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Weight right there young fella! its weigh in day.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Back to the regularly scheduled weigh in posts for Friday, This morning I am sore, I am tired and I am guaranteeing a new low weight for next Friday. Lets start with what the scale had to say to me this morning, per usual I wake up and walk to the scale after the bathroom of course and I step on and the number that I saw was not what I wanted but was what I expected. After the scale looked at me with that "ummmpphhhh" look on its face she whispered the number 324.4 to me, she rolled her eyes in disappointment as I stepped off preparing for the second take. She had the same thing to say to me three times in a row and as I walked away from her she sighed in dissatisfaction knowing that I have not crossed that 320 mark yet. I make no excuses for the number on the scale it is what it is and I seem to be falling into that "I'm comfortable" place again with my weight because since just before the Dr Oz show I have been doing what I need to for the most part but not perfect.

I said that I am guaranteeing a new low weight next Friday and I mean that, I will have a new low weight in seven days and that's just going to have to be. There are no distractions in my near future that could give me an excuse to eat poorly or miss going to the gym, "did he just say that he had an excuse?" not exactly. I don't make excuses for not losing weight or not meeting a fitness goal but I do have to say it out loud in order to process it in my head, I didn't lose anything this week (which is actually 2 weeks because I did not weigh in last week) and ultimately that's on me.

This week will be a hard one for me on the gym front, I am planning on going every day this week for no less than 60 minutes of cardio and lifting weights at least 4 days. Some of you may be thinking "well that's just my normal week man no biggie" let me tell ya when you are three hundred some odd pounds 60 minutes of cardio kicks your ass! and actually I do 50-60 minutes of cardio daily as is but its usually only five days instead of seven. To make that April 2nd goal I need to lose exactly 4 pounds per week from today until then and though it sounds like a big number or as someone said in a comment that it is "aggressive" I have seen numbers like that before, and not only in the beginning. If ever there was a person that understands how to be aggressive towards weight loss I am that guy and this week I have something to prove to myself so we shall see where that wheel stops on Friday.

324 pounds is not an acceptable number for me at this point, I should be much closer to that 300 pound mark by now and I am letting myself get distracted and going easy on myself because I am nice and comfy at this weight. I am eating right most of the time, I am going to the gym almost daily but what I am not doing is pushing myself past my comfort level and this week we will see what happens when I do that. This week is done and it is what it is, Next week I have a feeling that I will be posting some images of things that weigh as much as I do and as much as I have lost while reporting a new low weight.

Another week bites the dust and I am closer to a goal that I set for myself not in poundage lost but in time this go around and that's not necessarily a good thing. I am going to try and post every day this week and include an exercise update for each day for your reading pleasure and with that the end has come to today's episode of as the fat guy turns.


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HOT4TYLER 2/22/2010 8:31AM

    We're all pulling for you. If any of us has the determination to do this, it's definitely you. You have showed us that in many ways!

Good luck my fellow sparker.


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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/20/2010 5:42PM

    It is very tough to keep focus. I run into this every single day.

We can do this. It is difficult, but we need to grab that goal and run to it.

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KRICKY 2/20/2010 9:27AM

    I think I'm in the same boat as you--I'm COMFORTABLE. This is the smallest I've ever been, and I'm looking good. But it's not good enough. I'm still considered "obese" on some charts because I'm so dern short.

I can't promise 4 pounds (you can totally rock that!) but I'm looking for 1.5--2 for next week. I've gotta get that drive and spark back!

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JO11YMON 2/20/2010 12:01AM

    Keep up the realistic point of view. We all hit bad days, or rough patches. Just remember that we are all hear to support you and on same days join you. You are never alone in the Spark world!

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DDOORN 2/19/2010 10:52PM

    You are sounding like a locomotive that's just revving itself up for some great stuff!

Woo HOO! :-)


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ZIRCADIA 2/19/2010 9:48PM

    I like that you're hard on yourself without being TOO hard on yourself. It's a good thing. Keep working at it!

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CHARLOTTE1947 2/19/2010 8:54PM

    We all start dragging our butts from time to time. Acknowledging it is important. Now, get going! (Me too!)

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JCORYCMA 2/19/2010 6:45PM

    When you start using phrases like "most of the time" and "almost" you know there is room to tighten up. If anybody can do it -- you can! Show us more of that Botzzz determination!

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LADYSNOWFALL 2/19/2010 6:35PM

    Sometimes we plateau a little bit as our bodies make adjustments. Then, BOOM! The weight just starts jumping off!

Perhaps this is what is happening with you?

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VEMAN1 2/19/2010 4:45PM

    Take a look at your intake and your outgo more closely. I had to increase my daily intake by 600 calories because I have been working out too hard. These two things caused my body to hit the starvation mode and store more glycogen in my muscles (and water). I am glad to hear you recommit yourself to your plan. We are all cheering for you!

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PUMPKINFACE73 2/19/2010 4:27PM

    Accountablility and are doing both. Maybe I will see you at the gym this weekend, tryig to get clearance to go, I miss getting my sweat on :(

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DIFROMWYOMING 2/19/2010 4:13PM

    You're not alone here. It doesn't make it right, but it sure makes us human. Trudge on!

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TINYC887 2/19/2010 4:00PM

    im strugglng right now too. I go to the gym 5 days a week, i'd go more but the dr and friends would flip as i really shouldnt be going as much because its thowing off the chemo. Good luck on hitting the mark next week, you can do it

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MEGAMITENCHI 2/19/2010 3:07PM

    I'm glad to know I'm not the only one struggling right now :P If you can do it, so I can!!! Maybe...? I've been much better about my food this week, but I need to be going to the gym with you ^_^

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MRSSASS2010 2/19/2010 2:54PM

    Sounds like you need a little fire lit under your @ss! I was feeling the same way last week. Kinda complacent. Doing good but not great. Not making a lot of progress. I know how you feel! You need to FOCUS this week and make yourself PROUD! You know you can do it! Look what you've done so far!


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MCOGHLAN 2/19/2010 2:23PM

    You're such an inspiration... I am totally with you this week. I'm going to do 7 straight days at the gym and pull a really big number by next Friday! Good luck on the week ahead!!

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PSMITH3841 2/19/2010 2:07PM

    You go buddy!!! you can do this.....not a doubt in my mind! emoticon

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ELLIPSER 2/19/2010 1:24PM

    I know you can do it! Awesome determination!

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JBMT08 2/19/2010 1:04PM

    DO IT BOTZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 2/19/2010 12:55PM

    Until next are simply amazing in all that you've accomplished thus far. You'll drop this next week...we all know you will! emoticon(just as long as I don't find YOUR 4lbs on MY scale...I'm thrilled.)

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SKYEFYR 2/19/2010 12:33PM

  New low weight next Friday! I'm with you. YOU WILL DO IT!

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CAROLYN1213 2/19/2010 12:28PM

    I have confidence in your determination and drive. You will be there.

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SWEETZMIX 2/19/2010 12:16PM

    Determination! That's what I like to hear.

Enjoy your weekend!

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DCROCKETS 2/19/2010 11:49AM

    I like your drive for this next week. I need to hop on that wagon with you. I have been easy on myself for almost 2 weeks now and have gotten no "good" results because of it. Let's both hit new lows next week. I'm with ya bro!

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/19/2010 11:43AM

    My scale must have been talking to your scale because I moaned when I got on it.

