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Pictures and a long post for a long weekend!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I feel like I am the worse blogger in the entire internet! I have been very busy so I have been neglecting my blog. This weekend was extremely busy and very fruitful as well with opening day coming around, My weight has fluctuated up and down a bit in the last week or so and I have not made it priority in my life for a couple few days. I am finding that when I get very busy that I don;t pay attention to the weight loss goals, I mean I do stay relatively close to the intake goals but I am not exercising the way that I would like to be, which is not to say that I am getting no exercise into my days because like my first sentence mentioned it has been very busy around here.

Saturday I woke up bright and early to head out fishing and I literally fished from 6am until 3pm barring the runs back home to clean fish or take short breaks. The first day we ended up with 7 nice trout ranging from 11 to 13 inches in length and on Sunday I ran out in the morning without my son this time and caught five more nice trout but only kept the 2 largest which were just over 14 inches each so my freezer is stocked up with some nice fish that I am sure will get posted as meals when we decide to cook em up. Intake for Saturday was not good but not bad either, though I don't know my exact calories I don't think I went much over but I did go over. We met Wify's step dad at a park and he brought a pizza so I did have pizza around 2:30 pm but I skipped dinner because of it and instead ate a banana and a big orange around dinner time. here are a few pictures of some of our catch that we snapped from our fishing this weekend.


Wify made me laugh while she took this pic so you get a smile outta me, these are the "first batch".


First batch from opening day, the same ones that are on the stringer in the first photo.


These are the two that I caught Sunday morning, that one on the bottom was a thick ol fatty of a rainbow.

Sunday we decided to hit the yard with some work and I ended up clearing out a hill in our back yard for about 4 hours. We moved boulders, raked up 2 years of leaves and debris, cleared brush and wild rose bushes and I ended up with poison ivy from some dead vines laying around (I am very allergic to poison ivy) so a lot of work went into the afternoon cleaning and clearing the back side of the yard. Dinner time came around and tired plus hungry equaled me agreeing to chinese food for dinner so all of that hard work and calories burned were countered with some good ol chinese food so not so great in that department. We ended the weekend with a bonfire in my back yard to burn some of the brush etc that we cut down earlier and I had a couple marshmallows and a couple beers while we sat around the fire chit chatting so Sunday ended not so good with the intake but it is what it is.

Monday was perfect where intake was concerned, I ate balanced and came in at 1673 calories for the day and I drank 1 gallon of green tea and 3/4 gallon of water, no exercise besides walking around the super market and a couple stores for about 4 hours but not a bad day as a whole either. My back pain has come down from a 9 pain level to about a 2 so I plan on riding my bike today and getting this exercise thang back in full swing this week because I am after all trying to lose weight right?

As a part of getting back into the swing of things I will start posting my menus back up again for accountability purposes starting with tomorrows post, I will also post up exercise minutes all week for the same reasons. This week is going to be a busy one for me just like last week because we are painting the exterior of the new house but the difference is that I am without the back pain so I am going to make every attempt to stay on plan with the food as well as the exercise beause its what I have to do.

Here I am and there you are and we gotta do what we gotta do for ourselves and our families, don't forget to stay hydrated! this is advice that I need to keep tightly under my belt because I have not been doing the best job in the world of staying hydrated myself the past week or so and it is probably one of the most important things in this weight loss game to keep the weight falling off. Thank you for following along with my trip to the half and look for a menu post tomorrow.

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DONEPAT 4/26/2009 1:14PM

    I love this blog. That's all I can say.
OOOH Fish!

Glad you had a good time!
Patty

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SNEAKYGREG 4/24/2009 10:30AM

    Nice looking trout, our season doesn't start until may 1st and I can hardly wait. Have you started the c25k?

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CCW2005 4/23/2009 3:52AM

    You know....I think that a good weekend outside, fishing and doing the yard work has as much benefit as sitting around counting each thing that goes in the mouth. You were outside, and active...not on the couch watching the television. You dun good!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/22/2009 9:27AM

    Glad the fishing went well. Can't wait to see what the first meal of trout looks like.

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BILLALEX70 4/21/2009 8:59PM

    Sometimes it's best to back off and give your body a rest. You can make huge gains by doing this from time to time.

Fish look great; when's dinner?

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DIFROMWYOMING 4/21/2009 8:23PM

    I just bought some rainbow trout which is not the same as catching it fresh, I know, but if you could post some of your recipies that would be awesome! I've never cooked the stuff so heaven knows what I'll end up doing to it all on my own!
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SLMTRACE 4/21/2009 6:13PM

    mmmmm fish!! those look great! ohh i cant wait to go fishing! yeay!
heres to a new week! keep up the hard work!
cheers,
Tracy

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**PRICELESS** 4/21/2009 3:16PM

    I don't know about the whole fish thing but I AM super happy to hear the back pain is going away!! Looking forward to seeing your upcoming accountability postings! You've come to far to blow it off now!!! =D

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/21/2009 2:47PM

    Yay on the reduced back pain and on all those fish - eating healthy couldn't be easier, huh, with that fresh catch waiting for you?

By the way, sounds to me like you're now well into the "think like a thin person" mode. You had pizza, but you made sure to balance out your calories by going light at dinner. And again, the Chinese food was also offset by a very physically demanding day. It really sounds like you're listening to your body's needs, as opposed to listening to the voices in our heads that try to tempt us this way and that!

