Thursday, February 12, 2009
I want to start todays post off by saying that the format of my last few posts are off a little bit and you will probably notice the lack of photos as well, this is because my laptop fell off of the table and well I nee to get a new one, but I have been using my Mother in laws laptop and was asked not to change any settings or anything on it and for whatever reason when I publish a post the format is screwy so I have been trying to figure out whats happening but its temporary so I am not looking too hard at why the posts are formatting funny, bear with me, we are looking into a new laptop.
In other news I am calling this 1850 calorie thang off and going back to 1700 calories starting today, this morning I woke up and weighed 354.4 which is up from Fridays weight but there are some ships at port so I think I am more than likely just about dead even on the weight for the week so not gaining but not losing either. There are probably many factors as to why, I am sick, I have been downing Green tea with honey in it pretty much all week without counting the honey in my calories and then there is the lack of exercise this week so it can be any of those things or a combo of any or all, along with the fact that I am just plain old eating more, so I am calling it off for now.
I did get to go for a walk yesterday, it was about 50 degrees and I walked for about 25 minutes pushing my daughter in her stroller, we walked about 1.2 miles according to Gmaps and because I asked my daughter "which way honey" at one point we ended going up a very steep hill that ran about 90 yards and to say that my legs were feeling that one is putting it lightly! I mapped out a 5k route near my home (it is actually slightly longer than 5k) and I will begin walking that route to get familiar with the distance. I asked my wife if she would be interested in walking with me and she agreed but I also asked her if she would mind if I walk at night after dinner so that it will be cooler when I am doing the C25K so it looks like I will have a walking buddy for at least some of the time, "I will do whatever you need me to do to support this" That is what my wife said to me when I was talking about doing the C25K program, I think I got a keeper! She then said "I will swim whatever you run" so I am actually excited about this coming Spring/Summer for that reason.
Intake, I ate 1800 calories yesterday, unfortunately for the same reason that I am not posting images etc, the format on my excel sheet comes up all wonky when I try and put it into a post with this computer so I will just report the numbers until I get a new laptop.
That will end another mind numbing episode of as the fat man turns, I hope you will join me tomorrow to see what the scale says, and don't forget that big ol glass of H2O that ya just earned for reading along!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I have a bug, in more than one way unfortunately I hate to say because I just cannot shake this whatever it is thats got my throat sore and I have a hankering to run. Last night I was up from 1:15 am to 3:30 am because I couldn't stop coughing, I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich to sort of scratch my throat and peanut butter seems to help with a sore throat so I thought I would give it a try along with some tea, long story short I am groggy this morning.
Onto the other bug, I lately have the urge to run. I have been reading a few runners blogs for the past few days and I do believe that I want to give C25K a go when the weather clears up and gets a tad warmer so that I can assure snow will not be something that derails the program once I start, we have had a terrible year for snow, I guess it is a wonderful year if you like snow! Back when I was I want to guess about 300 pounds (though judging on my current size I think that I may have been slightly more than that) I use to run a bit when I had something to think about, Usually because of the girl that I was dating at the time which we will not get too much into for now. I would run at night in a small park that was far enough away from my house that I didn't have to worry about bumping into someone that I knew (and not because I was embarrassed, more because I wanted to be alone) anyways there were two bridges in this park that were about a quarter of a mile apart so I would jog down to one of the bridges and then walk back and upon reaching my starting bridge I would do it again, trotting down to the far bridge and then walk back at a brisk pace and before long I was running for a whole mile non stop and after looking at C25K what I did back then seems very similar in concept.
Am I being too ambitious to try and run at my weight? To be found out I guess because I have decided that its someting that I want to try. Bold words fat man as you sit wrapped in a quilt sucking down green tea and honey sick as a dog with no chance of this happening right now! ahh yes but I think I am bit hard enough that it is an inevitable absolute I will begin this program when the weather breaks a bit more. I have not gone on a walk about since mid December and I was up to just under 2 miles in about 27 minutes stopping because of time not distance, so a decent pace I think for a walk and I will start walking again solo (meaning without my daughter in tow) as soon as I kick this chest/throat thing thats holding me hostage in my own body right now so that I have an idea of how the routes at this new place work out for me.
