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Why does food comfort me?

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


See that bowl of cherries over there? they ain't mine.. When life kicks you in the mouth once you've gained some momentum down that hill and your legs are not doing the propelling any more I dare you to try and stop without injuring yourself. In this case that fat kid peeked out from the dark corner and snatched up some crap food and basked in the stresses of life if only for an evening it still amazes me how easily it can happen and when it does that "I just don't give a damn" attitude comes out because the curve ball came just a little too fast, perhaps this is the life of a fat guy getting thin. Nothing irks me more than the after party part of some bad choices because it seems so easy once its done and over with and the bottom of the hill is coming up fast and the ground is leveling out a bit, but its too late at that point and the only thing that can be done is to get back into the right way to do it mode.



Confused yet? let me splain as much as I am gonna Lucy, apparently when the $hit hits that proverbial fan and a huge plate of stress enters stage left this ol boy starts grabbin for the Doritos. Regular every day stress doesn't get me, Bills pilin up? hand me that banana, Car broke down? hmmm I think a salad for dinner sounds good, That old back injury actin up and keepin me from the gym? lets grill some up some fish! What I speak of is not for the blog but effects it just the same because I don't believe in un-truths otherwise I could merely just post about how great my intake was and pretend to not understand a gain or a no loss Friday weigh in. With that I've already said too much because no one reads this blog to hear about what I didn't do where my health and fitness is concerned so let me get to what I have done to remedy the Tuesday that I had.



Monday I had a great day, stayed within my calories and got to the gym albeit later than usual then yesterday I went over on my calories about...lets just say that I was well over but I did get 3 gallons of fluid into my body before I went to bed last night. This morning upon waking up and having a conversation with myself that ended up with a "Fuvk you you fuvkin fuvk, do what you need to and stop with the stuffing of the pie-hole" I decided that it would be another 3 gallon day and as of right this second I am 2 gallons down so getting to that 3 will be an easy task. Breakfast went down, my pre gym snack went down, and my post gym Whey protein shake is down the hatch as well but I made the decision that I would post before I ate any kind of lunch so here I am. I left for the gym after dropping the kiddo off at school and I did 27 minutes on the stationary bike including a 1 minute cool down, after that I went over and lifted weights working my shoulders and back. When I was finished with the weights I headed over to a treadmill and did my grade program, long story short I was at the gym for an hour and forty five minutes and have to admit that I feel like awesomeness in a bag right now.

Busting my arse for the rest of the week is what I can do to help push the scale back towards where I was last friday but between my Sunday and yesterday I am not expecting much good news on the scale this week. I have been wrong before where my Friday weight is concerned in the past so who knows! Why does food comfort me? What is it about eating that seems to distract so many of us from situations that include stress? this is an answer that I need to find. Though I handle 95% of the stress that comes my way without the reckless abandon that was used last night there is that 5% of the time where its enough that I make the wrong decision with some comfort foods. I suppose the fact that I am down 211 pounds has to speak for something as far as my slips go because to lose 211 pounds slips or no slips I have changed my life and the way I live it for sure.

Thats all I got for today, check in tomorrow to see where the rest of my day brought me.

As Ever
Me

  
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MARCYNA 1/16/2010 8:31AM

    Your question is so important, but the fact is, I've been looking for comfort in food so many times, but never never found any.
When something goes wrong the best comfort for me comes from talking to friends, silent prayer, listening to music, exercising or reading a book ,sometimes journalizing.
Food is not magic , it's what we need to keep our bodies working and it has no power to comfort anybody.

I'm struggling as well with this issue and I'm sure we'll make it. emoticon emoticon

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TIFFANIE150 1/14/2010 11:30AM

    Good questions.

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JO16LARO 1/14/2010 10:46AM

    Food is like a cigarette , habit habit habit. we need to know We can have all the bad food in the world, but do we want it? How does it make us feel afterwards, just not worth it. you are doing great , stay with your heart. emoticon

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SUNNY89 1/14/2010 10:40AM

    As you can see from all your responses we have all been there. I hate to say but chances are you will be there again sometime. We all fall back to food to help make what in hindsight may seem like a small trivial thing ok. Learning how to cope with that is key. You have done so much. You will find a way to work this out too.

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1972ROSES 1/14/2010 10:08AM

    I'm absolutely impressed that you got up the next day, kicked your own butt and got back into the program. That rocks!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/14/2010 10:01AM

    I'm going to agree with Dana. None of us are perfect at this. We are going to have bad days regardless of how good we do and they are the exception.

If you have a bad day in a month, that single day doesn't define the month, the 29 (on average) other days define it.

Don't dwell on it anymore. Like wise old Rafiki says, it doesn't matter, it's in the past.

ttyl

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SWEETZMIX 1/14/2010 9:38AM

    YO, sO I got something to say. I don't think that just "fat" or used to be fat people handle their stress the way we do aka with food, I think like most people do if they could. You know I have had that major breakdown stress for most of 2009. Even got me a 2nd job and piled on a bunch of weight, but it's like...what else could I of done different. I could of just lived my life and you do the same. Sh*t does happen and every sO often those Doritos help. I know we are trying to change our lifestyles and try to find other things to grab other than some chips, but as long as your not doing it every single day it's not a problem. It's a lifetime of habits and I feel if I am not grabbing my ice cream everyday and maybe just once every few weeks when it becomes too much...it's cool. So you cool. You moved on. And that's all I got to say - and this rant can be from my funky mood for today. lol

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DACIUS 1/14/2010 8:13AM

    Sorry to hear you had a rough weigh in. As you already know we cannot lose every single time we rock the scale. But you also know that # is not your only identifier for losing weight. I went two months with not losing any weight, but slimmed several inches off the ol' waist line during that same time.

