Wednesday, January 23, 2013
(I apologive for the novel ahead of time)
I think the key to really having success in creating a healthier me is commitment. I have committed to a consistent workout program. I have committed to a healthy eating program. Basically, I have committed to a healthy lifestyle. After all, to be successful, we have to really commit to that lifestyle change or it just won't happen! I have lost 125.6 lbs. in 262 days (since May 5th) and I think the number one reason is commitment! I made a plan, and I have stuck to the plan.
I believe this because I have done this before, without said commitment. I did not join Spark on May 5, 2012, rather on August 10, 2009. Basically, I started this almost 2 1/2 years earlier. When I started back in 2009, I had success. I had a lot of success! So what went wrong? What brought me back to Spark? What is the difference this time? All are good questions that I am going to answer. I will answer these questions in hopes that if future Brad decides to go off the track, that maybe he can look back upon this and get right back on track. Also, maybe someone reading this may take a little something from it and use it to succeed in their journey. Maybe.
Most of you reading this, probably know a decent amount about my current story. But let us jump in our Delorean, hit 88 mph, generate our 1.21 gigawatts and travel back to 2009 for the rest of the story.
At the end of May, 2009, I weighed myself for the first time in years and was stunned by the number I saw on the scale. I mean, it was not good! Not that I should have been all that surprised from lack of exercising and eating crap upon crap upon crap all the time. So I decided I wanted to lose weight, but how? I really didn't know much of anything about nutrition or exercise plans. I mean, I worked out in high school and college playing baseball, but that was for baseball. I didn't like exercise. The only thing I really knew was that I needed to eat better. So, I ate better through the summer of 2009 and lost about 32 lbs between May 31st and August 10th. Not bad actually. I really just ate better (not great) and increased my activity some by walking more and playing more golf. I really didn't have any set plan to do it or to keep doing it. I just went along.
Then, on or about August 5th, a group of people from work went out to lunch and invited me along. We had lunch at Tumbleweed on the river (you Louisville people know the spot) and it was pretty good. I really don't remember what I had that day because that isn't the important part of the story. The important part is who was there. In particular, a young lady who we will call C.J. Of course this starts with a girl, doesn't it always? I had sort of known her before but we talked most of lunch. It was nice.
I spent that weekend, thinking I really want to ask her out but no way a girl like her is going to go for a guy like me. So I decided that I needed to kick up the intensity of this weight loss thing a notch. I had it stuck in my head, that I would lose the weight and if I lost enough, she would say yes to a date. That was my thinking!
So I found Spark and signed up on August 10th. My plan was to follow a strict diet plan, track it all, and increase my activity even more. I still knew nothing about actual nutrition. I was not going to do an actual workout plan. I really didn't have a plan, except I was going to eat about 1,500 calories a day...and I did! Sounds like a good plan but at 6'7" and a lot of weight to lose, that is not a good plan. I was basically just starving myself. I was hungry all the time but I just sucked it up and went on.
It worked. From August 10th through December 31st, I lost 67 lbs bring my total up to 99 lbs since May 31st. I had lost 99 lbs and I was really proud of that. So proud, that I actually decided I could now ask C.J out on a date. So, near the end of December, I did ask her out. I did it in the morning before work. She gave me a long answer that included phrases like, "I just got out of a thing", "I don't know what I want", "I'm not saying no", "I'll call you tonight".
Ok, so being an optimistic person, I hung on to the "I'll call you tonight". Well, she never did. I didn't see her for almost 3 weeks with Christmas Break and all but when I did, I asked her why she didn't call. She said that she was sick over break and busy and all that kind of stuff and pretty much left it there. No mention of what I had asked. No answer. I didn't push because that's not me. Till this day, I have never gotten an answer. Not going to lie, that hurt.
But, I was still determined to lose more weight. I had come so far, might as well keep going right? I was working 2 jobs, I started P90x, I started coaching high school baseball part time, I have 3 kids myself...so I basically burnt myself out. I quit tracking. I quit coaching baseball. I quit P90x. My main motivation (the girl) wasn't going to happen. I was done. I had lost 121 lbs. Problem is, I went right back into old habits.
Between March 2010 and May 2012, I gained back 78 of the 121 lbs I had lost.
Reading that sentence kind of makes me ill now. At least I didn't gain it all back I suppose. That means with the 43 I didn't gain back and the 125 I have lost this time, I am down 168 lbs. now from my highest known weight.
At the beginning of May of 2012, I decided that I have had enough of this. I was going to make changes in my life to be healthy. I was going to get healthy and have a better self image. I was going to get healthy so I can live and be a good example for my children. I was going to do this for me and them...nobody else. This time, I had plan. This time, it wasn't for a girl. I was going to do it right, and for the right reasons. I had a plan, I was going to execute said plan, and I would not stop the plan...ever! Not for anything. I did my research about nutrition and exercises. This time, I was going to be well informed. This was going to be a TOTAL lifestyle change. This was not going to be a quick fix plan. I was going to set a goal, meet that goal, and then maintain that goal! It was going to take a lot of TIME and a lot of EFFORT.
It was going to take commitment!
So take this away from my story if you take nothing else. Commit to your plan. Commit, commit, commit! Find what works for you and do it! Do it for you!
Be Your Change
Embrace Your Possibilities
Good Day Sparkville
Friday, January 18, 2013
With the success of my first basketball game in 18 years in the bag, it was on to game #2 last night. The first game was not a success in terms of team victory or even my individual play although I wasn't bad, but rather a victory for me personally. A victory for me to see the kind of progress I have made. A victory for me to show what I am able to accomplish with all of my hard work over the last 8+ months!
