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A quick Pre weigh in update.

Thursday, March 18, 2010


Another week has passed and I have been sick all week again so no gym at all and the only exercise that I got was washing both mine and Wifys cars yesterday. Tomorrow I will weigh in with my "official" for the record books weigh in and I already know that I weigh less than last week but am unsure if its just because I am sick or if the drop will stay, I suppose we will find out. Again I am feeling that I need to adjust some things because with no exercise and nothing but calorie management I am down a pretty good amount from last weeks weigh in.

Today will be the day that I dust off the bike, pump the wheels up nice and hard and take it out for a ride around the lake for the first time this year. Sick or no sick I cannot pass up a 67 degree day when it comes to my bike, I haven't ridden in in a good long while and its time folks so out she goes a little later. I have to admit that I am going a bit stir crazy from hanging around the house and missing the gym a lot! I was sick last week and then got better for about 2 days then it was back to sick as my daughter came home from school sick. Starting to feel a bit better as of yesterday so hopefully this will be gone before the weekend but man I tell ya I am going nuts because of the lack of movement, maybe my bike ride later will get me my fix.

Is it a new low weight day tomorrow? is it just a pound? only the scale knows for sure and I have a few things that I need to take care of today so that's all I got for today.

Keep on keepin on and all that.

As Ever
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BIGDAD1211 3/19/2010 12:14AM

    Feel better soon! I am looking for a good bike. Haven't rode one in ages! LOL
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DDOORN 3/18/2010 9:49PM

    Woo HOO to the bike!

Been fighting off the ENT crud also...I do okay during the day when up and at 'em...but at night I'm hacking away, dripping and feeling awful. Want to SHAKE this thing so BADLY!

Good luck in shaking YOUR bug too!

Don

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/18/2010 1:41PM

    Glad you are starting to feel better. Enjoy that bike ride.

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KAILIIA 3/18/2010 11:39AM

    Hope you are feeling better soon!

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MEGAMITENCHI 3/18/2010 10:39AM

    I always get so excited for your weight-ins, it's like a soap opera! lol. Have fun on your bike, I've been lucky to get out into the sun, and it's wonderful!!

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PSMITH3841 3/18/2010 10:37AM

    Sorry your feeling crummy... emoticonHope you feel better soon...You'll be fine on you weigh-in Friday.....'til tomorrow....enjoy your ride!

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HAPPYSOUL91 3/18/2010 10:12AM

    Having a relapse is not fun at all, been there and done that. Your idea about a bike ride sounds good, at least you can enjoy the good weather.



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TAZZAT2003 3/18/2010 9:50AM

    Sorry you have not been feeling well. I hope this bike ride and the sunshine is just what you need to re-energize. Enjoy!

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MADTOWNBUDDHA 3/18/2010 9:48AM

    As always...you are a real inspiration for me brother. Enjoy the weather and all the best for tomorrow's weigh-in. Thanks for sharing, Ryan

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SWEETZMIX 3/18/2010 9:38AM

    Have fun! Yesterday was also nice. Surprised you didn't sneak out for a walk, but you did wash 2 cars. AHHH and tomorrow shall be 70 and so will Saturday. I will be at Pelham Bay Park on Saturday wasting my day away, walking around. I will admit, I am tired of being indoors period b/c of the weather. The gym is cool, but I need some fresh air. Take care and good luck!

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CLANG18 3/18/2010 9:27AM

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CKENTFIELD 3/18/2010 9:24AM

    Spring colds SUCK!!! Who wants to be in when you can be OUT!!! Sorry to hear you are not feeling well. Enjoy your bike ride just try not to over tax yourself and set yourself back (yes that is the mothering in me).

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DCROCKETS 3/18/2010 9:17AM

    Sorry you haven't been well lately. You have been doing right by getting your rest so your body can heal itself. Have fun on the bike. I'll be looking for your blog tomorrow.

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PUMPKINFACE73 3/18/2010 9:13AM

    Enjoy your ride...it is a gorgeous day :)

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Losing fat and gaining so much more.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I have been lately exploring body image a bit and am coming to the conclusion that I am not all that big any more, that is still hard to say for me and even writing that didn't seem correct to me. Seeing my reflection in the mirror and in the picture window in my living room keeps catching me off guard and I have to literally do a double take at what I am seeing. Wify insists that I look like "a big guy" now instead of "a fat guy" and again, I am having a hard time buying into the idea completely just yet even with my double takes. I know that I still have at the very least 40 pounds to lose and probably closer to 65 pounds before I am at what I would call an "Ultimately perfect weight" and I am still unable to completely get past the fact that I am down 220 pounds because I can still see that bigger me sometimes.