You keep doing what you know you need to do. Stress is definetely a tough thing to deal with. Especially if that stress takes you out of your routine and element.

Hang in the my friend. Keep that intensity up and you will rock the scale next week.

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DDOORN 1/13/2010 11:48PM

    Food is one of the first and most primal means of satisfying ourselves when we come into this world. We're hard-wired that way.

Advertisers know this, play on this and only serve to heighten our inborn tendency toward food for comfort.

We are truly swimming upstream against some mighty strong currents in attempting to live our lives differently!

I'm still bouncing back from my holiday gain...not a biggie, couple pounds, but they are the STUBBORNEST couple pounds I've had to deal with in a long time!

One down, one to go...and yours will too, I'm sure! :-)

Don

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OLIVERNABBYSMOM 1/13/2010 9:11PM

    I have to really think about this - because you give great food for thought. The very same things crossed my mind just tonight - that I MUST find out what drives me to want to eat badly or I'll never KEEP the weight off. It's a MUST - not just being a robot about eating / exercising but getting to the heart of it - to the root causes that got me in trouble to begin with. Harder than it sounds though.

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EUGENERUGOSA 1/13/2010 9:02PM

    the amount of comments you get on all your blogs should tell you what an inspiration you are to all of us & how well you are doing & how relatable your ups & downs are to your fellow sparkers.

So..you had a bad day. That sucks. But, you immediately picked yourself up & that shows how far you have come.

Hope whatever was stressing you has been resolved & the rest of your week is happy & healthy.

BTW..if you can find the secret to stress-eating..sign me up! I will be your first client, it is my MAIN problem & I am stress drinking a beer as I type this.

Here's to stress free days ahead for us both.

Tricia

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SGRONOW1 1/13/2010 8:38PM

    We can not deprive ourselfs for the rest of our lives. Even the skinniest healthiest people have the "omg, I can't beleive I've ate this bad." I think if we add our favorite foods into our daily lives (in moderation) these OMG moments may not happen as bad.

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LIMELITESHINES 1/13/2010 8:26PM

    Eating makes us feel good. Not because of anything other than FOOD TASTES GOOD. And that's pleasurable. And it's easy to do. So when we're feeling like crap . . we grab for something easy and pleasurable. Enter comfort food.

course we feel like aholes later. But while it's happening?

Bliss.

But it looks like you nipped it right in the bud and got yourself going again. THAT RIGHT THERE is proof that you're a new person. 2 months? nope. 2 weeks? nope. 2 days? nope. Not even a full day. You shook yourself . . and got moving again.

You. are a success. :)

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/13/2010 8:11PM

    Alas! I hit a wall yesterday too. I stress ate as well. And like you, 95% of things don't bother me. But there is this one REALLY BIG stressor in my life that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. And I ate my feelings. Not horribly, I'm sure I only went over by about 400-500 calories. But I still went over in a rather big way. And I still stuffed my face when I had to deal with THAT stress. I also didn't squeeze in my normal workout and, AND I'm having a hard time getting off my "ask" today.

But, I think I need to suck it up and go downstairs to the treadmill. Even if I don't run today, a walk should help, right? What do you think? It's ok. Really, you can tell me to, "Shut up and suck it up, Buttercup!"

Here is to a better tomorrow for both of us!

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SKYEFYR 1/13/2010 8:04PM

  Botzzz, there are times we all turn to comfort food. Don't laugh, but I think that in part we have been "trained" to see food as comforting. It's quick, it's easy to come by, and let's be honest - it doesn't judge us. It sits there and triggers our pleasure sensors as we eat, and doesn't condemn us for whatever stupid shyte that happened to put us in this funk to begin with.

Depending on our upbringing, food = love in many cultures. I'm italian, we are trained from birth to eat. We're told good cooks put love into their food. (I know I sure do.) And grandmoms are supposed to bake cookies and cakes and they spoil us by letting us eat as much as we want when we're with them. What can be more comforting than eating something that has love in it? Why not turn to something that makes you feel "spoiled" and special when you're down?

I grew up as a freak in my family. The skinny kid. And yet, once I got away from the stresses that made me not want to eat, I almost immediately developed weight issues. I think issues with food are just something we need to be prepared to deal with. Just like relationship issues. No matter how hard you try, sooner or later they happen. And honestly, I think you deal with them better than most.

I think you handled it perfect for you. Me? I don't get quite so down on myself. Maybe I should. I think you'll have a good weigh in this week even with the slip. And Botzzz, congratulations on pulling yourself out of the funk so quickly. I lift my glass of water to you.

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ZIRCADIA 1/13/2010 8:00PM

    IT HAPPENS. No one is perfect. You are doing great to get used to dealing with regular stress, and then the ultra stressful happens and you're not used to it. Maybe someday you will get more used to some of that stuff? Maybe when you've been bombarded with the random ultra stressful day enough times into this healthy lifestyle change? Like years and years from now ?:D HHEHEHE That's what I figure. I'm gonna be working on this my whole life, I've only been doing it almost 3 years now... compared to the other almost 24 years of my life that's nothing. When I'm 50 I'll have the majority of my years spent living a healthy lifestyle and maybe then I'll be almost perfect. ;) hehehe. You're doing the best because after a bad day, you're already problem solving and getting right back on track. *HUGS*

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/13/2010 7:01PM

    In the long haul, you have the right attitude. You're not going to do it all right all the time! And hey, if you really do handle 95% of the stress without problems, you can't really beat yourself up when the 5% comes around. You picked yourself up and got on with it. You cannot un-eat the food, so let it be. I've had an exceptional rough few days, and I didn't do all I was suppose to, but I know things will get better and I do what I can today. emoticon You're an awesome guy, so keep focusing on that!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 1/13/2010 6:36PM

    At least you're working through your anger and addressing your feelings rather than numbing yourself and falling back.

