Monday, December 28, 2009
Two years ago at this time I was afraid that I would not have much longer here on this planet because of weighing way more than I should have. I had no clue what I weighed but my best guess was close to 600 pounds as I had not found a scale that could give me a straight answer at the time unless I wanted to go to a stone yard and hop on the scale that they weigh the trucks with. It had been days that I was online looking into what it took to get a weight loss surgery and I was as close as I have ever been to deciding on getting one of those surgery's and then I saw that death could be a side effect of having it and something clicked inside me an a decision was made, I have to do something before the choice is made for me in the way of a heart attack.
I was 534 pounds at my highest weight and today I am more than 200 pounds lighter just 726 days later and most of that weight was lost in the first year. Seven hundred twenty six days, that sounds like a long time if you look at it that way but really its not long at all and besides death lasts a lot longer than that so what was the alternative really? This time of year seems to get people all fired up to make a resolution and lose some weight "This is gonna be my year!" but 2 years ago was my year to mean it. I have re-learned how to fuel my body or should I say that I have learned how because what I was doing was not what I would call anything more than gorging myself at every meal just because I could. Contrasting my life back then to who I am now, how I live now and the latter is much more fun I have to admit because right now even at around 330 pounds I am not limited in any way that I notice. I run, I ride a bike, I walk, I go to the gym almost on a daily basis and things where my health are concerned are all where it should be and getting better daily and all because I decided to make a change in what I was doing.
I hate thinking about where I might be if I had not decided to get my $hit together and the answer can scare me if I think about it for too long. At 534 pounds how much of that can a persons body really take? how long can a body last as it pumps blood through a huge body that is literally more than twice as big as it should be? I didn't want to find out. Today for whatever reason I was thinking back to those days where it took a plan to get upstairs to use the bathroom, I literally had to time it so that I would go upstairs the bare minimum amount of times because of the fact that my heart felt like it would explode on any given trip up the 13 stairs in my house and I am honestly happy that I got my arse in gear and did this.
I am glad that I can still remember how it felt back then at more than 500 pounds because some day I know that it will fade away and whatever weight I level off at will be my weight and be what I know and remember but right now it makes me grateful for what I have done. Some day I will show my Daughter a photo of me at 500 plus pounds and she will not believe that it was me and I can thank her for her role in me doing this. Some day I will meet someone that has never seen me heavy and I may show them a photo of me at 500 plus pounds and they will not believe it and some day hopefully I will get to walk my daughter down the isle because I made the decision to get healthy and change the way that I think about food and my health.
I am stronger than I have ever been in my life and I do not mean physically, We all owe it to ourselves and to the ones that we love to take care of our health.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Very quickly in the spirit of being consistent I am posting up my weight from Friday morning before I run out to the gym, when I woke up yesterday I weighed in at 330.4 pounds and I kind of expected it as I had a very sodium filled day on Thursday and drank a ton of H2O before bed. Thursday morning I was 329.0 pounds so I know that I didn't gain almost a pound and a half over night so no worries I will see what Monday morning says and go off of that but for now I am updating my challenge weight to a reading of 330.4 lbs because that's what the scale said Friday morning and I did not weigh myself this morning and since I have already eaten breakfast and lunch today a weigh in at this point would be very inaccurate so I am posting Christmas mornings weight.
With that I am out the door heading to the gym so until next time!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
I have a goal, that goal is to make it through Christmas day without too many extra calories going into me and if I approach it that way, you know, as a game then I believe that I will come out without going too far over my calorie range. I hear people tout that "its a lifestyle change dammit so that means no matter what you need to eat salads and small portions of lean meats otherwise you are not treating it as a lifestyle change! you are just dieting again" I have to use something that my grandfather use to say to that God rest his soul, "Awww Horse pucky!" . Yes indeed it is a lifestyle change but that does not mean on special occasions I or anyone else cannot have a piece of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge or a slice or 2 of honey baked ham because that is just a silly notion to me to be so strict that not a single indulgence can be had. It is a lifestyle change and when normal life use to be eating 4 cheese burgers or 3 plates of food on top of at least one serving of every dessert at a holiday meal eating a normal sized holiday meal along with a dessert and a piece of fudge is doing the right thing for our health.
