Wednesday, September 30, 2009
The past couple of weeks have been hard for me, there are some things going on in my life in addition to the comfort issue that I am experiencing right now, meaning that I am comfy with myself and to get myself back on track I did something that had not occurred to me to try. This morning I started reading my own blog from day one, I figured that I get so many emails and comments stating that something I had written inspired someone else to either start their own journey of weight loss or I have kept them going when the stand off with the triple chocolate fudge cake was not looking favorable that maybe I could take some of that for myself. I read through some of my older posts and started feeling the way that I felt when I wrote them, what I mean is that I can remember where I was and how I felt when each post was written and I know that I am starting to sound like a broken record at this point and I have been the worlds worse blogger lately but I am back.
Remembering taking my walks with my daughter and the fact that it took me 20 minutes to walk roughly 1/3 of a mile and feeling that that was an accomplishment made me realize how far I have come in this whole thing. Reading about how I rode my stationary bike for 15 minutes and remembering just how tired I was after that fifteen minutes of movement knowing that I now walk 2 miles in just about 27 minutes and don't have to stop there because of pain means a lot to me. I read the posts from back then and can recall thinking that I would never get to 100 pounds lost on my own but knowing that I had to try so I kept going no matter what and how I felt at 500 plus pounds compared to right now and I KNOW that I have to keep going until I get where I need to, want to get where my health comes into play.
On Jan 06 2008 I wrote in a post "I do know that I cannot give up until I drop this weight and look forward to learning as much as I can to do that, obviously I failed Diet 101 thus far in my life." I believe that I have graduated from the "Diet" series of health class and have gained a ton of knowledge in the past almost two years while making my life and health a completely different thing than when that post was written. I believe that I have given myself and my family years of having me around with what I have done so far, but I am not done. I have so much more that I want to do with myself physically just to prove to myself that I can do it as well as show my kids that they can do whatever they put their minds to, so I have to keep this better health thang moving in a direction that promotes all of that.
There is stress in my life currently and I could blame that for my lack of effort lately but that would be a cop out and I won't do that. The bottom line is that I know what I need to do, I know that I have the willpower to do it, and stress or no stress its what I am going to do. This weight loss game is a life long decision, its something that will have to stay in place come rain or shine and honestly I have not fallen too far off of the wagon I have just stopped trying so hard, lets call it a pause. My lowest weight to date was 330 pounds and that weight was reached on August 14th 2009 and last Friday I was 9 pounds above that so I am sort of maintaining roughly 10 pounds above my low weight for the last almost seven weeks.
Maintaining at 340 pounds is not what I meant when I said "I do know that I cannot give up until I drop this weight" only six days into my lifestyle change so I must, how do I say? keep on keepin on until I get where I aimed for. I can't say that I have been very "inspiring" lately where weight loss is concerned but I can still say that I have lost a substantial amount of weight and hopefully added time to my life. I will not allow myself to keep going at a maintaining pace when I still weigh as much as I do, I cannot let that happen and I believe that it is happening because this is the weight that I have lived most of my life at. Once I reached adulthood I settled around this weight until I was injured in 2000 and then I blew up to my 500 plus pound self so this just feels right to me. Its time to blow past a boundary that I have never been past and get below 300 pounds, below 275 pounds, below 250 pounds? to be found out I suppose but to stop now would make zero sense at all, especially given the amount of success I have had thus far.
From the worlds worse blogger to you that's where I am today, will I get below 300 pounds? no doubt and I invite you to watch me do it.
I am back and I have to say that Zeusmeatball fella has inspired me to get my $hit together once again, who wouldda thunk?
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Intake came in at 1690 total calories and I drank almost 2 gallons of fluid today, I did however fall short on the exercise. I worked on my car for a short while and ran around all afternoon and as I mentioned had an appointment with my daughters teacher this evening, I guess if I have time to write this update that I can do some calisthenics eh? I will do some push ups and some light dumb bell exercises as soon as I hit the publish button.
2 cups honey comb 220
1 cup 1% milk 110
4.5oz ground turkey 180
2 80 cal rolls 160
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T strawberry preserves 35
3/4 cup white rice 150
2 cup green beans 80
5oz chicken breast 250
13 cups air popped popcorn 260
1 pickle 10
G-Tea 1 gallon
H2O 3/4 gallon
You may return to whatever it was that you were doing before you clicked the link to this blog.
That is all.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
So yesterday I started posting mini posts in the PM and honestly its helping already because so far today I have put everything that I have eaten into my excel sheet as well as weighed every bite that went into my mouth. As my mini post says I came in at 1733 calories even after indulging in a bottle of Corona while chatting with my neighbor in the driveway for about 30 minutes last night, I wasn't going to have the brew but figured that it couldn't hurt too much. My intake was on par yesterday and today is off to a good start as well so I am hoping for a good week.
Yesterdays bike ride gave me a little bit of extra excitement because of some wasps, about a month ago I can recall someone placing a sign on one end of the trail that I ride through to get all of the way around my lake warning of a wasp nest at one end of the dam and apparently its still there. As I rode across the dam and the planks were thumping under my bike tires I saw a couple wasps rise from underneath the end of the dam and just knew it wasn't good news for me. I was moving along at a speed that would not allow me to stop and go back the way that I came before hitting the edge of the small cloud of wasps which was growing with every thump on the boards so I decided to go right through them and take a chance running into the woods. Honestly I cannot remember what maneuver I executed to get off of the bike onto my feet and down the stairs on the dam but I felt very nimble at that very moment as I dashed (yes I said dashed) into the brush faster than I thought that I ever could and did not stop until I couldn't hear any more buzzing in my immediate area. Perhaps my mad dash is why my ride took shorter? probably not but it was not something that I was expecting to be there for sure and I am sure the part of the story where I ran into the woods was visually hysterical or perhaps traumatic for anyone close enough to bear witness.
Other than the intake going smoothly and my wasp encounter the day went pretty much par for the course where my healthy lifestyle goes. Today my plan for exercise is to go for a walk with Wify after dinner sometime or perhaps some calisthenics, I am not real sure yet what will happen on that front because I have a parent teacher meeting that I forgot about until I just wrote that sentence. Tonight is the second episode of the newest edition of The biggest loser and I always seem to want to work out for a couple days after that show is on, I don't know why but I do. Perhaps its watching people that are bigger than me (something that I don't get to see all that often) working out so hard, or maybe its just that whole being around like minded people thing, yes I understand that I am not physically "around" them but you get the idea and knowing how hard those people are working at those kinds of weights and not because its obvious but because I was there has an impact on me as well? whatever the reason I don't care, its one of the only shows on tv that I watch every week and if its effecting me in a way that is keeping me motivated I'll take it.
There you have another post and with that I bid you farewell until tonight's update post, make sure to get all of that H2O in and never forget that we control what we do in everything that we do.
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