I wish I could answer the question about why we eat. I sense it has something to do with hormones, like ghrelin and leptin, and neurotransmitter, like serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine. Whatever it is, obesity is a chronic condition. To me, this means that once it's gone, it can come back. We have to fight to maintain our health and sanity. But better that than sitting in a stupor in front of the TV, licking the doritos off our fingers.

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/13/2010 6:00PM

    This is tough and I also hit the wall yesterday! I remember an old song by the late Peggy Lee "Is this all there is" (just dated myself), and that was how I felt yesterday.

But today is another story, dusted myself off and put one foot in front of the other.

Looking forward to your next blog



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VLVTGRRL 1/13/2010 5:57PM

    BOTZZZ, I really like your recovery plan! I need to remember it the next time I screw up!

I don't like pushing myself hard at the gym because being sore totally demotivates me. So, if I THREATEN myself with a kick in the butt at the gym BEFORE I stuff my face, maybe that will deter me. ;-)

Thank you for your honesty, your blog, and sharing your struggles. ((((HUGS)))) I hope it was a one-day stressor... not something you will be dealing with long term...?

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WESTCOASTGIRL1 1/13/2010 5:16PM

    I know exactly what you are talking about. It would be wonderful if one could figure out why, but I am not sure I will. Perhaps it is just a moment of pure weakness amongst the stresses????
Loved your blog.
You have come so far that is amazing and inspirational!

Here is to a great day!

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JASONGRIZ 1/13/2010 5:12PM

    I'm usually only a lurker of your blog but today's post was like it came from my very mouth. If there were such a thing as a mind reader, you did it and posted my very thoughts. Yesterday was such a F' it day and I just had no care in the world for eating right or exercising. Now I wake up today knowing I only have one choice and that is to go right back to what I know best. I don't have much faith in my weigh-in this week now but I can't let it affect how I spend the rest of my week.

Thanks for the good posts, Botz!

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/13/2010 5:08PM

    I hit the wall yesterday, too. Must have been in the air! My downfall was cheese. And for no good reason whatsoever. Just stressed at the office and feeling frustrated and before you know it I was jamming cheese into my mouth by the handful! Booo! So today has been perfect for food and I need to take in some more water..

Sounds like you KILLED it at the gym today - GREAT JOB! You might just even it all out, yet! HUGS FRIEND!

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/13/2010 5:03PM

    I had the same thing yesterday-ate great all day and for some reason(mine wasn't stress) I hit the chocolate in the house and hit it hard! Decided that I would get rid of the candy today-give it to the kids(it was theirs in the first place). Still struggling in late afternoon making dinner time-why? No idea. Just want to throw junk in my mouth. I am tracking,though,so it's gonna hit me in the face. Veggies and chicken breast for dinner...nothin' more.
Great blog! Your honesty and way with words really has an impact.
Stay on the wagon,Buddy! You're on your way and will get to where you're going.

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Monday morning quarterback.

Monday, January 11, 2010


Last Friday I hit my new low weight since starting down this path and while atop the mountain looking down at the world with my belt cinched in a couple notches more felt awesome it doesn't mean that I can let up with what I am doing. Saturday morning as per usual I woke up and stepped on the scale and 322.6 flashed on the display, and I ended up going over calories by a bag of movie popcorn (Sherlock Homles was pretty good) but that's not all, I was out all day and didn't get enough fluids into the day and I did have a couple drinks with my neighbor. Sunday came with a large side of stressful situations with my son and I honestly just didn't care about watching what I was eating, that's not to say that I gorged myself but to say that I counted a single bite would simply be a lie. Managing to get a big salad in for dinner last night helped a bit but I know that I went well over my calorie limit for the day by more than a few calories and I did step on the scale this morning and lets just leave it at I am up in weight, retention I am sure, but up none the less.



Thursday was the last day that I made it to the gym, It just was not in my cards this weekend which means that I will make every attempt to go each day this week. Today I will have a cleansing kind of day to get anything out of my system that I put in over the weekend, or should I say that I didn't put in namely H2O. I am 64oz of H2O down as I write this and I am planning on flooding my body today with fluids to help with the rehab from Sunday and there is a gallon of green tea on my kitchen counter that I will start into as soon as the publish button is clicked.

Along with all of the fluids that are in my immediate future is much fruits and vegetables because today will be a meat free day. I sometimes do an all veg day where I do not eat any meat products and I limit the cheeses etc which isn't too far from normal anyways but today will be one of those days in an effort to squeeze the excess sodium that I am sure is floating around in me out. Today's menu will consist of, My breakfast which was a bowl of cereal and I will have a pear in a couple of hours followed by veggie soup for lunch and some more fruit after that between lunch and dinner. For dinner I am making Turkey burgers for the family but I will have a big salad with baby spinach as a base and then off to the gym as I have to go later than normal today. Upon returning home I shall sit down to watch Heroes with however much fruit I need to finish the remainder of 1700 calories and perhaps a whey protein shake for good measure and a protein boost, with some simple planning it suddenly becomes easy.