Good going! And with the biking coming back in, you're set. I know we're all expecting that by this weekend, the last of those back-again pounds will be gone, and you'll probably be into new lows soon!

Keep it up, keep it up!

Cheers,
Maya


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MSHOPPER63 4/21/2009 1:14PM

    Looks like a very productive opening weekend! I really enjoy reading your blog, you are a true inspiration to me. Have a wonderful week.

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LUCKY-13 4/21/2009 12:10PM

    Glad to hear your back pain is lessening, and I know those fish are going to be delicious!

I'm really happy that you're getting back in the saddle with exercise and nutrition. We all have days like that and it's important to get back to the right routine ASAP. You're doing it. Bravo!

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ZIRCADIA 4/21/2009 11:35AM

    ALRIGHT MAN -- you post those exercise minutes and menus or I will be after you. :) I'm glad to hear the fishing was a success and that the back pain is down as well -- WOOT!

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AMBERROGUE 4/21/2009 11:20AM

    Those are some good looking fish! I can't wait to see what all you use them in. I LOVE fish!

So glad you're just shrugging off the days of not eating so great and just getting back on track. It's great to see that you don't beat yourself up over a slip here or there!

I'm looking forward to seeing your menu tomorrow! Hope your Tuesday's going great!

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SWEETZMIX 4/21/2009 11:04AM

    mmm I sure love to eat fish, but not to clean them or touch them when the head is still on. lol You did have a busy weekend and sO did I, but every day and every week is not going to go perfect according with our plans.

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He gained? ya don't say!?

Friday, April 17, 2009


This will be a quick post because I am on the way out the door, I am up! blah! up by 7 pounds from my lowest weight of 344 pounds, yep that's right I am back into the 350's and its got to be mostly "real" gain, I have eaten decently this week but Zero exercise and floating around 1700 (honestly a bit higher on a few days) has shown its face to be a bad thing! I have to run out for some last minute things for tomorrow mornings trout opening season so this is sort of a mini post if you will just because it is weigh in day.

Back pain is still present, and I am not doing my part 100% with the eating, its my fault that I am up because even with no exercise I should be able to maintain a loss. no worries and its just a part of this trip to losing more than 260 pounds and I know that its not the end of the world, maybe I am just too focused on opening day so I am running around my meals all willy nilly, who knows? either way I ain't too worried about it because tomorrow morning none of it will matter when I haul a bucket full O fish home.

Keep on keepin on and all that and don't forget that H2O!

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CCW2005 4/20/2009 2:28AM

    Dude....never forget where you started....where you are...and what you did to get here. Mind the back. Too much fishing is said to create serious back problems....makes you call out from work day after day. emoticon

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ROCKIN_RHON 4/18/2009 12:38AM

    Enjoy your weekend and take some time to refocus you are doing great! You can do this!
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BIGGIRL2082010 4/17/2009 10:32PM

    Oooh, have fun on opening day. And we want the pics and the fish tales ... I know, the *taller*, the better! :)

Cheers,
Maya


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MISSISSIPPIJEFF 4/17/2009 9:28PM

    Everyone has their ups and downs. About 4 months ago I pulled my back out trying to be an over achiever with the exercise...and it payed me back with a 7 pound gain too...I was super depressed, but it made me want to get it back off fast. I lost it and got back on schedule a couple weeks later...you will too! Have fun fishin'! Drown a worm for me! My wife started me on your Spark Page...she has been following you for months telling me about your success. You are a real inspiration! Keep up the good work!

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LUCKY-13 4/17/2009 9:17PM

    Happy fishin'! Hope you have a great time!

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SGRONOW1 4/17/2009 9:08PM

    we all have bad weeks it will get better

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HICALGAL 4/17/2009 8:29PM

    good! you're not worried...i'm not worried. good luck on the catch and send a couple my way! emoticon

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BILLALEX70 4/17/2009 5:29PM

    Hey dude,

We've all been there. You're doing the same old, same old, but the results are different. I'm sure that you'll get back on track and find your way back to the negative column. You can't lose big like we have without some 'bumps' in the road.

Keep at it!

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SCIENCE_WRITER 4/17/2009 1:46PM

  I'm sorry to hear that you're up, but at least you know what needs to be done to correct it. I do hope your back gets better soon - I always worry about people with back problems, because mine was so bad for so long and I could have paralyzed myself. So please be careful with re-incorporating exercise into your routine.

Have fun with the fishing though!

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ZIRCADIA 4/17/2009 1:35PM

    YES YOU ARE. Stop thinking about those freaking fish already. ;) HAHAHAHA jk. Hey hopefully once you catch some then you'll be thinking about all the creative healthy ways to eat them and get right back in gear... right?

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UTSEAN 4/17/2009 12:19PM

    "Fishy, fishy in this lake come and take my power bait."

That's it my friend, that's all you have to say and POW, thier eatin' it up. Enjoy your day fishin. Honestly, I don't think there's much better than spending a day at the lake. Mine's coming Labor Day weekend. We're heading to Flaming Gorge.

Don't threat the gain. Much to my dismay, the ticker moved for me as well (in the wrong darn direction). I had a 2 pound gain. It's the not working out and oh ya, probably the Chicken Parmasana that I ate on Wednesday night.

We'll get back in the saddle and keep on rockin'.



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TRUSTYRUSS 4/17/2009 10:35AM

    Glad to se you still have the focus, regardless.

