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Friday, January 15, 2010

This morning started off as any other Friday morning, bathroom then straight to the scale and getting right to it I weighed 327.0 pounds which is 4 pounds more than last weeks weigh in. This up is not exactly a "real" up as much as it is a fluctuation in my opinion because even though I missed the gym all last weekend and had a couple days of stress eating I know that over all I did not eat 14000 extra calories. My guess is that by Sunday I will have flushed the sodium out and gotten my balance back but it is what it is and for the sake of being consistent it shall be written. I may just for the fun of it do a weigh in on both Saturday and Sunday to see where the wheel stops and see if my theory is correct. Thursday was a pretty good day with my calories coming in at 1735 total, I drank 1.5 gallons of H2O and a gallon of green tea (the tea was drank an hour and a half before bed and still may be on board somewhat), I made it to the gym yesterday as well where I did 25 minutes on the bike along with 20 minutes on the treadmill at 5.5% grade and 3.2mph, all in all a good day.



I posted yesterday a post called "No sugar coating" and noticed something when I looked at my hits tracker page for the blog, that post got less than half of the normal hits that any regular old Thursday post gets on average (Not here on spark! I got the "Voted popular blog" tag for that post here!). I found it interesting because normally Thursday is a heavier traffic day and I always assumed that it was because its my "pre weigh in" day but I started thinking about it and wondered if the title of the post had anything to do with the lack of hits. I thought about how when I was bigger that I did not want to hear it unless it was sending waves of pity my way and blunt truths were not what I wanted to hear and that title might lead someone to believe there was just some plain old "this is how it is" in said post and the random person finding a link in a search engine may have passed it up yesterday for that reason. I said "when I was bigger" but its more of the state of mind that I was in because certainly right now at 327 pounds I can still stand to lose some weight and there are people starting off lower than that and are in that frame of mind. I might be totally off with my thought of why the hits were way low for a Thursday post but at any rate I did find it interesting once the idea that it could have been the post title slowing traffic yesterday so I thought I would mention it and maybe get some of your opinions on it.

Neither here nor there really just an interesting observation I made and the world keeps turning, I am planning on hitting the gym every day this week but again if things out of my control interfere again whats a fella to do? well for starters the calorie limit is the calorie limit and thats that, life's unexpected hurdles will have to take a back seat this week. I am the one that is responsible for what goes down the pie hole, I am the one responsible for how far I push myself with the exercise regardless of what else is happening I have to remain focused on this task because I was once 534 pounds and life was not exactly peachy back then so revisiting for nostalgia's sake is not on my things to do list.

Could I beat myself up because I didn't have a loss this week? sure but what would it accomplish besides possibly bringing me down? I think that I will choose to look at the positives and understand that sometimes things don't go exactly as planned and improvising with what is on hand is all that can be done, all in all I am a week stronger than I was last week and again staying with the theme I am the one to blame for that.

I have also been considering doing a video post for some time now, in fact more than a year and I have mentioned it before and I have even recorded some but then decide for one reason or another not to post it but I am again thinking about posting up a video post. Perhaps I will start doing a weekly video post on Friday as a weigh in kind of thing, or maybe a monthly wrap up kind of a thing, who knows! Link to the poll on my blogspot zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/

Another week gone and a new one will start soon, where I will end up next Friday I have no clue BUT I do expect to see a new low which means I will have to drop more than 4 pounds this week, in fact I am going to aim for 7 pounds this week because I do think I have some sodium weight on me right now but I suppose its to be seen. If I can pull off a 7 pound drop this week I will prove that hard works equals results, thats not to say that I haven't proven that already because I believe that I have and will continue to do so until I reach my goals and beyond. I've added a poll to the sidebar to gauge interest in a video post, feel free to drop a vote in either way as I would love to see what anyone reading thinks about the idea and don't forget to check in tomorrow and Sunday mornings to check in on weigh in V2.0.

The end has come to another Fatman and Blobin, another post full of randomness and honesty, keep on keepin on and all that and until next time!

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CHRISSYVB 1/18/2010 2:35PM

    I love your blogs.

I read your last Thursday blog (but not until today) and I couldn't agree more. I don't know if the subject matter is the reason for low hits or not (I'm not a blogger so I have no experience in this area). I do know that many people think it's easy for thin people but it's not. Sometimes the truth hurts but that doesn't mean it's not true.

Keep up the great work on your blog and on your journey. Soon those 4 pounds (and many more) will be only a memory.

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/16/2010 9:59AM

    Ah, never mind *why* we read - just keep writing. :)

Four pounds in a week? Seriously - not that much of a deal - I know I've put on that kind of weight in a DAY sometimes, and you're right, it's NOT because I ate 14,000 calories in one day, either. :) It'll climb back down, and you'll be back on the downward trend again.

Keep going, keep going!

Cheers,
Maya


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VLVTGRRL 1/15/2010 6:05PM

    I read your Thursday blog today because I didn't get a chance to yesterday. I loved it!

I read your blog because you're honest and witty and open with your journey. Very inspirational and an example to many, including me with a measly 9 pounds to lose.

YOU keep on keepin' on BOTZZZ... Your readers are following! :-D

If I were you, I'd do the vlog! Go for it!

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MSNICHOLS39 1/15/2010 5:25PM

    I say video blog! I love your written ones, but I do both, video and written. I like seeing myself on the video as I change.

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VANB01 1/15/2010 5:20PM

    Love the blog- and can I ever relate to 3lbs of water weight! Thanks to hormonal shifts, a 3-5lb increase is not a new thing for me. That said, I agree completely about keepin on keepin on! hard work and consistency is the key.

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TCLARK218 1/15/2010 2:26PM

    Sometimes the scale doesn't always say what we want,but you have the right idea...don't let the scale get the best of you. At mid week, I too was weighing in 3lbs up despite the fact that I have had my calories on target (except for yesterday) and I have even worked out everyday since the last weigh in. You just keep doing what you do and the weight will continue to come off...it's amazing how far you have come already. As always your blog was great, I look forward to it b/c I enjoy your realness and honesty. Let's see how weigh in 2.o goes!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/15/2010 12:17PM

    Blog readership seems to have it's ups and downs. I, too, have a blog out there, and I've noticed that while Thursdays seem to be blog reading days, they aren't always. It goes in waves. There are times when I post funny, witty posts and I have little traffic and no comments. There are times I don't post at all for a week, yet I have more hits than ever before and they're constant during that time. And then there are the popular posts that seem to generate 90% of the traffic.

Really, it could be worse. My blog outside of SP seems to be known for tequila, coffee, dog training tips, Star Trek (the most recent movie) and Alaska. That seems to define my blog right there. But, could be worse! I could get found with strange search terms or even X-rated ones instead!

My point is now that I've rambled, that your regular readers will love you no matter what. They'll be steady and constant. Others will find you and some will love your writing and stick around too. The ones that find you by accident? Just be glad it wasn't for some bizarre search term.

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/15/2010 11:25AM

    Great blog, keep on doing what works for you! A video post would really be interesting and hope you do it

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PATTIDGN 1/15/2010 11:00AM

    great blog, keep sharing your thoughts!

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PUMPKINFACE73 1/15/2010 10:32AM

    Yes Yes Yes for a Video Blog...hey wanna go for a run tomorrow? A hike...heck anything outside it is supposed to be a heat wave lol.


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SWEETZMIX 1/15/2010 10:07AM

    do a video post, I been fiending to do one b/c you know I think I am all types of interesting. I may not have your blog follow, but I got a few regulars lol

Yeah we just have move on right! Enjoy the warm weather this weekend emoticon

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JENNBREEZE 1/15/2010 10:05AM

    Excellent blog! Words are funny things...I read this one because of today's title. Keep moving forward...things will "balance out."

