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Weighing in on weighing in..once aGAIN

Friday, April 10, 2009

This week I have been away from the blog for the most part, and its nothing more really than an extremely busy week. I will get right to the weigh in and I am afraid that its a gain this week but there have been some obstacles this last week.

From my previous entry's if you read regular like, you know that I had 4 days of terrible eating but that was straightened out on Wednesday and since then I have not gone over my 1700 calories. Monday I woke up and was 353 pounds which is Nine pounds more than I was on Friday but I knew that it was an impossibility for me to have gained that much "actual weight" in 3 days, I mean that's 31500 EXTRA calories and I know that was not the case so I chalked it up to sodium and no water and did not worry about it. All week I have been inching closer to my 344 pound weight, and by all week I mean since Wednesday when I actually started eating within my 1700 calories and getting enough to drink, so for two days now.

I have done zero exercise all week and that has nothing to do with me not eating well in the beginning of the week. Out of the blue and for no reason at all, meaning that I did not injure myself or do anything obvious that would give me a reason why, my hip/lower back on the left side started hurting last weekend so I decided that I would take it easy until the pain went away, it is a dull almost not there pain but when I get a good stride going it comes back harder.

Busy comes in because opening day for fishing is coming up on the 18th and I have been going through all of my fishing gear and making sure everything was in order. I bought a new light action reel and plan on putting some fresh fish on the table this year and for those that do not know, I am very obsessive about things when I am doing them (mayby this is why I was able to lose 190 pounds) and I have been in fishing mode all week, before you think that "ahhh he obsesses on one thing at a time hence the lack of attention to the weight loss" know that its not the case, I quite literally blew it for 4 days and have been back in full on weight loss mode since late Tuesday night and I don't believe that a person could eat bad for 3-4 days and not have a bad effect from it.

Green tea and water have been flowing and a balanced intake has been the case for the end of the week and the plan is to stay on that path. I do have a date at Wifys family's Easter dinner this Sunday but as with all holidaze I don't count my calories for holiday meals but I do eat reasonably and that won't change just because I had a bad start this week.

Oh I almost forgot to mention how much of a gain I had this morning, I weighed in at 347.6 (with socks and a tee shirt on which is not usually the case) so just over a 3 pound gain from last Friday but I do expect that it will be at least a pound lower tomorrow morning as I believe that I am still on the flushing sodium/rehydrating thing but that's to be seen and the 347 is what it is. I was up nine pounds just 4 days ago and I think that after today I will be properly hydrated once again. I am not changing my "start/current/goal" ticker on the side bar this week but if I am still at a gain by next Friday it will be changed so that right there is some motivation for me to stick with the program this week. I am going to try the bike tonight to see if it hurts my hip/back and if not I will do some low intensity rides in the coming days.

Over all its just been a very busy week for me hence the lack of attention to posting every day but this week should be filled with posts for your reading pleasure! just do not expect a post on the 18th! when 6am rolls around know that I will be standing on a body of water or a stream trying for some trout, I WILL be out fishing ALL day!

Don't forget that H2O (I know someone that should be taking his own advice on that one!) and keep on keepin on, Thanks for the support and hopefully I will have some fish photos to share next weekend!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/15/2009 7:19AM

    I can completely understand the "huge gain". I hopped on the scale after a weekend on vacation where the eating wasn't the best, the schedule was thrown off and the drinking was inconsistent at best.

Don't beat yourself up, just get back on the horse . . . Wait, you already have.

Got to get that water.

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SLCOLMAN 4/12/2009 6:18PM

    Sorry about the gain and all the extra life is throwing at you right now!

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AINTSKEERD 4/12/2009 2:23AM

    Ha, I just picked up a new Lamiglas ultra-lite rod. I can't wait to break it in this year! I feel ya man.

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SNEAKYGREG 4/11/2009 10:34AM

    I love trout fishing, doesn't open til May 1st here and we will be out getting dinner.

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/11/2009 6:44AM

    Three pounds *net* for the week isn't that bad. You will probably flush them out of your system in no time at all - yeah, I'm pretty much with you on thinking it's all just sodium/water-retention.

And once that's done, you'll be chugging rapidly towards 300 ... we KNOW ya!

I've got to ask, though - can you fish in the river by your house? Or do you have to go some place special on the 18th? I have this great visual of you just moseying on out of the house first thing in the morning, walking a few yards to the river bank, fishing all day, then heading back those few yards with a nice catch in the evening! :)

Ah, well, either way, enjoy the season!


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GAMBLINGQUEEN 4/11/2009 3:31AM

    You are trucking right on along. Sure you're up a little but I'm sure before I know it you will have hit 200 pounds lost. You continue to amaze me. Now fresh fish that you will actually catch, cook, and eat - that's truly being GREEN. Have lots of fun, will you be taking your son and/or daughter with you?

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LUCKY-13 4/10/2009 8:00PM

    Yay! Glad to hear you're back on track! Knew you would be and your wake-up call became my own.

Have a great Easter weekend and a fantastic time fishin'! Watch out trout! Ever watch Red Dwarf? Funny British show, but one of the best and funniest lines was "I'm gonna getcha' little fishy!" sung by a cat who morphed into a human. Well, guess you and the family will have to rent it. Have fun!

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    Have fun fishing! I'm glad you aren't letting this little blip in your weight loss goals get you down. I totally agree that it's probably just water weight from earlier in the week. I have no doubt in my mind that next Friday you will have lost it all plus some. Keep up the good work!

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NATURALLYME126 4/10/2009 2:08PM

    My hubby and I were just talking about getting our fishing license. He had his a few years back, but let it expire. Now he wants us to start fishing again. So I decided I will get mine too. What kind of fish do you think you will catch?

