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Being comfortable in my own skin...ALL of it....

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Monday provided me with a pretty good work out at the gym and I stayed under my calorie range, hydration was the game for the day and over all I am happy with everything that happened for the day where my health is concerned. I mentioned that I was going to do my 15/15/15 routine and I did but I changed it up a bit, I did my 15 mins on the bike, I did my 15 mins on the arc and I did my 15 on the treadmill but instead of walking at various inclines I warmed up at 3.0 mph for 3 mins and then did intervals running for 2 minutes then walking for 2 minutes and I did that for 20 minutes, the intervals near the end were less than 2 minutes each but it was a good work out none the less and something new to me so I was pleased with it.

Last Wednesday when I was at the gym with Wify I tried running on the treadmill for the first time and it wasn't as bad as I thought and is what prompted me to try it yesterday, and I almost chickened out and just walked. Looking for a treadmill that was stuck in a corner or behind a pillar was the plan but as I was walking away from the weight area I thought "why hide in a corner to run?" so I walked to the treadmill front and center of the gym and was right in plain sight, running is still something that I am not fully comfortable with even with a compression shirt on and I did not have it with me, but I did have my hoodie and that sufficed. My original thoughts of all eyes on the fat dude momentarily came back when I began running but quickly faded as Black train Jack blared in my head phones and I slipped into that I really don't give a.... mode.

It is still hard to not be in that frame of mind at times when you once weighed over 500 pounds, its a hard feeling to shake, you know, the one where it feels like everyone in the world is staring at you. Even now at around 330 pounds and physically able to do pretty much anything that I want to I am still a big boy, I am still not what you would call a physically fit individual if you were judging on looks alone and perhaps not even if it was my abilities that were being evaluated but none of that really matters. Doing what I need to do is what I need to do and that's it, letting what someone else thinks stop me would be my loss and that isn't something that I am ready to accept, does that mean that I won't wear my hoodie to hide the jiggle? nuh uh! its hoodie all the way! but I won't hide in a corner to run either. I have all winter to wear my hoodie to the gym when I run and hopefully by the spring I will have lost a significant amount of weight, at least be under 300 pounds which is a goal of mine.

Getting to under 300 pounds has sort of been back burnered for a while because I am as I said doing pretty much anything that I want to and my weight is not limiting me in any way currently, which is probably untrue but coming from where I have it sure does feel like I am unlimited. Talking to Wify a couple nights ago I told her how this weight that I am right now is where I am comfortable, its what is familiar to me so the hard push to lose lose lose! isn't there, I mean I am working out, I am eating right but its almost just slightly above maintenance levels because I give myself a lot of slack with the calories lately, I am able to walk/run/bike further than ever so I am seeing progress there instead of weight numbers. This morning I weighed in at 336.4 pounds which is 8 pounds higher than my lowest weight and where I have been hovering for the last couple weeks since my surgery and now that the cat is out of the bag its time to get back into a downward swing with the weight so a challenge will be set.

I want to hit 300 pounds or below before April 2nd 2010, that number is a very achievable amount of weight as it will mean that need to lose 2 pounds per week on average from this Friday until April 2nd. Because I am the way that I am I want to try to get below that number before then and I am planning on upping the intensity at the gym, I will still do my same two routines but I will up the speed, distance and weight in which I am doing these things and hopefully it will kick the weight loss into high gear, or at least a higher gear than I am in right now. Unlike the last challenge I will not be having a surgery to mess up the final result so Iwill add it to the side bar and add a weigh in each week until April 2nd, I am trying to think of something that I will have to do if I reach the goal, surpass the goal or do not make the goal like maybe donate to JDRF a certain dollar amount per pound under or over or whatever, if any of you fine people have any good ideas please drop it in the comment section.

There you have it, another post, a new challenge and now you owe yourself a big ol glass of H2O so hop on up and get it, you have sat on your butt long enough reading this post. Of course thanks for the support and for following along and tune in tomorrow to find out what happens in the next episode of as the fat guy turns..

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JBMT08 12/3/2009 2:12PM

    I LOVE IT!!!!!
As a suggestion for the donations: maybe you can donate your weight lost in food to a local food shelter? I have been toying with that for a while, but, I have been hovering around the same weight for a while...

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DAVEOZ 12/2/2009 10:47AM

    Good for you not chickening out. If you think about it, fear is just an emotion that can be changed in a split second. I am your weight and am determined to run again which I did years ago.

Your determination is discernable and your drive unstoppable. I say, do what you want, screw the fear and who gives a rat butt what people think about your jiggling. Think about it: their opinions mean NOTHING in your life do they?

Peace brother and keep on going! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 12/2/2009 10:11AM

    Boy, being comfortable in one's own skin is a major accomplishment. emoticon

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DACIUS 12/2/2009 9:32AM

    I totally get where you are at right now. While my #'s are smaller than yours overall. At 70+ pounds lost I am at a point where I am comfortable with my body size and very comfortable with my health.

I find myself questioning whether losing another 40lbs is really necessary. I have noticed my workouts lack some intensity (Intensity is the wrong word...more lack of pushing myself). My eating is still pretty strong, but I will eat a sweet treat once or twice a week (still staying well within my limits).

