Monday, February 09, 2009
This weekend I had plans to go out with some old friends from High school and have dinner, I had planned on a steak and potato dinner but the fact that I have been laying under a heavy quilt all weekend because of the sore throat that I have had stopped that in its tracks. Being sick @ 350 pounds is much different than at 534 pounds which my wife was glad to point out to me, Saturday I made the suggestion that we go out for a ride just to get some fresh air and we ended up running a few errands and then back to my quilt and brandy laced tea for the evening but where are the differences you might be asking? Well let me tell ya, @ 534 pounds when I got sick (which was much more often than now) the world would have to stop so that I could rest, I would need 14 hours of sleep per night and the rest of the day was literally sitting on the couch or in bed drinking as much orange juice as I could get, the only movement that would be given was the movement that HAD to be given because of the mess that would have happened if I didn't move my arse to go to the bathroom. I would get a cold and still have it 2 weeks later all the while the universe was at a stand still because of it, the stark differences in then and now are obvious to me as well as Wify and I know this all by the look I got from her when the subject was brought up! Being healthy (or should I say healthier) has more benefits than expected and honestly being sick longer than normal because of the distress my body was in thing never even dawned on me, with that said though my throat is still very raw and sore this morning but Wify said that I sounded better so hopefully it will only be another day or two before I am back to normal. Everything is where it should be besides the exercise or lack there of, The warmer weather that is just around the bend will be welcomed by me and the small patch of lawn that I can see through the melting snow makes me glad that spring is on the way! With spring will come many hours of manual labor in the new yard, lots of walks around the lake and some hiking for sure, all of which will help the weight come off while making our new place exactly what we want.
I want to talk about the extra skin deal that comes with this weight loss gig for a paragraph or so, My back has been itching me for the last couple of weeks and I couldn't think of any reason why until I mentioned it to my wife, she said something about a preggo belly and how it itched etc and then said that its probably the skin doing its elasticity thang, so for the past few nights she has been giving me a back rub with some lotion which I am hating every minute of by the way, but anything for the weight loss right? (Insert evil grin here) This seems to be doing the trick, though it still itches a bit it is at least 75% less itchy since she has been doing that for me. At times I think about the loose skin and feel like there is no way that at 265 pounds I will be happy with how it looks and feels on me and there are times that I think that it will all be ok and it will stretch back to a reasonable amount of looseness and I will just live with it, this is fast becoming something that I think about as the weight comes off and decision that will be made in a couple years time after my body has had ample time to recuperate from the stress its been under for all of these years.
Which brings me to my next point and something that I am more than excited about! Though in the past three months the weight loss has slowed as far as the raw numbers go I am shrinking every day and I only know this because of the way clothing is fitting, the Jacket that I wore in High school zips up!!! Yesterday I was half kidding when I said to wify "I'm going to try the jacket on" She just looked at me with that "um okĒ look so I put it on and when I pulled the zipper together I was honestly amazed that the two sides came together! So I pulled the zipper up and besides being a little short the jacket fit me! I was measured for this jacket when I was 17 years old! Say it with me, seventeen! Years! Old! So this means that I am approximately the same size right now as I was when I was 17! I know I know thatís one helluva big seventeen year old! I honestly did not expect to be able to zip that jacket until I was less than 300 pounds so I was pleasantly surprised to say the least. This lead me to pull some dress shirts out of the closet, now if you are or were a huge fella like me you know the trials of wearing a button up shirt, make sure it is long enough, make sure it stays tucked into your pants because with every movement it creeps out and you have to constantly tuck it back in, sit down? Yep its going to pull out of the back of your pants so plan how and when you will stand up so that you can tuck it when no one is looking and thatís IF you can find one long enough to even tuck in! Can I sit down without sending someone to the hospital with a button injury? The other option is leave it untucked and look sloppy, or keep your jacket buttoned over it to slightly hide the fact that its not tucked in but you know that its sloppy and everyone that notices knows this too, yep its not fun but let me get back to the good part of this, I pull out some of my old dress shirts and they ALL fit me! Some were a bit short but they all buttoned up with more than enough room to sit without worrying about taking someoneís eye out with a button merely from having a seat!