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JBMT08 1/15/2010 9:55AM

    VIDEO BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!JUST DO IT!!!!!!!!!
Botzz, it did not surprise me that your blog was voted most popular....I look for your posts throughout the week! I know that all of the sodium will drop from the body once you have gotten back on your routine and "flushed" it!!! GO YOU!!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 1/15/2010 9:51AM

    Perhaps if the title had been "Sugar-Free Coating," you would have had more hits. Then, again, just the word sugar leaves me fiending, so I try to avoid the word. But I read your blog because you give the straight dope, which I need in megadoses.

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/15/2010 9:46AM

    Heck yes to the video blog! Like on Fridays when you're stepping on the scale. Just a thought...

I'm sure you're right about the water weight-you'd have to work hard to put on 4 real pounds in one week. Take care!

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/15/2010 9:41AM

    I know it can be hard, but you have the right attitude in not stressing out about the weight change. It's been hard for me to deal with only losing two pounds this month, but I really do think when your body composition is changing, it is impossible to lose weight every single week! Looking forward to weigh-in 2.0!

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CJ_SKINNY_JEANS 1/15/2010 9:40AM

    I can't speak for others, but the title of your blog yesterday is actually the reason that I read it. I don't recall reading any of your posts prior to yesterday. After reading it, I decided to subscribe to your blog posts! I found the cold, hard truth really hit home and thought to myself, "If this guy can do, so can I!" So, thank you for being brutually honest!

Looking forward to reading your next set of truths and would definately check out a video blog if you choose to post one!

Also, I agree, that sodium should be flushed out of your system in no time!

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DCROCKETS 1/15/2010 9:40AM

    Thanks again for the inspiration. You are a freakin machine dude. I am going back and reading your older blogs because I am new to this site and your blogs are really helping me mentally right now. I can't tell you enough how much of an inspiration you have been to me in the past 2 days. Keep it up man. Thanks again. emoticon

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/15/2010 9:32AM

    Good morning friend! I agree that it's just water weight and you will soon see the benefits of all your hard work. Probably by the end of the weekend! :)

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Thursday, January 14, 2010

Losing weight is not an easy task for many people, it takes time and it takes a lot of patience but if the time and effort is put in better health can happen for just about anyone if it can happen for me. I consider myself lucky to have what I do, I have a great family and I am afforded the opportunity to spend loads of time with my daughter for whom without I may not have started down the path that I have. I happen to be 211 pounds down the road but it wasn't always like that for me as I started off at over 500 pounds and unable to walk for more than 10 minutes at a time without pain, but I did it. Turning down treats such as Aunties peanut butter fudge, or my mother in laws plates of experimental cakes or cookies was once a difficult task but again, I did it. I am in the opinion that anyone can lose weight and I came to that conclusion because if I can do it the apparent slacker video game addict calling "I'm base" when a game of tag came up as a child, disk injury havin once 534 pound guy can do it why can't the next guy or gal?



I mentioned that I feel lucky to have what I have but that's the end of where I feel lucky, when my weight loss is the subject I don't feel lucky at all because luck had not an ounce of sway on the results that I've had thus far, I busted my ass for every one of those 211 pounds lost. This is the part that I believe fails to get through to many people that attempt weight loss, I have been guilty of it myself and I see it all too many times when someone tries to lose some pounds, much of my family has struggled with weight throughout my lifetime so I have seen lots of "diets" started. The gun shot goes off and off to a great start! a couple pounds come off and almost immediately slacking starts, "nah I won't exercise today" or "It's just one peanut butter cookie" and before you know it the "start" of the next "diet" is coming to a Monday near you, its just not going to happen without the effort.

All of that thought came from my off day that I had because of "stress" and I began thinking about when I was 500 plus pounds and I was walking with my wife to a park that was literally less than 2 blocks from our house at the time and how I felt. It was Jan 2008, I had just begun eating better and couldn't believe that I was sticking with this for 2 weeks so far, I had an apple in my hand and walking slowly towards the playground I felt like a new person. We got to the play ground and I said to my wife something along the lines of "I got my walk in for the day" and I was red faced and out of breath from walking less than 2 blocks, but I had my apple in hand and DID walk to the playground and at that point it was what I could do. Was it a little embarrassing that all I could walk was such a short distance? it was a lot embarrassing! and I played it off like I could have done more but the truth is that if I had to go any further I would have needed a break which in fact stopping to let the kids play was the break I needed to make it back home.

Currently I think that I am in the best shape of my life and that's kind of bad considering that I am still above 300 pounds but it is what it is, I have worked hard to get here and no one can take that from me, not even a bad day of stress eating. I am leaps and bounds ahead of where I once was physically and mentally because once upon a time I would be looking for the next Monday start date for my next attempt, but here I am. Tomorrow I will hop on the scale for the official blog weight and with the week that I have had eating wise and missing the gym for this past weekend in its entirety I am not really expecting much in the way of a new low in the am but I will report in what the scale says none the less. A trip to the gym this afternoon and some good choices with my intake for the day along with another 2.5-3 gallons of fluid should help me along with tomorrow weigh in but in the grand scheme my fumble will not make a difference at all.

You can lose weight, you can get healthy, you can stop dropping pity on yourself and get that ass up and do something about but YOU have to do the work, and YOU have to realize that its not a picnic to do so and there will be times that just plain old sucks ass but if YOU stop doing what needs to be done for your own health then there is only one person to blame...

YOU..

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RODEORHI83 1/21/2010 4:10PM

  Those are great words. I agree that it takes nothing more (but nothing less to be sure!) than a devotion to accomplish what you want, and a little perseverance. We all have bad days where it seems to be not worth the effort, but as long as you do the work and dont let the hard times destroy your resolve, anything is possible.
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LAURA915 1/20/2010 9:06PM

    I really enjoy reading your blogs but this one, particularly the last paragraph, really hit home with me. I actually copied the last paragraph, printed it out, took a picture of it and made it my background on my iPhone. Now I see it throughout the day and it reminds me that only I can get me to where I want to be. Thanks so much!!! You are not only helping yourself, you are helping others.
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    Love your blog. Keep up the good work!Yes is hard but we will do it!!! emoticon

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SASSYBEAN1 1/20/2010 4:41PM

    Love the honesty and congratulations on all of your hard work and results. It's true that there is no easy way out. Thanks for putting it so aptly into words. Best of luck on the rest of your journey. ~ Sarah

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MYDROPPLAN 1/20/2010 1:02PM

    True, true, true. Love the "no BS". Just what I need. Thanks

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CLMOORE336 1/20/2010 12:31PM

    I like what how you worded it: "in the grand scheme my fumble will not make a difference at all" So many times I've been doing good and then I'll have a fumble and it totally derails me. I'm working hard to accept this new mentality and keep rolling when I hit a road block instead of exiting completly! Thanks!!!

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DIVA7772 1/20/2010 12:03PM

    i agree 110%

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MARLENEAKAMEME 1/20/2010 11:20AM

    Thanks for putting this out there. I always have issues once I make a bad choice and it knocks me down and I struggle to get back up, if I even do. So, having this to read, especially when I knock myself down, this will pick me back up. I think my weight loss of 150lbs is an issue, WOW, what you have come from is AMAZING... My dad is over 500lbs and I unfortunately don't live near him to get him losing again. I had introduced him to products that work, HEALTHY, and eating right he lost over 90lbs in 5 months and he stopped. So, I know if you can, then he can, even with a messed up hip, I try to motivate him to work out in his chair, at least some Cardio to help him, but I don't think he does....