I can run 10 miles now. I weigh 250lbs.... Most people do not believe that. yeah I still jiggle when I run. but I take pride in the fact that I can outrun some of the skinny people out there. I take pride that I run 20 to 30 miles every week. Not many people can say that. Even fewer that weigh 250lbs can make that claim.

I say shed that hoody my friend. Don't be ashamed of your body. You have worked very hard to get where you are at and there are only a handful of people in the world that are able to run at 330lbs. I could do it...but only for a few minutes at a time. BE PROUD of what you are able to physically do for a man your size. Because most men 300+ lbs get winded walking from their car to the gym door. I know... I used to be that guy. I would literally be sweating before I touched the treadmiil.

As always you are an inspiration to me buddy. you keep up the great work and make sure you keep running in your routine. I still find it to be my strongest, most challenging workout.

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MKERN500 12/2/2009 8:42AM

    Love the 300 image! Definitely a good motivator!

I know what you mean about still feeling 'fat' even after you've become healthier. I've recently started to add to my wardrobe but I keep ordering sizes too big because my mind still believes I'm that other size. Hopefully one day we will realize that we've shed not just weight but our old selves.

Keep up the great job! And keep it movin! emoticon

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CJROMB 12/2/2009 2:22AM

    This was my FAVORITE PART:

Doing what I need to do is what I need to do and that's it, letting what someone else thinks stop me would be my loss and that isn't something that I am ready to accept, does that mean that I won't wear my hoodie to hide the jiggle? nuh uh! its hoodie all the way! but I won't hide in a corner to run either. I have all winter to wear my hoodie to the gym when I run and hopefully by the spring I will have lost a significant amount of weight, at least be under 300 pounds which is a goal of mine.

Your honesty is inspiring!

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CJROMB 12/2/2009 2:14AM

    This was my FAVORITE PART:
Doing what I need to do is what I need to do and that's it, letting what someone else thinks stop me would be my loss and that isn't something that I am ready to accept, does that mean that I won't wear my hoodie to hide the jiggle? nuh uh! its hoodie all the way! but I won't hide in a corner to run either. I have all winter to wear my hoodie to the gym when I run and hopefully by the spring I will have lost a significant amount of weight, at least be under 300 pounds which is a goal of mine.

Your honesty is inspiring!

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SUBVET688 12/2/2009 1:07AM

    Hey, I'm new here on the site. You have done an awesome job and have a great attitude. I appreciate the honesty in the posts I have read and this one is no exception.

I can relate to the feeling of being happy where you are, feeling better than ever and maintaining. Seven and a half years ago I stepped on the scales and was shocked to see 400 pounds. I was feeling horrible, short winded, not sleeping, etc. It took me a little over a year to drop 120 pounds. I was feeling great, I was walking in 5k's, hiking, running around with my son, etc. I hadn't reached my ultimate goal of dropping to 225 lbs, but I was happy with where I was. I started maintaining and doing a great job with it. I wasn't concerned with really losing anymore. My maintenance lasted a good year plus. Then I got busy doing other things and stopped logging my calories and really being diligent. I was good to go as far as I was concerned. Things started slipping a little, I weighed in less and less. Gained some, but convinced myself it was temporary and I would tighten up my discipline, but never got around to it. I gained more but it was so slow and I didn't pay attention to my body. It took a few years, but I gained a bunch back.

Now my 40th birthday roled around and I stepped on the scale and boom 380 stared back at me. Mind you I am still WAY healthier than I was the first time around, but this was a wake up call. It has been slow starting, but I have lost 25 pounds since and am here to really get back in the groove and lose down to my ultimate goal, now 0f 210 (a compromise with my doc).

This is a long reply and I by no means, mean to dis what you have done, or the great attitude that you have. I just want to cation that you do not slip like I did. It sucks big time. Keep on keeping on. We all can do it and we all will do it with a little help from our friends.

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BETHANYBOO 12/1/2009 8:45PM

    It sounds like you are doing great. Congrats!

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LISAMG1220 12/1/2009 8:43PM

    I love the 300 pic! It made me giggle. I like your donation idea. My plan is to donate an item of food for every pound I have lost to Kentucky Harvest. You are going to rock that goal brother!! keep up the good work!! : )

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BILLALEX70 12/1/2009 4:07PM

    Hey brother.
I know you know that I totally relate to you; especially on the giggles. A compression shirt is only half the battle; add some shorts as well. I'd say compression shorts do more for the bottom giggles than the top does. I tried Walmart brand Starter compression gear and found it less than adequate.

I've been on a bit of a plateau as well, but I'm staying the course. Stay true brother.

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ZIRCADIA 12/1/2009 3:19PM

    YAY for running in the gym! Also -- LOVE the 300 image! HAHAHAHA So funny.

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AROCHFORD 12/1/2009 3:18PM

    Thanks good luck on that under 300. I feel the same way about under 200. I stalled at 220 for the same reason. I feel comfortable here. I also ran but on the street in a tight fitted top. I usually wear xlarge mens tshirts. I felt REALLY exposed but I did it anyway. Thanks for sharing a usual you help me so much.

