Thursday, February 04, 2010
Negativity breeds more of the same and this is the thorn in the side of weight loss, until that thorn is pulled out and we begin to look at our health or lack there of for what it is the fat wins and on we waddle down the road. I see people beating themselves up for not being able to reach a goal or keep weight off and truth be told as long as we make the best choices possible and honestly look at what we are doing weight loss really isn't that monster in the dark that so many of believe it is. After years of "trying" to lose weight what I have learned in the past 2 years is best said by Yoda "You must un-learn what you have learned, try not, do..or do not, there is no try" though good old Yoda was talking about the force it does stand as a true statement in my eyes for us not in the world of Star wars. Start out strong and have in the back of your mind that you will fail and guess what? ultimately you will fail, at whatever the task is, something that I have learned since starting down this path is that weight loss is more of a mental game than anything else. Wrap your head around the concept that this is how life will be lived from now until forever and its an easy thing to accept, its when you start looking at it as less than how life goes when people fail, not a hard concept.
I have changed my life in the past 2 years after years of being "the fat kid" all of my life and then leveling off at a robust weight for many years I was hurt and gained a lot of my 534 pounds. I hit a point where it was too much for me and my family and made the decision to do something about it and I did it, I did not talk about it, I did not say that I would try. My wife brought me that HUGE cup of morning coffee like every other morning in a string of bad mornings and I told her that I was done with all of that and it was time to start doing instead of trying. I know people that have tried to lose weight for years and I have watched them drop weight and then yo yo right back up again and this cycle is how they have lived for as long as I have known them, this is not how it works. I have attempted to drop weight before with varying results mostly made up of failed attempts and the difference from then until now is the fact that a decision was made this time around and that's that.
Don't lose weight because I am, don't do it because someone else wants you to do it, you have to do it for yourself and your own reasons first and this means putting your needs ahead of other peoples needs at least for a while until some habits are formed. Focus on the negative side of weight loss and all we would have to talk about is non fitting over priced clothing, breathing heavy from a trip to the toilet, Lots of thinking about exploding hearts, 5 feet long belts, greasy fingers covered in synthetic cheese dust and how fun it is to not be able to go to the movies at 500 pounds. Fat people already know all this $hit and if we keep crying over the spilled milk on the counter instead of just wiping it up soon it will curdle, stink and be a bigger mess than it already is, instead I say get off your ass and walk if its all you can do, eat clean, drink water instead of sugar laced carbonated drinks and stop all of the complaining, it doesn't look good on you.
The moral of this little tale? don't worry about what cannot be done but what CAN be done and then execute and like Nike, just do it and leave the negativity out. The same situation can be seen by two individuals in completely different light, its like the two guys that work in the same office with a strict dress code and the one fella looks at it as "I have to get all dressed up in this monkey suit and tie to walk around with people that I play softball with on the weekends just so I can talk to people on the phone? blah I want my tee shirt and jeans! this is stupid" followed by the other guys opinion which is "This is great! I get to dress my best and walk around feeling like a million bucks in my silk tie all day! and I get paid for it?!" its all how we look at it. I see my weight loss program as "This is awesome! I get to eat fresh food that was prepared by me and drink as much tea as I want to! AND I get to workout and get that post workout high every day??!" as opposed to "I wish I could just strap this feed bag full of chicken mcnuggets to my face and drink a gallon of pepsi so that I don't have to get up from my couch and playstation!" yeah that second guy weighed 534 pounds and sat out of lots of things that he probably shouldn't have and I am choosing to not miss out on anything else.
What will you choose?
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
If you are going to try and lose weight, especially from a hyper obese state (yeah I just said hyper obese) You have to do it with everything that you have inside of yourself, if you don't you are just kidding yourself because there are no halfhearted attempts with success. Walking for 5 minutes is all that some of us can do at first yet pride stops us from doing it, somehow pulling back into our shells and hiding from the world is a better option and to that I say bull$hit. I can only now say it so strongly just how bull$hit being that way is because I powered past the self pity and decided that I did not care what anyone else might say or think of the 500 pound guy waddling around the block, every day I got dressed and I did it until I was the 400 pound guy and with every pound I was able to do more and the weight keeps dropping off. I don't give a $hit about what the next guy can do, I have to care about what I can do and more importantly perhaps what I cannot do because of the fat that was and is hanging off of my bones and keep that in mind with every step taken towards better health and the end game result that I am looking for.
Joining a gym was huge for me, I was scared of what the next person might say or think about what I was doing or not doing and I honestly thought it was going to be an all eyes on me thing but to my surprise it wasn't. Nobody cared what I was doing and I couldn't care less what any of them are doing because its me that I am there for. I sing out loud from time to time at the gym and I don't care, I cannot do a pull up yet, notice that I said yet because I will do a pull up before I am done and it will be the first one of my life when I get there but I will in fact do it. There is no one that will stop me because I need to complete what I have started and I am in the opinion that anyone can do what I have with nothing more than a decision. Doing what is right for our health is easier than not doing anything about it and ending up having diabetes, to be carried out of your home through a hole in the wall cut by the fire department, bad knees, sore backs, heart problems, a bitter disposition and tons of smaller problems that are with us on a day to day.
