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The strength of a tree lies in its ability to bend

Thursday, December 24, 2009

I have a goal, that goal is to make it through Christmas day without too many extra calories going into me and if I approach it that way, you know, as a game then I believe that I will come out without going too far over my calorie range. I hear people tout that "its a lifestyle change dammit so that means no matter what you need to eat salads and small portions of lean meats otherwise you are not treating it as a lifestyle change! you are just dieting again" I have to use something that my grandfather use to say to that God rest his soul, "Awww Horse pucky!" . Yes indeed it is a lifestyle change but that does not mean on special occasions I or anyone else cannot have a piece of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge or a slice or 2 of honey baked ham because that is just a silly notion to me to be so strict that not a single indulgence can be had. It is a lifestyle change and when normal life use to be eating 4 cheese burgers or 3 plates of food on top of at least one serving of every dessert at a holiday meal eating a normal sized holiday meal along with a dessert and a piece of fudge is doing the right thing for our health.

Sure I could eat 2 pounds of raw broccoli an apple and a glass of water then beat my chest and in my best "The Tick" impression state loudly that I have changed my life! and smile down on all of the fattys eating the Christmas good eats but I know that The tree that does not bend with the wind will be broken by the storm. I have done this from the beginning, I have not counted Holidaze meals when calories come into play which does not mean that its a free for all it just means that I have normal sized portions and something else amazing that's happened along the way down my path to better health? I have learned to STOP eating when I am full! I have this new magical power to let something stay put on my plate instead of forcing it down the chute. With all of that said I do usually try and count the calories in my head but its more for me to have a general idea of what I ate extra because at this point counting calories is so second nature to me that it just happens in my head almost instantly. In short, I am going to enjoy my Christmas brunch and dinner without guilt because one meal will not destroy any habit or lifestyle change that has been made.

I did get a chance to go to the gym yesterday even if it was later than I would have liked it to be, My kids are home from school until after the New Year so I will have to adjust the time that I go until they return to school. I went around 8:00 pm last night and came home all amped up from the workout and stayed up until about midnight because of it and that's the reason that I don't like going in the evenings. I weighed my options which were Go to they gym and get a good workout in but be up late because of all of the energy or don't go and get a great nights rest but no workout and no energy, obviously I chose to go and I am glad that it was the choice that I made. I did 20 minutes on a bike followed by the treadmill routine that I came up with a few days ago where I progressively add incline for 10 minutes and then come back down in 2% intervals, I really like that workout as I feel like I have done some work afterward. No weight lifting last night but My mother in law agreed to watch the kiddos so that I can go this afternoon and I am planning on doing my bike plus that treadmill routine and maybe some shoulder movements with some weights, I am looking forward to going today for whatever reason.

My intake yesterday came in at 1730 total calories, I drank 1 gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of straight H2O, obviously I made it to the gym so all in all it was a great day for my health. I don't think that I will post tomorrow as its Christmas and well I don't think I will have time to nor want to take time away from any of that for a post but I am sure that I will get on the scale either way. I mentioned this already but I will try my best to get a weigh in post up on Saturday and I will include what the scale said Friday morning as well as Saturday morning I think it will be fun to see the (damage) difference from after Christmas.

I hope everyone has a great Christmas and whether you choose to eat that 2 pounds of raw broccoli or a few pieces of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge enjoy it! I don't consider anything that I do on this trip a failure or a victory, it is what it is and thats a guy that has relearned how to do things in moderation when it is food related and has learned that he loves the gym more than he ever thought he could.

That is all...

As Ever

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/27/2009 7:43AM

    Nice work.

I agree about enjoying holidays as special. I had 300-400 more calories per day both Xmas Eve and Xmas, and the totals were still in a theoretical "-6 lbs/month" calorie limit. (Normally I'm in -8 lbs/month mode.)

...and it worked! My BMI is still under 25! AND I ate things I normally wouldn't.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/25/2009 5:59PM

    Another truism from the Meatball!

Merry Christmas!!!

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KARBIE18 12/25/2009 10:19AM

    I completely agree. Eating well and exercising on most days allows me the ability to enjoy a treat or two on special occassions. Knowing that is the one thing that has made me able to stick with it this time - in the past, I would have been disappointed in myself and looked as it as starting over. And since I actually enjoy eating well and exercising, it's a win-win situation.

Enjoy your holiday, and the treat(s) if you choose to. In the scheme of things one or two days is nothing.

You are amazing!

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DIFROMWYOMING 12/24/2009 11:09PM

    Thanks for this, Botzz, and Merry Christmas to you and yours!
I also believe in moderation in all things, and in bending when necessary. I won't break this time, at least I've learned that much this year!

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/24/2009 7:05PM

    thank you moderation in all things leads to happiness in many. may you and your family have a merry christmas emoticon

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VLVTGRRL 12/24/2009 2:54PM

    YEAH!!!! You are right on the money! (AS usual!)