Keep SPArking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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1TOBFIT 12/1/2009 2:10PM

    Wow, I loved reading this! You have done so well for yourself and should be so proud of how far you've come !
Good for you !
I know all too well the feeling of "hiding" under baggy clothing and behind pillars etc. No more of that !
You are taking your health and fitness into your own hands and showing everyone how its done. There's NO shame in that.
Through you, you give others hope !
I cant wait to read your UNDER 300 blog !

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/1/2009 1:00PM

    Love that cover.

I need o set a target and go do it. You can't go anywhere until you know where you are going.

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WANDAC2013 12/1/2009 12:28PM

    You're doing an awesome job---keep it up!!!!! emoticon

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CAROLYN1213 12/1/2009 12:25PM

    I hear ya on the running and jiggling! I've never been a small gal and have always kinda stood out in the crowd. Now, I look at it as a good thing. There may be a woman my size, maybe a little larger or a little smaller, that will look at me running, lifting, giving it my all and think to themselves . . . "if she can do it, so can I." or the may be thinking "I will never let myself get that our of shape" either way, they are inspired to look at themselves.

Great goals! Very attainable! Thanks for the post!

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LAURIE5658 12/1/2009 12:10PM

    Baby steps, Botzzz. When you are ready to take on more weight loss, you will know it I am very sure of that. You are amamzing!

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PINKCOCONUT 12/1/2009 11:22AM

    I can TOTALLY relate! I have been in quite a comfort zone lately, I have never been as small as I am now and I've been letting calories slide and it's now starting to get to me. New challenges are a great idea, you'll totally get under 300 by spring!

And as a runner, I STILL feel gross when I run, I feel ALL my rolls just blobbing up and down when I run so no worries! You're not the only one!

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RENA1965 12/1/2009 11:20AM

    keep grinding it emoticon

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PRUPLEBEAR 12/1/2009 11:20AM

    Great goal! I know you are strong and will be able to reach it!

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LIMELITESHINES 12/1/2009 11:11AM

    What a great goal to set! You'll definitely do it if you set your mind to it! You're a strong and determined person. :)

You know . . as far as running infront of others . . I know exactly how you feel. But I heard something a little while ago that really registered with me. Someone said to me "What other people think of you is none of your business."

I thought about that one for a moment . . . and you know what? It's so true! It is none of my business . . and how the heck do I know what they are thinking anyway. Not my business! :) It's really helped me to just get on that treadmill and RUN. and run HARD. And if the treadmill is shaking and making noise . . oh well! As long as it doesn't break (teehee!) it's not my problem!

So rock out that weight loss . . . (I love the picture to go with your challenge . . how perfect! hehe) . . . you'll do great!!!!!!

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Four days was the focus 2 years old

Monday, November 30, 2009

This four day weekend was interesting, I did not go crazy with my intake just because there was a giant bird in the house, no I don't mean Big Bird though I recall watching some of him Friday morning and I did not go over calories too much if at all on Thanksgiving. I have not worked out since Wednesday, meaning it has been four days since I have been to the gym and last night I started feeling it. Sitting in the living room I started feeling anxious and then bored and then I walked into the kitchen with full intentions of raiding the refrigerator but I stopped at the doorway and thought about how I wasn't really hungry and told Wify "I'm goin crazy" she smiled and it dawned on me that I had not worked out in so many days so out of the kitchen I went. I honestly believe that I NEED the exercise at this point or else I get all feeling confined and locked down, this afternoon will afford me the first chance to getto the gym since Wednesday of last week and I feel like its Christmas morning because I can't wait to get there this afternoon.

This Friday I have decided that I will post a weigh in because I feel that good, bad or ugly it helps me to have it out there and up on the blog so I have to get back to doing it. I am still up above my lowest weight but it is still creeping downward so that is all I can hope for, the plan is to hit it hard until I reach that line drawn in the sand which reads sub 300 lbs. I feel healthier than I have been since starting this whole ride and I know that I am, I can do things today that I was not capable of doing even 6 months ago and that is an amazing thing for me and it fuels my drive which is awesome because I want to do things like working out and I am finding that "what can I do to improve my work outs" is whats in my head much of the time.

Today I am planning on getting in my 15/15/15 cardio work out in and following that I will do my shoulders/biceps work out on the weights. What is the 15/15/15 cardio work out you ask? well I am glad you asked, let me splain Lucy, I start off with a 15 minute ride on a stationary bike set at a resistance level of 11 or 12 then its onto the Arc-trainer for 15 minutes set at 45 resistance and finally onto a treadmill for 17 minutes, which is a 2 minute warm up at 3.0 % incline to get my balance right and then 5 minutes at 15% incline, 5 minutes at 10% incline and finally 5 minutes at 5% incline all at 3.0 mph, not bad right? and I feel like I really get a good cardio work out in when I do it this way all while keeping it interesting by not spending too much time on one machine. I am starting fresh this week with the weights and what I mean is that I am not sore one bit and this is the first time since I started lifting more seriously that its the case, partially because of the 4 days off and partially because I am starting to get use to lifting again, or should I say that my muscles are getting use to it.