I now set my goals to 30 days, I go in at one weight and aim to come out lighter, and as long as I do........... that is the plan, then start again.......and again...........it allows for the ups and downs that seem to be there for most of us, I like to fish in the sea myself, will be polishing my rod soon and getting ready for some sea bass.......... emoticon

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DONEPAT 4/17/2009 10:29AM

    Hey- Enjoy fishing. I love it.
Catch some big ones!

You can do this.

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CECE0330 4/17/2009 10:23AM

    well happy fishing! May the trout flock to your line! And I'm totally not worried. You know what you need to do, and you'll get there.

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TWENKY215 4/17/2009 10:00AM

    Have a great time fishing and just bring back the fish and no ringworm like I did when I went fishing in the creek while visiting my cousin in MS. I guess I had on too much perfume! HEEHEE!
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MSHOPPER63 4/17/2009 9:53AM

    Good Luck with the fishing. Just make sure that you have a good time, after this past week it seems as though having a little fun may be just what you need. You really inspire me, I've been sharing your stories with my daughter and friends. Thanks for sharing and reminding us all that we can do it !

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SWEETZMIX 4/17/2009 9:41AM

    Enjoy you day my friend. I think we all need to go through it at one point. There will be times we will struggle & it's OK because we are supposed to struggle and learn from our mistakes and slip ups. I have been totally slacking too, and also implementing ST now at the gym (well I am learning) and my food has been off point, but hey...nothing comes for free. We both need to get back on it, we can't take too many gains. We shall over come!

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AMBERROGUE 4/17/2009 9:23AM

    Sounds like you have things in hand. Let us know how the fishing goes!

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/17/2009 9:16AM

  Have fun catching the trout!!!!

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A tea party and a visit to the doctor..

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Tuesday I had an appointment with a Doc just to check out how I was doing physically and I was happy with the results of the visit. A bit apprehensive about the appointment because it has been quite a while since I had blood taken for testing or my blood pressure checked, actually I had my pressure checked at the Health and wellness festival that I went to a few months ago and it was just on the high side of normal. I walk into the office and was actually looking forward to hopping on the scale because I wanted to see how accurate mine was and I was happy to learn that the docs scale said that I was .2 higher than my own scale so I think mine is pretty accurate. Into the little room to give my history as I was a new patient with this doc and when I told the nurse taking the history that I had recently lost 190 pounds her mouth literally hung open and she began asking how I was doing it going off subject of the history briefly, she finished and said that the doc would be in momentarily.

Enter the Doc, after saying hello and introducing himself he says "So you had a bypass surgery recently? great job on the 190 pounds" to which I replied "No I didn't have a surgery" after a second look at the history that the nurse took he said "it says you have lost 190 pounds, you did that without a surgery?" "Yes I did" at that point the doc got a look on his face as if to say "cool" and he started asking me details about what exactly I was doing to drop the weight, He was impressed with my meal choices and said "You are doing everything right, its hard to argue with a loss like this" He asked me about what I drink and when I told him that I was only drinking green tea and water the only thing he said was to watch out for high fructose corn syrup because a lot of the pre-made stuff had a lot in it and when I said that I brewed my own he again affirmed that it was hard to argue with what I am doing. He took some blood and is doing some tests and my blood pressure was 117 over 76 and I have a follow up appointment set up to go in after the blood test results come back. Over all it was a positive meeting and I am looking forward to the second appointment.

This blog is about my weight loss, but from time to time I post up some current events and random things that interest me and I thought I would share a few photos from the Tax day tea party that went on in Hartford this afternoon, with the amount of green tea that I drink you just know that I couldn't have passed up a tea party!





There are more pics of the tea party on my blog here zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/

Of course when I saw that they were not serving green tea I left immediately! there were a lot of people there and I just happened to be in the neighborhood so there you have it. As far as my calories go I am right where I should be besides a home made doughnut that my Mother in law made this afternoon and I am feeling good about the intake this week thus far and that doctor visit was the icing on the cake, or should I say doughnut.

I still have pain in my back but am itching for a bike ride bad! Going on a nice long walk has been burning inside my skull as well but I want to make sure that the back pain is not there before resuming the exercise so that's how it will go.

That's the end of the show for this evenings episode of as the fat guy turns! keep on keepin on and all that and don't forget that H2O!

As Ever
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LUCKY-13 4/17/2009 9:15PM

    Awesome doctor's visit! I bet the expression on his face was priceless!!! YEAH!!!

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/17/2009 9:01AM

  I loved the fact that the Dr. thought you had to have bypass surgery to lose that kind of weight! You are proving their statistics wrong you are doing it on hard work woohoo!!!!

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CCW2005 4/17/2009 4:33AM

    Doctors....I dont have a single use for them unless they are restarting my heart emoticon

Keep it up! Send me a fish!

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DONEPAT 4/16/2009 11:43PM

    Hey Congrats on the great doc office visit and even the tea party. I don't know how you limited to one donut, but you're the man. :)

Nice day today, wasn't it? Your BP is actually lower than mine.
Hope you and fam had a great evening. Thanks for the pep talk.

Patty

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UTSEAN 4/16/2009 6:22PM

    Isn't it just like the medical profession to assume that we've had bypass surgery? I got the same thing about 6 month ago from my new Dr. (because my old Dr. moved out of town). However, it does feel good to know that we are doing this ALL NATURAL. Keep up the great work my friend.

