Wednesday, October 21, 2009
The way that things change after a person loses a substantial amount of weight are unbelievable, I am learning things about myself that I had forgotten along with my will to do anything past breathing between shoving morsels of goodness down my gullet. I don't believe that a person can get to be 500 plus pounds without losing more than a bit of themselves in the process, sitting on a couch for hours at a time with a remote control in one hand, a whole order of General Tso's chicken in the other and no desire for much else I wouldn't think is anything that someone would strive for yet there I was. That person was not me but I was right in the middle of it, slowly expanding my needed space and surely heading towards an early death in the mindset that there was nothing that could be done short of a weight loss surgery, the feeling is Hopeless.
To say that you become someone else does not begin to tell the story of how a transformation of body translates into the mental morphing of a person, our attitudes begin to match our large physical exteriors as we hide behind bitter stares and withdrawn actions. Before I met my wife I was going to shows (local bands) three times per week, I was hanging out at clubs, bars and basically a very social person that always had something to do and was rarely home for longer than it took to sleep and depending on how the night went a lot of times not even home for sleep. We met right as I was growing out of that phase of my life and beginning to slow down a bit and maybe looking for something a bit more stable and I found that in her, the going out continued somewhat and life was great then I was injured in 2000 after moving to California and it was at that point that slowly I started losing bits of myself.
I was this 6'5'' 350 pound guy that could run, climb up things like a monkey on acid and I never stopped moving, I had a friend that I worked with just before I moved to CA that would always say things about how "nimble" I was for my size and even though he watched me every day at work he was amazed at the things I could do. Where was that guy? the confident, cocky very physical big fella, after 2000 he was no where to be found, I was struggling every day just to do daily functions because of the pain in my back and when I say daily functions I mean anything more than laying still so that things didn't hurt, I was not working because of the injury and that lasted for more than 2 years. When I was able to go back to work I was placed in a position that sat me at a desk doing paper work and answering phones all day and though I was glad to be back to work I hated what I was doing, I had always done some type of physical work up until that point in my life and enjoyed it. Here we are a few years later and I still have substantial back pain on a daily basis, I am limited to what I can do and I am putting on weight like it was a contest, needless to say I was not the same person that I was just a few years earlier.
Time goes by and sitting on your ass becomes your day to day, its whats expected and its what you do, no more no less. It wasn't exactly my fault that I was stuck so it got justified that way and the band played on and the weight kept going up, the back pain was getting to a point where if I stayed still for 75% of the day I was able to move around a bit, and I mean a very little bit because every time it would start feeling better I would push a little harder in an attempt to push though and bamn! laying in bed for five days in pain for my effort, giving up was easier than that. Missing out on things became the norm, "Honey I got tickets for a baseball game from work what do you think? Wify would ask with that tone in her voice knowing that I would not want (be able) to go but why should everyone miss out because I couldn't go right? so I would first say something to let her know that I would rather she not go (there is the selfishness coming out) but that I was ok if she did of course with a large sigh at the end of the statement (which at the time I was dying inside because of it) or "Babe did you want to catch a movie tonight?" to which of course because of the pain in my back and the sheer size of me at that point I would decline, I mean if I couldn't sit comfortably in a seat for 2 hours why would it be fun right? but again every time something like that happened I became more bitter and more withdrawn and soon I didn't want to do anything because of my weight, who was this guy that was emerging?
Where did the big fun guy go? How did this happen? from outgoing, cocky, happy, always cracking a joke and loving life to withdrawn, bitter, sour unhappy even though he had the most beautiful Lady on the planet at his side, all because of some weight? if it was "some" weight it may not have went that way but it was an immense amount of weight, it was constant pain in the back and sitting on the sidelines for everything that did it. Now that I am starting to get back to myself I can clearly see that I wasn't myself for that time of my life, I am not the person that I was at 534 pounds, depressed and bitter. I am starting to see the old me again with the success that I have had so far and I can remember something that Wify said to me a while back when we were talking about how far I have come with this whole ordeal, The conversation was along the lines of me saying that I was feeling better and starting to feel like myself again, I stated something along the lines of that she was getting her husband back and she said "No, its like I got my boyfriend back" This morning I woke up in a great mood and for some reason that statement popped into my head and this post as a result of that.