Sure I could eat 2 pounds of raw broccoli an apple and a glass of water then beat my chest and in my best "The Tick" impression state loudly that I have changed my life! and smile down on all of the fattys eating the Christmas good eats but I know that The tree that does not bend with the wind will be broken by the storm. I have done this from the beginning, I have not counted Holidaze meals when calories come into play which does not mean that its a free for all it just means that I have normal sized portions and something else amazing that's happened along the way down my path to better health? I have learned to STOP eating when I am full! I have this new magical power to let something stay put on my plate instead of forcing it down the chute. With all of that said I do usually try and count the calories in my head but its more for me to have a general idea of what I ate extra because at this point counting calories is so second nature to me that it just happens in my head almost instantly. In short, I am going to enjoy my Christmas brunch and dinner without guilt because one meal will not destroy any habit or lifestyle change that has been made.
I did get a chance to go to the gym yesterday even if it was later than I would have liked it to be, My kids are home from school until after the New Year so I will have to adjust the time that I go until they return to school. I went around 8:00 pm last night and came home all amped up from the workout and stayed up until about midnight because of it and that's the reason that I don't like going in the evenings. I weighed my options which were Go to they gym and get a good workout in but be up late because of all of the energy or don't go and get a great nights rest but no workout and no energy, obviously I chose to go and I am glad that it was the choice that I made. I did 20 minutes on a bike followed by the treadmill routine that I came up with a few days ago where I progressively add incline for 10 minutes and then come back down in 2% intervals, I really like that workout as I feel like I have done some work afterward. No weight lifting last night but My mother in law agreed to watch the kiddos so that I can go this afternoon and I am planning on doing my bike plus that treadmill routine and maybe some shoulder movements with some weights, I am looking forward to going today for whatever reason.
My intake yesterday came in at 1730 total calories, I drank 1 gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of straight H2O, obviously I made it to the gym so all in all it was a great day for my health. I don't think that I will post tomorrow as its Christmas and well I don't think I will have time to nor want to take time away from any of that for a post but I am sure that I will get on the scale either way. I mentioned this already but I will try my best to get a weigh in post up on Saturday and I will include what the scale said Friday morning as well as Saturday morning I think it will be fun to see the (damage) difference from after Christmas.
I hope everyone has a great Christmas and whether you choose to eat that 2 pounds of raw broccoli or a few pieces of Aunt Jackie's peanut butter fudge enjoy it! I don't consider anything that I do on this trip a failure or a victory, it is what it is and thats a guy that has relearned how to do things in moderation when it is food related and has learned that he loves the gym more than he ever thought he could.
That is all...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday went off without a hitch besides a piece of cake that was for an occasion so I did not count that into my calories, I was at 1775 calories total before the cake so I am probably still ok either way I am not too worried about it. I drank 1 gallon of green tea and 1 gallon of straight H2O so I was hydrated for the day but I did have lots of sodium in the way of some baked chips with my dinner which was a tuna melt so I may be retaining a bit this morning but I will never know because I ate breakfast before remembering to do my mid week weigh in check. The gym was interesting for me because I did something a little differently than usual, I rode my bike for 20 minutes and then did some weight lifting for my back and shoulders then it was time for the treadmill.
A full size version of the pic is on my blogspot at zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/
The first image is August 2007, the second image was taken last night so December 22nd 2009, I took the second one just fooling around and yes I know that I need a shave but I haven't posted a pic up in a while so I thought that it was tine to pop a new compare shot up here, man I love my compression shirt! The bottom half of me is as thick as the top half but man what a difference.
Usually I will do 20-30 minutes on the treadmill at between 3.0 and 3.8 mph and a 3.0% to 5.0% incline and I do this at the end of my workout so usually after the bike and arc-trainer. Yesterday I looked across the gym and there was a girl on the treadmill and she had it set at a wicked incline so I thought I would change it up a bit and ended up doing 20 minutes at 3.0 mph but every 2 minutes I went up 2% on the incline until I hit 11.5% at the 10 minute mark and then back down 2% at a time until 20 minutes was up. I have to tell you that wen I started I was thinking that it would be easy but by the time I hit that 11.5% incline I was ready for it to start coming back down! but in my head I was thinking about it as if I was peaking a hill and that the way down aould be easier but after 11.5% came 9.5% so I was still at a decent incline NOT the downhill that I was thinking I would get, its funny how our heads work sometimes. I checked my heart rate every minute by grabbing the bars on the treadmill so that I could see how I reacted to the incline changes and the graph matched the incline, my heart rate increased as the incline did and I am going to add this to my Tuesday workout as it definately changed things up and still gave me a good workout.
