Saturday, March 13, 2010
This weekend is not exactly turning out how I wanted it to, I was suppose to go out on a date with Wify Friday night and because of a situation outside of my control it didn't happen, not that it would have been too much fun because I have a new cold yay! My daughter came home from school with a head cold and I got it! I couldn't taste anything at all almost all day yesterday so a dinner date for Sushi probably wouldn't have been all that satisfying anyhow. I am feeling better than yesterday right now so hopefully this doesn't hang around too long but I am staying well within my calorie range I am not getting much cardio in because of the stuffy head. on the other hand. I came in way low on calories for yesterday because I had saved up for the date but I wasn't very hungry anyways so no big loss really.
I did play with dinner tonight and yes I know that I am not suppose to play with my food but I wanted to change my sides up a bit so I made a seasoned rice and topped it with some sauteed zucchini and yellow onion to have with the Salmon fillets that I made. I seasoned the Salmon with a very light shake of a Cajun spice that I picked up a while back and let me tell you I will be making this whole dish just as is again because it was very good. Making meals that taste as good as stuff that I would get in a restaurant really makes me feel like I am cheating at this whole weight loss thang, seriously. I eat better now than I ever have and the food taste so much better than the over seasoned crap that I use to eat when I was 500 plus pounds its unbelievable that I ever liked that other processed stuff. I snapped a picture of my plate before digging in and of course got the standard "Dada how come you like to take pictures of your food?" from my daughter she will some day read my blog and see why I took all of those photos and will be able to read all about how her Pops took his life back. This entire plate which consisted of 3/4 cup of the rice, 3/4 cup of the zucchini and onions and 7oz of the Salmon only cost me 480 calories and of course I had a nice big glass of green tea with it.
Cajun Salmon and sauteed zucchini with rice, 480 calories for the entire plate.
Rollin with this in lieu of being sick all week because I have to, This year will be the year that I hit my fitness goals and get down to that once seemingly unattainable 275 pounds and below I will go. I use to wonder if I was going to be able to get where I wanted to with my weight loss, I use to look at that goal number and think "Man that's a $hit ton of weight to drop, is it even possible?" and these days I have completely changed the way that I see that goal, I am going to make that goal and even surpass it. Throughout my life I tried to lose weight and did lose some here and there but in all honesty looking back at it I was half ass-ing 90% of those attempts and all I needed to do was put 100% into it and look at what can happen. I am that pain in the ass who carries his scale around, I am that guy that when I head over you say "I am making chicken and corn on the cob does that work for you? should I make yours a different way?" and I don't care that I am that fellow, its what I need to get where I am going.
Saying that I am that pain in the ass with the scale is not always the case though either, I do have a beer with the neighbor from time to time, I do eat pizza and I do go out to eat at restaurants because that's just life and its going to happen. I literally just watch portion control and make sure that what I am eating is cooked the way I need it to be in order to make my calorie balance and that's it for the food. I have said this before and I am going to say it again, I am not special and contrary to popular belief I do not have any super powers when it comes to eating or exercising. I am just a fat guy that had enough of watching life happen around him while his waistline grew uncontrollably, perhaps one day I will not see myself as a fat guy but I am not there just yet folks I suppose that chapter is waiting to be written.
You can do this just like I am and many others out there that took their life by the horns and decided to live. Thanks for following along while I literally change my life and know that all of the support is more than appreciated.
That's all I got for tonight.
Friday, March 12, 2010
As expected I am up in weight this morning so no new what I have lost images but I am not really worried about it because as long as I am doing what I need to do I will get where I need to. Other than the weekend I did great this week with work outs and my intake BUT I did wake up this morning with a stuffy head and my sinuses are all wonky so perhaps one of the greatest parts about having children strikes again and being sick is screwing me up on the scale. These weeks happen on this road to a healthier body so I won't worry too much about it and the plan is lots of fluid today to try and kick this head cold before it can get a good foot hold and I will be skipping the gym today as well because I cannot breathe through my nose currently. I am up by almost two pounds this week 1.8 to be exact I came in at 316.4 pounds which means that my April goal is looking more and more like its not going to become a reality, I have no doubt that I will get below 300 pounds in the month of April just not by the 2nd.
I am in fact starting to think that I will need to adjust my calories a bit and I mentioned to my wife that I am kind of scared to do it, my exact words were "I know how to do 1700 calories, I know how to bust ass working out and I know how to drink enough fluid to support that, what I don't know how to do yet is adjust things upwards" which is what I believe I need to do with my calories. Throughout this whole process I have eaten a target of 1700 calories per day and I can pretty much get those in without thinking about it these days but when I start going over I get all backwards and start panicking that I ate too much. I started out a 534 pound guy eating 1500 calories doing minimal exercise 15-20 minutes on a bike and adjusted up to 1700 calories very early in the game and have stayed there pretty much the entire time with the intake and here I am now a 315 pound guy doing almost an hour of cardio per day at a minimum of 5 days per week along with weight lifting 3-4 days per week and still at that same 1700 calories.
