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Weight loss or Wait loss? Just do it.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Tomorrow I weigh in again and I am not expecting much on the scale as far as a loss goes, last weekend was not good and then I raised my calorie to 1850 per day and I do not believe that there will be a huge difference if any at all this week. Then on Saturday I am suppose to be meeting some old friends for dinner so I am expecting a not so good Dinner then either, I will in fact try and stay as low as possible throughout the day but dinner is off limits as far as counting goes, I will of course make good decisions like having unsweetened tea with splenda to drink and I will likely get a steak and baked potato which I can estimate the calories but no actual numbers will be known. What I WILL do because of the dinner on Saturday is workout harder this week, I will ride my bike every day instead of the normal 5 times, I am also planning on some walks over the weekend as it is suppose to warm up so just because I am going to enjoy a larger than normal dinner on Saturday doesn't mean I have to give up the weight loss regimen.

Looking out the big picture window in my living room I right now see a frozen lake covered with snow and cannot help but think about how in a couple of months the ice and snow will be gone and I will have a great place to start my walks again, I hope to turn the walks into runs this year but @ 300 pounds I am unsure how good of an idea running will be. In addition to the scenic route for a walk about I will have access at the cost of a stroll across the street a lake to swim in all summer! but back to the walking, the plan is to walk every day on top of my bike rides and the plan is to take a walk during the morning with my daughter, in her stroller of course so that I can keep a good 3+ mph pace and then ride my bike in the evening again like I am doing now. I have been hearing a lot about this couch to 5k thing and I may give that a try come warmer months because as you may or may not know depending on how new you are to reading my blog I want to run (yes run) a 5k race by years end, am I crazy for thinking that I can do that at my weight? maybe and it will surely be a lot of work but hey what fun is anything if its a given?

I am taking mine, how about you?

Soon enough this will become a weight loss maintenance based blog and I will be at my goal weight or further into health and I will be able to look back at each step that was taken to get there. Before long I will not recognize the fella looking back at me in the mirror as I am just being reintroduced to the guy that I knew years ago and looking at pictures that have been taken along the way on this weight loss journey I am seeing pictures that at the time I thought "wow I am really losing this weight" and I look at them now and I am so much bigger than my current weight. I am very curious to see what I look like at say 265 pounds or even less, because I am sure that I will look back through the photos of me now and think "wow I was big then" I actually carry a picture of myself on my cell phone that I can look at to remind me where I was and it has a picture of my current self photoshopped next to it, which I look at often.

Finding that this thing called weight loss is not some impossible thing is eye opening to me and I honestly have only that one regret, that I did not start sooner. There was no reason to wait to eat better, sure I had an injury that stopped me from doing physical workouts but there was no reason that I couldn't adjust my eating habits during that time. If you are reading this and think that you cannot do it, you are wrong, I felt the exact same way just 13 months ago and was actually scared that I was going to have more than just a round gut from eating unhealthy, death was something that entered my thoughts from time to time when I moved just a bit out of my comfort zone, just enough to let my heart know that I was moving. This side of the fence is much more comforting than the one where a 534 pound man resided because if I can feel this good at 355 pounds I cannot imagine what 265 will feel like.

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MISSZ1 2/10/2009 4:48AM

    I just loved this blog. Thanks for sharing and spreading the life lessons and love. emoticon

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TRECECOOKS 2/8/2009 8:00PM

    And we will be right here with you, experiencing it all vicariously. . . Congrats on losing the Ruckus.

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DONEPAT 2/6/2009 10:21PM


Tuning in late to say hi. You can so do this, and after I read this, I'm off to read today's blog to see how you did. I know the shrinking man has done it again, I just do.

As I was out today, one of our farm markets had a sign up it said "Opening- Mid March"- OMG- BOTZZZ, that's only like a month away! The ice and cold are almost gone! So, it may come sooner than we (hope) think.

Again, you are doing great. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts I enjoy them so much.
Have a great weekend.


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ROCKIN_RHON 2/6/2009 8:58AM

    You are focused and have your goals set. You can do this. You are going to do this. Have faith in yourself.

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TRACYZABELLE 2/6/2009 5:59AM

    All I can say is keep your eye on the prize! YOu are dedicated to doing this and I know you can do it!

