Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Falling into a groove with my program again and the weather is nice so I have been getting in an extra bike ride after dinner, all is going well. My intake was 1695 for the day, I got to the gym for 55 minutes of cardio and some weight lifting and I drank 2.75 gallons of green tea and H2O but I did fall short on sleep last night by staying up a bit too late, no worries but it should be mentioned. I really have nothing too profound to write about this morning besides the just about perfect day that I had yesterday and the fact that I feel like awesomeness in a box for it. Itís not what you look like, when youíre doin' what youíre doin'. Itís what youíre doin' when youíre doin' what you look like youíre doin'! and that's where I am, the threshold of not caring about whats around me when I workout is being crossed daily and I dare ya to get in my way.
There is a comfort level that seems to come the more weight that comes off and the more that I can see the hard work thats being put into every day that does not exist when you are 500 pounds. Its a hard thing to explain but in my head I call it "being comfortable" creative eh? but what I mean is that with being fat comes the tugging at clothing to make sure a roll is not sucking a shirt in or twisting jeans so that boxers are not riding out of them, its a constant adjustment battle with clothing and rolls that turns into a real hassle that is there all of the time. I see people that are not over weight walking and they look so comfortable and what they are wearing is just that, its clothing and not a sparring partner which is something that's far and in between for us more rotund folks. I think about the chub and what its doing pretty much 24/7, its like it has a mind of its own and I just want to walk down the street without adjusting clothing one time! the day is coming I assure you.
I have tunnel vision right now, I hit the top of a hill and am on the way down and the brakes are not enough until I get the bottom which is hopefully 275 pounds. There is something about the warmer weather that makes me want to just bust ass with the exercise and this week I have been on point with that but am afraid that its not going to show come Friday because of my Easter day escapades with the indulgences. Its funny how one day can completely set a whole week back where the scale is concerned but I find it equally amusing when I have that perfect week and the weight falls off so I ain't crying about it because it is what it is and well, yeah. I have been getting a lot of emails and inquiries about posting up my menus again so I have been doing that and here is yesterdays for you to ponder, notice a pattern from day to day?
2 cups honey combs 220
8oz 1% milk 110
Dark chocolate/almond zone bar 190
3oz turkey breast 90
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T miracle whip 40
6 slices turkey bacon 150
4 slices whole wheat toast 280
1 T Miracle whip 60
12oz mashed turnips 150
1 apple 85
1 Yoplait yogurt 100
1/2 Yoplait yogurt 50
That's a total of 1695 total calories and I drank 1 gallon of green tea and about 1.75 gallons of straight up good old fashioned H2O, I am noticing that I am light on the fruits and veggies lately so that will be adjusted accordingly. Today is going to be the same as yesterday, I will go to the gym, I will drink like a fish, I will eat my allotted calories and I will try and get out for a post dinner bike ride I figure why mess with what works right? Until then stay the course and keep on keepin on and all that, YOU are the only thing holding yourself back so remove the mental from the equation and get moving more and eating less.
Monday, April 05, 2010
I choose to live a life that is healthy and full of movement, I choose this for me as I choose this for anyone in my life and I choose this because I must. Having seen the wrong side of health for far too many years a decision was made to take control back away from something not in my control for too long and the way that I live now is a complete 180 from where I began when I started writing this blog. I go to the gym because it is a tool for my health, I eat the foods that I eat because its what I need to do in order to live life on my terms and I am a changed man from making these choices. Once upon a time there was a fella that had all but given up on any chance of ever doing half of the things that I do now and honestly had no idea what to do about a situation that was getting worse by the day yet here I am today 220 pounds lighter than I once was and in the best shape of my life.
Anyone can do this, yes that means you! Today I will go to the gym and I will do 45 to 60 minutes of cardio, I will lift weights for my shoulders, biceps, and back and I will do this not only because I have to but because I enjoy it. When I am done at the gym I will play in my yard with my daughter for a while and take a bike ride after dinner not because I have to or enjoy it though both are true but because I Can. In the not so distant past some of what I do now was but a pipe dream as I watched through the window at other people doing these remedial tasks and taking a ride on a bike was simply not a possibility at that weight or level of conditioning, to run around the yard with my daughter was an impossible thing and that bothered me immensely more than I let on because of pride. So today I do my cardio, I run with my little girl, I ride my bike and I live because I can and because its what I choose to do, I am not limited by the physical me any more.