Great Job, Don't Stop Until You Get ALL That You Want.
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SEEANUME 1/20/2010 8:03AM

    GREAT BLOG!

you have done a tremendous job,congratulations keep up the great work

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BALLOR2 1/20/2010 7:13AM

  Keep it real! Keep up the struggle it is worth! YOU are worth it! emoticon emoticon

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SOULSAGMAMA 1/19/2010 7:07PM

  I can dig it. 211 lbs can't be easy to lose. Hard work is like kryptonite to fat I think. Unfortunately, many of us act like it's kryptonite to us too. You're doing it well though.
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JARMOOZLE 1/18/2010 10:09PM

    Extremely motivating and true :) You, my friend, have come very far in your journey and it is evident that nothing and no one will stop you from achieving your best emoticon

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VEGGIE-FITNESS 1/18/2010 6:15PM

    I LOVE your blog! You hit it right on the head baby!! ~Pam

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NANAMARIA 1/18/2010 4:50PM

    Thank you for the no sugar coating... You're right on the money it takes hard work to lose the weight and keep it off. Plus the dedication to work out and eat health too. Plus just SAY NO to the goodies that got us big period... Congratulations on your weight lost... emoticon


Sincerely,
Nana Maria

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LADY_KATHY 1/18/2010 12:34PM

    Congrats on your motivation and successes so far... and Best wishes for more to come. I know you can do it....

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JANANDRAN75 1/18/2010 11:14AM

    Have you been in contact with my 30 yr old son? He told me yesterday that he and his brothers are tired of me talking about exercising, nutrition and losing weight because all I do is talk about it and they never see results. They have lost their trust in me because they think I don't have any self discipline. It hurt. I've spent most of my life doing things for them and being there for them at the drop of a hat. Well, I guess it's time for it to be about me and spending time focusing on my health which means getting off my big butt and excercising, even it it means I can't babysit for their kids or clean their house. I'm not raising children anymore, I'm getting healthy for me.

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VGIMLET 1/18/2010 12:36AM

    So totally true. NOBODY else is going to do it for us, and reguardless of enabelers or disablers or *whatever* we are ultimately the ones who decide if we are on track or off, or if we are going to get up off our butts and exercise or stay on the couch.

You are doing great. I think fumbles in a way are good as long as we learn something from them. Or, at the LEAST get back on track and keep going forward.
Very inspiring, as always.
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ANDITYO 1/17/2010 7:43PM

  You speak the truth when you say it takes hard work to do what you did. We all try the blame game, but unfortunately we cannot beat biology; if we want to lose weight, we have to burn off more than we consume. Try as we may, there is no other way! Congratulations on your success! emoticon

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SASXONTHEMOVE 1/17/2010 2:09PM

    Great blog!

In reality there is only YOU to do the work. You're right, no luck involved! It's all you, baby! Great!

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NIKKI7727 1/17/2010 12:17PM

    Thank you so much. This is really great!
Keep up the great work.
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1THIRTY3 1/17/2010 8:11AM

    awesome! this is great! i have- actually, HAD, a real life friend on facebook. constantly whining about her weight. Her facebook statuses SERIOUSLY alternated between "I already have fibro, maybe i have a thyroid problem too because i can't lose weight. life sucks" and "had breakfast at sonic today!" "had the pasta bowl at wendys today!" "going to get pizza today!" "hubby got me a shake and fries!!!" This girl was clocking 1000+ calorie meals 5-7 times a week and these were just the meals she mentioned online! one of my OTHER real life friends, who was also friends with her, just said something like "you know that _____ is like 1000 calories, right?" and that was the end of their friendship and mine because i didn't say she was a bitc h. Anyway, there are so many people i know that I want to say "its ok to complain about it, but stop doing NOTHING and complaining about it." I liked your blog.

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AFAIRYPRINCESS 1/17/2010 12:50AM

    Love it! Love it! Love it!! You remind me a lot of myself. You have an awesome attitude and that is what makes the difference. I am so glad to see that you somebody else out there speaks the truth and tell it how it is. Congratulations to you. Keep it up. Love it! Bel :)

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ELSKAS 1/17/2010 12:24AM

    Thank you so much for those words!!!

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 1/16/2010 9:41PM

    GREAT BLOG!!! & your 2 block walk was my reality as well before I got serious about my weight loss. (@ the age of 34 - I couldn't even walk in the grocery store w/ the aid of a cart for more than 2 minutes w/o experiencing the most excruciating backaches)

I had to learn the hard way that on this journey progress comes in increments of one. (one minute, one step, one bite, one meal, one pound at a time) & that I do better when I aim to do just one step further or one bite less the next day.

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GLOMER 1/16/2010 9:41PM

    Great motivation for me - sometimes I go off on tangent and then have to get back in. I hope I can do as well as you have and have the same determination. emoticon

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LULI_2POINT0 1/16/2010 10:41AM

    This blog is precisely the kick in the a$$ I needed today to get up, get dressed and get in a workout today despite the crappy weather outside! Thanks for being so honest and for taking the time to write this.

I'm walking out the door right now....

:) Luli

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AGGIE56 1/16/2010 8:52AM

    As I start my day today, I'm happy to read your blog. I feel like I've been backsliding, and you put the responsibility for my backsliding back where it belongs- ON ME, MYSELF, & I. I'm the only person that can do something about what I'm eating. It really is hard sometimes to say "No, thank you", or to walk away from the food sitting out for all to partake in. But, I've been able to do that before, and I know I can still do it, and I have to do it if I'm going to keep up my weight reduction efforts. Thanks for kicking me in the butt this morning!!! I'm going to get dressed and get out there for my "Kick-butt" work out!!! emoticon

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TIABITS 1/16/2010 2:05AM

    Great blog! Love the honesty! I found it very powerful. Thanks for sharing that with us!

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ZSAZSAJANNY 1/15/2010 11:57PM

    Wise, wise words. I love your honesty. Nothing happens without effort. Changing bad habits does require commitment to the task or....nothing GOOD happens.

Thank-you for stating it like it is. There are a lot of people out there who are still trying to fool themselves with thie mistaken notion that 1, 2, 3, Poof!! all the weight will just disappear after a few good efforts on their part. It just ain't so, is it? Going the whole way back to an appropriate weight takes time, exercise and effort. Dedication to the task and learning to say, "No thank you, I've had enough" or "No, I won't eat that donut." are what will get us to the goal.

May the scale recognize your effort to the task tomorrow moring!
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GSCOTTC 1/15/2010 11:30PM

    Love it

Nobody but me stuffed my face and nobody but me can make me lose weight.

Scott

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DARKKAT 1/15/2010 9:28PM

    Thank you for sharing. Really inspirational words on a week I have been a bit discouraged with my efforts and results.

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REMCMFA 1/15/2010 9:18PM

    I liked your blog and your one comment is the same one I like to use. "It is what it is." I had a slack off day; just finished ice cream. I'm gonna start to eat better....now! My MD put me on a blood pressure pill that he says might "make you not want to run or work out until your body gets used to it." I'll have to thank him for that!!!

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AMICHT 1/15/2010 8:39PM

    You did it! You're still doing it!
And you're inspiring others, including me, along the way!
THANK YOU for sharing your story helping me put a frustrating day at the gym in perspective.

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JKSTEIN123 1/15/2010 8:36PM

    It has been a while since I have read your blogs, I am happy to see you are still on the path of good health. I struggle myself and am gaining my momentum back. Good Luck

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SEAGLASSQUEEN 1/15/2010 8:34PM

    It is hard work spiritually, physically and mentally to change destructive behaviours. You are courageous, stay focused on being healthy in all ways One day at a time.

