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An air of superiority? what you talkin bout Willis!

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

I was accused of having an "air of superiority" while being "somehow better, while these people are surely ignorant." (fat people) in a comment on This post about me reflecting back to what once was a sure future for me a couple days ago, by someone that chose to post under the tag of Anonymous (of course) so I figured I would do something that I have never done on my blog, give Mr or Mrs Anonymous a response in a post.

I won't repost the comment in this post but if you are interested in reading it in its entirety the link is above in the first paragraph. for the Spark people here is the link zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2009/07/re
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In that reply this person starts off with "because you are a reformed fat guy" after the first part of their comment. Reformed fat guy? me? I am STILL a fat guy! in fact I still have more than 70 pounds to lose to get where I would like to be where weight is concerned. To call me a "reformed fat guy" and say that I have an "air of superiority" as well as "Many people experience a sense of moral superiority when they lose weight" so not only am I superior but I am morally superior as well? that is simply plain old silly, I cannot help but to think wow is this person actually reading anything that I post? I have to wonder.

Part of that comment that actually made me laugh is "it's not okay to judge people based on one conversation you overheard in a restaurant" as I do not judge ANYONE, especially heavier folks because I been there done that and know how hard it already is without people judging. The other funny part about that piece of the comment is that on the very same post someone on my Sparkpeople page commented (I post on blogspot and sparkpeople under the name BOTZZZ for those of you that don't know) "And it was great to see you not judging the person, but gathering the lesson to be learned at that moment in time" so I guess its all how a person looks at the words typed out because two separate people read the same post one got it, and one...not so much.

The commenter also says "You always mention that these people you are noticing are overweight. Do you notice the same thing when a thin person orders fatty food?" The short answer to that is yes, I do notice the same thing whenever ANYONE orders meals like that. I literally look at and attempt to count in my head every piece of food that I see a person eating, as I mentioned in posts before my wife thinks that I am nuts (and I may very well be at this point) because I literally have the caloric amounts for most of the food that we eat stored inside my head. It is very common for her to ask "How many calories are in (insert whatever food here) Honey?" because I have made watching my food intake a HUGE part of my life (for good reason) and it is what I pay attention to, maybe its why I have been able to drop 200 pounds? who knows. Why would I mention a 132 pound stick of a guy that was eating a giant plate of whatever? whats he got to do with a blog about a fat guy that is trying to lose weight and get healthy? what does he have in common with me? the fellow in the restaurant was me in 15 years if I had stayed on the path that I was on (if I would have made it another 15), the fellow in the restaurant actually made me reflect on my life and some of the choices that I made where health was concerned, I felt for him because I understand how hard life as a 500 plus pound person can be and in all honesty re-reading the post the day that I wrote it pulled some emotion out of me and I started to get upset thinking about what could have been for me, if there was anything that I was being that day or in my post about it, that was compassion and understanding.

One of the last things this person says is "I've been reading this blog for a long time, but lately, I just think "where do you get off?" Losing weight doesn't give you a free pass to judge fat people" When I read that I could not believe that whomever left that comment could actually get that from me, you know me, the former 534 pound guy that is currently floating around 338 pounds! especially someone that has "been reading this blog for a long time" Please do not take my bluntness for anything but that, I cannot apologize for telling it how it is or for being a straight talker and to think that I judged that fellow at the restaurant that evening is as far off of base as can be possible because I felt nothing but compassion for him knowing how hard being in his situation can be and is, ask me how I know, and where I get off is not what this blog is about and is kind of a personal question, maybe you could buy me dinner first? perhaps rub my shoulders?

I started off writing this blog so that I would have a place to track my intake and progress while having some accountability and it has become much more than that, I have met people physically (yeah you Heather lol) as well as through email and chat online (Dana and a few more of ya!) that I consider friends because of this blog and for someone to say that I am judgmental of fat people? a wronger statement has never been made. I write this blog now a days more so for the people that take the time to send me email and comments on my blog both congratulating me (love those ones) as well as asking for help or where to find a place to start because I have had some success with weight loss which I try to reply to every one of (life sometimes slows that down) but none the less.

I am damn proud of what I have done for myself and my family with this weight loss, I have busted my ass for more than a year and a half to get this far into my trip to the half and because I noticed a man that could have been me if I hadn't put the brakes on does not make me judgmental or have any kind of superiority complex, in fact it is quite the opposite as I have become very humble in the past 19 months of my life.

How did you say?

"Just think about it. That's all"

Not to use all of a post for that here is a look at my menu from yesterday.

Breakfast
7:15 AM
2 cups honey comb cereal 220
1 cup 1% milk 110

11:15 AM
1 banana 105

Lunch
12:30 PM
5oz ground turkey 200
2 80 calorie hamburger rolls 160
7oz strawberries 60

3:00 PM
1 plum 75

Dinner
6:30 PM
flax/oat pita bread2 60
1 can tuna 150
tomato/lettuce/jalapeno/pickle 50
1 T miracle whip 40
2oz corn tortilla chips 280
salsa 30

8:15 PM
1 plum 75
1 can tuna plain 150

Grand total of 1765 calories which is a bit over my daily limit of 1700 but I have had low days this week so it balances out in the long run and I am not too worried about it. For exercise I did get a pretty challenging ride on my bike last night with wify where I found a wicked hill that I now have to conquer and that route added a mile to our ride so a win win! Tomorrow I am talking to a surgeon about the gallbladder issue so I may have more news on that front in a coming post. Until then stay hydrated and remember that we control what goes into our mouth, or more importantly what does NOT go in!

Thanks for following along.

As Ever
Me

  
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PEPCEA 8/6/2009 3:56PM

    You've done a great job! I haven't read the post you are responding to but it's just that different people see things differently and are offended where others are not. I know I've written posts before and had a similar reaction from just one person so I just say it's them. I may not usually write about it but since being on this journey to wellness, I notice a lot more what people eat also...you just can't help it because its our new way of thinking (which is why we are successful). You are handling it well though, so keep it up. There will always be someone who takes it the wrong way. Continued success to you!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/6/2009 3:50PM

    If there is ever a hint of judgment in your blogs it is selfjudgment. Don't let someone who doesn't have the courage to put his/her name down get to you.

We follow because of who you are. What you are doing is what drew us together, but past that, I'm here because of you, my friend.

Keep on keeping on and all of that.

ttyl

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SHAJAM 8/6/2009 10:50AM

  Congrats on ALL of your success so far, I did not read the post nor do I wish to but just wanted you to know as soon as I signed in this morning and saw your last post was 1 day ago - my first thought was man this guy is GREAT!!! you are a great motivator and encourager!!! I ALWAY look forward to your blog - (this is my 1st time commenting on spark) People will be jealous of your success - YOU ROCK!!!

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QUIDDITCHGRRL 8/6/2009 10:32AM

    I gotta snap too - oh no, they didn't!

Sounds like an Internet Tough Guy with a bone to pick. If you aren't willing to sign your name to your words, your argument is invalid. DUH!