Having lived life at 534 pounds, if you want to call it living, I can fully appreciate how I live today. Making my way down towards a healthy weight has become like a job to me and I will get there, I will be where I want to be with my weight and health and nobody can stop that, nobody but me that is. Making choices to do things that allow me to do things is how this whole thing works, I choose to eat the 4oz of turkey with dinner so that I can run in the yard with my daughter, I choose to drink nothing but green tea and water so that I can do 60 minutes of cardio training and not worry about a heart attack and I choose to do that cardio daily so that I am not limited by myself from doing anything that i want to do.
You can do this too, you can have everything that you want not because I say so but because its true and once upon a time I was on the other side of the equation reading a blog written by some other person that had lost a ton of weight thinking about how I couldn't do it, yet here I am, 220 pounds less of a man physically and 1000 time more the man that I was just two short years ago because of a choice to do something about it.
Ask yourself if its harder to miss out on all of the things that life offers or to put that cheeseburger down and move that ass just a little bit more, answer honestly and its not really a hard choice at all.
Friday, April 02, 2010
April 2nd is here and that 300 by today did not happen, ok I am over it and onto the new goal or should I say run at the 200's. This morning the scale said 314.8 pounds three times in a row and that's actually up from last week by .6 but I am pretty sure we won't loiter around that number for too long. It would appear that I need to average 3.7 pounds per week until May 1st if I am going to get to 300 by May 1st and that seems aggressive to me but I suppose when the Kraken gets released its not good news for somebody and the fat is that somebody...er something..er whatever it is its not good news for the chub.
I have been at this weight loss game for 822 days now and am down 220 pounds in that time, when all is said and done I hope to have lost 50% of my total weight or 267 pounds which will leave me at..well...267 pounds. When I started off I chose a number that coincided with what I thought would be a healthy looking weight for me and I got that number from mt fathers weight, he was 265 pounds at the time and stands 6'1'' tall has a large build and doesn't look so bad at that weight so I figured I am 6'5'', large build 275 will look good. After doing the math I figured out that 267 pounds would give me 50% total body weight lost and I want that number...at least! I think that ultimately I would like to end up around 250 pounds but for now we shall shoot for 275. There is a lot of figuring and calculating with this weight loss for me from my excel spread sheets and weight loss graphs to the percentages lost at each pound lost right on over to the raw pounds lost and in all honesty I think that those numbers help me to stay on track, its sort of a scientific measurement of what I am doing and I can go back and look at that whenever I need/want to because of my meticulous tracking since starting.
Weight loss and better health really is a lifestyle change, so many things have to change in order for it to be successful that it HAS to be a lifestyle change. There are tons of diet plans out there that require a person pay a monthly dollar amount for guidance, pre-packaged meals, counting points, buying special foods, buying pills and all other sorts of things that I feel are unnecessary in today's day and age. I hear about people that have yo-yo dieted all of their lives and tried every pill and plan that came out year after year and spent tons of money and time depending on the "diet industry" to take care of a problem that just needs some K.I.S.S. applied to it for results. I have never bought a diet pill, I have never bought a gimmick diet book or plan, I have never taken pills that make for greasy trips to the toile...well yeah, I have never once paid for special meals prepared in a factory to be delivered to my door, I have never had to resort to a surgery and I have never counted a point yet here I am 220 pounds lighter than I was just 2 years ago, how can that be? Some of those plans work because if they didn't they would not still be around and I know some people that have had great success with a couple of those things including WLS BUT and there's always a but right? I don't believe that a person has to pay someone else to limit their intake when it can be done with some discipline.
Now wait right here Mister Meatball! you make losing weight sound way too easy and you can stick that right in your....No no no, I am not saying that it is easy at all and believe me I know first hand that its not but I literally asked myself one question back in 2008 and the answer is why I did what I did to get where I am now. I was looking for a way out, and I thought that way was to get a weight loss surgery I mean my sister in law looks amazing after her surgery and I have a friend whose father also looks awesome after getting a WLS but what exactly does getting a surgery mean? for me it just meant that someone was going to alter my body in a way that would forcefully limit my caloric intake by making my stomach smaller and it seemed silly to me to have a doctor MAKE me limit my intake when I could just say fuvk it and do it myself. I asked myself "Can I really not just eat less and move more?" with that thought I literally changed the way that I looked at food and I started limiting myself to more human sized portions and the weight started falling off.