So...I pulled out some of my old clothes from when I was 500 plus pounds and the jean shorts that I grabbed felt foreign to me, like they were not my clothing yet I have clear memories of wearing these clothes, in fact the shorts that I pulled out are the same pair that I am wearing in my "the pic that started it all" picture from my side bar (seen here zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/ ). I held them up to my waist and I am betting that Me and Wify could both get into them now without too much fuss but at nearly 5 feet around at the waist that shouldn't surprise me right? It is really eye opening looking at those old clothes now that I am so much lighter and remember that there was a day that I fit into those clothes and the thought that I would need a larger size was a reality for me. I have a very large box of clothing ranging in sizes from 4xl to 6xl shirts and jeans from 46 to 58 that weighs at least 50 pounds just sitting there not to mention my suit jacket which if memory serves me right is a 72 long and I do believe that besides a shirt and a pair of pants to remember where I once was I need to get rid of the rest.

I am smaller now than when I met my wife and I in the last ten years have grown to my highest 534 pounds and have gone through clothing BUT saved it all because "I will lose the weight some day" and it has paid off because I really haven't had to buy much clothes until recently because I just made my way back through the sizes. A lot of the clothes that I have is brand new! some not so much but I think the time has come to either place an ad on craigslist, put some of it up on ebay or just straight up give it away or donate it because I have no use for it any more. I know that clothes in these sizes cost a lot so it could really help someone out to get some clothes at a deep discount and I WILL NOT need it again because I AM NOT going back up that size ladder ever again!

With all of that good there is still some negative because of the skin but alas that is another subject for another post but with the warmer weather coming around it IS on my mind a lot lately because one of my things is that I just want to be comfortable in my own skin. Starting to actually see the results of the hard work that has been put in and what its created is a great reward to go with all of the other stuff that I am getting with the loss of the weight that held me back for so long and I can't wait to see the end result. With dedication and discipline we can change our lives, not only that but we change the lives of those around us by making better choices with our eating and exercise regimen. Keep on keepin on and all that because for today, thats all I got.

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Me

  
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STUDYHAWK 3/18/2010 10:40AM

    BOTZZZ You're simply the best! I hope you feel better and get out to ride your bike. I'm gonna be like you when I grow up!! emoticon

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JBMT08 3/18/2010 9:15AM

    Hey, just give all the clothes away! you DO NOT NEED THEM ANYMORE!!!! You are THE INSPIRATION!!!

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BECKYISHERE 3/18/2010 8:05AM

    You have earned this! You really have worked hard to get where you are, thanks for inspiring us!

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AMBULATOR 3/17/2010 11:23PM

    Great post. Your accomplishments are inspiring. Keep up the good work.

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KAT7457 3/17/2010 9:55PM

    get rid of those old baggy clothes becuz the new you isnt going to need them anymore. keep up the good job. proud of all the hard work you are going thru. you go man, thanks for posting.

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TMCH1512 3/17/2010 9:38PM

    You rock.

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DDOORN 3/16/2010 10:49PM

    Yeah, have passed my clothes along via donations...sorry to think that someone else will need them, but I'm sure there are folks who will...!

I check with DW now and then to get a better reality check on my size: Do I look SMALLER or BIGGER than that fella over there...? Helps me to re-calibrate...! :-)

Don

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JLUVSHIKIN 3/16/2010 9:37PM

    I completely understand trying to get the brain to comprehend and see the smaller size. If it weren't for the pictures that I took at the beginning and the fact of my old clothes... I wouldn't see the difference!
Great job Botzzz. Keep up the hard work.

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BILLALEX70 3/16/2010 9:03PM

    Dude,

I pull my clothes out and hold them up and wonder who's they are, but the fit every time. It's amazing how much cheaper I can get clothes now that I can shop at the mall instead of Casual Male or King Sized.

Keep rockin!

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CALGALFOX 3/16/2010 6:36PM

    You know, your pictures (the more current ones) are of a man who is big, but certainly not fat. You are simply going to have to remake yourself in your head to see what the rest of us see.

I had a 10 pound baby, so I understand about the skin. Many a mom will tell you it's part of that journey. It just is. For you, it's part of an awesome journey that you are making. I agree with you, be comfortable in your skin, you've worked for it, you've earned it.

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DIFROMWYOMING 3/16/2010 6:12PM

    This is the first time EVER that I have given away ALL my clothes as I lost...I also had 3 or 4 'sizes' in the closets and drawers that I would go into and out of. I am now at a size I have not been in during the last 25+ years...so I have nothing left this size any longer. I have given all mine away to people who are also losing and needed something for the transition -- it was scary to do, but I will NOT go back up to those sizes again, so it's time to move on. I am looking forward to your skin blog...because I am having major issues with mine already. The only conclusion I've come to thus far is that I can figure out how to LIVE with the skin, but I would not have lived had the skin been filled up with fat, so I have to just accept that as part of my journey.

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MEGAMITENCHI 3/16/2010 4:11PM

    Thanks as always, for the positive message! I would keep one or two pieces of clothes, for days like today when you really can't believe where you've come from! I'm looking forward a bit, to the post you talk about the skin, as I'm curious what one does do about that.....
Either way, you know that you are emoticon

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PSMITH3841 3/16/2010 2:46PM

    Keep on Keepin On "Big Guy"...you're going to see that final result pretty soon! emoticon

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PUMPKINFACE73 3/16/2010 2:18PM

    This is my favoritest blog yet...I am loving that you are seeing what everyone else sees
:-)...made my day to read this :-)

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/16/2010 1:13PM

    I remember the first time that I lost the weight that I had a similar experience of stopping to wonder who that was in the mirror or window.

