17. It was a turning point for me because the nurse who did my PAP was having a hard time latching onto my cervix and she says to me,"The bigger you are makes it harder to latch on". I was already embarrased/ashamed and her saying that,made me feel worse. Now that I look back on it,I thank God for using Juanita(the RN)that day because it had an effect on the change in my life. I go back to see the doctor next week and I hope Juanita is there so that I can thank her. I know she wasn't being ugly,she was just telling the truth and sometimes the truth hurts but in some instances,it can also heal. The very next day after that happened, I decided to do something about it. I'm not where I want to be but thank God,I'm on my way!

Thanks in advance for stopping by,it means a Lot. I hope you all have a lovely day.
LOVE and emoticon~Sabrina

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REGGIE2009 9/28/2009 7:38PM

    Hi my friend, I can relate. I call what you have experienced an aha, moment. This is the moment that puts the fire under us. This is the moment that sets us on this weight loss journey. This is our moment of change. Enjoy this moment my friend. This is indeed your time for change. emoticon emoticon

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TRAVELNISTA 9/28/2009 9:56AM

    I can so relate to that because the last Pap I had was maybe 3 years ago. To make matters worse it was not able to be done but I was told the whatever was not long enough and that I should go to the hospital because they would have a longer one. Mind you it was not the heaviest I had been, yet it did not "take" that time. Before everyone emails me to yell at me, yes I am going to go but not till I get a few more pounds off. I will go before the end of this year I promise.

Now maybe it was not explained properly to me and maybe it was like it was explained to you that it was hard to latch on. Regardless I was so embarrassed that I have not been back since.

Thank God Bree that was your wakeup call because you are doing marvelous! emoticon It is nice to hear that a horrible experience turned into something good.

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ISLANDGIRL2013 9/27/2009 12:59PM

    I really can't see your size having much to do with reaching your cervix.

Your uterus moves up and down during your monthly cycle, it's one thing that is tracked by those using Natural Family Planning. I don't remember at which point it's up high, but it might be worth checking into before your next Pap.

Of course, by then we're all going to be buff chicks!

But I'm glad that remark inspired you to start the journey to wellness!

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CHRISTYK08 9/27/2009 11:49AM

    Hi--I saw you on the Texas team blogs today. I'm sorry about your humiliating experience. I had my PAP a few months ago and it was embarrassing because it seemed she took a long time to do the exam. She didn't say anything about my weight, but after what the nurse told you, I'm wondering if that is my exam took so long. Next year it WILL be different! emoticon

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JUDYK17 9/27/2009 11:40AM

    Hi Sabrina,
It's tough to hear those words but like you said it was a turning point. I guess it's all about how you take those words and work with them.

Good for you and your weight loss! Keep it up.

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I Can Do Anything I Set My Mind To Do.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Since having my tubes tied,I cramp really bad. It happens(the pain) when I'm about to get it. Well today I got it and wanted to use that as a excuse not to work-out. I tends to feel guilty when I don't exercise. Anyway,when the pain left for a bit I choice to ride my stationary bike for 20 minutes and now I'm glad I did. I
reached my goal for the week and went over a significant amount on calories burned. Not bad. Not bad at all SELF.

I know I can take a break and it will be ok. It's becoming a part of me.

Sorry guys and gals I'm just blogging.

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CANBDONE 9/26/2009 10:42AM

    Great job of pressing through! emoticon

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From 24 to 20.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

What's that? 2 or 4 sizes? It wasn't until last night when I found out my actual size. I decided to try on a pair of blue jean gauchos that I've been saving,hoping to wear them again someday. Well that day has come. Not only did they fit really good, they had plenty room. emoticon emoticon I need to hurry to a thrift store because all my clothes is to big. I refuse to spend money on a wardobe when I'm not near by finish. I'm just getting started.

I feel sooo good about myself that I have a twist in my step today and showing nothing but teeth. emoticon

Thank you all so much for your continued support and encouragement. I couldn't do this without you.

Love and emoticon~Sabrina

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TRINI_TEACH 9/26/2009 4:16AM

    You are an inspiration! I've seen you work at it consistently and now you're seeing the results. emoticon emoticon

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TRAVELNISTA 9/23/2009 10:26PM

    I am so proud of you! I am doing the emoticon Happy Dance right there beside you. That is quite the accomplishment!

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SHIRLANGEL 9/23/2009 12:47PM

    Wow! Congrats on not having any clothes that fit because they're too big! That's wonderful! Happy shopping for temporary clothes. emoticon

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STORMTMB 9/23/2009 12:40PM

    This is fantastic! Clothes too big -- hmm, great problem to have. Enjoy buying a few new things until your next lower size. Keep up the good work! And, ENJOY!

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Trust The Process.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Last week I gained 2 pounds. This week I've loss 4 pounds. As long as I continue to make good choices,I'll see changes. If you gain and know that you're doing all you can,don't trip because hard work pays off. It's a process like everything else in life. Trust the process.

Love and emoticon~Sabrina

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TRAVELNISTA 9/20/2009 9:45PM

    You are doing a FANTASTIC job with your weightloss. emoticon

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JENNIFERK2009 9/19/2009 7:48PM

    Keep it up!! Great job!!

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TN_HAMMOCK 9/19/2009 7:40PM

    That is a great way of seeing things!

It is too easy to let the scale rule your life!

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WALNUT5612 9/19/2009 12:37PM

    You are sOOOO right!

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Lunch At Walmart.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

I went to my son's school today for lunch to observe what and how he eat at school. I chose not to eat because I don't like not knowing how many calories etc. that's going into my mouth. If I cant count it,I don't eat it. Don't get it twisted,I was tempted because fiesta salad was my favorite when I was in school and the way my 3 year old was eating it didn't make it no better. Anyway I refrained from eating lunch at the school.

After Shakeira and I left,I decided to treat myself to lunch. I went to the frozen food section of Walmart and got some Tyson's honey battered chicken breast tenders and some Great Value seasoned fries. I got to the house,put them in the oven,and 20 minutes later I was having lunch. I paid 7 dollars for lunch that I'll be able to eat several lunches out of. The best part about it was my lunch calorie total,370 calories. I think I can afford to have a yogurt now. What do you think?

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MACMOM4 9/17/2009 5:52PM

    Wow! I definitely think you can afford some yogurt! What a great approach. I'm especially impressed that you resisted the fiesta salad. Those "tastes of childhood" are really hard to resist!
No wonder you're doing so well on SP

Cheers and Blessings,
Mary Anne


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