Botzzz, have a VERY Merry Christmas and a GREAT weigh in! emoticon emoticon

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LIVINHEALTHY4 12/24/2009 1:52PM

    Great post!

I posted my "plan of attack" for tomorrow, as it's my first time eating during a holiday since joining SP. I was nervous, but after reading your blog today, I see that it's only one meal, nothing to get in a panic about. That said, I still will not eat simply because it's there!

I wish us all success... and enjoy the company of good friends and family!

Merry Christmas to you and yours!


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JLUVSHIKIN 12/24/2009 11:54AM

    I completely agree with you about how to eat for the day. It has been a process and have finally gotten to that point where there are days when I am going to eat what I want because I want it... within reason of course... and like you said, one day is not going to undo all that I have done!
Way to go!

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LAURIE5658 12/24/2009 10:52AM

    Merry Christmas, Botzzz!

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GYPSYROSE67 12/24/2009 10:23AM

    Thank you for this blog. I have been denying myself all the holiday goodies that have been around but tonight I am going to my mother in law's for prime rib. I believe it is okay to have a nice size normal meal with maybe a little treat at the end. Thank you for blogging that it is okay to splurge once in a while and that one day will not change the lifestyle I am striving for.

Have a Happy and Healthy Holiday Season * God Bless

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A new compare pic inside! more than 200 pounds lost.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Tuesday went off without a hitch besides a piece of cake that was for an occasion so I did not count that into my calories, I was at 1775 calories total before the cake so I am probably still ok either way I am not too worried about it. I drank 1 gallon of green tea and 1 gallon of straight H2O so I was hydrated for the day but I did have lots of sodium in the way of some baked chips with my dinner which was a tuna melt so I may be retaining a bit this morning but I will never know because I ate breakfast before remembering to do my mid week weigh in check. The gym was interesting for me because I did something a little differently than usual, I rode my bike for 20 minutes and then did some weight lifting for my back and shoulders then it was time for the treadmill.

A full size version of the pic is on my blogspot at

The first image is August 2007, the second image was taken last night so December 22nd 2009, I took the second one just fooling around and yes I know that I need a shave but I haven't posted a pic up in a while so I thought that it was tine to pop a new compare shot up here, man I love my compression shirt! The bottom half of me is as thick as the top half but man what a difference.

Usually I will do 20-30 minutes on the treadmill at between 3.0 and 3.8 mph and a 3.0% to 5.0% incline and I do this at the end of my workout so usually after the bike and arc-trainer. Yesterday I looked across the gym and there was a girl on the treadmill and she had it set at a wicked incline so I thought I would change it up a bit and ended up doing 20 minutes at 3.0 mph but every 2 minutes I went up 2% on the incline until I hit 11.5% at the 10 minute mark and then back down 2% at a time until 20 minutes was up. I have to tell you that wen I started I was thinking that it would be easy but by the time I hit that 11.5% incline I was ready for it to start coming back down! but in my head I was thinking about it as if I was peaking a hill and that the way down aould be easier but after 11.5% came 9.5% so I was still at a decent incline NOT the downhill that I was thinking I would get, its funny how our heads work sometimes. I checked my heart rate every minute by grabbing the bars on the treadmill so that I could see how I reacted to the incline changes and the graph matched the incline, my heart rate increased as the incline did and I am going to add this to my Tuesday workout as it definately changed things up and still gave me a good workout.

I don't think that I will get a post up on Friday because of Christmas so I will very likely just do a weigh in post on Saturday morning instead because I have to stay accountable with the weigh ins as it seems to keep me on track. Will Friday mess up the weigh in? we shall see but I am going to attempt to be a good boy and resist the urge to eat the cookies, cakes, fudge and all of whatever else will be around on Christmas day and eve. This does not mean that I will have nothing labeled as "treat" because I have always said that Holidaze do not count as far as me counting every bite that goes into my mouth because those few days per year of indulging are not going to hurt anything in the grand scheme. I am planning to make the best choices where dinner is concerned for Christmas and I will be drinking noting but my green tea, perhaps a beer and some water but on the food front I will not eat any differently as far as portion size goes and will make every attempt to eat the lower calorie dishes.

Again I say, we make our own choices and there is no one with a gun making us eat fatty food, there is no terrible terrible that will happen to us if we do not eat that triple double bacon bacon cheddar cheese and secret sauce burger with a side of giantico onion rings and a bucket O coke but there is a terrible terrible if we do eat it on a daily, just have a look at my before pictures.

Again another episode of as the fat guy turns has concluded, tomorrow is a new day where will it bring me? a step closer to my goal for sure. Thanks for reading along.

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OSUBUCKI101 12/29/2009 8:19AM

    Amazing...simply amazing! You have much to be proud of. Keep up the good work!

