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#3 Desiring to become addicted to nutrient dense food and sweaty workouts

Friday, November 02, 2012

Shadows on the Morning Walk

Besides the sunrise, the birds' morning song, the newness, I love the sharp shadows that are cast. I return from a morning walk, seeing every sharp shadow in contrast to the sun's bright light and I am inspired to paint when I get home. That fades a little while I'm preparing breakfast and eating, but that's okay. I can still recall those visuals of trees on the sidewalls of the house or spread out over the manicured lawns of the golf course.

I'm sure I'd be just as inspired if I had just taken a ride in a golf cart, but it wouldn't be the same.

Okay, I know I really need the morning walk, and then the morning sunrise playlist during breakfast. And I do those things as habits, no matter how rotten I might feel when I get out of bed. My day goes much better when I have those experiences to start my day.

So, will this goal of addiction to nutrient dense foods and sweaty workouts happen through the habits I develop?

It is interesting trying to wrap my thinking around the concept of actually trying to make myself addicted to something positive. I have certainly spent enough of my time working at battling addictions; first the cigarettes, then the sweets.

In fact that knowledge about myself made me stop drinking alcoholic beverages BEFORE an addiction could develop.

So what is the -12 step plan to bring about an addiction?? (that would be the negative 12 step plan, kind of like the opposite of AA's 12 step plan to control addiction.)

  
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KAYE454 11/3/2012 12:04AM

  I don't know what the 12steps are I love to begin my day with a walk

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#2 Desiring to become addicted to nutrient dense food and sweaty workouts

Friday, November 02, 2012

My Jeans don't Fit and that's a good thing.
I just took a SP quiz to see if I had a healthy respect for my body image. The final question asked me which of 3 actions I took if my jeans don't fit. The answer choices forced me into assuming I couldn't do them up.

Interesting that the SP body image quiz focused only on the negative.

But I recently had the lovely experience of having them fall down while they were done up. All 4 pair I had with me on vacation. So what do you do when jeans fall off? You jump up and down. You laugh!! You try a belt. You buy sexy suspenders. You gift the big jeans to someone else on your journey who is close to having their larger jeans fall off. You make a mental note of how great in feels to have them fall off and that it might be an activity to duplicate. You take a picture. You also pray it doesn't happen at work in front of 30 middle school students, however they probably wouldn't notice. You go SHOPPING for a pair that DO fit.

  


#1 Desiring to become addicted to nutrient dense food and sweaty workouts

Friday, November 02, 2012

I have decided I'm going to track my journey toward becoming addicted to nutrient dense foods and sweat producing workouts.

I guess that also means that the addictions to sinful sweets and sitting in the recliner are extinguished. So I used to crave sweets (donuts, ANYthing with frosting, etc). That would have been okay if I went in to Mr. Donut and bought only one donut. But I'd buy half a dozen. And eat them all myself. Or smelling chocolate frosting would send me on a "sweet frenzy."

I became addicted to sitting in the recliner after the cancer diagnosis in 2007. And surgeries, radiation, chemotherapy and 2 more major surgeries in 2008-9 AND chemotherapy that continued from Nov. 2007 until Nov. 2011. Sitting up in the recliner was a step up to all the recuperating in bed. It was better scenery than the bedroom when dealing with fatigue or pain.

But all of that is over. I have had clear PET scans since 2009. Life is good. Except for all the weight I gained. I know. I didn't lose my hair, either. Not what you'd expect for a cancer survivor. But I blame it on the steroids themselves, and the fact that I always felt hungry.

So I want to be healthy. Eating nutrient dense foods is one aspect of my idea of a requirement of transforming into a body of HEALTH instead of sickness.

As long as I stay at home, I am very happy eating nutrient dense foods, shunning processed, enriched, chemical filled, sugar laden, fat charged foods. I don't even think of them.

I think the true test will be the next two months with the holiday opportunities to present a dearth of nutrient dense foods.