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When I said that I want to be Skinny this ain't what I meant!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I was standing in the bathroom getting ready to take a shower and I looked at the guy in the reflection and saw someone that I was not use to seeing. This guy had shape to his shoulders, his chest looked like a guys chest should look and there were very prominent collar bones all the way across, biceps that looked like biceps and I looked at him for a minute to make sure that I was seeing him right. popped into a muscle man pose and a flex later I was smiling but it didn't last long as I glanced down and the rest of what I saw was all flying squirrel in a hurricane. This looking at the wrapping paper around the package all started when The Dr Oz show that I was invited to attend aired and I saw myself sitting up there in the studio audience. I was not totally put off but I looked bigger than that guy in the mirror and it dawned on me that when I am sitting down I look bigger than I am. When I stand up everything seems to be in a better place than when I sit and it has somewhere to rest, I have a feeling that this little skin problem and myself are going to have a long bitter relationship.

Don't get me wrong, it is what it is and I will take this over being on the wrong side of 500 pounds any day of the week but man! I bust my ass and there is nothing that I can do about this problem. I am in the gym 5 days a week sometimes more, I eat right and clean most of the time I drink like a fish and get my sleep like I should and here I am not looking the part, frustrating much? I suppose that putting too much thought into something that I can't change would be counter productive but it's hard sometimes! especially when I catch a glimpse of myself with my shirt off and can see what I would look like sans the extra stuff. Looking on the bright side I guess that I could find a drum maker and get a couple of amazingly unique drums made from the skin when I am all done losing and its time to start thinking about removing it, but that's a totally different discussion.

Lifting weights will surely help me fill some of the deflated outer shell left behind by the older me, I know that it will take time but its the only productive thing that I can do to try and counter some of the damage. I have a couple options here, I can sit around looking at this in a way that will drive me insane trying to think of a way to fix something that can't be fixed, or I can just accept that this is a part of the process for me. I can say that I will just accept it until the moon falls out of the sky but the truth is that it bothers me and there is nothing I can do about that either but making it into something that I will waste time worrying about isn't the direction that I'm going to go in either so it seems I am at an impasse with this as far as the mental part goes. I figure I took about ten years wrecking my body and I am just over two years into the repair process and down more than two hundred pounds for my efforts and I have to understand that this isn't something that will fix itself over night and possibly never be fixed without a surgery.

I will take the glimpses of my hard work in the mirror whenever I am afforded one of them and will have to deal with the extra luggage I am carrying around. The fact that I can see some of my hard work is actually awesome because its been a long time since I was able to see anything that could be considered even close to definition but here I am three hundred some odd pounds and its there, even if only for brief moments in the mirror as I step into the shower. I know that part of this process is to get skinny but this isn't exactly what I had imagined when I thought that back about 2 years ago!

Such is life I suppose, I am healthier than ever and doing what I want to physically without any restrictions for the most part and THAT is the point of this whole process. Give me a year and I will have bulked up a bit and filled in some of this looseness with some mass, until then If anyone needs a new drum just shoot me a message and we can work out some pricing, That's all I got for today.


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VARMINT3 2/19/2010 2:31PM

    What you have done so far is really awesome! You look great, you're healthier than ever, and I'm sure that whatever you decide to do (or not) about the skin will be the best decision for YOU!

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 2/19/2010 12:51PM

    You've come a long way,Baby! Don't let the loose skin get in your way. Maybe,someday you can get it fixed but for now, use it as your reminder of what you don't want stretched out and filled in ever again!
You are fabulous-going to read today's weighin

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SKYEFYR 2/19/2010 12:41PM

  Just so you know, we all look better standing up. And no matter who you are, what you weigh, or what you look like, you will never be totally happy with everything about you. We all have that problem also.

You're doing amazing. And personally, I think you looked great on TV. You have a lot to be proud of!

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WANNABTHIN53 2/19/2010 12:29AM

    Very good blog. Thanks for sharing this.

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TUDI4480 2/18/2010 11:31PM

    You know, you could also think about the brave journey you have embarked on and choose to look at the stretchy marks and sagging skin as something more: Warrior Marks! emoticon

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DDOORN 2/18/2010 10:54PM

    Yeah, nailed many of MY thoughts about the skin here too...!

I am EVER so happy with the new me, but...

I spend all my solitary treadmill and strength training time at home shirtless in an effort to become more accepting of it and also to be able to see progress in shrinking/filling it out so that it isn't as pronounced.

You have the advantage of a number of years of youth on your side, which can help. My pigheaded delay in DOING anything about my weight until I turned FIFTY will cost me in this department.

I have an equal force thing going on: wanting to get rid of the skin vs. being godawful squeamish about getting sliced & diced!


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KAT7457 2/18/2010 10:20PM

    another great blog and great sence of humor. I missed the show darn it. emoticon emoticon

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JCORYCMA 2/18/2010 9:29PM

    Women have the advantage here, I agree with JINJERLY. We can stuff our loose stuff under Spanx and lift it with pretty Victoria's Secret flotation devices! If it's any consolation, I thought you looked terrific on Dr. Oz!

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KNH771 2/18/2010 3:54PM

    I hadn't thought about having my excess skin made into an instrument?! emoticon

I am going to have my extra skin removed at some point (at least the abdominal stuff) because it is causing some health problems, but it's not urgent yet. I do know exactly what you mean about the person hiding under it though... you know s/he's there, and it would be nice if you had a clear view.

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 2/18/2010 3:48PM

    I feel sorry for you men in this regard. We women can hide our wings with pretty, flowing fabrics. I am terrified of the winter debris I will discover once the snow is gone, but that will just have to be something else I will survive.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/18/2010 2:18PM

    There are always more bridges to cross. That is a particularly daunting bridge to cross. I occasionally hear the remnants of my belly flop up and down periodically and it does bug me a bit, but it isn't causing me any health problems so I am not going to do anything unnecessary.

Either way, you will make the right decision for you and your family, just like you did to start this journey.

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81RACHELLE 2/18/2010 1:48PM

  Gah! I know what you mean! I am down [only] about 50 pounds so far, and already I'm so annoyed at the weirdness of my skin, and it's failure to fit! It really is a motivation killer some days, to look in the mirror. I couldn't help but think "I totally looked better fat..." for a half a second. I shook that thought from my brain, and remembered that I already feel so much better, even with the saggy skin. I'm saving my junk food money to spend at the "repair shop" once I reach my goal. Haha! Thanks for sharing, I love your blog!

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PSMITH3841 2/18/2010 1:33PM

    You make me smile!!!! emoticonLove your humor...thanks....

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    You are doing amazing! Don't let a flying squirrel stop you. emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/18/2010 12:59PM

    LOL, love your sense of humor. I know what you mean about sitting down and spreading. Since I lost over 100 lbs. my skin isn't tight and so....I spread....sigh...still beats having those 100 lbs. back

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LADYSNOWFALL 2/18/2010 12:47PM

    LOL! I absolutely needed your humor this morning! Thank you!

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PLATSUZIE 2/18/2010 12:12PM

    Isn't there a laser procedure now that can firm and tighten skin without "cutting" surgery? I hear they can tighten the hanging arm skin women commonly have in the bicep area when the arms are held out parallel to the ground. I know that aesthetic/medical spas are running specials in this economy. Maybe you could be a “poster child” for them and get the treatments in return? (Maybe inquire about a discount for doing that for a plastic surgeon?)

The photo of your flying squirrel is cute…don’t know why everyone wouldn’t want one. It could be viewed as a trophy of your achievements and tenacity. But it’s what you think and feel that matters in the end.