In all honesty I can say that I am a different person today than I was just 2 years ago, I am feeling like the old me and again.
Folks, I do believe he's back...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Mister Meatball, do you honestly drink one to two whole gallons of fluid per day? I don't believe it! "Yes I do drink somewhere between 128 and 256 ounces of fluid per day." But I have trouble drinking a mere 8 cups per day! how do you do it? "8 cups doesn't even begin to touch your fluid needs unless you weigh about 120 pounds and do zero exercise, you have trouble because you are looking for other options which do not hydrate you properly anyways, like the soda, coffee and whole milk that you are use to." I just don't like the taste of water! "The average mans body is 60-65% water, it is the life blood of our existence and after oxygen is probably the most important thing to us as living creatures so get use to it because it is essential for life, besides the sugary drinks that you are likely consuming are robbing you of real flavor and taste". Well what makes you an expert smart guy? "Nothing at all makes me an expert, I just read a lot and have lost all of my weight with the concept that more water is better so I can only say what has worked for me up to this point."
Using the half oz of water per pound of body weight (which some use .65oz per pound) at my current weight I should be drinking 166 ounces per day or 1.30 gallons and that's not figuring in the 50 minutes of cardio that I do four times per week. At my start weight of 534 lbs back in Jan 2008 using the .50 oz per pound I should have been drinking 267oz per day which is more than 2 gallons but again I am not an expert I just do what works for me. But what about this water intoxication thing that I heard about? From what I understand this is something that athletes and babies have to worry about more than a big ol rotund fella drinking between 1.5 and 2 gallons per day all spread out within a 12 hour period does. Water intoxication occurs when a person drinks so much water that it dilutes the sodium and electrolytes in their system and its not so much how much a person drinks as it is how fast it goes down the hatch. The body needs time to replenish the electrolytes and sodium so drinking 2 gallons of water in a day is not really all that much when you consider that our kidneys as adults can process up to 15 liters of water per day. A marathon runner that is downing gallons of water near the end of a race and then downs another gallon as he finishes may have something to worry about where water intoxication is concerned but me at 332 pounds drinking 1.5 to 2 gallons per day spread out within a 12 hour period, not so much.
Being dehydrated poses more risks to a person that over hydration, especially when we are talking about someone attempting to lose weight, the more fluid that we intake the easier time our system will have with flushing waste out of our bodies. Staying properly hydrated is extremely important and I cannot stress this enough to anyone that cares to ask my opinion because I do honestly believe that my drinking habits account for much of my weight loss success to date, which doesn't mean woohoo! all I have to do is drink 1.5 gallons of water per day and I will drop 200 pounds! Being sufficiently hydrated can mean a boost in metabolism and who doesn't want that if they are trying to drop a couple (hundred) pounds? intaking enough water will decrease food cravings and false hunger as well, thirst and hunger are often confused with one another so when a person feels that pain in the gut that says that its time for one of Auntie Maudes home made Brownies a cool glass of H2O just might be whats needed instead. When we do not drink enough our bodies hold onto all of the water that it can get if that is happening how can it flush out the bad stuff that is inside all of us? in short it cannot do the job sufficiently and we can end up with headaches, stomach pains, swelling, bloating and the list goes on.
"But I just can't drink more than my 8 cups per day" You can and you should because you need more than that, and even more than that if you are exercising daily. When we realize just how important good old H2O is for us its easy to make ourselves drink it daily, and when I say drink it, I mean drink enough. Anyone that knows me personally probably cannot think of a time that I am not drinking either green tea or water pretty much constantly all day every day, I always have a bottle of something with me. I get comments or emails from time to time on this blog from the naysayers and disbelievers about my drinking and the amounts so I thought that I would toss my view on the subject out there for you, and if you are not yet convinced, then my buddy Harvey McDullardsonfengenden has got a product for you! zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2009/10/i-
One last thing, remember kids, I am not a doctor and don't claim to be one so this post is offered to you as is with no expressed warranty and you should talk to your doc before embarking down any path where your health is concerned.
