Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I'm an open book pretty much because I'm okay with who I'm becoming but I do, at times, feel like I give TMI. That's just who I am NOW because in recovery they told me that honesty was the key to sobriety and I guess I ran away with it. On a serious note, I do it to bring honor and glory to God. I have so much to be grateful for. God has delivered me out of so many situations. He has given me good health and strength. In 1995,I was diagnosed with HIV. I've been living with HIV for 14/15 years. My husband and I have been together 6 years and married for 5 of those years. I thank God for him because through it all,he (my husband)loves me. When my husband and I got together,I was on drugs. I didn't disclose my HIV status with him until I got pregnant with our son James. He immediately forgave me and told me he loved me. We pretty much use protection after that but there has been times that we've slipped up. For instance, our daughter Shakeira. So I'm saying that to say this,God has been good to me, He has a plan for my life and with my life I want to give honor and praise unto Him. To this very day I've never have been sick due to HIV or taken any medicine because of it. My husband and kids are HIV negative. There have been doctors who said,"I wonder what's keeping your immune system well." and I would say,"Grace." I know God has shown me favor because, I've had Hep C for the same amount of time. I had a biopsy did over a year ago and when my test came back,there was no damage done to my liver. My liver was that of a person who never use drugs or alcohol. When I think about all He has done for me,sometimes I cry. To be love like this is a awesome feeling.
Monday, January 18, 2010
You guys have really lift my spirit with the outpouring of love and support. I am encouraged because of it so thank you all for everything but most of all your understanding. I haven't been available like I had been but you ALL are on my mind,in my heart, and prayers. May God bless you!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Our attitude tells the world what we expect in return. If it's a cheerful, expectant attitude, it says to everyone with whom we come in contact that we expect the best in our dealings with the world. You see, we tend to live up to our expectations. And others give to us, as far as their attitudes are concerned, what we expect. Our attitude is something we can control. We can establish our attitude each morning when we start our day--in fact, we do just that, whether or not we realize it. And the people in our family--all the people in our world--will reflect back to us the attitude we present to them. It is, then, our attitude toward life that determines life's attitude toward us. Cause and effect. Everything we say or do will cause a corresponding effect. If we're cheerful, glad to be experiencing this miracle of life, others will reflect that good cheer back to us. We are the kind of people others enjoy being around.-Earl Nightingale
Have a good night!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Living Life Fully
For many years now I have listened to the stories of people with cancer and other life-threatening illnesses as their counselor. From them I have learned how to enjoy the minute particulars of life once again, the grace of a hot cup of coffee, the presence of a friend, the blessing of having a new cake of soap or an hour without pain. Such humble experience is the stuff that many of the very best stories are made of. If we think we have no stories it is because we have not paid enough attention to our lives. Most of us live lives that are far richer and more meaningful than we appreciate.-Rachel Naomi Remen
The passage above speaks of two different concepts, though, one for today and one for tomorrow. First, it tells us of the importance of the little things, the aspects of life that we tend to overlook and/or ignore in our day-to-day lives. We have so much to be thankful for, yet we lose the gratitude when we're not conscious of those things. Have you taken a hot bubble bath lately? Personally, I'm thankful for the water heater that gives me hot water at the turn of a knob, the people who developed the systems of pipes and faucets that make indoor plumbing so easy, the people who have spent time developing bubble bath with nice smells and textures, and finally simply for the time I have that allows me to indulge in a luxury such as that. How many people in the world never have experienced such a thing? More than we'd like to count, that's for sure.
I don't want to have to be terminally ill before I recognize and appreciate all that I have to be thankful for. The hot buttered toast on a cold afternoon, the stereo that plays my favorite music for me, the sunshine in the early morning, the laughter of children, the smiles that people share with me--life is full of "minute particulars," and we have to choose: do we recognize them and give thanks for them, or do we continue to allow them to have no positive effects on our lives at all?
Questions to consider:
What are your favorite "minute particulars" of life? What things give you that small joy that makes you feel great?
How many of the small things that make you feel good can you notice today? Perhaps making a list all day long could help you to see just how many there are.
Have you ever tried to help someone else to notice the small things? Do you take your own advice?
For further thought:
A greater poverty than that caused by lack of money is
the poverty of unawareness. Men and women go about
the world unaware of the beauty, the goodness, and the
glories in it. Their souls are poor. It is better to have a
poor pocketbook than to suffer from a poor soul.-Jerry Fleishman
Today is my mothers birthday. She would have been 65 if she was alive. I miss her terribly. I wish I could call her up and talk to her about my struggles and I know she would know just what to say. She was a woman of MUCH wisdom and strength. I love you mommy.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out.
It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another
human being. We should all be thankful for those people
who rekindle the inner spirit.-Albert Schweitzer
Have a wonderful day!
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