To be 534 pounds vs. 353 pounds is different worlds on more levels than you could possibly know if you haven't walked that walk and I wish it upon nobody because it is not a pleasant experience to be on the heavy side of that statement. This post has gone long enough so it shall end here, I did not get any weekend posts up because of the falling of the laptop so this was slightly longer than normal and for that you should drink TWO glasses of H2O! See, there was a rainbow at the end of this very long post for ya! Thank you for following along and the support is appreciated!
Friday, February 06, 2009
I made it to Friday (did I think I wouldn't?) so you know what that means its weigh in day and week one, well I started in the middle of the week but you get the idea, week one of the upping the calories experiment. As I do every Friday its wake up, rest room and straight to the scale and the first time on it read 354.o on the nose but I looked down and noticed that I was wearing my heavy sweat shorts and socks (which is not what I wear for weigh in) so off went the socks and shorts and now its just skivvys and a tee shirt and 353.2 flashes across the display, attempt number two was the same as well as third times a charm, so .8 of a pound loss this week so I will take it down to 353 on my "current weight" not so bad and kind of what I expected, I honestly would not have been surprised at a no loss week because of the weekend that I had. This mornings weigh in brings me to 181 total pounds lost which leaves 78 to go for me to reach 275 pounds my original goal.
Last night right before bed my throat started to hurt and I can't have that! I want to up the exercise this week remember? so I made myself a big cup of hot green tea and added a bit of the good stuff, about a tablespoon of Honey and slightly more than a shot of Easy Jesus AKA E&J Brandy. I slept like a baby and honestly woke up feeling better but my throat is still a little dry feeling so as I write this I am having another cup of hot green tea sans the E&J of course but the honey seems to be helping. With some hope and lots of honey laced green tea I am thinking that this will be gone by tomorrow morning and I can keep with my plan to exercise more this week.
Here is a 353 pound yellow fin tuna for your viewing pleasure, he and I weigh the same at the time of his death.
This Honda Rukus comes in at 181 pounds which is what I have lost so far it is unbelievable to me that I was toting a scooter around on my back for all that time!
Over all I am on schedule (like there is an actual schedule I am following) and honestly I have done nothing in the way of real exercise this week besides painting and the every day house work so that .8 of a pound is 100% on diet for the most part which I guess wouldn't be 100% but maybe 92% yeah that sounds right. Besides .8 of a pound is a good loss, I mean its not a 3 pound week but a loss is a loss is how I see it at this stage of the game. There are going to be weeks that the losses are big and then there will be small loss weeks as well as no loss weeks even and I am on month 14 so this is no news to me! Now this week should be interesting because other than the throat (which hopefully will go away quickly) the only thing that I am doing that could be negative to the weight loss is dinner out on Saturday which is in the beginning of the week so I have time to recoup if I go overboard a bit.
Yesterday I only made it to 1700 calories and I tried! but I had to eat a pair of apples around 8pm to even get that number! I am not adjusting to this up in calories well because I have eaten @1700 for so long its a mental thing for me, I kind of know how much is going to bring me over and I am stopping there (mentally) so I will need to adjust the "mental" part of this up in calories. With that we have come to the end of another week and another post, I hope you all had a good week and a good weigh in, stay healthy, keep on moving and well you know the rest! You have earned another big ol glass of H2O so get on up and grab it.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Tomorrow I weigh in again and I am not expecting much on the scale as far as a loss goes, last weekend was not good and then I raised my calorie to 1850 per day and I do not believe that there will be a huge difference if any at all this week. Then on Saturday I am suppose to be meeting some old friends for dinner so I am expecting a not so good Dinner then either, I will in fact try and stay as low as possible throughout the day but dinner is off limits as far as counting goes, I will of course make good decisions like having unsweetened tea with splenda to drink and I will likely get a steak and baked potato which I can estimate the calories but no actual numbers will be known. What I WILL do because of the dinner on Saturday is workout harder this week, I will ride my bike every day instead of the normal 5 times, I am also planning on some walks over the weekend as it is suppose to warm up so just because I am going to enjoy a larger than normal dinner on Saturday doesn't mean I have to give up the weight loss regimen.