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JESSICALYNN0102 12/28/2009 12:18PM

    Great Job!

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CCKELLY3 12/27/2009 1:41AM

    You've made an amazing journey. Thank you for the inspiration.

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SNEAKYGREG 12/24/2009 8:28AM

    Holy Crap!!!!!! You look good and should feel good about your accomplishment. You already have the before and after photo and now it will only get better


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PRUPLEBEAR 12/23/2009 5:30PM

    Awesome! Look great!

Merry Christmas

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HAPPYSOUL91 12/23/2009 4:44PM

    Your pictures are amazing. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KASHMIR 12/23/2009 4:13PM

    Inclines are my favorites on the treadmill....I need to get busy and do some again soon. Thanks for the reminder...and love the new comparison pic, even if you didn't shave for the camera!

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1_AMAZING_WOMAN 12/23/2009 2:39PM

    Wow! You are inspiring!

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/23/2009 2:39PM

    way to go fantastic you are an inspiration. emoticon

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    I got tears in my eyes looking at those pictures. I am so so so proud of you T, just look at what you have accomplished. I rarely make my DH look at anything on Spark, but he HAD to see that picture and he said "wow, is that the same person?" - He didn't even recognize that you were the same guy!

Here's to reaching our goals in 2010! Big Hugs friend!


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SHYFEMMEKAT 12/23/2009 12:58PM

    That is awesome!

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DACIUS 12/23/2009 12:10PM

    Great job in pushing yourself in the gym. The trainer in my gym did something similar to me last week. Just came over and cranked the incline up while I was still running at 6.5mph!!! Lemme tell you it was so amazingly hard. But I felt like a million bucks and he bought me a fruit smoothie. So a win-win for me.

Enjou the heck out of your holiday. enjoy some of those treats. You have so much to be thankful for.

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CATLADY52 12/23/2009 12:07PM

    You're doing great. Have a great holiday season.

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LIVINHEALTHY4 12/23/2009 11:49AM

    You are doing so fantastic! I just love reading your blogs, you really having me cheering for you!

I love the last little paragraph of this post about our eating is our own choice. That rings so true.

Never mind thanking us for reading - I thank YOU for posting. You are my daily dose of motivation!

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Have a Merry Christmas!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/23/2009 11:31AM

    I wonder what would happen if those two meatballs ever got together . . .

You are looking fantastic.

Merry Christmas

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SUMMERBUSHNELL 12/23/2009 11:21AM

    From yuck, to hot! Good job!

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KARBIE18 12/23/2009 11:02AM

    Wow! You look fantastic! And, boy you deserve it! With work, and being a coleader on a team, I have little time to do anything but lurk in here, but I'm so glad I stopped by. You are such an inspiration! Guess I don't have to tell you to keep it up, because I am sure you will.

Have a wonderful holiday,

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HILARYMM 12/23/2009 10:46AM

    Excellent work! You look great!

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MICHCLEARY 12/23/2009 10:42AM

    Wow that is amazing! Congratulations and good job for traveling such a long and difficult road. Keep up the good work!

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LAURIE5658 12/23/2009 10:33AM

    Botzzz, the before and after is INCREDIBLE!!! You have literally worked your arse off and should be congratulated over and over again! Wowzer!

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CANDICANE32 12/23/2009 10:33AM

    congrats on the weight loss. it is amazing.

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Effort plus Time divided by Determination = Successful weight loss?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The plan for today is the same as yesterday, stay within my calorie limits, drink plenty and hit the gym this afternoon. I ate 1740 calories Monday and that's just about perfect as I now eat between 1700 and 1940 calories per day depending on what I do at the gym, 1700 for non weight lifting days and 1940 for weight days and the extra is for a whey shake. I drank 2 gallons of H2O and about a quart of green tea yesterday as I forgot to make a gallon Sunday night I was limited to drinking hot cups instead of my cold brewed stuff. At the gym I did a lighter than usual work out because all I had to eat previous to going was my am bowl of cereal and started feeling weak midway through my workout, I ended up doing 20 minutes on the stationary bike, 15 minutes on the treadmill 3.5% grade @ 3.4 mph and finished up with a few sets on the preacher curl machine calling it quits after that.

Working as hard as anyone else in the gym and not looking like you are is a little bit frustrating, this thought entered my head yesterday as I rode the bike at the gym. Here I am sitting on this bike pedaling my heart out as I look in the mirror and see that I am bigger than I should be and its because of some extra skin that is still on my mid section. A guy walks by and looks like me from the chest up but below there he looks better, there is no extra baggage swinging around his middle, I keep pedaling. A girl that looks as if she was carved from stone stretches just feet in front of my bike she notices that I am looking in her direction and a smile and a nod later she is riding the bike next to me. I am here every day, I am busting my ass every day of the week with exercise not to mention the eating and drinking well and I am left with this reminder of older days in the form of extra me that there is nothing I can do anything about.