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B_NAVY_FIT 1/15/2010 7:51PM

    I honestly have to admit, your blog made me cry; it made me cry because I know that I have been slackin off, and you pretty much told me where my health was gonna take me if I dont start now to get better. Last week I have mad the biggest dicission of my life... I had stopped drinking Mt. Dew cold turkey, and i know it seems a bit weird to say that, but its true... the caffine is my downfall! Right now Im stressed, and emotional, and all I want to do right now is eat, and I had just finished dinner and Im full, and I still want to eat because of stress... I hate it; but like you said, its not a picnic. I want to thank you for giving me the motivation to actually get healthy, so far nothing else worked, but this actually helped al ot on the motivation side!! Thanks again!

-- Rach

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DESERTFLOWERG 1/15/2010 7:15PM

    Absolutely right on the target with this blog. Love the attitude 'cause anything less will not get you through the tough spots. . . . But, dare I admit, I've had a blast losing weight, getting into shape, working out, doing things I've never done before?!! Hope you are enjoying your journey too!

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SUSIEMILO 1/15/2010 7:07PM

    Well said! Thanks for posting. I was snacking on some cashews while I was reading, and by the 2nd paragraph I slapped the lid back on the jar and put them away!
I'm really proud of you for your journey so far.
And I'm inspired by your posting.
Susie

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BAWNEE 1/15/2010 6:55PM

    Wow! Way to go and thanks for sharing. Just when I was about to feel the negative thoughts creep in.

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LJRW170 1/15/2010 6:37PM

    Fantastic blog, and it's great to hear others' struggles, and how you overcame them and kicked ass! Great job! You're awesome!

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WALKINGINGRACE 1/15/2010 4:49PM

    I have been slacking off since Christmas week. A taste of sweets and unhealthy carbs just left me wanting more. By the grace of God, literally, I haven't ballooned up. Continued exercise and lots of water have helped, but I need to stop making bad food choices. A once and awhile treat is one thing, but it's so easy to slide into unhealthy habits. I tend to be a bit of a carbaholic, so once I'm off the wagon it's hard to get back on.
Thanks for the slap in the face. I needed to wake up and stop being in denial, and I don't mean a river in Egypt! I am the only one responsible for my choices. I try to lean on God continuously when things get crazy, but so often I find myself reaching to food for comfort. By the way, not very comforting! The guilt starts in and then the cycle continues. Ultimately I'm the one who puts hand to mouth and I need to be more accountable for my choices. Thank you for this blog!

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PERPETUAL-MOVE 1/15/2010 4:40PM

    Hell yeah! That is all! :)

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DIVATYE 1/15/2010 3:51PM

    Loved the blog!!!

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MARCYNA 1/15/2010 3:30PM

    Wow, I liked the 'busted my ass'part so much...It's my feeling when I come back from the gym... emoticon emoticon

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CHASSIDY2 1/15/2010 3:29PM

  Wow great blog! I need to stop whining. You are such a inspiration! emoticon

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LUVIN2BEME 1/15/2010 3:28PM

    emoticon keep it right to the point. I love it!

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KATERYN 1/15/2010 3:18PM

    Amen! That's exactly how I feel. My motivational self-speak is in terms of : Move it or DIE! Your blog is so timely because this morning I was walking my old familiar walk (it was finally free of ice and snow.) I went three whole miles and felt like I could do more but stopped because the cold was really starting to get to me. Just six months ago, I couldn't even do a half-mile without having to sit-down and rest. But, now I feel great for having done it. Some days, like you, not so much. But I have many more Great! then blah or even bad days. And it gets easier to get back on track as I go on. And the relaspses are occuring further and further apart!

Yea! Let's hear it for this year! It's our year!

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GIDDYUPPJL 1/15/2010 1:56PM

    Great Blog keep up the good work, many look to you for inspiration!

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LELEBUCKYLUBBY 1/15/2010 1:21PM

    Wow! That is one incredible blog! Thanks for sharing!

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Why does food comfort me?

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


See that bowl of cherries over there? they ain't mine.. When life kicks you in the mouth once you've gained some momentum down that hill and your legs are not doing the propelling any more I dare you to try and stop without injuring yourself. In this case that fat kid peeked out from the dark corner and snatched up some crap food and basked in the stresses of life if only for an evening it still amazes me how easily it can happen and when it does that "I just don't give a damn" attitude comes out because the curve ball came just a little too fast, perhaps this is the life of a fat guy getting thin. Nothing irks me more than the after party part of some bad choices because it seems so easy once its done and over with and the bottom of the hill is coming up fast and the ground is leveling out a bit, but its too late at that point and the only thing that can be done is to get back into the right way to do it mode.



Confused yet? let me splain as much as I am gonna Lucy, apparently when the $hit hits that proverbial fan and a huge plate of stress enters stage left this ol boy starts grabbin for the Doritos. Regular every day stress doesn't get me, Bills pilin up? hand me that banana, Car broke down? hmmm I think a salad for dinner sounds good, That old back injury actin up and keepin me from the gym? lets grill some up some fish! What I speak of is not for the blog but effects it just the same because I don't believe in un-truths otherwise I could merely just post about how great my intake was and pretend to not understand a gain or a no loss Friday weigh in. With that I've already said too much because no one reads this blog to hear about what I didn't do where my health and fitness is concerned so let me get to what I have done to remedy the Tuesday that I had.



Monday I had a great day, stayed within my calories and got to the gym albeit later than usual then yesterday I went over on my calories about...lets just say that I was well over but I did get 3 gallons of fluid into my body before I went to bed last night. This morning upon waking up and having a conversation with myself that ended up with a "Fuvk you you fuvkin fuvk, do what you need to and stop with the stuffing of the pie-hole" I decided that it would be another 3 gallon day and as of right this second I am 2 gallons down so getting to that 3 will be an easy task. Breakfast went down, my pre gym snack went down, and my post gym Whey protein shake is down the hatch as well but I made the decision that I would post before I ate any kind of lunch so here I am. I left for the gym after dropping the kiddo off at school and I did 27 minutes on the stationary bike including a 1 minute cool down, after that I went over and lifted weights working my shoulders and back. When I was finished with the weights I headed over to a treadmill and did my grade program, long story short I was at the gym for an hour and forty five minutes and have to admit that I feel like awesomeness in a bag right now.

Busting my arse for the rest of the week is what I can do to help push the scale back towards where I was last friday but between my Sunday and yesterday I am not expecting much good news on the scale this week. I have been wrong before where my Friday weight is concerned in the past so who knows! Why does food comfort me? What is it about eating that seems to distract so many of us from situations that include stress? this is an answer that I need to find. Though I handle 95% of the stress that comes my way without the reckless abandon that was used last night there is that 5% of the time where its enough that I make the wrong decision with some comfort foods. I suppose the fact that I am down 211 pounds has to speak for something as far as my slips go because to lose 211 pounds slips or no slips I have changed my life and the way I live it for sure.

Thats all I got for today, check in tomorrow to see where the rest of my day brought me.

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MARCYNA 1/16/2010 8:31AM

    Your question is so important, but the fact is, I've been looking for comfort in food so many times, but never never found any.
When something goes wrong the best comfort for me comes from talking to friends, silent prayer, listening to music, exercising or reading a book ,sometimes journalizing.
Food is not magic , it's what we need to keep our bodies working and it has no power to comfort anybody.

I'm struggling as well with this issue and I'm sure we'll make it. emoticon emoticon

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TIFFANIE150 1/14/2010 11:30AM

    Good questions.

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JO16LARO 1/14/2010 10:46AM

  Food is like a cigarette , habit habit habit. we need to know We can have all the bad food in the world, but do we want it? How does it make us feel afterwards, just not worth it. you are doing great , stay with your heart. emoticon

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SUNNY89 1/14/2010 10:40AM

    As you can see from all your responses we have all been there. I hate to say but chances are you will be there again sometime. We all fall back to food to help make what in hindsight may seem like a small trivial thing ok. Learning how to cope with that is key. You have done so much. You will find a way to work this out too.

