Friday, April 02, 2010
April 2nd is here and that 300 by today did not happen, ok I am over it and onto the new goal or should I say run at the 200's. This morning the scale said 314.8 pounds three times in a row and that's actually up from last week by .6 but I am pretty sure we won't loiter around that number for too long. It would appear that I need to average 3.7 pounds per week until May 1st if I am going to get to 300 by May 1st and that seems aggressive to me but I suppose when the Kraken gets released its not good news for somebody and the fat is that somebody...er something..er whatever it is its not good news for the chub.
I have been at this weight loss game for 822 days now and am down 220 pounds in that time, when all is said and done I hope to have lost 50% of my total weight or 267 pounds which will leave me at..well...267 pounds. When I started off I chose a number that coincided with what I thought would be a healthy looking weight for me and I got that number from mt fathers weight, he was 265 pounds at the time and stands 6'1'' tall has a large build and doesn't look so bad at that weight so I figured I am 6'5'', large build 275 will look good. After doing the math I figured out that 267 pounds would give me 50% total body weight lost and I want that number...at least! I think that ultimately I would like to end up around 250 pounds but for now we shall shoot for 275. There is a lot of figuring and calculating with this weight loss for me from my excel spread sheets and weight loss graphs to the percentages lost at each pound lost right on over to the raw pounds lost and in all honesty I think that those numbers help me to stay on track, its sort of a scientific measurement of what I am doing and I can go back and look at that whenever I need/want to because of my meticulous tracking since starting.
Weight loss and better health really is a lifestyle change, so many things have to change in order for it to be successful that it HAS to be a lifestyle change. There are tons of diet plans out there that require a person pay a monthly dollar amount for guidance, pre-packaged meals, counting points, buying special foods, buying pills and all other sorts of things that I feel are unnecessary in today's day and age. I hear about people that have yo-yo dieted all of their lives and tried every pill and plan that came out year after year and spent tons of money and time depending on the "diet industry" to take care of a problem that just needs some K.I.S.S. applied to it for results. I have never bought a diet pill, I have never bought a gimmick diet book or plan, I have never taken pills that make for greasy trips to the toile...well yeah, I have never once paid for special meals prepared in a factory to be delivered to my door, I have never had to resort to a surgery and I have never counted a point yet here I am 220 pounds lighter than I was just 2 years ago, how can that be? Some of those plans work because if they didn't they would not still be around and I know some people that have had great success with a couple of those things including WLS BUT and there's always a but right? I don't believe that a person has to pay someone else to limit their intake when it can be done with some discipline.
Now wait right here Mister Meatball! you make losing weight sound way too easy and you can stick that right in your....No no no, I am not saying that it is easy at all and believe me I know first hand that its not but I literally asked myself one question back in 2008 and the answer is why I did what I did to get where I am now. I was looking for a way out, and I thought that way was to get a weight loss surgery I mean my sister in law looks amazing after her surgery and I have a friend whose father also looks awesome after getting a WLS but what exactly does getting a surgery mean? for me it just meant that someone was going to alter my body in a way that would forcefully limit my caloric intake by making my stomach smaller and it seemed silly to me to have a doctor MAKE me limit my intake when I could just say fuvk it and do it myself. I asked myself "Can I really not just eat less and move more?" with that thought I literally changed the way that I looked at food and I started limiting myself to more human sized portions and the weight started falling off.
I have not weighed less than 300 pounds as an adult, the last time that a two graced the beginning of my weight I was roughly 12 years old so not even a teen really and I am a mere 14 pounds from that number right now as I type. I will never weigh less than 200 pounds unless I lose a limb or two but I have a pretty good feeling that I will get to 250 pounds and that is a feeling that I can only imagine because I was a child the last time that I was even close to that weight. Then I think about "could I get down to 234 pounds and make an even 300 pounds lost" and I have to grab myself and drag my ass back into reality and shoot for under 300 pounds for now.
