I'm Struggling.

Monday, September 28, 2009

I am a night time eater and I've been getting by with it so I've been overlooking the fact that it's just not healthy. It has finally caught up with me. When I looked in the mirror yesterday,I looked like I'd gained weight but I kind of shrugged it off. I wanted to believe that it was because of it being "that time". I'm saying to myself,"The bloating will leave when "it" leave. Then something clicked a few minutes ago,the hard ugly truth. I gained 3 pounds. If Nothing Changes,Nothing Changes. I know I've had some success so far and I wont down play it either,I just want to continue to grow and move forward,not backwards in my journey. Night time eating has always been one of my struggles. Let me first define "my" night time eating-it's getting up out of my sleep(half awake) grabbing something to eat(not counting calories),getting back in the bed with it(going back to sleep while chewing). Sometimes when I wake up in the mornings,I can still taste whatever I ate on my breath. I know,it's bad. I knew the time would come when I had to face it because you cannot continue to make bad choices and expect good to come from it. So I've decided to ask for help from my peers because I know somebody has struggled with the same thing and has overcame it. So please if you have any suggestions,they are welcomed.

It's time that I use the strength that God has given me and fight to win. It's time I stop settling for "ok". I know,I CAN DO IT!!!

Thanks for your continued support and encouragement. It is appreciated.
Love and ~Sabrina

  

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DARA52 10/4/2009 1:31PM

I'm not a night time eater, that's because I love to sleep too much. But I do have a protein snack right before bed because of my Diabetes. It helps my blood sugar to not rise in the night. Maybe that would help you? I'm sure you have gotten great advice from others and hope it has helped. You are great support for me and I'm here if you need. Have a good Sunday. Dara 52 Report Inappropriate Comment

NO_SNOW_BODY 9/29/2009 6:04PM

I have not done the "get out of bed to eat thing". I agree though that you could eat a healthy snack before you go to bed. Your body does not have a clock running it. If you are craving food in the middle of the night, your body is telling you something. I am sure trying a snack isn't going to hurt you, just save enough calories at the end of your day for it, and you do know that we all have gainded 3 pounds myusteriously at least once and it comes off when it wants to, hopefully within a day or two most times. Report Inappropriate Comment

WARRIOR--WOMAN 9/29/2009 11:36AM

Are you actually hungry when you go to bed? If you are in fact hungry, try having a healthy snack before going to bed. We've been so brainwashed with "no eating after 5pm, 7 pm or whenever", but it's not that bid of a deal. "Sleep-eating" on the other hand could be dangerous. The only other thing I can think of is doing something to break the routine, like putting child locks on the cabinets doors, and I think they even have one for the fridge. Something to slow you down and wake you up enough to stop the action. Maybe self-hypnosis, like telling yourself over and over when you first lay down "I am NOT hungry, I am NOT hungry" Let us know how you are doing in fighting this, we're rooting for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

MACMOM4 9/29/2009 1:03AM

Sabrina, I so admire your determination and your honesty. I don't have any good suggestions for night time eating because I'm too lazy to get out of bed to get the food! However, my downfall is at work. I'll be doing fine and then something stressful will happen, or all my classes will be over, and I'm tired and the next thing I know, I've grabbed something to eat that I hadn't planned on. I'm trying to fill my desk with things that aren't that bad to eat, but even so the feeling of being out of control is scary. I wonder if you kept fruit or something to munch on if that would help. As I said, I don't have any good ideas, but I do want you to know that you're in my prayers, and I know you will rely on God and you will overcome this. You've overcome so much already. Blessings to you, Mary Anne Report Inappropriate Comment

PMCGRATH608 9/28/2009 10:14PM

You are not alone in this! I sound just like you when it comes to getting out of bed to find something to eat! I had a fasting blood test this morning, and because of that, I was able to NOT eat last night. Tonight if I find myself going to raid the cookie jar, I'm going to tell myself that I CAN'T eat until breakfast. I eat healthy choices for my meals, so I figure if I can eliminate all these nighttime calories, I should be able to drop 2 pounds a week easily! Good luck to you, I wish I could offer some advice. We can conquer this, right? RIGHT! Report Inappropriate Comment

The Truth Hurt,But It Can Also Heal.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

It's been a little over 2 months and I'm down 25 pounds. My self-esteem is going up,my stress level is down,and the guilt is starting to go away. I don't know if you can get with that but I'm talking about the guilt you feel when you've just eaten a whole cake or a jumbo pack of cookies etc.. The guilt you feel when you are scheduled for your annual PAP. The humiliation of having to open up and your fatty legs are sagging and ALL your "bidness" is showing. I decided to share this because I wrote about it on my sparkpage but I know most times people don't read those. Anyway,my last pap was on July 17. It was a turning point for me because the nurse who did my PAP was having a hard time latching onto my cervix and she says to me,"The bigger you are makes it harder to latch on". I was already embarrased/ashamed and her saying that,made me feel worse. Now that I look back on it,I thank God for using Juanita(the RN)that day because it had an effect on the change in my life. I go back to see the doctor next week and I hope Juanita is there so that I can thank her. I know she wasn't being ugly,she was just telling the truth and sometimes the truth hurts but in some instances,it can also heal. The very next day after that happened, I decided to do something about it. I'm not where I want to be but thank God,I'm on my way!