It was a less than stellar weekend for me all the way around where diet and exercise goes but that does not mean that its time to pull out the good silverware and order up a rum cake so that I can sit alone and sad eating until the last bite goes down. I believe that is where so many people fail at dropping weight, a day or two of not so perfect eating turns into feelings of failure and down the hill the snow ball rolls until our midsections are as big as that very snow ball. Some days will not be as good as they could have or should have been but using that as an excuse to keep that ball rolling in the wrong direction sits firmly on each of our shoulders because we are responsible for what we do every day.

This week should be interesting with my weekend of not so great choices but in the grand scheme its not anything to worry about as far as I am concerned. My plan will be to work a little harder this week at staying strict with the intake, drink a little extra for a couple of days to counteract some of the sodium build up from the weekend of non hydration and to get to the gym every day without fail and while there work just a little harder than normal which is already hard enough! Walking the walk for 741 days now I am in a state of mind that assures that I will be successful with all of my health goals even when a random not so on track day pops into my immediate vicinity.

That's all I got, Thanks for following along and remember who makes the decisions.

As Ever
Me

  
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HEIDIS2NDCHANCE 1/12/2010 10:49AM

    Botzz....as usual I appreciate your sincere honesty and helpful reminders (i.e. kicks in the butt). You simply rock and make me want to be a better person. Thank you!
Best of luck to you on the water intake and gym. Are you still running and training for a race?
Hugs, Heidi

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SHUCG1004 1/12/2010 10:20AM

    I liked your blog. It's almost easier to beat ourselves up because it's what we're used to doing, but once we realize it is SO destructive, we will fight to forgive and to recover. I'm proud of you for fighting and for realizing the pattern and doing something to change it. emoticon

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CECE0330 1/12/2010 9:28AM

    Mmmmmmmmmmm...rum cake. emoticon

Yup, I totally fall into that trap too. I failed today, there's no hope for tomorrow, might as well not care and promise myself I'll be back on track the next day. Course, that SAME thought repeats itself day after day, so the "next day" sometimes really turns into a couple months from now......Oy.

Eat that salad, get to the gym, drink that water! All will be well.

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JMSURPRENANT 1/12/2010 8:54AM

    "This week should be interesting with my weekend of not so great choices but in the grand scheme its not anything to worry about as far as I am concerned. ..."

"Walking the walk for 741 days now I am in a state of mind that assures that I will be successful with all of my health goals even when a random not so on track day pops into my immediate vicinity."

Indeed, great attitude and plan. One thing I've learned in my 2 years of working a program, is we really only have today. There are going to be days, or even weeks when we backslide and if we look at the long view, whereas its great to have goals, it can be daunting.

I always focus on the day ahead. If I 'blew it' yesterday, I'll examine what I did wrong, but then let it go - you don't get a do-over, just today. It may be recovery-speak, but taking it one day at a time, really works and leads to success.

Hope you enjoyed the movie and the family stress has gotten better.

My strategy for movies is to sneak in a bag of either microwaved popcorn or a bag of SmartFood White Cheddar Popcorn and enjoy it with either a bottle of water, a diet iced tea or lemonsade or coffee at the cinema.

Best,
James
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DDOORN 1/12/2010 3:55AM

    Re: "I believe that is where so many people fail at dropping weight, a day or two of not so perfect eating turns into feelings of failure and down the hill the snow ball rolls until our midsections are as big as that very snow ball."

So SO TRUE! That situation is when we find out whether we can OUT-STUBBORN our weight & appetite!

WTG BOTZZZ!

Don

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/12/2010 1:24AM

    I backslid a little yesterday, but today I tightened up the reigns and got back on that horse and rode it. And so did you! I love the idea of veggie day. I loves veggies. ;)

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DACIUS 1/11/2010 9:17PM

    Don't be to hard on yourself bud. 1 bad day does not equal a slide. You rock it this week and you will be fine.

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JBMT08 1/11/2010 4:53PM

    I am glad that you have the day in perspective. So many times we just "throw in the towel" because we had that slice of cake, or we had those slices of pizza, or that cheeseburger with french fries. I am stlowly learning and adapting what you have already established in your lifestyle. Accept what you ate, and move on! Thank you for telling us about your happening this weekend. Especially coming from you, this helps to propel all of us at least through the rest of today and into tomorrow! emoticon

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/11/2010 3:59PM

    My weekend wasn't so hot either, so you're not alone! I'm having a pretty miserable Monday, so I hope your week at least is looking up.

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MSNICHOLS39 1/11/2010 1:58PM

    It happens. It's great that you can positive self-talk yourself back on the right track! I believe this is the most important aspect of maintaining our success long-term.

Andrea

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MSNICHOLS39 1/11/2010 1:58PM

    It happens. It's great that you can positive self-talk yourself back on the right track! I believe this is the most important aspect of maintaining our success long-term.

Andrea

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/11/2010 1:18PM

    I can say that my hydration took a huge hit yesterday and the dreaded PIZZA came to the house. The backs of my hands look ok, but I am really going to need to pound some water this week to see anything worthwhile happen.

I agree about Holmes. It was pretty good, but I was expecting some more humor in it. Not sure what the next movie for the house is going to be.

ttyl

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MARLA_S 1/11/2010 12:27PM

    I agree with you that so many people give up because they didn't adhere perfectly to their eating and exercise plans. What a backward way of thinking, but I admit that I think that way too sometime. Thanks for the reminder that slip-ups don't need to equal giving up!!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/11/2010 11:12AM

    I recently re-discovered a love for trail mix. I find that it's the perfect combo before or after a run to keep me going. Just a teeny quarter cup and I'm happy! However, my husband switched brands on me. Didn't think anything about it until I was running and my feet started to go numb. Arrrgh! I'm one of those people who has the teeniest amount of salt anywhere near exercise and I puff up bigger than a puffer fish. It then takes days to flush my system. So, you have my sympathy and understanding. And you'll get through.

