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Weigh in, Yoga, and a challenge issued!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Weigh in has come once again and getting right to the point I weighed in at 352.2 pounds which is a pound lighter than my lowest weight and four pounds less than last Friday. Is this a four pound week? or a one pound week? doesn't matter how I count it as its a loss! one pound less than my lowest weight so indeed the lightest I have been in many years and that is in fact the point so I am delighted this morning.



This Suzuki weighs in at 352 pounds like yours truley!

I rode my bike last night for 17 minutes and then came downstairs and did a 15 minute Yoga session off of one of Wifys DVD's and I have to admit that it took me by surprise at what ittook to make it through the whole segment. My shoulders were tired, my back was stretched, the front of my legs were feeling it at one point and I do recall cussing under my breath at the woman on the screen at one point "C'mon lady I'm 350 pounds here!" I do believe that I will be adding this segment of her dvd to my bike riding days workout. The Yoga was a good way to come back down to a nice easy pace and relax a bit all at the same time, As I get comfortable with this 15 minutes maybe I will add length to what I am doing and start doing Yoga more seriously. I give all of you that do yoga huge props today because I honestly have always been that guy thinking "now how can that be a workout?" but after doing my measely 15 minute routine which I am sure I was not in perfect form I see exactly how it can be considered a workout!

In yesterdays post I mentioned a challenge for this weeks weigh in post so here it is, for every comment that gets left on this post (on my blogspot @ zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/ ) today before midnight tonight saying that a glass of H2O was consumed I will ride an additional 2 minutes on my bike ride Saturday 02-21-09. So, here is your chance to make a fat man work for his weight loss! sound off on this post and we both win, I get more movement for the day and you get a tall glass of wetness to help keep you hydrated.

That will bring to an end another weigh in post and don't forget to check out the poll on the left sidebar while you are reading along today, Thanks for the support and don't forget that water!

As Ever
Me

  
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GIANT123 2/23/2009 7:39PM

    thanx botzzz I have been reading your blog since about june of last year and have been following faithfully. Just knowing we all battle the same problem makes me understand better what we deal with everyday. So anyway since january 1 2009 when I finally got serious. I have lost about 50 pounds when I started at 400 pounds. Thanx for your blog because it has helped. Thanx again

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TRECECOOKS 2/22/2009 7:44PM

    Congratulations!! As always, your success is an inspiration; thanks!!

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MESACHICK 2/21/2009 5:22AM

  You

are

A W E S O M E ! ! ! ! ! ! !

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/20/2009 10:49PM

    Just got a glass of water . . .

Nothing more satisfying than helping you on one of your challenges . . .

Congrats on the weight loss.

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TRACYZABELLE 2/20/2009 7:27PM

    Awesome release of weight! YOu rock!

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ZIRCADIA 2/20/2009 12:47PM

    WOOHOO on new low point!!! ON to your ZEUSMEATBALL blog.

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/20/2009 10:57AM

    Yoga is *way* tougher than it looks - and if you explore the different varieties, you'll find that some of them (ashtanga yoga, for example), really burn a LOT of calories, because together with holding the poses for several seconds, they also include explosive movements, similar to plyometrics.

Love your challenge ... almost tempts me to go post a comment on your blogspot blog ... :)

Cheers,
Maya


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JADEDINVASION 2/20/2009 10:00AM

    I hear ya about the yoga work out. I try to do yoga at least once a week and it KICKS MY BUM. o lord.

I've also started doing some pilates and ya, same thing I'm cursing the lady when trying my hardest to get my heals over top of my head lol.

Only thing that sucks is that when you log it on the fitness tracker you only burn like 200 cals or something. Seems like a cop out when you sweat like a mo-fo while trying to twist your body in unnatural positions.


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*MADHU* 2/20/2009 9:47AM

    emoticon glass of H2o down !

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ROUSEHEAVY 2/20/2009 9:46AM

    WOW!! ur too awesome!!! keep up the good work!!! emoticon

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A Friday challenge and maybe a video.