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MESACHICK 2/5/2009 7:50PM

  Dude...I think if ANYONE can do it, YOU can! Look at what you have done so have rocked the statistics and I think a 5K will be a drop in the bucket for you. :-)

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LEAVY1213 2/5/2009 7:21PM

    I don't think you are crazy at all for saying you are going to run a 5k! I think that is awesome! Who cares if others say you SHOULDN'T or CAN'T?! If YOU say you can and want to then just do it! Go for it!!! I think that couch to 5k program is cool, I have talked to several people who have done it. I would like to do a triathalon one day, so I guess I need to start working on that! lol Anyway, good luck, you will do awesome!

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GRAMMYSKIDS58 2/5/2009 1:13PM

    I love your blog and your positive attitude! If you believe in yourself you will be able to run..... and it sounds like you do. You are a real inspiration!! Good luck aon your journey and I can't wait to hear "I went for my first run!!!" Kathy

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/5/2009 12:39PM

    Did I ever mention I love reading your blogs? Well I do. And now I'm reading your wife's blogs, too! :) Fun.

So, yeah, you'll be in maintenance soon ... does that scare you at all? Just wondering. I'm thrilled how well you're doing, and I really enjoy the "earn-it-before-you-bite-it" planning you're doing! Yeah, there'll always be little surprises like eating out socially - and we wouldn't want to rid our lives of those moments, so the advance planning definitely is smart.

By the way, Tony, I'm surprised you say "someday" you won't recognise the man in the mirror ... your pics already show a COMPLETELY different person, you know! Now I see someone with determination and a great sense of humour as well as the stick-to-it-iveness to achieve anything he puts his mind to!

Keep up the great work!


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TELERIE 2/5/2009 11:57AM

    Another great blog! If you want to start running it's a great idea to walk a lot first, so you have a solid base - you don't want to injure yourself. When that's said, I just LOVED the Couch to 5K program and I was much heavier than now when I did it. I think I weighed about 285 when I started and never had any problems with it - I had walked daily for 45-60 minutes at a fairly brisk pace a couple of months before I ventured to "run" - or waddle as I call it.

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BRIDEN79 2/5/2009 11:57AM

    Just here to tell you - you are doing great! If you need extra support, DONE being teh Fat girl- has a great support system called BSS. If you haven't tried it, its a monthly group where you are on a team that help support each other. Its a great way to gather support and motivation through this journey of weightloss. If you are interested in joining- go to this link-
You are going to have to copy and paste the link! Sorry about that. Also- if you want- tell them Briden79 sent you! ;)

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SWEETZMIX 2/5/2009 11:38AM

    If you don't go out and run this spring, I will beat u up myself. LOL You can do it, why not?? The way I see things is that u start and do as much as you can each time and PROGRESS!! I know u can do it!!!!!!!!! Spark also got some training programs to run a 5K and a 10K as well as the 5 2k program!

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TX.PATRICIA 2/5/2009 11:17AM

    You can RUN!!! If those folks on biggest looser can do it, you CAN too!!!


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Wednesday morning quarterback?

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Day one of the 1850 calorie experiment went ok but I did feel like I ate too much, which is insane because I didn't actually make it to 1850 calories exactly and it is after all only 150 calories extra. I ate until full and I did get a ride on the bike into the day as well as some late night snow shoveling, yes we got more snow and it was suppose to get very cold last night and the man in the magic plastic box said that it would be solid by the am so after the biggest loser I went out and cleaned off the car and shoveled the driveway so that was some bonus movement for the day. I find it odd that upping the intake by a mere 150 calories made me feel like I ate too much but I guess when you eat 1700 for just about a whole year making that change should feel a bit different, Have a look at the menu from Yesterday.