I enjoy seeing that now and I'm not going back up to those sizes either.



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SUNNY89 3/16/2010 12:45PM

    That is awesome.

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VEMAN1 3/16/2010 12:36PM

    Yes, what more can I say? You continue to strive, conquer and command your life. Your journey goes beyond words. Somewhere deep inside, you found yourself. And, the person you found is a really great guy. Keep blogging and motivating us all! When you hit your weight crawl back into those shorts for a picture.

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FRANNIEDID 3/16/2010 12:13PM

    You look awesome! Keep it up, I am feeling inspired!!!

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JO16LARO 3/16/2010 11:36AM

    I think a lot of us here have what we call the fat clothes and skinny clothes. I have held on to clothes that I haven't fit into in 7 years but expecting by the end of this year they will fit! emoticon

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FOXEYES2 3/16/2010 11:33AM

  Your story is so compelling and an encouragement to me. I have a total of around 150 pounds to lose and even though I have only lost 36 so far I get what you mean about not quite getting the change yet. I think it may take our brains awhile to catch up with our bodies. I guess it is a new identity that we are creating for ourselves and we have to shed the old image of who we use to be. Congrats on your progress so far and keep on blogging.

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RUNNER12COM 3/16/2010 11:32AM

    A lot of truth here, especially the part about the changes in our lives affecting those around us. It's a great reminder to me that making quality time for myself is not selfish, in fact, it's generous, because the better I am, the better I can be for others.

Best to you on your continued success,

SDJ

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CHRISTAN6 3/16/2010 11:32AM

    Wow ! Congratulations ! You sound like such a positive person and you have come a long way. Keep it up ! You definately motivate me !
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Fat jokes and a high school picture..

Monday, March 15, 2010


People sometimes don't know how the smallest insults can effect a person in a long term kind of way and I think that over weight people get the worse of that because its almost ok to point out to a fat guy that hes...fat. Joking with Wify last night I told her that I hate that "O" word and I said to her for me its the same as that "C" word to women, you know the one that rhymes with hunt. I don't mean the good "O" either I mean Obese, its such an insulting sounding word and I don't know why, perhaps its because I fit the bill at one point in my life and arguably still do. Now if you add that "M" word in front of it?? "Morbidly Obese" I mean C'mon that just sounds horrible! but I suppose the situation where the term can be used is terrible so maybe it fits? At 534 pounds I was and I hate saying admitting this Morbidly Obese, that is like the worse insult in the entire universe of insults for me.



Throughout my life as a fat guy I have heard it all, I have heard every creative and not so creative way to insult a fat guy that could be thought up, some people got a mouth full of padded knuckle for their time and others got away with it because it just wasn't worth the effort and honestly sometimes it just took everything out of me. The standard "Fat ass" and and pig sounds etc to more elaborate taunts such as "Hey you have a dickie do yes?", "a dickie do?" , "Yeah your belly sticks out more than your dickie do! Buhahahaha!" but one of the worse ones was a day that it was cold outside and someone said "Hey when you are not looking I am going to cut you open like a Tauntaun and sleep inside you to stay warm". Then there were times in middle school when I would come home upset from school and told my Dad that whoever had called me fat and I cried or something like that and he said "The next person that calls you fat punch him in the nose and it will stop" so I did and low and behold it was a couple years before someone called me fat again.



Its amazing how a fat kids confidence can be beaten down into nothing because of constant taunting about the extra weight and yet a 6 foot tall 250 pound 7th grader could likely dispatch any of the other kids in the class quite easily. On occasion enough was enough and kids were thrown into lockers for calling me fat, other kids teeth were introduced to chubby knuckles but it always came back, the fat jokes are always there. In my high school year book I was "voted" "Laziest" in class along with the heaviest girl in the class and it was obvious to me that whoever did this "voting" DID NOT know me and chose me for that wonderful title forevermore in the year book purely on my size because at that time in my life I was not lazy, I removed the last names and the face of the girl in that picture from my year book to protect the innocent. My father and me were working on a house that my parents were buying so after school it was straight to that house and we remodeled much of a six family house just the two of us, I worked on cars in my spare time and was weightlifting 6 days per week for the last three years of high school so where "lazy" came from? had to be because I was the fat kid, its always bothered me that the title was given to me in the year book because of the obvious reason that it was given.

I am sure that every disability has its own prejudices but I don't know of one that is more widely accepted as ok to openly taunt the unfortunate person that has said disability as being fat does. I suppose that its viewed as "ok" to do it because the person should be able to do something about the problem thus deserves the taunting on some level? but in reality every one of those negative responses to a situation that NO ONE is happy about being in just reinforces the sulking and turning to food for comfort trigger and someone that has never dealt with a weight issue cannot possibly understand it on the same level as the person on the receiving end of these kinds of jabs.