Thursday, February 19, 2009


Twinkle twinkle little star how I wonder what you are, I am The guy at the wheel after watching it plow uncontrolled through the corn field for far too long. Having control back is a good feeling and one that would not have been appreciated as it is if not for the stint away from the controls, and what I mean is that I am back. I look at photos of myself from a year ago and honestly cannot remember looking that way to my own eye, of course I can remember the struggles, of course I have the closet of 6XL shirts and size 56 jeans to remind me but I look at those old pictures and cannot remember seeing myself that big when looking into a mirror. I am back, the me that was there 10 years ago, the me that even though I was/am heavy I am not missing out on anything and then I think about how 265 pounds will feel, will I look back at pictures of me now and think "wow I was big!" or will I look back and think about how I was in control at this weight, to be found out I guess.

February has brought me an odd month where weight loss is concerned, this could be for many reasons, I have been sick, I upped my calories for a short time, ships were stationed in port for a bit and I had a weekend "binge" in the beginning but as of this morning I am still up from my lowest weight of 353 by a pound or two 19 days into this shortest of the months. I have in fact upped the exercise this week with some walking (five out of the last 7 days I have included walks into my day) and my fluid intake has been on par as well as keeping within my 1700 calorie limit besides last night when I did not weigh the Doritos that I had with my Subway for dinner, I know I know Doritos bad veggies good but they ARE my weakness. Over all this week is a good one but I do need to stay focused if I am to keep on moving in a downward direction with the weight loss.

The weather has shifted back to that of a winter tone dropping some ice and slush on us again last night, it should be warming back up by the end of the weekend but for now the bike will have to be my cardio outlet for a couple of days which brings me to a comment that was left by Joanne this morning where she mentioned a weekly challenge this week. I accept! and for every comment that I get on tomorrows weigh in post before midnight Friday I will ride 2 extra minutes on top of my normal 20 minute ride on my bike on Saturday, So once again all of you that read my blog have a chance to say that you were a part of making me thinner! the catch? there is always a catch, you have to drink a glass of H2O and say so in your comment for it to count towards the minute count for the challenge.

I also want to mention that I have been toying with the idea of posting videos up on my Friday weigh in posts (on my blogspot) for at least a few months and once I get my laptop situation taken care of I may do just that, I have a camera that can take digital video with sound and thought it would be a fun idea that could add a new layer to my blog. I am adding a poll on my blogspot to see if You guys want a video.

That concludes the latest episode of as the fat guy turns, sound off with a comment on tomorrows weigh in post and make a fat man sweat! a lovely visual I know but it is what it is and maybe I need the push. Perhaps a video is in the near future and a voice to go with the face of Zeusmeatball oh my! Thank you for all of the support that you leave and don't forget that glass of H2O that you deserve for reading this far into the post!

As Ever
Me

  
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DONEPAT 2/22/2009 10:46AM

    Hey
I'm late to the party, but I'll have to check out your blogspot more often.
Hope this finds you feeling better. Give your body a chance to bounce back.
Hugs
Patty

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TRACYZABELLE 2/20/2009 3:22AM

    I will be sure to look for your 2 minutes of fame, lol! I am not sure what it is about the winter months but I think we all slow a little, I know I do at least! I am sure that you will be back on the horse that threw you-- being sick did not help at all! Keep on plugging away!
TracYZ

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/19/2009 7:18PM

    Oooh. Yes, yes, we want videos. I'll even go over and watch 'em on your blogspot home instead of just sitting here and missing out! :)

Cheers,
Maya


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TRECECOOKS 2/19/2009 3:49PM

    I am drinking my H2O so that you'll have 2 more minutes to shine, Tony!! Make it a great one!

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ZIRCADIA 2/19/2009 3:27PM

    THAT SOUNDS FUN! DO THE VIDEOS! :D Anyway. We all have slow patches in time where we aren't 100% focused toward the downward swing, you are getting refocused and it will be fine. Plus I definitely understand what you mean about not looking that big to your own eye. I remember that I was bigger... but I still didn't think that big. And even when I look at pictures that I LOOKED AT AT THAT TIME. Back then I didn't think I looked as big in the pictures as I do now. I guess it really is that all important PERSPECTIVE on things. I'm actually getting used to myself as a smaller person. It's weird, but good.

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Who are you?