I don't think that I will get a post up on Friday because of Christmas so I will very likely just do a weigh in post on Saturday morning instead because I have to stay accountable with the weigh ins as it seems to keep me on track. Will Friday mess up the weigh in? we shall see but I am going to attempt to be a good boy and resist the urge to eat the cookies, cakes, fudge and all of whatever else will be around on Christmas day and eve. This does not mean that I will have nothing labeled as "treat" because I have always said that Holidaze do not count as far as me counting every bite that goes into my mouth because those few days per year of indulging are not going to hurt anything in the grand scheme. I am planning to make the best choices where dinner is concerned for Christmas and I will be drinking noting but my green tea, perhaps a beer and some water but on the food front I will not eat any differently as far as portion size goes and will make every attempt to eat the lower calorie dishes.
Again I say, we make our own choices and there is no one with a gun making us eat fatty food, there is no terrible terrible that will happen to us if we do not eat that triple double bacon bacon cheddar cheese and secret sauce burger with a side of giantico onion rings and a bucket O coke but there is a terrible terrible if we do eat it on a daily, just have a look at my before pictures.
Again another episode of as the fat guy turns has concluded, tomorrow is a new day where will it bring me? a step closer to my goal for sure. Thanks for reading along.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
The plan for today is the same as yesterday, stay within my calorie limits, drink plenty and hit the gym this afternoon. I ate 1740 calories Monday and that's just about perfect as I now eat between 1700 and 1940 calories per day depending on what I do at the gym, 1700 for non weight lifting days and 1940 for weight days and the extra is for a whey shake. I drank 2 gallons of H2O and about a quart of green tea yesterday as I forgot to make a gallon Sunday night I was limited to drinking hot cups instead of my cold brewed stuff. At the gym I did a lighter than usual work out because all I had to eat previous to going was my am bowl of cereal and started feeling weak midway through my workout, I ended up doing 20 minutes on the stationary bike, 15 minutes on the treadmill 3.5% grade @ 3.4 mph and finished up with a few sets on the preacher curl machine calling it quits after that.
Working as hard as anyone else in the gym and not looking like you are is a little bit frustrating, this thought entered my head yesterday as I rode the bike at the gym. Here I am sitting on this bike pedaling my heart out as I look in the mirror and see that I am bigger than I should be and its because of some extra skin that is still on my mid section. A guy walks by and looks like me from the chest up but below there he looks better, there is no extra baggage swinging around his middle, I keep pedaling. A girl that looks as if she was carved from stone stretches just feet in front of my bike she notices that I am looking in her direction and a smile and a nod later she is riding the bike next to me. I am here every day, I am busting my ass every day of the week with exercise not to mention the eating and drinking well and I am left with this reminder of older days in the form of extra me that there is nothing I can do anything about.
I own a compression shirt that I bought when I was running around the lake a while back and it is amazing what a difference there is in my silhouette when it is on verses when it is off of me. I knew that there would be a skin issue because of the size of me and always said "a bridge to be crossed when I get there" but I have to admit that it bothers me that its there, at 6'5'' tall on a pretty solid frame I believe that I could look much different at 328 pounds than I actually look right now because of the extra me just hanging around. The bridge that I am crossing with the way I am starting to look is sort of a dual feeling, on the one hand I am more than 200 pounds less than I use to be so wow! but the other hand offers a loose belly that doesn't quite look right because its not tight, it is sort of hangy if that's a word and though I can hide it in a hoodie very well the hotter months are really going to offer me a puzzle if I am going to somewhat hide the looseness of the whole package. Don't take any of this as complaining, it is merely observations and my reaction and thoughts to them because I would much rather be trying to hide some extra skin than hiding the whole me by staying in doors etc.
There are still some obstacles on this trip to a thinner me but nothing that looks like I can't crush, I mean hell if I have come from literally round shaped to the shape that I am in right now in just about 2 years anything is possible and a little extra skin isn't going knock me down. For anyone out there that thinks that it cannot happen for them because they are too big or too out of shape, take it from me, you know...the guy that was 534 pounds once upon a time that it can happen if the time and effort is put in, there is that "E" word again. I still have a long way to go with 53 pounds left to lose to reach my initial goal weight and 61 pounds left to go to have lost 50% of my total body weight and when the totals are put down to look at its easy to say "aww its only another 50 pounds you can do it!" but I'm telling ya this last go at the finish line seems like its going to be a difficult ride. Either way I will get there extra skin be damned I will get to that goal and I am predicting that I will go well beyond that 267 pound mark by more than a few pounds when this is all said and done.
That there folks is the end to yet another mind blowing episode of As the fat guy turns so you will have to tune in tomorrow to find out if that brownie on the counter lasted through the night. Thanks for reading along and thanks for the support, it is always appreciated.
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