It is not about the wins and losses. After all, it's not like I am playing for a new contract or a shoe deal right? But what it is about is proving to myself that I still can do this. That I have worked hard and that hard work has allowed me to open new opportunities, like playing basketball. It is also about getting in some good exercise that is fun. It's about being part of a team and letting a little bit of my competitive side show.
With that in mind, we lost game #2 87-70. Yea, it was a bit of a rough game for our team. We were behind from the first basket but much like game #1, it was a lot of fun for me to get out there and see what I can do. I did score 4 points, grab 7 rebounds, and passed out 6 assists...not bad I think. It feels like I am starting to get a little bit more of a rhythm out there and I think that will continue through the rest of the season. Looking forward to the next game which is Friday the 25th! There will be an update i'm sure!
I also did my usual 2:30am workout of shooting the basketball and lifting some weights. Since I was down in the gym, I also wanted to get a weigh-in. I wasn't really planning on weighing in until February 1st, but I said what the heck! It has only been 12 days since I last weighed in and I was expecting some moderate results. Hoping for 2 to 3 pounds. Well...
I lost 7 lbs!!! I was pretty stunned! With that 7 lbs, I have now lost a total of 125.6 lbs!
I was really hoping to hit 125 by the end of January but I am ahead of schedule now! Looks like I will have to aim for 130! We'll see!
I will be spending part of my Friday afternoon getting fitted for a suit/tux (not sure which) for my cousins wedding on March 23rd near Memphis, Tennessee. Should be fun! Maybe I will get a picture of how it looks and I can share it here on my next blog!
I hope everyone has a great weekend! It doesn't seem like I say it enough, but I appreciate each and everyone of you who take the time to read my blog and even find time to leave a comment! You guys help keep me going and keep me motivated! I think of the comments and things you guys say when I need a little extra motivation to push through a workout or just start a workout when I don't want to. There is a part of me that wants to finish this journey for each and every one of you to be an inspiration, extra motivation for you, or whatever, as long as I can show it can be done. It can be done! WE CAN DO IT!
Embrace Your Possibilities Sparkville!
Sunday, January 13, 2013
When I last left you fine people of Sparkville, it was the day of my first basketball game in nearly 18 years! I was a Sophomore in high school and just finished my one year of JV basketball. I mean, who wouldn't be a little apprehensive about trying something like that again for the first time in 18 years? Let's get a bit of historical perspective to see just how long ago 1995 was...
-I was 16 but hadn't gotten my driver's license yet
-Bill Clinton was President and still in his 1st term
-Boyz II Men "On Bended Knee" was the #1 song
-Dumb and Dumber was the #1 movie
-Seinfeld was the #1 TV show
-Justin Bieber wasn't even 1 year old yet
Maybe some of that explains the bit of angst I was feeling leading up to the game? Was I ready to do this? Was I going to embarrass myself? What had I gotten myself into? Yes I have lost a lot of weight and yes I have been working out for nearly 7 months but I am not 16 years old like I was then and I still have work to do as far as losing weight!
It's funny. All of that stuff went away once the game started. It felt normal. I didn't find myself particularly winded. I felt good. I have never been the fleetest of foot anyways even when I was younger and playing baseball in college. Running has never been a strength or something i've liked. Running was always the punishment for doing wrong when playing sports. But, those guys weren't running circles around me or anything. I held my own.
Ok, so we lost the game, but it wasn't really about that. It was about getting out and doing something that I really enjoy. It was about being part of a team which I had kind of forgotten about in the decade plus now in which I haven't been part of a team. It was about the competition. I had forgotten how much fun that is!
I did pretty good. I played in about 25 minutes of the 40 minute game. Ok, I only scored 2 points but I did have 11 rebounds! Hey, like I said in my last blog, it tends to be a good thing in basketball to be 6'7"!
All in all, it was a positive experience! Really positive! Thinking about it now, it really puts it into perspective how far I have come since May 5, 2012. There is NO WAY I would have been able to play basketball in the shape I was in. Thinking back over the last 10 years, there is NO WAY I could have done it! I have come a long ways in 8 months plus, and I still have a good ways to go before I am done, but this really showed me the progress I have made. It showed me something that I can really be proud of! I found myself wishing there were a couple games a week and I can't wait for the next game on Thursday the 17th!
Just embracing the possibilities Sparkville!
Friday, January 11, 2013
Guess what I gone done did?
My buddy Jonathan has been talking about us joining a basketball league for a couple of years now. I kept saying that I would join up once I lost weight and got in shape. Now that I have lost a significant amount of weight and have been working out for 6 1/2 months, he came a callin' for the basketball league...so I joined!
Yep, I am a proud member of the Beargrass Rukkus lol. Hey, I didn't pick the name! The league is at Beargrass Christian Church which explains the Beargrass name but I am not sure where the Rukkus part comes from. I'll have to ask since neither I, nor Jonathan put the team together and is in charge of that decision. But I am curious.
Regardless of the name, I am on the team and ready to play some ball! I grew up playing a lot of basketball as a kid and even into high school. But, the last year I played was JV ball in high school when I was a Sophomore...in 1995! After that I quit playing to concentrate on baseball and haven't played any organized basketball since!
But I do have a couple things working for me. One, I am in pretty good shape and plan on getting in even better shape as the 9 game season progresses (1 game a week). Two, I have been down at the gym at 3am for a couple of months now shooting baskets as part of my workout on break at work so I am not completely rusty. Three, and one that is quite helpful, I am 6'7". I hear height can be a positive in basketball at times so that shouldn't hurt!
Did I mention that the first game is TODAY?!? Well, it is! Tonight at 6pm! I have to admit that I am both a bit nervous and excited! It should be really interesting. Let us hope that this goes well and I am not sitting at home tonight after the game thinking, what I have I gotten myself into?
Embracing the possibilities!
Good Day Sparkville
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