Maybe take on a challenge to look yourself, in the eyes, everyday, in the mirror and say, out loud, something kind about yourself ie “You are one sexy hunk of a man”. In a year your subconscious might thank you for affording your inner-self some needed slack.

Not to diminish, in anyway, the hanging skin. I know that can be upsetting, after all the work done, not to look as toned as you are! Maybe the spa or surgeon? (Love yourself along the way though…okay?)

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MRS_LOOMIS 2/18/2010 12:09PM

    LOL---a sense of humnor is sure important in this journey!!! Drums indeed...rofl. (My daughter is a percussionist, so this idea makes me giggle.)

Way to go on seeing the positives along the way---and a little nip and tuck a couple of years down the road is perfectly acceptable!

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STACEYSTURGEN 2/18/2010 12:05PM

  I love the drum idea (might have a hard time finding a tanner who works with human skin) but the pathology dept probably will be happy to let you keep your skin. I'm kinda looking forward to getting skin trimmed and i'm just moving from 280 to 180(12 down 88 to go). Good luck and keep blog, they help me climb back on the wagon every time I fall off.


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SONGWRITER8 2/18/2010 11:23AM

    Awesome blog, keep up the healthy lifestyle! I am absolutely in awe of what you have accomplished so far!

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CANDICE_A 2/18/2010 11:20AM

    No bikinis in my future either but you're right - better healthy than rotund! My dad is 60 and he weighs about 400lbs, and while he doesn't have the health problems related to being obese, his hip and knees are in constant pain and pain relievers don't even touch it anymore. His situation has been motivation enough to keep me going to the gym. I plan to be more fit at 60 than I am now, at 37.

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DRAGONFLY_RUN 2/18/2010 11:10AM

    I love how you always see the silver lining. Keep up the awesome posts.

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CRIS76 2/18/2010 11:08AM

    I have to lose a total of 120 and I'm worried about this very issue. I've talked it over with a close friend and my husband... and honestly, should I succeed and should it be that I need to have skin removed (it could go either way with that amount of weight loss.... some do, some don't), then I'm going to do it.

The primary goal for me is to feel good about myself: physically, emotionally, and socially - and honestly, the byproduct is weight loss - but if I go on worrying about skin, it won't be very productive in establishing my much desired mental health. I don't want it to exist, I don't want it hanging, pulling down on me, .. it would be nothing but extra weight.. like carrying around a small child that you could otherwise sit down on the floor.

So - I think the decision, in the end, is purely up to you. I don't think its an easy decision. I don't think its one that should be made lightly.

But - on the bright side, the excess skin is a sign of your true success in building a better you.

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MEGAMITENCHI 2/18/2010 11:00AM

    lol, nice close about the drums. I was worried you were still sounding rather blue, like the other day, but I can see you cheering up ^_^ Focus on the next step, like you were saying, a year from now, whew, that seems a long way off! *I'm* excited to see where you'll be! Maybe I'll be somewhere good too???

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TINYC887 2/18/2010 10:56AM

    so far i dont have extra skin but then again i have lost it a lot slower then most ppl on here. at times i feel like a failure when im not losing when everyone else is. just wait and see what happens and then decide

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CAROLYN1213 2/18/2010 10:44AM

    I hear ya, honey. I've gained and lost so many times in my life, starting in my early twenties. So all my childhood elasticity is gone! Here I am 70lbs. lighter and already having saggy baggy issues and I still have more to lose. My poor legs will never be returned to their former glory and lets just say a bikini is not in my future. This a real issues. Thanks for throwing a light on it.

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TIFFANIE150 2/18/2010 10:40AM

    The drum idea. Now THAT is original. Just like you :)

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CTENBRINK 2/18/2010 10:34AM

    LOL! emoticon

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SHRNGRD 2/18/2010 10:33AM

    I completely agree with everyone elses comments. Make that surgery a reward for yourself in the end! I know it's not a cheap thing to have done, but here's a penny for a thought...for every pound you loose from here on out, put $1 or $5 dollars (etc.) in savings for you to use for the surgery. If anything you'll have saved something for your reward in the end. But no matter what...keep doing what your doing! You are doing sooo well! :o)

Sharon :o)

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NEWYORKORCHIDS 2/18/2010 10:31AM

  My husband had his excess skin removed - I know before he did, he often commented that he'd rather fill out his skin than have it hang there like it did. It's trying to look at yourself in the mirror and not seeing what you imagined yourself to be, especially after all of the hard work you have put in.

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DACIUS 2/18/2010 10:23AM

    I am in total agreement my man. My stomach resembles a shar pei at the moment and it really bums me out. yeah I can run 10 miles...yeah I am more athletic than most people 1/2 my size. But I still resemble a pillow with 1/2 the feathers removed when I take my shirt off.

It is almost more distracting than my ex-gut. My entire back is covered with stretch marks, my legs now have droops that never existed before. So bad...

But... I have read lots of places that skin can take up to two years to return to it's elasticity. So maybe we will shrink like a raisin my friend!!!!

If not... then surgery may be the only real option. I know from others I have asked that it is ungodly expensive. Is a second mortgage worth the price of vanity? Who knows..... Thankfully we both still have some time before we gotta stress about those decisions. I know I am of the mindset that I will not even consider those progressive actions until I hold my goal weight for one year. If I do that, then I will begin the research process of seeing how to remove the shar pei from this hound dog.

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JBMT08 2/18/2010 10:23AM

    I agree with would be a nice gift once you have gotten to your goal weight. Also, I heard lifting and developing muscle will help to ease into the extra "space" that you have...the squirrel thing? HILARIOUS!!!

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LINDOKAS 2/18/2010 10:21AM

    You are possibly one of the funniest people on spark! This is, of course, something we all face if we are lucky enough to succeed in this journey. I wish you luck, patience, and happiness.

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CINCYDORA 2/18/2010 10:19AM

    This is a big issue for people that lose a lot of weight and it seems to divide people as vehemently as discussions of weight loss surgery. Given how much I enjoy surgery, I'm determined to avoid it at all costs, assuming I actually succeed in losing weight. If my rolls start getting stuck in my zipper, I'll probably decide that surgery doesn't sound so bad and is worth the risk of scarring. I'm sure you'll make the right decision for yourself.

Thanks as always for candidly sharing your journey.

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    Ummm gross. If I want to smack you, I'll just come over there. emoticon

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FROGGERHKC 2/18/2010 10:10AM

    I agree with DCRockets... that would be a great gift to yourself! In the mean time, just keep doing what you are doing, because you really are doing great, and you have a great attitude!


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BILLALEX70 2/18/2010 10:05AM

    Any of us "big losers" is going to have this skin issue. We all have different thoughts on what to do about it. I like the drum idea.
peace out brother!

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DCROCKETS 2/18/2010 10:04AM

    Love the squirrel in a hurricane analogy!!! LOL But seriously, skin removal surgery could be a great gift once you meet your goal weight!

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Step back, look at that picture from an older angle and think about it.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

The thing about weight loss on a large scale is that it must consume you, it must become like a job, it is something that is on the mind of the loser 100% of the time and it has to be this way. I would suspect that people with less weight to lose experience this on a smaller scale or perhaps I am wrong and they experience it just the same as a one time mammoth such as myself. I am finding that the closer I get to my "goal" weight which that number was basically pulled from a hat that it is harder to get the weight coming off in as big of chunks as it once did. I am still three hundred twenty some odd pounds and its slowing down but I don't think that its a physical thing, what I mean is that I believe I am doing what I need to do for the most part but I am letting myself get away with more than I have in the past during this trip to a slimmer me.