Couch to 5k is right now something that I would in my wildest dreams not think could be a task that I could complete if you asked me just 13 months ago and here I am putting it out there as something that I will try to do, that in itself to me is a victory. I feel like a puppy right now, and what I mean by that is have you ever noticed how a puppy is so eager to just run and play? that wide eyed silly look they get when something shiny catches their attention and they just take off chasing shadows? well I don't know if it is cabin fever, or maybe the fact that its been in the high 40's here lately and the snow is melting and I am getting that feeling that comes when spring happens but yesterday I was in my driveway and I looked out at the road and felt like I should run, I honestly felt like I should just take off and run as far as I could just to do it.
181 pounds ago I would think about running and literally feel drained just from thinking about it! thats the god honest truth too! my body knew better, my brain sent the message down to my legs and they just rolled their eyes and shook their head at the silly idea that the brain had and defeated I would lumber slowly to where ever it was that I needed to go. The differences from then to now prove that I am a different person from then and that is my inspiration.
As I typed this out I decided that I would take a walk when I clicked publish and thats what I will do, chest cold be damned I have missed this entire week because of it, maybe some fresh air is whats needed, maybe I will bring my camera along and snap a few shots for an afternoon post. So until next time, keep hydrated and remember that weight loss happens when we make it so, have that glass of H2O and keep on keepin on.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Still feeling yuck and still staying positive despite that fact, Monday showed me my first on the button 1850 calorie day on paper but it is more than that because of the honey that I am not counting towards my total as well as the evening shot of Brandy thatís going into my tea. Over all I am feeling ok other than the stuffy nose, sore throat and a cough and I am taking it easy until this is gone. I am feeling good about this weight loss thing and a couple nights ago my Brother in law was here, he had dinner with us and he looked at the photos that I have on the sidebar of this blog and said "wow you can really notice the difference when you look at the old pics, I didn't even realize how big of a difference there was" or something like that and I thought about just how different everything is now from then and it was cool to hear someone notice the difference.
The one thing that is getting to me and my wife said it last night to my son "I think Dad and your sister are having a bit of cabin fever" because we were talking about "summer activities" that we were going to do, and this week its been in the 40's and 50's here and the snow is finally melting away so the new place looks like a new place again! All I know is how it looks covered in snow! But this cold or whatever it is has kept me inside for the most part because I do not want to prolong it and am waiting for it to run its course so that I can start walking again. I actually feel guilty for not riding my stationary bike imagine that! Feeling guilty for not exercising! I love the fact that I feel guilty for not exercising because it means that somewhere inside me something clicked, it is what I should be doing and the way that I do things is completely different now from 13 months ago. I can remember not too long ago when talking to people, friends, family the question would come up "you lost xxx how much did you start out it?" and I would shy away from the question and just say something ambiguous like "a lot!" and no one would push and now in the last 2 weeks I have told at least 5 people that personally know me how much I weigh currently and its not something that I care about any more. When you weigh a quarter ton (holy s&*t a quarter ton?!?!) ya tend to be a little self conscious about that fact but lately I just don't care, and maybe its that sense of accomplishment that one feels when losing 181 pounds or maybe I have just come to a point where it is what it is and I just don't care any more who knows.
To summarize I would say that even though I am under the weather all is well and for the most part on track besides the exercise of course. I do want to run that 5k race by years end even though as I have mentioned before I am unsure if its something that is good for my body, because even at 300 pounds which is where I am shooting for by June and is when I want to start running instead of walking I will still in fact be heavy and would hate to damage a knee or my back by pushing too hard too soon. I read a lot of blogs and one that I have recently found that has really given me the bug is www.andrewisgettingfit.com/ , Andrew comments on my blog sometimes and I found his blog through his comments to me, check it out for yourself he has accomplished a lot, the photos of where he runs are always beautiful and I hope that one day I am able to pop some pictures of my own up as I am running around CT because we have some great scenery here too.