I agree with you and BILLALEX70 - I notice what EVERYONE is eating, no matter what their size - and there are times when I literally feel sick watching someone (ANYONE) eating a Big Mac, fries and slurping a Coke. Doesn't matter that it's my bestest, genetically-pathologically-skinny friend or a gal weighing over 300#. It's a nutrition and calorie comparison that I'm making, not a judgment call.



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KEEPITMOVING 8/6/2009 10:07AM

    wow, sounds like a kick-a$$, bumper-crop of sour grapes to me, b! hey, you are accomplishing by yourself with the help of family, friends, and sp, what anonymous would LOVE to do, RESENTS the fact that you're doing so well at it, PROJECTS his/her own downer of an attitute and try to make it all a drag on your head, but it doesn't work that way, does it? in fact, you're more spurred on to benefit yourself and your family by this distasteful, insensitive, ignorant, inaccurate comment. look, it's the old adage, you can't please all of the people all of the time, so you gotta please yourself. you're there, s/he's not, and that's reality. you make healthy, mindful choices, stay active, and do what you can every day to prevent yourself from ever becoming the out of control, 500-lb. man you used to be. you're doing that all the time. i seriously doubt if anonymous can ever relate to your headset because there's too much negativity and self-pity in that head. you are a vital, healthy, strong man who is striving to do the best he can each day. this, my friend, is the measurement of true success and laying down at night, knowing that, when your head hits that pillow, it was a day well spent. jealously, sour grapes, envy....nobody who wants to succeed should harbour those emotions. so, now that you've addressed this comment, please let it, and all future, similar ones (if there are any....and since we're humans, i'm confident you'll come across a few more in your sparkjourney) slide down your neck, off your shoulders, and be wicked away by the breeze you're creating from all of your activity. extinct behaviors such as anonymous. you don't need that kinda stuff in your life.

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SKYEFYR 8/6/2009 10:00AM

  I, for one, am grateful for the day you chose to turn your life around. You are probably one of the least judgemental people I've ever read a blog from. You are honest and tell it like it is. Perhaps that person was just having a bad day because I can't imagine how they could read your blogs and think you were judging others. Or perhaps they are having challenges with their loss and are jealous of your successes and wanted to hurt you because they are hurting.

One of the things I like the most about you is you're so down to earth and you aren't "uppity". You work hard and you're proud of your accomplishments, and you SHOULD be!

Don't let this person get to you. And don't waste any more time on them then you already have. The people who really read you all the time know what you're really like. We celebrate your victories with you and we love the motivation you give us all. You are a very special person!

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WENDYSPARKS 8/6/2009 9:39AM

    You are doing a GREAT JOB!! Keep up the excellent work...I ignore ignorant people who criticize others before themselves! lol wendy... SPARK is about helping people not hurting people. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GLORYTOGLORY 8/6/2009 8:57AM

  anonymous sounds like they are hurting and haven't come far on their journey!!! You on the other hand have grown so much and are a inspiration to us all who have been on the journey with you for over 1 year! you shouls be proud and you have never come off in a wrong way to me! I enjoy your blogs they are real honest with your self and help others to see that this is doable! I delete comments I do not like lol there will occasionaly be one who just doesn't get it ya know! Keep up the good work soon that 70 will be gone too woohoo!!!! emoticon

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JLUVSHIKIN 8/5/2009 10:36PM

    I think I have to agree with BIGGIRL208 that to anonymous your blog just hit to close to home.
I find your blogs intelligent and non judgemental. That indeed, you are being introspective about yourself.
Keep up the good work.

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STREGGANANA 8/5/2009 10:30PM

  AWESOME JOB!! Keep up the great work and the great blogs.
just remember we control the delete button too! emoticon emoticon

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BLUEANGELLK 8/5/2009 9:31PM

    You have always had a calm voice of reason to me. Your observations about the person next to you were just that observations, not judgments. I know that I see people and think "that could have been me" but that doesn't mean I am judging them. It means I am finding clarity in my life because of the perceived actions of others. It doesn't hurt anyone, it just helps to change MY mindset.

Keep your chin up. I know that one post will bug you more than the many you will get supporting you (well, it would for me anyway). Try to focus on your own journey. That is all that is important. Keep your eyes on the prize, not someone who tries to derail you. Keep writing. Keep sharing your journey with us. We want to come along for the ride!!

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STEVEPMCG 8/5/2009 9:29PM

  Ok I have to post. Botzzz dont worry about it. I think it is just something that those that have finally made the change to their lives and are actively working on losing the weight rather than giving it lip service that notice the problems with eating habits in this country. This is a nation geared to making people obese. Just look at restaraunts like chilis where a dish can have 5x the sodium and 2-3x the cals of a daily recommended allowance. then look at the people that buy ths PLUS order a starter, eat a salad, have a desert and wash it down with a sugared drink.
The only way people can change is to look in a mirror and realise that they are fat. Its how it happened to me. I hit 310lbs and looked in the mirror and realised I was not happy how I looked, now that im journeying to be healthy (60lbs lost) I want to grab people and scream at them as I see them shoveling away all the different Junk that surrounds us.
Steve

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BILLALEX70 8/5/2009 8:42PM

    Great post Bud!

It's funny but, I was accused of the same thing a few weeks back. I didn't come across in my blog my intentions and I took some heat for it. I issued an apology and explained the situation.

In response to the reply to your blog; I watch EVERYONE around me adding up calories and thinking "why would you put that in your mouth?" A persons size doesn't matter if they're eating fatty-foods. Eventually it'll catch up to them. If it's a once a week splurge won't hurt nearly as bad as a diet steady in lard.

Sometimes we express our feeling but, they get misunderstood in the writing.

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SWEETZMIX 8/5/2009 8:41PM

    **snap, snap**
I had to put my 2 finger snaps in...the nerve!

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LAURIE5658 8/5/2009 8:40PM

    Botzzz, since I can officially be declared as menopausal I can blame hormones on my attitudes these days. With that said, if I were in your shoes I wouldn't give a rat's ass what anyone else thought about your wonderfully awesome Sparktastic accomplishments. This individual obviously has a major burr up their ass and they simply cannot handle what you have done in improving YOUR LIFE. DO NOT LET THIS MORON GET YOU DOWN! You have become a special Spark friend to me and I ADMIRE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW. Get that? Good!

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ZIRCADIA 8/5/2009 8:15PM

    Sometimes I think about others who are noticeably obese and I get sad, and especially if I see them eating in an obviously unhealthy way at that moment and I think bragging about eating a ton of ribs would qualify. I don't think I'm judging this person -- I often think to myself, maybe this is their cheat meal and they're currently working hard to lose weight? You never know. I feel sad when I see someone who is thin eating something SUPER UNHEALTHY sometimes, too. I think about how making these choices on a regular basis would only make that person more unhealthy and how living a healthier life has made me much happier. That said -- usually I'm not paying ANY attention to what anyone's eating and the only person I might notice might be my hubby and I have a right to be sad about him treating himself poorly because I love him and am invested highly in his life with me and our future and I don't want to see it cut short. I would have never considered you to be judging anyone!!! I understand how you feel!!! To see what might have been you in a different life... and reflect on how different your life is now. That's not superiority -- if anything I feel sympathy for that person and hope they are making the changes that will lead to a healthier life and if they aren't right now, maybe someday soon.