There was a time during this process where I was the biggest pain in the ass in the world if you had invited me to dinner, I would walk in with my salter scale asking a ton of questions about how the food was prepared. Under one arm would be my light salad dressing and under the other the remainder of my gallon of green tea for the day and I would weigh every bite of food and writing it down so that later I could transfer it to my excel sheet. My mother in law would call and ask "How do you want this prepared? what sides can you have? if I use x amount of butter is that ok?" so on and so on, and this helped immensely more than she probably knows but a pain in the ass I was none the less. Now a days I "eyeball" lots of things and honestly there is no doubt in my mind that I am as close as a person can be to the actual measurement without actually using a measuring tool but it still leaves room for yeah we will call the extra scoop of this or that error for todays discussion and I need to get back on the strict wagon at least until I get under 300 pounds.

Random insert of last nights salmon dinner, 475 total calories for the plate.

Lately I am relaxed where my intake is the subject matter, I was in NYC last week and started off well enough by going to Fresh & co after the Dr. Oz show and got some whole wheat crusted veggie pizza and a bottle of water but after that not so much. We ordered a pizza up to or room and I had 3 slices that night which is leaps and bounds better than how it use to go down and the fact that we would have ordered 2 pizzas but still, pepperoni pizza? I know that I am doing this and its because I am back to the way I use to be, you know that I am unstoppable feeling, well its back. I have written in this blog about how I was always a bigger guy but that people had an image of me as that big guy that could do anything, I ran, I climbed, I worked 12 hour days digging holes and pouring cement and I worked in a lumber yard stacking, loading and climbing racks like a monkey, when I say that I did not let being a big guy get in my way I mean it. I am at a point where I am doing whatever I want to again and perhaps its getting in the way of my end game because its been too long since I got some big numbers off and kept the momentum, it seems that as of late I get a roll going and then something happens that gets in the way, and by something happens of course I mean I relax.

I set a goal for myself to be at or under 300 pounds by April 2nd 2010 and looking at the numbers I do believe that I will fall short but that doesn't mean I will not try to get it. I was on a roll and doing great but have had some distractions that kept me from staying 100% focused on that goal and I am left with having to lose 3.4 pounds per week until April 2nd to make this goal and thats going off of my this mornings weight. I will have some big numbers in the coming weeks as I am going to amp up the cardio a bit at the gym because I can taste sub 300 pounds at this point. Breaking out of this "I'm comfortable" mode is proving harder than I thought it would be, I knew that it would come at some point but man I gotta get it out of here so that I can get to that tape waiting for me at the end of the road.

I talked about the weight loss game having to consume a person for it to work and I think that it was an easier thing when I was worried about death on a daily basis than now. I am getting stronger by the day, I am physically capable of lasting longer in something that takes good cardiovascular conditioning to accomplish and my clothing keeps getting looser despite the fact that the weight has slowed. I think that its time for that pain in the ass that use to carry his salter scale around to return for a while because I am going to get to my bottom goal weight in 2010, not "going to try" not "I hope" but I WILL be there before too long. My habits have changed completely in the past two years, I have gone from a guy that sat around wishing that he could do things to a guy that does the things now, I make excuses to move now a days and look for things that will get me moving instead of sitting on my posterior.

That's all I got for today, make sure to tune in tomorrow for the next adventure of Fatman and Blobin, thanks for following along.

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MEGSFITNESS 2/18/2010 3:25PM

    I should start taking my scales with me.. I don't think I'm tracking as well as I should be and that could be a huge reason why I'm not where I should be with the scale.

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PLATSUZIE 2/18/2010 1:31PM

    Fatman and Blobin? Funny! longer true. You come across as a very creative guy…what’s a new name (preferably funny) that reminds yourself (and us) of the positive place you are now!?!

Your salmon dinner looks yummy. Thanks for sharing photos for those of us that are visual learners. Your drum and squirrel enhanced the reading experience as well.

Your comment “I can taste sub 300 pounds at this point.” Reminded me of Subway sandwiches…lol. Tells you where my mind is…oh ya’ healthy eating (don’t I wish)…you know, the subway guy who lost so much weight eating Sub sandwiches. Back to your story…that is an awesome comment. I can taste sub 300 pounds for you just reading about your conviction. How do you feel at 299?

3.4 lbs a week is aggressive particularly after losing as much as you have. I hope you make your goal! Here’s to the salter being your companion if that is what losing will take.

Reading a few responses to a couple of your blogs, I see you have many friends here. Our hopes for you are long term…past the all too fast approaching April 2, 2010. You have achieved so much! I look toward April 2, 2011 and wish you to be at 299 on that date! I believe everyone would be proud of you either way…or both ways.

We “met” today. Your being on Dr. Oz and with your life’s experiences, you are obviously more knowledgeable about this process than I. I don’t know if the mind set changes from focusing 100% of the time on losing to focusing 100% of the time on living (and eating healthy) after the kind of loss you have made? Either way the processes are full time jobs…nice description!

When you started working on losing weight could you see yourself feeling and living as you do now? “I am getting stronger by the day, I am physically capable of lasting longer in something that takes good cardiovascular conditioning to accomplish and my clothing keeps getting looser.” I am a guy who “does the things now, I make excuses to move now a days and look for things that will get me moving”. Those feelings are beyond awesome!!

Thanks for sharing thoughts worth keeping foremost in mind. Better than Sub-weigh even.

(Visualize Submarine sandwich here...if I were as savy a blogger as you there would be a good looking, healthy, one posted.)

emoticon You're awesome!

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MARCYNA 2/18/2010 10:32AM

    I think you experience more or less the same 'obsession' with weight, whatever your weight is and it's so difficult to lose it in all cases, but you're doing just great!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TMCH1512 2/18/2010 9:29AM

    Dude, Seriously You are the best. emoticon

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DOLLBABE56 2/18/2010 7:30AM

    You are on the right path. So what if you don't make your April goal. It may be May - but that's okay because with your focus you will get there. Don't stress because stress can slow down the progress. Just do. You are an inspiration and I only hope I can be as focused as you.

Oh, and by the way that dinner looks great!

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PINKYPOOS 2/18/2010 5:41AM

    Yes it is all consuming when we give this weight loss thing our all - but that's just the way it has to be if we really want to get serious again in reaching our goals!!
I slacked off a bit too this year, once I hit 100 lost. Time to get back on the stricter train now though - I want this :-)
You know what to do....carry on with what you're doing, make some stricter adjustments for the time being and see those scales dip under 300!! Under 300!!!

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    Bleh it's so frustrating I could eat a friggin cake. I need to get refocused too. My timeframe is under 200 by May 1st. Maybe we should wager or something? Make it more interesting?

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DDOORN 2/17/2010 9:09PM

    Yeah, you know I think there's a bit of waxing and waning for those of us on the "journey". It's pretty tough for ANYONE to stay as rigid and obsessive as we have to be sometimes to keep shedding the pounds without any "pauses." Not that this is IMPOSSIBLE, but doubtful that you'll find this *commonly* occurring among us big losers. For myself I can DEFINITELY say that I pour on the steam at times, let up other times. But the overall trend continues downward or at least maintaining. Both are SUCCESSES in my book! :-)


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JCORYCMA 2/17/2010 4:53PM

    I can relate. It seems like I've spent most of my adult life focused on my weight. I am maintaining now, but still get into a "relaxed" mode and when the scale starts to creep up again, I get strict with myself until I'm back down. Maybe when I'm in the nursing home someday, I'll finally be able to say "to heck with it" and eat that orange sherbet without feeling guilty...
Joanne emoticon

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/17/2010 3:56PM

    I so understand this. It has been pretty stagnant for me for the last year.