That sodium and lack of H2O can be something else! Its nice to know what it is though.

Easter is my "off" day from counting calories too. I started back counting my cals this week. It has been a LONG time since I counted them. I am looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow. I am sure I will reap the results of going back to counting cals.

Enjoy your weekend and Happy Easter!!

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LEANNROCKS 4/10/2009 1:50PM

    Yum, fresh fish, so delicious!!! Happy Easter. -lynne

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DENNIS48 4/10/2009 1:20PM

    Happy fishin'. Thanks for the goodie, by the way - my pleasure. Thank YOU for your honesty - as the three pages of comments on your previous blog attest, you speak for a great many of us.

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DEBIZINHA 4/10/2009 11:49AM

    Great job getting back on track and H2O intake. I want you to know that I got a 2 gallon bottle of Green Tea, after reading the article you had on your other blog. I am struggling getting my water in and I am hoping that green tea will help. I never had it before and enjoy the flavor.
So thanks for sharing & Stay strong !

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TELERIE 4/10/2009 11:19AM

    Thank you for the goodie you sent me! It's good to hear from you again. I guess you're right it's probably a lt of water retention due to sodium and you should flush out your system with lots and lots of green tea and water and get back on track - sounds like you're well on your way there. Hope your hip/back pain eases up soon, and that it won't interfere with your fishing. We tried to catch some fish on our vacation last summer, but no luck that time.

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DONEPAT 4/10/2009 10:21AM

    Please share the fish photos. This Jersey girl has been fishing since she was 4.
I knew you could do it, and truth be told I am in the same boat. I have been very sick- sinus, throat tonsils, ears, - have been eating too much or not at all. I also am a graduate as of yeasterday, so yay me, and time to kick back in mode.
You are really doing great. Shake off the bad 4 days, like I will shake off my 3. It's life.
Not always easy as you know, but you know, worth it.
Have a great weekend, and Holiday.

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    Yay you are BACK! I knew you could do it - and have FUN fishing!!!! What a great pastime - so relaxing and meditative and you also get fresh, delicious fish to eat!


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GLORYTOGLORY 4/10/2009 9:47AM

  I wrote on your last blog just catching up on my reading but have a blast on that fishing trip!

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LEAVY1213 4/10/2009 9:45AM

    I also ended up with a gain from my bad eating decision last week, but I know it will be gone plus some this next week (I only ended up being up .6 from last week, WHEW!) Good luck this week and enjoy your fishing day on Saturday! :-)

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If you have nothing nice to say shut your mouth, Thats what Momma always said...

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Since weighing in on Friday everything that I have chosen to do that is directly related to this weight loss program that I am on has been full of Fail. for the first time since starting down this path I am not in control, that old fatter me was driving or the past three days and I am pissed at myself for it. I do not like writing in this blog when it is not positive and my momma always said iffin ya got nothing nice to say, keep that mouth shut, but I deserve to out myself for the past four days of NOT doing what I NEED to be doing so here it is.

Saturday I counted my calories right up until dinner time when I decided to order a Chicken parm grinder from the local pizza house, and on the side I had 2 slices of bacon pizza off of a small pie. Later Saturday night we watched a movie and I had my big ol bowl of popcorn that I always have with a movie. Then there was Sunday, the only good thing about Sunday was that I literally did not stop moving all day, wify bought a space at a flea market and off we went @ 7AM and we stayed until 1:30PM up $160 minus the $15 space fee so that was good and all I ate at that point was a bowl of cereal and a peanut butter and jelly sammie that I brought along, then when we got home somehow we ended up basically landscaping almost my entire front and side yard but that meant that dinner was late and someone decided that KFC was on the menu this is where the bucket of fail entered. I was HUNGRY by the time that dinner walked through the door from all of the yard work and I did not hold back, this is where you should brace yourself. I ate 2 breasts, 1 Thigh, 2 biscuits w/gravy, 2 T Mac n cheese and 2 T of mashed potatoes and honestly I did not enjoy the meal at all, maybe the first piece tasted good but only for a split second, and that will conclude the weekend.

Monday came around and I had about 750 calories left for dinner and we ended up stopping at Subway, no worries right? wrong! I ordered a foot long Subway melt with provolone and mayo on it and shared a small bag of cool ranch doritos with my daughter so I did go over calories yesterday. Now for today, This morning started off well enough once again but around dinner time I ate extra rice as well as extra peas with my Gortons fish fillets which would have put me over my calories for the day but then I added a Fiber one bar because "I needed something sweet" and about 45 minutes after that (just before the biggest loser started) I had 2 dannon light and fit yogurts, well I'll tell ya something, I bet they are not so light nor fit when you eat two after your calorie limit is gone for the day!

I have since Saturday had exactly 1 gallon of green tea and maybe 2 gallons of water, that's four days! I usually have 1.5 gallons PER DAY! so to say that I am dehydrated is an understatement, let me put it this way as I am typing this the taste of chapstick is on my dried lips. I have not been getting enough sleep either, last night I was up until 3am researching some lakes and streams in the area to go fishing in on the 18th as opening day is upon us. Now let us talk about the exercise, I have done none since Friday besides the yard work and flea market and that my friends is not the way to lose weight.

Now that I have demonstrated how NOT to do it, I am back to my old New old self! because I did not lose 190 pounds to just have a few days like that pull me into some sort of a spiral or even just a slight back up because that is not how I get down anymore. I am honestly pissed off at myself for the last four days worth of eating and not exercising not to mention the lack of drinking anything so tonight is the end of that.

I have no clue what the scale will say this week but I am heavier today than I was on Friday, whatever it is I have to accept it because I am the one making the choices.