Now that we have that out of the way, thanks for reading along and I hope you took something from this post, don't forget that H2O and stay away from the soda, no really...put it down.
Monday, October 19, 2009
This weekend was not what I would call a fun time exactly, if you read this blog regularly you know that my daughter was sick Thursday and me being a stay at home dad that translates into me getting sick when she does a lot of times and this time is no different. I felt it coming on last Friday so I decided that I would go to the gym before it got bad as I was planning on a Saturday trip to the gym and Saturday morning I didn't want to get out of bed, but of course I did and I ended up chopping about a third of a cord of firewood, great idea eh? and so much for a day of rest, on the one hand it was exercise, but then here I was (am) sick as a dog. My evening ended with a couple shots of brandy and a big ol cup of hot green tea and off to bed I went only to wake up Sunday feeling just as bad, I ended up running some errands and finally got myself a couple pair of long workout pants to wear to the gym and coming home to make a picked fresh from the tree apple pie that I had promised the boss lady I would do was the plan. I ended up heading to bed pretty early (9:30 pm) and slept like a log until my little one stomped up the basement stairs returning from putting in some laundry in with Mommy at O dark thirty (translated thats about 6:30 am) long story short, I still feel like ass but better than yesterday.
My pie, it looks small in this picture but I assure you it weighs like 8 pounds!
All of this actually may work out for me in the way of me not missing a day at the gym because I have an appointment today to talk to the doc about scheduling my gallbladder surgery so I would have missed the gym today any way its cut. With hope and prayers I feel well enough tomorrow to resume going to the gym so that I can keep my momentum with the losses, if not? it is what it is and there is always next week. I did not drink enough over the weekend, my throat was (is) sore and I just didn't feel up to it, but I did manage about a gallon of tea Sunday and less than a half of a gallon of anything on Saturday. My caloric intake for Sunday was 1845 total including the slice of pie I had last night but I figure with the honey in my tea and the "test tastes" of the apple mixture that its slightly higher than that, have a look at the menu from Sunday.
2 cups fruit and grain cereal 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
1 apple 100
4 oz grilled chicken breast 200
italian wrap 90
pile of cherry tomatoes 35
1 apple 100
5oz ground turkey 200
2 80 cal rolls 160
7oz sweet potato fries 175
slice of apple pie 375
After today I should have a date to get this old Gallbladder taken out and hopefully I feel well enough tomorrow to head to the gym again. I will need to figure out a plan to avoid the rest of that apple pie in the refrigerator and today I am forcing myself to drink my regular 1.5 gallons of fluid, and will be keeping the calories light and under 1700 today. Thanks for reading along and supporting my trip to being half the man I once was so that I can be twice the Father and Husband that I want to be.
That is all.
Friday, October 16, 2009
The past two weeks I have refocused on my weight loss instead of the maintaining that I had been doing and it is having good results. This morning like a child on Christmas morning I sprung from my California king and skippity hopped to the scale...skippity hopped might be taking it a step too far but I definitely B lined for the scale this morning. I stepped on and the number that I saw was 332.0 pounds, so as I do every Friday I get on three times and the scale said 332.0 all three times and that comes up to a 3.4 pound loss this week and it looks like the gym is doing the trick as far as pulling the pounds off again. I did not get to go to the gym yesterday afternoon as I mentioned because my daughter was home sick from school but after dinner I headed over for a later than usual visit where I did 20 minutes each on the bike and the treadmill and barring my daughter suddenly feeling terrible again I plan on a leg routine with the weights this afternoon when I head over for my workout.