I am in need of getting a couple pairs of jeans. I think that I need to buy three, but one of them being smaller and tighter so that I have a motivation to keep what I have off and I will have to work to make them more comfortable.

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CAROLYN1ALASKA 2/17/2010 3:52PM

You're weightl loss is certainly inspirational... and so exactly on in terms of it being like a job.
Both the planning exercise moments and the cooking and "counting" part of the food tracking is time consuming...'Thanks for your thoughts!

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CAROLYN1213 2/17/2010 2:41PM

    Nice job! I too feel that my weight loss and fitness is my job! Number one priority is a fit me! I plan to succeed. I work that plan every day. Everything I eat, drink and do centers around the best interest of my health . . . that includes sleeping well! I'm in training, dude, this is my Olympic dream! No one is going to get in the way of me standing on that medals podium! Let's go! Let's get it done! 2010 baby!

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ZIRCADIA 2/17/2010 2:40PM

    What's on the salmon? It looks good. :)

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MEGAMITENCHI 2/17/2010 2:01PM

    You're always so inspiring; even when things have slowed down ^_^ It's a little nice to see you a bit annoyed and frustrated. I've totally flat lined this month, and I'm going to change that today! The week is only half over, I still make it an awesome one!!!!!! Btw, iTunes has just been doin' it's own thing, and I have no idea why, but this song made me think of you! Enjoy, or at least laugh a little!

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WYOWILDDEE 2/17/2010 12:49PM

    I can relate to your struggle. When I first started and was consumed I did much better then the casual approach I have now. I need to evaluate this and go back to being consumed, because this is something I want SOOOO much. Best wishes to you and feel free to be the "pain in the ass" guy!

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    Very well said. I need to get back to the big commitment mode--did great for 6 months and have been a major slacker for 6 months. Thanks for the kick...

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BOTZZZ 2/17/2010 12:04PM

    4A, Maintaining is the easy part for me apparently! I am not gaining weight but I am not really losing lately either is all ;) I know why so its no biggy, I just have to get back into "me mode" unfortunately there is a distraction in my life that I can't push aside and can't really put it on the way back burner but we will get there ;)

Thanks for all of the support guys!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/17/2010 11:48AM

    Wow, dude.

If you think getting the rest off is hard, just WAIT until you attempt maintenance...


The kinds of issues you're fighting now are going to magnify the closer you get to goal...

And yeah, I'm fighting that too. I've been stalling on getting the last 5 lbs off, and it's time to Just Do It already. LOL

Hang in there, Scale Guy. I'm right there with my little Polder in my purse, and yeah my friends call me and ask how they should prepare food for me.


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NEWYORKORCHIDS 2/17/2010 11:34AM

  Losing weight should be on your mind all of the time. I can't imagine not thinking about it - although, maybe that's just from being overweight most of my life. I think it's good to know you're doing the wrong thing by eating a Twix bar and it's not something that should be an after thought.

I consistently weigh and/or measure, but I'm also at the beginning of my journey. AllynMC wrote a blog a month or so ago about things that she did differently last year than this year and how those things contributed to her weight loss. One of those things was weighing and measuring food. You have to do what's right for you - and if it's being what others perceive is a pain in the ass - than do it. It's your body, your future, and your life at stake.

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~MISS_TEA~ 2/17/2010 11:23AM

    I agree it does feel like a full time job sometimes. It is good though. We learn so much on the journey and that is what makes it all so worth it. With out this job we may not ever learn healthy great things. Keep up the great work. I know you will do it this year, you already are!

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SHRNGRD 2/17/2010 11:06AM

    I SO know what you mean by 'consuming' your life! I sometimes feel like I am so engulfed in this journey that people think I talk about it too much. So I've actually been trying NOT to talk so much about calories etc. in front of peeps.

I just had an incident last night actually. I went to dinner and had TOOO MUCH bread on the table, then pasta con broccoli, and a side salad. Mmmm, was it YUM, but I feel SO freakin' guilty today cause I was SO hungry when i got I didn't plan my meal. I just ate, and ate. I might be over estimating what I ate, who knows. But today is a new day. And that's something I've learned. You might fall off the wagon for a meal, or a day, but the next day or the next meal, you just have to hop RIGHT BACK on that wagon. It's just sooooo easy to fall off of it though.

And that's why WE ARE HERE! Support! :o)

Have a good one!


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DOLLIE6 2/17/2010 11:03AM

    Hey, that looks like about 500 calories worth of potatoes.
You better get your scales out. Its too easy to mess up when you get to feeling good and know you are looking better. Remember we are changing our life style we do not go back to overeating junk, grease etc. I'm on a streak of 45 days and a long way to go again, (I gained it all back) because I got cocky and feeling good and I did not learn the Spark lessons like I should. YOU can do this right once and for all. I know I can too but we have to stay obsessed with keeping it off.
Keep on Sparking. I really enjoy your blogs.

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KNH771 2/17/2010 10:56AM

    I've often told people that I feel like losing weight has been a second full time job. I also feel (know) that as I've lost weight I've gotten more comfortable with a "slip" here and there. I'm getting back to business today. You read my mind.

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MESKLINITE 2/17/2010 10:32AM

    What you say is very true. However, we must remember that we need to put our health first above all else. While we're losing weight I think it does take up a lot of our time. But I really feel that once we meet our goal weight and go into more of a maintenance routine, that it will be easier to not focus quite so much.

Keep up the blogs! emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 2/17/2010 10:22AM

    Yeah man it's that comfort zone. It comes along with feeling good with yourself, thinking you will be ok not doing this. I say, do what you got to do to make it happen. I have started to create a "To Do" List every single day and I rewrite my goals for everything, not just weight loss, every single day b/c I have realized it takes small steps to get to the big goal!

Take Care

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GLOBALKEEWEE 2/17/2010 10:20AM

    The "100% mental consumption" is not about how much you have to lose, I don't think, but how committed you are to making it happen. For the first 40 lbs I lost I was just as engrossed in my choices as you describe - and it certainly worked. Then I let myself be distracted by some life events, realized it, and buckled down again to get to 50 lbs lost. Since January I, too, have been 'eyeballing it' (didn't help that my trusted Salter had the battery go kaput) and - you guessed it - I'm not making much progress without focusing intently.

It sounds like you are ready to hit it hard once again to hit the 300lb mark by April. I am committed to losing my last 10 lb in the same time frame. Total poundage aside, we can do this by re-committing ourselves to being the big asses it takes to get the job done. Thanks for helping give me a swift kick. Now don't let me down, either.

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TINYC887 2/17/2010 10:15AM

    I agree, i lost 120 with no problem and now its harder but i know I dont always eat what i should and i definately do not eat enough cals, this is gonna be my goal. thanks for the motivation

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JBMT08 2/17/2010 10:10AM

    You will pull yourself out of the "comfort zone". and keep blogging. I truly believe that helps tremendously, as you probably already know!

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PUCKYGIRL 2/17/2010 9:56AM

    Have faith. I know you will make your April lbs. You are the man that can do anything that you put your mind too. I wish I had your will power and determination. I have my own but doesn't seem as strong as yours. You truly are the inspiration to keep me going on some level. Thanks so much for sharing. Take care and you can do it!