I own a compression shirt that I bought when I was running around the lake a while back and it is amazing what a difference there is in my silhouette when it is on verses when it is off of me. I knew that there would be a skin issue because of the size of me and always said "a bridge to be crossed when I get there" but I have to admit that it bothers me that its there, at 6'5'' tall on a pretty solid frame I believe that I could look much different at 328 pounds than I actually look right now because of the extra me just hanging around. The bridge that I am crossing with the way I am starting to look is sort of a dual feeling, on the one hand I am more than 200 pounds less than I use to be so wow! but the other hand offers a loose belly that doesn't quite look right because its not tight, it is sort of hangy if that's a word and though I can hide it in a hoodie very well the hotter months are really going to offer me a puzzle if I am going to somewhat hide the looseness of the whole package. Don't take any of this as complaining, it is merely observations and my reaction and thoughts to them because I would much rather be trying to hide some extra skin than hiding the whole me by staying in doors etc.

There are still some obstacles on this trip to a thinner me but nothing that looks like I can't crush, I mean hell if I have come from literally round shaped to the shape that I am in right now in just about 2 years anything is possible and a little extra skin isn't going knock me down. For anyone out there that thinks that it cannot happen for them because they are too big or too out of shape, take it from me, you know...the guy that was 534 pounds once upon a time that it can happen if the time and effort is put in, there is that "E" word again. I still have a long way to go with 53 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal weight and 61 pounds left to go to have lost 50% of my total body weight and when the totals are put down to look at its easy to say "aww its only another 50 pounds you can do it!" but I'm telling ya this last go at the finish line seems like its going to be a difficult ride. Either way I will get there extra skin be damned I will get to that goal and I am predicting that I will go well beyond that 267 pound mark by more than a few pounds when this is all said and done.

That there folks is the end to yet another mind blowing episode of As the fat guy turns so you will have to tune in tomorrow to find out if that brownie on the counter lasted through the night. Thanks for reading along and thanks for the support, it is always appreciated.

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CAROLYN1213 12/22/2009 4:30PM

    Woo! Hoo!!! Way to go, skinny you! That extra skin is like a badge of honor for all the hard work you have done to melt yourself down! That being said, I also have more extra wiggle and waddle than I would like after gaining way too much wait in a very short time and now having lost 57 lbs., I am thinking when I reach goal I might consider having it removed.

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ZIRCADIA 12/22/2009 3:08PM

    WOOHOO!! I'm glad you're not letting the loose skin get you down, but believe me I know how you feel. I don't appreciate my body not being commensurate with my efforts. But I've kind of come to grips with it. I focus on what I CAN change and not worry about the other parts because mine is obviously a more minor problem. I'm excited that you're looking forward to getting rid of YOUR loose skin even, too, if it comes to it! :) Nothing can stop you!

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JLUVSHIKIN 12/22/2009 2:12PM

    Excess skin. Like others have mentioned it is an issue that needs to be dealt with. My personal opinion.... whether you'd like it or not.... is a wait and see. I have heard and read that once the weight is off, it will take two to three years for the skin to change, and not all might change. There may always be that extra bit. Surgery is surgery and there is ALWAYS a risk. Hubby went in for deep cleaning at the dentist and they put him into anaphylactic shock.... soooo.... It is a personal choice but give it the time it may need. Of course the surgeon is going to say you need the surgery... how else is he going to make money?

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KNH771 12/22/2009 1:51PM

    Again... I can totally relate! I've got "extra skin" issues as well. Eventually I will probably have surgery to have it removed. Aside from appearance, it's a hygeine issue. Still, like you said, it is more than worth it! I'd much rather be able to finish a 5K than have those pounds back. emoticon

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DACIUS 12/22/2009 1:27PM

    It is a episode of As a Fat Guy Pedals...LOL!!!!

I am having the same issues and I have only love 1/3 of what you have. My stomach and thighs are very jiggly and basically filled with nothing. Especially my thighs which held a lot of my weight/fat. Now they look like empty pillow cases. I have ramped up my strentgh training to help fill some of that in, but it will not completely fix the problem.

We just have to live with our bassett hound impressinons my friend. Unless you have 15,000 to spend on the removal surgery. Which will more than likely never happen to me.

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DONNA753 12/22/2009 1:26PM

  congrats on your weight lost keep up the good work....

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SECRETMUSIC 12/22/2009 11:33AM

    I like the way you are facing your issues but looking beyond them toward your goals. Success is very much your own!

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RENA1965 12/22/2009 11:05AM

    I have had the most extreme form for plastic surgery around my tummy. Get the weight off, then get plastic surgery.. Believe me you will feel alot better about the finished results.. If your not worried about it I have before and efter results of my tummy tuck on my page.. I think things worked out fine- looking past the recovery period..