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/10/2009 9:42AM

  We all have times when we are tired and just make the right decsions. This is your life not a diet so two steps foward one back sometimes as you know. No big deal glad you are right back on the wagon. i did have a thought though seesm like with all the house projects you guys have been doing you may have increased your activity level up so high that you are craving more calories. I wasn't losing there for a few weeks and I had to up my cals to lose and as soon as I started eating more healthy calories I started to lose and not crave the junk. Just a thought cause that what happened to me recently. The big picture is you have been consistantly doing well over all shoot amazing really!!!!

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PEACHYCYN 4/9/2009 3:33PM

    So you had a bad few days, I did too. Just move on and do things right from now on, don't wait till next week to get back on track, start it now. Keep up the great work and I hope you get out of this funk, I hope I do too. Have great day.

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JOYOUS111 4/9/2009 1:57PM

    two steps forward, one step have been doing this LONG enough...(omg 190 lbs) to realize life happens... read your sparkpage, if that doesn't inspire someone...what will? shrug it off, let out the steam and push forward...

you are has taken my 4 months to lose 9.8 pounds...some would had quit and not be satisfied...I am thrill...Remember it is our own decision how we look at things...

you Rock, you're awesome...that is how I choose to see you...


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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/9/2009 8:31AM

    Good job coming clean . . . .

While there is no excuse for some of this, sometimes life happens. Most of the time life happens a day at a time, but not 4 days in a row.

Most of those days wouldn't have been so bad if a few small changes had been made. The drinking is probably the biggest thing to get back in line. I know that I can tell how hydrated by looking at the back of my hands now (like right now, not so good).

Now, you are done with the beating of yourself and you are back on track. Now that you have read this response, you need to go get a glass of water (or green tea, your choice).

Have a great weekend!!!


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CCW2005 4/9/2009 7:25AM made me hungry!

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TRUSTYRUSS 4/8/2009 6:29PM

    Well !! its not just me then !!

So you are human, this is where the sparkpages come back to work for us, I have just had a 14 day 'weekend', thank god it is now over, I now feel as positive, as you do, it never really hurts to 'let go', (a bit)

You are doing great, a small blip aint the end of the world, give yourself some earned it. emoticon

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    Well I think your momma is totally right if you're talking about other people...but when it comes to you...I think it's okay to say whatever needs to be said to stay accountable!
I'm SO happy to have you back...(morning tea is not the same without you) and relieved to know you're human like the rest of us. This will be a bump but not a detour - of that I'm certain!

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TAMMIE1006 4/8/2009 3:38PM

    you ARE in control, and you have to remember that as you get back on the wagon here ~ once again, just pick up and go from here, it's not like you gained the 190 back over the weekend, so you've still made a heck of a lot of progress making it 'too late' to turn back, you're stuck with all of us and we won't let you get too far outta hand
so, go drink up and get on that bicycle unless it's nice outside, which then, you also, need to get outside.

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DENNIS48 4/8/2009 2:07PM

    We're all human. Hang in there. emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 4/8/2009 12:40PM

    My friend, we live and learn right. Are these slip ups going to happen? YUP Can we avoid them? SOMETIMES It happens and instead of being something about it. That my friend is what I have learned. To sit here and say they we won't slip and fall is a lie. It doesn't really matter you lost a 190lbs that is NOT PROGRESS...PROGRESS IS when you get up and keep on trucking after you slip and fall. So keep on progressing and get up and keep on keeping on. I know you will...this is not something we just give up on!

Hope all is well and hey if you gain a step back, 10 steps forward!

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JUSTAGURL2335 4/8/2009 12:13PM

    Yeah I had a VERY similar weekend! But like they say, if you fall down 7 times, get up 8. It's all you can do!! :)

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    I think so many of us can identify with your last four days. The feeling of disgust at ourselves for our bad choices. On the bright side, you did pick yourself up, dust yourself off and got back on track. 4 days of bad choices can be frustrating but it's not going to undo all the hard work that you have put in so far. Many people go back to old habits and never look back. Good for you for being aware of your mistakes and what NOT to do. As long as you don't give up, I'm confident that you will succeed. Now go drink your water and green tea mister!

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GLADGAD 4/8/2009 10:49AM

    First of all, stop beating yourself up. A wise man once said You can't succeed unless you fail. So you messed up a couple of days - big deal. This whole healthy lifestyle is a learning experience. It sounds to me like you have learned quite a bit in the past few days. First, that you should not skip meals because at the end of the day when you're tired and starving you gorge on the wrong food. Next, dehydration will make you feel more hungry and tired so you eat the wrong things and don't feel like working out. Ditto for lack of sleep. As long as you have learned from this and are aware of it so you don't mess up so bad the next time, then you have not failed. BTW - I ate ice cream while watching the Biggest Loser last night, so you're not alone.

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TWENKY215 4/8/2009 10:49AM

    It least you have the insight and the determination to not give up on yourself. That is the most important part. Sometimes eating whatever tastes good is a form of relaxation and controlling stress. You're human and to err is human. Get back on track, you have the right blueprint. Have a great week!
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RACKETMOM 4/8/2009 10:15AM

    emoticonHere's your kick in the pants-I've had mine for a bad weekend too, but the wise old saying is true-"Failure isn't falling but staying down" Glad we're back up-now let's get on with life! emoticon

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ELFITZPA 4/8/2009 10:14AM

    Accountability is a GOOD thing - I think facing what you know where the wrong things to do will only help you get back to doing the right thing. But don't beat yourself up about it. You're making a LIFESTYLE change, and we're all going to have "off" days. You'll lose another 100 pounds and still have an "off" day (or 3) now and then. What's important is that you're making forward progress over time. Good job getting back on track!