I have come a long way on this weight loss, better health campaign and I am who I am today partially because of all of those jokes at my expense as a kid, I wish that I could say I would trade my experiences for those of a regular sized person but I can't. I have the most incredible wife on the entire planet and two wonderful kids that I possibly would not have if I wasn't who I am, and I am the person that I am today because of everything that has happened in my life to this point. I find that in a lot of people that were or are fat is an awesome sense of humor that has originally developed as a defense mechanism and that is something completely positive coming out of some negative vibes.

I do have to admit that the Tauntaun joke made me laugh last night when I was talking to Wify about it but hey! I did say that I developed a good sense of humor right?

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 3/16/2010 1:35PM

    Wow, talk about sending me back to high school! I'm 37 and I still clearly remember the day in PE class when I was picked for a team by the sentence "I'll take "Refrigerator Perry"..." Fat jokes, are no joke! Thanks for sharing your story!

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SUNNY89 3/16/2010 12:41PM

    I was one of those girls who punched back. I didn't want to hear that junk about me either. Once in college I too felt that morbidly obeese was a dirty word. Like you said probably because it cut to close. I try to teach my kids tolerance though I know my son is not tolerate of others with differences. I try though. That is all any of us can do. Keep trying and never give up.

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JO16LARO 3/16/2010 11:40AM

    I didn't get the fat jokes in high school but have been treated like a 3rd class citizen from sales clerks, family , strangers for the last 7+ years over weight people are just treated differently. Keep the blogs coming, they are so inspirational.

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EMSMOMME 3/16/2010 6:16AM

    It was Miss Piggy here.. I'll never forget the sh**head, Todd who used to call me that in 6th grade AND snap my bra straps! LOL In college (when I actually wasn't that heavy just really tall 5'9.5") I can remember falling asleep in a friend's apartment after hearing one of our local bands. The band guys were staying there too and I woke up long enough to hear one of the guys, lead singer I think, say something about look at that beached whale. Life is super tough for over weight kids!
I does come from their peers BUT it also comes from the adults around them who look at them in dissain. :-( As a teacher I am just in shock that "laziest" was even allowed in the yearbook :-( Where were the adults in charge at the moment!?!? Ugh.. kids are cruel!

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G-MAMICK 3/15/2010 10:54PM

    I have a granddaughter who has struggled with her weight her entire life, and oh how she has suffered. Thank God she's graduated from high school now, and making her own way in the world, going to college, and doesn't have to endure those jibes. But she is wounded, no doubt about it, from all those years of being the fat kid with glasses who everyone made fun of. I remember when she first realized she was "chubby" at about age 6, and how she cried herself to sleep that night. Prejudice against overweight people is still so overwhelming. I would love to introduce my granddaughter to this site, but she is so super-sensitive that I'm afraid she would be hurt if I suggested she try. And I think it has to be in her own time. Thank you for sharing your story. I can feel the injustice you felt for being labelled "lazy", when you were anything but. Hopefully here you have found acceptance, and encouragement, and understanding.

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DIFROMWYOMING 3/15/2010 9:45PM

    Your honest sharing here certainly struck a chord in many...and me too. I well remember all those jokes at my expense...the most distinctive memory being the "Hey...Hey...Hey..." (Fat Albert) as I walked down the hallways. I hated Bill Cosby forever because of that. It was never funny...it was never encouraging...it was just plain old mean and hurtful. Period.

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JCORYCMA 3/15/2010 8:48PM

    My sister who also happens to be on sparkpeople - and doing fantastic I might add - put it so succinctly when she said "fat is NOT a personality disorder!" We are who we are, as you said, because of our backgrounds. That can be good or bad. I looked at losing weight as a new opportunity to be sort of re-born. It's wonderful that you have a supportive wife and family. I can sense from your blogs how much you treasure them!
Joanne

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DDOORN 3/15/2010 8:46PM

    Yeah, have certainly been there, done THAT...!

How incredibly CRUEL children can be...it never ceases to boggle my mind!

Not only was I obese, but near-sighted, crossed eyes...always deemed to be a dumb schmuck by so many...!

Don

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TANSHAN1 3/15/2010 3:20PM

    As I was also the brunt of much teasing and many jokes, I understand where you are coming from. I became the "smart one" and the "funny one" to make up for being the "fat one"..I have FINALLY decided the only person I need to impress is me. I LIKE me a lot so the heck with all the rest of 'em!

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DEREKCSIMMONS 3/15/2010 2:19PM

    The teasing always says more about the speaker than the target. Regardless, sounds like your priorities are in place and everything turned out great in the end. Just like it's supposed too.