Baby spinach sounds wonderful! Can't wait until gardening season is here!

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VEEJAY3 1/11/2010 10:56AM

    Sigh. I always wished I was like my mom in ONE regard (and please ... just this ONE). I wish I stopped eating during times of stress. Yep. The more stressed she gets, the thinner she gets. I reach for the Parmesan/Garlic potato chips.

Er ... I mean I USED to. (slaps herself hard on both cheeks) I USED to!!! (she blinks, realizes she's a new woman now).

If you don't stop smacking me around, I'm not coming by here anymore, dude.
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SWEETZMIX 1/11/2010 10:28AM

    Haha, glad you got to see the movie. Told ya!! The Blindside is next on my list! Heard it's really, really good! Anyway hope your son is doing better! Family first!

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Here's to another awesome week!

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PUMPKINFACE73 1/11/2010 10:26AM

    Ddid I read you are eating baby spinach for dinner??...hmmm...I heard that stuff is good :)You are going to kick butt this week, have fun @ the gym


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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/11/2010 10:18AM

    Way to go!! You've got the right mind set and that's what this ride is anyway: mindgames. You can play them to let yourself go or play them to pick yourself up and move on in the right direction. You are obviously doing the latter...as it should be!
I love reading your blogs! So down to earth and truthful and honest. No sugar coating here....keep it up and thanks for great writing!

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/11/2010 10:06AM

    It always takes me a few days to get rid of sodium buildup. This is a fresh week and I know you will be successful. You are almost there!

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Weigh in, Only 48 pounds from goal??? when did this happen!?!

Friday, January 08, 2010

Like a child on Christmas morning I sprung from my bed today and straight to the scale, after a quick detour to the bathroom of course. Onto the scale I went..but before I get to all of that Thursday went very well with the intake, exercise and hydration. 1790 calories went down the hatch and I had a big salad for dinner along with my gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of H2O I would call that day a success where my intake was concerned. My trip to the gym yesterday was great too! I did 20 minutes on the bike and did sprints @125-135 rpm every 3 minutes followed by the incline routine that I mentioned in an earlier post, I skipped the weights for the day because I was running out of time so 50 minutes of cardio would have to do, over all I am happy with how the day turned out.

Oh I did weigh in this morning, lets get to that! The first time that my feet made contact with the cold scale the number that flashed on the display was 323.4lbs, number two said 322.8lbs followed by 323.0lbs! We will use that last one and call it 323lbs for the week, That is a 4 pound drop from last weeks weigh in! I am now down 211lbs total or forty two 5lb bags of sugar and only have 48 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal of 275 pounds. With this weeks weigh in comes a new low weight and that means some pictures of things that weigh as much as I have lost and weigh the same as me so here goes.


This 1971 T350 Rebel comes in at 323 pounds like yours truly, these bikes are starting to get smaller!


This little fellow is a 1969 T 125 Stinger and comes in at 211 lbs which is what I have lost to date, can you imagine carrying that around with you all day?

Normally I don't have two weeks in a row with huge numbers like this week but I will do everything in my power to try and get to the teens come next Friday as I believe that once I hit the teens a fire shall be lit beneath my ever shrinking posterior and sub 300 pounds will be just around the corner. Keep going to the gym, keep eating as many whole foods as possible without obsessing over it, keep drinking my Green tea and H2O, Get much sleep...This is the plan, this has always been the plan and this is what works for me so I must stick with it.

Two hundred eleven pounds lighter I sit here today writing this post, The same man yet so different that I literally do not recognize myself in the mirror at times. I can't say that its been the easiest thing that I have done in my life but honestly it has not been as hard as I once thought it would be. Starting out at 534 pounds and looking down the road at the end goal was 2 years ago and but a speck in the distance, now that I am only 48 pounds from that original goal that I set for myself, looking back at the days of 500 plus pounds is getting smaller and smaller in the rear view mirror and I see great things coming up in the road for me. People will look at me funny when I say "You just have to decide to do it and follow through" or "Move more eat less" and I usually get a response something like "Yeah right, if it was that easy no one would be fat" and honestly it would have been my response once upon a time too but with every inch of my ever shrinking self I say, It IS that easy. Perhaps when one is faced with the thought of an early death because of a weight issue the decision gets easier to make because of the alternate ending to the flick but the bottom line is that if you make the decision to do it, you can and will do it.

I have taken enough of your time with my ramblings this fine Friday morning so the end has come to this episode of As the fat guy turns....I suppose that soon I will not be able to say that and will need to come up with a new title to this soap opera because "As the svelte guy turns" just doesn't sound as good. Thanks for following along and bearing witness to just an average Joe dropping Maury Povich kind of weight with no magic tricks and no suction devices, just plain good old fashioned determination and a few simple rules.

Fini

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CHARITY_DAWN 1/20/2010 11:58PM

    Way to go!!!! congrats on your weight loss

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PINKNFITCARLA 1/18/2010 6:01PM

    Thanks for the great blog and the motivation! You've down so awesome!! Keep up the great work :-)

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DAVEOZ 1/18/2010 1:21PM

    You are simply unstoppable! Great stuff!

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SCIGEEK 1/18/2010 8:39AM

    Amazing! I love the pictures of what you weight and what you have lost...that is truly inspiring me to do the same thing for my own weight loss. Keep up the good work!

