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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Day 50 Reflections

There is a quote by Henry Rollins that says "Half of life is f***ing up the other half is dealing with it." I feel that statement holds true for me as far as my weight issue goes. I have moved onto "the other half" at this point. I know that I have changed the way I look at eating. I do not struggle to make sure I am eating right any more and I don't crave things like cake, or cookies or Pizza, well maybe pizza a little bit, But who can blame me? CT has some of the best pizza in the country as far as I am concerned. CA comes in last place for good pizza, wow as I typed that out I realized that I know where to get good pizza from coast to coast, and there you have the first part of the quote on the front end of this post. I now know that I have to do this, not only for my Wife and Children, but for Me. With the discipline of marine I have to look at this task, for its one of the biggest and most important tasks that I will ever have to complete. "Drinking it up here boss" like Luke says, I carefully watch what goes into my mouth and check in with myself and make sure its the right thing to do.


I can remember a time in my early 20's when I was much healthier but not slim by no means and Whoppers at Burger king were 99 cents and while waiting in line at the drive through with my brother, cousin and best friend, someone (I can't remember who) said "hey how many ya think we could eat" and my best friend said, "I dunno but if ya wanna try I'm buying" and it was on! when all was said and done I had eaten 8 whoppers, and I mean full on whoppers, none of this taking toppings off or anything. we all attempted it and only god knows how many we bought that day but the number of 8 is what went down my throat. that day falls into the "Half of life is..." section of my life, I know it was more like some young bucks having an I'm tougher than you contest and couldn't turn down a challenge, but man, 8 whoppers? "hey remember the time we ate all of those whoppers" is not as cool a story as it use to be before I was 500 lbs...

Anyways, let me get on with the intake etc etc etc for the 50th day. it was a good day and I was at 1245 cals for the day, and I did not get any exercise in at all for the day, my Father in law stopped by and had one of our "low calorie tacos" that we make so often and he got to play with the kiddos for a bit. it was a nice quiet evening because after dinner the kids bombarded him and I was able to get in an hour on my Guitar undisturbed. over all all is well and the keep on keepin on is hanging in there.

onto the menu.

02/19/2008

Breakfast
10:15 AM 1 banana 105
1 tbsp peanut butter 100
1 dannon light yogurt 60

Lunch
2:30 PM
1 can tuna 150
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 tbsp Miracle whip 35
2oz sliced tomato 10
crystal light 15

Dinner
6:00 PM
1/2 cup refried beans (3 tacos) 90
3 small mission white tortillas 165
1oz Kraft lite cheddar cheese 50
2 oz tomato 10
1oz lettuce 5
2tbsp red taco sauce 10
2 slices jalapeno 5
1 Gortons fish fillet 170
less than 1oz chopped onion 5

8:35 PM
8 oz Cantaloupe 80

9:00 PM
2 tspn honey in green tea 40

Grand total of 1245 calories for the day, I will with 100% certainty exercise today (Wednesday) because I actually feel guilty that I skipped it. we got a bit of snow last night, less than an inch, but its cold out so no walk for me so it will have to be the bike. either way I shall make it so. Thanks for following along with my trip to the half, and keep those comments coming, they help a bunch.

As Ever
Me

  
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MRSHONEYC 2/20/2008 6:01PM

    OH, I also got a CHERRY PIE - that's when they actually CARRIED cherry pies!

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MRSHONEYC 2/20/2008 6:00PM

    I wasn't heavy until after I got married and had kids - your story reminded me of 'one day, long ago' ... I was 10 in Cananda after my riding lesson I went to the McDonalds and waited for my mom. She'd given me money to buy lunch while I waited for her to show up. BACK THEN I was a toothpick. I remember I got 2 hamburgers, a large french fry (that was PRE super size!) and a chocolate shake. and, I ATE IT ALL! Today, I get a kids meal, minus the soda and I'm SATISFIED. Pretty amazing, huh?



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SCHNOOGLES 2/20/2008 4:16PM

    You are doing great! I am so proud of you!!!!! Keep up the good work. Glad you got some time on the guitar - "me time" is important.