I have not weighed less than 300 pounds as an adult, the last time that a two graced the beginning of my weight I was roughly 12 years old so not even a teen really and I am a mere 14 pounds from that number right now as I type. I will never weigh less than 200 pounds unless I lose a limb or two but I have a pretty good feeling that I will get to 250 pounds and that is a feeling that I can only imagine because I was a child the last time that I was even close to that weight. Then I think about "could I get down to 234 pounds and make an even 300 pounds lost" and I have to grab myself and drag my ass back into reality and shoot for under 300 pounds for now.
Barring anything semi tragic in my near future I suspect that I will have a pretty successful next couple weeks where the weight loss goes because I am feeling very focused right now. The rain has stopped, the weather is warming up and I am so close to being under 300 pounds that I can taste it. The next challenge has been issued and I am shooting for a 14 pound loss in the month of April, come May 1st I am hoping that I will have a 2 in front of my weight to go with the giant smile that will surely come with that achievement. The kids have no school today and that gives me an opportunity to get out in the yard and get some more work done this morning so that's the end of this longer than usual Friday weigh in post.
If you are reading this and think that you cannot lose the weight that's holding you back without paying out of your ass for special programs...you are wrong. YOU can do it if you want it bad enough.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Sometimes I get in a mood where I feel unstoppable and yesterday was one of those days, Heading out to the gym I was in a good place feeling like it was time to get serious again with my workouts. Low Fidelity All stars on the radio and the weather is warming up after our Ark building weather here in the New England and its leveling off again for me. Straight to the bike I went where I found someone on the bike that I usually ride and all of the rest taken besides the one in the corner which is coincidentally the one that I use to go to for that very reason so in my head I think "Now don't you know that's MY bike man??" and onto the corner bike I went. Twenty five minutes and almost 9 virtual miles later I am warmed up and onto my bestest friend in the whole gym Mr. Arc-trainer, level 80 was set on the display and I stayed at 103 rpms for 15 minutes. Straight to the treadmill where I did 3.5mph @ a 5.5% incline for another 25 minutes and I blurted out "I been thinkin of bustin you Upside ya motherfuvkin forehead" actually just the "Upside ya motherfuvkin forehead" was out loud but a quick look around and I am pretty sure no one was close enough to hear it so now I can add Move bitch to my list of blurted out songs at the gym.
That unstopable feeling is great while at the gym because its like I feel nothing negative, the burn in my legs is welcomed and I look forward to the sweat on my head so a good workout is inevitable. I stayed on point with my intake for Wednesday as well having a total of 1780 which is technically 80 calories over my limit but I am ok with that. Those 80 calories over was because of snatchy hands and some powdered cheese covered evilness that made its way into my cabinet, spicy Doritos. Wify gave me that look that grandma would give you if she caught ya elbow deep in the cookie jar and stated forcefully "You had better weigh that if you are going to eat it! DO IT NOW Tony!" then she declared herself the food police, so I complied and tossed my booty onto the Salter scale where it read 16g so I added it to the spreadsheet, I did not however get the pat down from the food cop that I was hoping for though. Have a look at my menu from yesterday.
2 cups honey combs 220
8oz 1% milk 110
Dark chocolate zone bar 190
2 80 cal rolls 160
5oz ground turkey 200
1oz doritos 140
2 jenny o turkey hot dogs 140
2 hot dog rolls 240
2oz ground turk (chili) 80
1 can green beans 70
2 brussel sprouts/8 tiny grape tomatoes 40
2 small oranges 120
1/2 oz doritos 70
G-Tea 1 Gallon
H2O 1.25 Gallons
Tomorrow is the final day in my April 2nd challenge and I will be no where close to where I was expecting to be when I started that April goal which is of course below 300 pounds. I am ok with that as there were some humps in the road especially this last month with being sick for almost 2 solid weeks and a few things that go unmentioned on this blog but I set a goal to get to 300 pounds by May 1st so we shall see how that goes. Tomorrows weigh in number will be the base number, or starting point if you will for the May challenge and I will change the chart on the side bar after I step on the scale in the morning. Today is suppose to hit 70 degrees and the water has stopped falling from the sky and spilling from the rivers for now so a bike ride may be in order at some point today but that will be after the gym so its looking like a good day for movement and the food police will keep me in check on the other stuff if I start to slip.
In the words of Porky pig, th th th that's all folks!
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