I'm sure I look like a pig a lot when I eat out still because usually my eating out is a cheat meal. Good grief, ya know??? And I still have dreams of helping some friends eat that gigantic sundae at Ben&Jerry's wherever that is... I saw it on TV and now I want to do it (sad, huh?) But that's one day out of my life. And I might brag about it later... hahahahahaha. *sigh* Anyway. I think that person who commented anonymously might have been responding defensively.........

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BIGGIRL2082010 8/5/2009 8:09PM

    I'm wondering if "Anonymous" perhaps is an overweight person him/herself and something in that post struck the wrong chord - reminded him/her of meal(s) or conversations that resembled the one you witnessed? Being plenty overweight myself [yeah, I'm also still rather obese! :)], I know I tend to be hyper-sensitive to comments from friends and family that even remotely sound judgemental (they're usually not intended as such!), and maybe this person took your analysis that way.

Either way, though, you don't actually owe *any* of us an explanation - you're saying what *you* feel, which is really what blogging is all about, right? :) Yeah, there'll be the odd person out there who disagrees with the occasional post, but mostly, I suspect those of us who do follow your blog do so because you're saying things that we actually respect you for saying!

Don't lose any more time in angst over that comment or any other - let it go, they didn't pay rent to take up space in your head! :)

Have a great rest-of-the-week!

Cheers,>Maya


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CALIFCAS 8/5/2009 7:43PM

  Well it's a good thing Anonymous didn't read the comment I posted on your Reflections blog because I would have been scolded too. I've been reading your blogs for over a year and have never, not even once gotten the impression you were being judgemental or superior. This individual is obviously taking an experience from their past and putting their own twist on your words.
99.9% of us get it! And we appreciate you sharing the hard truth of your journey and not sugar coating the reality of the issues we are all facing!

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REDEE2DROP 8/5/2009 7:40PM

    I've only been "Sparking" since June, and this is the only Blog I subscribe to. Your honest, straightforward and sometimes humorous thoughts always tie in with the daily struggles and successes of a weight loss journey. Actually it's a good balance of weight loss/lifestyle journey. Your insights are so appreciated because on the surface we can all count calories but what we do with them is the true challenge and the way you articulate your thoughts is inspiring and contribute to self reflection about my own thoughts about food, activity and drinking that water!

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GRAMTOTWO 8/5/2009 7:15PM

    In my opinion if "Anonymous" valued their own opinion, the comment would not have been signed "Anonymous". I find your blogs honest and to the point. If I read a blog and found it offensive I would ask myself - why. You obviously hit a raw nerve. Keep up the great work - keep on inspiring!

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AINTSKEERD 8/5/2009 7:10PM

    I took the "OMG, there go I" from your blog. No superior attitude at all! Try not to let it get to you.

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ELFITZPA 8/5/2009 6:05PM

    I'm with the others - I saw concern but no superiority complex. As another poster mentioned, you took it as a lesson learned and what better reaction could any of us have? Like I said when I responded to that original blog, maybe you can't help that family change but you and your example certainly can help your own family and friends.

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VIVA_VICTORIES 8/5/2009 5:52PM

    Maybe Anonymous has some personal issues with judging fat people and then just superimposed them into your blog. Like you said, two people read the same thing and had different views of it. Makes sense that one person's views would be influenced by something they are dealing with on their own.

I'm a new reader of your blog, but am always so inspired. Thanks!!!

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KNH771 8/5/2009 5:50PM

    Sorry "anonymous" upset you. Just the perils of a public blog, I guess. I would take the comments more as a reflection of the poster's sense of self, rather than any mirror on you. Your post probably just really hit a nerve for anonymous and instead of looking at why, or what could be learned, s/he lashed out at you. It's much easier to attack a virtual person on a blog than take a serious look at yourself, acknowledge your difficulties and take steps to change. Don't sweat it!

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TELERIE 8/5/2009 5:44PM

    You keep on with your excellent work and worry not about Anonymous's comments. I loved the blog you posted and felt the compassion shining through.

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CINCYDORA 8/5/2009 5:43PM

    Ditto. You're fabulous and don't change the you inside. I love your blogs and find you very open, honest, and humble.

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CUBS07 8/5/2009 5:25PM

    I did not read your original blog -- read it now. I do not read any superiority in it at all. You've done a fantastic job of loosing weight you should be proud of yourself. Like all of us trying to loose, we become very focused for lack of a better phrase and consumed with our eating habits. We all notice what others eat - how could we not. Perhaps "anonymous' s" was having a bad day.

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MOCOHOLO 8/5/2009 5:00PM

    I read your Reflections blog when you originally posted it and again just now and don't get even the tiniest bit of superiority from it. You weren't judging that guy, you were picturing yourself in his shoes if you hadn't started moving and eating better. I think you should be so proud of yourself for how far you've come! Just shrug off Anonymous's comments as just another schmuck's opinion. But then again, that's just my opinion!

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Sticks and Gallstones will break my bon....wait what?

Tuesday, August 04, 2009


This week is an extremely busy week for me and I will finally tell ya why the posts have been thin lately. Remember a few posts back when I said that I had a gut wrenching stomach ache? Well I have been back and fourth to my doc and I went and had an ultrasound done on Friday and I'm pregnant! not really but obviously you already knew that, the ultrasound did in fact show that I have gallstones though so I will be dealing with that until it gets sorted out.

Where the better health program goes I am pretty much on track besides not getting in my workouts as much as I would like to this last week. I have been sticking to my calories but slacking off on the bike/walk/run thang. Last night I did go for a ride with wify on the bike but I forgot to reset my bike computer so I am not sure how long we were out but I was sweaty so I was working and that's what I like to see. A bike ride is planned for tonight as well because I have decided that well I will just say it, I am being lazy with the not working out because I am comfortable with my size right now but since I am far from done losing weight I gotta keep on kepin on.

Here is a look at the menu from Monday, I am going to try and post the menu every day this week for those who care to have a look.

Breakfast
7:15 AM
2 cups fruit & grain cereal 240
1 cup 1% milk 110

8:00 AM
1 banana 105

10:45 AM
1 oz smart puffs 140

Lunch
1:00 PM
lavash bread 100
4oz deli turkey 100
1 T miracle whip 40
1 med tomato 25
lettuce/pickle 10

Dinner
5:45 PM
6oz ground turkey 240
2 80 calorie hamburger rolls 160
1 T light Oil/vinaigrette dressing 50
Green salad 50

8:15 PM
1 banana 105

Grand total was 1475 calories for the day which is pretty low but I have those days sometimes and there was about 6 strawberries not listed there that I ate as well so slightly higher than the 1435. I have a couple docs appointments this week and hopefully I can get things squared away with this gallbladder predicament sooner than later so that I can stop stressing over it which means going to bed at a reasonable hour instead of staying up late researching gallbladder stuff, the ironic part of that situation is that my weight loss likely caused the stones in the first place! so my idea for not having any surgeries turns into the great possibility of me having a gallbladder removed, I have an appt tomorrow to talk about it so I will have more info then.