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/22/2009 11:02AM

    try to think of a healthier you instead of extra skin. how would you like to my daughter and be fourteen with a pretty gnarly scar from two pacemaker surgery. she doesn't try to hide it this is who she is. if anyone says anything she says how did that get there? emoticonyou have come a long way and made some awesome changes. have a healthy and happy week. emoticon

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LAURIE5658 12/22/2009 10:59AM

    In my mind, when you are finished losing weight and the skin is causing medical issues, this is very much something your doctor can help you with. Surgical removal would be ideal IMHO. We shall see when you get to that point. Oh, what a problem to have!! You are getting healthier with each passing day!!!

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SGRONOW1 12/22/2009 10:48AM

    The skin issue is an issue that many of us will face whether it is excessive or just a little bit, But once we reach our goals and maintain them, doctors can fix that problem.

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HAPPYSOUL91 12/22/2009 10:37AM

    The loose skin is always a problem when you lose a lot of weight, but still it is better than having it filled with fat. You sure have come a long way.

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Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep....

Monday, December 21, 2009

Skipping and tripping through my days as of late keeping things together where my health is concerned, Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, get enough rest over and over and over again is my aim. Being the best Husband that a fella can be, the best Daddy and friend but somewhere along the way there has got to be time for myself otherwise 534 pounds of yum yum goodness could come walking on back and none of the people in my life need or want that to happen so my guilty pleasure has become the gym, that is for me no matter what. I go to the gym because I have to but interestingly enough I am finding that I go because I want to, even on days where I am spent, or not feeling up to snuff, I go, I work out and feel awesome for my efforts. Thinking back to when I started off on my trip to a smaller me I can remember walking less than 2 blocks and feeling like I had accomplished something so much bigger and it was because of the previous life that I was living, walking to the bedroom was the furthest distance that I (could) would go back then.

20 minutes on the stationary bike is a warm up for the arc-trainer now a days and once upon a time back in 2008 a 12 minute ride on a much easier to pedal stationary bike was considered by me a tough work out, my how times have changed. Embarrassed because of not being able to take a walk to a broken bridge a quarter mile up the road one summer of my past, Using my daughters speed on her little bike as a reason to walk a bit slower than I should have walked and feeling excited when I realized that I could run again without collapsing my knees. Things changed so fast, or so it seems right now as I sit here writing a post after a trip to the gym, back then it felt like it would never improve and then it did Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep.

Just under 2 years ago I was big, slow, tired all of the time and not happy with where I was or what I was doing. Today I am confident that I could out last my brother and father if we were to run, bike or anything that takes cardiovascular fitness to achieve and to the point that I would bet money on it! I started out doing this all for me and away I went, week after week of successful weigh ins showing drops in weight and the exercise was getting easier by the week. Lately I have slacked off a bit and I believe I figured out why, I am not afraid that I will die right now, I have not thought about my health doing me in for quite some time so its almost like though I am still eating right and exercising I have not been pushing myself like in the beginning. A decision was made that I need to see this through and hit my goal weight of 275 pounds and I believe I will go well beyond that number because I must put me first where my health is the topic because if I don't we all have seen where that got me.

Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep, this is an easy Mantra for me right now because I enjoy all of these things. Drinking enough fluids to me is a treat, its like I can have as much water or green tea as I can take in and there is nothing negative about it but everything positive. Sleep, who doesn't like sleeping? my relationship with Conan O'Brien is suffering but I think that we will both get over it as I drift into my slumber at a reasonable hour. Eating good has turned into a completely different statement for me, instead of eating 4 pounds of Del Taco and a 66oz cup cherry coke its 5oz of baked flounder and a giant salad that does it for me, or turkey burgers on Portabello mushroom caps with a side of sweet potato fries that I crave, to me the latter is eating good. The gym is my therapy at this point, I can go and work out as long as I want to and disappear into the movement stopping only to change machines or to stretch, the gym is for me and I will embrace it.

I have come so far mentally that the physical almost seems secondary to me and that's saying a lot coming from a guy that lost more than 200 pounds. When I started down this road the way I thought was different, the way I did things was very different and the way I am currently is completely different than Dec 31st 2007. I looked at food back then and saw it as something to do not unlike how I now see riding my bike as something to do, it was like eating was recreation and is nothing that I saw back then or would have admitted even if I did see it. I can't lie and say that food does not tempt me now and again but the difference is that its not an obsession any more, that has shifted to my time at the gym or out on my bike in fact I had a New York strip on Saturday night but that was the first in more than a few months if not more and goes into the sensible choice category.

Focus must be maintained and I have to put myself first because when I didn't I ended up weighing more than 500 pounds. Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids, Sleep Has to be where my head stays if not to stay focused then to distract myself from other curve balls that life tosses in my direction.

The mental is more important than the physical Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids,Sleep..