One sign I am on the right track is that I no longer stress over what to fix for meals.
Another, I'm checking to see if I have enough veggies for Saturday.
Another, I was frustrated because the bananas at the store were either bright green and hard or brown and mushy. AND I WANT (NEED?) bananas for a smoothie tonight.

Now as for the sweat-producing workouts, I don't think I'm anywhere near even approaching exorcising (spelled wrong on purpose) because I want to. Intellectually, I know my body NEEDS to workout. But I don't think there's anything intellectual about addiction. Perhaps physical, or emotional, or spiritual.

So intellectually, the decisions I make to exercise are to provide my body with what It needs, but there is no passion about the activity.

Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't miss my morning walk. But not because of an emotional high I get because I walked my buns off. I would miss the sunrise, the newness, the people I meet and greet, the birds' morning song.

In Sept. I was in training for a virtual 5 K when a foot problem prompted my podiatrist to pull me off of the walking circuit. But everytime the training upped the ante for distance, I was amazed that I could do it, and then do it in less time than the last time. When I logged in the 2 miles at one time, I realized that I had never walked 2 miles at one time before in my life. That was a real high.

Perhaps exercising will become something I NEED EMOTIONALLY after my new orthotics come in and the podiatrist gives me the all clear to be active again.

And then there are the compression stockings. They make me break out in a sweat, but that's not the kind of proof of addiction I'm looking for.

I want to Really Want to Do exercise. My inner child remembers being skinny and being very active. So I try to incorporate the kinds of things I did as a kid-biking, hula hooping, water activities. Forget the pogo stick, but I could do a rebounder. I hate the noise of a treadmill. I haven't given up on hula-hooping but I just don't feel the love for continuously picking it up off the driveway. I love the pool but currently just do strenuous treading and aerobics when there. It helps leg circulation and tones everything. But I love it because of the water, not the activity or benefits.

One sign that addiction might be looming on the horizon is that it rained today when I had scheduled to go to the pool, and I was very upset.

Another sign is that I was able to go an hour later, and I did my usual treading/aerobic schedule. AND I broke into actually swimming a couple of laps and I didn't die of a heart attack!!

So today I walked for 40 minutes, and went swimming for 30 despite how cold it was when I got out. No sweating for either activity, but I DID have fun.

And that might be the vehicle to get to the ADDICT stage: approach it from the fun angle. Swimming, biking, rebounding are fun. Focus on the fun and see if I get closer to being addicted to the activity!!

I'll tell you what I AM addicted to: Putting on something in my closet an it doesn't fit because it's TOO BIG. emoticon Seeing the scale go down another half pound. Spark people doesn't register a half pound, but for me, I visualize another 2 sticks of butter melting in a frying pan. And that's a wonderful thing.

I had originally started this series of blogs on a community journal. But as usual, I was in the wrong place. That was for results, and I'm just learning how to be an addict. No time for results just yet, So I'm bringing the topic back here to my Spark Page Blog.

  
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SAGELADY2 11/7/2012 6:31PM

    I like this. I found that being sick the past week or so, I've not had time to get in my usual walks or stair machine. It feels so weird and uncomfortable NOT to be doing something.

Now I'm trying to figure out the cheapest way to get swimming in during the winter time. Man, has the YMCA gone up in price!!!!

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CBRINKLEY401 11/2/2012 11:58PM

    Great plan!!

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Soul Collage Card 2: The Addict

Thursday, November 01, 2012

2nd in a grouping of soul collage cards for the journey:



I am the Addict.
Through me, you know when you start to think that time or the job or that sweet snack is more important than life itself.
Through me, you will recognize when you are slave to work, when you are putting effort into non-rewards.
I am the one who helps you see when you and those around you are slaves to the philosophy that ďIím not sure if this is the best choice but itís what I know now, so letís do it some more, bigger and better.

I am the one who will help you know when the effort required to change IS worth it.

--Collage and statements by Sue Atkins

  
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NSTARSMITH 11/1/2012 7:39PM

    Addiction is indeed a teacher, whether we wake up to the lessons and actually learn them or not. Thanks for sharing this!