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MEGAMITENCHI 3/15/2010 2:13PM

    Woah, that tauntaun joke was harsh! My biggest problem time was in middle school coz by the end of 6th grade I was a C cup :P Plus, I had a bully who to this day probably doesn't know how much he screwed me up.
In the long run though, I bet you are a way more amazing person than all the people who were mean to you when you were younger ^_^

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PSMITH3841 3/15/2010 1:21PM

    Thanks for sharing that emotional story....you should have started punching noses sooner! It just proves that what doesn't kill you just makes you stronger!

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MCOGHLAN 3/15/2010 12:57PM

    I think the obese word always kills me because as long as I only used the fat word I could pretend that I was only a little overweight. Even at 250lbs when I hear obese or morbidly obese I don't think it could possibly pertain to me. I guess for me it was denial, the clinical way that obese sounds just reminded me how unhealthy the life was that I was leading.

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 3/15/2010 12:45PM

    Super Obese is a new term used by some individuals in the medical community. That term hits me pretty hard.

Speaking of fat jokes, several years ago, my 400+ friend and I were walking in a mall when two guys came up to us and said, "Hey, Jenny Craig has a warrant out for your arrest." I wanted to spit on them. But if I had done that, I could have been arrested. Apparently, you can't throw so much as a feather at anyone now without ending up on Yahoo! News' latest stupid a** arrest reports.

So, what do we do? The best way to get back at someone is to prove them wrong.

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LINDAKAY228 3/15/2010 12:28PM

    Having fought with my weight all my life, and going through all the harrassment that goes with it, I can totally relate to everything you said. It really is sad, and it hurts me to see kids or adults who are going through it. I'm still overweight, but have made a lot of progress and sounds like you are too. Not to mention job descrimination because of weight!

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JUSTAGURL2335 3/15/2010 12:21PM

    This brought back a few not-so-good memories for me. I was teased occasionally in high school for being "fat"...the insane part is, I was all of 150 pounds which is within the normal range for a 5'6" girl. AND most of the teasing came from one very chunky boy. I still don't get it....maybe I'll ask him at our 20 year reunion this year LOL.
I heard my OB refer to be as obese when scheduling an ultrasound for me too...I never thought of myself that way. IT was like a punch in the face at the time.


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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/15/2010 12:11PM

    You are right about the O word. I can handle fat, but that one just irritates me.

One of the worst fat days for me was in Jr High. I can't remember the year, but we had a race where we had to pair up and piggyback each other the length of the gym. There was only one other guy who could carry me and it was everything that I could to carry him.

That was a rough one.



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MSNICHOLS39 3/15/2010 11:51AM

    I'm sorry you were so tormented in school. I was too, but not to the extent you were. You are very brave to blog about it.
Andrea

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HAPPYSOUL91 3/15/2010 11:42AM

    I am torn about this...fat vs obese, maybe it hurts because we are a visual society and all the people see is our weight and judge us.



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CINCYDORA 3/15/2010 11:33AM

    Funny, I've always found the term 'obese' to be less offensive because it's always seemed more clinical to me whereas 'fat' is the term used in school taunts and is therefor harder to hear.

I'm sure we all have stories of being called fat that stick with us. I'll never forget being on a marine bio trip in high school and hearing the guys talking in their restroom about seeing a barracuda as big as my thigh. Truth be told, I had the 2nd largest set of thighs in the group but the girl with the largest was a sweetie and I was a pill so they naturally set their sites on me. Took me a LONG time to realize that some of the comments had more to do with how I acted than how I looked.

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TAMMSY 3/15/2010 11:30AM

    Oddly enough, I was one of those that made fun of "fat people". Growing up I was thin and healthy and anyone that was different I would scoff at. Of course I regret it now, and have dealt with the guilt of it for years and can now see the irony seeing how I've gone from around 140 lbs at 19 to 260lbs at 34.

I wish I'd known then what I know now. I would have seen that the joke is on people like me (how I was at the time, at least).

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TINYC887 3/15/2010 11:14AM

    I think you hit it on the head. I was always teased and I was over weight but not badly as I was in later years. I developed a sense of humor because of it too. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger!!!!!!!!!!

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Cajun Salmon and some random thoughts for day 802.

Saturday, March 13, 2010


This weekend is not exactly turning out how I wanted it to, I was suppose to go out on a date with Wify Friday night and because of a situation outside of my control it didn't happen, not that it would have been too much fun because I have a new cold yay! My daughter came home from school with a head cold and I got it! I couldn't taste anything at all almost all day yesterday so a dinner date for Sushi probably wouldn't have been all that satisfying anyhow. I am feeling better than yesterday right now so hopefully this doesn't hang around too long but I am staying well within my calorie range I am not getting much cardio in because of the stuffy head. on the other hand. I came in way low on calories for yesterday because I had saved up for the date but I wasn't very hungry anyways so no big loss really.