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JENSTD 4/8/2009 9:44AM

    Well, like you wouldn't have lost 190lbs if you let days like that set you back. I know you'll get back on track. Life happens. We have to learn to get past it! Do you think skinny people never binge or choose a bucket of Fried Chicken over a light salad sometimes?

I don't need to tell you get back on the horse...cause I know you're already back on. Keep it up! You inspire me to keep going!

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KROLES55 4/8/2009 9:27AM

    Today is a new day!


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DONEPAT 4/8/2009 9:24AM

    Well, Tony I have not been on lately, cuz I've had my nose in books, but my last day is tomorrow. You are NOT full of fail. You had a bad week. It happens. You did not lose 190 plus pounds by sheer luck. You worked for it. AND you take responsibility for your gain, which, you taught me to do. :P

So, Buck, up, and you can do this and all that. So can I. So can we all.
One week does not a failure make.
You are still awesome!


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CHRISTIEC73 4/8/2009 9:05AM

    Dust yourself off and keep going for the gold. Keep your eye on the prize.

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    if we didn't stray we wouldn't know how to get back on track. You owned up to it and you are back on track. You are doing so well. You have lost almost one of me. Keep on keeping on.

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/8/2009 7:31AM

    Hmmm. Hmmmmmmm.

So, why'dja do that? :) Okay, the little boy inside you wanted his pizza and fried chicken. Right. Dealt with that. Now moving right along ...

Hey, at least you DID stay on your feet most of the weekend - that's a bit of exercise right there. And if the weight is up right now, it'll also come back down as soon as you get yourself back on track. You're CLOSE to that 200-pound mark - ask yourself if there is something holding you back from hitting it ASAP. Is there something you're stressing about? Some notion of yourself that REQUIRES you to be heavier than 334 pounds?

I don't know, I'm just tossing out ideas here - there was definitely something that kept me above 200 for years - I still haven't figured out what it was, but it was big. Every time I got close to 202 or so, I'd suddenly go on a binge and wind up "safely" at around 210 or more. Sound familiar? Not really. You're only gonna do this ONCE, right? Not *every* weekend. :)

So, get those boots on, and get walking. Or riding. Or swimming - have you done much of that recently? It's another killer workout.

Just DO it. You know we're all waiting for weigh-in Friday ... 2 days away, MAKE those days count!


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TELERIE 4/8/2009 6:52AM

    I know you can do it, so do you. So venture out and DO IT! You're better than a couple of days without control. Hang in there and make fall-back plans for the next time, so you won't feel so pissed off at yourself. Glad you're back to tracking and in control, you're a great inspiration!

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    Hey Botzz

Stuff happens, you had a bad few days, but now you have kicked yourself in the rear and are back on the right track that got you to your 190 lb loss so far. You deserve it NEVER GIVE UP.

You can do it.!!!!!

Mike emoticon

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MSHOPPER63 4/8/2009 12:40AM

    WoW I just have to say losing 190 pounds is Awesome, you inspire me. Reading your blog and seeing how you took accountability for your actions this weekend only inspires me more that I can do this and if I have bad day report in! I wish you all the best on this journey, don't let the road bumps detour you.

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DEBIZINHA 4/8/2009 12:30AM

    I love today's blog. I love your honesty, it shows that you are human. That we make bad choices from time to time. The 80/20 rule fully applies here. You did not lose 190 lbs by accident.

Another great thing is how aware you are. Perhaps before you started this journey you probably would not even be phased by a few pieces of KFC and not drinking enough water.

You have come along way.

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**PRICELESS** 4/7/2009 11:35PM

    Alright!! You took responsibility for your actions, kicked your own & decided to do a 180 and get back on the right path! I'd call that Success!!

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    You got this - you just need to get back into your GOOD habits instead of the ones that sabotage you. SO DO IT!


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QUILTINGB52 4/7/2009 10:50PM've had your step back, now take several deep cleansing breaths and take two steps forward!! Congrats for only having four bad days, then recognizing the faults and getting right back on that wagon!!

One bad meal of processed meats (like ham) can make my scale jump 10-20# a DAY. Consider yourself lucky!! LOL

Keep on truckin ~ cuz YOU are so worth this healthy journey!!!


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WALKWITME 4/7/2009 10:30PM

    You Don't Drown By Falling In The Water You Drown By Staying There

(Unknown Author)

Before I Had Reached Goal Weight I Fell into a few of My Old Habits, I Beat Myself Up And Then I Moved On.

I Had To Self Talk Saying " I Can Do This"

"I Am Worth It"

Please Look At How Much Weight You Have Loss, Next Week After Weighing In Take This Time To Move On. You Can And Will Do This....


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LUCKY-13 4/7/2009 10:12PM

    I've had the same thing happen, and looking back at your blog where you lost weight tells me how it might have happened. Your back was injured and you weren't able to get the exercise you normally get, but you still lost weight. Happy dance! But, that old evil little voice of temptation started whispering in your ear, "Hey, you don't HAVE to watch what you eat ALL the time and you don't HAVE to exercise to get that weight off." Listening to that let the flood gates of heck open up and rain junk food down on you. Ugh!

Well, you know where you went wrong and one pattern I saw was that you let yourself get TOO hungry and I know how easy it is to blow a calorie count when that happens. I can get so hungry that I just don't care how fattening it is; just let me eat 'til I roll out of the chair!!! Ugh! Another bad visual! know how to get back on track. Your body might feel a slight jolt when you start drinking your H2O and green tea, but it's a good kind of jolt. Like giving your car premium. We're only human, so we're bound to fail every once in awhile, but the more often we fail, the harder we'll have to work, or we're bound to repeat history.


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AINTSKEERD 4/7/2009 10:07PM

    I feel your pain! When I have a day or two like that it just makes me so frickin' mad at myself. I'm glad you caught yourself and are back on don't let it happen again!