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ALLGROWNUP83 1/17/2010 5:26PM

    Way to go, and keep on the great work.

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 1/16/2010 9:24PM

    *lol* I don't think I'm brave enough to find things that weigh as much as I do now, but nonetheless your weight loss, hard work & dedication are BEYOND impressive.

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SANYA_SHNICK 1/16/2010 9:37AM

    very impressive! thanks for the motivation... :)

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IMALSR4GOOD 1/15/2010 9:27PM

    What a great idea! To find things that compare to the weight you have lost. What a motivator! Thanks and congratulations on the great success, good luck on the next success!

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FYRESHAMEN 1/15/2010 9:50AM

    emoticon What you've done so far is really AWESOME!!! But it sounds like you already have a "a fire ... lit beneath [your] ever shrinking posterior" and that's emoticon! Keep up the fabulous job! Really excited to hear when you reach your goal!

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DCROCKETS 1/15/2010 9:21AM

    You are the man Botzzz! I ma going to start finding things that weigh what I have lost. Great motivator to keep losing! emoticon

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WALKWITME 1/15/2010 6:46AM

    Keep Pushing Onward I can see You at The End Of The Road...lol

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MICHELLE_391 1/14/2010 9:23PM

    WOW! You, sir, are inspiring! I like your idea of posting pictures of things that weigh as much as you have lost. As if looking in the mirror weren't tangible enough, an entire bike as proof of your work? How can you miss that, even on a bad day? Keep up the good work! emoticon

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:43PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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INTOTHESOUTH 1/13/2010 11:23PM

    So happy I came upon your blog. Keep up the incredible work and thanks for sharing it with the rest of us!!

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J0HNS0NLA 1/13/2010 5:04PM

    I kinda like the sound of "as the svelte guy turns" ...! :) emoticon

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BETHSTL 1/13/2010 2:42PM

    Woo Hoo! That's incredible. You are incredible..YOU ROCK!!! Congrats on all of your achievements!

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-Beth

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CODEMAULER 1/13/2010 2:18PM

    I am in awe and have nothing but respect for your journey! I followed Yoovie here - darn that SparkFriend Feed - and see another SparkPeople success. Congratulations on losing a motorcycle's worth of extra weight (that is an amazing perspective to consider).

I'd love to add you as a friend so I can be there to celebrate the steps and challenges ahead for BOTH of us! ~ Trish

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LIMELITESHINES 1/13/2010 1:35PM

    Man you are a force to be reckoned with. GREAT WORK. 48 lbs is NOTHIN! Look at where you've come! You'll be down those 48 in a blink! :)

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NEWYORKORCHIDS 1/13/2010 1:35PM

  OMG! You've lost me! I'm 210 (right now)...so, if you gave me a piggy back, that would be what you used to weigh. That's amazing!

Go you!

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AMYTAIF 1/13/2010 1:14PM

    how about... "as my skinny ass turns".... or "days of my muscular thighs".... or "the bald and the beautiful":)... or "the young and the rested"......... sorry.... it's the best i could do:). all i can say is AWESOME AWESOME!!! keep movin' and groovin':)

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YOOVIE 1/13/2010 12:59PM

    that's less than 50! HOME STRETCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SEVENKITTY 1/13/2010 12:34PM

  Thanks for a great blog!

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JELLI-LEAN 1/13/2010 12:09PM

    WOW... you are a machine! emoticon on your incredible weight loss!

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EMACFAR 1/13/2010 11:33AM

    awesome work! keep it up! :)

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KENCHRIS401 1/13/2010 11:01AM

    Congrats on your weight loss thus far, you are truly an inspiration. I thouroughly enjoyed reading this.

Keep up the good work!

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LOSTINLOVE1226 1/13/2010 10:43AM

    You are amazing, and certainly and inspiration to many others! Congrats on your success thus far, and keep working towards that goal! You can do it! emoticon

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JANI-LOU 1/13/2010 10:35AM

  Good for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Thanks for sharing! It's inspiring and then some! The bike visual is fantastic! I do the same thing when I pick up 40 lb feed sack full of grain, and think, "How did I ever carry this around all day?" lol

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DIXIE_AMAZON 1/13/2010 8:12AM

    Great job!

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SUGARBABY60 1/13/2010 5:19AM

    What a communicator you are both visually and in script. You are right it is the DECISION to change that starts the ball rolling, following through is the easy part. Super great job on all your hard work. Glad you have decided not to die early but to "Live Long and Prosper" as the Trekkies (Star Trek)would say.

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NANHBH 1/13/2010 1:36AM

    Fini,

You ROCK! What an awesome story! Keep up the good work. You are an inspiration!

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CALIFCAS 1/12/2010 10:56PM

  I always appreciate your honesty about losing weight. No secrets, just do the work! You are proof that hard work pays off and it reminds me of what I need to do to get back on track. Congrats to you!
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DAWNWS1 1/12/2010 4:53PM

    Wow!!!! LOVE the visual of the bikes! You've lost more than I weighed when I started, and that is just amazing!!! You are an amazing inspiration!!!! emoticon

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NWFL59 1/12/2010 4:02PM

    emoticon Excellent results and I'm glad you are enjoying success from your hard work. emoticon

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HBURGUS 1/12/2010 3:59PM

    I love how you use the lil bike to show how much you have lost. It's a great visual and keep up the great work.

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SUESMITH73 1/12/2010 3:53PM

    emoticonI can't imagine carrying an extra 211 lbs.

You have done an amazing job on this journey & it will not be long before you reach your goal! I hope you saved a pair of your old pants to hold up for your pictures.