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


Perception is an amazing thing, sometimes two different people can see the exact same situation completely differently. At 534 pounds I was miserable, at that weight the whole world was looking at me every minute of every day even inside my own home, whether this was true or not is arguable but none the less. Now at 355 pounds that focus is no longer on me in my mind, I am part of the "normal crowd" albeit I am on the large side of that graph I do not feel like I have a beacon on my head along with a giant neon arrow pointing at me assuring that every person in the area is staring at me, confidence is at its height currently and there is really no way to drag me down. The other side of that coin is that at 534 pounds I was inside my house more than I am now so really who was "staring" at me? and at 355 pounds I AM still usually one of the bigger gentlemen in the crowd, the difference is where I am at inside my head. I know that I am eating healthy, I know that I exercise regularly, I know that just a year ago I was much heavier and that leaves a great amount of positivity floating around the air in my general vacinity.



Over this weekend My wife and I had dinner with her sister and father, he was telling a story about a seminar that he went to and how an episode of babylon 5 used the same concept in the story line, long story short Jack the ripper was given the chance to redeem himself if he was able to find the saviour of the universe, so he cruised around the universe for thousands of years asking people "who are you?" and apparently shocking them sometimes to death until they answered correctly, or something along those lines according to my father in law, I have never seen the show, I don't think my father in law was being shocked at his seminar but the question in his story caught my attention. Who are you? I am the man that has control of his own life again, But who are you? I am in charge again after being relieved of the reigns for far too long, But who ARE you? I AM Zeusmeatball! but WHO ARE you!! ok I missed the whole concept of what my father in law was talking about because of the children and if it was Mr. Ripper I may have been shocked to death but my point is that it made me think about who I am now compared to when I was extremely over weight.

True enough I am the same person but I do not feel like the same person, I am Me again, I have the option to make the decisions again based not on the fact that I could not walk for the 20 minutes that it would take to make that walk to the broken bridge so I have to make up an excuse as to why I did not want to go, but based instead on the fact that I WANT to go see the broken bridge so I go, I have my life back.

Onto some of how my week has been going, I have eaten no more than 1700 calories per day for the past few days and have walked a lot this week, my wife has been coming with me on the walks and I have to admit that I enjoy the company. We walked 1.8 miles last night in 30 minutes which brings us to about 3.4 mph which isn't too bad for a walk. The scale is starting to come down again and I am approaching my lowest weight again as of this mornings jump on the scale, ships have left port and hopefully the shipping lanes stay open from here on out. If I can get back to 353 pounds for this Friday I will be happy with that as I have been hovering a few pounds higher than that for the past week and frankly I need to see it below 353! We are expecting snow this afternoon so back to the bike for movement today which is ok because I haven't ridden it for a week because the weather has been cooperating and walks have been on the plate.

Over all it has been a good week where movement is concerned, the ships have sailed and the weight seems to be moving again, I am looking forward to Friday for weigh in and have a feeling that I will meet the 353 mark again if not go below that weight. Thanks for following along and its time for that glass of H2O so get on up and grab some.

As Ever
Me

  
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TRACYZABELLE 2/19/2009 6:22AM

    It is a daily struggle but we can do it. Moving is so very important to our success! I definitely neeed to move more!

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SQUIRRELLYMOM 2/18/2009 6:22PM

    I'm glad things are getting back on track with you.
Your posts motivate me to blog. Maybe I'll make an attempt at it.
Linda

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TAMMIE1006 2/18/2009 3:37PM

    it's amazing how we can "lose" ourselves and not even know it - it's a fabulous journey back to ourselves and discovering all the great things about us and the things that we can do!!


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ZIRCADIA 2/18/2009 3:21PM

    :) I know the feeling of, a new person, but still the same person, but more ME. I feel like I'm free to be more of my insides instead of feeling like I have to compensate in some way for my outsides. I don't think my outsides were really a physical limitation for me for most things, but I still felt socially in some way barriers were there that I feel are gone now. Anyway.

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ABAZOODAY727 2/18/2009 1:39PM

    I am simply going to say THANKS. Thank you for anotherthought provoking insite into myself. It all goes back to the Little Engine That Could. "I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN!!!"

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/18/2009 1:38PM

    You are . . .

A man among men, an inspiration, an amazing person, and a shrinking meatball.

Keep it up my friend.

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MESACHICK 2/18/2009 1:10PM

  Totally profound! I love it!!