Getting comfy in my own skin is awesome! and not so awesome at the same time because of the relaxing on the strictness but I am re-devoting ALL of my time to me for the month of August and expect great things for me where my health and weight loss goes. Wify has hopped back onto the wagon and that will only help my situation because watching her stay strict makes me want to one up her and be that much more strict, call me competitive! whatever works right? and with that thought another post comes to an end and hopefully everyone of you are staying hydrated, and if not ask yourself "why not?" and go grab a big ol glass of H2O right now!

Thanks for following along while I get healthy and less round.

As Ever
Me

  
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NATURALSOAPGIRL 8/6/2009 10:48AM

    I've come up with natural methods for stones when friends have had issues. If you are interested in trying an herbal method before opting for surgery let me know and I can put something together for you and send it out ASAP. I've had gallstones but they were hormone related and they died down. But I have had friends take my herbal capsules and pass the stones and never have another problem, so if you are interested just let me know. In the meantime - drink extra water and lay off anything fatty or spicy and get plenty of sleep.

BTW - yes, the surgery CAN be a breeze, but you never can tell how your body will react. my uncle had the surgery a few years ago and.. well, to put it nicely, the first thing he scopes out in every store, restaurant, hotel, etc - is the bathroom just incase he needs to make a mad dash... some people don't respond very well to the surgery...



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SKYEFYR 8/6/2009 10:25AM

  Here's hoping the gallbladder problems can be fixed without surgery! What did the dr say? Can anything break up the stones so you can pass them naturally? I think it's time you had a talk with your body and asked it to give you a break. You know you were a bad boy for a long time, but you're really trying now, and it should be working with you!

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PIKAPIKACHICK 8/5/2009 9:23AM

    Hope that gallbladder gets back to 100% soon. Keep up the good work!

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TRACYZABELLE 8/5/2009 6:01AM

    feel better soon
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GLOBALKEEWEE 8/4/2009 9:09PM

    While this blog is technically 'about' the gallbladder...I can't help but focus on the other point you made more than once: You've made such great progress with your weight loss, you're feeling like hot stuff and have become complacent. You call it lazy, but we already know you're not lazy. You're pleased with yourself!

Totally understandable, and I think it's OK to take a little rewarding break while you gear up for the next big kick!

Take care, as always... emoticon

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VEEJAY3 8/4/2009 8:43PM

    From everything I hear, the surgery's a breeze. If you want to explore absolutely EVERYthing before you go that route, though, I took Chinese herbs when I began having gall bladder trouble, and ... things settled right down and I've never had another attack. So ... just to give you that input.

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JLUVSHIKIN 8/4/2009 6:14PM

    Gall bladder stuff. wow... had mine out when I was 29....
I just found lavash bread! Hmmm... totally AWESOMENESS. I love how large it is and less calories than regular bread.


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TELERIE 8/4/2009 2:43PM

    Good luck with the health issue, take care of you. And what fun to have you and wifey on the bike together and eating right together. It's so much easier with two. I really enjoy exercising with my darling and we motivate each other to actually DO IT! Have a great week!

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DDOORN 8/4/2009 2:16PM

    Had my GB yanked earlier this year and I've got to say it was an AMAZINGLY smooth and relatively painless process! Plus I worried about adjusting afterwards and not being able to eat certain foods...there hasn't been an iota of a problem. So if you head down that path don't worry too much!

Don

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FORDCHICK73 8/4/2009 2:07PM

    Good luck with your gallbladder. I had it removed a couple of years ago and I felt SO great afterwards ... I don't think I realized how much pain those gallstones caused me until they were gone & there was no more pain left at all! :)
The surgery is quick & you'll be up & about again in no time.





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DEEJACKSON 8/4/2009 2:02PM

    Man, I hope your gall bladder woes get better! Or better yet, go away.

As for the friendly competition with wify...... I am doing a low fat reduced calorie diet with increased physical activity while my hubby is doing a no-carb diet.

I feel great, he feels like crap, but he has lost 10 pounds in 8 days, and I have been trying to lose the same 15 pounds for more than 2 years!

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AMBERROGUE 8/4/2009 1:23PM

    Gall bladder problems can be tough!
Good job with the bike ride even though you don't know your exact time/cals burned, etc. You're doing emoticon

Keep it up!

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MARYONAMISSION 8/4/2009 1:17PM

    Hope all goes well with your gallbaldder issue. Good job on sticking to your calories and being aware that you can't slack off. Keep up the good work.

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LAURIE5658 8/4/2009 1:11PM

    I was truly thinking of you at 0' dark thirty this morning while I was out doing my walk/run thang (as you eloquently put it). I have been wondering why you have been so quiet lately and now we know, huh? My husband had gall bladder removal surgery and all I can say is...watch your fat intake in any one sitting cuz IT WILL GO RIGHT THROUGH YOU! Just a heads up.

Take care of yourself, Botzz and keep us apprised of your situation.

{{{hugs}}}

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1972ROSES 8/4/2009 1:08PM

    I had laproscopic gallbladder surgery in 2004. The surgery was a piece of cake. I was up acting normal in two days. Most of the scars are less than a half inch long. It's not about vanity but about how little muscle was cut.

However, one of the side affects can be developing a severe need to go to the bathroom, like a drop-everything-and-run need. Some people it happens to while eating and others at a designated time after eating.

Considering that my gallbladder was "dead" and severely infected when they took it out and that my anti-biotics were three times larger than my pain pills, I'm willing to handle an occasional inconvenience.

Best of Luck.

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SWEETZMIX 8/4/2009 1:05PM

    Well the gall bladder situation is not the end of the world. Scary but it can be taken care of. My moms had hers removed from eating crap and not taking care of herself. At least yours is for getting healthier and dropping the pounds. Also now with wify on board with you, it WILL be a lot easier to keep pressing on. This getting comfy business is great. It feels good to go out and feel pretty damn good about yourself but we must not forget we have to finish what we started!

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CINCYDORA 8/4/2009 1:03PM

    I wish you the best of luck with your gallstone problem. You seem to be staying positive in the face of it which is the first battle won, right?

Thanks as always for sharing.

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CATREBEL 8/4/2009 1:02PM

    Good luck with gallbladder surgery. My husband lost 50 pounds last year on Weight Watchers, very slowly and safely. This past March he too woke one morning with major abdominal pain. Three days later he had his gall bladder removed. The surgeon said that is an unfortunate side effect of losing weight. However, the weight loss is worth it.

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Weigh in is here again and a menu

Friday, July 31, 2009


This happens to be a weigh in day so I guess I will post what the scale said to me this morning, I had an appt this morning that required me to fast after 12AM last night and I weighed myself after the appt so how true the weigh in is I don't know. The scale says that I am down from last week by a whole 2 pounds coming in at 335.0 but I want to add a pound to that weight because I weighed myself at 11:00 am which was after no breakfast and not as much as a swig of H2O so I think the weigh in was off in my favor this week. I am calling it 336 pounds even with the 335 weigh in and that is still down a whole pound from last week and I have had a really bad week on every level besides calories so its one for the W column.