I did play with dinner tonight and yes I know that I am not suppose to play with my food but I wanted to change my sides up a bit so I made a seasoned rice and topped it with some sauteed zucchini and yellow onion to have with the Salmon fillets that I made. I seasoned the Salmon with a very light shake of a Cajun spice that I picked up a while back and let me tell you I will be making this whole dish just as is again because it was very good. Making meals that taste as good as stuff that I would get in a restaurant really makes me feel like I am cheating at this whole weight loss thang, seriously. I eat better now than I ever have and the food taste so much better than the over seasoned crap that I use to eat when I was 500 plus pounds its unbelievable that I ever liked that other processed stuff. I snapped a picture of my plate before digging in and of course got the standard "Dada how come you like to take pictures of your food?" from my daughter she will some day read my blog and see why I took all of those photos and will be able to read all about how her Pops took his life back. This entire plate which consisted of 3/4 cup of the rice, 3/4 cup of the zucchini and onions and 7oz of the Salmon only cost me 480 calories and of course I had a nice big glass of green tea with it.


Cajun Salmon and sauteed zucchini with rice, 480 calories for the entire plate.

Rollin with this in lieu of being sick all week because I have to, This year will be the year that I hit my fitness goals and get down to that once seemingly unattainable 275 pounds and below I will go. I use to wonder if I was going to be able to get where I wanted to with my weight loss, I use to look at that goal number and think "Man that's a $hit ton of weight to drop, is it even possible?" and these days I have completely changed the way that I see that goal, I am going to make that goal and even surpass it. Throughout my life I tried to lose weight and did lose some here and there but in all honesty looking back at it I was half ass-ing 90% of those attempts and all I needed to do was put 100% into it and look at what can happen. I am that pain in the ass who carries his scale around, I am that guy that when I head over you say "I am making chicken and corn on the cob does that work for you? should I make yours a different way?" and I don't care that I am that fellow, its what I need to get where I am going.

Saying that I am that pain in the ass with the scale is not always the case though either, I do have a beer with the neighbor from time to time, I do eat pizza and I do go out to eat at restaurants because that's just life and its going to happen. I literally just watch portion control and make sure that what I am eating is cooked the way I need it to be in order to make my calorie balance and that's it for the food. I have said this before and I am going to say it again, I am not special and contrary to popular belief I do not have any super powers when it comes to eating or exercising. I am just a fat guy that had enough of watching life happen around him while his waistline grew uncontrollably, perhaps one day I will not see myself as a fat guy but I am not there just yet folks I suppose that chapter is waiting to be written.

You can do this just like I am and many others out there that took their life by the horns and decided to live. Thanks for following along while I literally change my life and know that all of the support is more than appreciated.

That's all I got for tonight.

As Ever
Me

  
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JBMT08 3/15/2010 11:28AM

    Dinner looks awesome! I make a maple glazed salmon that makes me feel like I am cheating EVERY TIME!! LOVE salmon! I am so excited to be an onloooker on your journey and to be able to read about your revelations! You are awesome, and you have done things that people can only dream of on their journey! emoticon

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STACEYSTURGEN 3/15/2010 8:26AM

  My fav side dish (right now) is brown rice witha can of rotel mixed in. YUM

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/14/2010 10:33PM

    While I would have to swap out the veggie (not a big zucchini fan), that dinner looks fantastic.

Thanks for being that daily butt kicking that I need.

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PSMITH3841 3/14/2010 8:07PM

    Mr....you are special!!.... and there are a lot of us out here that will argue with you on that comment...you have motivated more of us out here than you realize...that in and of itself makes you very special....not to mention the healthy lifestyle you are achieving! Thank You. (by the way...the salmon looks yummy!)

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VEMAN1 3/14/2010 1:01PM

    The end of this winter season really has been tough for you. Keep trucking, your positive attitude with constant reminders of where you were and where you are going are truly inspiring.

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MOTIV8U 3/14/2010 12:54PM

    Great job! You have made a shift in your life, and thats a sign of someone whose weight loss is here to stay!

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BARBARAROCKSIT 3/14/2010 11:29AM

    The salmon and veggies/rice looks yummy!

I liked your blog too - I going to work on being the girl who gets asked the question "should I make yours another way?" - that's quite a compliment to your determination.

Hope you feel better soon!

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SUNNY89 3/14/2010 11:27AM

    Your salmon looks great. Thanks for the encouragement on living a real life. That is what is often the most scary about this long weight loss journey.

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HAPPYSOUL91 3/14/2010 10:06AM

    No, I think you are special. You decided to take charge of your health and are doing a great job. Determination and drive makes you in the 10% of winners.

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TELERIE 3/14/2010 4:54AM

    You are so right, you'll hit that goal and surpass it, because you just keep on keeping on. That dish looks really yummy! I made salmon tartar the other day of sushi quality salmon, spring onion and a dollop of light creme fraiche - I'll make it again, it was really yummy. It's so true I also eat a lot better (and more) than I used to when I had all that processed crap!


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JCORYCMA 3/13/2010 10:00PM

    People always ask me how I lost my weight too, as if I'm something special. I wasn't special when I ate it on, I'm not special now. I used to tell them I was sorry to disappoint them but I did it with diet and exercise. Now I just plug SP!
Joanne

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 3/13/2010 9:41PM

    YUM!!!! Looks delicious!