Another week and hopefully another pound or 4 disappears from the scale, I know that I will be more fit any way that its cut because with every trip to the gym, walk around the lake or bike ride I get stronger, faster and healthier so it is a win win my friends.

Thats all I got on this cloudy Monday so I am off to the gym, until next time remember that you are the one making the choices, not me, not that other fella, it is you, so make the right choices and the rest falls into place on its own.

As Ever

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BARIBAL 12/1/2009 10:11AM

    I havent been in gym for 2 weeks... emoticon

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SNEAKYGREG 12/1/2009 8:23AM

    Funny how we get to wanting different things but when we get bored the food becomes our number one focus. I have caught myself in that bored I gonna eat everything I see mode, kinda scary

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/30/2009 11:51PM

    And Drink your Water! emoticon
I finally made it back to the gym this morning after a week of missing it, and boy was it sweet!

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LISAMG1220 11/30/2009 7:05PM

    The past 2 weeks I have not had time to log my food properly and it has become a big issue. so I started keeping a written journal and will start logging my food again tonight. Time is going to be a big problem the next month, but I will do everything I can to sqeeze in extra time somewhere! Hope you had fun at the gym! Now it is my turn to go!! Have a great week!!!!!

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TRACYZABELLE 11/30/2009 5:49PM

    As hard as it is going to be I am eliminating sugar and cutting carbs this next month and I will kick up the exercise. I wanted to hit 450 by the new year... lets see what happens

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 11/30/2009 2:23PM

    I need to get to this point. Maybe a little "pooh" dancing will get me in the right frame of mind.

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DAVEOZ 11/30/2009 12:27PM

    Good job on staying in check. Keep it up!


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PLUSTODOWNSIZE 11/30/2009 12:02PM

    Have fun at the gym!

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DACIUS 11/30/2009 12:01PM

    Sounds like a good routine with the Cardio.

The holiday was a tough one. Especially since the schedule gets kicked all out of whack. As crazy as it sounds...I need to work so that my schedule is cut and alloted for.

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LAURIE5658 11/30/2009 11:52AM

    Botzzz, I did not hit the fitness trail like I ususally do either. BUT I just had to get out and blow off steam so some runs were in order. I was a MUCH better girl after that! What a huge difference releasing endorphns will do!!

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BEACHY_KEEN 11/30/2009 11:49AM

    I know that feeling! When I haven't exercised in days, I feel like I'm depriving myself, and I do feel caged in. I'm glad I'm not the only one. Hubby definitely does not understand that feeling. Not yet, at least. :-P

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HAPPYSOUL91 11/30/2009 11:42AM

    Good job on catching yourself before the binge.

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Ask yourself....

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Why am I fat?

Why can't I stop eating?

Am I going to die today?

When will I admit that I have a problem?

Who will take care of my children when I am gone?

What am I missing out on because of my weight problem?

Does this food taste good enough for me to allow it to control me?

How long will it be before I need assistance getting myself dressed?

How am I going to get up from this couch if I keep going in this direction?

How much longer can my body last at this weight before a serious injury occurs?

How many firemen will it take to carry me from my home after my heart attack?

Do I want to live the rest of my life wishing that I would do something about my health?

Do I want to put my loved ones through taking care of me because I won't do something about my bad eating and exercising habits?

When you are done answering those questions honestly, make a decision, Make the decision to do something about the weight that is holding you back and quite literally shortening your rime on the planet. I know it is not easy, I know that it takes time and I know these things from personal experience and though I do not like wishing simply because if you $hit into one hand and wish into the other we all know which one fills up first but I really do wish that I had decided to do something about my health earlier on. It took me to get to the point where I thought about if I was going to have a heart attack on a daily basis before I did what needed to be done and finally decided that I had to do something before it was too late, if you are reading this and are in that place, or even if you are not quite there yet but do know that you are on the way, do not fool yourself into thinking that its not a life or death situation because it is and starting tomorrow will not cut it.

It is easy for me to see it so clear now that I am down more than 200 pounds but back when I was heavier there was nothing anyone could have said to me that would have made a difference in the way that I felt about it at the time, just ask my wife if you don't believe me because Lord knows that she tried to get me to see it. In the spirit of Thanksgiving I want to thank my wife publicly on my blog for being there through everything that we have been through in the past 8 years and though I know not all of it was because of my weight much of it was and for that I am thankful that I am married to the most wonderful woman that I have ever had the pleasure of meeting.

I hope everyone has an awesome Turkey day.

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 11/29/2009 5:00PM

    Thanks for such a heartfelt honest blog posing questions that I myself have been asking myself for a very long time. I even have answers for some of them already and that is not necessarily a good thing if I have not been able to put much action into changing those answers.

I have over 200 pounds I need to lose and I have tasted weight loss(losing 100 of those pounds) and I am ashamed to say that for personal emotional demons from my past that still haunt me, I chose to put the weight back on and I 100% regret ever making that choice.

What I want to say to all out there that have such a large amount of weight to lose is that even after loosing those 100 pounds and physically I was half way there and physically more able to live and enjoy life internally emotionally I was still 100 pounds heavier than what the scale said. Emotionally I did not change and that was my downfall.