Here is a snapshot of my menu from Thursday.

Breakfast
7:30 AM
2 cups honey comb cereal 220
1 cup 1% milk 110

10:15am
1 small tomato 25

10:45 AM
1 banana 105

Lunch
1:45 PM
4.5 oz deli turkey breast 135
1 lavash bread 100
lettuce/1 whole tomato 45
1 T miracle whip 40

Dinner
6:30 PM
8oz grilled chicken 400
1 cup white rice 200
light sour cream/BBQ sauce 50
7.5oz sauteed squash & zucchini 140

7:45 PM
1 banana 105

Grand total of 1675 calories and that is WAY over estimating the calories in the zucchini and squash which was just sliced up with onion, garlic, olive oil and black pepper. I did drink 1 gallon of green tea and 3/4 gallon of straight H2O and my exercise for the day did not happen as I was suppose to go on a bike ride just before dark and my baby sitter fell through, that and I decided to let wify swim instead of me riding since there was no reason both of should miss out on the exercise because of a sitter issue.

I feel that August is going to be a high loss kind of month for the weight as I am over this throat bacterial thingamajig now and vacation is done and over with so no more caloric distractions for a while and I do believe that will conclude this weigh in post.

Just like always, I thank you for taking the time to follow along and don't forget to stay hydrated! get that H2O down!

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SKYEFYR 8/6/2009 10:29AM

  If you want August to be a kick arse month, then I have no doubt it will be for you. You are such a winner! And if you decide to do it, then it will get done!

Go Botzzz!

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GIGGLES40 8/3/2009 2:33AM

    Have a great August. I'll have to try some of that green tea.

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WALKWITME 8/2/2009 11:21AM

    Keep Right On Doing Your THANG !

You Will Show The SCALE Next Week Who Is BOZ... lol

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EUGENERUGOSA 8/1/2009 6:20PM

    Your dedication is really inspiring. keep up the great work & you will motivate us all!

Tricia

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ALEXSGIRL1 7/31/2009 7:41PM

    i could never drink as much as you but i will still try. so nice of you to let your wife go for a swim. you should do awesome in aug.

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AMBERROGUE 7/31/2009 3:43PM

    That was sweet of you to let your wife go swimming! Congrats on the weight loss. You're still ROCKING!!

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WENDYSPARKS 7/31/2009 2:40PM

    GOOD LUCK and Keep Sparking, wendy emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MYLADYCAROLE 7/31/2009 2:23PM

  Enjoyed your honesty. If you can be honest with yourself, you will certainly end up a winner in this lifelong endeavor to get to a healthy weight and stay there. Keep up the good work and you will continue to have weekly weight loss. emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 7/31/2009 2:01PM

    I too am looking forward to August. Take Care and enjoy your weekend. I hear Saturday is supposed to be very nice out!

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TELERIE 7/31/2009 1:45PM

    Good job! I'm looking forward to August too - here's to good losses! emoticon

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JKSTEIN123 7/31/2009 1:28PM

    Congrats. I agree that the scale is what the scale is, but we all have our own way of thinking.

Also you might keep in mind the vacation and all the salt intake of that vacation. I am thinking some of your gain on vacation is water weight.

I admire your honesty to yourself.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 7/31/2009 1:28PM

    I'm going to go with Laurie. A scale reading is a scale reading. If it was a fluke, it will show up next week.

I think you are right on the August thing. I think it is going to be something that can be used to really get some momentum going.

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LAURIE5658 7/31/2009 12:27PM

    Botzzz Botzzz Botzzz! What the heck are you thinking???!!! A scale reading is a scale reading! Go for the 335, fool!!!!

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MOCOHOLO 7/31/2009 12:25PM

    Congrats on the loss! You're doing awesome!

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Reflections...a father's look in a mirror now broken.

Thursday, July 30, 2009


Being over weight is not a fun thing, it is not something that people enjoy and lots of times an overweight person sacrifices a lot just to not be the focus in a room. Sometimes people make sideways remarks or comments about fat people (I'm not going to sugar coat it that's what we are folks) and they think that these comments are helping, or are being kind and in reality it makes the situation so much worse and as a heavier person its hard enough as is.

I think about when I was heavier and some of the things that I did or should I say that I could not do compared to now and I cannot believe that I let it get that far before I did something about it. At what point does a person say enough is enough? Clearly remembering how it felt to not be able to do simple activities like taking a walk around the block with my little girl actually upsets me today because how could I let it go that far? how could I let myself get to that point? back injury or not, I was 534 pounds! simply walking was a chore for me and what kind of Dad could I be if I could not move to do remedial physical tasks properly?



Since losing the weight that I have so far I have become hyper aware of calories and nutrition in not only my food but other peoples food as well. I can almost 100% of the time look at a portion of food and estimate the calories in it within a small range of variation and the whats good for you question is ingrained into my head now as well. Last week My family and I went to a Friendly's restaurant on a whim (mostly because I had about 1000 calories left for the day and it was dinner time) we were seated and in walked a rather large fellow (I would guess over 500 pounds) with his wife and daughter and they were seated next to us. I could not help but notice that he ordered a grilled cheese sandwich with bacon and extra cheese with French fries for his meal, the interesting part was the conversation that followed and the enthusiasm in the words caught my attention.

The man was talking to his daughter (who was about 30 years old and also heavy) he said "I ate a full rack of ribs last night for you" and the rest of that excited conversation was very detailed and about these ribs and I got to thinking, here this fellow is eating a hefty dinner and talking about the dinner that he ate last night almost as if the rack of ribs was a trophy. Now I am sure that I have had that conversation and have been on the same side of those words as he was at some point in my life and I honestly believe that the company that you keep can help you along where weight loss and better health in general are concerned and on the flip side of that coin can help make us fat as well, but talking about last nights dinner in a very detailed and excited way while eating today's dinner? I was there, it was not pretty and should be the point when a person starts to question what they are doing.


My giant Sunflower that my daughter and I have been taking care of together.

Watching someone destroy themselves further, just like I was doing once upon a time actually bothered me, even though I did not know those people I felt bad because I know that they were in a part of that spiral downward and probably had no clue how to stop it. That gentleman was a lot older than I was and I couldn't help but to think about how that could have been me walking with a cane and breathing heavy if I had not decided to change the way that I do things. The part that really bothered me the most was that it could have been my daughter sitting next to me discussing a full rack of ribs with a child like excitement as she positioned her gut into a comfortable position. I WILL NOT put myself or anyone in my family in that position EVER again and I know that the choices that I am making today will affect my children and family in a positive way.

Sometimes a look into a probable future can have an eyes wide open effect on a person, even if its not my future any more.

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LOVLY2008 8/8/2009 6:28AM

    Very nice post. I bet you wished you had a "Spark Peoples" card to hand to him didn't you. LOL. I'm sure that must have been difficult not to say anything to him, or did you?????
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SKYEFYR 8/6/2009 10:40AM

  It sounds like a sad situation. I have an even sadder one for you.