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Realization

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Day 49

Things are going well. last night My wife took my mid month picture for comparison later on. I have been taking a picture twice a month, so every 2 weeks and I am photo shopping them into one large picture that can be compared. the picture from Jan 6th and the one from Feb 18th when compared there is a big difference. I am very happy with my decision to take the pictures because honestly I can't see as much difference in myself as the pictures depict. all of my "normal sized" clothing is too big at this point as well. Monday while cooking dinner my wife came into the kitchen and said "wow honey your swimming in that shirt" and I had not noticed it really so I took a look in the mirror and to my surprise, I WAS swimming in it! and this is a shirt that before Jan I would wear normally. I have to admit that I feel like a kid on Christmas when I see things like that. the over all feeling is one of accomplishment.

I have some heavy gallon jugs (the ones that I get when I buy my Arizona Green tea) and have been brewing my own tea at home. what I have come up with is 3 tea bags in a gallon jug with hot water, I put the lid on it and let it brew for a couple hours and when its still hot I take 1 peeled tangerine and drop the slices into the bottle and let it cool, place that in the fridge to further cool and when I want some tea I can just pour a glass, add 1 tspn of honey and I have a lightly flavored tangerine green tea, which is actually very good. most times I don't even put the honey in, it has a very light clean taste to it.

onto the menu for the day.

02/18/2008

Breakfast
7:00 AM
1 beet egg 70

9:00 AM
2 light wheat english muffins 200
2oz sliced tomato 10
1 tbsp Miracle whip 35

Lunch
12:00 PM
1 Dannon light yogurt 60

1:45 PM
1 can Italian wedding soup (which I have to say WOW! to) 200
1 pear 120

4:00 PM
1 boiled egg (beet egg) 70

Dinner
6:15 PM
2 Gortons fish fillets 340
3/4 cup cooked white rice 150
3/4 cup mixed frozen veggies 60
crystal light 20
1 pat butter 35

Grand total of 1370 calories for the day, this has become a lifestyle for me, it is no longer a "diet" I don't crave sweets, I don't miss eating a huge bag of chips, I don't miss eating a huge dinner with a big glass of soda. I can honestly say this is how I will eat from now on. Brave words from a guy thats barely 50 days into a life time of change eh? it is honestly how I feel about it though and I can say that the only thing that I do miss is Milk, I would drink a lot of milk before I started this but I am not craving it so I guess I can only say I miss it because I like it so much. My wife has followed suite and is eating healthy and losing weight by my side and my children are learning good habits so that they will not have to deal with something like this when they grow up. I woke up today feeling Calm and at peace with this decision and as stated I feel no pull to the dark side any more. This will be success.

As Ever
Me

  
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ANNINTENNESSEE 2/19/2008 10:23PM

    The tea you make sounds delicious! I am going to have to try to make it myself.

Way to go on your determination and life style changes! You inspire me!

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MRSHONEYC 2/19/2008 9:36AM

    I agree - you may not see the changes day to day, but the photos, side by side --- you can NOT argue with that!!!!
KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!


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Skin surgery worries

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Day 47

I completed my 7th week of this change today and am seeing results. I mean actually seeing them! I am extremely excited about that. I had a meh day last night and this morning (Sunday) because I am thinking about having to get an excess skin removal surgery. it is something thats bothering me more and more. the fact that I have to get a surgery (most likely) is maddening enough, stack the fact that its going to cost me as much as its going to is the icing on the cake so to speak. so with that said I had a bit of a hiccup as far as the excitement goes. it is gone for now because theres nothing I can do about it so why worry about it right now.

I have decided to pick up the pace this week and see what happens, I will not change the intake at all other than not eating something "just to hit 1500" but the exercise is going to be stepped up. meaning riding the bike on weekends and possibly 2 times a day and trying to find as much as I can do to get more movement into my day. walking in addition to bike work when weather permits etc etc etc. I really think I need a heavy bag for my basement. I use to work out on one before I was injured and now that my back seems to be feeling a bit better I want to incorporate the bag into the day again, I have been looking on Craigslist to see if I can find one free or on the extremely cheap, I will keep looking.

onto the menu..and I will be posting the recipe for the "Beet eggs" in a later post.