I am still working on changing what I need to do emotionally to be able to handle emotionally living in a thin body again. If you have lived for so long using the body fat as a wall of protection that actually ended up becoming a self imposed prison cell it is a very scary thing to begin to allow those fat layered wall to fall and become vulnerable all over again. That is where I am at personally. I am working on losing that fear of being vulnerable by releasing my walls of fat that I held onto for security.

Bless you for your inspirational blogs that keep me thinking and keep me in check with myself!

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CRAFTYPATCH 11/27/2009 8:38PM

    My husband and I have a photo of us pre-healthy living...above it my husband wrote the words "Why are you fat?" We put it on the refrigerator door as a reminder every time we reach for food. It caught my eye when those were the first words of this post.

I really feel like I am on track. I not only want to be slim and healthy but I want to do the things that get me there. Your blog is such an inspiration every day. Thank you for sharing your feelings, triumphs and life. It is very much appreciated!

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TRACYZABELLE 11/27/2009 4:11AM

    Believe me I ask myself these questions all the time... scary stuff..
I hope you and the wifey had a great Thanksgiving.

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ETHEL_MERMAID 11/26/2009 1:26PM

    I wish you and your wonderful wife a very happy and memorable Thanksgiving today...and speaking of thanks, I'm very grateful to have come across this post of yours. The number on the scale doesn't matter: If we've asked ourselves enough of these questions to feel some pretty profound discomfort, it's time to make that decision, isn't it? Wow...can I ever relate! Where our health is concerned, "maņana" is a lousy strategy! All the best to you, Susan

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SNEAKYGREG 11/26/2009 11:26AM

    Isn't it wonderful to truly have a spouse that took the for better or worse vows seriously.

Great blog and if that doesn't make people think, nothing will

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LALAFLOWERS 11/26/2009 8:02AM

    WOW... questions that so many need to ask themselves... Thanks for posting them.. And my kudos to you for asking them of yourself, and deciding to make a change in your life! (and that of your wife, family, friends.. and all those watching on the sidelines that you don't know yet)

Have a great Thanksgiving!

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AKELAZ 11/26/2009 7:00AM

    Brave questions that no-one generally asks - out loud - and that no one needs to respond to because no one wants to voice the answers. Good for you for making us think - as always. Good for you for achieving a 200lb weightloss. Good for your wife for her perseverance and encouragement. Hope you all have a great Thanksgiving

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DDOORN 11/26/2009 1:10AM

    Terrific questions...going to hang onto them for future reference and to pass along to others...! I think those of us who have gone on to lose the weight have asked ourselves most of these, but don't actually remember doing so...! :-)


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LISAMG1220 11/25/2009 11:42PM

    Great blog! You are such a sweetie for what you said about your Wifey. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your fam! : )

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BILLALEX70 11/25/2009 9:30PM

    Gobble, gobble brother!

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VEMAN1 11/25/2009 8:52PM

    Amen brother!

The thoughts still haunt me.

If not now, when? If not for me, then who? If only, not today. I choose to not let myself be a victim of my own self destruction. I am glad to see that I am in such good company!

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ALEXSGIRL1 11/25/2009 7:17PM

    i only wish my husband asked himself these questions before it is to late. you have a great family and a great second chance at life . it is great that you are not wasting your life but making the most of it. you your wife and those kids of yours have a lot of living left to do. i am thankful you are here to enjoy the journey with.

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RUSSELLORAMA 11/25/2009 6:27PM

    Those are important questions that no one wants to ask and many people avoid answering! Thanks so much for sharing this blog. Sometimes you just have to start making changes for yourself and hope that your friends and family come along with you.

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YOOVIE 11/25/2009 5:14PM

    another real eye-opener. sometimes i wish you lived closer. i need to talk to my roommate about his weight but I am terrified to hurt his feelings because he is older and kind and gentle. but there are exactly the questions he needs to hear. I think he is up to about 4 or 5 firemen. I'm getting more worried what with the snow coming soon, he falls badly every winter.

Anyway- on a lighter note! HAVE A WONDERFUL WONDERFUL HOLIDAY!!!!!!!

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KNH771 11/25/2009 4:51PM

    Have a blessed and safe turkey day yourself! Thanks for the questions. A couple of them really hit home. Your right about how you look at the world differently when you're at your peak weight. Looking back after you've lost the some of the weight, you see things much more clearly.

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LAURIE5658 11/25/2009 4:25PM

    Botzzz, I wish for you the healthiest and happiest Thanksgiving EVER!!! You deserve it, my friend!!!