One night last week we were out to dinner and there was a family next to us. Mother, father and teenage daughter. All were significantly overweight. I couldn't see exactly what they were eating, but the father kept bugging the daughter to eat more. How dare she send food back - clean your plate. (The portions were HUGE here, hubby and I split a dinner and it was way more than enough.) Here, have some fries. What do you mean you don't want dessert?

The daughter was saying she was full. She didn't want to eat any more. The fried foods weren't that good for her. It was obvious she was trying to eat at least semi-decent and her father was sabotaging her. I wanted to walk over to their table and smack the man.

The way parents treat food significantly effects how a kid will treat it. You should be very proud of yourself for realizing this, and for working so hard at your health. You are setting a fantastic example for your little girl! Everyone should be so lucky as to have such a great dad!

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TELERIE 8/1/2009 6:19PM

    Wonderful blog, my friend! Just wonderful. It's hard to watch others on that downward spiral, but people aren't ready before they are ready.
That sunflower is just so bright and sunny!

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BLUEANGELLK 8/1/2009 1:53PM

    Isn't it amazing how much better our lives look on this side of the weight? I think in many ways it is because we like ourselves so much better. I know that is true for me and it sound like it for you. It is a little disappointing that we can't "fix" everyone, but I know that I had to reach a personal turning moment before I was ready to really try and get healthier.

I know you have reminded me to be grateful for all the things that have changed because of that turn. Thanks.

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GRAMMABENJI 7/31/2009 10:04PM

    great blog as always and beautiful flower.

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GRAMMABENJI 7/31/2009 10:04PM

    great blog as always and beautiful flower.

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GRAMMABENJI 7/31/2009 10:04PM

    great blog as always and beautiful flower.

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VALPO1997 7/31/2009 10:36AM

    Life taught you a lesson and you paid attention. And it scares most people that have lost weight (little or great) to ever go back to being in those unhealthy shoes.

And it was great to see you not judging the person, but gathering the lesson to be learned at that moment in time.

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REDEE2DROP 7/31/2009 10:29AM

    So true, I did want to avoid activities with my kids, would I fit in the amusement park ride? could I play tag? would I join them in the kiddie pool? I didn't want to stand on the sidelines. Sparkpeople is helping me at my own pace and your blog really encourages thought and decision making that are positive.

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SALDRU 7/31/2009 8:59AM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing.

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AAQUWAA 7/31/2009 8:41AM

    Love the blog, Love the sunflower, Hugs, Carmen

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CURLYMARIE 7/31/2009 7:44AM

    emoticon You've put into words one of my reasons for this journey. I would sometimes look at people who are much heavier than I and wonder how they could let it get that far. Then it finally dawned on me, what am I doing to prevent it from "getting that far"? And how did I let it get THIS far?! I know it is going to be a long journey, but I can't not do it.

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FAIRYELEPHANT 7/31/2009 2:43AM

    Another incredible blog from you, that really makes us all sit up and think. Thank you - once again - for sharing with us.
Take care
Jackie x emoticon

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SNEAKYGREG 7/30/2009 11:37PM

    I went to a water park last summer and it was quite eye opening to see some of the people there and realize that is where I had been headed

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GLOBALKEEWEE 7/30/2009 11:31PM

    Oh, geez. You hit a sore point for me with this one...

My favorites are the backhanded compliments or 'help'.
My M-I-L will say things like "I'm sure you wouldn't want to eat that (fill in the blank), since you are trying to diet" [Thank you, I can manage my own intake.] Or the sales wench (aka personal shopper) at the Nordstrom who told me ..."Perhaps we have something your style in the Encore area (i.e. the fat girl department)".

Figuring out what works for you, it's definitely got to be hard not to just leap over the table at someone being self destructive like that. At least you changed your own thoughts and behaviors before it was too late - even if you think it was for too long. Just remember that you are helping literally hundreds of people change their lives over this 'virtual table'.

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RENA1965 7/30/2009 11:23PM

    My sons used to be ashamed to be seen with me, now my youngest can't drag me around enough to show my muscles off.. Both were very worried I would die from them like their dad did very suddenly..
They both are more relaxed now, and even look on with interest trying stuff I do.. My sons love the dumbbells and stuff so sometimes I have to hunt for where they put them last lol..
My 14 year old now tells his mates, I want muscles like my mom has. You guys should see her biceps they are huge lol. I heard this comment when he was walking with his mates over to their home while hanging out the washing. I had to smile, as I was no longer embrassing to my own teenage children..

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CALIFCAS 7/30/2009 9:56PM

  I had a somewhat similar experience this past weekend. I went to Red Robin with a friend, which I haven't been to in years because I know the booths are tiny and it's a very crowded place, but with my weight loss I'm feeling more comfortable getting out and about. Anyway as my friend and I waited in the lobby for our table a very large woman, probably 600 lbs, rolled out of the restaurant in a power wheelchair. I wanted to cry. I thought about her life, what it must be like and thought about how I felt at 440 lbs. I thought about how I was headed for that, in just a few years that would have been me. I thought about her family and friends by her side, and about my own friend with me and how much life I had wasted by being fat. I can't get back that lost time, but I will NOT waste anymore!

Thanks again for sharing!

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LORRAINE10141 7/30/2009 9:47PM

    Very clear headed.

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SUNNY89 7/30/2009 9:07PM

    Right on and straight forward. Thanks again for making me think about things.

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BILLALEX70 7/30/2009 8:12PM

    Great post buddy!

I believe somewhere back a while I wrote a very similar post. We're walking the same road seeing we started near the same weight. We can see clearly now our actions and the spiral that took place. But, when we were on the spiral no one was willing to say anything. I'm sure by now I would be well over 600 pounds and possibly dead.

I'm with you on the NEVER going back!

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MICHARM 7/30/2009 7:14PM

    Thank you for sharing! Recently a young man who worked with me passed away..he was only 25 years old and was approximately 5'6" and probably weighed between 350-375 lbs. He too had difficulty walking and breathing. I believe he died in his sleep as he had sleep apnea. I am so sad that he didn't take the opportunity to help himself get healthy. He was too young. I am sad. We spoke about him buying a C-pap machine (not sure if that is how you spell it) so that it would keep his airway open, I encouraged him to do so. I don't think he did as he was young and preferred to buy a Quad. He wasn't always heavy, just in the last 4 years, he put on at least 200 lbs.
I know we all have issues but this is so sad.
I am happy you took the initiative to get healthy and you and your daughter are raising a beautiful sunflower...it's kind of a reflection of how you are looking after yourself.
Take care and good luck with the rest of your life journey!
Michelle

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STAMPINWOMN 7/30/2009 6:26PM

  put in a way that i had never thought about. thank you.

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WENDYSPARKS 7/30/2009 6:14PM

    Well Said and Great Blog! Keep Sparking, wendy emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MOMALDERMAN1 7/30/2009 6:06PM

    Wow. That was an amazing eye opening story. I am thankful that I have learned so much on Spark. To better days ahead.... emoticon

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VIVA_VICTORIES 7/30/2009 5:59PM

    I think you have hit the nail on the head. And I'm so happy (and you are so blessed) that you had all those rational thoughts about your health and your family. Because that's what they are, completely rational.

