Thursday, December 24, 2009
I have a goal, that goal is to make it through Christmas day without too many extra calories going into me and if I approach it that way, you know, as a game then I believe that I will come out without going too far over my calorie range. I hear people tout that "its a lifestyle change dammit so that means no matter what you need to eat salads and small portions of lean meats otherwise you are not treating it as a lifestyle change! you are just dieting again" I have to use something that my grandfather use to say to that God rest his soul, "Awww Horse pucky!" . Yes indeed it is a lifestyle change but that does not mean on special occasions I or anyone else cannot have a piece of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge or a slice or 2 of honey baked ham because that is just a silly notion to me to be so strict that not a single indulgence can be had. It is a lifestyle change and when normal life use to be eating 4 cheese burgers or 3 plates of food on top of at least one serving of every dessert at a holiday meal eating a normal sized holiday meal along with a dessert and a piece of fudge is doing the right thing for our health.
Sure I could eat 2 pounds of raw broccoli an apple and a glass of water then beat my chest and in my best "The Tick" impression state loudly that I have changed my life! and smile down on all of the fattys eating the Christmas good eats but I know that The tree that does not bend with the wind will be broken by the storm. I have done this from the beginning, I have not counted Holidaze meals when calories come into play which does not mean that its a free for all it just means that I have normal sized portions and something else amazing that's happened along the way down my path to better health? I have learned to STOP eating when I am full! I have this new magical power to let something stay put on my plate instead of forcing it down the chute. With all of that said I do usually try and count the calories in my head but its more for me to have a general idea of what I ate extra because at this point counting calories is so second nature to me that it just happens in my head almost instantly. In short, I am going to enjoy my Christmas brunch and dinner without guilt because one meal will not destroy any habit or lifestyle change that has been made.
I did get a chance to go to the gym yesterday even if it was later than I would have liked it to be, My kids are home from school until after the New Year so I will have to adjust the time that I go until they return to school. I went around 8:00 pm last night and came home all amped up from the workout and stayed up until about midnight because of it and that's the reason that I don't like going in the evenings. I weighed my options which were Go to they gym and get a good workout in but be up late because of all of the energy or don't go and get a great nights rest but no workout and no energy, obviously I chose to go and I am glad that it was the choice that I made. I did 20 minutes on a bike followed by the treadmill routine that I came up with a few days ago where I progressively add incline for 10 minutes and then come back down in 2% intervals, I really like that workout as I feel like I have done some work afterward. No weight lifting last night but My mother in law agreed to watch the kiddos so that I can go this afternoon and I am planning on doing my bike plus that treadmill routine and maybe some shoulder movements with some weights, I am looking forward to going today for whatever reason.
My intake yesterday came in at 1730 total calories, I drank 1 gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of straight H2O, obviously I made it to the gym so all in all it was a great day for my health. I don't think that I will post tomorrow as its Christmas and well I don't think I will have time to nor want to take time away from any of that for a post but I am sure that I will get on the scale either way. I mentioned this already but I will try my best to get a weigh in post up on Saturday and I will include what the scale said Friday morning as well as Saturday morning I think it will be fun to see the (damage) difference from after Christmas.
I hope everyone has a great Christmas and whether you choose to eat that 2 pounds of raw broccoli or a few pieces of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge enjoy it! I don't consider anything that I do on this trip a failure or a victory, it is what it is and thats a guy that has relearned how to do things in moderation when it is food related and has learned that he loves the gym more than he ever thought he could.
That is all...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday went off without a hitch besides a piece of cake that was for an occasion so I did not count that into my calories, I was at 1775 calories total before the cake so I am probably still ok either way I am not too worried about it. I drank 1 gallon of green tea and 1 gallon of straight H2O so I was hydrated for the day but I did have lots of sodium in the way of some baked chips with my dinner which was a tuna melt so I may be retaining a bit this morning but I will never know because I ate breakfast before remembering to do my mid week weigh in check. The gym was interesting for me because I did something a little differently than usual, I rode my bike for 20 minutes and then did some weight lifting for my back and shoulders then it was time for the treadmill.
A full size version of the pic is on my blogspot at zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/
The first image is August 2007, the second image was taken last night so December 22nd 2009, I took the second one just fooling around and yes I know that I need a shave but I haven't posted a pic up in a while so I thought that it was tine to pop a new compare shot up here, man I love my compression shirt! The bottom half of me is as thick as the top half but man what a difference.