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KSIGMA1222 11/25/2009 3:41PM

    I remember when I used to say:
"I am on the dont care eat everything diet."
"Working out is to much work, I'm much happier just sitting here watching tv(And the world go by!)"
"Yeah, you go run your run or race I will sit right here and cheer you on."
"I can eat a whole bag of Oreos! Or a pizza! Or a bucket of Chicken! or all three at once! Isn't it cool!"
"I dont want to get all sweaty."
"Doesn't everyone drink 2 gallons of soda a day?"
"So what if I get winded walking up the stairs."
"I need to........"
I want to........"
"Tomorrow I will........."
"This really doesn't taste good but I dont want to waste it."
"I will start once this is over now when that is done, ok now when I reach this point and the circumstances are all lined up and my excuses run out."
"So what everyone already sees me as a fat ogre, so why should I care?"
"Dont take my picture or Let me take the picture of the group I will get in the next one."
"My clothing is just shrinking."
"I am not worth anything anyway so why should I care?"
"My children will understand and love me anyway(And they do love me but how long will i be around for this love?)"
"I will live long enough to see my children graduate college?"
"My kids will not learn my bad habits! I will just tell them not to do as I do."

Amazing what I can come up with off the top of my head when it comes to all of this and reading your questions, like it was yesterday.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 11/25/2009 3:34PM

    Then you haven't met my wife. I definitely don't deserve her.

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DAVEOZ 11/25/2009 3:05PM

    I have confided in my wife about tomorrow's questionable experience.

She said that there WILL be no problem because I will be there.

OK, she's the boss!

Man, I love that woman. emoticon

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DACIUS 11/25/2009 2:56PM

    You and I are some blessed guys. They say behind every good man is a strong woman. I can safely say for sure that my decisions I make every day have her in the back of my mind, making me push that extra mile or lift that extra rep.

You are also absolutely right about how no one can make someone answer those questions. Those are questions someone has to ask themselves when they are ready for it. No one can make you want to lose weight. You have to want it deep within your self. You have to have that inner fire.

Great blog. Happy thanksgiving bud. Enjoy your family because WE both have an amazing amount of things to be Thankful for.

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TROPHYWIFE2B 11/25/2009 2:46PM

    You're welcome babe, Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and for most of people that means a huge meal with lots of calories and a full belly at the end of the day, perhaps even some pie. It was decided by me that this year I am not going to keep myself from enjoying Thanksgiving dinner but that does not mean that I need to eat a 4000 calorie meal either, with some simple substitutions an awesome meal can be had by anyone. This year Wify and I decided that we would stay home and cook for just us and the kids on Thursday and Friday would be when we saw family and because of that I am planning on making a low calorie dinner, low calorie? Thanksgiving dinner? can that really be said in the same sentence? indeed it can.

My menu for Thursday will include Turkey obviously, and a 26 pound turkey at that! in place of mashed potatoes I will be making Parmesan mashed Cauliflower which is substantially lower in calories than traditional mashed potatoes and honestly in my opinion tastes just as good. I will also make mashed turnips which is mostly for my father when he comes by on Friday, along with some sweet potatoes grilled outside, I will also be making corn which will be from a can this year since its just the 4 of us cranberry sauce, dinner rolls and stuffing will be at the party as well. The only thing that I am not making low calorie is the stuffing and that's because my recipe calls for sausage and boiled eggs to be added and other than using turkey sausage I can't really figure out a way to make that taste awesome and drop the calories significantly enough to make the effort worth it. Dessert will be provided by the children, Wify decided that since its just us that we will let them choose something to make sort of like an after dinner activity for them and when we asked them what they wanted to make "ice cream" came up so we are thinking sundaes or something though I really do think that I will be picking up a pumpkin pie as well just for good measure and because Thanksgiving just isn't Thanksgiving without a pumpkin pie. Normally I do not include the Holidaze as days to count my calories but I don't want it to be a free for all either so if most of what I make is healthy and made as low calorie as possible I can do some damage control preemptively.

This week I have gotten off to a good start and seem to be in the right state of mind, I am watching what I eat, I am at the gym "doing my thang" and in spite of Thanksgiving being this week I am planning to see a loss on the scale come Friday. Still above my all time low which I reached just before my surgery I have to admit that I am slightly frustrated but it is on the way down and I have started lifting weights more seriously so a bit of retention is to be expected and I am not going to bother myself too much worrying about it.

I am off of my game a bit this week because my daughter has half days at school so I have to go to the gym earlier than usual and I did not expect it to be any different but the couple hours difference really is making me feel taxed when I am finished working out not to mention that I cannot stay as long. I received an email last week from someone saying that they enjoyed when I post exactly what I did for my work out so I am going to try and include that more often. Yesterday I started out with 20 minutes on a stationary bike and then I did 12 minutes on an arc-trainer, I wanted to get weight lifting in so the arc had to be shorter than normal because of my daughters short day. My bicep was feeling up to par so off I went and did a work out for my shoulders, biceps and back, all with lighter than normal weight consisting of a row machine for 2 sets of 12 at 130 pounds as a warm up and then 3 sets of 10 at 200 pounds, I followed that with some over the head shoulder presses 2 sets of 12 at 100 pounds as a warm up and then 3 sets of 10 at 130 pounds. Upright rows followed that and though it was the same 2 sets of 12 followed by 3 sets of 10 I do not recall the weight that I used, I do know that it was very light as I really just wanted to get the motion in, I finished up with preacher curls but what I did differently this time is that I used a very light weight and did more reps, I warmed up with 30 pounds for 2 sets of 18 and then 4 sets of 12 at 50 pounds, the last set did fall short because I started feeling it in my left bicep a little more than I wanted to so I did 10 for the last set and finished the day up with a 10 minute walk in the treadmill to cool down.