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PINK-PEONY 4/7/2009 10:07PM

    My mamma always said it's okay to fall, as long as you don't fall in the same mudhole twice...and be sure you wash up after you get up.

190 lbs is almost exactly much farther I need to go, and man, I am at the bottom of the mountain looking up. I am in awe. Bad couple of days or not, thanks for being proof that it can be done...and doing it doesn't require perfection!


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DENACARPER 4/7/2009 9:59PM

    WOW!! hey, the great thing about this is that you aren't giving up. Yeah, I know how you feel, you are so mad at yourself for losing control, but I know the old me would just give up and say - it can't be done, I'll never be able to do it, not the new me and not you, you have seen how far you've come - you know it can be done and you see what happens when you fail - you have to work twice as hard.

Just take it as a lesson learned, you have to reap what you sow and that means twice the work - one to get it off and the other to lose what you should have the last 4 days. Way to go for not quitting - you are well on the way to your success!!

keep the blogs coming!


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LKRMOM 4/7/2009 9:58PM

    Tomorrow is a brand new day! Pick yourself up by the boot straps and get back on that horse! You've proved to yourself that you are entirely capable of being healthy, now it's time to get back to it. You CAN do this. You WILL do this!


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LEAVY1213 4/7/2009 9:49PM

    OMGosh, were we together this weekend?! lol I did basically the same thing, mine was only Saturday, but let's just say I ate enough to gain 3 pounds! UGH!!!! I was soooo sick on Saturday night, all day Sunday and part of Monday. I certainly hope I learned my lesson. Sorry you had the same problems I did with eating this weekend. Let's kick some butt this week and pray for a loss (or at least not a gain) on Friday. Good luck this week, you can do it!!!

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ZIRCADIA 4/7/2009 9:45PM

    CUT IT OUT. You are better than this. You deserve better than this, and you KNOW better than this. Don't let those old habits out to play. Your body deserves to be treated with care. NOW that the tough love is over -- YOU CAN DO THIS. Just get back to doing what you KNOW how to do SO WELL and stop mucking around! :) You will be able to easily recover from this, you know what you did wrong. Maybe think about why? We talked about the KFC, but why all the trips back for food at home??? Do you need to get some gum to stick something in your gob to remind yourself that food is over for the day? Get that sweet taste without having to go back for sweet foods? Just trying to think of some things that help me. HANG IN THERE. *HUGS*

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190 pounds lost! a walk in the rain and some pictures to boot!

Friday, April 03, 2009

Last night I told my wife that if I stayed even with my weight this week that I have changed everything about my eating habits and health in general, let alone if I showed a loss. Changing ones life by making better food choices is a concept that has escaped me for many years but I think I got it this time around, I believe that just a small bit of success can go a long way where pushing someone to keep on keepin on with something, even through the not so good weeks. This week I have struggled a bit because of hurting my back early in the week so I couldn't exercise the way that I have been in recent weeks but hey! Friday is here and that means that I weigh in. First time on the scale told me 344.2 pounds, this is good news! second time on 344.0 pounds, third time was 344.2 again so that's what we will call it, 344.2 pounds which is a 1.2 pound loss for the week! with no exercise? how can that be? I have read all over the internet that you must exercise for hours per day and starve yourself! all joking aside I am very happy with the loss this week. This weeks loss brings me to a total of 190 pounds lost since starting and only 10 pounds away from having lost 200 pounds, That feeling is surreal to me. Here is my scale photo for the day as well as some things that weigh the same as me and as much as I have lost.

Fred Flinstone eat your heart out! would ya look at that scale drop!

An adult Striped dolphin weighs up to 344 pounds or 156 Kilos which is what I weigh currently.

Jenn from season 5 The biggest loser weighed in at 190 pounds by the finale, That is what I have lost so far!

Last night I did go for a walk, in the rain, and it was very nice to get out alone and walk in the dark with the light rain falling on and around me, I should probably say almost alone though. The walk was 1.5 miles and it took me 26 minutes so slightly better than 3mph and I said almost alone because there were little frogs all over the road! not something I am use to having grown up in a city, seeing trash, or the random stray dog maybe but not little frogs everywhere! I snapped a pic of one last night with my flashlight and cell phone.

This guy was about 3 inches long from nose to butt.

Over all I am pleased with this weeks scale result, especially because I have done next to no exercise besides a couple of walks. I am a mere 10 pounds from having lost 200 pounds and am enjoying things that I was letting pass me by just slightly over a year ago, Lots of people think that it will take too long to lose the weight, or that the amount of weight to lose is just too much to lose by eating correctly and moving more, including me at one point. If I had kept that way of thinking I would surely have been on my way to 600 pounds and maybe even death, look at it this way, do nothing and guarantee that the weight will stay attached to our bodies or choose to do something about it and it will come off, even if its slow, isn't slow better than not at all? if I had chosen to keep on the road that I was walking...wait no I couldn't walk very far back then, so if I had chosen to stay on that road I do honestly believe that it would have been short lived. We cannot stop the clock, time WILL keep going whether we chose to do something about our condition or not and there is nothing that we can change about that fact BUT we can change how we spend our time. Will it be spent shoveling piles of processed high calorie high fat junk into our pie holes while sitting motionless watching Doctor Phil or Oprah? or will it be spent living life to the fullest, eating properly and exercising moderately? I have made my choice, have you?

Grab a big glass of H2O and thanks for following.

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TRUSTYRUSS 4/6/2009 6:31PM


I am sat here, on my own, reading a script that is truly awesome..............

You, young man are what we all need, common sense, determination and a solid resolve that is beyond compare.............