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**PRICELESS** 2/18/2009 12:34PM

    What a fantastic blog. It inspires me to marinate on that question....Who Am I??
....And as Maya pointed out....What Do I Want??
Thanks!!

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TRECECOOKS 2/18/2009 12:32PM

    As always, a thought-provoking post. I have no idea who I am, or (more to the point) what I want. Nor do I know who/what I want to be when I grow up. . .

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SNEAKYGREG 2/18/2009 11:56AM

    The Who asked that same question...hmmmm.... I may need to answer that one

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/18/2009 11:24AM

    "Who *are* you?" ... the OTHER question on Babylon 5 was: "What do you want?"

Asking those two questions over and over and over REALLY brings us to understanding what we're doing on earth! :) It's a scary pair of questions, one that takes a lot of intestinal fortitude to answer seriously and thoroughly. And well worth answering, as you've found.

We may not change much outwardly as time passes, but that inner journey is all that really matters - and you're at a GREAT place now!

Keep it up!

Cheers,
Maya


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Doing everything right and nothing is right? Discipline wins the day.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


What does a fella do when everything is being done right and the results are less than stellar? How does one stay focused in the face of back tracking progress? When every duck is in that row standing at attention and yet things just aren't going in the direction that they should, what does the fat man do? He stays determined, and knows that the discipline that is being expressed will be what wins in the end, That is what is needed and is what will be given. With all of that said let me splain what I mean, Friday I weighed in at a higher amount than the previous week but things were not optimal as far as intake goes, I was toying with upping the calorie range and I was sick with a chest cold. Friday I was feeling well enough to start walking and I have walked 3 of the last 4 days anywhere from 1.6 miles to the longest walk which was 2.5 miles and found the walks to be helpful in how I felt, my calories have been with the exception of Valentines day on par and under 1700 per day, Valentines day I indulged in 2 small cup cakes that the kiddos made, I have been drinking my gallon per day green tea and then another half to three quarters of a gallon of water on top of that. Something is amiss with the ships leaving port in regular intervals and I cannot figure out why, here are my reasons for being confused with this. I drink at the least 1 & 1/4 gallons of green tea/water per day leaning more towards 1 & 3/4 gallons of fluid, in the last week I have eaten a lot of veggies and fruit, an average of 2 apples, an orange, a cup of veggies at dinner (green beans, corn or peas) and I have been eating raw cauliflower by the head, multigrain breads and cereals every day along with taking benifiber twice per day so I know that hydration and or fiber is not an issue, yet hitting the little boys room is not happening on a regular basis, if anyone has any suggestions I am ALL ears at this point.

With walking in mind I have tracked a 2.9 mile route with Gmaps which will be the track that I start walking soon, it may be a challenging route because of the hills on half of the walk, and I mean some very steep hilly parts but the way I see it is that the hills will make it more of a workout and thats not a bad thing when you have about 80-90 pounds to lose. I have come up with a workout schedule for myself which will be, walking and riding the bike on alternating days building up to walking every day while riding every other day in preperation for me starting the C25K program. Because of my weight I want to ease into the C25K thing instead of hitting it hard and fast and risking hurting myself.

Over all things are right where they should be besides the fact that I seem to be stopped up and not losing weight currently which I guess means that everything is not where it should be! My wife seems to think that its because I am/was sick this past week and then everything will be back to normal soon enough which will I will have to wait to see I figure. I still have not replaced my laptop so image-less my posts shall remain for a short time more until I can get a new one, for now I am using a borrowed computer with bare bones programs on it. Until tommorow thats the word on the street, get on up and grab that glass of H2O, Your body will thank you for it, and of course thanks for following along.

As Ever
Me

  
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JLEE123 2/18/2009 11:06PM

    Coffee, a smooth muscle relaxant, has helps in the shipping department. emoticon

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TRECECOOKS 2/18/2009 12:30PM

    It is so comforting to know that you occasionally struggle with the same things the rest of us do.
I am sure by now that all is on its way to being well. God bless, me

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OHITZJUSTME 2/18/2009 9:23AM

  Aim for at least 4 fruits a day and a pound of raw and a pound of cooked, you'll be amazed.

http://www.drfuhrman.com/R>

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DONEPAT 2/18/2009 8:50AM

    You're doing great.
Um, your wife is right You have not been as active as usual, and your body has been through a strain. It may take time to get back to normal.
If you go to Walgreens- check out acidophilus with bifidus tablets, or also known as probiotics. They keep your insides healthy- including mucous membranes, and stuff- and also your gut. It's the same healthy bacteria that's in yogurt. I've been taking those for about a year, - follow directions on the pkg. You'll find this will help things move along - along with improved immunity to colds, etc. (at least for me).