This morning I can feel that I lifted but I am not what I would call sore so that's a good thing, a little later this morning when I head out to the gym I will do the same cardio work out but I will do a leg work out on the weights this time around. My legs are...well..HUGE and no wonder after carrying all of that around for as long as I did, not to mention the fact that even before I blew up to over 500 pounds I was always a big guy doing mostly manual type jobs but I don't want that to be a reason to neglect them. The plan is to work on the leg press machine, the calf raise machine and maybe some lunges holding free weights, I prefer to do squats but with my back injury from 2000 I am still weary of getting hurt and side lining myself because I prefer one movement over another so the leg press machine it is until I feel like I am getting strong enough to do squats safely, an injury would not be good right now as I can feel myself getting into a stride, not that an injury is good at any point but surely you know what I mean.

Now that You have endured my lengthy Tuesday morning post You owe yourself a big ol glass of H2O so go grab that and I will get myself ready for the gym and my daughter for school. Thanks for following along and for more you will have to tune in tomorrow to see what Fatman and Blobin get themselves into, until then my friends..

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SKYEFYR 11/27/2009 5:15PM

  I agree. It's not thanksgiving without pumpkin pie. My mom got to me with hers yesterday.

Somewhere I've got a wonderful recipe for a crustless one. I think I'm going to have to try and find it. If I can, I'll email it to you. When I was on WW I remember it being only a couple points for a decent sized piece, so it's a wonderful treat without guilt.

Keep being fantastic!

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ALEXSGIRL1 11/25/2009 7:12PM

    i just had a thought if you are recovering form surgery your body might just store a couple calories here and there to help with that. i hope you go on the light side in the gym until you recover fully. i know high tec surgery less invasive yada yada but your cells might not know that or your immune system so go slow for awhile. you are doing awesome and i drank a hole glass of water as i read your blog. may i have another? have a happy thanksgiving to you and your family.

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TELERIE 11/25/2009 5:22PM

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Cauliflower is yummy! You ROCK the gym thang!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 11/25/2009 1:33PM

    I might have to get a couple heads of cauliflower and try that. I know the ones my in-laws make are enough to stop hearts (butter, sour cream, and whole milk, in addition to the potatoes).

Once again, have a Happy Thanksgiving, my friend.

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DACIUS 11/25/2009 8:29AM

    Sounds like a good turkey day!!! I am eating more traditional, but I am stubborn like that. I am going to run 10 miles that morning to offset the calories. LOL!!!

I have the same challenges with strentgh training. I am naturally a big guy and my legs will never, ever be considered chicken legs. I can generally leg press 300lbs 20 times without breaking a sweat. But squats make me nervous because I have to have a lot of weight on there to really do any sorta a workout. I see people squating with 135 and I think that would not even by a warm up for my legs. I used to carry an extra 100lbs on my shoulders, butt, belly, chin every single day. So I squated that much everytime I sat down (which was a lot...LOL!!!).
Good blog bud. As usual you bring a nice fresh perspective into the world of spark.

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LINDOKAS 11/24/2009 12:47PM

    may a way to lower the calories for the stuffing is choosing a lower cal bread? those higher in fiber are usually lower cal... like the arnolds double fiber sliced bread... just a thought! great plan though :-)

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LISAMG1220 11/24/2009 12:44PM

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!! Sounds like you are going to have a good one! Oh and you are right! It is not Thanksgiving without the Punkin' pie! : )

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JMSURPRENANT 11/24/2009 11:03AM

    Fabulous blog and T-day plan!
Best wishes,

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THECOOLESTSARAH 11/24/2009 10:55AM

    Your Thanksgiving plan sounds great! I love mashed cauliflower - I can't even really tell a difference. I've been contemplating whether or not I'll eat mashed potatoes at our dinner. I think I'll have everything, just in moderation. I am also planning to fill half my plate with veggies, a quarter with turkey, and then try to fit the starchy carbs on just on small quarter of plate. Then I'll drink an entire glass of water before I start eating. I think that should do it!

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LAURIE5658 11/24/2009 10:33AM

    Botzzz! Look at you doing the preacher curls in the photo!! What a totally magical transformation from just last week! LOL

Seriously, Botzzz, may you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

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Exercising, who me? yeah you! couldn't be. Then who?

Monday, November 23, 2009

Kickin around all weekend long I did not make the best choices where my intake was concerned but it wasn't terrible either, I stayed hydrated all weekend its just the extra calories that got me. A plus to the weekend is that I finally got to explore a trail not far from my house with Wify Saturday afternoon, we hiked 3 miles worth of this trail and decided that if we can get a sitter again next weekend and the weather cooperates that we will drive down to where we left off (we ended at a road crossing) and hike another 3 miles or so, it was really relaxing to get out on a nice day and go on a walk about with a beautiful woman.