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1972ROSES 1/14/2010 10:08AM

    I'm absolutely impressed that you got up the next day, kicked your own butt and got back into the program. That rocks!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/14/2010 10:01AM

    I'm going to agree with Dana. None of us are perfect at this. We are going to have bad days regardless of how good we do and they are the exception.

If you have a bad day in a month, that single day doesn't define the month, the 29 (on average) other days define it.

Don't dwell on it anymore. Like wise old Rafiki says, it doesn't matter, it's in the past.

ttyl

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SWEETZMIX 1/14/2010 9:38AM

    YO, sO I got something to say. I don't think that just "fat" or used to be fat people handle their stress the way we do aka with food, I think like most people do if they could. You know I have had that major breakdown stress for most of 2009. Even got me a 2nd job and piled on a bunch of weight, but it's like...what else could I of done different. I could of just lived my life and you do the same. Sh*t does happen and every sO often those Doritos help. I know we are trying to change our lifestyles and try to find other things to grab other than some chips, but as long as your not doing it every single day it's not a problem. It's a lifetime of habits and I feel if I am not grabbing my ice cream everyday and maybe just once every few weeks when it becomes too much...it's cool. So you cool. You moved on. And that's all I got to say - and this rant can be from my funky mood for today. lol

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DACIUS 1/14/2010 8:13AM

    Sorry to hear you had a rough weigh in. As you already know we cannot lose every single time we rock the scale. But you also know that # is not your only identifier for losing weight. I went two months with not losing any weight, but slimmed several inches off the ol' waist line during that same time.

You keep doing what you know you need to do. Stress is definetely a tough thing to deal with. Especially if that stress takes you out of your routine and element.

Hang in the my friend. Keep that intensity up and you will rock the scale next week.

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DDOORN 1/13/2010 11:48PM

    Food is one of the first and most primal means of satisfying ourselves when we come into this world. We're hard-wired that way.

Advertisers know this, play on this and only serve to heighten our inborn tendency toward food for comfort.

We are truly swimming upstream against some mighty strong currents in attempting to live our lives differently!

I'm still bouncing back from my holiday gain...not a biggie, couple pounds, but they are the STUBBORNEST couple pounds I've had to deal with in a long time!

One down, one to go...and yours will too, I'm sure! :-)

Don

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OLIVERNABBYSMOM 1/13/2010 9:11PM

    I have to really think about this - because you give great food for thought. The very same things crossed my mind just tonight - that I MUST find out what drives me to want to eat badly or I'll never KEEP the weight off. It's a MUST - not just being a robot about eating / exercising but getting to the heart of it - to the root causes that got me in trouble to begin with. Harder than it sounds though.

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EUGENERUGOSA 1/13/2010 9:02PM

    the amount of comments you get on all your blogs should tell you what an inspiration you are to all of us & how well you are doing & how relatable your ups & downs are to your fellow sparkers.

So..you had a bad day. That sucks. But, you immediately picked yourself up & that shows how far you have come.

Hope whatever was stressing you has been resolved & the rest of your week is happy & healthy.

BTW..if you can find the secret to stress-eating..sign me up! I will be your first client, it is my MAIN problem & I am stress drinking a beer as I type this.

Here's to stress free days ahead for us both.

Tricia

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SGRONOW1 1/13/2010 8:38PM

    We can not deprive ourselfs for the rest of our lives. Even the skinniest healthiest people have the "omg, I can't beleive I've ate this bad." I think if we add our favorite foods into our daily lives (in moderation) these OMG moments may not happen as bad.

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LIMELITESHINES 1/13/2010 8:26PM

    Eating makes us feel good. Not because of anything other than FOOD TASTES GOOD. And that's pleasurable. And it's easy to do. So when we're feeling like crap . . we grab for something easy and pleasurable. Enter comfort food.

course we feel like aholes later. But while it's happening?

Bliss.

But it looks like you nipped it right in the bud and got yourself going again. THAT RIGHT THERE is proof that you're a new person. 2 months? nope. 2 weeks? nope. 2 days? nope. Not even a full day. You shook yourself . . and got moving again.

You. are a success. :)

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/13/2010 8:11PM

    Alas! I hit a wall yesterday too. I stress ate as well. And like you, 95% of things don't bother me. But there is this one REALLY BIG stressor in my life that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. And I ate my feelings. Not horribly, I'm sure I only went over by about 400-500 calories. But I still went over in a rather big way. And I still stuffed my face when I had to deal with THAT stress. I also didn't squeeze in my normal workout and, AND I'm having a hard time getting off my "ask" today.

But, I think I need to suck it up and go downstairs to the treadmill. Even if I don't run today, a walk should help, right? What do you think? It's ok. Really, you can tell me to, "Shut up and suck it up, Buttercup!"

Here is to a better tomorrow for both of us!

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SKYEFYR 1/13/2010 8:04PM

  Botzzz, there are times we all turn to comfort food. Don't laugh, but I think that in part we have been "trained" to see food as comforting. It's quick, it's easy to come by, and let's be honest - it doesn't judge us. It sits there and triggers our pleasure sensors as we eat, and doesn't condemn us for whatever stupid shyte that happened to put us in this funk to begin with.

Depending on our upbringing, food = love in many cultures. I'm italian, we are trained from birth to eat. We're told good cooks put love into their food. (I know I sure do.) And grandmoms are supposed to bake cookies and cakes and they spoil us by letting us eat as much as we want when we're with them. What can be more comforting than eating something that has love in it? Why not turn to something that makes you feel "spoiled" and special when you're down?

I grew up as a freak in my family. The skinny kid. And yet, once I got away from the stresses that made me not want to eat, I almost immediately developed weight issues. I think issues with food are just something we need to be prepared to deal with. Just like relationship issues. No matter how hard you try, sooner or later they happen. And honestly, I think you deal with them better than most.

I think you handled it perfect for you. Me? I don't get quite so down on myself. Maybe I should. I think you'll have a good weigh in this week even with the slip. And Botzzz, congratulations on pulling yourself out of the funk so quickly. I lift my glass of water to you.

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ZIRCADIA 1/13/2010 8:00PM

    IT HAPPENS. No one is perfect. You are doing great to get used to dealing with regular stress, and then the ultra stressful happens and you're not used to it. Maybe someday you will get more used to some of that stuff? Maybe when you've been bombarded with the random ultra stressful day enough times into this healthy lifestyle change? Like years and years from now ?:D HHEHEHE That's what I figure. I'm gonna be working on this my whole life, I've only been doing it almost 3 years now... compared to the other almost 24 years of my life that's nothing. When I'm 50 I'll have the majority of my years spent living a healthy lifestyle and maybe then I'll be almost perfect. ;) hehehe. You're doing the best because after a bad day, you're already problem solving and getting right back on track. *HUGS*

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/13/2010 7:01PM

    In the long haul, you have the right attitude. You're not going to do it all right all the time! And hey, if you really do handle 95% of the stress without problems, you can't really beat yourself up when the 5% comes around. You picked yourself up and got on with it. You cannot un-eat the food, so let it be. I've had an exceptional rough few days, and I didn't do all I was suppose to, but I know things will get better and I do what I can today. emoticon You're an awesome guy, so keep focusing on that!

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 1/13/2010 6:36PM

    At least you're working through your anger and addressing your feelings rather than numbing yourself and falling back.

I wish I could answer the question about why we eat. I sense it has something to do with hormones, like ghrelin and leptin, and neurotransmitter, like serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine. Whatever it is, obesity is a chronic condition. To me, this means that once it's gone, it can come back. We have to fight to maintain our health and sanity. But better that than sitting in a stupor in front of the TV, licking the doritos off our fingers.

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/13/2010 6:00PM

    This is tough and I also hit the wall yesterday! I remember an old song by the late Peggy Lee "Is this all there is" (just dated myself), and that was how I felt yesterday.