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BRAVELUTE 11/1/2012 7:24PM

    Thanks. It wasn't my idea to do the twist. The creator of Soul Collage Cards writes that a seemingly negative character that appears on your card can be responsible for positive and negative ways to view your world. And she encourages you to listen for both types of messages. I thought this one would be good for all of us because I often see our bloggers beating themselves up when they eat something that sets off a binge.

I wonder what it would be like if I could become addicted to healthy food and exercise?? I'll have to work on that.

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SAGELADY2 11/1/2012 6:19PM

    Very good thoughts. Good twist on seeing something that normally traps people. Use it for your good instead of detriment. Paradigm shift of the soul.

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Change my profile name???

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

In early September, one of my teams offered sparkpoints for changing our sparkpage to reflect a back to school theme, and more for changing our profile picture.

I managed to do all of that, but switched my picture back when no one attempted to figure out which kid I was in the 4th grade class pic.

Besides, the picture of me playing the harp has a lot of meaning for me. I had learned to play the summer before my cancer diagnosis when I was in such pain, I'd lie o my bed with a smaller harp on top of me and play. It seemed to help me cope with the pain.

And in the summer, I started playing the harp in the picture as a calming sleep inducer during the SP sleep challenge.

So, the harp is important to me.

Then, it seems that there is a rash of people I know completely remaking themselves on SP: their profile pictures, spark page, AND their user name.

I don't know what is prompting that, but for me, I visited fullplatediet.org today. They have developed what they are calling a "game" for people following their diet. I guess they are working toward having something like Spark People.

I do like the way the game awards points for activities relevant to your goals and there are ways to have your goals fit you, as opposed to making your goals fit them. I should think about this some more, but that was my impression today. One thing they led me through was thinking about my user name, and why I would pick it.

So, instead of decluttering the entrance to my studio, I waxed creative with my profile name. I came up with BraveLute. This name is inspired by my 3 favorite harpists.

The BRAVE part of the name comes from Deborah Henson-Conant, a fierce electric harpist:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZNz8IM__9M&
feature=related


And even more phenomenal:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vXtywOlayc

And when I watch these girls playing music from my favorite set of books and movies, I imagine being one of the elves dancing in rings.

So, if I were going to remake myself, I'd take a fierce elfin name because when I'm done with the healthy weight loss, I'd like to look like one of these women, and be able to play like them, too.

Now, if I could find a pic of an elf playing a harp, I'd do it.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6iAaVY1G_c

  
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LVSHOPE 11/1/2012 4:49PM

    As long as I can find you. Love the way the harp has been part of your life.

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SAGELADY2 10/31/2012 6:17PM

    BraveLute is good. I've always coveted having a harp. I grew up playing piano and flute. I still have a flute (actually bought it a few years ago since my first husband hocked my pricey one).

I'm keeping my name, like it. Even though I don't technically grow herbs for retail any more, I still grow for my own use.

I believe in naming yourself what is you on the inside. I'll always be in the dirt, at one with nature. At home in the woods and rivers and oceans.

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KIWIANN 10/31/2012 9:26AM

    BraveLute has a nice ring to it, and it fits the impression you make on SP !
And the videos are amazing - thanks for sharing!! emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 10/31/2012 7:09AM

    Fierce Electric Harpist--okay, that has to be one of the coolest titles, ever.
For real.
BraveLute is cool. Let us know if you do decide to change it. That always throws me for a little while.
Music is so powerful, isn't it? Honestly, my little ukulele is good therapy. I totally get how the harp could sustain you. Harp on!
emoticon (insert elf emoticon here)

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NELLIEC 10/31/2012 12:54AM

    Someone commented to me that I have never changed my screen name and I said that is because I know who I am and am no longer searching for myself.

I think the name you chose should be one that really you feel comfortable with. If you do change your name, at least warn us on the friend feed, so we don't get confused! emoticon

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DJ4HEALTH 10/31/2012 12:28AM

    I changed mine after about a year but only to shorten it to make it easier for me to remember. I am glad that you like to listen and play the harp. It is such a soothing sound.

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