7:45 AM
2 multi-grain english muffins 200
1 serving turkey pepperoni 70
2 wedges laughing cow 70
sliced tomato/dill pickle 20

9:00 AM
Dannon yogurt 80

12:15 PM
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T jam 50

2:00 PM
1 pear 80

3:15 PM
2oz jax 280

6:30 PM
2 80 calorie rolls 160
5.5oz ground turkey/sloppy joe 245
7oz potatoes 175

All day
1 gallon blueberry green tea 80

1745 calories total but I did have a spoon full (slightly more than a bite) of some Turkey hill ice cream so that 1745 is not a true number but close enough and I know that I did not go over the limit with that bite. I have a feeling that the weight loss this week will not be a very high number, let me splain. As I mentioned in an earlier post I had a bad weekend intake wise and I was up in weight on Monday mornings weigh in by a couple pounds which was partially just retention but I know that I ate wrong and too much which was the main contributer to the "up". Since Monday I have steadily come down in weight creeping back towards the 354 that showed up on the scale Friday but I am still above that number, this morning I was 355.0 pounds exactly which is down from yesterday mornings weight of 355.6 so it is going in the right direction and feels like the normal fluctuation that happens each week if not a bit on the high end of it. Am I worried about this? not in the least because in the grand scheme its just a little experiment with calorie levels that if it doesn't turn out to be a good decision we just go back to the 1700.

Over all the goal is in sight and the program keeps on keepin on, I am fairly certain that I will hit my goal of 300 pounds by Junes end. the local weather appears to be on and off but such is life in New England, we had snow last night and all day yesterday and by Sunday it should be in the high 40's or low 50's and thats walkin weather! If so I will have myself a nice walk this weekend which will hopefully kick start me into 4 pound loss weeks (dreaming I know) but hey! why not? its happened before. That concludes this Wednesday morning post, I primed the hallway on the first floor of the new place yesterday and its time to finish up and get some paint over it so I am off to do so. You know the drill, H2O + You = Hydrated so get on it!

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TRACYZABELLE 2/5/2009 12:50AM

    I am sure with your activity level and upping the calories you will rock the scale! YUM Blueberry tea!!!!

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BIGGIRL2082010 2/4/2009 6:15PM

    I'm anticipating that upping those calories WILL work to help with the weight loss, rather than to slow you down. But we'll definitely be awaiting your next few weigh-ins anxiously, just to make sure!

Keep going! Have fun on your WALK when the weather's warmer this week!


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OH_HAPPY_DAY 2/4/2009 4:10PM

    I'm anticipating the outcome of your experiment.

and it's cold here in Houston, too.. a chilly 58 degrees! hee! hee!!

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DONEPAT 2/4/2009 10:50AM

    As my niece used to say when she was little (she's the blonde girl in the pic now, age 10)- she couldn't say her "f's" - so, to you I say, in Danielle speak- "You'll be pine". LOL Oh, I miss those days..........

I think you're doing very well. I also did something new today. I shoveled and salted. AND cleaned off my car. In the old days, I'd let the sun do it. We got 5 inches.

You're doing so well, and will continue to to so. I don't know how you stopped at 2 oz of Jax though- just my 2 cents.LOL

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ELFITZPA 2/4/2009 10:00AM

    I'm glad to see your caloric experiment seems to be going alright so far, though I agree that it's crazy how eating just a small amount more than normal can affect you. The warmer weather really IS coming our way (eventually anyway) and I saw an excellent sign this morning - the sun was already rising around 6:20! The last time I actually really noticed, it was rising at 6:40. Soon it'll be walking weather every day! Keep up the excellent work!

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Changing the program a bit, oh My!

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

In my quest for better health I have found that tweaking the program from time to time is necessary every now and again, so with that Ch ch ch ch changes are on the way. Nothing too drastic at all really but I will be afforded more fuel on any given day in the way of 150 extra calories. Thats right I am going to try 1850 calories per day for a week or two because I have accidentally (yeah we will call it an accident) raised my caloric level over the past couple days with no ill effect and since I am exercising more regularly again I don't think that the extra intake is all too bad. Now I do expect something to happen with the weight this week and possibly next the what is the question, will I gain a bit by this Friday? will I lose more this week because of the up in intake? maybe a no loss but no gain situation? clairvoyant I am not but I am interested in whatever the case may be. This will be the third time that I have adjusted my calories since starting back in January 2008, the first change was when I went from 1200 to 1500 and had absolutely no idea where to start, then I went from 1500 to 1700 which as you know is where I currently am so this will be number three going from 1700 to 1850 per day.