Barring anything semi tragic in my near future I suspect that I will have a pretty successful next couple weeks where the weight loss goes because I am feeling very focused right now. The rain has stopped, the weather is warming up and I am so close to being under 300 pounds that I can taste it. The next challenge has been issued and I am shooting for a 14 pound loss in the month of April, come May 1st I am hoping that I will have a 2 in front of my weight to go with the giant smile that will surely come with that achievement. The kids have no school today and that gives me an opportunity to get out in the yard and get some more work done this morning so that's the end of this longer than usual Friday weigh in post.
If you are reading this and think that you cannot lose the weight that's holding you back without paying out of your ass for special programs...you are wrong. YOU can do it if you want it bad enough.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Sometimes I get in a mood where I feel unstoppable and yesterday was one of those days, Heading out to the gym I was in a good place feeling like it was time to get serious again with my workouts. Low Fidelity All stars on the radio and the weather is warming up after our Ark building weather here in the New England and its leveling off again for me. Straight to the bike I went where I found someone on the bike that I usually ride and all of the rest taken besides the one in the corner which is coincidentally the one that I use to go to for that very reason so in my head I think "Now don't you know that's MY bike man??" and onto the corner bike I went. Twenty five minutes and almost 9 virtual miles later I am warmed up and onto my bestest friend in the whole gym Mr. Arc-trainer, level 80 was set on the display and I stayed at 103 rpms for 15 minutes. Straight to the treadmill where I did 3.5mph @ a 5.5% incline for another 25 minutes and I blurted out "I been thinkin of bustin you Upside ya motherfuvkin forehead" actually just the "Upside ya motherfuvkin forehead" was out loud but a quick look around and I am pretty sure no one was close enough to hear it so now I can add Move bitch to my list of blurted out songs at the gym.
That unstopable feeling is great while at the gym because its like I feel nothing negative, the burn in my legs is welcomed and I look forward to the sweat on my head so a good workout is inevitable. I stayed on point with my intake for Wednesday as well having a total of 1780 which is technically 80 calories over my limit but I am ok with that. Those 80 calories over was because of snatchy hands and some powdered cheese covered evilness that made its way into my cabinet, spicy Doritos. Wify gave me that look that grandma would give you if she caught ya elbow deep in the cookie jar and stated forcefully "You had better weigh that if you are going to eat it! DO IT NOW Tony!" then she declared herself the food police, so I complied and tossed my booty onto the Salter scale where it read 16g so I added it to the spreadsheet, I did not however get the pat down from the food cop that I was hoping for though. Have a look at my menu from yesterday.
2 cups honey combs 220
8oz 1% milk 110
Dark chocolate zone bar 190
2 80 cal rolls 160
5oz ground turkey 200
1oz doritos 140
2 jenny o turkey hot dogs 140
2 hot dog rolls 240
2oz ground turk (chili) 80
1 can green beans 70
2 brussel sprouts/8 tiny grape tomatoes 40
2 small oranges 120
1/2 oz doritos 70
G-Tea 1 Gallon
H2O 1.25 Gallons
Tomorrow is the final day in my April 2nd challenge and I will be no where close to where I was expecting to be when I started that April goal which is of course below 300 pounds. I am ok with that as there were some humps in the road especially this last month with being sick for almost 2 solid weeks and a few things that go unmentioned on this blog but I set a goal to get to 300 pounds by May 1st so we shall see how that goes. Tomorrows weigh in number will be the base number, or starting point if you will for the May challenge and I will change the chart on the side bar after I step on the scale in the morning. Today is suppose to hit 70 degrees and the water has stopped falling from the sky and spilling from the rivers for now so a bike ride may be in order at some point today but that will be after the gym so its looking like a good day for movement and the food police will keep me in check on the other stuff if I start to slip.
In the words of Porky pig, th th th that's all folks!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I sometimes go back and re-read my older posts to see what I was doing on a given day and this morning I went back a year and read a post from March 30th 2009 and apparently this time of year gets me in the yard! This past weekend I wrote about all of the yard work and how my hamstrings are killing me right now and one year ago I was in the same boat almost exactly so it would appear that I have a pattern of sorts that I need to work on. My mornings start off great and then I bust ass all afternoon and bamn! a bad dinner? for why? Here is an excerpt from my March 30th 2009 post titled "Did I mention that I'm sore?.