The end of another post has come and of course that means that you have earned another glass of H2O so get on up and grab it and I will drink the rest of the green tea in my glass. Thanks for following along and thanks for the support that gets left via your comments etc it helps more than you know.
Monday, February 09, 2009
This weekend I had plans to go out with some old friends from High school and have dinner, I had planned on a steak and potato dinner but the fact that I have been laying under a heavy quilt all weekend because of the sore throat that I have had stopped that in its tracks. Being sick @ 350 pounds is much different than at 534 pounds which my wife was glad to point out to me, Saturday I made the suggestion that we go out for a ride just to get some fresh air and we ended up running a few errands and then back to my quilt and brandy laced tea for the evening but where are the differences you might be asking? Well let me tell ya, @ 534 pounds when I got sick (which was much more often than now) the world would have to stop so that I could rest, I would need 14 hours of sleep per night and the rest of the day was literally sitting on the couch or in bed drinking as much orange juice as I could get, the only movement that would be given was the movement that HAD to be given because of the mess that would have happened if I didn't move my arse to go to the bathroom. I would get a cold and still have it 2 weeks later all the while the universe was at a stand still because of it, the stark differences in then and now are obvious to me as well as Wify and I know this all by the look I got from her when the subject was brought up! Being healthy (or should I say healthier) has more benefits than expected and honestly being sick longer than normal because of the distress my body was in thing never even dawned on me, with that said though my throat is still very raw and sore this morning but Wify said that I sounded better so hopefully it will only be another day or two before I am back to normal. Everything is where it should be besides the exercise or lack there of, The warmer weather that is just around the bend will be welcomed by me and the small patch of lawn that I can see through the melting snow makes me glad that spring is on the way! With spring will come many hours of manual labor in the new yard, lots of walks around the lake and some hiking for sure, all of which will help the weight come off while making our new place exactly what we want.
I want to talk about the extra skin deal that comes with this weight loss gig for a paragraph or so, My back has been itching me for the last couple of weeks and I couldn't think of any reason why until I mentioned it to my wife, she said something about a preggo belly and how it itched etc and then said that its probably the skin doing its elasticity thang, so for the past few nights she has been giving me a back rub with some lotion which I am hating every minute of by the way, but anything for the weight loss right? (Insert evil grin here) This seems to be doing the trick, though it still itches a bit it is at least 75% less itchy since she has been doing that for me. At times I think about the loose skin and feel like there is no way that at 265 pounds I will be happy with how it looks and feels on me and there are times that I think that it will all be ok and it will stretch back to a reasonable amount of looseness and I will just live with it, this is fast becoming something that I think about as the weight comes off and decision that will be made in a couple years time after my body has had ample time to recuperate from the stress its been under for all of these years.
Which brings me to my next point and something that I am more than excited about! Though in the past three months the weight loss has slowed as far as the raw numbers go I am shrinking every day and I only know this because of the way clothing is fitting, the Jacket that I wore in High school zips up!!! Yesterday I was half kidding when I said to wify "I'm going to try the jacket on" She just looked at me with that "um okĒ look so I put it on and when I pulled the zipper together I was honestly amazed that the two sides came together! So I pulled the zipper up and besides being a little short the jacket fit me! I was measured for this jacket when I was 17 years old! Say it with me, seventeen! Years! Old! So this means that I am approximately the same size right now as I was when I was 17! I know I know thatís one helluva big seventeen year old! I honestly did not expect to be able to zip that jacket until I was less than 300 pounds so I was pleasantly surprised to say the least. This lead me to pull some dress shirts out of the closet, now if you are or were a huge fella like me you know the trials of wearing a button up shirt, make sure it is long enough, make sure it stays tucked into your pants because with every movement it creeps out and you have to constantly tuck it back in, sit down? Yep its going to pull out of the back of your pants so plan how and when you will stand up so that you can tuck it when no one is looking and thatís IF you can find one long enough to even tuck in! Can I sit down without sending someone to the hospital with a button injury? The other option is leave it untucked and look sloppy, or keep your jacket buttoned over it to slightly hide the fact that its not tucked in but you know that its sloppy and everyone that notices knows this too, yep its not fun but let me get back to the good part of this, I pull out some of my old dress shirts and they ALL fit me! Some were a bit short but they all buttoned up with more than enough room to sit without worrying about taking someoneís eye out with a button merely from having a seat!