Chatting with my wife yesterday about how she is going to get back to strict eating habits after maintaining for a couple months and she said that it must be hard for me to stay this strict with my intake for so long seeing as its more than a year now, I said something that put it into perspective, I responded to her "I plan on eating like this for the rest of my life so this is just the beginning" at which time it dawned on me that I have made drastic changes in the way that I do everything health related in my life. Coming from someone that just 13 months ago would walk for 5 minutes and feeling as if his back was going to explode as sweat beaded on his brow and heart thumped in chest to where I am today, a fellow that is planning on a 5k race by the end of the year is a contrast that I welcome into my life. Driving by a Wendy's or Burger King use to be a chance to grab a quick snack consisting of a couple items off of the fat growing 99 cents menu between meals where as now I wouldn't stop there for anything. Instead of that next level in a video game or the fact that McNasty has Mcribs back on the menu being something that I look forward to it is now the cool little bridge or the tree with little flowers all over it that I found while hiking or the fact that I shaved a couple minutes off of my walk while increasing the distance that gets me motivated. I jump at the chance to do physical work right now and look forward to the spring getting here so that I can start working in our new yard.

Here is that flowered tree I found last spring that I mentioned.

I am finding parallels in my life and the lives of some of the other men in my family, I was recently talking to my Mother and she told me that my father was once a pretty hefty guy and was told to lose weight by a doc for his blood pressure etc. Now I do remember my father going to the YMCA often as a kid I do not remember him being a "fat" guy and talking to my father he told me a story of an uncle of his that was also told that it was time to get some movement into his life for healths sake and he said that his uncle for exercise had a huge stone slab which are everywhere here in CT in his back yard (if you live in New England you know what I am talking about) and after going to work all day he would come home and break the slab apart. when he was done made a stone wall around his house with the broken rocks to give you an idea of the size of the slab, so he ended up with a big clear back yard and a nice new stone wall to go with his better health. That stone wall story gave me an idea well actually it gave my father an idea which sparked my idea, our back yard goes from driveway to a hill that leads into the back yard, My dad told me that I should dig out a parking space in that area for my mustang which would mean a TON of manual work and I believe that by next winter I will have that spot dug out of the hill. If I were the me that I was 13 months ago I would read what I just wrote and think "man that guy is nuts" and yet here I am THAT guy.

I will resume posting daily menus with tomorrows post with the new 1850 calorie limit on them, don't forget that H2O and I think that will conclude another bone chilling episode, meet us back here tomorrow at the same bat time same bat channel kids to find out if Fat man and Blobbin save the day.

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MESACHICK 2/4/2009 1:48AM

  Go you, the king of manual labor! You are awesome!

GORGEOUS tree! I am in AZ and flowering trees, shrubs, etc. are not really here. Cacti have flowers but...not so cute. :-)

P.S. I think the higher calorie range is appropriate because you're a dude!!

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    fat man and blobbin - heh.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/3/2009 5:07PM

    I am right there with you in the looking forward to spring. I never would have thought that I could look forward to mowing grass and moving rocks.

See ya tomorrow.

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SEEHOLZ 2/3/2009 4:32PM

    I have no doubt that you'll still loose-- if not, give it a few weeks. Your body might need adjustment-- attitude for life? You are spot on-- it's a lifestyle change, not a temporary quick fix!
Good for you for not being afraid to change things up!

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TROPHYWIFE2B 2/3/2009 12:11PM

    Woohoo, I get a new parking spot. emoticon

Now I'm going to be way more jealous you get to eat more than me. But I'll deal.

Love ya,

your wife

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DONEPAT 2/3/2009 11:06AM

    Isn't it great building muscle? You can eat more! (just kidding, well, sorta). Great blog, and thank you for the family story. You're doing such a good thing- I know you'll get your parking spot done!

Have a great day!
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BIGGIRL2082010 2/3/2009 10:24AM

    I can _see_ that driveway and parking spot now! :) And that shiny Mustang on it.

We want pics, of course - before and after! :)


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SWEETZMIX 2/3/2009 10:18AM

    Thanks for always letting us be apart of your world!!

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TRACYZABELLE 2/3/2009 10:06AM

    MY plan of attack is to keep healthy soup on hand in the fridge that way no excuses not to eat good! I KNOW I can do it! My daughter is on board too so it is a good thing! WHen I increased my calories it was a bad thing so back I go to 1200 and a little .. Need to get the weight off... I want to LIVE like you are!

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Easy like Sunday morning.. and my love has joined spark!