At 500 pounds I was likely burning more calories just by living than I am at this weight but I am more active now, I am very likely burning more these days because of all of the extra activity and I think an adjustment may be needed. But but but! I lost 4 pounds 2 weeks ago! and last week was 4 pounds with no trip to the gym at all! and now this week I am up?? ahhh but you were sick last week and now sick again today my good man! see why I am unsure?! My doctor says that I am doing everything right and that I should stick to my 1700-1800 calories and keep up the exercise and I feel the same way on most days but then when I get an up week like this and I start over analyzing everything and forget my K.I.S.S attitude like I mentioned in yesterdays post but but but.... Its easy to say that as long as I keep advancing in my fitness goals that I should stay with this but the fact remains that I am still teetering between a 2xl and 3xl shirt size and neither one of those is small! granted I am probably in a 2xl and just need to get use to shirts fitting me correctly but still I am not small by any means of the word and I do have a good amount of weight left to lose.
Making good choices with my food and getting some movement into every day has gotten me where I am today so its hard to change the program up. Might I be over thinking this because of a random up? very likely and when I kick this new head cold Thanks kiddos! things may very well go back to normal and the pounds will drop again. That's that and today's episode of Fatman and Blobbin has ended with a slight up, a new cold and the end of another week, I am now 16 pounds from my April goal and than means 5.3 pounds per week will need to get kicked to make that goal. Crazier things have happened and I can still get there, can't I? I suppose thats to be found out BUT I can tell you this, if I go at it with a defeated attitude I won't get anywhere close and if I go at this thinking that I can do it I may just have a chance, there see thats better right?
Thanks for following along and that's all I got for today.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Watching the scale can drive me insane at times because I just don't understand what the hell is going on inside my body going off of the weights from day to day. Because of the bad food weekend that I had last week I have been on the scale every day just to watch the fluctuation and its been steadily going down since Monday and I was hoping to get back to that 315 pound mark by tomorrow and have been doing everything right as far as following my plan. Yesterday morning I weighed 316.2 pounds and that was the lowest point all week and for a Wednesday was a good weight and I thought that I should get below 315 by tomorrow with a 316 mid week, its how it usually works out but then this morning I get on and the scale said 318.4 pounds. Yes I know that fluctuation is fluctuation but I ate 1800 calories on the nose yesterday, went to the gym and got in 45 minutes of cardio half of it was bike riding at a good pace with the treadmill being a mild walk @3.2 mph 3.5% grade but how can that equate to an up?
This is not a race to get to a certain weight so I am not worried about it but man! I am going to chalk this one up to the health gods standing in the corner of the room looking at me with a shrug and a look on their faces like "ya shouldda passed on that grinder last weekend bub" but then again I may be premature with my conclusion and I will be lighter that I think tomorrow morning. Something else that I am thinking more about is the fact that my workouts at the gym have been pretty for lack of a better word intense and maybe I should be eating more on the days that I workout which is every day because I am working out harder now than I have during this whole process. An average of an hour of cardio per day along with weight lifting at least 3 days per week is what I do lately and that doesn't seem like too much to me at all and I feel that I could do more but don't because I run out of time but once upon a time 15 minutes on a stationary bike 4 times per week was doing the trick. I don't want to start over thinking things at this point so I won't, eat less move more has always been how I roll and I am down 219 pounds doing so and I am going to stay with that plan but its weeks like this one that I gotta wonder.
My plan from the beginning has always been to eat what I want to as long as I stay within a calorie range, drink lots of H2O and green tea while exercising daily or K.I.S.S Keep it simple stupid, and this is still the plan to a point. I try now to eat as many whole foods as I can without obsessing over it and the exercise has been kicked up a bit because I am less limited now by my weight and I still drink like a fish but basically I am doing the same thing that I was in the start of this. My goal is to get down to a healthy weight and live a long happy life and so far so good on the plan so getting hung up on an erratic week where the raw weight is concerned isn't gonna happen, and who knows, I may actually get a new low weight this week after all. I know that there is no way I could have gained 2 pounds from yesterday to today so maybe I am retaining something somewhere but again I am not going to over think it, wait am I over thinking it? I keep going back to that so um yeah I just gotta remember keep it simple stupid and let it go.
Whatever that scale tells me in the morning is what it is and that's all that it is which is the next week in a row of weeks that have lead me to this point in the process, wow say that 5 times fast. I am looking at 22 more days until my line in the sand will be stepped over and we see if I made that 300 pound mark by April 2nd and the closer it gets the more I think I will be close but no cigar on that number, to be found out still I suppose. Weight loss sure is a fickle bitch and sometimes it does what it likes no matter what we do to beat it into submission and then there are other times that it just falls off like dead leaves on an autumn tree but time and willpower proves the strongest beast in that fight so that's where my money is going.
Tomorrow we weigh in and that weight gets recorded, will it be a loss? perhaps a gain? maybe break even? oh my! you will have to check in with tomorrows post to find out where the next chapter of as the fat guy turns heads.
Until then make the best choices that you can, you owe it to yourself.
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