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MEGAMITENCHI 3/13/2010 9:04PM

    Be strong, the cold will pass!!

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Friday, March 12, 2010


As expected I am up in weight this morning so no new what I have lost images but I am not really worried about it because as long as I am doing what I need to do I will get where I need to. Other than the weekend I did great this week with work outs and my intake BUT I did wake up this morning with a stuffy head and my sinuses are all wonky so perhaps one of the greatest parts about having children strikes again and being sick is screwing me up on the scale. These weeks happen on this road to a healthier body so I won't worry too much about it and the plan is lots of fluid today to try and kick this head cold before it can get a good foot hold and I will be skipping the gym today as well because I cannot breathe through my nose currently. I am up by almost two pounds this week 1.8 to be exact I came in at 316.4 pounds which means that my April goal is looking more and more like its not going to become a reality, I have no doubt that I will get below 300 pounds in the month of April just not by the 2nd.



I am in fact starting to think that I will need to adjust my calories a bit and I mentioned to my wife that I am kind of scared to do it, my exact words were "I know how to do 1700 calories, I know how to bust ass working out and I know how to drink enough fluid to support that, what I don't know how to do yet is adjust things upwards" which is what I believe I need to do with my calories. Throughout this whole process I have eaten a target of 1700 calories per day and I can pretty much get those in without thinking about it these days but when I start going over I get all backwards and start panicking that I ate too much. I started out a 534 pound guy eating 1500 calories doing minimal exercise 15-20 minutes on a bike and adjusted up to 1700 calories very early in the game and have stayed there pretty much the entire time with the intake and here I am now a 315 pound guy doing almost an hour of cardio per day at a minimum of 5 days per week along with weight lifting 3-4 days per week and still at that same 1700 calories.

At 500 pounds I was likely burning more calories just by living than I am at this weight but I am more active now, I am very likely burning more these days because of all of the extra activity and I think an adjustment may be needed. But but but! I lost 4 pounds 2 weeks ago! and last week was 4 pounds with no trip to the gym at all! and now this week I am up?? ahhh but you were sick last week and now sick again today my good man! see why I am unsure?! My doctor says that I am doing everything right and that I should stick to my 1700-1800 calories and keep up the exercise and I feel the same way on most days but then when I get an up week like this and I start over analyzing everything and forget my K.I.S.S attitude like I mentioned in yesterdays post but but but.... Its easy to say that as long as I keep advancing in my fitness goals that I should stay with this but the fact remains that I am still teetering between a 2xl and 3xl shirt size and neither one of those is small! granted I am probably in a 2xl and just need to get use to shirts fitting me correctly but still I am not small by any means of the word and I do have a good amount of weight left to lose.

Making good choices with my food and getting some movement into every day has gotten me where I am today so its hard to change the program up. Might I be over thinking this because of a random up? very likely and when I kick this new head cold Thanks kiddos! things may very well go back to normal and the pounds will drop again. That's that and today's episode of Fatman and Blobbin has ended with a slight up, a new cold and the end of another week, I am now 16 pounds from my April goal and than means 5.3 pounds per week will need to get kicked to make that goal. Crazier things have happened and I can still get there, can't I? I suppose thats to be found out BUT I can tell you this, if I go at it with a defeated attitude I won't get anywhere close and if I go at this thinking that I can do it I may just have a chance, there see thats better right?

Thanks for following along and that's all I got for today.

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GLORYTOGLORY 3/13/2010 7:30AM

  hey I fell off the wagon and let it run me over a bit. But I am back and you know your right the differance is attitude! I changed me attitude and now I feel like I will get the results ?I was previously getting. As always your honesty and positve drive foward inspire me on! Your progress rocks not just on the scale but, how I have seen your mind change Blessings on your familys weekend time!

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BARBARAROCKSIT 3/13/2010 4:30AM

    You're doing great!

Whichever you decide to do, add calories for a week or two then going back down to what you know works, or switching up the exercise, or both, or just riding it out until you feel better - will be the right decision for YOU.

So hang in there and hope you feel better soon!

Thanks for sharing your story.

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JCORYCMA 3/12/2010 10:32PM

    Sorry to hear that you are sick. Your metabolism slows down when you're fighting off a cold. Keeping up the liquids is important but I don't think that will be a problem with you! I know some people still work out when they don't feel good, but I think we benefit from the rest. Take care!
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VANB01 3/12/2010 7:37PM

    It is always a little intimidating to switch up from what we're comfortable with- change is not easy, but life is a journey and the absence of change is stagnation, which really is death...I know that you will figure this out and continue on your healthy life journey

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TCLARK218 3/12/2010 4:04PM

    I think you have the right idea about changing up your calories a bit. I have read from several reputable health/ fitness resources that allowing your calories to fluctuate by a few hundred here and there throughout the week is actually better for boosting your metabolism. If you get stuck getting exactly the same calories ever day...they say that it can actually stall your progress. Fluctuating your calories keeps your metabolism revved up and burning fat....so don't worry...let your intake go up a bit, just keep it in check and you'll see that goal of yours in no time!! Hope this helps. emoticon

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VEMAN1 3/12/2010 3:15PM

    Perhaps your scale needs new batteries? Stranger things have happen. Bummer on the no movement. I think next week will be a monster move for you. Your body is definitely adapting to your new lifestyle. Is your mind ready to accept it? You definitely have the right attitude and focus. Try to relax and imagine the pounds melting off with every breathe you let.