02/16/2008

Breakfast
11:00 AM
2 boiled eggs (beet eggs) 140
8 wheat Ritz crackers 112
1oz Vermont sharp cheddar 110

Lunch
3:45 PM
1 can progresso soup 120
2 slices light rye bread 80
2oz sliced tomato 10
1 tbsp Miracle whip 35

Dinner
6:45 PM
6oz deli turkey breast 300
3 slices whole wheat bread 210
3/4 cup veggies 55
1 1/2 tbsp Miracle whip 55
1 dill pickle 5

10:45 PM
1 Dannon light yogurt 60

Grand total of 1292 calories for the day, I resisted making a giant bowl of popcorn during the movie last night and had a light yogurt right before we started it. the movie was ok, other than the woman (Jody Foster) that had never in her life seen violence suddenly runs into every evil man in NYC after her initial run in with some thugs. 6 of 10 score from me, Wify liked it better, she says 8 of 10. I also wanted to thank the 2 people that sent me personal emails yesterday after my post with the skin concern. I appreciated the time you took to write me.

As Ever
Me

  


Weigh in day! 5 more lbs gone!!!!

Friday, February 15, 2008


This Kawasaki ZRX1200R Weighs in at 491lbs

Day 45 Weighing in

Day 45 went well, I had 1495 calories and my pops came by for a visit, he didn't mention either way if I looked as if I had lost weight, it was nice to see him. the eating went good and I felt good, though I skipped exercise all together because he was here, and if I am being honest I was bad with exercise all week, I only rode the bike 2 days and that was it, I am a little upset at myself for that. it will not happen again, I almost feel like I have become too comfortable with this and I am not working as hard as I can be because of it, that will not happen any more either. I plan on working out hard this week to see if theres a difference. I took it easy this week and I kept my calories as close to 1500 as I could every day and did not have as much Green tea as I have been. where as before last week I was randomly having 1200-1500 calories jumping around, drinking at least 32 oz of green tea per day and working out hard. even with all that said, I am a close to 500lb guy eating 1500 calories and exercising moderately (this week anyways) there should still be a loss. keeping the calories at a steady 1500 was on purpose, drinking less tea was accidental and less exercise was not being committed and I wanted to just admit that so I can fix it. I feel that the random calories per day ranging from 1200 to 1500 helps keep the body guessing so i will return to that tactic. exercise will be stepped up, and theres 3 gallons of green tea made in the fridge. all of this probably has you thinking "hmmm what was his weigh in if hes talking like this" welp...

I woke up this morning (Friday) and was thinking to myself "think light" I came down stairs and hopped on the scale and it read anywhere between 490.8 to 491.4 so we shall call it 491lbs which is a 5 lb loss since last Friday. somehow I am disappointed with that number, crazy right? I mean thats a 5 lb loss in a week! but I know that I slacked on the exercise so I am annoyed at myself. I should be happy but I am not. and its my own fault because I know that I didn't work as hard this week as I have been. I also think not checking in a couple times during the week on the scale can be why I slacked. oh well, another week down and another 5lbs lost :).


so with that I give you the menu for the day.

02/14/2008

Breakfast
10:00 AM
1 banana 105
1 tbsp peanut butter 100

Lunch
1:30 PM
1 boiled egg 70
1 hebrew national hot dog 45
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 tbsp Miracle whip 35
crystal light 20

2:15 PM
8 wheat ritz crackers 112
1oz Vermont sharp cheddar 110

Dinner
6:30 PM
3oz steamed Broc 30
5.5oz roasted chicken 303
Green salad 50
3 tbsp lite Cesar dressing 135
crystal light 20
2 slices pickled beets 10

9:00 PM
1 Zone perfect protein bar 210


Grand total of 1495 calories for the day, the plan will change starting today (Friday) NO slacking on the bike and ride in the am, NO eating something just to make up the calories, DRINK all of the 32 required oz's of Green tea per day, and last but not least NO FEELING BAD because it was "only" 5lbs, 5lbs is a great number! I just really wanted to hit the 480's today :( lol VERY wishful thinking as it turns out.