Usually I will do 20-30 minutes on the treadmill at between 3.0 and 3.8 mph and a 3.0% to 5.0% incline and I do this at the end of my workout so usually after the bike and arc-trainer. Yesterday I looked across the gym and there was a girl on the treadmill and she had it set at a wicked incline so I thought I would change it up a bit and ended up doing 20 minutes at 3.0 mph but every 2 minutes I went up 2% on the incline until I hit 11.5% at the 10 minute mark and then back down 2% at a time until 20 minutes was up. I have to tell you that wen I started I was thinking that it would be easy but by the time I hit that 11.5% incline I was ready for it to start coming back down! but in my head I was thinking about it as if I was peaking a hill and that the way down aould be easier but after 11.5% came 9.5% so I was still at a decent incline NOT the downhill that I was thinking I would get, its funny how our heads work sometimes. I checked my heart rate every minute by grabbing the bars on the treadmill so that I could see how I reacted to the incline changes and the graph matched the incline, my heart rate increased as the incline did and I am going to add this to my Tuesday workout as it definately changed things up and still gave me a good workout.
I don't think that I will get a post up on Friday because of Christmas so I will very likely just do a weigh in post on Saturday morning instead because I have to stay accountable with the weigh ins as it seems to keep me on track. Will Friday mess up the weigh in? we shall see but I am going to attempt to be a good boy and resist the urge to eat the cookies, cakes, fudge and all of whatever else will be around on Christmas day and eve. This does not mean that I will have nothing labeled as "treat" because I have always said that Holidaze do not count as far as me counting every bite that goes into my mouth because those few days per year of indulging are not going to hurt anything in the grand scheme. I am planning to make the best choices where dinner is concerned for Christmas and I will be drinking noting but my green tea, perhaps a beer and some water but on the food front I will not eat any differently as far as portion size goes and will make every attempt to eat the lower calorie dishes.
Again I say, we make our own choices and there is no one with a gun making us eat fatty food, there is no terrible terrible that will happen to us if we do not eat that triple double bacon bacon cheddar cheese and secret sauce burger with a side of giantico onion rings and a bucket O coke but there is a terrible terrible if we do eat it on a daily, just have a look at my before pictures.
Again another episode of as the fat guy turns has concluded, tomorrow is a new day where will it bring me? a step closer to my goal for sure. Thanks for reading along.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
The plan for today is the same as yesterday, stay within my calorie limits, drink plenty and hit the gym this afternoon. I ate 1740 calories Monday and that's just about perfect as I now eat between 1700 and 1940 calories per day depending on what I do at the gym, 1700 for non weight lifting days and 1940 for weight days and the extra is for a whey shake. I drank 2 gallons of H2O and about a quart of green tea yesterday as I forgot to make a gallon Sunday night I was limited to drinking hot cups instead of my cold brewed stuff. At the gym I did a lighter than usual work out because all I had to eat previous to going was my am bowl of cereal and started feeling weak midway through my workout, I ended up doing 20 minutes on the stationary bike, 15 minutes on the treadmill 3.5% grade @ 3.4 mph and finished up with a few sets on the preacher curl machine calling it quits after that.
Working as hard as anyone else in the gym and not looking like you are is a little bit frustrating, this thought entered my head yesterday as I rode the bike at the gym. Here I am sitting on this bike pedaling my heart out as I look in the mirror and see that I am bigger than I should be and its because of some extra skin that is still on my mid section. A guy walks by and looks like me from the chest up but below there he looks better, there is no extra baggage swinging around his middle, I keep pedaling. A girl that looks as if she was carved from stone stretches just feet in front of my bike she notices that I am looking in her direction and a smile and a nod later she is riding the bike next to me. I am here every day, I am busting my ass every day of the week with exercise not to mention the eating and drinking well and I am left with this reminder of older days in the form of extra me that there is nothing I can do anything about.