My wife is noticing that about 30 minutes into or after I exercise that I get...hyper, yeah we will call it hyper for now. This phenomenon is something that I noticed as well but she seems to find it very humorous and likes to mess with me about it, about 30 mins into our walk she turns to me with this $hit eating grin on her face and says "You just got VERY chatty" and I thought "hmmm I have haven't I" and within 3 minutes I was challenging wify to a skip race down the trail, and that thought turned into another thought "I wonder what the furthest distance anyone has ever skipped is?" to which Guinness popped into my head, I remembered when I was in my early 20's a friend of mine said that when I skip that I looked like a Deer prancing through the woods and that the distance from where I left the ground to where I landed between skips had to be 20 feet and before long I had come up with a plan to get into guiness by skipping the furthest.

I notice the same thing when I am at the gym, when I arrive I usually ride the stationary bike for 20 minutes no matter what I am going to do, it serves as a good warm up for me, and when I first get there I am sort of just there but after that ride I am ready to do anything. Friday for instance, My biceps were still killing me so I couldn't do the arc-trainer and I decided that I would do 30 minutes on the treadmill instead and I ended up doing 25 minutes on the bike and an hour and 10 minutes on the treadmill between a 3.0 and 7.0 incline and between 3.0 and 3.5 mph, I only stopped because I had to get back home in time to pick my daughter up from school. I have to say that I am rather enjoying this feeling that I get after and during exercise and can't help but to think that its my bodies way of making sure that I do it, making sure that it does not end up panting up stairs, or sweating from menial tasks perhaps even a way to stop the possibility of roots growing from my posterior into and through the couch again.

I over trained my biceps last week and learned my tough guy lesson and will use weight closer to what I should be instead of what I use to be able to do from here on out. I need to develop a more strict routine for my weight lifting because I am all over the place currently with it and making up a routine is not exactly something new to me as I use to lift a lot so upon returning from the gym today I am going to put some time into writing that up. My surgery is behind me now and I got my stupidity with preacher curls out of the way so I am refocusing and I can guarantee that results will be had in the coming weeks because its what I decided and that's all its going to take. I believe that adding a solid weight program into my exercise regimen will help me gain some of the lost mass back but I am unsure what will happen with the actual poundage loss/gain for a week or two because surly I will be retaining some fluids with the added weight training but since I am going to keep hitting the cardio as my main thing I think that I can keep the number going down while strengthening myself back up a bit, but now this post is getting rambly (is that even a word??!) so I shall end it here.

As always thanks for following along and the support and comments are ALWAYS appreciated so thank you all for that, make sure to stay hydrated and get some exercise into your days, if the once 534 pound fella can get to a point where he actually craves it then you can do it as well.

In 20 minutes think about how easy it would have been to exercise in that time and its out of the way, once you realize that it Really is that easy get up and do something about it, go ahead I dare ya!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 11/25/2009 1:04PM

    Another great post. Sounds like you need to use Bing.



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CINCYDORA 11/24/2009 10:06AM

    I see the same phenomenon: increased 'hyperactivity' after about 30 minutes of exercise. Unfortunatley it seems to correspond to a decrease in brain activity, as if my body is redirecting nutrients from the brain to the muscles. So while the quantity of words increases, the quality decreases.

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SNEAKYGREG 11/24/2009 8:21AM

    So how far you gonna skip???

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FLAWLESSCUBE 11/23/2009 10:17PM

    Keep on rocking, looking forward to hearing how the weight lifting routine treats you. Nice cyalis pic btw :) (giggles)
Stay Strong

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ZIRCADIA 11/23/2009 3:50PM

    YOU ROCK! Skip to my lou!

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LISAMG1220 11/23/2009 3:45PM

    Great blog as always!! I just changed my weight training routine too. I over did it on my biceps and was in some pain for a few days. So I lowered the weight and upped the reps and one day I do lower and the other I do upper. I alternate the cardio too. One day 30-45 min the next 60+ minutes. I am really liking the arc trainer but the one at my gym "arms" do not move....I wish it did. I can really see a difference in my core now that I am using it and my knee seems like it is not bothering nearly as much. That is a bonus!!! Have a wonderful week and a fantastic Thanksgiving!!

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DEEJACKSON 11/23/2009 3:07PM

    I always get a kick out of your blogs!!

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PUMPKINFACE73 11/23/2009 1:03PM

    LMAO....I have to ask where did you get that picture? GLOBALKEEWEE has me cracking up and I did have the same smirk on my face...I am thinking Cialis, that old couple looks way too happy...I think you should photo shop you and wifey's faces on that pic :)...and BTW, I love to skip, I make Lexie do it with me at the grocery store

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KSIGMA1222 11/23/2009 12:56PM

    Skipping is fun.

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THECOOLESTSARAH 11/23/2009 11:02AM

    Do you ever do the stair climber thing? I like to call it the sweat maker instead. It's all legs, baybay.

I totally know what you mean about regulating the workout routine - I'm in the same boat right now. I'm overhauling everything and making a new and more regulated schedule! whoo hoo!

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VEEJAY3 11/23/2009 10:49AM

    I have three words for you:

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GLOBALKEEWEE 11/23/2009 10:25AM

    I can hardly focus on the actual topic of your blog, because you have a picture that looks like it was swiped from an AARP ad inserted in here...I suppose it could be a Cialis ad, if you added some bathtubs...maybe I'll try again later to READ it. HA!

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