But today is another story, dusted myself off and put one foot in front of the other.

Looking forward to your next blog



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VLVTGRRL 1/13/2010 5:57PM

    BOTZZZ, I really like your recovery plan! I need to remember it the next time I screw up!

I don't like pushing myself hard at the gym because being sore totally demotivates me. So, if I THREATEN myself with a kick in the butt at the gym BEFORE I stuff my face, maybe that will deter me. ;-)

Thank you for your honesty, your blog, and sharing your struggles. ((((HUGS)))) I hope it was a one-day stressor... not something you will be dealing with long term...?

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WESTCOASTGIRL1 1/13/2010 5:16PM

    I know exactly what you are talking about. It would be wonderful if one could figure out why, but I am not sure I will. Perhaps it is just a moment of pure weakness amongst the stresses????
Loved your blog.
You have come so far that is amazing and inspirational!

Here is to a great day!

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JASONGRIZ 1/13/2010 5:12PM

    I'm usually only a lurker of your blog but today's post was like it came from my very mouth. If there were such a thing as a mind reader, you did it and posted my very thoughts. Yesterday was such a F' it day and I just had no care in the world for eating right or exercising. Now I wake up today knowing I only have one choice and that is to go right back to what I know best. I don't have much faith in my weigh-in this week now but I can't let it affect how I spend the rest of my week.

Thanks for the good posts, Botz!

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/13/2010 5:08PM

    I hit the wall yesterday, too. Must have been in the air! My downfall was cheese. And for no good reason whatsoever. Just stressed at the office and feeling frustrated and before you know it I was jamming cheese into my mouth by the handful! Booo! So today has been perfect for food and I need to take in some more water..

Sounds like you KILLED it at the gym today - GREAT JOB! You might just even it all out, yet! HUGS FRIEND!

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/13/2010 5:03PM

    I had the same thing yesterday-ate great all day and for some reason(mine wasn't stress) I hit the chocolate in the house and hit it hard! Decided that I would get rid of the candy today-give it to the kids(it was theirs in the first place). Still struggling in late afternoon making dinner time-why? No idea. Just want to throw junk in my mouth. I am tracking,though,so it's gonna hit me in the face. Veggies and chicken breast for dinner...nothin' more.
Great blog! Your honesty and way with words really has an impact.
Stay on the wagon,Buddy! You're on your way and will get to where you're going.

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Monday morning quarterback.

Monday, January 11, 2010


Last Friday I hit my new low weight since starting down this path and while atop the mountain looking down at the world with my belt cinched in a couple notches more felt awesome it doesn't mean that I can let up with what I am doing. Saturday morning as per usual I woke up and stepped on the scale and 322.6 flashed on the display, and I ended up going over calories by a bag of movie popcorn (Sherlock Homles was pretty good) but that's not all, I was out all day and didn't get enough fluids into the day and I did have a couple drinks with my neighbor. Sunday came with a large side of stressful situations with my son and I honestly just didn't care about watching what I was eating, that's not to say that I gorged myself but to say that I counted a single bite would simply be a lie. Managing to get a big salad in for dinner last night helped a bit but I know that I went well over my calorie limit for the day by more than a few calories and I did step on the scale this morning and lets just leave it at I am up in weight, retention I am sure, but up none the less.



Thursday was the last day that I made it to the gym, It just was not in my cards this weekend which means that I will make every attempt to go each day this week. Today I will have a cleansing kind of day to get anything out of my system that I put in over the weekend, or should I say that I didn't put in namely H2O. I am 64oz of H2O down as I write this and I am planning on flooding my body today with fluids to help with the rehab from Sunday and there is a gallon of green tea on my kitchen counter that I will start into as soon as the publish button is clicked.

Along with all of the fluids that are in my immediate future is much fruits and vegetables because today will be a meat free day. I sometimes do an all veg day where I do not eat any meat products and I limit the cheeses etc which isn't too far from normal anyways but today will be one of those days in an effort to squeeze the excess sodium that I am sure is floating around in me out. Today's menu will consist of, My breakfast which was a bowl of cereal and I will have a pear in a couple of hours followed by veggie soup for lunch and some more fruit after that between lunch and dinner. For dinner I am making Turkey burgers for the family but I will have a big salad with baby spinach as a base and then off to the gym as I have to go later than normal today. Upon returning home I shall sit down to watch Heroes with however much fruit I need to finish the remainder of 1700 calories and perhaps a whey protein shake for good measure and a protein boost, with some simple planning it suddenly becomes easy.

It was a less than stellar weekend for me all the way around where diet and exercise goes but that does not mean that its time to pull out the good silverware and order up a rum cake so that I can sit alone and sad eating until the last bite goes down. I believe that is where so many people fail at dropping weight, a day or two of not so perfect eating turns into feelings of failure and down the hill the snow ball rolls until our midsections are as big as that very snow ball. Some days will not be as good as they could have or should have been but using that as an excuse to keep that ball rolling in the wrong direction sits firmly on each of our shoulders because we are responsible for what we do every day.

This week should be interesting with my weekend of not so great choices but in the grand scheme its not anything to worry about as far as I am concerned. My plan will be to work a little harder this week at staying strict with the intake, drink a little extra for a couple of days to counteract some of the sodium build up from the weekend of non hydration and to get to the gym every day without fail and while there work just a little harder than normal which is already hard enough! Walking the walk for 741 days now I am in a state of mind that assures that I will be successful with all of my health goals even when a random not so on track day pops into my immediate vicinity.

That's all I got, Thanks for following along and remember who makes the decisions.

As Ever
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HEIDIS2NDCHANCE 1/12/2010 10:49AM

    Botzz....as usual I appreciate your sincere honesty and helpful reminders (i.e. kicks in the butt). You simply rock and make me want to be a better person. Thank you!
Best of luck to you on the water intake and gym. Are you still running and training for a race?
Hugs, Heidi

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SHUCG1004 1/12/2010 10:20AM

    I liked your blog. It's almost easier to beat ourselves up because it's what we're used to doing, but once we realize it is SO destructive, we will fight to forgive and to recover. I'm proud of you for fighting and for realizing the pattern and doing something to change it. emoticon

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CECE0330 1/12/2010 9:28AM

    Mmmmmmmmmmm...rum cake. emoticon

Yup, I totally fall into that trap too. I failed today, there's no hope for tomorrow, might as well not care and promise myself I'll be back on track the next day. Course, that SAME thought repeats itself day after day, so the "next day" sometimes really turns into a couple months from now......Oy.

Eat that salad, get to the gym, drink that water! All will be well.

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JMSURPRENANT 1/12/2010 8:54AM

    "This week should be interesting with my weekend of not so great choices but in the grand scheme its not anything to worry about as far as I am concerned. ..."

"Walking the walk for 741 days now I am in a state of mind that assures that I will be successful with all of my health goals even when a random not so on track day pops into my immediate vicinity."

Indeed, great attitude and plan. One thing I've learned in my 2 years of working a program, is we really only have today. There are going to be days, or even weeks when we backslide and if we look at the long view, whereas its great to have goals, it can be daunting.

I always focus on the day ahead. If I 'blew it' yesterday, I'll examine what I did wrong, but then let it go - you don't get a do-over, just today. It may be recovery-speak, but taking it one day at a time, really works and leads to success.

Hope you enjoyed the movie and the family stress has gotten better.

My strategy for movies is to sneak in a bag of either microwaved popcorn or a bag of SmartFood White Cheddar Popcorn and enjoy it with either a bottle of water, a diet iced tea or lemonsade or coffee at the cinema.

Best,
James
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DDOORN 1/12/2010 3:55AM

    Re: "I believe that is where so many people fail at dropping weight, a day or two of not so perfect eating turns into feelings of failure and down the hill the snow ball rolls until our midsections are as big as that very snow ball."