Thanks in advance for stopping by,it means a Lot. I hope you all have a lovely day.
LOVE and ~Sabrina

  

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REGGIE2009 9/28/2009 7:38PM

Hi my friend, I can relate. I call what you have experienced an aha, moment. This is the moment that puts the fire under us. This is the moment that sets us on this weight loss journey. This is our moment of change. Enjoy this moment my friend. This is indeed your time for change. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRAVELNISTA 9/28/2009 9:56AM

I can so relate to that because the last Pap I had was maybe 3 years ago. To make matters worse it was not able to be done but I was told the whatever was not long enough and that I should go to the hospital because they would have a longer one. Mind you it was not the heaviest I had been, yet it did not "take" that time. Before everyone emails me to yell at me, yes I am going to go but not till I get a few more pounds off. I will go before the end of this year I promise. Now maybe it was not explained properly to me and maybe it was like it was explained to you that it was hard to latch on. Regardless I was so embarrassed that I have not been back since. Thank God Bree that was your wakeup call because you are doing marvelous! It is nice to hear that a horrible experience turned into something good. Report Inappropriate Comment

WARRIOR--WOMAN 9/27/2009 12:59PM

I really can't see your size having much to do with reaching your cervix. Your uterus moves up and down during your monthly cycle, it's one thing that is tracked by those using Natural Family Planning. I don't remember at which point it's up high, but it might be worth checking into before your next Pap. Of course, by then we're all going to be buff chicks! But I'm glad that remark inspired you to start the journey to wellness! Report Inappropriate Comment

CHRISTYK08 9/27/2009 11:49AM

Hi--I saw you on the Texas team blogs today. I'm sorry about your humiliating experience. I had my PAP a few months ago and it was embarrassing because it seemed she took a long time to do the exam. She didn't say anything about my weight, but after what the nurse told you, I'm wondering if that is my exam took so long. Next year it WILL be different! Report Inappropriate Comment

JUDYK17 9/27/2009 11:40AM

Hi Sabrina, It's tough to hear those words but like you said it was a turning point. I guess it's all about how you take those words and work with them. Good for you and your weight loss! Keep it up. Report Inappropriate Comment

I Can Do Anything I Set My Mind To Do.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Since having my tubes tied,I cramp really bad. It happens(the pain) when I'm about to get it. Well today I got it and wanted to use that as a excuse not to work-out. I tends to feel guilty when I don't exercise. Anyway,when the pain left for a bit I choice to ride my stationary bike for 20 minutes and now I'm glad I did. I
reached my goal for the week and went over a significant amount on calories burned. Not bad. Not bad at all SELF.

I know I can take a break and it will be ok. It's becoming a part of me.

Sorry guys and gals I'm just blogging.

  

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CANBDONE 9/26/2009 10:42AM

Great job of pressing through! Report Inappropriate Comment

From 24 to 20.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

What's that? 2 or 4 sizes? It wasn't until last night when I found out my actual size. I decided to try on a pair of blue jean gauchos that I've been saving,hoping to wear them again someday. Well that day has come. Not only did they fit really good, they had plenty room. I need to hurry to a thrift store because all my clothes is to big. I refuse to spend money on a wardobe when I'm not near by finish. I'm just getting started.

I feel sooo good about myself that I have a twist in my step today and showing nothing but teeth.

Thank you all so much for your continued support and encouragement. I couldn't do this without you.

Love and ~Sabrina

  

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TRINI_TEACH 9/26/2009 4:16AM

You are an inspiration! I've seen you work at it consistently and now you're seeing the results. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRAVELNISTA 9/23/2009 10:26PM

I am so proud of you! I am doing the Happy Dance right there beside you. That is quite the accomplishment! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHIRLANGEL 9/23/2009 12:47PM

Wow! Congrats on not having any clothes that fit because they're too big! That's wonderful! Happy shopping for temporary clothes. Report Inappropriate Comment

STORMTMB 9/23/2009 12:40PM

This is fantastic! Clothes too big -- hmm, great problem to have. Enjoy buying a few new things until your next lower size. Keep up the good work! And, ENJOY! Report Inappropriate Comment

Trust The Process.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Last week I gained 2 pounds. This week I've loss 4 pounds. As long as I continue to make good choices,I'll see changes. If you gain and know that you're doing all you can,don't trip because hard work pays off. It's a process like everything else in life. Trust the process.

Love and ~Sabrina

  

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TRAVELNISTA 9/20/2009 9:45PM

You are doing a FANTASTIC job with your weightloss. Report Inappropriate Comment

JENNIFERK2009 9/19/2009 7:48PM

Keep it up!! Great job!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TN_HAMMOCK 9/19/2009 7:40PM

That is a great way of seeing things! It is too easy to let the scale rule your life! Report Inappropriate Comment

WALNUT5612 9/19/2009 12:37PM

You are sOOOO right! Report Inappropriate Comment