Feel better!
Patty emoticon

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SQUIRRELLYMOM 2/18/2009 1:42AM

    I've been taking 4-1000 mg Omega 3 fish oil capsules daily and I can honestly say, they keep a person regular.

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MESACHICK 2/17/2009 7:09PM

  Yo :-) Sometimes juice helps to "unstop"...particularly OJ. Give it a whirl.

Glad you are starting to feel better! So sorry about your computer!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/17/2009 3:22PM

    Regarding the ships. you might be getting too much fiber. Perhaps you need to schedule a regular piece of grease (a cheeseburger with non-lean ground beef comes to mind) or maybe take a laxative on a day you are going to stay around the house. One of the tips says that our body gets used to what we do to it and we are forced to change our routines up. Maybe that is what it is time for.

Off to shoot some water . . .

l8r

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ZIRCADIA 2/17/2009 3:04PM

    I have nothing useful to say other than maybe wifey's right, and hopefully so. Hang in there!!!

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TRACYZABELLE 2/17/2009 2:34PM

    I think we are all entitled to be in a funk for a bit but we must reember to get out of it and back on track. We are allowed to celebrate as long as we cover the indulgence! You are awesome and have an awesome partner to keep you on track! GO TONY GO!

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_RAMONA 2/17/2009 12:17PM

    Hey there, Tony! I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Everyone is likely right... being sick, not moving as much, even the fact that you are transforming your body... some people manifest changes in the bowels more than others. It should straighten itself out... and definitely DON'T go the laxative route. One would think all the fluid you drink would wash anything out. The suggestion of adding more healthy oil to your diet is good one... ground flax seed is great... and it tastes good... nutty.

I'd like to offer an observation on the fibre itself... first of all, if you're not tracking fibre, start, and see where you're at. I was SHOCKED at how low my fibre really was even though I was eating really well... I don't eat refined anything. Men need around 35 grams a day. Secondly, it may be the Benefibre itself that is causing the problem. I supplement fibre because I have IBS and my fibre needs to be off the charts for my body to function well. I was excited to see the development of Benefibre... I started supplementing when the only option was powdered metamucil in water... YUCK!!!!!! However, the Benefibre actually gummed me up, and slowed everything way down, creating the opposite problem. Maybe try Metamucil caplets. This is what I use, and things just move right along! LOL! The two supplements source their fibre from very different types of plant matter, and I believe different bodies respond differently to the two. When did you start using Benefibre? Was it around the time you first started noticing some issues with your shipping traffic?

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SWEETZMIX 2/17/2009 11:18AM

    Dude wifey is right. I was feeling better on Sunday and everything was back in motion..hehe When I am sick no matter what I eat no ships leave port either. Once I start getting better is when everything starts going back to my norm!! So no biggie my friend, get well and watch everything will be back to normal.

I wouldn't take a laxative or anything like that yet. NOPE just wait until you are a 90% and things should fall into place.

BTW SneakGreg's comment is sO true..LMAO

Comment edited on: 2/17/2009 11:19:25 AM

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SNEAKYGREG 2/17/2009 10:52AM

    I have been sick the last few days and had similar issues... trust me it all comes out in the end emoticon

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/17/2009 9:39AM

    Okay, that's gotta be NO fun. :(

I don't know if it will help, but really try adding in some nuts and "healthy-for-you" oils like olive oil. Your body needs a little fat to help expel all the gunk.

Take that with a grain of salt. You're eating VERY healthy, and drinking plenty of liquids, so the "normal suspects" aren't to blame ... your wife may be right that it's just because you're ill, though.

Talk to your doctor as well if this continues - you _may_ need a laxative if the build-up is getting bad. :(

Hope something helps!

Cheers,
Maya


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SUGARFREEAK 2/17/2009 9:32AM

    Hmm,maybe your wife is right? My bowels were confused for a time. The fiber is doing its job now..I wish I could down that many fluid ounces. Good luck and yes Discipline wins the day!