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THECOOLESTSARAH 4/16/2009 5:54PM

    Yeah! Take that doctor's office! ...all those times they've said "you have to lose weight" - I bet that felt AMAZING to show off a little - congrats on getting back on track. You are doing it Tony - whoo hoo!

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SQUIRRELLYMOM 4/16/2009 4:53PM

    Please don't be offended but I'm thinking your Mother-in-law is a saboteur!! emoticon She needs to get on the bus with your weight loss plan and not make so many tempting goodies for a while.

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MIKEBESURFING 4/16/2009 4:21PM

    WOW I am jealous of your blood pressure are you on med for it?? To have it that good.

See it just goes to show that you know what is best and have been doing it speed bumps will happen and you know how to get past them.

I am ready for a nice bike ride too.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/16/2009 3:15PM

    Always good to hear compliments from healthcare professionals. One of the doctor's in our church has looked at SparkPeople and sees nothing but positives and refers people to look at it, and me and Becky, all the time.

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TWENKY215 4/16/2009 12:56PM

    Great job!!! I told ya,,Hey you made me wanna get up this morning and walk. So far I have walked from the next to last train stop this morning, that was about 15 minutes for me and I walked at 11:00am this mid morning, that was a 30 minute walk as well.
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MARYONAMISSION 4/16/2009 12:53PM

    The reactions from the nurse and doctor had to feel so good. How priceless? Congrats! I'm sure you'll be on your bike really soon. I'm glad you are having a great week. Keep it up.
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**PRICELESS** 4/16/2009 11:12AM

    WooHoo!!! I know that felt GREAT!! Not too often Dr.'s are amazed I wouldn't imagine. ;-)

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AMBERROGUE 4/16/2009 10:47AM

    LOL, of course he had to do a double take! What you've accomplished is AWESOME!!
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SGRONOW1 4/16/2009 9:14AM

    the dcotor should be impressed. you have done a great job

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/16/2009 8:58AM

    Yay, yay, YAY on that doctor's visit and on wow-ing the doc! Congratulations!

Bet you anything your blood test results will be great, too!

Too bad there was no tea at the tea party - was Alice there? You know, Alice in Wonderland, the Mad Hatter's party ... :) Never mind.

Keep up the great work - you know you wanna see the doc's jaw drop and the nurse's eyes go all ROUND again next time!

Cheers,
Maya


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SCIENCE_WRITER 4/16/2009 8:47AM

  I'm so happy for your great doctor's appointment! Your blood pressure reading is fantastic!

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TRACYZABELLE 4/16/2009 6:42AM

    How exciting! I am so happy you had a great Dr visit.. did the nurse not listen or juse assume or was it the dr who assumed you had surgery to lose weight? I mean after all you would have said "I had bariatric surgery" had you gone that route to lose your weight! I amhonored to know such an awesome individual as yourself! YOu inspire me-- Now to start making your tea- you must tell me again how many of what kind of teabag! I want to be on the tea kick too!

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TELERIE 4/16/2009 1:36AM

    You should be so proud of yourself and I know you're the talk of that office - impressive!
I've started to love going to the doctor too!

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HICALGAL 4/15/2009 10:58PM

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AINTSKEERD 4/15/2009 9:51PM

    I would have loved to see your doctor's face when he was talking with you. You should be SOOOO proud of yourself...I am...uh, of yourself! emoticon

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CINCYDORA 4/15/2009 9:35PM

    You know you've got to be the talk of the doctors office, right? 190 lbs lost is amazing for anyone. How many people do you think do it without surgery? Pretty amazing. You should be proud of yourself.

Hope you work through that back pain. I'm sure you'll be back to your previous activity level soon.

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Look in that mirror over there...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


Monday went as planned and I came in at 1655 calories for the day, I have not ridden my bike in more than a week and right now I have a pain in my lower back from driving for 3 hours and rough housing with my daughter on Easter. Over all I am feeling back on track from what I was doing for the last week or so and its got to be that way because I still have a lot of weight to go.

I believe that losing the amount of weight that I have lost is starting to feel good to me and this may be the reason that I am slacking off a bit on the eating properly thing. Exercise has been halted because I have back pain and when that comes around there is nothing that I can do besides waiting it out BUT the eating I CAN control. I think that I am comfortable at my current weight as it is close to the weight that I have been for most of my adult life and it feels like end game to me. Though it is awesome that I feel good and feel like I can do anything that I want to right now the cold hard truth of the matter is that I am still a 350 pound fella and I have a ways to go before I am at a healthy weight. Is this 350 pound body that I walk around in better than the 534 pound one? absolutely! but I do think that I have to remind myself that I want to be smaller, I still need to lose close to another 100 pounds to be at the weight that I WANT to be at, I made a decision 16 months ago to drop ALL of the weight that was holding me back not 66% of it and that's what I gotta do.

Admitting that the last two weeks was not so good is the first step so there it is, the last two weeks of no weight loss was my fault and I own that, now its time to get back into a groove and keep on keepin on...now where have I heard that before?

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CINCYDORA 4/15/2009 11:04AM

    The old 'success breeds failure' conundrum. You've come so far. I have faith in you. You will find your answer to the problem.

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NANA2THREEGIRLS 4/15/2009 8:41AM

    I love your enthusiasm! I read your Easter blog and just had to see what you had to say afterwards. Keep up the good work. Sometimes the "scenic route" is what we need to get where we're going.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/15/2009 7:25AM

    Just remember, it is a step backward, you didn't turn around and start walking again.