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 1/12/2010 3:43PM

    What an amazing story. Thanks for sharing, it was very motivating.
Move more, eat less. It sounds so easy, especially when paired with your blog. Again, congratulations and wishing you continued success.

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CLAIRESML 1/12/2010 2:40PM

    Wow you have done an incredible job! Keep going..... I enjoyed your post emoticon

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SPRINGTIME69 1/12/2010 10:14AM

    FANTASTIC

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Love the visuals of how much you've lost!!

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TRICIA08 1/12/2010 8:22AM

    WOW! What an awesome post to read first thing in the morning! Congrats on rockin' it out!

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MASE72 1/12/2010 6:54AM

    Awesome emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/12/2010 1:20AM

    Wow. I feel a little breathless reading this - you are getting so close now! Promise me that when you finish losing weight you will keep writing blogs about your life adventures - I would miss you too much if you leave SP. :) Hugs.

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ALEXSGIRL1 1/9/2010 7:36PM

    awesome

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SJDROPPINGLBS 1/9/2010 9:54AM

    Awesome

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/9/2010 9:21AM

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You've really been sticking to plan, I can tell! Wooohooo! Congratulations! Keep Going! :)

Cheers,
Maya

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DIVINE40 1/9/2010 5:50AM

    awesome.

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SNEAKYGREG 1/9/2010 3:47AM

    Dude!!! That is awesome and even if you don't hit the teens next Friday you will the one after that with the way you have been going

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VLVTGRRL 1/9/2010 3:13AM

    Botzzz, CONGRATULATIONS! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!

1. Move more, eat less
2. You just have to decide to do it and follow through
3. Figure out the mind games--why do we not try for fear of failure? (Or the bazillion other mental issues I and others have yet to master... GREAT JOB MASTERING IT!)

Great work on a new low weight, Botzzz. I'm proud of you and motivated, too!


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Nothing profound, nothing witty, just a pre-weigh in post.

Thursday, January 07, 2010


This week was an extremely strict one where the intake is concerned, I ate within my calorie range every day including the weekend which has been as of late a little bit loosey goosey when counting by the ounce. Making it to the gym has been priority one since the kiddos went back to school which is cool because that's my me time! and its what I need to do to keep the weight dropping. Drinking enough water and tea has never been a problem for me as I like water and I love green tea which means I am always hydrated, in fact as I type this I am on my 2nd giant mug of hot green tea because I forgot to brew the cold stuff last night, I do love my tea. Looking for a new low weight in the am because tomorrow is weigh in day for the blog, I have done an exceptional job this week with all aspects of eating good, exercise, sleep and staying hydrated and want it to reflect on the scale in the am.



Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am looking for a shiny new low weight for myself, will it be a motorcycle? perhaps a body builder? I never know what that "low weight" image will be! Todays post shall be short and sweet because I have a few things that I need to take care of this morning so that I can make it to the gym on time. Keep on keepin on and all that and make sure to pop in on me tomorrow to see the new low! yes I am predicting a new low even though Tuesday was the last time I got on the scale.

Thanks for following along and all that, now ask yourself "what have I done for my health today?".

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/7/2010 4:43PM

    Good Luck!

"What have I done for me today"? I went back to bed because I felt run down. I'm going to listen to my body and make it a "gentle" exercise day. I'll do some yoga, go for a walk, and run through the bootcamp video. I will truly treat this as more of a "rest" day before resuming c25k training tomorrow.

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THEBOOKBINDER 1/7/2010 3:33PM

    Hope your weigh in goes well for you!

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/7/2010 12:15PM

    Good luck!!! I can't wait for tomorrow's post! No matter how the scale turns, we're all still proud of you!
As for you question, off to do the 30 Day Shred today! Had to take two days off so I wouldn't hurt myself :P


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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/7/2010 11:30AM

    I will really be surprised if we don't see that new low. It sounds like this week has been picture perfect in the healthy lifestyle category.

I liked the NBA player. That was fantastic.

ttyl

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LIVINHEALTHY4 1/7/2010 11:15AM

    I know your weigh in will be a success! Looking forward to tomorrow!

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And now for MY health, I'm going to do the Boot Camp workout and jump on the elliptical machine!

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KNH771 1/7/2010 10:47AM

    Do you have a chart that has the different weight comparisons on them, or do you just look them up? I love that tool to visualize your weight loss.

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PUMPKINFACE73 1/7/2010 10:33AM

    Good luck with the weigh in tomorrow, I am excited to hear how you did.

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OLIVERNABBYSMOM 1/7/2010 10:02AM

    I'm guessing you're gonna have a good weigh in. But hang in there - even if it would be lower than you think - no doubt the rest will show the next time .... our bodies are strange things at times. Unique.

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MSNICHOLS39 1/7/2010 10:01AM

    Good Luck! emoticon

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PUCKYGIRL 1/7/2010 9:59AM

    Good luck in the morning the new weight loss is going to be outstanding. You can do it & will do it. You really are a true inspiration.
Take care.
Best wishes
Barb

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Tell me is it time to get down....

Wednesday, January 06, 2010


Chugging right along this week I am feeling great about whats been done thus far, this is my off day from the gym but I may go anyways in an effort to push the weight down as far as I can by Friday. Something that I've noticed lately at the gym is the amount of people that are there when I am has more than doubled, I guess its all of the "new resolution" people hitting the gym and that's cool! but its making it harder to find a machine to work out on. The gym that I go to is a pretty good size with tons of machines so I say harder to find a machine but its more like find the machine that I am use to using, Yesterday I walk in and head to "my" bike and there is someone on it. The first thought in my head was "now doesn't she know that's MY bike for this time slot of the day?" I grinned at my thought and took the bike next to her and rode my ride. I found that the treadmill was the same story as I walked towards the part of the gym where I usually use the hamster wheel just about every single machine had someone on it, many of them fumbling with the controls and I thought about when I first joined the gym.