So SO TRUE! That situation is when we find out whether we can OUT-STUBBORN our weight & appetite!

WTG BOTZZZ!

Don

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/12/2010 1:24AM

    I backslid a little yesterday, but today I tightened up the reigns and got back on that horse and rode it. And so did you! I love the idea of veggie day. I loves veggies. ;)

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DACIUS 1/11/2010 9:17PM

    Don't be to hard on yourself bud. 1 bad day does not equal a slide. You rock it this week and you will be fine.

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JBMT08 1/11/2010 4:53PM

    I am glad that you have the day in perspective. So many times we just "throw in the towel" because we had that slice of cake, or we had those slices of pizza, or that cheeseburger with french fries. I am stlowly learning and adapting what you have already established in your lifestyle. Accept what you ate, and move on! Thank you for telling us about your happening this weekend. Especially coming from you, this helps to propel all of us at least through the rest of today and into tomorrow! emoticon

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MEGAMITENCHI 1/11/2010 3:59PM

    My weekend wasn't so hot either, so you're not alone! I'm having a pretty miserable Monday, so I hope your week at least is looking up.

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MSNICHOLS39 1/11/2010 1:58PM

    It happens. It's great that you can positive self-talk yourself back on the right track! I believe this is the most important aspect of maintaining our success long-term.

Andrea

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MSNICHOLS39 1/11/2010 1:58PM

    It happens. It's great that you can positive self-talk yourself back on the right track! I believe this is the most important aspect of maintaining our success long-term.

Andrea

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/11/2010 1:18PM

    I can say that my hydration took a huge hit yesterday and the dreaded PIZZA came to the house. The backs of my hands look ok, but I am really going to need to pound some water this week to see anything worthwhile happen.

I agree about Holmes. It was pretty good, but I was expecting some more humor in it. Not sure what the next movie for the house is going to be.

ttyl

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MARLA_S 1/11/2010 12:27PM

    I agree with you that so many people give up because they didn't adhere perfectly to their eating and exercise plans. What a backward way of thinking, but I admit that I think that way too sometime. Thanks for the reminder that slip-ups don't need to equal giving up!!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/11/2010 11:12AM

    I recently re-discovered a love for trail mix. I find that it's the perfect combo before or after a run to keep me going. Just a teeny quarter cup and I'm happy! However, my husband switched brands on me. Didn't think anything about it until I was running and my feet started to go numb. Arrrgh! I'm one of those people who has the teeniest amount of salt anywhere near exercise and I puff up bigger than a puffer fish. It then takes days to flush my system. So, you have my sympathy and understanding. And you'll get through.

Baby spinach sounds wonderful! Can't wait until gardening season is here!

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VEEJAY3 1/11/2010 10:56AM

    Sigh. I always wished I was like my mom in ONE regard (and please ... just this ONE). I wish I stopped eating during times of stress. Yep. The more stressed she gets, the thinner she gets. I reach for the Parmesan/Garlic potato chips.

Er ... I mean I USED to. (slaps herself hard on both cheeks) I USED to!!! (she blinks, realizes she's a new woman now).

If you don't stop smacking me around, I'm not coming by here anymore, dude.
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SWEETZMIX 1/11/2010 10:28AM

    Haha, glad you got to see the movie. Told ya!! The Blindside is next on my list! Heard it's really, really good! Anyway hope your son is doing better! Family first!

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Here's to another awesome week!

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PUMPKINFACE73 1/11/2010 10:26AM

    Ddid I read you are eating baby spinach for dinner??...hmmm...I heard that stuff is good :)You are going to kick butt this week, have fun @ the gym


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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 1/11/2010 10:18AM

    Way to go!! You've got the right mind set and that's what this ride is anyway: mindgames. You can play them to let yourself go or play them to pick yourself up and move on in the right direction. You are obviously doing the latter...as it should be!
I love reading your blogs! So down to earth and truthful and honest. No sugar coating here....keep it up and thanks for great writing!

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/11/2010 10:06AM

    It always takes me a few days to get rid of sodium buildup. This is a fresh week and I know you will be successful. You are almost there!

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Weigh in, Only 48 pounds from goal??? when did this happen!?!

Friday, January 08, 2010

Like a child on Christmas morning I sprung from my bed today and straight to the scale, after a quick detour to the bathroom of course. Onto the scale I went..but before I get to all of that Thursday went very well with the intake, exercise and hydration. 1790 calories went down the hatch and I had a big salad for dinner along with my gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of H2O I would call that day a success where my intake was concerned. My trip to the gym yesterday was great too! I did 20 minutes on the bike and did sprints @125-135 rpm every 3 minutes followed by the incline routine that I mentioned in an earlier post, I skipped the weights for the day because I was running out of time so 50 minutes of cardio would have to do, over all I am happy with how the day turned out.

Oh I did weigh in this morning, lets get to that! The first time that my feet made contact with the cold scale the number that flashed on the display was 323.4lbs, number two said 322.8lbs followed by 323.0lbs! We will use that last one and call it 323lbs for the week, That is a 4 pound drop from last weeks weigh in! I am now down 211lbs total or forty two 5lb bags of sugar and only have 48 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal of 275 pounds. With this weeks weigh in comes a new low weight and that means some pictures of things that weigh as much as I have lost and weigh the same as me so here goes.


This 1971 T350 Rebel comes in at 323 pounds like yours truly, these bikes are starting to get smaller!


This little fellow is a 1969 T 125 Stinger and comes in at 211 lbs which is what I have lost to date, can you imagine carrying that around with you all day?

Normally I don't have two weeks in a row with huge numbers like this week but I will do everything in my power to try and get to the teens come next Friday as I believe that once I hit the teens a fire shall be lit beneath my ever shrinking posterior and sub 300 pounds will be just around the corner. Keep going to the gym, keep eating as many whole foods as possible without obsessing over it, keep drinking my Green tea and H2O, Get much sleep...This is the plan, this has always been the plan and this is what works for me so I must stick with it.

Two hundred eleven pounds lighter I sit here today writing this post, The same man yet so different that I literally do not recognize myself in the mirror at times. I can't say that its been the easiest thing that I have done in my life but honestly it has not been as hard as I once thought it would be. Starting out at 534 pounds and looking down the road at the end goal was 2 years ago and but a speck in the distance, now that I am only 48 pounds from that original goal that I set for myself, looking back at the days of 500 plus pounds is getting smaller and smaller in the rear view mirror and I see great things coming up in the road for me. People will look at me funny when I say "You just have to decide to do it and follow through" or "Move more eat less" and I usually get a response something like "Yeah right, if it was that easy no one would be fat" and honestly it would have been my response once upon a time too but with every inch of my ever shrinking self I say, It IS that easy. Perhaps when one is faced with the thought of an early death because of a weight issue the decision gets easier to make because of the alternate ending to the flick but the bottom line is that if you make the decision to do it, you can and will do it.

I have taken enough of your time with my ramblings this fine Friday morning so the end has come to this episode of As the fat guy turns....I suppose that soon I will not be able to say that and will need to come up with a new title to this soap opera because "As the svelte guy turns" just doesn't sound as good. Thanks for following along and bearing witness to just an average Joe dropping Maury Povich kind of weight with no magic tricks and no suction devices, just plain good old fashioned determination and a few simple rules.

Fini

As Ever
Me

  
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CHARITY_DAWN 1/20/2010 11:58PM

    Way to go!!!! congrats on your weight loss

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PINKNFITCARLA 1/18/2010 6:01PM

  Thanks for the great blog and the motivation! You've down so awesome!! Keep up the great work :-)

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DAVEOZ 1/18/2010 1:21PM

    You are simply unstoppable! Great stuff!