Keep it up.

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QUILTINGB52 4/15/2009 4:54AM

    So you had a step back.....you realized what the consequences are and you will take steps forward towards your goal. We all need a break & know when it's time to get back on that wagon..........its not about perfection, it's about progression and you seem to have a great handle on it!!!

Congrats for all the hard work you've already put into your healthy journey!!!!


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UTSEAN 4/14/2009 10:18PM

    Keep on keepin' on my brother.

You will be there, you will be DONE!

You're always there no matter what. What you are on the inside will soon be seen on the outside. I see it and I hope you do too!

Much love,

Sean

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LUCKY-13 4/14/2009 6:41PM

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You're doing it!!

Lucky

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ZIRCADIA 4/14/2009 5:27PM

    I have full confidence that you will reach your end goal. It doesn't have to happen as FAST AS POSSIBLE, ya know? I mean maybe these two weeks are going to really help solidify in your mind why the end result is important. The reason I think detours can be dangerous is when people don't ever find their way back to the main road, you know what I mean??? Otherwise it's just a delay and another step in the learning process. Hang in there!

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TELERIE 4/14/2009 3:01PM

    Keep on keeping on!

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AMBERROGUE 4/14/2009 2:53PM

    You can SOO do it! I can't wait to see pics of you when you get to your ultimate goal weight!

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PJMARGARITA 4/14/2009 2:13PM

    inspiring. thanks for sharing this and admitting what I need to admit to myself as well. Keep it up and you will get to that goal!

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SWEETZMIX 4/14/2009 1:55PM

    so you made the first step by admitting you haven't had the greatest 2 weeks and you also admitted that you have gotten way too comfortable. So you want to keep going, you just have to get back in the game :) Get your mind right and the rest shall follow. Food can easily be anyone's downfall, so we just have to work a little harder at it sometimes. I know you will be back to "you", but it's not like you ever left :)

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AINTSKEERD 4/14/2009 1:11PM

    I absolutely understand what you are saying. I am now at the weight I was for the majority of my adult life and there have been moments that have been extra challenging, I think because of that feeling of 'normalcy'. But we both know, it is NOT normal. Like you, I have about a third of my goal to go and I'm not willing to give up. You inspire me to keep on. thanks-tam

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CECE0330 4/14/2009 12:57PM

    Oh....welcome to my little part of the world! Once I had lost the baby weight last year, I TOTALLY got lax, completely stalled, then fell off the wagon BIG TIME and gained back 14lbs. It's a VERY short step from feeling comfortable to slipping back into bad habits. You've come WAY too far for that nonsense! And there's a whole army of us out here keeping tabs on you, and we're not about to let you quit before you reach your goal!

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TAMMIE1006 4/14/2009 12:53PM

    wow, well, you made a great declaration, and now that we know, we won't let you stop now!! i have to also admit that i have just about reached a 'comfortable' weight, but my original goal is to lose another 10-15 lbs. i think that it feels great NOW after losing 17 lbs in the past 2 months, so i can't even imagine how great i will feel when i'm another 10 down!!

so, moral of this long story - don't short change yourself the amazing feeling you WILL have just 'cuz you're comfy today. imagine how you'll feel about yourself when you pass that 200-lb mark, then the 250 and your final goal! you'll look back and be SO happy that you didn't give up!!

hope your back feels much better soon, and keep up with your nutritional goals in the meantime!! hmm, when you're ready, i'd feel up to a cycling challenge......how 'bout it?


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SCIENCE_WRITER 4/14/2009 11:45AM

  I definitely agree with you on the "comfortable weight". It's very hard to change your self-image, and that can be very detrimental to your progress. I know I am going through that yet again - the weight I'm at is comfortable for me, and even though I want to go much farther, I know that I can do this and part of me really wants to stay here because it's "safe".

I'm contemplating taping a picture of a thinner woman onto the mirror at home...

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/14/2009 11:40AM

  aw your cognitive skills are getting it. I think we all go through this we get to a weight where we feel better look better and its easy to justify things. There are alot of emotional adjustments like wondering if skin will bounce back how people will realte to us all kinds of things we have to get mentally focused for as people with alot to lose. My internal conversations when I was at this place went sort of like this ...
1 although I am healthier I am not the healthiest I could be
2 Is this the example I want to set before my kids is this the real fufillment of my dream for myself?
3 if I go back to old habits of not being active and binging eating more than my body needs I know I will not maintain even my current weight I will gain its alot easier to gain than it is to lose.
4. The last big thing to really hit me was I never can just not think about what I am shoveling into my mouth again I have to stay aware thin people even have heart attacks from lining their arteries with lard I need to acheive a healthy balance in my diet regardless of weight.
Thats when it hit me that as impatient as I am and Dr, said I am insulin resitant so i lose harder I needed the time to learn healthier habits while losing. Because i not only want to get and stay at my healthy weight but I want to live along satisfied life with my husband and kids and then grandkids I want to be really healthy!
Anyways the jist is I needed fresh goals to inspire mysel f so I could want it just as bad as I did in the start. We all are differant only you know what will inspire yourself to want it with all your heart. My Lord when you are driven look what you can accomplish woohoo!!!!!