Looking out the big picture window in my living room I right now see a frozen lake covered with snow and cannot help but think about how in a couple of months the ice and snow will be gone and I will have a great place to start my walks again, I hope to turn the walks into runs this year but @ 300 pounds I am unsure how good of an idea running will be. In addition to the scenic route for a walk about I will have access at the cost of a stroll across the street a lake to swim in all summer! but back to the walking, the plan is to walk every day on top of my bike rides and the plan is to take a walk during the morning with my daughter, in her stroller of course so that I can keep a good 3+ mph pace and then ride my bike in the evening again like I am doing now. I have been hearing a lot about this couch to 5k thing and I may give that a try come warmer months because as you may or may not know depending on how new you are to reading my blog I want to run (yes run) a 5k race by years end, am I crazy for thinking that I can do that at my weight? maybe and it will surely be a lot of work but hey what fun is anything if its a given?
I am taking mine, how about you?
Soon enough this will become a weight loss maintenance based blog and I will be at my goal weight or further into health and I will be able to look back at each step that was taken to get there. Before long I will not recognize the fella looking back at me in the mirror as I am just being reintroduced to the guy that I knew years ago and looking at pictures that have been taken along the way on this weight loss journey I am seeing pictures that at the time I thought "wow I am really losing this weight" and I look at them now and I am so much bigger than my current weight. I am very curious to see what I look like at say 265 pounds or even less, because I am sure that I will look back through the photos of me now and think "wow I was big then" I actually carry a picture of myself on my cell phone that I can look at to remind me where I was and it has a picture of my current self photoshopped next to it, which I look at often.
Finding that this thing called weight loss is not some impossible thing is eye opening to me and I honestly have only that one regret, that I did not start sooner. There was no reason to wait to eat better, sure I had an injury that stopped me from doing physical workouts but there was no reason that I couldn't adjust my eating habits during that time. If you are reading this and think that you cannot do it, you are wrong, I felt the exact same way just 13 months ago and was actually scared that I was going to have more than just a round gut from eating unhealthy, death was something that entered my thoughts from time to time when I moved just a bit out of my comfort zone, just enough to let my heart know that I was moving. This side of the fence is much more comforting than the one where a 534 pound man resided because if I can feel this good at 355 pounds I cannot imagine what 265 will feel like.
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Day one of the 1850 calorie experiment went ok but I did feel like I ate too much, which is insane because I didn't actually make it to 1850 calories exactly and it is after all only 150 calories extra. I ate until full and I did get a ride on the bike into the day as well as some late night snow shoveling, yes we got more snow and it was suppose to get very cold last night and the man in the magic plastic box said that it would be solid by the am so after the biggest loser I went out and cleaned off the car and shoveled the driveway so that was some bonus movement for the day. I find it odd that upping the intake by a mere 150 calories made me feel like I ate too much but I guess when you eat 1700 for just about a whole year making that change should feel a bit different, Have a look at the menu from Yesterday.
2 multi-grain english muffins 200
1 serving turkey pepperoni 70
2 wedges laughing cow 70
sliced tomato/dill pickle 20
Dannon yogurt 80
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T jam 50
1 pear 80
2oz jax 280
2 80 calorie rolls 160
5.5oz ground turkey/sloppy joe 245
7oz potatoes 175
1 gallon blueberry green tea 80
1745 calories total but I did have a spoon full (slightly more than a bite) of some Turkey hill ice cream so that 1745 is not a true number but close enough and I know that I did not go over the limit with that bite. I have a feeling that the weight loss this week will not be a very high number, let me splain. As I mentioned in an earlier post I had a bad weekend intake wise and I was up in weight on Monday mornings weigh in by a couple pounds which was partially just retention but I know that I ate wrong and too much which was the main contributer to the "up". Since Monday I have steadily come down in weight creeping back towards the 354 that showed up on the scale Friday but I am still above that number, this morning I was 355.0 pounds exactly which is down from yesterday mornings weight of 355.6 so it is going in the right direction and feels like the normal fluctuation that happens each week if not a bit on the high end of it. Am I worried about this? not in the least because in the grand scheme its just a little experiment with calorie levels that if it doesn't turn out to be a good decision we just go back to the 1700.