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CRIS76 2/17/2010 9:55AM

    I agree that it feels like a full time job. I spend so much of my time planning and doing that I really lose track of "doing" for other things - it is good but there is some secret part of me that wishes I didn't have to.... and hopes I won't have to for the remainder of my life.

Thank you for sharing!

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/17/2010 9:54AM

    I certainly feel that achieving good health is our primary job. LOL, when we are on a mission we do become militant. Another great blog and it certainly gives me a lot to think about.


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DCROCKETS 2/17/2010 9:54AM

    Stay focused. You have done and are doing great. Can't wait to see your goal weight pictures posted on here. Maybe during the Summer you will get there. Looking forward to that day! I plan to be at my goal weight this Summer. I want to get there so bad. Thanks for the motivation.

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SOOTHINGGLOW 2/17/2010 9:53AM

    I love your sense of humor... and your approach to life! Keep bloggin! Its such a motivating thing for me to come here and read your words. I love that you just dont ever beat around the bush. You are frank, direct, and to the point... It's very refreshing! emoticon

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Reflections of a quarter ton guy.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Who is this guy that calls himself Zeusmeatball? Who is he? The short answer is that he is just a guy that was fatter than he is now once upon a time and decided to lose some weight and get healthy. The slightly longer story has a man scared of sudden death at the hands of an encasing layer of fat that covered his body to the point of ceasing normal every day life being forced to doing something about his dwindling health because of that fear, that's the Zeusmeatball that started writing a blog on January 1st 2008. I wish that I didn't know him so well, at times I hoped it was a dream and that I would just wake up sitting on my bed looking down at the smaller me from my past but it never happened, instead disappointed at myself I sat there wondering what I could do about this situation that I had gotten myself into while the answer was there the whole time.

The answer was there the whole time? indeed it was, Stop wishing and start doing even if it was just cutting back on some of the $hitty food that was or is being shoved down just stop it. Wow what a simple concept that is! why didn't I think of that? its what every person that has an eating problem wonders about while they are standing in the kitchen shoveling calories into their pie holes at O dark thirty, and it really is as easy as just stop. I didn't say that just stop was easy, but its as easy as that statement. It does take a huge amount of will power and determination but at the very most basic level if the calories are not going in they can't exactly attach themselves as fat so I am stickin with my its that easy statement, I just wish I had talked myself into that a long time ago.

I can remember a time in my life when I would wake up and have to sit in bed for 20 minutes just to let my back warm up and stretch enough so that I could stand without extreme pain from an injury that I got back in 2000. I was on my way up to the 534 pounds where I stopped at that point and it was a daily thing for me, wake up, roll over, sit up and stay there until the pain went away finally dragging my big ass out of the bed. After that it was time to sit on the couch for a while so that my back pain would go away a little more and I could start functioning the best I could at 500 plus pounds. I worked evenings at that time in my life and it was a good thing because I used the day to get my back ready to be able to do what I needed to in order to get to work and complete my day there. At work I sat in a chair all day and that wasn't really a good thing or a bad thing as sitting hurt just as bad as standing sometimes, it was literally pain 24/7 in my back the only difference was the level of pain at any given time and still I ate the Cheetos and strawberry milk every time I had a break.

We had a Ford Focus at one point and there was a time or three where I had to take that car into work in place of my Mustang and I literally had to squeeze into it for my 45 minute commute and I mother fuvked that car the whole way. It was Wify's car so when we bought it and I test drove it I didn't care that it was a tight squeeze for me because I never thought that I would have to drive it. My gut hit the steering wheel in a way that I did not have to hold the wheel and could literally drive using my girth to steer if need be and still on the way home I stopped at Del Taco for my sack of greasy burritos. Driving is something that I have always been passionate about, I LOVE driving and I LOVE my Mustang and there was even a point in my life where I hated driving that car too, shifting sucked at 500 pounds because of the lack of room in the cockpit when you are 6'5'' and weigh as much as a pony.

My Mustang this afternoon, I swear I heard it cuss at me for moving from California.

I can remember the day we brought our daughter home from the hospital and I pulled that mustang around to the pick up area, a prouder dad there will never be and has never been. I was brought home from the Hospital when I was born in my parents 65 mustang and here I am bringing my daughter home in my 97 mustang so many years later and there was something cool about that to me. That time of my life I hated cameras, I would never allow anyone to take my picture and if they did I would confiscate their camera and either delete the image if it was digital or remove the film if it was a regular camera, yes I said confiscate. On that day I didn't even notice my wife was taking pictures, I was just making sure that the beautiful little girl was strapped into her new seat perfectly for her maiden voyage in a mustang. A month or so later the pictures were developed and I saw myself squatting down next to the baby carrier and I loved that the picture was taken because its a snap in time that will never happen again but I despise that picture because of my size. My daughter whom means more to me than anyone has ever meant to another will now have to see how weak her dad was at that point in his life and how I let things get out of control and that's something that I cannot change. There is another side to that coin that plays completely different and is totally positive but that's a conversation for Me and her when she is a bit older.

I am the same guy that I was two years ago the difference is my outlook on certain aspects of my life and the way that I live them. I mentioned earlier in this post that it was easy and I stand by that because once you realize that you are slowly killing yourself by doing nothing about the situation its easy to fix it, its easy to change the way that you think about food and your relationship with it when death is on one side of the line. That photo of me and my daughter coming out if the hospital? I am in fact looking forward to the day when she sees it and says "Dad that's not you" because all she knows is the healthier me and she would be right because physically its not going to be me, I am glad that I stopped wishing and started doing something about the weight because if I had not who knows where I would be today and what my relationship with that little girl would be.

Zeusmeatball is no one special and soon enough he will blend into a crowd and not a single person will be the wiser that he once weighed more than a quarter ton.

Then all we will have is pictures to prove it because I ain't goin back.


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THOMBOUY 2/24/2010 1:25AM

    It takes a lot of determination to change your life around, its easy to fall off the band wagon and go back to old habits.
Your daughter has a great Dad

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WATRUMP 2/22/2010 10:01PM

    wow, wow, wow, after reading your blog I checked out your page and your are incredible what an awesome act of perseveration......I am going to get on the rock!

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SHOOTIN4STARS 2/21/2010 9:42PM

    You're one hell of a meatball! I really admire your honesty and determination to change your life. Thanks for sharing!

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NEWPMA 2/21/2010 2:25PM

    Not much i can add to that Congratulations on your positive attitude and life changes.

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FLYINGTIGER 2/20/2010 2:25AM

    Botzzz, you will only blend into the crowd if there's helicopters and fireworks going off. In any other case I think your attitude will exude. Your swagger will stagger. You are climbing everest when the rest of us are climbing the playground slide. YOU SERIOUSLY **ROCK** this web site.

How you accomplish anything is how you accomplish everything. Dream big, brother, because nothing will withstand your focus and work ethic.


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KRISSYSWIM16 2/19/2010 3:47PM

    awesome blog. I want you to know you are doing an awesome job! And doing it for your daughter is awesome, do it for you too! keep it up!

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ALYSCO2003 2/18/2010 9:07PM

    I live in Saint Louis, MO. I was born in Orange County, CA and visit Daly City, CA about every year to two years. I understand your car's anger and aggravation. I can't stand the snow and unfortunately I married a man who thrives in it! Kudos for the positivity. You rock dude!

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ANGELALEGNA 2/18/2010 6:05PM

    I've read your blogs before, you must have a lot of followers. I always intend on just getting the "points" for reading the blogs, but yours are always different, they always pull me in and are very interesting. You write so well and there is always such emotion and feeling in your blogs. That's a trait of a great writer.
Good luck on your journey, I can see that you have come far already.