Deciding that living is a better idea than slowly killing yourself with a lack of care for the most important and basic item in your life is something that all people who are over weight should look at closely. If we don't take care of us the rest of whats left really doesn't matter so much because without our health we miss out on the most elementary of things. Without our health what do we have? sure we can live and have a life but is it the life that we want? does anyone really want to gasp for air because they had to walk to the bathroom? I think not.
I use to care what someone else might think of me as I huffed and puffed around attempting to get healthier, I hid in my house on my stationary bike for the longest time and honestly it did serve its purpose but I am at a point that if someone doesn't like what they see that's on them. I will get where I am going and there is no one that will stop me, something clicked at the gym a few days ago as I sat on a leverage shoulder press machine listening to my mp3 player and I have been a zone since then. Taking a line from Phil Anselmo "I live it every day, While youíre mindís far away, Iím out here putting pride on the line And you case on me with pure respect, One chance at one thing, Hard time is coming, My time, your pain I reign on you" is the place where my head is right now, water is wet, ice is cold I am going to get where I need to go, all of these things are facts.
If you are contemplating starting a better health/weight loss program do yourself a favor and stop thinking about it and start with the doing because at the end of the day when we look into that mirror the person staring back is the one responsible for everything that we do.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
To say that its been busy around here would not begin to describe it so with that lets just say that things not of the weight loss and health world have reigned supreme for a bit. This week has started off good with a 1900 calorie day and a trip to the gym on Monday, 1 gallon of green tea and about a gallon of H2O went down as well. I thought that I would post up the menu from Monday for you to gander at, its nothing special and slightly higher than I like it to be but well within reasonable.
1/2 cup steel cut oats 300
splash of milk 40
1 Zone perfect bar 190
2 80 cal rolls 160
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T apricot preserves 50
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 can tuna 150
1 T light mayo 35
2oz doritos 280
1oz cheese 110
1 orange 80
1 orange 80
peanut butter 95
That's a grand total of 1920 calories for the day and my trip to the gym was a 20 minute bike ride followed by 25 minutes on the treadmill at 3.4mph with varying inclines as high as 13% and as low as 3.5%. I have started running on the treadmill in intervals, I walk a quarter of a mile followed by a 6mph run for a quarter mile alternating back and forth for 20 minutes and I am going to do this each Friday until I don't feel it in my shins any more and hopefully this will keep me running because I don't want to over do it and have it effect my other workouts because of fatigue, running seems to take a lot out of me.
The last week has been full of non weight related stress thus the lack of blog posts but the clouds are moving away so I figured I would post up a quick update. Heading to the gym later today the plan is the same, 20 minutes on the bike, 20-30 minutes on the treadmill and it is a weight lifting day and I Think I am going to meander on over to the free weights and give them a go as I have been using machines up until now.
That's all I got, Keep on keepin on and don't forget that H2O, Thanks for following along.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
What we've got here is failure to communicate, some men ya just can't reach so ya get what we had here last week. Now that's a line from the best movie of all time if its my opinion being asked and I at times hear that in my head when I slip off of the wagon or make a bad food choice and I feel that is the way it is for many people that struggle with weight loss. We try to make the best choices that we can for any given situation but there are times when it just doesn't play out the way that it should have and that is the point where people start beating themselves up and figure "welp I fugged that all up, time to eat a pie" why? because a slip happened its time to give up? nah we all know that its just the next excuse in the line of excuses that justify the bad choices that are all to easy at times to make.
I don't believe that there is a magic formula for losing weight, I do believe that the only thing that's needed is to make the choice to change the way we eat and move and the rest sort of just falls into place. Just falls into place? what are you nuts? get up and eat a healthy breakfast followed by some healthy snacks, make sure to drink enough fluids then I am expected to eat a good lunch and dinner? squeeze in some exercise, THEN get to bed at a reasonable time just to start over the next morning? but what about watching Conan O'brien?? oh wait...even still that's a lot of work! AND I am suppose to do all of the other things in my day like work and taking care of a house and kids? You kind sir are out of your gourd! I am now in the opinion that eating is NOT a sport, it is NOT anything other than a way to get fuel into our bodies so that we may do all of those things listed above, wow what a concept eh? eating to live rather than living to eat.
Once upon a long time ago in a galaxy not so far away I was a naysayer and a non believer in this philosophy as well but I promise that once that mental hurdle gets stepped over that it gets easier to eat like a human being rather than a billy goat. Exercise I am finding to be down right therapeutic and that right there is as good a reason to take it up as a hobby as any if you ask me, I mean think about it, taking eating food as a hobby got us here why not take up exercise as a hobby to get us out of this mess? When we look at it from a different angle where the view is not hindered by the roadblock called self pity things start falling into place where health and good eating habits are the subject, no really they do! I only know this because I have experienced both sides of that coin unfortunately but if someone would have tried to tell me -and they did- what I needed to do back when I was 534 pounds I would have given them a snarky response and finished my food.