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SCIGEEK 1/18/2010 8:39AM

    Amazing! I love the pictures of what you weight and what you have lost...that is truly inspiring me to do the same thing for my own weight loss. Keep up the good work!

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ALLGROWNUP83 1/17/2010 5:26PM

    Way to go, and keep on the great work.

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 1/16/2010 9:24PM

    *lol* I don't think I'm brave enough to find things that weigh as much as I do now, but nonetheless your weight loss, hard work & dedication are BEYOND impressive.

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SANYA_SHNICK 1/16/2010 9:37AM

    very impressive! thanks for the motivation... :)

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IMALSR4GOOD 1/15/2010 9:27PM

    What a great idea! To find things that compare to the weight you have lost. What a motivator! Thanks and congratulations on the great success, good luck on the next success!

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FYRESHAMEN 1/15/2010 9:50AM

    emoticon What you've done so far is really AWESOME!!! But it sounds like you already have a "a fire ... lit beneath [your] ever shrinking posterior" and that's emoticon! Keep up the fabulous job! Really excited to hear when you reach your goal!

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DCROCKETS 1/15/2010 9:21AM

    You are the man Botzzz! I ma going to start finding things that weigh what I have lost. Great motivator to keep losing! emoticon

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WALKWITME 1/15/2010 6:46AM

    Keep Pushing Onward I can see You at The End Of The Road...lol

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MICHELLE_391 1/14/2010 9:23PM

    WOW! You, sir, are inspiring! I like your idea of posting pictures of things that weigh as much as you have lost. As if looking in the mirror weren't tangible enough, an entire bike as proof of your work? How can you miss that, even on a bad day? Keep up the good work! emoticon

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:44PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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GIRLY421 1/14/2010 1:43PM

    Congrats!! emoticon keep the amazing work up!!

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INTOTHESOUTH 1/13/2010 11:23PM

    So happy I came upon your blog. Keep up the incredible work and thanks for sharing it with the rest of us!!

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J0HNS0NLA 1/13/2010 5:04PM

    I kinda like the sound of "as the svelte guy turns" ...! :) emoticon

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BETHSTL 1/13/2010 2:42PM

    Woo Hoo! That's incredible. You are incredible..YOU ROCK!!! Congrats on all of your achievements!

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-Beth

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CODEMAULER 1/13/2010 2:18PM

    I am in awe and have nothing but respect for your journey! I followed Yoovie here - darn that SparkFriend Feed - and see another SparkPeople success. Congratulations on losing a motorcycle's worth of extra weight (that is an amazing perspective to consider).

I'd love to add you as a friend so I can be there to celebrate the steps and challenges ahead for BOTH of us! ~ Trish

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LIMELITESHINES 1/13/2010 1:35PM

    Man you are a force to be reckoned with. GREAT WORK. 48 lbs is NOTHIN! Look at where you've come! You'll be down those 48 in a blink! :)

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NEWYORKORCHIDS 1/13/2010 1:35PM

  OMG! You've lost me! I'm 210 (right now)...so, if you gave me a piggy back, that would be what you used to weigh. That's amazing!

Go you!

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AMYTAIF 1/13/2010 1:14PM

    how about... "as my skinny ass turns".... or "days of my muscular thighs".... or "the bald and the beautiful":)... or "the young and the rested"......... sorry.... it's the best i could do:). all i can say is AWESOME AWESOME!!! keep movin' and groovin':)

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YOOVIE 1/13/2010 12:59PM

    that's less than 50! HOME STRETCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SEVENKITTY 1/13/2010 12:34PM

  Thanks for a great blog!

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JELLI-LEAN 1/13/2010 12:09PM

    WOW... you are a machine! emoticon on your incredible weight loss!

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EMACFAR 1/13/2010 11:33AM

    awesome work! keep it up! :)

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KENCHRIS401 1/13/2010 11:01AM

    Congrats on your weight loss thus far, you are truly an inspiration. I thouroughly enjoyed reading this.

Keep up the good work!

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LOSTINLOVE1226 1/13/2010 10:43AM

    You are amazing, and certainly and inspiration to many others! Congrats on your success thus far, and keep working towards that goal! You can do it! emoticon

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JANI-LOU 1/13/2010 10:35AM

  Good for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Thanks for sharing! It's inspiring and then some! The bike visual is fantastic! I do the same thing when I pick up 40 lb feed sack full of grain, and think, "How did I ever carry this around all day?" lol

Janilou

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DIXIE_AMAZON 1/13/2010 8:12AM

    Great job!

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SUGARBABY60 1/13/2010 5:19AM

    What a communicator you are both visually and in script. You are right it is the DECISION to change that starts the ball rolling, following through is the easy part. Super great job on all your hard work. Glad you have decided not to die early but to "Live Long and Prosper" as the Trekkies (Star Trek)would say.

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NANHBH 1/13/2010 1:36AM

    Fini,

You ROCK! What an awesome story! Keep up the good work. You are an inspiration!

Nancy
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CALIFCAS 1/12/2010 10:56PM

  I always appreciate your honesty about losing weight. No secrets, just do the work! You are proof that hard work pays off and it reminds me of what I need to do to get back on track. Congrats to you!
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DAWNWS1 1/12/2010 4:53PM

    Wow!!!! LOVE the visual of the bikes! You've lost more than I weighed when I started, and that is just amazing!!! You are an amazing inspiration!!!! emoticon

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NWFL59 1/12/2010 4:02PM

    emoticon Excellent results and I'm glad you are enjoying success from your hard work. emoticon

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HBURGUS 1/12/2010 3:59PM

    I love how you use the lil bike to show how much you have lost. It's a great visual and keep up the great work.

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SUESMITH73 1/12/2010 3:53PM

    emoticonI can't imagine carrying an extra 211 lbs.

You have done an amazing job on this journey & it will not be long before you reach your goal! I hope you saved a pair of your old pants to hold up for your pictures.

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 1/12/2010 3:43PM

    What an amazing story. Thanks for sharing, it was very motivating.
Move more, eat less. It sounds so easy, especially when paired with your blog. Again, congratulations and wishing you continued success.

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CLAIRESML 1/12/2010 2:40PM

    Wow you have done an incredible job! Keep going..... I enjoyed your post emoticon

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SPRINGTIME69 1/12/2010 10:14AM

    FANTASTIC

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Love the visuals of how much you've lost!!

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TRICIA08 1/12/2010 8:22AM

    WOW! What an awesome post to read first thing in the morning! Congrats on rockin' it out!

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MASE72 1/12/2010 6:54AM

    Awesome emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THECOOLESTSARAH 1/12/2010 1:20AM

    Wow. I feel a little breathless reading this - you are getting so close now! Promise me that when you finish losing weight you will keep writing blogs about your life adventures - I would miss you too much if you leave SP. :) Hugs.

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ALEXSGIRL1 1/9/2010 7:36PM

    awesome

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SJDROPPINGLBS 1/9/2010 9:54AM

    Awesome

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/9/2010 9:21AM

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You've really been sticking to plan, I can tell! Wooohooo! Congratulations! Keep Going! :)

Cheers,
Maya

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DIVINE40 1/9/2010 5:50AM

    awesome.

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SNEAKYGREG 1/9/2010 3:47AM

    Dude!!! That is awesome and even if you don't hit the teens next Friday you will the one after that with the way you have been going

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VLVTGRRL 1/9/2010 3:13AM

    Botzzz, CONGRATULATIONS! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!

1. Move more, eat less
2. You just have to decide to do it and follow through
3. Figure out the mind games--why do we not try for fear of failure? (Or the bazillion other mental issues I and others have yet to master... GREAT JOB MASTERING IT!)

Great work on a new low weight, Botzzz. I'm proud of you and motivated, too!


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