Monday, February 02, 2009

A word from our sponsors :) My wife joined spark! after you read and enjoy another mind blowing episode of as the fat guy turns please visit my wifes page and leave her some love as she has just joined spark!

now back to our regularly scheduled programming...

This weekend was a busy one as you might be able to tell from my lack of posts, we decided that it was time to paint my daughters bedroom and what we ended up with is as my wife says "a catalog look" I took some before pictures but I haven't taken any afters yet because we ordered a border to put on the walls and when it gets here look for some pics. Ok ok enough about the three year olds room how did your food go this weekend you ask? welp lets say I was not really "on track" it all started Friday, I was at my mother in laws place and she offered me a beer and I agreed and went over calories exactly one beer so Friday was not really too bad. Then there was Saturday which started off well enough with a bowl of Honey combs cereal (which by the way if you don't know is a low calorie very tasty cereal!) but then I was given a bowl of home made beef stew and didn't know how many calories was in it so I figured it high but then the day kind of just went the way of not counting the calories. I don't think I went too far above on Saturday but I was definitely higher than 1700 which ended with a big bowl of popcorn that went perfectly with the movie we watched. Sunday was a different story completely, again breakfast started off ok but as the day progressed I noticed that I wasn't counting the calories that I was eating past mentally noting what had gone down the chute. Dinner was a noodle soup that I made which also started off well enough, I measured my 2 cup portion but was not satisfied with it and had another cup and remember I haven't written down any calories for the day yet! I KNOW that I was way above Sunday where my intake is concerned. We are back on track this morning and I am writing the intake down again, sometimes I have a weekend or a day like that where I just pretty much eat ok (usually a bit higher) but don't count the calories exactly.

I mentioned that we painted my daughters room and I have to mention that I am sore from it! I do not think that the soreness is from when we painted the walls, I used a roller for that but I did paint sort of a mural on her door which took about 45 minutes to paint and another 15 to sketch onto the panels and this is something that I underestimated the power of. My calf is sore from tippy toeing to get the right angle, my core knows that it has done something from all of the holding steady in a position to get straight lines onto the door panels and I am just feeling it in general in spots that normally go under the radar which makes me think. I have a funny feeling that some yoga may be in my future because its what I can equate to how my body feels, like if I were to do yoga, of course I have never really "done" yoga so I am just assuming this is how it would feel.

Over all not a great weekend food wise but not the worse in the world either, but then again this is a lifestyle change and not a diet so in that I am not limited in what or how I can eat. I am still on track to hit that goal of being 300 pounds by the end of June and with the start of February I am a month closer to warmer weather and some hiking, Wify is going to join me this year in my hikes and we bought some "gear" over the winter months so that we can enjoy our hikes a bit more. Living out in the boonies will afford us the pleasure of plenty places to hike (I think) and there is a large wooded area right behind our home now that can be used for the purpose of short hikes with the kiddos, you know conditioning them for longer ones! and with that ends the Monday edition of this old couch, thank you for reading and don't forget that H2O that you just earned for making it through another post!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/3/2009 7:45AM

    Just count the weekend for a trial at maintenance mode.

See ya tomorrow.

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    yoga and I are acquaintances but I would not call us friends. More like keep your enemies closer etc... So glad to see your wife! yay for more friends!

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TRACYZABELLE 2/3/2009 1:33AM

    but maybe it will even out since you exercised more with the painting, right? Not to worry Tony- you have come a long way!

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TELERIE 2/2/2009 3:10PM

    Sounds like you had an ok weekend food wise. I guess we need to let go a little bit from time to time, and as long as it is in moderation all is well in my book.
I visited your wife's page and welcomed her. I'm still waiting to get my own darling to join here. He's joined me completely in our lifestyle change project, but he's not here on Spark (yet).

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MESACHICK 2/2/2009 3:09PM

  You and I have the same thoughts as to what yoga is! LOL Love "tippy toeing"...LOL

SO excited that your wife joined Spark!! I love her screen name...cute!

P.S. You need to post a pic of the mural!

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SWEETZMIX 2/2/2009 10:57AM

    so she finally joined!! haha she is a sparkster too!!

So it sounds like you had a lot of work with that bedroom, but you can count that as movement! So no big deal, you had a beer and didn't count ur calories to the exact..i bet you didn't go crazy or anything like that because ur not like that anymore. You can eat and not count calories and still have a good day calorie wise just by keeping a mental note of everything.