Have a good weekend. If anybody deserves one, certainly you do.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/12/2010 2:42PM

    Give it a bit. That one not-so-good day last weekend didn't destroy your week. Season change and sickness can play havoc with our results.

You are a lean mean weight losing machine. Just stay with what you are doing and you are going to be fine, my friend.

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DIASTER 3/12/2010 1:06PM

  IT IS ALMOST SPRING, MAYBE A CHANGE IN YOUR WORKOUT WILL KICK START THE WEIGHT LOSS AGAIN. sUCH AS RIDING YOUR BIKE OUTSIDE, SWIMMING, PLAYING BASEBALL OR BASKETBALL JUST FOR A CHANGE. yOU HAVE DONE SUCH AN AWSOME JOB THUS FAR, BUT MAYBE JUST A SMALL CHANGE WOULD HELP? ANY THERAPISTS AT THE GYM THAT YOU COULD ASK FOR SUGGESTIONS?
YOUR HELPFUL HINTS HAVE HELPED SO MANY OF US TO KEEP GOING, WE DO THANK YOU.

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SWEETZMIX 3/12/2010 12:58PM

    Well I know you want the 2nd. I know how it feels to just have a goal that you want to stick with! BUT I do know the date is not as important as getting there. Keep on keeping it simple and you will kick some ass. I think another 4 pound loss is in your future once you feel better. Stay dry this weekend!

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 3/12/2010 12:11PM

    Hope you feel better soon! And yes, it's tough seeing a gain, but between the scope of everything you've done, 1.8 is really nothing but air! lol

So relax! You're doing great. Besides, you may very well be down 5 pounds next week and then you're gonna laugh about this. Stay strong.

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TSWARTHOUT 3/12/2010 11:00AM

    I hope you feel better real soon and the best thing to do is to give your body the break to reheal. I wouldn't change anything yet either. What you have been doing has been so far. I would wait a little longer before switching things up:)

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BURKEBRIZ 3/12/2010 10:58AM

    I have been having the same issues. Calories in vs. Calories out and what should it be and how can I get the scale to move. I THINK I am doing it all right, but the scale isn't wanting to budge!

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PSMITH3841 3/12/2010 10:37AM

    You are so doing all the right things....listen to your Doc...do what you and he/she think is best....get the 2xl and get used to it! You probably look great and don't know it! Have a great weekend..take care of that cold! emoticon

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PUMPKINFACE73 3/12/2010 10:34AM

    Must be something in the air around here, I am sick too...fever, sore throat, headache and all stuffy...this sucks!

You are the king of getting done whatever you put your mind to...best of luck on your goal by the 2nd





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MEGAMITENCHI 3/12/2010 10:28AM

    Awww, nooooo, you can't be getting sick!!! No surprise that the scale wasn't being nice then :P But you have the right attitude, and that's what really matters!! Keep it up and I'm sure next week will be awesome!!!!!!!

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TINYC887 3/12/2010 10:14AM

    i hear ya buddy, i burn about 900 a day at the gym and eat about 1300-1400 and am no longer losing, gets frustrating, but hang in there, we will do it

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JBMT08 3/12/2010 10:13AM

    I am glad that you have a very healthy attitude about this goal that you have in place. You will get there, just not by the second of April....I still feel you have time, but if you get to say April 15th and are below 300, you will still be super excited and happy and would love to see the images that you can compare to what you weight now, as well as what weight you have lost. We are all here rooting for ya!!! Feel better soon!
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CINCYDORA 3/12/2010 10:12AM

    I don't think you need to adjust your intake or exercise but perhaps you should adjust your expectations. If you continue to lose and average of 2-3 pounds a week and don't see any increases or plateaus for more than 3 weeks in a row, you are probably doing everything fine. The closer you get to your goal weight, the slower the weight loss will be.

If you are REALLY concerned, I suggest going the scientific route, getting a heart rate monitor to accurately assess your calories burned, and look into some sort of fat% measure. I've heard those on household scales can be way off but you can probably find a caliper for a reasonable price on-line. I bought one some years ago but never used it consistently so I couldn't tell if I was doing a good job converting fat to muscle or not.

But honeslty, if KISS works for you, stick with it and just accept that your weekly loss is going to start averaging less and you'll see fluctuations whenever you change your exercise routine or deal with illness.

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HAPPYSOUL91 3/12/2010 10:08AM

    I do think that you are "over thinking this". This 1.8 gain within the whole picture of things is no big deal. I wouldn't change anything yet, just keep doing what you do and see how things go for another week.



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