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PLATSUZIE 2/18/2010 2:14PM

    Your writings are so real…yet fun. Thanks for your way of presenting reality in a fun way and for sharing such personal (inspirational) moments.

First BE the person, do whatever "it" takes, then you will have what you want. Did I get that right? (That versus: want to have...weightloss, so we can do...function with less pain, so we can be...healthier) Be, do, want (is that what you ended up discovering) vs want, do, then be…why is the later more the norm...even with matters not related to weight loss?

BE the person first, DO what it takes and having what we want falls in line.

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SEVENKITTY 2/18/2010 2:03PM

  Thanks for the great blog!

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MARCYNA 2/18/2010 10:06AM

    WoW !!!!
Your daughter will be awfully proud of you when she grows up. I remember my dad stopped smoking from one day to another when my sister and I asked him to and that's because there's such a strong connection that makes you overcome all possible limits. Love is stronger, possibly the strongest feeling of all and it's all-powerful emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SIANBRANNON 2/18/2010 9:29AM

    Holy smokes! Snow! What's that like?

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SWEETNHOT 2/18/2010 7:17AM

    That was a wonderful honest blog, you are an amazing guy thank you!!!! emoticon

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SCRAPPYLADYV 2/17/2010 10:59PM

    I know what you were talking about with the pictures. Of course I see myself in the mirror everyday but when I see a picture of myself it is so different. I can't believe that is me, that is what I look like. I had a hard time finding pictures for my spark page, but I am working toward and looking forward to the day when I can post pictures of a smaller me. Thanks for always telling it like it is,

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KARLYNCANDOIT 2/17/2010 5:36PM

    it is 70 here in cali today!! Great job!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/17/2010 1:18PM

    Inspiring as always. We so often complain, but do nothing to fix it.

Thanks for continuing to help drive me forward.

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BOTZZZ 2/17/2010 12:05PM

    Thanks for all of the kind words and support everyone! it helps more than you know

As Ever

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FOXEYES2 2/17/2010 8:37AM

  Awesome, simply awesome. thanks for your brutal honesty. It makes me respect you and your journey.

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MRDPOLING 2/17/2010 6:23AM

    "My Mustang this afternoon, I swear I heard it cuss at me for moving from California."

Oh man that made me laugh so much! Poor pony! hehehe!

Loved this entry! Really did!

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RUSHBOY 2/17/2010 5:09AM

    Man, that's one incredibly honest and wonderful blog post. Truly motivating and heart warming (possibly even tissue soaking).

My best mate is quite overweight, and I'm hoping to show him blogs like this. I'm losing weight myself and hope to show him that I can do it after 10 years like this. That his friend can do it (and thousands on this site), then so can he.

Thanks for sharing your life with us!


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BIGGIRL2082010 2/17/2010 1:51AM

    Well, we can already tell you that you ain't no quarter ton guy. :D Yes. Some day - in fact, some day soon, your little girl is going to say "HUH??" when she sees a pic of the old you? She will have trouble believing it's her dad - you definitely are not that same person any more!

By the way, you ARE backing up your blog posts, right? Because this online journal, more than anything else, may give her courage and hope some day in the distant future when she's at her wit's end about some stressful situation that seems too big to handle! Not to mention, it could be your basis for one heck of a convincing book on successful weight loss! :)

Keep up the great work!


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DDOORN 2/16/2010 11:06PM

    The POWER of those painful memories encapsulated by old photos!

Forward MARCH! :-)


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JCORYCMA 2/16/2010 9:43PM

    I can only imagine the pain you must have felt because I was only 70 lbs. above my goal and had to have disk surgery in my lower spine and in my neck for painful herniated disks brought on by my obesity. Looking back I can't believe that like you, I kept eating through pain that I knew was directly related to my weight! It was the physical therapy that I did after my neck surgery that inspired me to venture into the exercise arena and as they say the rest is history. As always, thanks for sharing your insight so succinctly!

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DARKTHOR 2/16/2010 6:14PM

    It is as simple as that and I'm making that choice too, each day, each choice...I'm making the right ones now. Like you are. Like so many on this site. STOP doing stuff that will KILL us and START doing things that will make us LIVE. Amen to all that you said, brother. Be there for your daughter, your wife, yourself...for a very long time.

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KLEONIKI 2/16/2010 6:03PM

    Not going back!
A new reinvented self!
Excellent job inspiring messages!

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HEIDIS2NDCHANCE 2/16/2010 4:48PM

    Excellent blog post! As Always! The story of you bringing your daughter home from the hospital is precious! I'm curious now to see this before pic. ;)
Keep up the terrific work you are doing!
Hugs, Heidi

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SOOTHINGGLOW 2/16/2010 4:20PM

    When is your book coming out? (thats a hint) emoticon

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SHIPESTA 2/16/2010 3:46PM

    I love the way you write, it really brought tears to my eyes. You're an amazing role model because when your daughter does see that picture and doesn't believe it's you, you can make sure she knows that she is capable of doing ANYTHING she sets her mind to, just as you are doing now. What a great lesson to teach our children, especially our daughters, that when we rely on ourselves, we aren't disappointed because we are capable of GREAT things.

Keep up the great work

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/16/2010 3:46PM

    Great story, you sure have insight to the issue


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PSMITH3841 2/16/2010 3:42PM

    emoticon I hope you know how much you inspire others!!!!

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ZIRCADIA 2/16/2010 3:41PM

    Word. I am not going back. I saw you on TV. :) I haven't finished watching the episode again but they flashed your before and after pictures and I saw you a couple times in the audience already -- we're about halfway through.. ish. :D

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1FAVOREDLADY 2/16/2010 3:27PM

    I loved it. Congrats on your determination and success !

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~MISS_TEA~ 2/16/2010 3:10PM

    Great story you shared today! Thank you!

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CHRISSYVB 2/16/2010 3:09PM

    I disagree, Zeusmeatball is NOT no one special. What you have done and are doing is amazing. I love your blogs and I'm motivated by your success.

Blessings to you,

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GEMINISUE 2/16/2010 3:05PM

    So very proud of you. I know it has been a rough road for you. I have a brother who was 466 lbs at 18, he left home, ate cottage cheese, peas with ketchup on it and got down to 200 lbs, in two years, fell in love got married, had two children, bent down to pick up some tissue that fell on the floor hurt his back, and the weight start coming back again, went back over 400, his wife deserted him and the children, and he raised those children, himself, got healthy again, and is doing fine. and is know a grandpa of one.

Another brother between 300 & 475 most of his 65 years of life, Lost it once, but my mom was worried about him and started adding bread and potatoes in his meat, without his knowledge. He almost lost his mind when he found out, and he never got over it.

I, the only girl was two hundred pounds most of my life, but with many health problems, I ballooned up to 373 and had to figure out how I was going to get down or probably die. Well I'm down the 70 and am still continuing to try. I know how important it is, that we lose it, and we keep the weight to a normal weight, through whatever we have to go through.

Sounds like you have it tackled, I hope I do to. Best to you on a continued trip Onward and Downward.


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JAMGIRL8 2/16/2010 3:03PM

    Okay, I read this and it brings tears to my eyes. I have your life on a female scale. Just had a beautful baby girl and determined to be a better role model for her. Keep blogging and keep up the determination and hard work. You have come a long way and prove to the rest of us that it can be done and to suck it up!