"Busy busy busy! that pretty much sums up my weekend, we decided that it was time to paint "the blue room" AKA "the rec room" AKA "the big ass mess" so that we did. We moved everything out of the room and into my sons room so that we could move around in there, we painted and repaired almost all day Saturday to the point where we did not finish. Saturday night we decided that we would have a bonfire in our yard and burn up some of the brush that we have been cutting down in our yard so we spent about an hour dragging logs, branches and brush up the back part of the yard where the fire pit is and a bonfire we had! roasted marshmallows and all. The intake for Saturday was very much less than stellar but I am cool with it, I don't know if it was all of the work from the day or if its just the fat that we were having a bonfire but I ate terribly. Breakfast and lunch went well enough but then dinner was bacon pizza which I had 4 slices of and a bottle of water, hey at least I turned down the soda and chose water right? I had about 4 marshmallows and 2 bottles of Guinness while sitting at the fire so Saturday was a bad day for intake."
See that pattern? yeah the one where I make it ok to eat bad because I busted ass on any given day? yeah well that's gotta go! In the first year of me deciding to do something about my health I was a rock, I was very much a pain in the ass to eat around or with because I demanded that everything be my way or I would not be a part of it and I think that has to come back a bit. The point of me losing weight was so that I could first stay alive longer as I have a feeling that I was on the edge of some bad stuff before I changed the way that I live but there is another side to why I wanted to lose weight.
Being comfortable to move around in daily life is something that I think anyone that's not been huge takes for granted. Any event big or small was a hassle for me when I was 500 plus pounds, birthday party? no fuvkin way man, too many people and they will all expect something from me that is more than sitting still on the couch, Amusement park? are you out of your damn mind? why would I want to walk around somewhere all day in the heat and watch everyone else have fun? Catch a movie? yeah sure thing! just don't forget to bring the Vaseline so that I can get my ass dislodged from the seat when its done. Being comfortable was something that I wished for almost on a daily basis when I was 500 plus pounds, I would think about how much easier things are when you don't weigh as much as a full on street bike instead of doing something about it. These days? I am comfortable, I run, I walk, I ride my bike and I play outside with the kids unhindered by weight and I am beginning to think that was the most important thing to me because I have relaxed on being as strict as I was in the beginning.
Right now I am just cruising through this better health thing and not pushing myself as hard as I once did and that's going to stop today, I am not going to wish for anything and I am not going to let my current comfort level be the point where I kick my feet up on the desk and proclaim victory. I am at a point where I love to exercise so that's not an issue, I drink like a fish so no worries there, my issue seems to be that I am way relaxed on the intake part of the equation because I can "judge" what I am eating so well now that I do it more often than I should be. I am not gaining weight so maintaining is a big 10-4 smokey BUT I am not quite at a maintenance weight just yet so back to the annoying pain in the ass with the scale mode I go which is going to suck with the warm weather coming and Mr Carona and Guinness hanging around but we will manage.
Another blogger friend of mine has issued a challenge to himself to drop 13 pounds by May 1st and has asked me if I wanted to be a part of it, by calling me out by name in his latest post and I am going to boldly say that I will be below 300 pounds before May 1st 2010. I will post my Friday weight to complete my April 2nd challenge results and see just how far I missed that mark because I AM going to miss it and start a new weight chart on the side bar to track this May challenge. IF I am able to get to my last Friday weight by this Friday I will need to drop 3.5 pounds per week to hit that May goal and again its an ambitious number but ambitious is what gets me going. If this Friday shows an up in weight which I think it will, that 3.5 pound per week target will be higher and after doing that math just now I am thinking that this is not going to be an easy task for me.