As Ever
Me

  
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MRSHONEYC 2/15/2008 9:13AM

    FIVE POUNDS IN ONE WEEK! And you got 'lazy' on us? JUST TEASING!
Hey, that 'keeping the body guessing' is called Calorie Cycling and once you hit a plateau its a great way to get things shaken up. BUT when I first heard about it, I looked back on my tracker and found that I HAD been calorie cycling, unknowingly!
You are doing GREAT! KEEP UP the good work and now that you've admitted to not giving it your all and knowing that I'm out here 'watching', that ought to give you a little 'jump start', right???
Have a GREAT WEEKEND!
((HUGS))

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Cadbury eggs and Valentines day insert

Thursday, February 14, 2008


Day 44

Happy Valentines day to everyone! another reason to spend money on recycled paper pressed into cards and buy pounds of cheaply processed chocolate wrapped in red cellophane. I did have a show down with an 8 pack of Cadburys creme eggs at the store where I bought some cards. they stared me in the face and in sequence the little gold wrapper chicks on the packages all looked at me and I swear I heard them whisper "ahhh there he is, we knew you would come for us" but I did not buy the colorful foil wrapped evil, I simply walked away and the eggs all sighed together when they realized they would not be bought. I rounded the corner only to be faced with a frog with a wig on that was singing a Beyonce song holding a heart, I thought to myself WTF is that about, and then more chicks on an end cap. alas I resisted again and the eggs shall remain on the shelf. I won that battle and the creamy little eggs can stay on the shelf with the Beyonce frog.


The forty fourth day of the second month was a good one as far as intake went, 1491 total calories in, and extra exercise to boot because of the snow, I have been making sure I get as close to 1500 as possible lately by eating carrots to make up the numbers. my chest is a bit achy lately, I think its all of the push ups, I probably on any given day do 60-100 push ups through out the day, because of the soreness I am going to take a few days off with the push ups and see if it goes away.

I have been brewing my own green tea at home for a while now and I have started sweetening it with honey instead of sugar, the honey makes it so much better than the sugar and is only 20 calories per tea spoon.


Onto the Menu for the day.

02/13/2008

Breakfast
8:45 AM
1 banana 105
1 tbsp peanut butter 100
16oz green tea w/ 1 tsp honey 20

9:15 AM
1 Dannon light yogurt 60

Lunch
2:30 PM
1 Gortons fish fillet 170
1 cup cooked white rice 200
1 pat butter 35

Dinner
6:15 PM
1/2 cup refried beans (3 tacos) 90
3 small mission white tortollas 165
1oz Kraft lite cheddar cheese 50
2 oz tomato 10
1oz lettuce 5
2tblsp All Natural Salsa 10
crystal light 20
sliced Jalapeno 5
less than 1oz onion 5
3/4 cup canned corn 120

8:00 PM
8 Wheat Ritz Crackers 112
1 oz Vermont Sharp Cheddar 110

8:30 PM
4 oz of baby carrots 54
1 tbsp Ceasar Dressing 45

Grand total of 1491 calories for the day, pretty good day for the intake. I have been giving thought to having to get a surgery for extra skin removal lately. I don't like the idea of it but it would seem that it is going to be something I will have to do, more to come on that later. hope everyone has a great V day!

As Ever
Me

  
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MRSHONEYC 2/14/2008 9:26PM

    I am SO ROTFLMAO at your VERY VIVID description of those EVIL CREAMY EGGS! AND SUPER HIGH 5 on RESISTING that HUGE temptation!!!!! (((((HUGS!!!!!))))) You're are WONDERFUL! And, I love the picture of the chained heart! I hope you had a great Valentines Day!

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