I own a compression shirt that I bought when I was running around the lake a while back and it is amazing what a difference there is in my silhouette when it is on verses when it is off of me. I knew that there would be a skin issue because of the size of me and always said "a bridge to be crossed when I get there" but I have to admit that it bothers me that its there, at 6'5'' tall on a pretty solid frame I believe that I could look much different at 328 pounds than I actually look right now because of the extra me just hanging around. The bridge that I am crossing with the way I am starting to look is sort of a dual feeling, on the one hand I am more than 200 pounds less than I use to be so wow! but the other hand offers a loose belly that doesn't quite look right because its not tight, it is sort of hangy if that's a word and though I can hide it in a hoodie very well the hotter months are really going to offer me a puzzle if I am going to somewhat hide the looseness of the whole package. Don't take any of this as complaining, it is merely observations and my reaction and thoughts to them because I would much rather be trying to hide some extra skin than hiding the whole me by staying in doors etc.
There are still some obstacles on this trip to a thinner me but nothing that looks like I can't crush, I mean hell if I have come from literally round shaped to the shape that I am in right now in just about 2 years anything is possible and a little extra skin isn't going knock me down. For anyone out there that thinks that it cannot happen for them because they are too big or too out of shape, take it from me, you know...the guy that was 534 pounds once upon a time that it can happen if the time and effort is put in, there is that "E" word again. I still have a long way to go with 53 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal weight and 61 pounds left to go to have lost 50% of my total body weight and when the totals are put down to look at its easy to say "aww its only another 50 pounds you can do it!" but I'm telling ya this last go at the finish line seems like its going to be a difficult ride. Either way I will get there extra skin be damned I will get to that goal and I am predicting that I will go well beyond that 267 pound mark by more than a few pounds when this is all said and done.
That there folks is the end to yet another mind blowing episode of As the fat guy turns so you will have to tune in tomorrow to find out if that brownie on the counter lasted through the night. Thanks for reading along and thanks for the support, it is always appreciated.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Skipping and tripping through my days as of late keeping things together where my health is concerned, Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, get enough rest over and over and over again is my aim. Being the best Husband that a fella can be, the best Daddy and friend but somewhere along the way there has got to be time for myself otherwise 534 pounds of yum yum goodness could come walking on back and none of the people in my life need or want that to happen so my guilty pleasure has become the gym, that is for me no matter what. I go to the gym because I have to but interestingly enough I am finding that I go because I want to, even on days where I am spent, or not feeling up to snuff, I go, I work out and feel awesome for my efforts. Thinking back to when I started off on my trip to a smaller me I can remember walking less than 2 blocks and feeling like I had accomplished something so much bigger and it was because of the previous life that I was living, walking to the bedroom was the furthest distance that I (could) would go back then.
20 minutes on the stationary bike is a warm up for the arc-trainer now a days and once upon a time back in 2008 a 12 minute ride on a much easier to pedal stationary bike was considered by me a tough work out, my how times have changed. Embarrassed because of not being able to take a walk to a broken bridge a quarter mile up the road one summer of my past, Using my daughters speed on her little bike as a reason to walk a bit slower than I should have walked and feeling excited when I realized that I could run again without collapsing my knees. Things changed so fast, or so it seems right now as I sit here writing a post after a trip to the gym, back then it felt like it would never improve and then it did Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep.
Just under 2 years ago I was big, slow, tired all of the time and not happy with where I was or what I was doing. Today I am confident that I could out last my brother and father if we were to run, bike or anything that takes cardiovascular fitness to achieve and to the point that I would bet money on it! I started out doing this all for me and away I went, week after week of successful weigh ins showing drops in weight and the exercise was getting easier by the week. Lately I have slacked off a bit and I believe I figured out why, I am not afraid that I will die right now, I have not thought about my health doing me in for quite some time so its almost like though I am still eating right and exercising I have not been pushing myself like in the beginning. A decision was made that I need to see this through and hit my goal weight of 275 pounds and I believe I will go well beyond that number because I must put me first where my health is the topic because if I don't we all have seen where that got me.
Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep, this is an easy Mantra for me right now because I enjoy all of these things. Drinking enough fluids to me is a treat, its like I can have as much water or green tea as I can take in and there is nothing negative about it but everything positive. Sleep, who doesn't like sleeping? my relationship with Conan O'Brien is suffering but I think that we will both get over it as I drift into my slumber at a reasonable hour. Eating good has turned into a completely different statement for me, instead of eating 4 pounds of Del Taco and a 66oz cup cherry coke its 5oz of baked flounder and a giant salad that does it for me, or turkey burgers on Portabello mushroom caps with a side of sweet potato fries that I crave, to me the latter is eating good. The gym is my therapy at this point, I can go and work out as long as I want to and disappear into the movement stopping only to change machines or to stretch, the gym is for me and I will embrace it.