Over all the goal is in sight and the program keeps on keepin on, I am fairly certain that I will hit my goal of 300 pounds by Junes end. the local weather appears to be on and off but such is life in New England, we had snow last night and all day yesterday and by Sunday it should be in the high 40's or low 50's and thats walkin weather! If so I will have myself a nice walk this weekend which will hopefully kick start me into 4 pound loss weeks (dreaming I know) but hey! why not? its happened before. That concludes this Wednesday morning post, I primed the hallway on the first floor of the new place yesterday and its time to finish up and get some paint over it so I am off to do so. You know the drill, H2O + You = Hydrated so get on it!
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
In my quest for better health I have found that tweaking the program from time to time is necessary every now and again, so with that Ch ch ch ch changes are on the way. Nothing too drastic at all really but I will be afforded more fuel on any given day in the way of 150 extra calories. Thats right I am going to try 1850 calories per day for a week or two because I have accidentally (yeah we will call it an accident) raised my caloric level over the past couple days with no ill effect and since I am exercising more regularly again I don't think that the extra intake is all too bad. Now I do expect something to happen with the weight this week and possibly next the what is the question, will I gain a bit by this Friday? will I lose more this week because of the up in intake? maybe a no loss but no gain situation? clairvoyant I am not but I am interested in whatever the case may be. This will be the third time that I have adjusted my calories since starting back in January 2008, the first change was when I went from 1200 to 1500 and had absolutely no idea where to start, then I went from 1500 to 1700 which as you know is where I currently am so this will be number three going from 1700 to 1850 per day.
Chatting with my wife yesterday about how she is going to get back to strict eating habits after maintaining for a couple months and she said that it must be hard for me to stay this strict with my intake for so long seeing as its more than a year now, I said something that put it into perspective, I responded to her "I plan on eating like this for the rest of my life so this is just the beginning" at which time it dawned on me that I have made drastic changes in the way that I do everything health related in my life. Coming from someone that just 13 months ago would walk for 5 minutes and feeling as if his back was going to explode as sweat beaded on his brow and heart thumped in chest to where I am today, a fellow that is planning on a 5k race by the end of the year is a contrast that I welcome into my life. Driving by a Wendy's or Burger King use to be a chance to grab a quick snack consisting of a couple items off of the fat growing 99 cents menu between meals where as now I wouldn't stop there for anything. Instead of that next level in a video game or the fact that McNasty has Mcribs back on the menu being something that I look forward to it is now the cool little bridge or the tree with little flowers all over it that I found while hiking or the fact that I shaved a couple minutes off of my walk while increasing the distance that gets me motivated. I jump at the chance to do physical work right now and look forward to the spring getting here so that I can start working in our new yard.
Here is that flowered tree I found last spring that I mentioned.
I am finding parallels in my life and the lives of some of the other men in my family, I was recently talking to my Mother and she told me that my father was once a pretty hefty guy and was told to lose weight by a doc for his blood pressure etc. Now I do remember my father going to the YMCA often as a kid I do not remember him being a "fat" guy and talking to my father he told me a story of an uncle of his that was also told that it was time to get some movement into his life for healths sake and he said that his uncle for exercise had a huge stone slab which are everywhere here in CT in his back yard (if you live in New England you know what I am talking about) and after going to work all day he would come home and break the slab apart. when he was done made a stone wall around his house with the broken rocks to give you an idea of the size of the slab, so he ended up with a big clear back yard and a nice new stone wall to go with his better health. That stone wall story gave me an idea well actually it gave my father an idea which sparked my idea, our back yard goes from driveway to a hill that leads into the back yard, My dad told me that I should dig out a parking space in that area for my mustang which would mean a TON of manual work and I believe that by next winter I will have that spot dug out of the hill. If I were the me that I was 13 months ago I would read what I just wrote and think "man that guy is nuts" and yet here I am THAT guy.
I will resume posting daily menus with tomorrows post with the new 1850 calorie limit on them, don't forget that H2O and I think that will conclude another bone chilling episode, meet us back here tomorrow at the same bat time same bat channel kids to find out if Fat man and Blobbin save the day.
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