Cheesy crumbs on my tee shirt and orange finger tips laying defeated on the sofa sipping root beer from a 2 liter bottle was just a warm up for the ensuing barrage of greasy goodness that was quickly super heating in the microwave is how many a night played out, hell that's how some mornings went! Getting up to walk into the kitchen and get a second helping of whatever was as much exercise as I was going to get or perhaps a walk upstairs to go to the bathroom but either way it wasn't much. I am too hard on myself sometimes with that whole thing because I did after all have a bonifide "excuse" as to why I couldn't exercise what with my back injury but then again did I really have to eat the way that I did? probably not. The stark difference from then to now if compared side by side is absolutely amazing to me, green tea on my breath and more fresh fruit in my house than ever there has been, counting every calorie that goes into my body and eating as many whole foods as I can my eating habits are completely different from then to now. Currently I go to the gym 4 to 6 times per week and leave only because I run out of time, I love being there and working out I look forward to that up feeling that comes after a good solid workout. The warmer months for exercise I ride my bike around the lake that I live on and walk the hilly streets in my area and have been know to run a bit, hiking and running around the yard with the kids is on that list as well and when I think back to how it use to be I cannot believe that it was me.
I always hear that "bad habits are hard to break" but I like to look at the other side of that and apply the same concept, if bad habits are hard to break then wouldn't Good habits be hard to break as well? Yes they are and let me splain, no there is too much, let me sum up because this happened to me just last week. I had a doctors appointment so I missed the gym that afternoon and as it turned out I wasn't feeling that great anyways so I decided to just not go that day at all and the following day I was still not feeling so hot and in the morning I decided that I would not go to the gym that afternoon. That time rolled around and as I was walking out the door it dawned on me that I had earlier decided not to go to the gym yet here I was in my gym clothes, water bottle in hand, head phones in my pocket and walking out the door with everything needed to go to the gym and until that very second had not even thought about it because I was not going, remember? it is a habit for me to get ready to go work out every afternoon now and I honestly feel guilty when I don't make it out for my cardio so I have to insist that if bad habits are hard to break then the good ones are as hard to break because a habit is a habit is a habit I say.
Once more than 500 pounds now more than 200 pounds lighter I have changed my habits and I'm tellin ya as hard as it was to drop those bad habits that were built up over years it will be as tough to lose these good habits that I have created in the past two years. Like a puppet my good habit walked me to the bedroom to get my gym clothes on, fill up my water bottle, grab my head phones and off to the gym instead of a short walk to a cold refrigerator to grab a large meal and return defeated once again to that couch like so many other times in the past.
That's all I got for today, As the fat guy turns will return at its regularly scheduled time and channel tomorrow, but that 6xl cheesy tee shirt will never return if I have anything to say about it.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Lets get right to what the scale had to say to me this morning, first time on it said 322.0 pounds, second hop on again said 322.0 pounds and the third time was more of the same so it looks like a 5 pound drop this week and a new low by 1 pound. I was actually lighter yesterday afternoon at my docs appointment than this morning and think that me staying up until 1am (because of hitting the gym late) drinking water and having a late snack which was within my calories effected the weight this morning a tad. If I were a betting man I would say that next Friday's weigh in will yield me the three teen results that I am looking for if not sometime mid week. Because of the new low this week we get some images of things that weigh the same as I do along with some stuff that weighs as much as I have lost so without further ado here ya go.
This RM-Z250 comes in at 212 pounds and weighs as much as I have lost so far.
While this Vespa GT60 comes in at a whopping 322 pounds and of course that is what I currently weigh.
This weeks weigh in leaves me 47 pounds away from my 275 pound goal and to me that number looks small, some people have 47 pounds to lose and it takes them eons to get there and I just said that it looks small. I suppose that its because I am 212 pounds and 2 years into this whole process so in my mind the time line is a non issue for me where as in the beginning it was all about the time that it would take to get somewhere with the weight loss. Soon I will have lost more weight that I weigh and its a day that I am looking forward to seeing, I need to hit 267 pounds to be at that magical 50% lost mark and that's just 55 pounds and the light at the end of this tunnel that I have been waiting for.
Thursday I came in under my 1700 calories by about 50 or so and I drank more than usual with almost 2 gallons of H2O and 1 gallon of green tea. I did make it to the gym last night around 8:00pm and when I got home I was all hyped up and ended up staying up until around 1:00am drinking about 3/4 of a gallon of that H2O at that point and my sleep suffered a bit last night as well but not too bad and tonight I will get a better nights rest. My trip to the gym was good, I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike followed by 30 minutes on the treadmill at a steady 3.4mph on a 3.5% incline and I passed on weight lifting because of the time that I was there.
Over all a good solid week with a 5 pound total loss and a 1 pound loss if we are basing it off of my lowest weight in this process, I am pleased with the results. Another pound closer to my ultimate goal weight and a week stronger than I was last Friday. Once upon a time I was a 500 pound fella wishing that things could be different and now here I am 212 pounds lighter, I no longer wish for things, instead I do them because we all know that if you wish into one hand and $hit into the other which one will fill up first.
That's all I got for today, you can now return to your regularly scheduled program.
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