I am going to admit that I am pissed off at myself for not making it to that April goal that I set for myself even though there was a lot that went on in that time that effected the results that goes unmentioned in this blog, either way I am aggravated at myself for not making it. I refuse to be aggravated for a health goal and instead I am going to do something about it, sort of like when I decided that I need to NOT be 500 plus pounds any more. I have been in the last few months whittling away at the weight at a much slower pace than I once was and I suppose that's to be expected but I do know that I am not doing my part as much as I was in the beginning because of comfort and I am deciding that being comfortable is going to cost me some comfort and its time to amp up the workouts a bit and get the intake back into a VERY STRICT rhythm again.
Grab a bowl of popcorn unbuttered of course and watch for those 200's to come rolling around because its been a long time coming and I think its time to get back to what got me here in the first place. Out comes the scale for EVERYTHING and no more guesstimating on my measurements for a while, dropping the weight takes strict adherence to that system while I am finding out that I can maintain without the scale is a great thing I still see some road ahead that I need to walk, Its on...
Thats all I got today.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
When last we met our man on a mission Zeusmeatball, dedication and going for broke was the message conveyed and the plan was to hit the week hard and see what happened come Friday. Saturday morning started out like any other weekend morning but there was a school function for the kids for Easter and I decided to go, as we were getting ready Wify says "You could ride your bike over to the school, it looks nice outside" What a Great idea!! filled my water bottle and asked my son if he would want to ride over with me instead of taking the car with the girls and we were off. Two minutes into the ride I realize that it is way too cold to be moving 20 miles per hour gloveless with nothing more than a hoodie on but kept going and about a mile into the ride I realized that my son was not remotely near me so I circled in an intersection until he caught up. The ride is only about 3 miles one way but there are some pretty good hills on the way that were proving to be hard for the boy to go up without stopping and half way up the last and biggest hill I noticed that my son was no where to be found again so I stopped to wait for him. Around the bend I see him through the trees and as soon as he hit the bottom of the hill he stopped and yelled "I can't do it" so I waited for him to reach my position on the hill and dropped my bike into a lower gear and was going to ride to the top to wait for him to walk up and as I pushed the pedals forward the front wheel popped off of the ground, I pedaled twice and POP! I thought that the chain came off of the crank but it was worse! a link broke so I walked to the top with my son and ended up coasting down the other side to the school, my day was off to a fantastic start...
Lucky for me I had tossed the bike carrier in the trunk of the car and after the school function I loaded our bikes on the car and home we went, I dropped everyone off and ran down to the LBS and bought a new chain and installed it on my bike. Onto the back yard, My yard is a wooded area that at one time was clear and now it is full of small saplings, pricker bushes, shrubs and just lots of over grown crap that makes the area unusable. I have been wanting to get back there and clear the area out since last Spring but it didn't happen before it was full of leaves and poison ivy so wild kingdom it stayed but Saturday that all changed. The area that I was working on is about 50 feet wide and maybe 150 feet long and that's not even close to the entire yard just what I did Saturday, I headed back with some heavy gloves, some clippers, a machete and bad intentions for all of the overgrowth. Four hours later I had a pretty much brush clear area and a brush pile 6 feet tall for my efforts and the yard looks completely different than I have ever seen it and other than being a bit tired and hungry it was kind of fun actually...until later. The wife says "John is getting take out and I just wanted to put that out there" to which I replied "Ok what are we getting?" Doh! what happened to gung ho mister man gonna and I quote "beat the fat into submission" guy?? him? he had thorns in his hands and didn't feel like baking the chicken sitting on the counter. I ended up eating some General Tso's chicken and I opted for the white rice instead of fried, an egg roll and a Sam Adams which was later followed by a gigantico bowl of popcorn with a movie that night, it was not a good day for calories.
Sunday I woke up and my hamstrings felt like they had spent the night in some kind of torture camp, rode hard and put away wet and then beaten a bit more for good measure but I suppose that I should have expected that after 4 hours of being bent over tearing up bushes and saplings eh? I didn't do too much besides a bit of shopping that needed to be done Sunday but had not had a good nights sleep since Thursday and I have been averaging maybe 5-6 hours sleep per night since then. This beating the fat into submission thing that I was shooting for on Friday sure doesn't look like its happening! Here it is Tuesday and I am still very sore on the hams and yesterday at the gym I had to take it easy because I am still sore all over from my Saturday bush work. The plan is to go to the gym again today but I will be taking it easy again and by taking it easy I mean no weights, a slow ride on the bike, yesterday I did 6.15 miles in 20 minutes where I usually do between 7 and 8 in the same time and a 3.1 mph walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes.