I have lost the plot lately, that is common with me and my type, I was all but for giving up and looking for another excuse to stop this diet / change of life ...................

you talk so much common sense and give so much strength to others...... me, in particular

This is from the heart.................I take on board what you say and I will mirror your attituted and belief,

cheers for now

I will be quiet for a while........I need to sort out some mega gremlins in my life...............

I will look into your 'world' and enjoy your strength.

keep attacking




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CECE0330 4/6/2009 12:05PM

    Yet again.....Wow. emoticon I keep coming back to your page for inspiration, and I'm NEVER disappointed! Thank you for being a real, hard working individual, and reminding us all that surgery & other gimmicky quick fixes for weight loss that are so popular in our society are ridiculous compared to seeing and feeling the results of commitment and dedication. (Oh, and thanks for the Laughing Cow, which has become a favorite snack due to a blog of yours I read a while back. I guess snacks DON'T have to be sugary to be good! emoticon)

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TXHRT4U 4/6/2009 10:38AM

    Your doing GREAT! Keep it up :)

Have a blessed day,

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    Do you want to hear something random? I have met Jen and her partner from BL - I worked at the same camp they talked about. Crazy, huh? They were just campers when I worked there! I had Jen's little sister in my cabin!!

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LEAVY1213 4/5/2009 7:34PM

    WTG!! Keep up the excellent work!

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DEBIZINHA 4/5/2009 11:06AM

    4/4/09 - I have logged back into SP for the first time in months, at least 6 mos, to face up the fact that I am up another 10lbs. Ashamed by my lack of will power I find my way back here willing to try once again, I have nothing to lose right? Well , actually I have lots to lose.

Getting myself familiarized with the site once again I see: "BOTZZZ has lost 1 more lb" and I smiled. Today more than ever I needed to be reminded that there are ppl out there everyday that are doing what it takes to lead a healthier life and succeeding and so will I.

Today you inspired me NOT to give up & to actually feel proud to be back here finding my way back to a healthier me.

Thank you so much for sharing your story and Congratulations!!!


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DOGSNHORSES 4/5/2009 12:03AM

    190 pounds lost? That's amazing! A huge congratulations to you on your success! And I'm glad you enjoyed that walk in the rain-- it's one of my favorite things to do to relax and clear my head, although right now the rain is turning to snow and blowing 40 mph here in Iowa so I'll have to wait for my first rainy walk of the spring!

When I get discouraged by my small loss so far, I will think of you and your great success to date and gain a renewed sense that I can do this...

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    Congratulations on a job well done. You have earned every pound. I continue to be inspired by your success. I appreciate the hard truths that you conveyed in your blog. I needed to hear them. I am approaching only a 70 lb loss with so much more to go and it's already getting hard to fight for every lb.. I have never been able to get past that 70 number and am scared and just a lilttle discouraged this weekend.

Anyway, thanks again for your have done an AWESOME job!! Kudos to you as always.


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SWEETZMIX 4/4/2009 4:41PM

    OK I am still late...sO what...

emoticon I am telling ya, this healthy lifestyle stuff works wonders!! When the scale continues to move yet lack of movement, then that ought of mean something!!


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NATURALLYME126 4/4/2009 8:11AM

    That is so AWESOME Botzzz!!! Congrats on your success! Your blog was very interesting. I enjoyed reading it and learned some new things too. ;)

Have a wonderful weekend.

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AINTSKEERD 4/3/2009 11:59PM

    YOU! Got it goin' on! I am sooo proud of you. emoticon

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FORESTLITTLE 4/3/2009 9:38PM

    C*O*N*G*R*A*T*U*L*A*T*I*O*N*S has been an honor to follow you in your journey!!! My favorite picture thus far is the one of you sliding down the hill in the snow...such a pivotal moment-you are not just sitting there with sleepy eyes watching life go by through a are now awoken and joined the living BOTZZZ!!!!!!! ( I hope this makes sense!) C*O*N*G*R*A*T*U*L*A*T*I*O*N*S!!! :-)
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KAROUSELL46 4/3/2009 8:22PM

    Thats awesome!! You go boy! It feels terrific doesn't it? No stopping you now...Karen

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MATTBURR 4/3/2009 8:03PM

    You Rock!

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ANGELBLEU 4/3/2009 7:46PM

    you are doin it! hehe gotta love frogs we got them all over here in florida.. frogs and lizards lol! congrats!

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AAQUWAA 4/3/2009 7:24PM

    Wow thats fantastic, you are truly an inspiration! emoticonCarmen

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    OMG, 190lb loss is amazing. Congrats! You've worked hard for every pound lost that has gotten you here. You've changed your lifestyle and have motivated and inspired so many people. Thank you.

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SCIENCE_WRITER 4/3/2009 3:45PM

  Way to go! 190 pounds is a phenomenal accomplishment!

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ZIRCADIA 4/3/2009 2:26PM

    AMEN! The clock keeps ticking no matter what -- we can do something to better ourselves during that time, or remain stagnant (or even worse backslide). CONGRATS on only TEN POUNDS TO 200LBS LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/3/2009 2:15PM

    Congrats on keeping it moving. Hope everything is going better. I notice that it has been a little quiet on the meatball front.

Off to get my next glass of water.

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**PRICELESS** 4/3/2009 1:40PM

You are truly Amazing!! Not just for loosing the weight you're loosing, although that is spectacular!! But for motivating others, sharing your story, keeping w/ the positive attitude, snapping pictures of amazingly tiny frogs, taking time to look up things similar to your weight/loss & continually moving forward! You freaking rock & I'm so glad to have found your page!! Keep with it my friend, I'm almost as anxious as you, I imagine, for that 200 lb loss day!