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Its my blog and I'll cry if I want to.

Friday, February 13, 2009


See that wagon over yonder? yep I fell off of it last night. between being sick, and some other things going on it was easier to grab a pizza for dinner yesterday which wouldn't have been all too bad but it didn't stop there. This blog is about staying honest for me so thats how it will go down, I will just list the foods, this is not for the faint of heart! My day started out well enough and by dinner time I had eaten a total of 855 calories and with the fact that I was going to go back to 1700 yesterday I was left with 845 for the remainder of the evening. The bottom line is that I let stress (unrelated to weight loss) get to me and said screw it, lets order a pizza, and that we did. 20 minutes later a bacon pizza was in my kitchen and I ate 5 slices, that was NOT a typo, 5 slices! granted they were small slices and maybe 2 made up a single slice of a New York style pie but that is no excuse! admittingly not my finest moment, but like I said this blog is about putting it out there for me. As the evening progressed I found myself wandering around the kitchen and grabbed a cereal bar, then another so now on top of the pizza there are two cereal bars tossed down my gullet. Hey Mister Meatball thats not all that terrible you did have 845 calories and we are all human right? wrong! it was honey comb time, yep 2 bowls of honey combs! (3 cups worth) see how the snow ball happens? ah ha but we are not done yet, I haven't told you about the M&M's or the Valentines chocolate that finished the buffet off! yes I had a handful of M&M's and a single chocolate out of a Russel stovers Valentine heart. The bottom line is that ball thats rolling across the playground, yep it was me that dropped it, I will not beat myself up over this but, it is my friends a binge. Stress eating, emotional eating, or maybe just a fat guy on the loose whatever you call it this is NOT how I need to be eating to maintain a healthy life.

Weigh in reflected the smorgasbord as well, I am up 3 pounds, the scale told me to get the hell off this morning and I deserved the stern voice, thats right 356 flashed across the screen and since that buffet happoened pretty much before bed I am betting at least part of it is bloated because of that so I will weigh myself again tomorrow morning to get a closer estimate. That 356 may as well have been 556 this morning for the way I feel about it, I can accept that it is what it is but I am disappointed in myself for the late feast yesterday and almost feel like I deserve this gain for my lack of discipline.

I am not beating myself up over this for the most part but as I mentioned this blog was started as a way for me to stay honest by putting my progress, or in this case lack there of out in the open, I know why it happened and that is the important part but it is nothing that HAD to happen, I let things out of my control grab the wheel for a short stint and fat Tony saw and snatched at the chance.

Does any of this mean that I am going to start in on a regimen of pizza and cheeseburgers? nope, its just a bump in the road on a long trip so no worries and I hopped back on that wagon this morning and know what I did so its all good. In fact because of this I feel as if I owe it to myself to up the movement this week (as long as this chest thing keeps slowing down) and am planning on walking plus biking all week every day as soon as my chest agrees to the terms, I weighed 356 pounds and thats all it is, this is not the first time I have seen a gain on this trip to the half and it has after all been a rough week between being sick, upping my calories for a little experiment and that ugly thing called stress popping in for a visit it was bound to happen (sure sure fat man tell yourself it wasn't the pizza!) either way its just another day in the life of Mister Meatball so hop on up and grab yourself that big ol glass of H2O and know that I am doubling up on my fluids today in protest of this gain, so until next time!

As Ever
Me

  
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TRECECOOKS 2/15/2009 10:26PM

    I appreciate your honesty, and I trust that you are back on track and moving forward.
God bless,
me

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CALIFCAS 2/15/2009 4:16PM

  Thank you for your honesty in sharing your victory's and even your struggles. Like you always say, "it is what it is". (At least I think that's what you say.) You're no quitter! Keep moving forward!


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MESACHICK 2/14/2009 10:15PM

  I've been there and all I have to say is - it's done. You can't undo. Move on and kick butt. This is your first binge in what, a million years? You will ROCK the loss next week.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/14/2009 9:56AM

    I agree with the occasional hop off of the wagon. It is going to happen. We just can't beat ourselves up over it too much. A good stern look in the mirror is what we need the occasional hop off.

We will do this and you will be able to make the trip.