I said "it looks like the gym is doing the trick as far as pulling the pounds off again" but it is not the gym, it is me, it is the hard work that I am putting into my days once again, the gym is but a tool that I am using to get there is all. I honestly believe that if a person does their part that every week can be a successful one where health and weight loss is the subject matter, all of the variables must be looked at but doing your part most times means gains or losses if you will with our health. I will use my wife as an example as she has recently started something new, she has been walking/running the stairs at work instead of taking the elevator, she runs down a set amount to warm up and then runs up 5 flights and then back down twenty plus every day. This morning she said "I got on the scale today and I am up in weight" and the first thing that came to mind for me was that she is up because her muscles are sore and holding water and she knows this too. This is a good thing! a good thing you ask? but she said that she is up in weight? yes a good thing, She is tearing her muscle fibers apart and gaining strength because of it, she is retaining water so that her muscles can repair themselves and be stronger for the effort, the stairs will get easier, the retention will go away and she will be stronger than she was last week at the same time and because she will be building muscle she will ultimately burn more calories, see? its a gain, yet a good thing.
I drank 1 gallon of green tea and more than a gallon of straight H2O yesterday and my calories came in at 1670 total calories so not too shabby, have a look at my menu.
2 cups fruit and grain cereal 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
1 progresso low fat clam chowder 220
1 multigrain english muffin 100
smart balance 20
1 med tomato 25
1 apple 100
1 banana 105
9oz strawberries 90
6oz baked tilapia 150
1 cup corn 120
3/4 cup white rice 150
9:00 PM - Post workout
1 cup 1% milk 110
1 scoop whey protein 130
3.4 pounds and I am setting into a routine at the gym, things are rolling right along and perhaps next week I will get to a new all time low as I am within 2 pounds of that figure once again, maybe we will see a new motorcycle comparison shot this time next week but if not I do know that I will be a week stronger mentally as well as physically. Thanks for following along as this fat man gets thinner, I dare not say thin just yet as that is a road yet to be crossed but we are getting closer by the day.
You may continue on with your day now..
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Tomorrow I weigh in and it will be week four in my 25 pounds by Nov 11th challenge which I have given up on believing that I will actually make that number BUT I will still attempt to get as close as possible in that time because its how I get down. My trip to the gym yesterday was a good one and I did 20 minutes on a stationary bike followed by 35 minutes on a treadmill 5 minutes at 3mph with a 2% incline, 20 minutes at 3.5mph with a 3% incline and the final 10 minutes was 3.5 mph with a 5% incline and then onto some weight machines. I first used the Seated over head press machine, 2 warm up sets of 12 reps each and 4 sets of 6 reps each with a heavier weight followed by a light set to failure, I did the same thing on the seated chest press machine and then worked a little bit on a preacher curl machine when I was done.
Today I was planning on a leg routine on some of the machines after my cardio but alas, my daughter is sick and will not be going to school today so no gym for me unless I can sneak out tonight which is unlikely. I will go on Saturday to make up for not being able to go today so no worries I will just do the leg routine during tomorrows trip barring if the little one is still sick. I will in fact be able to at least sneak out for a walk this evening after dinner if the gym trip is not able to happen so its not a problem really.
My intake came in at 1760 which is a bit high but not as high as it should have been, I decided that on the days I lift weights that I will add a whey protein shake in after my workout and not worry about the calories but it seems that I am still keeping it as close to 1700 as possible, habit perhaps? have a look at the menu from yesterday.
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95
6 inch turkey subway 290
1 scoop whey protein 130
1 cup 1% milk 110
1 large apple 100
2 cups fruit and grain cereal 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
1 foot long turkey subway 580
Over all a pretty decent day yesterday and I am looking forward to tomorrow mornings weigh in, with hope I have lost at least a little, some luck might mean that I lost a lot, On second thought I don't believe in luck so if its a loss it is very likely the hard work I put in this week. grab yourself a big ol glass of H2O for reading through my post and know that I am chugging down some green tea as I type. Until tomorrow keep on keepin on and all that and remember that you are only as successful as you want to be, actually let me correct that, you are only as successful as the amount of hard work that you put into any given task, its really that Simple man.
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