I have come so far mentally that the physical almost seems secondary to me and that's saying a lot coming from a guy that lost more than 200 pounds. When I started down this road the way I thought was different, the way I did things was very different and the way I am currently is completely different than Dec 31st 2007. I looked at food back then and saw it as something to do not unlike how I now see riding my bike as something to do, it was like eating was recreation and is nothing that I saw back then or would have admitted even if I did see it. I can't lie and say that food does not tempt me now and again but the difference is that its not an obsession any more, that has shifted to my time at the gym or out on my bike in fact I had a New York strip on Saturday night but that was the first in more than a few months if not more and goes into the sensible choice category.
Focus must be maintained and I have to put myself first because when I didn't I ended up weighing more than 500 pounds. Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep Has to be where my head stays if not to stay focused then to distract myself from other curve balls that life tosses in my direction.
The mental is more important than the physical Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids,Sleep..
Try and stop me.
Friday, December 18, 2009
So the time has come to hop on the scale and record it onto the blog for the world to see, this morning I am more than pleased with myself because it has pretty much been a week from hell if stress levels are the measurement yet I am happy with what I see on the scale. I will get right to it and say that I am back to my all time low weight of 328 pounds! Tuesday I did not think I would show a loss at all this week because of lots of different things but here I am and its a 2 pound loss for the week with the exact reading on the scale being 328.4lbs. Eight pounds in three weeks and well on my way to hitting that goal of being under 300 pounds by April 2nd which is pretty exciting if I am being honest, This coming Friday gives me an opportunity to hit a new all time low weight and I am planning on doing everything that I can to get there.
I am proof positive that perseverance is all that is needed to lose weight, focus helps, determination as well and this has turned into much more than losing weight for me. I have gained my health back in a way that is making me more driven than I ever was where health and fitness is the subject and it agrees with me. I am not expecting to see the other side 330 pounds again any time soon but those things have a funny way of working sometimes so if it does happen I will have to beat the fat back into submission on the arc trainer again.
Weight loss is not always a fluid motion with the line on the graph always pointed in a downward direction, sometimes it pops back up a bit but as long as we keep on keepin on it will undoubtedly head back in that lower direction again and again. I have come a long way since starting down this path to better health, I have stumbled a bit at times and I have pushed myself to the point of hurting myself, I have slacked off and at the same time I have been that insistent fellow in a restaurant demanding to know every bit of info about how a meal was prepared and the ingredients used but most importantly if you look at the line on my bar graph I have been pretty consistent throughout my trip to the half.
There was a point in my life where I was 534 pounds and I had no clue what I weighed, in fact I thought I was closer to 600 pounds and was relieved to find out that I "was only" just over 500 pounds, imagine where a person has to be mentally to be relieved that he is 500 pounds, trust me its not a good place. I have read blogs and stories online as well as in magazine etc of people losing 50, 100, 200 and more pounds and looking at side by side photos of these people and they look amazing! and I think about how I am down 206 pounds so far and still have a good amount to lose to be where I need to be and have that amazing side by side shot. I am still a magazine article away from hitting my initial goal weight of 275 pounds with 53 more pounds to go to get to that weight and I know that I want to be lower than that now because of how I currently look at 328 pounds. At 6'5'' I carry my weight decently but in all honesty I can lose a total of 300 pounds realistically and be at a healthy weight, I would be 234 pounds at 300 pounds lost which I may change my mind the closer I get but seriously?? I could lose 300 pounds?? Do I want to get that small? I don't think so but it is what my brother weighs and he is only a half inch shorter than I am and he looks good at that weight so it is possible for me to get into the 230's especially if I end up getting a surgery to remove excess skin, a chapter to be written perhaps.
Round and round he goes, and where he stops nobody knows.
This week is one for the W column, I am pleased with the scale, I am pleased with myself and next week I am predicting a new all time low weight for me. Thanks for stopping by and thanks for the support, it is greatly appreciated.
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