Try and stop me.

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REDMEOW 12/25/2009 9:54AM

    You made me laugh when you said "yum yum goodness"!
You are very inspiring and like your health mantra.
I myself have lost 100 pounds and struggle with making good choices every day to make sure none of my salty/sweet goodness decides to come back and bite me in the butt.
Looking forward to reading more about the progress on your journey.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/22/2009 1:01PM

    That is a great mantra. It is simple, but effective . . . and ever so true.

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/22/2009 10:33AM

    wow you are a great motivator my friend. i was not feeling 100 percent start of a cold but you have talked me into going to the gym to just try. do you realize how many lives you change or touch with your blogs. you now have groupies saying eat healthy gym, drink fluids sleep. may you and your whole family have a happy and healthy new years .and may all your fitness goals come true. emoticon

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    You are so inspiring! What a beautiful mantra--Eat good, Gym, Drink fluids,Sleep..

I love the way you write and reflect on struggles that we all share. And I'm going to print this part out and put it on my refrigerator:
"the gym is for me and I will embrace it."

You are well on your way towards your goal--and you're right, you'll probably get under that mark too. Way to go!

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CAROLYN1213 12/21/2009 11:35PM

    Love the health mantra! Stay focused! Complete! Quitting is not an option!

***Be brave, be bold, be fierce and be fabulous*****

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DACIUS 12/21/2009 8:30PM

    Amen brother. I am in the exact same place mentally right now. I have a target weight. I have a place where I ideally see myself. But I am no longer stressed to reach that goal. I am totally fine with where I am now. Because I know I will not stay here. With the food I eat and the exercise I do, it is enevitable.

Great blog. I am there with you. You stick to that mantra and you will be at your goal before you know it!!

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DIVINE40 12/21/2009 7:02PM

    your bloggs would be great entries for a book if you were ever decide to write. you are a true inspiration. awesome.

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LIVINHEALTHY4 12/21/2009 5:23PM

    You are un-stoppable! Good for you! Reading your reflections was very inspiring, and I am aiming towards doing one of these posts for myself one day.

Keep up the great work!

Keep Sparking!


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KNH771 12/21/2009 4:58PM

    Reflecting on how far you've come is so important! I can relate to a lot of what you have to say about the fitness improvements. Sometimes I still get the giggles when I run up the stairs because I remember when it was so tough to do. Thank you for sharing, and have a wonderful Christmas!

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206 total pounds lost! a new all time low coming soon to a theater near you!

Friday, December 18, 2009

So the time has come to hop on the scale and record it onto the blog for the world to see, this morning I am more than pleased with myself because it has pretty much been a week from hell if stress levels are the measurement yet I am happy with what I see on the scale. I will get right to it and say that I am back to my all time low weight of 328 pounds! Tuesday I did not think I would show a loss at all this week because of lots of different things but here I am and its a 2 pound loss for the week with the exact reading on the scale being 328.4lbs. Eight pounds in three weeks and well on my way to hitting that goal of being under 300 pounds by April 2nd which is pretty exciting if I am being honest, This coming Friday gives me an opportunity to hit a new all time low weight and I am planning on doing everything that I can to get there.

I am proof positive that perseverance is all that is needed to lose weight, focus helps, determination as well and this has turned into much more than losing weight for me. I have gained my health back in a way that is making me more driven than I ever was where health and fitness is the subject and it agrees with me. I am not expecting to see the other side 330 pounds again any time soon but those things have a funny way of working sometimes so if it does happen I will have to beat the fat back into submission on the arc trainer again.

Weight loss is not always a fluid motion with the line on the graph always pointed in a downward direction, sometimes it pops back up a bit but as long as we keep on keepin on it will undoubtedly head back in that lower direction again and again. I have come a long way since starting down this path to better health, I have stumbled a bit at times and I have pushed myself to the point of hurting myself, I have slacked off and at the same time I have been that insistent fellow in a restaurant demanding to know every bit of info about how a meal was prepared and the ingredients used but most importantly if you look at the line on my bar graph I have been pretty consistent throughout my trip to the half.

There was a point in my life where I was 534 pounds and I had no clue what I weighed, in fact I thought I was closer to 600 pounds and was relieved to find out that I "was only" just over 500 pounds, imagine where a person has to be mentally to be relieved that he is 500 pounds, trust me its not a good place. I have read blogs and stories online as well as in magazine etc of people losing 50, 100, 200 and more pounds and looking at side by side photos of these people and they look amazing! and I think about how I am down 206 pounds so far and still have a good amount to lose to be where I need to be and have that amazing side by side shot. I am still a magazine article away from hitting my initial goal weight of 275 pounds with 53 more pounds to go to get to that weight and I know that I want to be lower than that now because of how I currently look at 328 pounds. At 6'5'' I carry my weight decently but in all honesty I can lose a total of 300 pounds realistically and be at a healthy weight, I would be 234 pounds at 300 pounds lost which I may change my mind the closer I get but seriously?? I could lose 300 pounds?? Do I want to get that small? I don't think so but it is what my brother weighs and he is only a half inch shorter than I am and he looks good at that weight so it is possible for me to get into the 230's especially if I end up getting a surgery to remove excess skin, a chapter to be written perhaps.