To be 534 pounds vs. 353 pounds is different worlds on more levels than you could possibly know if you haven't walked that walk and I wish it upon nobody because it is not a pleasant experience to be on the heavy side of that statement. This post has gone long enough so it shall end here, I did not get any weekend posts up because of the falling of the laptop so this was slightly longer than normal and for that you should drink TWO glasses of H2O! See, there was a rainbow at the end of this very long post for ya! Thank you for following along and the support is appreciated!
Friday, February 06, 2009
I made it to Friday (did I think I wouldn't?) so you know what that means its weigh in day and week one, well I started in the middle of the week but you get the idea, week one of the upping the calories experiment. As I do every Friday its wake up, rest room and straight to the scale and the first time on it read 354.o on the nose but I looked down and noticed that I was wearing my heavy sweat shorts and socks (which is not what I wear for weigh in) so off went the socks and shorts and now its just skivvys and a tee shirt and 353.2 flashes across the display, attempt number two was the same as well as third times a charm, so .8 of a pound loss this week so I will take it down to 353 on my "current weight" not so bad and kind of what I expected, I honestly would not have been surprised at a no loss week because of the weekend that I had. This mornings weigh in brings me to 181 total pounds lost which leaves 78 to go for me to reach 275 pounds my original goal.
Last night right before bed my throat started to hurt and I can't have that! I want to up the exercise this week remember? so I made myself a big cup of hot green tea and added a bit of the good stuff, about a tablespoon of Honey and slightly more than a shot of Easy Jesus AKA E&J Brandy. I slept like a baby and honestly woke up feeling better but my throat is still a little dry feeling so as I write this I am having another cup of hot green tea sans the E&J of course but the honey seems to be helping. With some hope and lots of honey laced green tea I am thinking that this will be gone by tomorrow morning and I can keep with my plan to exercise more this week.
Here is a 353 pound yellow fin tuna for your viewing pleasure, he and I weigh the same at the time of his death.
This Honda Rukus comes in at 181 pounds which is what I have lost so far it is unbelievable to me that I was toting a scooter around on my back for all that time!
Over all I am on schedule (like there is an actual schedule I am following) and honestly I have done nothing in the way of real exercise this week besides painting and the every day house work so that .8 of a pound is 100% on diet for the most part which I guess wouldn't be 100% but maybe 92% yeah that sounds right. Besides .8 of a pound is a good loss, I mean its not a 3 pound week but a loss is a loss is how I see it at this stage of the game. There are going to be weeks that the losses are big and then there will be small loss weeks as well as no loss weeks even and I am on month 14 so this is no news to me! Now this week should be interesting because other than the throat (which hopefully will go away quickly) the only thing that I am doing that could be negative to the weight loss is dinner out on Saturday which is in the beginning of the week so I have time to recoup if I go overboard a bit.
Yesterday I only made it to 1700 calories and I tried! but I had to eat a pair of apples around 8pm to even get that number! I am not adjusting to this up in calories well because I have eaten @1700 for so long its a mental thing for me, I kind of know how much is going to bring me over and I am stopping there (mentally) so I will need to adjust the "mental" part of this up in calories. With that we have come to the end of another week and another post, I hope you all had a good week and a good weigh in, stay healthy, keep on moving and well you know the rest! You have earned another big ol glass of H2O so get on up and grab it.
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