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WRITER28 4/3/2009 12:31PM

  If Spark People doesn't put you on their 'front' page when you lose 200 pounds, I'll be angry!
I know you have a little bit more weight to lose to get to 200 pounds lost, but it will happen and it will happen before you know it!

I love reading your blog, it's so positive!


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TROPHYWIFE2B 4/3/2009 12:07PM

    Great job babe! We'll have a good active weekend to get our week started for next week.

Love ya,

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HANNALA1 4/3/2009 11:48AM

    Congrats on your dedication, weight loss, and positive attitude!

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/3/2009 11:40AM

  I love love love your attitude!!! Seems like you have really transitioned into the healthy lifestyle rather than the just trying to get to a weight and then eat crud again. Which is awesome because where you are at is where true longlasting results come in i am so not into yo-yoing anymore. 190 holy moly that is so awesome. you will be at -200 in a blink of an eye well almost that quick lol!

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TRICIA08 4/3/2009 11:38AM

    WOW! You are awesome!!! Just found your page while wandering through and I'm SO inspired! Congratulations on your loss and I look forward to watching!

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SIRIRADHA 4/3/2009 11:31AM

    Wow! Now, that's progress! I'm going to have to go back and read your page and some of your other blogs. You've really stuck with this. I'm a relative newcomer, just starting the program in mid-February.

I also wanted to tell you that the pictures are a nice bonus! I'm going to have to find an animal that weighs 166.5 for my blog!

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TELERIE 4/3/2009 11:05AM

    "I believe that just a small bit of success can go a long way where pushing someone to keep on keepin on with something, even through the not so good weeks." Well said! And so true!! I think that's as close to the "secret of weight loss" it's possible to come. To consistently keep on keeping on through rain and sunshine. And that's why we gotta be on the lookout for small (and big) victories everywhere!
Great job on the weight loss this week even with less exercise than normal. You rock as usual!! emoticon

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    botzz you're awesome dude i raise my glass to you emoticon water glass that is. i have found a way to cheat. my dad always told me you can't do two things at once. well i'm peddling my wife recumbent and typing with 1 finger. can't use the shift key very well. oh well. i'm getting fitness minutes and motivation reading sp pages at the same time.
you are making the most healthy choices in your life. i'm an rn and have taken care of gastric by pass pt's. ya they loose wt. but many of them don't learn to eat right and stretch out their pouch, even after going through all that pain and expense.
loved your salad. that's make so much more scent than having a 3 oz stomach pouch. Your my Hero. You go Bro

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WILLOW801 4/3/2009 10:42AM

    Amazing and inspiring......congratulations.

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WINDY_LEE 4/3/2009 10:39AM

    Thanks, I needed this today....I really do...keep up the good work.

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    Great insight today, I needed it too. :)

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SLMTRACE 4/3/2009 10:19AM

    Congrats!! 1.2 lbs with little to no excersize, and eating right! how awesome is that?! great job! you are soo close to 200 lbs that is just amazing! you are truely inspirational! ive said it before, but you should really publish your journey!
Hope you have a wonderful day!!

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SWEET_DREAMS 4/3/2009 10:10AM

    Congrats on losing weight while your exercise amount was limited this week!! As always your blog inspires me and brings a smile to my face.. thank you for that.

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CINCYDORA 4/3/2009 10:08AM

    Look how sleek and powerful that dolphin is! Seems like a good reflection of who you are. At least your blogs make it seem like your inside is that way.

Keep up the fight!

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BAREADER 4/3/2009 10:02AM

    Thank you, I needed that this morning. I was feeling sorry for myself.

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/3/2009 10:00AM

    AWESOME! So glad the scale went down again. And now, just 10 pounds from a HUGE milestone! Wheeeeee - we're waiting to see you take that one in your stride as well!


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WANTABEE6 4/3/2009 10:00AM

    Botzz.... A bid congrats. to you. I know where you are with the weight lost. It is a big deal to be able to dump 190# I would like to give you a big hi five and hugs.
I use to weigh in at 364# some 20 yrs ago. I gained back 40# through being lazy, I always hated exercise. Today is different An I know how and why if the weight comes off or gains come about. I choose to work at this today. Just like you are doing. Keep up the Great work and Push on till you meet your goal.... I'm rooting for you. Rejoice in today you deserve it. Hugs and Support Cathie emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 4/3/2009 9:58AM

    WOW! You are so awesome! If people are not inspired by you, then they are not human! You go BOY!!

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A walk, a salad and weigh in tomorrow.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Tomorrow I weigh in and since I did not post today I thought I would pop on and leave a later than normal post. This week I have had next to no exercise, in fact I only had a single walk this week but I did do some manual labor around the house so to say no exercise is not exactly true. There was the painting over the weekend and then this afternoon I spent out in the yard removing a brick patio on the side of my house, moving and stacking said bricks behind the house, I also removed some hideous fencing that was along the side of the house. I am kind of a fence snob because its what I did for work for a long time so I plan on replacing what I took down today with something proper eventually. because of the lack of exercise this week I kept my calories closer to 1500-1600 all week and tonight it came in even lower than that but there is still time so I will likely eat an apple before heading to bed, It is not raining currently so I may take a short walk after I finish this post.

I made a giant salad for dinner which consisted of 8oz iceberg lettuce, 4oz tomato, 3oz cauliflower, 3.5oz cucumber, 4oz roast chicken, less than a tablespoon of parm cheese and topped with Newman's own light honey mustard dressing and I am stuffed! Here's a look at it.

Not my best salad, BUT very yummy at any rate.