Round and round he goes, and where he stops nobody knows.

This week is one for the W column, I am pleased with the scale, I am pleased with myself and next week I am predicting a new all time low weight for me. Thanks for stopping by and thanks for the support, it is greatly appreciated.

As Ever

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WESTWIND19 12/21/2009 5:20PM

    Amazing story, keep up the hard work and its nice to know that a couple can make progress individually and as a unit. Best of luck to both of ya'll. I have a feeling you will reach your goals and push through!

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ZSAZSAJANNY 12/21/2009 2:27PM

    Yeah for the 'W' column!! I'm betting that next week we see more of the same! You rock! (and probably feel mighty fine while doing it)
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Don't let the stress get to you either. Just remember to breathe in and out, in and out, and you'll make it through.

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VEEJAY3 12/21/2009 11:48AM

    You are a hero to so many people. Some day, you're going to have the privilege of looking down on your earthly accomplishments and you'll get to see all the lives touched by the ripples in your pond.

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PUMPKINFACE73 12/21/2009 10:53AM

    YOU ROCK!!

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DANCINGAGAIN 12/20/2009 10:53PM

    I am so glad to meet you through your blog. I weigh 250 but want to get down to 120. I have been stuck in the house for months due to caring for my daughter's baby a lot and my own health concerns. I get to go out tomorrow on an apointment of my own, but at least I get to go out. I have been having balance problems and dizzy spells, but the past few days were worse than that, it seems like what they call vertigo, with the room moving and my head feeling like it is underwater. Luckily tonight I feel better. I am on a new medicine for MS, just diagnosed, and am hoping the dizzy is the MS symptom and not something else or a side effect of the medication. I do not know which is worst. I guess I will just make Hay when the sun shines........ANYWAYS, I SURE LIKED YOUR BLOG. MY DAUGHTER IS YOUNG AND HAS TO LOOSE TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY POUNDS. SHE CAN HARDLY WALK SOME DAYS. SHE GOES TO A NUTRITIONIST THIS WEDNESDAY. NEXT TIME I HAVE HER OVER I AM GOING TO SHOW HER YOUR PAGE. DO PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE TO HAVE SKIN TAKEN OFF WHEN THEY LOOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT? I WAS WONDERING ABOUT THAT. IF YOU LOOSE THE WEIGHT MORE SLOWLY, DO YOU HAVE LESS SKIN TO GET OPERATED ON? SHE IS CONSIDERING THE SURGERY TO LOOSE WEIGHT, BUT STARTING TO SWIM AT THE YWCA SOON AS SHE TAKES IN HER PAPER WORK. I WILL SWIM WITH HER. I AM GOING TO GO BACK AND FIND ALL YOUR POSTS FOR INSPIRATION. I BET YOU FEEL MORE LIGHT NOW THAT YOU LOST THIS MUCH. I KNOW ONE THING, THAT IT IS THIS SITTING IN THE HOUSE THAT PUTS THE WEIGHT ON. I HAVE TO GO OUT EVERY DAY IN THE MORNING TO WORK ON EXERCISE STARTING TOMORROW. I HAVE BEEN WATCHING THE BABY A LOT SO MY DAUGHTER CAN GO OUT, THEN I AM TOO TIRED FOR ANYTHING ELSE. IT IS COLD OUT AND THAT DOES NOT HELP. WE DO NOT WANT TO TAKE THE BABY OUT ON BUSES. SHE HAS A BAD BACK AND IS YOUNG SO I HELP A LOT. WELL, TOMORROW, TOMORROW, YOUR ONLY A DAY AWAY. I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAY HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO EXERCISE. YOU GOT ME EXCITED AGAIN TO GO TO THE GYM AGAIN. GOD BLESS YOUR HOLIDAYS.

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SNEAKYGREG 12/19/2009 2:56PM

    Well done, I get so inspired when I read your blogs. It doesn't matter if you made your goal or fell short that week you seem to be able to put a positive spin on it and that comes with writing talent. When you reach your final goal you should write a book about your adventure, I for one would buy it

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SWEETZMIX 12/19/2009 10:37AM

    emoticon my friend. I have lost 3 pounds this week & I feel like it's starting to come off again too!