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DENACARPER 2/14/2009 7:43AM

    Way to go - I am glad you are not beating yourself up over it - but that you are disappointed is a very good sign. That should definitely show you how far you've come - you've seen the problem and the cause of the problem and you are going to tackle it head on with a great solution!! Now you'll be on the lookout the next time, you get stressed out!

Good job!

Dena

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TRACYZABELLE 2/13/2009 5:13PM

    None of us are perfect, and kudos to you for being accountable! Just get back on the wagon! YOu can do it, we have faith in you and we are here for you!

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FLYINGTOFREEDOM 2/13/2009 1:49PM

    I'm proud of you for holding yourself accountable and then getting back on plan. this is a lifestyle and we do have bumps in the road, it is how we handle these bumps in the road that is our true test of our resolve. Good luck and you are doing great.
Alethea

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LEAVY1213 2/13/2009 1:48PM

    Just remember we aren't going to be perfect in this journey. There will always be set backs, it is part of learning. Change it into a lesson (what can I do better, how can I stop the binge with the pizza, to prevent it from going all the way to the M&M's, etc). Just keep on truckin' and next week you will have lost it plus some! I know you can do it!

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_RAMONA 2/13/2009 12:50PM

    Okay. You 'fell off the wagon'. I can understand your disappointment, but I don't think it's the most important thing to note here.

You had 845 calories left to accommodate that pizza and the emotional eating! WOW! 845 calories! Can you imagine the impact if you didn't already have good habits worked into your day and had been taking care of yourself? THIS is what LIFESTYLE means... not perfection, but overall good habits.

You're being honest with YOURSELF about what happened, and you are resisting the urge to tell yourself 'it's okay... it's just one little binge."

You got on that scale today to assess the damage regardless (which likely is more water retention from sodium than anything else)... honesty AND accountability... you didn't go into avoidance mode.

You are telling all of us about your indiscretion... accountability again.

You're back on track TODAY, with a plan and firmer resolve... you're taking responsibility.

That's a lot to celebrate, and 'fat Tony' is watching all of this, too.

Let's talk numbers while he's listening... you would have had to consume 10,500 calories OVER what you needed to fuel your body for the day in order to gain 3 pounds of actual fat/weight. Including what you ate before the evening binge, the MOST you could have consumed for the day would be around 5000 calories. Subtract the 1700 calories you needed to live your day, and that leaves a surplus of 3300 calories. Okay... it's a lot, and it might equal an almost 1 pound gain (1 pound gained/lost = 3500 calories) IF you don't exercise at all for the next week, IF you don't go back to better choices, and IF you ignore the calories and aren't a little more careful. I don't know you really well, but from what I've seen those are pretty big (likely non-existent) IFs. (I suspect 'fat Tony' is getting the point).

You didn't do all that badly. Yes, you got a wake-up call, and you need to ask yourself what you will do to deal with that old stress monster NEXT TIME. I also find it hard to believe that this is the first time in a year that you've been stressed as you were yesterday, so what about yesterday's stress needs special attention? The problem here isn't that you 'fell off the wagon' with respect to food, or even that you had a little binge. The issue is that you don't yet have a better STRESS PLAN. The only way to break a bad habit is to replace it with a better one.

A few months ago when I was REALLY disappointed with myself, someone told me, "We all continue to struggle. It's how we struggle that makes us an inspiration to others. You know that. Right?"

It's good medicine, that thought... and YOU, Tony, are still more inspiring than most.

As ever,
Me, too.





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ZIRCADIA 2/13/2009 12:46PM

    I have to admit, as I read your steadily increasing list of binge items, my chin dropped lower and lower. BOTZZZ!!!! WTHFSHSTH??? (Don't try to fill out that acronym, it went a little nuts on me...) But really. I know you are smart and know that this is just a bump in the road and will not lead to a bingetastic lifestyle -- but hopefully next time the alarm will start ringing somewhere around the cereal bars or 5th slice of pizza, instead of after polishing off the V-Day chocolate, you know what I'm saying? It isn't to say we'll never overdo it again in the future, we're all human. But I like to think that most of the time my slip ups are much less than they used to be even. Ya know? Not always, though. So this must be one of the blue moon moments that we hope is a true rarity. I always feel like the best thing to reassure after an incident like this is -- 1) NO. It was not healthy. 2) I did NOT feel good (physically) after it was over. 3) I did NOT feel good (emotionall) after it was over. 4) This is NOT how I eat on a regular basis. And moving right along. Hang in there!!! :D

P.S. -- I forgot I also meant to mention -- pizza always seems to be the lingering bloatmaster for me. It affects my weighins for at least a few days, whereas some stuff gets flushed out of my system faster. I dunno what it is. All the cheese??? hahahah I have no idea.