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/14/2009 11:21AM

    Whoa! That's a big one. This is a "comfortable" weight for you. Below this is a lot more uncertainty - you'll be venturing into unknown territory. Consciously or otherwise, that *may* be part of the reason for the detour last week.

BUT we know ya, Mr. Meatball. We know you're determined to get to GOAL, not just to "comfy". :) You will be down in the 200s before you know it. Just stay focused. You're already eating healthy, and when the back is better, you'll be working out again. So, it's all good!

You know where you're going and you know how to get there! Not much else we need to add to that mix! :)

Cheers,
Maya


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CALICAVEGIRL 4/14/2009 11:18AM

    Oh yes, I can relate. Once we lose a bunch of weight and everyone starts commenting on how good we look then it's easy to justify a cookie here,... a piece of bread with cheese there,... etc. BUT,... You can do this!!

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FLYINGTOFREEDOM 4/14/2009 11:11AM

    I agree with being complacent with our weight. I was stuck on a 4 month plateau and it droveme crazy, but at the same time I have been this weight for most of my adult life so it feels comfortable. I now have to get my mind and my body past this weight in order to get to my goal weight.
Alethea

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The worse day since starting this weight loss thang...

Monday, April 13, 2009


It is time to refocus, because I have to.

This weekend was worse case scenario for me where eating goes, Saturday for whatever reason I was very easy on myself where grabbing the random candy went but for the most part stayed within my calorie range if not over by 100-200 but I did not drink enough and I was up late Friday and Saturday night, when I say late I mean 2:00am-ish.

Easter Sunday was a disaster and I had the willpower of a 10 year old at a candy buffet, The day started off well enough with wify making omelets for breakfast but I did grab a piece of french toast after I ate the omelet, not so bad as it was early. The kids were rummaging through their Easter baskets and I had bought myself a box of 4 cadbury eggs a few nights ago with the intention of eating one per day on top of my calories for Easter weekend as a treat, so out came the box and before we left for Easter dinner at wifys family's place I had eaten 2 of the eggs among other random morsels of goodness, this was all before 1:00PM.



Upon arriving at Wifys aunts house I was promptly handed a Sam Adams white ale and as it was a holiday I don't count calories on holidays I accepted. Before too long I had consumed 2 Sam Adams and a Spaten and meandered into the back yard where the "man folk" were boiling clams and grilling hot dogs, I was handed another Spaten and a couple clams, again I obliged. Dinner was being served at this time and it was buffet style everyone brought something but wify asked if I wanted to wait until everyone was done so that we could take our time after the dinner bell madness died down and that's what we did, I stayed outside watching the kids look for eggs and chatting with the fellas around the grill.

The madness died down and wify asked if I was hungry and that I was! I am 4 beers and a nipper of brandy into my day here and my judgment was not the best at that point judging by the decisions that were made. Scalloped potatoes with bacon, curry rice and veggies, ham, grilled hot dogs, tortellini, eggplant parm and cheese cake cupcakes were among the bounty and surely some of that has attached itself to my ass by this morning. I ate like I use to eat back about 2 years ago, After dinner a red stripe and another nipper of brandy went down and it was time to decorate cupcakes with the kids and it is now roughly 3:30pm.

There was literally no holding back and its time to take my lumps like a big boy (again literally on the big boy part) I drank less than 1/2 gallon of water and zero tea during Saturday and Sunday as a whole. I was up until 2:00 am Friday and Saturday nights and last night was 1:30 am, This IS NOT good for my weight loss regimen! today I cannot stay out of the bathroom and I feel like shit, I am disappointed in myself for having ANOTHER bad weekend and I am sore and tired today. Flashback to 2 years ago and I was not able to walk around the block, I was eating like I ate on Easter EVERY day, I was "feeling like shit" all of the time and here I am by my own hand having a day like that? I will say it here and I have already told my wife, NO MORE of that kind of day. This does not mean that I am dropping my "no counting on holidaze" rule, it just means that even though I am not counting that I need to stay reasonable with the intake on these occasions.

Bottom line, I deserve to feel like crap today mentally and physically and I accept my lumps. A lot of the time I get comments and emails saying that I inspire someone or am doing a helluva job on the weight loss front but this time it is I that dropped that ball that you see rolling into the street but this post is me refusing to chase it into the path of the truck that I see coming up the road. I figure if I can write a blog about how wonderful and great I am doing in this weight loss game that I can pop a not so good look at a day in the life of as well, so there it is.

This morning I weighed in at 355 pounds, I KNOW that there is water retention and bloating within that number but it is what it is and seeing a number above 350 on that scale again when I am so close to losing 200 total pounds sucked and I cannot say it any more simply than that. Today marks the beginning of the new beginning as I have had a not so good couple of weeks now and I HAVE to get it rolling in the right direction again, so its on...

As Ever
Me

  
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NATURALSOAPGIRL 4/15/2009 2:38PM

    You said it yourself, "Flashback to 2 years ago and I was not able to walk around the block, I was eating like I ate on Easter EVERY day, I was feeling like sh*t" all of the time". This ALONE is a fantastic example of how far you've come and how determined you have been. Close to 200 pounds lost? Make a goal of when you want to reach that (if you haven't already). Whenever I had a holiday or large party where I ate way more than I should have I used to let it completely sabotage me and I'd fall of the wagon for weeks or even months. Now I just jump back on the very next day and say, "Oh well. Gotta work hard to burn off those calories now." It's amazing how much our mentality can change when we are really serious. Good for you for logging in and blogging about your bad day. BTW - Maybe limit yourself to 2 beers next time for the sake of calories and your decision making abilities! lol.