I have several "fat" friends (as you say) who are not as wise as you. I wish I could show them your blog so they could see how one day they might miss out on walking their daughter around the block or running next to her while she learns to ride a bike and then going for bike rides.

But your blog also made me realize that the change has to come from within. Those people at the table next to you and my friends don't think they have a problem (or at least won't admit to it). So I can keep hoping, wishing, and praying that they make a change, whether they do or not is up to them. But at least I'll have my health to do all those things with my family one day and you will too!!!!!

Again, AWESOME blog.

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SHIRLMIDD 7/30/2009 5:57PM

    You have done a fabulous job at losing all that weight-congratulations! Blog was really interesting & thought provoking. emoticon

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MADZOE 7/30/2009 5:22PM

    Wow! Exactly. I have had quite a few of these moments so far and while I haven't lost a great deal yet, I'm definitely on my way. I have had many times like Morningsun where I just wanted to say "HEY! YOU! www.Sparkpeople.com". But as I know from 23 years of smoking we must each come to find our way at our own time. I know from all the years of people trying to get me to quit smoking, especially my daughters, that until you feel the "calling" to improve your life, it won't happen or only for a small while. You have to really feel that it's time to make a change. And then things just seem to fall into place.

9 months smoke free as of today! 25 lbs gone! This has been the greatest change of my life!

thank you sparkpeople!!!!

As always your blogs are insightful and no nonsense!

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KLJUHL 7/30/2009 4:10PM

    Great insight. Very moving, and sad. I have seen people just like you described, and not wanting to become one of them is a motivater for me to lose the weight I have allowed myself to to put on.

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MORNINGSUN52 7/30/2009 4:00PM

    very powerful blog, as i am finding many of yours to be. I know i have been on both sides of this conversation. Lately even i have talked about the meal from the day before, only now it is about how i made a choice to keep it healthy (ok to be honest it is ALMOST always how it was healthy)

i know more and more i see others in a restaurant or store and i have these conversations in my head where i am stopping them and telling them about sparks people. I could not bring myself to do it but a part of me so wants to. Even went so far as to imagine myself printing up business cards and on the way out asking the waitress/waiter to give them one and say was from the lady who just left. tempting but afraid i could never make myself do it. besides never know if they would be grateful...or hunt you down in the parking lot. Maybe i will make up some stickers though and post them at some of the restaurants i know around town who have bulletin boards and places for flyer's. It could be my own way of giving back and getting the word out.

Thank you again for another inspiring blog..and for giving a person something to think about. You really do have great posts here. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KALATHIA 7/30/2009 3:48PM

    Very powerful. Thank you.

Kathy

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TSABONIS 7/30/2009 3:36PM

    That was awesome. I have been there as well on both sides. Gloating about my meal and shaking my head at others doing the same thing.

Thanks

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KEEPITMOVING 7/30/2009 3:28PM

    tony, all i can say is...wow...your insights, introspection, and intelligence just slay me. i am not as good as you are with guesstimating food very well, but i pretty much know good from bad and am always trying to make the best choices that i can. my activity level has been steady, and i have to up it a notch to move the scale further downward. knowing how you've done and what a positive difference it's made in your life, strengthens my fortitude. when i see what you have been able to accomplish with your own determination, diligence, mindfulness, and willingness, it fills me with awe and hope. here's to our sp journey! nancy
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_RAMONA 7/30/2009 3:03PM

    Tony, this was SO eloquent... your insight, your compassion, your passion, your resolve and committment are the qualities that keep me coming back here, and scrutinizing my own mindset and motives. The truth is that no matter how fat you are/aren't, and how much/little weight you have to lose, the conversation you overheard is one any one of us could be having, or we wouldn't be at all fat. To live life healthy and fit, one must get to the point where is in never any longer about the food. That realiztion was my lightbulb moment this past Christmas when I realized I was no longer looking forward to Christmas because of the food... there were so many other things I was valuing MORE... and THAT'S as it should be. Thanks for another graphic picture I can carry in my mind to help me keep my focus.

And I hear you on the parenting issue... not only am I too weak and unhealthy to do all I want to do with my daughter (the 'fat' is actually a smaller issue), I am an older mother (I'm almost 50 and she's 5), and if I want to be the mother I feel she deserves, I need to choose a different approach to my life... losing weight and raising my fitness level is the first and foremost step.

I LOVE your sunflower... do you and your daughter know why they are called 'sun'flowers? It's because sunflowers have the ability to turn their heads so that they always face the sun directly as it moves across the sky throughout the day! I LOVE that idea... great life metaphor!

As ever,
Me, too.

P.S. Have you thought of making up some 'business' cards with SparkPeople information on them to hand out? ;)

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MUDDER91 7/30/2009 2:48PM

    Thanks for your thoughts. I think I will go call my father!

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AINTSKEERD 7/30/2009 2:47PM

    I have had that same experience a few times, already in this journey. What an great reminder of what I never want to be again! 'There, but for the grace of God, go I.' is a quote I say to myself quite a bit these days.
As uncomfortable as these situations are, I think they are little reminders intended for each of us, to keep us on track.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 7/30/2009 2:47PM

    It's like seeing the Ghost of Christmas Future.

Creepy and sad, indeed!
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KEEPSAKES66 7/30/2009 2:43PM

    Good Blog. its funny how you become aware. My inlaws took us out to a buffet for dinner. I was noticing how many super sized people were piling their plates multiple times. I felt sorry for those people, and sad that I had even eaten like that. I know I had to want this to move forward and although I have only been doing this 6 months I am constantly amazed at how much better I feel already.

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SUNSHINEBILL 7/30/2009 2:22PM

    It's the beautiful lies we tell ourselves. I am not as fat as him, I could walk up the stairs, but I don't have the time,they must be making cloths smaller these days, this one piece of cake will not kill me, I am too tired to exercise.
Thanks for the reminder, I only have today and will make healthy decisions.
You always lift us up.

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_BECA_ 7/30/2009 2:15PM

    It is so true very sad but true we must first decide that enough is enough so kudos to YOU for making life altering choices for your health,mind and family to live life's VERY BEST. I wish you continual success
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WOLFKITTY 7/30/2009 2:11PM

    I know it's tough. Sometimes making those realizations can be helpful for you too, since you're reaffirming why you have made the changes you did. And you are seeing the alternatives (well, because you can't help but not if they're right next to you).

I think that there's a kind of "reformed fat person" mentality that I've encountered before starting my own weight loss. Most of the time it's displayed from friends that are on some kind of diet. During my journey, I've radically changed how I look at food, what is healthful and what definitely isn't. I think about how something may or may not fit into my nutrition goals. I've learned so much. And it's a challenge not to look at other people's food that way too. I remind myself that it is their life, though. I know that no matter how physically uncomfortable I was before SP, I definitely didn't want anyone offering their nutrition tips. I lived in denial of my true problems to ease the pain, and suffered without realizing how much of it I actually controlled.