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SLMTRACE 2/13/2009 12:35PM

    Yikes, to be honest sounds like a tasty step back. but great job on getting back in the wagon today, that is hard for alot of people to do and not beat them selfs up the whole time, as i would do! your gonna win over those dang pounds i know it!
hope you have a great day, a happy loving valentines, and a nice weekend.
Tracy

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DONEPAT 2/13/2009 12:33PM

    You know, I got through a similar struggle, oh, about every 2 weeks. I think its because I'm too strict with myself. What I think happened to you, is that you were sick, and that's that. You are so right with letting it go. I continue to beat myself up, which does not help, but this is not about me. its about you. And pizza. And chocolate. :)

It was one day of many. You held firm while you were sick, but thanks for being so honest, as we all have done this, some more than others (you lookin' at ME?) - I know you know the 3 lbs is prob. salt anyway. Its not fat until it stays there, oh, for about a week :)

Today is a new day. You're doing great and pretty soon you'll feel greater- no sore throat, no more tired, and spring will be here! It IS a bump in the road.
Again, you are awesome.
Carry on. :)

Patty

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**PRICELESS** 2/13/2009 12:03PM

    I don't know who came up w/ the pizza idea but I can't figure out if they're my best friend or my worst enemy. I've had 1/2 a pizza sitting in my fridge since Monday. It's steady calling my name. I keep telling it to wait til Sunday. So far so good. But that's a first for me. I've never lasted this long in the past. lol

You're right, it's over & done with. Sounds like you've got a good plan in place for burning off those extra calories!!

And way to go for being so honest. It's never easy...even to admit what's already done. =)

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SUEFROMAZ 2/13/2009 10:28AM

    Stuff like this has to happen to remind us that we're human. Take a look at my blog, I had my issues this week too. I think you totally hit it in the last paragraph - the most important behavior to change is what we do POST binge. Pick ourselves up, dust off and get right back on the wagon. Some times there are detours on the journey. I like to think that the detours are teaching me how to handle the real world.

It's a brand new day - make it a healthy one!

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DIZBIZBELINDA 2/13/2009 10:27AM

    Good job on protesting the gain. It is probably mostly sodium induced anyway. If we can't be accountable to ourselves...then who? Good for you. I know what it's like to fall off the wagon and have it back up over me a couple of times. You did what must be done, you got right back in the game. Take no prisoners!!!

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TAMMIE1006 2/13/2009 9:56AM

    you know better than to beat yourself up about it - it was a temporary thing and it's already over. you've made such tremendous progress and honestly, a pizza now and then won't be the end of you. i firmly believe that you can't completely cut out any certain foods and 'deprive' yourself.
i've had you in the back of my mind, keeping your success as my inspiration - i was laid off from work last week, and now everyday is a 'weekend' with lots of food around all the time, but i'm determined to not let the lack-of-job stress get to me start a serious downward spiral. i'm actually making progress, and want to continue to do so.
thanks for caring about yourself and your family enough to be an amazing inspiration to others!!

~tammie

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SWEETZMIX 2/13/2009 9:47AM

    I like some good pizza too!! mmm mmm

Like u said, no worries, no stress!! We will always have bumps on the road. Accept it, learn from it and move on!!

I will have some water for the both of us.

BTW my congestion is back. GRRR hope I am not getting sick again!!

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SUGARFREEAK 2/13/2009 9:38AM

    I know I'll have days like this just hasn't happened yet. The hardest day to date for me was when I ate out with hubby he ordered meatloaf with mac & cheese I slide the bread basket (Yeast rolls) to the other end of the table..He takes one and downs it like a sexual partner. I slobber and drink my lemon water with splenda..

I SO LOVE PIZZA...so like you said" keep it real for yourself"..I'll do the same for myself.

Peace!

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