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SUSIEMILO 2/16/2010 2:58PM

    As always, excellent blog. Loved it!
Keep writing. It's therapeutic for you -- and motivation for me (and others).
I am absolutely awed by your progress and determination. And proud.

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Day 776, Panko breaded Haddock and some new hikers.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Making good choices has been the thought of the week for me it seems, I have been finding myself thinking about things a little more than I have lately and not in any way other than looking at my choices and deciding on which would be the best. This afternoon I have the pleasure of having wify with me at the gym as she has the day off and my Mother in law has agreed to watch the kiddos for us so I have a running partner if you will for the day.

Last night I made a particularly good dinner of some baked Haddock fillets which I lightly breaded with panko bread crumbs that I seasoned myself, I made some seasoned rice with peppers and onions and green beans with pepper on the side. The total for my plate was 405 calories and the fish was a hit with everyone, wify loved it and my son couldn't get enough so into the bag of tricks it goes. I seem to be on a roll with snapping pictures of my meals and this one was no different, I am getting odd looks at the table but hey! have a look.

405 calories panko breaded Haddock, so good!

I am again craving a ride on my bike so I cannot wit for the weather to warm up a bit so that can happen, My son has a new mountain bike that Santa brought him so maybe he can keep up a bit better with the new ride. I have been preparing for spring to get here for the past month or so buying things that I need here and there and I always take a look at "the bargain cave" in Cabelas just to see whats there and yesterday I scored a pair of Columbia hiking shoes for the low low price of $12.50 after all discounts were applied. There are plenty of trails in my area that are not too far off the beaten path yet provide lots of scenery and fair distances and then I am not too far off from the Appalachian trail if feeling bold, Man I can't wait for spring.

Can't beat these for $12.50! and they were in my size too and that's lucky considering that I am a size 14!

Over all this week seems to be starting off well and off to the gym I go to start it off! Eat well, drink much and bust my ass at the gym is my plan and barring any road blocks unforeseen will be what happens. My drive has not changes, my determination is unmatched and the only thing left to do is execute for me to get where I must go. I need to get my ass to the gym so thats all i got for ya today, thanks for following along and remember that if you don't decide that its time to do something about your own health there is no one else thats gonna do it for you.

As Ever

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DOLLIE6 2/16/2010 3:18PM

    Sounds wonderful.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 2/16/2010 2:34PM

    My boy can't wait for me to lose enough for us to take a trip on the AT. I'm ready for spring too and hope to see you on the trail!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/16/2010 1:05PM

    Killer steal on the shoes. The dinner looked fantastic as well.

Can't wait to hear about some father/son riding times.

Hope everything is going well.

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SWEETZMIX 2/16/2010 11:39AM

    Hope you 2 enjoy the gym. The snow isn't too bad over here, so I hope it won't hold you 2 back today. I dragged my butt out of bed, and Sherard's too, to get in 45min before work at the gym. And Haddock I have not had but, a trip to the fish market we supposed to be making this weekend so maybe - if we even get to go - I will be asking for your recipe. And awesome deal on the shoes. I got some trail runners - b/c I was digging them - for $30 about a month and a half ago and I thought I got a good deal.

Take Care

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 2/16/2010 8:41AM

    I'm with you - I can't wait for the weather to clear up so I can get out & about. emoticon

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MOONLITCHELLE 2/16/2010 8:07AM

    I'm sooo jealous of the shoe find!
I'm excited to get on the trails myself. :) I'm pretty close to the AT too!!
Hurray for hiking!

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JCORYCMA 2/15/2010 9:49PM

    I miss the good fish selections that we could get at the grocery store when we lived in New York. Central Iowa - the corn and hog state is not known for fish! Any good pork recipes?

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MRSSASS2010 2/15/2010 8:51PM

    You're making me hungry! And I just finished dinner! LOL

But seriously... it looks fantastic and low cal to beat! Two thumbs up!

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PSMITH3841 2/15/2010 3:32PM

    That looks sooo good! Thanks for the ideas..because of you today's lunch was actually thought out, instead of quick,I think this will be OK was a healthy, filling, low calorie/ high nutrition lunch....You're the BEST!!! emoticon

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    1. What is Panko?
2. Yay for shoes!
3. Yay for Appalachian Trail (or the AT as all the websites call it)
4. I should get your email addy - sometimes I see something I think I should email to you, websites and things. And then I forget. Etc.
5. I didn't know you had a son - only a daughter!

I can't wait for spring either! Whoo Hoo!!!

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~MISS_TEA~ 2/15/2010 2:49PM

    Yay for inexpensive great shoes! I know what you mean about finding things in difficult sizes. My other half is show size 13.5. . .sounds like it will be a great spring with great trails! Have a superb week :)

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ZIRCADIA 2/15/2010 1:42PM

    CONGRATS on the majorly discounted shoes! :D Sometimes being an exceptional size can pay off if your size is the last one left cause it's so rare.

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TIFFANIE150 2/15/2010 1:37PM

    Dinner looked yummy!

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CAROLYN1213 2/15/2010 1:28PM

    Always love your no nonsense, it is what it is, attitude! Time to execute the plan man! You are doing it! Every day! You got this thing done!

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CRIS76 2/15/2010 1:08PM

    Lucky hit on the 14s.. and that haddock does look yummy! will you be sharing on Spark Recipes???

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MRDPOLING 2/15/2010 1:08PM

    Wow that looks yummy!

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PUMPKINFACE73 2/15/2010 12:57PM

    Nice shoes! Enjoy your day at the gym with the wifey

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DACIUS 2/15/2010 12:43PM

    Size 14 here as well. I can definetely attest to the rarity of our size showing up on the discount rack. Great find.

I cannot wait til my son is tall enough for a mountain bike. He has a geared BMX now, but it is nowhere near fast enoug to keep up with me. I feel so bad because he has to pedal four times to = one of mine. Especially since I just got a hybrid.

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/15/2010 12:14PM

    What a great find on those shoes, sure wish I could do that!

The fish looks good, I need to get some Panko bread crumbs.

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CODEMAULER 2/15/2010 12:13PM

    Nice score on the hikers! I picked up some Columbia boots this year and Minnesota finally has a real winter. They are in heavy rotation with the snow we've received thus far.

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FLUFFYE 2/15/2010 12:05PM

    That haddock sounds fabulous! I'm a huge fan of fish. Great score on the hiking shoes also! It's always so exciting to find them in the right size in the bargain bin! It's probably even a harder feat for me since I'm a size 8 which is just about the most average woman's shoe size! That means that they're usually picked through by the time I find them!

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DDOORN 2/15/2010 12:00PM

    Good deal on those shoes! And I thought $30 for my New Balance @ Penneys were a deal! :-)


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MARCYNA 2/15/2010 11:56AM

    Wow!!! Nice shoes. You've been blessed in many ways, how inspirational!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEGAMITENCHI 2/15/2010 11:52AM

    Those shoes were a good catch!! I'd be dying to use them too ^_^ Thanks for the little kick in the butt at the end, February has been a hard month for me so far :(

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SUSIEMILO 2/15/2010 11:52AM

    Great job snagging those shoes! (And on the meals)
I'm with you about "can't wait for spring" so I can go hiking. Unfortunately, I don't have the great location you do --- but what I have is still sufficient to burn the calories I need to... so I won't complain.
Hard to believe that in a couple weeks it will be March already. We're nearly there.
In the meantime -- break the shoes in -- don't want blisters complicating the hike when the weather opens up for outdoor fun.
Great job -- you're an inspiration to a lot of people!
I enjoy your blogs.

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