Here is a random look at Mondays menu.
2 cups honey combs 220
8oz 1% milk 110
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95
1 can progresso clam chowder 220
1 light multigrain english muffin 100
1oz low fat cheddar cheese 80
smart balance 20
2 bites of cereal 50
1 cup rice and beans 275
4 oz chicken breast 200
2 oranges 160
Calorie total for Monday is 1635 but I have to cop to a couple bites of the rice while cleaning up after dinner so it is actually a little more than the 1635 that my spreadsheet shows.
My weight is up and I will not believe that one day of terrible eating over the weekend is to blame completely for that, I have not slept enough, I am sore as all hell AND I did not eat well over the weekend. Sounds like I want to beat that fat into submission eh? it is what it is and I lost the key to my time machine so there is nothing that I can do about what is done so onward I go and eventually I will whittle myself into the size that I want to be.
That's all I got for today.
Friday, March 26, 2010
This morning as I walked towards the scale I said to wify "I will be happy with a 314 on this thing today" and upon stepping onto the cold black gravity measurement device 314.2lbs flashed onto the display. Every day since Monday the scale has said 316 pounds then I hit the gym yesterday and a 314 pops in on me, I don't think that making my 300 pound mark by April 2nd is a possibility at this point because it would mean that I need to drop 14 pounds in a week but I do want to see how close I can get. Making life hard on the fat will be my mission this week and I am going to go very hard on myself at the gym and be extremely strict with my intake this week and I am going for broke with the weigh in for next Friday because being sick for as much as I have the past 2 weeks really mussed me all up. In all honesty I am past all of the "go go go lets get er done NOW" part of this better health/weight loss thang and I am sort of just living life in moderation at this point which was the goal really and I have lost more than 200 pounds and have kept it off for close to a year now so changes have been made permanent where my health goes.
I mentioned yesterday that the contestants on the biggest loser did a challenge where they raced to 26.2 miles on stationary bikes and that I was going to try this because I think that I can beat the fastest contestants time. So, I walked in the gym yesterday and was riding the bike per usual and thought "lets do half of that distance just to gauge whether I am crazy or see if I can beat that time" I ended up riding for just under 35 minutes and went 13 miles on resistance setting 11 which is where I ride every day. That pace is faster than the fastest contestants end time but it was only half of the distance so finding out if I could keep that pace for the whole 26.2 miles will be interesting and I think once I am back to a normal schedule I will give it a go, I believe that I can beat his time.
Barring me getting sick again, its lovely having preschool aged children sometimes I tell ya, I am planning on an aggressive week as far as my intake and exercise goes. The plan will be to eat my allowed calorie allotment and do not go over, eat clean and watch the sodium and carbs, drink at least 1 gallon of green tea per day and 1/2 to 1 gallon of H2O daily. Go to the gym at least 6 days this week and ride my bicycle as often as I can after dinner all week, sleep at least 8 hours per night every night this week and hope that its enough to kick me back into high gear so that I can continue to see lower numbers each week on my gravity interpretation device. I felt good yesterday at the gym and only stopped because I needed to get back home, I was over on calories by about 100 yesterday but I am not worried about it at all because of whats in store for my body this week.
Its going to be an interesting ride for the next few days and into the end of the week but I am going to be expecting a new low weight come Friday and I am honestly going to expect a HUGE drop in weight this week as I beat the fat into submission. I can taste sub 300 pounds, I can see it around the bend, and I have a strong feeling that it won't be too long before its what I see on the scale and with that the end has come to this episode of......yeah, make sure to check in tomorrow as I am planning on blogging through the weekend this time around.
Get An Email Alert Each Time BOTZZZ Posts