I honestly have no clue what the scale will say tomorrow morning but I hope it is kind to me, do I expect a loss? I don't know, I ate well all week but no exercise will likely either mean a low loss or a break even kind of week, I don't expect a gain and will be very surprised if I see one. Whatever that scale says in the morning I will have to accept and hopefully my back gets closer to 100% before too long because I can honestly say that I miss my bike rides and long walks, which reminds me, The sun is starting to go down and I want to get a walk in so I will end this post here and make sure ya pop on in tomorrow to see what happens with my weight. Thanks for following along and don't forget that H20!

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SWEETZMIX 4/3/2009 9:27AM

    Ok sO I am where is the weigh in blog?!? LOL

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SARAHS216 4/3/2009 7:42AM

    No exercise? Are you kidding? You've done tons of exercise - painting an entire room, moving stuff around, taking up a patio, moving bricks and removing a fence? That's all exercise in my book.

I predict a nice loss this morning!

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TRACYZABELLE 4/3/2009 2:13AM

    I love Salad! I will take a pic of my salad for tonight-- I will eat it with eiither sardines or a can of white tuna.. I always forget to take pictures of my creations...My daughter likes to create as well. Good luck on the scale!

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SLMTRACE 4/3/2009 12:30AM

    Good luck for tomorrow i bet youll have a loss!! i'll def try to check in tomorrow... but were moving, which i am super stoked about! hehe
have a great day!!

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    Good luck tomorrow - I'll be checkin in!

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BIGGIRL2082010 4/2/2009 8:57PM

    Hope the back is better soon - that's got to put a major dent in any attempt at exercise. But you did the smart thing and stayed slightly lower on calories - so I suspect, like you said, there's not much chance of a gain tomorrow.

We've got our fingers crossed for you - good thing weigh-in is tomorrow - do you *know* how hard it is to type with crossed fingers? :)

Good luck - and drink some more green tea before bedtime!


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LUCKY-13 4/2/2009 8:01PM

    I'll be thinking about you tomorrow! I'll be weighing in also, and I haven't been a really good girl this week. DH took me out to dinner tonight. Confession time: I ate tortilla chps and yummy fresh salsa (not too bad), then I had half a mushroom quesadilla and they went light on the queso for me, along with a side of black beans and white rice. It could have worse/better, but it was a nice dinner and I'm not going to ruin it by berating myself for it.

Your salad looks really yummy! Makes my mouth water. I haven't been able to digest lettuce for over six years, and it's been over three years since I was able to eat chicken. The group I co-lead is devoted to people who have this problem (gastroparesis), but I don't plan to go into details here.

Hope the scales are kind to ya', and that your back gets to feeling better real soon.


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A short mention for Tuesday.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I set a goal to not go over 1500 calories yesterday and came in at 1520 total so not too bad at all, This morning my back feels about 70% better so I will give it the entire day and decide whether I will ride my bike later tonight when that time comes. 1.75 gallons of fluid went down the hatch yesterday and I am working on my first half gallon of tea for the day as I type so hydration is happening. With any hope my back will feel peachy by tomorrow and I can start in on the cardio again, I am slightly worried that the lack of movement this week will cause me to not lose but that is to be seen.

This morning I have some errands to run but I wanted to get an update post in before my day swallowed up all of my time so there it is. I am on the way outside to squirrel proof a bird feeder that we bought for my daughter over the weekend before I leave so make sure that you get that H2O into your day, I may be back later with more of a post but in case I can't this shall be it.

Keep on keepin on and all that.

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TELERIE 4/2/2009 1:40PM

    Somehow I had become unsubscribed but that's all remedied now. Glad your back is better - take care of it!

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TRACYZABELLE 4/2/2009 3:02AM

    WOW that is a lot of fluid but you know what your body needs! You really stayed close to your target in calories too WTG! Feel better-- back pain is nohting to mess with! Take it easy!

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LUCKY-13 4/1/2009 10:54PM

    Sounds like you're doing great -- even with some pizza and beer! I'm glad you ate a piece for me! LOL

Hope your back feels better soon!


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MIRAPOI3 4/1/2009 7:50PM

    WTG Man!! Take care of your back!have a good one! emoticon

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GLORYTOGLORY 4/1/2009 9:32AM

  Glad you listening to your body definatly do not want to excercise till that back is better. Hope you feel betterr soon!

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ZIRCADIA 3/31/2009 5:15PM

    Glad your back is feeling much better, but don't go pushing it just cause you wanna get those calories burned!!! :)

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LEAVY1213 3/31/2009 5:07PM

    Gald you are feeling better, hope you are 100% tomorrow! :-) So how do you squirrel proof a bird feeder? We have a squirrel that gets to ours sometimes, I THINK we have an understanding that if he eats what is on the ground I don't bother him, but as soon as he goes up the pole to get in the feeder he gets run off (of course that is only if I see him! lol). I would love to just squirrel proof it so I don't have to chase him off when I see him breaching our trust! lol

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 3/31/2009 4:16PM

    Hope the back does get to feeling better.

I haven't started c25k yet. This weekend, my leg cramped up and then when I was playing ball with the kids, I bent over and pulled something else. The end of last week wasn't the best fluid wise so I'm sure that it is mostly that.

I'm hoping that a week of good hydration will fix my little red wagon.

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BONMACK 3/31/2009 4:03PM

    WTG on getting the fluids in, glad your back is feeling better. Sure makes a huge difference when you get as much water as you're supposed to, in everything. I can tell a serious difference in the way I feel when I don't make it.

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GRAMMABENJI 3/31/2009 1:16PM

    glad you are feeling better

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JUSTAGURL2335 3/31/2009 1:06PM

    Glad your back is feeling better! :)

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BIGGIRL2082010 3/31/2009 9:14AM

    Spring is here, the sun is shining, you're on a roll, man! :)

Keep going!


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CALICAVEGIRL 3/31/2009 9:02AM

    Is it even possible to completely squirrel proof a bird feeder?

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