Sarah

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PEACHYCYN 4/14/2009 10:47AM

    So you had a bad week, so did I. You are back on track now, so am I. That's all that matters is that we got back on track and that we are doing better then we did last week. You are an inspiration to me no matter what, you have lost so much weight and have done so good so far and I know that you will finish this journey that you started and you will be happier, healthier and stronger knowing what you had to do to get to where you want to be. Keep up the great work and don't be too hard on yourself.

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CCW2005 4/14/2009 4:26AM

    Those friggin Cadburry Eggs. I was giving a box of them for Easter and well, I said to hell with saving them one a day...cuz they all going to go sometime soon!

To look at it from a dudes point of view....at least you had some good beer!

When you look at where you began, and where you are...You have what it takes to continue. You said that you don't count calories during holidays. Leave it at that and kick it into high gear this week?

How did the fishing go?

Chris

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TELERIE 4/14/2009 3:18AM

    I have a feeling there's a "Back to basics" week in store for the big boy? A "Get Serious week" to get back on track properly. That'll keep the momentum going and the scale moving in the right direction.
I know you can do it. YOU know you can do it!
And we live and learn and perhaps next gathering, you come prepared with more sensible plans for food/drink choices?

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WHOAMINOTTOBE 4/14/2009 1:42AM

    I know EXACTLY what you mean!!! The last two weeks for me were awful! Eating like I used to eat and feeling so bad after. And doing that to myself?!?! I didn't even exercise, even though my body wanted to move. I refused to let it! It's insanity!!

I have three weeks left to reach the next goal I have set for myself, and as of today, it will be done. I'm getting out of my own way!

And you will too. I mean, come on... You're Botzzz....

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MIKEBESURFING 4/13/2009 10:55PM

    emoticon Tomorrow is a NEW day just remember how Crappy you feel right now and think about that next time you are offered all the goodies and turn Some of it down.

Good to get it out of your system and remember how &*()_ you feel that will make you think 2x before going overboard. I have been there done that just keep on keeping on Man.

Mike

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**PRICELESS** 4/13/2009 10:05PM

    YIKES! That was a helluva splurge! Glad that you're back & ready to sweat off those last pounds to reach your 200-loss mark!!
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CALICAVEGIRL 4/13/2009 9:11PM

    Hi there! I had a not-so-good day last weekend due to a wedding and being with friends who like to drink. I don't drink much anyway and ever since I've gone really strict with my eating I haven't had any alcohol. Well all it takes is one drink for me to loosen up and lose my resolve,... and my control. Easter we were at my mother-in-laws and she made homemade sangria. I should have said no (knowing what happened last weekend), but I didn't. Dinner was really healthy, though (at my DH and I's request) so it was more just over eating than eating a bunch of crap (Apart from the dark chocolate m&m's that were consumed of course!). What I'm saying is,... alcohol is a big trigger for me. And it sounds like you had lots of alcohol yesterday. Instead of completely ripping yourself a new one and feeling sorry for yourself remember that alcohol is a drug to your body. And while you were consuming this drug you made bad decisions. Now I'm not saying that you're not responsible for what you put in your mouth,... but when you are thinking clearly and your head is not clouded, you would NEVER eat the way you did on Sunday. Maybe next time politely decline the beer and brandy,... or limit yourself to one or two, but only AFTER you eat so that it doesn't affect you as much and you are not ravenously hungry and not thinking clearly by the time you get to the dinner table.

Think about your triggers and then learn how to handle them and get control of your life. We all hit these walls when we slip up. The key is to get right back on the horse as soon as possible. The longer you stumble around,... the longer you let yourself slack (even if it's just a little bit,... water here, sleep there, alcohol, candy, etc.),... the harder it is to get back on your program. How much do you want this? Has your motivation for doing this changed since you first started? Has it? Think about that. Find your motivation again, renew your goals and focus. Focus.

Desire,... where is yours?

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LUCKY-13 4/13/2009 8:23PM

    Easter is a rough time for me to resist: reese's peanut butter cups, those tiny little powdered donuts, snickers, doritos, mixed nuts, and I had two pints of Guinness! All over a three day weekend, but on Sunday night I was sick as if I had drank 22 pints! ugh!

Sometimes those lessons learned the hardest way are the ones that get our attention the fastest. Sure did it for me.

Thank goodness for a new day, fresh perspectives, and the chocolate out of the (*&$^&@ house!

Lucky

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/13/2009 7:34PM

    Ouch. That was a nice little splurge there, huh? But the good thing is, you had to deal with "the morning after" ... heh. You won't be wanting to do too many days with that type of eating again. If you *do*, you know you'll have to deal with the lumps, too. :)

The good news is, you still have a while until the end of June. Refocus, re-evaluate, and get going again.

You've come far too far on this path to let a couple of days of silliness derail you! Keep going, Tony, you ARE doing this!

Cheers,
Maya


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AINTSKEERD 4/13/2009 7:32PM

    Every day that you wake up is an opportunity for a do-over! Today you can do better, be smarter, love your family and yourSELF better than you did yesterday. And tomorrow you will remember something from today that you can improve on...and you will!