Its funny how when I walked in on my first day I felt like I didn't really belong and that all eyes were going to be on me and I can't help but to think many of the new faces in the gym are going through that same thing. Unsure of how to work the equipment, unsure of how to work the controls and trying to remember to wipe the machine down when they are done using it all while trying to stay focused on the mission at hand which is to get moving and lose some weight or get healthier. I expect the crowd to do a couple things in the coming weeks, I think it will thin out a bit as people learn what time of day works for them and adjust their schedule, I believe that some will lose their drive and simple stop coming and I think that a few of the new faces will become fixtures at that time of day as I have. The trainers are in full effect running around from person to person trying to sell their services and there seems to be more employees around in general showing people around the gym with the "tour" in an attempt to gain their patronage.

With this new atmosphere and wall to wall people Zeusmeatball strikes again with the singing aloud because of getting into the music a little too much, and this time its a doozy. About half way through my trot on the hamster wheel at an 11.5% incline Lo Fidelity all stars "Battleflag" which I just uploaded onto my mp3 comes through my ear buds and before I know it I am tapping on the treadmill in beat with the music. Lipping the words but no sound as I am working through the incline I can feel myself letting go of the fact that there are other people in my immediate vicinity and know that my head is moving to the music a bit now and there is a little more swagger in my stride to go with the song and then it happened. Loud and I am sure unexpected to all of the people around me I say "Tell me is it time to get down on your muthafudgin' knees" (I did not say Fudge!) and as quick as I said it I realized just like Ralphie did in "a Christmas story" when he dropped the lug nuts in the snow what I had said. Trying to look as natural as possible I glance to my left and the girl had ear phones on but when I looked to my right this girl was ear to ear smile looking right at me so I just shrugged at her and smiled back and kept going, she chuckled and again I think that its time to stop listening to the mp3 when I am on the treadmill.



Tuesday went pretty good over all, my calories were a bit higher than normal coming in at 1865 because I was really hungry in the am so I made myself a whey protein shake around 10:00am to keep that feeling away but otherwise was a text book menu. I drank 1.25 gallons of tea and just over 1 gallon of Straight H2O and did 20 minutes on the bike at the gym along with my incline workout on the treadmill. The incline workout is just 3.1 mph (for now) and starting at 3.5% incline increasing the incline by 2% every two minutes until I hit 11.5% and come back down by 2% every two minutes until I hit 3.5% again followed by a 2 minute cool down @2.5mph and finishing with a run @6.0 mph for as long as I can go.

My goal of 300 pounds by April 2nd is seeming less daunting to me lately and I am unsure why, Making that goal is what I am focusing on right now and because I have a target to shoot at it feels very attainable. Move more, eat less and apparently sing at the gym is what works for weight loss but I need to stop doing one of those three things else I become to someone "Sings on the treadmill guy" hey! its better than "fat dude on the treadmill" right?! and with that the end has come to the latest edition of as the fat guy turns, You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.

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OLIVERNABBYSMOM 1/7/2010 9:56AM

    You are the BEST. I thoroughly enjoyed reading this. What a determination and inspiration you are. This is our YEAR!!!! I had to laugh cause I went into the workout room at work (small) first day back after the holidays and to my surprise, not one machine open. Luckily a lady was finishing up on "my" Eliptical haha ... but yesterday I wised up and went earlier than normal to avoid that problem. But you can tell it's a New Year. Sad to say that many will not hang in there till March and by summer the place will be empty. By then I don't care cause I like to go OUTSIDE and walk but it's definitely a new year and new people - some of whom will stay with it; many will not.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/7/2010 7:19AM

    Sing to your hearts content. If a line slips out every now and then, so be it. You get a laugh out of it with one of your gym mates and that is a good thing as well.

Keep it up. You rock!!

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SLMTRACE 1/6/2010 5:27PM

    That is the best movie ever, and I laughed till I had tears! Thanks for sharing that!
Hope you have a fantastic rest of your day and a great tomorrow!
Cheers!

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MSNICHOLS39 1/6/2010 5:13PM

    Free to be you and me, baby! Way to get me giggling at the computer!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/6/2010 1:56PM

    LOL! Singing on the treadmill, more, loudly blurting out inappropriate lyrics on the treadmill sounds like something I'd do! At least you were enjoying your time, right?

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SPARQUEE 1/6/2010 1:41PM

    I love your whole attitude. It is inspirational. Thank you for sharing.

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SHRNGRD 1/6/2010 12:00PM

    LOL! that's awesome! I know how you feel though. Some music just gets you a movin'!!! Good luck to your goal! You can do it! :o)

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/6/2010 11:48AM

    I agree that you will make your goal, but yea best stop the singing emoticon

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SKYEFYR 1/6/2010 10:22AM

  Botzzz, you are definitely going to make your goal!

I think it's funny you have "your" machines at the gym. Nice to see you playing nicely and sharing with the other kids though.

GO BOTZZZ!!!

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/6/2010 10:17AM

    Sounds to me like you had a pretty good time at the gym; even if people were on your machines ^_^

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PLUSTODOWNSIZE 1/6/2010 10:15AM

    I sometimes wonder if I have accidentally sang aloud to one of my songs on my MP3 at the gym. Some of the songs would surprise people...lol. But, whatever gets you moving! emoticon

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