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VERGE_OF_ME 12/18/2009 10:45PM

    Just when I start to feel covered by the blanket of feeling like it's just too far, too hard, too much....I read a story..your story. Honest, encouraging, and full of spirit and heart....thank you so much for sharing and showing us all just what we are capable of. I am excited to see what next brings you!!
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4EVERADONEGIRL 12/18/2009 7:51PM

    I so needed to be reminded of your story today - you are such an inspiration not only for your weight loss but because you are willing to share your story and remind us that our journey won't always be about the graph line going down! This is about so much more than that...thank you!!

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 12/18/2009 7:45PM

    Your story is, simply said, AWESOME!! Thanks for sharing your journey!

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SUBVET688 12/18/2009 7:19PM

    emoticon emoticon That is awesome that you are dropping!

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PETERTAWFIK 12/18/2009 4:36PM

great job
what an inspiration if u keep up that spirit till April
i guarantee ur success and u will look great
i did myself loose 62 ibs so far and i feel soooooo different

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/18/2009 3:40PM

    Can't wait for the motorcycles to come back next week.

You are a tremendous force when it comes to doing this. Keep on bringing us along . . .

I will spare you the singing of a Chicago song . . .


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ROBBIEMARIE 12/18/2009 1:46PM

    OH MY! I found myself tearing up as I read this. I've not been familiar with your journey but have found this very inspirational to my own journey. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed trying to make it to my goal of losing 75 lbs. I am more than half way but am reencouraged to stay focused and know that ups and downs happen and as you know that to stay on the right track will lead me though to the end and a healthier life. You are doing wonderfully and I think you are going to have an amazing before and after picture, life and health. I bet anything that picture is already pretty amazing....... Congrats on continuing the good fight.

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ZIRCADIA 12/18/2009 12:49PM

    WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!! :D AWESOME! Your persistence is really helping keep my motivation strong right now. Thank you for always being such a great example and friend! *HUGS*

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THECOOLESTSARAH 12/18/2009 12:37PM

    WHOO HOOO!!! I am so excited for you friend! You'll wrangle down what you want your final weight to be, but get to your original goal first! You can do it!!! YAY!!!


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JLUVSHIKIN 12/18/2009 12:25PM

    I liked how you stated that weight loss isn't always a fluid downward motion because, even though my weight is going down, that arrow isn't always pointing down. It's good to know that others face similiar obstacles. It is those insights into others struggles is what makes SP such a wonderful website.
Congratulations on your loss for the week. Keep up the wonderous work.

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HAPPYSOUL91 12/18/2009 11:43AM

    You are an amazing person who has more determination and perseverance than anyone else I have ever known. I am here cheering you forward and to a healthy 2010


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4MYBOYSANDSELF 12/18/2009 11:16AM

    Woohoo! Way t0 go!!

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LLINDALOU 12/18/2009 10:56AM

    Congratulations! emoticon

You are an inspiration to many people

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QUAIL75 12/18/2009 10:13AM

    Yeah!! Congrats on your amazing success! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THERESEMB1 12/18/2009 9:46AM

    Thank you!!! I needed to read about perservance today. The scale did not move very much for me today and I was feeling a bit depressed about it. Then I logged in and began checking out blogs and came across yours. It is exactly what I needed to read. I don't have 300 lbs to lose and maybe that is the problem I only had a little over 50 and have lost 28 of it. I had an off week and ate high and low calories and did not work out everyday the way I have been and like to. So I don't know what I expected. But really after reading your blog I am truly inspired, reasured, and encouraged, Thank you because YOU are what SPARK IS ALL ABOUT. namaste

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LAURIE5658 12/18/2009 9:36AM

    WOWZER! BABY! Congratulations!!!

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CAROLYN1213 12/18/2009 9:33AM

    Always great to read your blogs! You are doing a fabulous job! Commitment to the goal and perseverance seem to be your motto for continued weightloss and healthy living!

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SFM130 12/18/2009 9:33AM

    LOVE THIS POST!! We definitely learn a lot about ourselves during this journey and sometimes are amazed at the amount of strength(mentally, physically and emotionally) we have. But when someone has gotten as far as you have by hard work and perseverance, it inspires the rest of us that we can do it, too! Thank you for sharing your insight about your own journey and CONGRATS!!!

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FITWITHIN 12/18/2009 9:32AM

    emoticonon all the hard work and a major milestones. What a great feeling this must be for you. emoticonjob!

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KKKAREN 12/18/2009 9:29AM

    Wow congratulations and good luck with continuing to your goal.

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BETHANYBOO 12/18/2009 9:29AM

    Damn, congrats!! You carry your weight VERY well, even for such a tall guy. I would have never guessed from your pictures that you used to be 500+ lbs.

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EVILKLOWN 12/18/2009 9:27AM

    Hey man -- WAYYYYY TO GO!!!

I LOL'D when I saw your paragraph about the graph line not always being straight. HAHA, you can say that again. My graph is a bit bumpy also. Not fair if you ask me. THAT'S RIGHT ... THE KLOWN CALLS "NO FAIR."

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