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TAMMIE1006 4/13/2009 5:59PM

    if you enjoyed yourself at the time - great....now get past it. we're in this for the long haul and we would be very remiss to think that we're not going to have times where we go outside what SHOULD happen.
you know what you need to do, just pick back up and do it! you'll pass that 200-lb mark soon enough!

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AAQUWAA 4/13/2009 5:58PM

    Hang in there, you are an inspiration. Every body messes up now and then, It'll come right back off. I think everybody cheated this weekend. I certainly did. Your blogs are great!

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ELFITZPA 4/13/2009 5:28PM

    The holidays are always tough... I also try to not really track and indulge a bit, but I have a hard time drawing the line between indulging a little and eating like there's no tomorrow. Refocusing starts today, right now! Good for you for facing your rough weekend and immediately taking action. "Progress, not perfection" as they say!

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AMBERROGUE 4/13/2009 5:13PM

    Way to go on getting all that out! Now you're getting back on track. Good for you!

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DIFROMWYOMING 4/13/2009 4:39PM

    Oh you still INSPIRE me...now you're just inspiring me to NOT QUIT when I have a crummy day (or two)
We're with you!

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TWENKY215 4/13/2009 4:13PM

    Oh I am so proud of you for showing your human side and that is what this is. A human being showing and telling us all that we are not "perfect". Life is not "perfect", you have some good and some bad. I still say that you will not stay flawless, Hell food tastes too good to be flawless. And I know that your mistakes are not going to stay around to beat you up. You have the drive and the blueprint to make a better life. Being 500 and sumthin is nothing to take kindly to and you are living better and thinking better for getting the courage to do more for your health. It will happen for you, for sure.
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GIANT123 4/13/2009 4:08PM

    you do inspire just remember we are human and make mistakes. Get back on that horse and gallop at full towards your goal. You have lost this much weight through hard work and determination. Believe in youself you can do anything.

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CECE0330 4/13/2009 4:03PM

    You're so not alone. My blog this morning said something along the lines of:after eating what I did yesterday, I felt AWFUL. Mentally and physically. It was just not worth it! And it will NOT happen again any time soon. And yup, while it's good to know that EVERY day isn't like that now-as it may have been in the past, it's also just plain old silly to revert to the damaging behavior that put us in trouble in the first place!

Those freaking cadbury eggs. You'll find 2 logged into my food journal as well. I meant to have my one as a "treat" (meaning it was worked well into my day of high veggies & low cals) on Sat, That was all fine and good, but that extra one yesterday had NO business going into my mouth after the exorbitant lunch at the ILs. Oy.

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SSDCQUINCY 4/13/2009 3:15PM

    Love this honest blog. It is not always easy to admit when we fall back into our old ways. It was 1 day and it sounds like you have learned your lesson. You have come so far, ad maybe you just needed to let yourself cut loose this weekend. Don't be too hard on yourself, as you are human! Have a healthy day and keep moving.
Sandra

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FLYINGTOFREEDOM 4/13/2009 3:05PM

    You straying from the path is just more inspiring. It acknowledges to everyone else that you do have setbacks and that it is okay and you will get back on track. This helps more people I think than always doing good. Being able to admit our mistakes and moving forward is key to success (permanent) so take it in stride and you will get back on track. Sometimes it is easier to get back to the way it was until you feel like crap all day and then you realize you did this every day not too long ago. Amazing isn't it? Anyway, you have shown others that you are human and can falter.
Good luck.
Alehtea

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SWEETZMIX 4/13/2009 2:52PM

    Hey my friend. I guess you relasped. I have done that many times before. Just get back up and dust yourself off. Just like you share the good times, you have to share the bad. This is not easy and it has gotten a little easy for us to get a little comfortable. (well I can only speak for myself right there) But this shall past and I really think we have to go through the bad on our journey's. This is sometimes the only way we learn. Sorry to hear you feel like crap when I am on top of the world today. Keep in touch!

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MARYONAMISSION 4/13/2009 2:48PM

    Thank you for being so honest. It takes a lot of courage to post a blog like this. Losing weight is after all a journey. There will be bumps, miss steps and set backs. Sometimes we will even fall flat on our faces. As long as you keep getting and keep trying you are succeeding.


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WALKWITME 4/13/2009 2:39PM

    *Come Closer

(((( BIG HUG))))

I'm Glad You Enjoyed Your Holiday With Your Family And Friends

It's Going To Be Ok, Glad You Acknowledge You Fell Off, Now It's Time To Get The Ball Rolling Again, Lord Knows I Have Fallen Many Times But You Know What....

I Didn't Let That Stop Me And From Your Blog You Will Not Either

We Will Do This....

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BUTTAFLYH 4/13/2009 2:18PM

    I TOTALLY understand where you're coming from! I ate a little crazy this weekend too. I just knew I had gained weight, and I did. I gained 2 lbs.! I had just made it into 220ville and joined that team last week, and now I'm not in 220ville anymore. Lawd. But I am just gonna do like you said, refocus and get back on track. It's ok that you're human. As long as you don't give yourself an excuse for doing that every day, then it's cool. We all make mistakes. Even those of you in the SP elite. Lol. It's OKAY. I am glad that you have been so trasparent. b/c just as much as those of us who are nowhere near as far along as you, it helps us to know that you all are not SUPERHUMAN. Lol.

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ZIRCADIA 4/13/2009 2:06PM

    I guess the bottom line is that although we have both achieved a lot of success, that does not mean we don't still struggle. Sometimes a lot. *HUGS* We can do better than this.

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