I sometimes have the experience you did at the restaurant when I spend time with my family. I try to provide a healthy example for my husband and my in-laws. I can dismiss the actions of strangers, because as much as I feel deep compassion for their plight, I can't in any way be responsible for them. My husband has changed some of his eating habits since being diagnosed with diabetes last October, but many remain and his weight loss has stalled (he's around 425 now). Most importantly, his mindset hasn't changed at all. I'm not sure what I can do to help him with that. It's so frustrating, and it definitely is "watching someone destroy themselves".

At least you are working toward a brighter future for your daughter. Like the sunflower that you're growing together, your example is undoubtedly planting the seeds of fitness within her that are blooming. I'm so glad you have the opportunity to say that you are making choices to affect your family in a positive way. And even though I don't have children, I have some solace in the fact that I am for my husband as well. Thank you.

Jocelyn

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MICHELLERI 7/30/2009 2:04PM

    Great blog!

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AMBERROGUE 7/30/2009 1:31PM

    A person has to want to change, don't they. You're doing a great job.

Btw, if you don't mind me asking - what type of back injury did you have? My DH injured his back a while ago and has gained some weight, though he managed to lose some of it recently.

Thanks for sharing!

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JLUVSHIKIN 7/30/2009 12:56PM

    As usual... right on the money. Good blog.



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ZAEZAE 7/30/2009 12:36PM

    I have felt this way often during my short journey and for me it's very personal - rather than watching strangers, I've been watching my family and in particular my sister who I'm VERY close with. It has been so hard!

She is finally getting there and has joined SP woo hoo!!! I hope we can fight this battle together.

Great post & great thinking!
Amy

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SWEETZMIX 7/30/2009 12:28PM

    Great blog!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 7/30/2009 12:24PM

    Yea, I see that too. My youngest and I went to a theme park (King's Island in Cincinnati) and saw a guy get told that he couldn't ride a ride because they couldn't get the harness locked. It was kinda sad for me to watch and then I told my daughter that when this started, I would have been doing that walk as well (This particular ride was pretty tight even at my current state).

Really, I wouldn't have been able to have that whole weekend with my youngest at my larger self.

Great post again, good sir.

ttyl

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ELFITZPA 7/30/2009 12:21PM

    It's tough because while you can't change people if they don't want to change, I completely understand you feeling so bothered. You've just got to keep taking care of yourself and setting a great example to your own daughter about the importance of health (and that it's never too late to start taking better care of yourself). Just because you can't help the strangers sitting by you doesn't mean you can't help those close to you. Keep up the excellent work!!

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HEIDIS2NDCHANCE 7/30/2009 12:15PM

    Botzz, thanks for sharing. There are often times I watch those around me and wonder if they will get to the point where enough is enough. You have made some amazing changes that I'm sure has already affected your family. You are a role model for not only your family but also for all of us on SP. Thanks!

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Da Doc..

Monday, July 27, 2009


Moving right along, I woke up Friday morning with a sore throat and the under side of my tongue was sore (I will leave it at that because the visual is not fun) and long story short I just got home from my Doc's office and I have a bacterial infection in my throat and under my tongue so I am on some antibiotics and sucking on zinc lozenges. Now that my bad weekend is out of the way its back to the grind of dropping weight and getting healthier over all and I have decided to do a few things that I have not been doing on the blog in a while.

I am going to start posting up my menus again because doing so helped me have a snap shot of how things were going intake wise and though I do believe that I have learned how to feed myself with portion sizes that cater to the new way I live my life I also see myself being easier on myself where taking an extra bite of something goes. Another thing that I am going to start doing is the challenge posts again, and if you are fairly new to the blog let me explain what that is exactly. Sometimes (usually when I am feeling unstoppable) I would post up a regular old post but at the end state that for every comment that I got on said post that I would do X amount of push ups or that I would ride an extra 2 minutes on my stationary bike or some other random exercise based challenge. I feel that when I did those that it kept me mindful of my intake and exercise for that week because I had to leave enough in me to complete whatever the challenge was and that is a positive thing so they will come back this week with a Friday challenge post to go with the weigh in this week.

Over all things are going well in my world and I am planning on a bike ride this afternoon with wify despite the humidity, This entire week looks to be high 80's low 90's and pea soup humid so summer has finally arrived. Keeping hydrated will be especially important but the exercise has to continue so that the weight keeps coming down, which has sort of become secondary in this whole lifestyle change for me at this point. Getting healthy and being able to do things physically that I was unable to do just a short time ago seems to be the main focus for me currently and that's just fine because I believe the two go hand in hand, which is not to say that I am not trying to lose more weight because I am.

This week should be interesting because I plan on pushing myself through the humidity and sore throat but it is what it is and I gotsta keep going.

Drink plenty and remember that YOU are the one calling the shots where your health goes so when its a success you know where to point the finger, just don't forget the other side of that coin if you do not do your part.

As Ever
Me

  
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SUNNY89 7/30/2009 9:05PM

    Drink plenty and remember that YOU are the one calling the shots where your health goes so when its a success you know where to point the finger, just don't forget the other side of that coin if you do not do your part.

I love that paragraph. That is it in a nutshell.

Do feel better soon. Take care on best of luck on those bike rides in the humidity. Drink extra water to stay hydrated.

ROCK ON!!


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WALKWITME 7/30/2009 2:01PM

    push It Push It Good !

lol.... some line from a song


I'm right on track with you

Determination !

Exercise with Caution !

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 7/29/2009 7:42AM

    It's good to see everything getting back to normal after vacation. If you find the magic pill for that, let me know. I have been struggling for the last couple of weeks and can't get back on track.

ttyl

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FAIRYELEPHANT 7/28/2009 2:58AM

    Your attitude is spot on. We're ready to reply to those blogs and boost the amount of reps you'll be doing!
Take care
Jackie x emoticon

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JOY2BEMEE 7/27/2009 7:12PM

    Great Job! emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 7/27/2009 2:44PM

    Be careful out there. It was humid already early this morning. When I was walking to work from the subway, I was already hot.

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AINTSKEERD 7/27/2009 2:42PM

    Goodie!
I'm looking forward to 'helping' you with your goals! emoticon

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KALATHIA 7/27/2009 2:39PM

    Get well soon!

Kath

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AMBERROGUE 7/27/2009 2:17PM

    Sounds like a great plan. I love the challenge idea. What a great way to get more exercise in and stay accountable!!

Hope you continue to feel better & that you heal quickly!

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LAURIE5658 7/27/2009 2:06PM

    Botzzz, I know personally that if I track EVERY FLIPPIN MORSEL that enters my mouth, I do the best. It sounds like you are the same way. Good for you!

Now go do you pushups!!!

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WENDYSPARKS 7/27/2009 2:04PM

    Hi and I hope you start to feel better soon! Keep Sparking, wendy emoticon emoticon

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VIVA_VICTORIES 7/27/2009 2:00PM

    Sorry to hear about your infection. At least you have a cause and treatment now, so recovery should be swift. And all the fluids you're drinking will definitely help.

I'm excited to see your menu posts. I always like getting new ideas for meals and snacks, and Sparkers are the best people for that.

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