Well Happy Monday and hopefully Friday will be here soon!

Oh yeah wifey's page is private emoticon

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SQUIRRELLYMOM 2/2/2009 10:40AM

    I went to welcome your wifey but she has her page set to private. So I sent a SparkMail instead.


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DONEPAT 2/2/2009 10:25AM

    OOOH I feel your pain. I painted some parts of my apt. years go. My shoulders never forgave me.
I think you did well with the weekend.
I did visit your wife's page.
Hope you have a great week, yes, I DO have a loss this week, but will post it in 2 days :)

Oh, the dog and I walked 1 hour 15 min yesterday.
The same plan is on for today. - It's 47. Spring is coming!
Have a great day.
"NJ Pat"

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180 pounds lost, Weighing in on weighing in once again.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Friday just jumped up on me, I had not even realized that today was weigh in day until I woke up and Wify asked how much did I think I lost this week, so onto the scale I went. No building up today its plain and simply a 2 pound loss, the scale said 354 pounds and that means I am down 180 pounds since starting this path to better health. Fifteen pounds in the month of January is not a bad start to the year, when I started 2009 I would have had to lose an average of 2.8 pounds per week to reach my goal of being under 300 pounds by the end of June but with the 15 pounds that I lost in Jan that average just dropped to 2.5 pounds per week until June to hit that mark, it appears that I am ahead of the original schedule! 20 pounds until I have lost a double century, 54 pounds to reach my June goal and 79 pounds left to hit that magical number that I set when I started this whole thing, seventy nine pounds until I am at my goal weight sounds like a large number, it sounds like an impossibility to say "I have 79 pounds to lose" or it did anyways before I dropped 180 now its just the home stretch. With that 2 pounds this week I have lost a total of 33.70% of my total body weight to date, I set a goal of weighing 275 pounds but I am officially changing that goal to weigh 267 pounds, heres why. If I go for 267 pounds it is only 8 pounds more than my current goal and if I can hit 267 pounds I will have lost 50% of my total body weight and there is something about being able to say that I have lost 50% of my highest weight that appeals to me. Now when all is said and done I suspect that I will actually strive to get even lower than that figure but I think that is a good solid number to shoot for.

This Suzuki GSXR 600 weighs in at 354 pounds just like me.

I have lost more than 1/3 of my total body weight in the past year, that number will be 1/2 by the end of this year or sooner, ideally I would like to be under 300 pounds by the end of June which will give me 6 months to lose that last 25, actually 32 now pounds with the new target weight of 267 lbs which I believe will be a nice obtainable number to reach, When I hit that 300 by June I will need to lose just over a pound per week for the rest of the year to hit my 267 pound goal. Honestly the mere fact that I can say I have lost 180 pounds and that the possibility of me weighing 267 pounds is just around the corner in the grand scheme is amazing to me and something that I have thought a lot about in recent years. Imagine this, a fat kid that has known nothing but being "the fat kid" is now coming pretty damned close to being a weight that will be considered pretty healthy for the first time in his life, for the very first time that fat kid will know how it feels to be able to walk around and not feel as if his gravitational pull demands that every eye in the room be drawn to him merely for the rotundness of his body. My best friend once told me as we talked about being fat (He had lost a bunch of weight at the time, we were about 20 years old) that "being too skinny will always be better than being too fat" and I honestly at the time thought "no way man, I would rather be the way I am than to be skin and bones" I honestly believed that back then and I think its because it was all that I knew, so like that poor kid that lives in an old worn down house where the income is feeble at best doesn't know that his family is "poor" because its what he knows I think I was that fat guy that was living life and doing what I wanted to and could not see the logic in the statement. I have to say that I can agree with his statement that was made so many years ago if not completely I have to admit that being "too fat" Sucks ass, so I think I will see what being skinny feels like for a while.

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PRINCESS462 2/1/2009 4:29PM

  Congratulations!!! Keep up the good work. Twenty years ago i lost 67 lbs and weighed in at 145. I felt great however i let 1 lb turn in to another and before I knew it I was heavier then I was when i started. Now I am well pasted the 200 mark and feeling pretty yucky. I'm having a really hard time getting started. Your story was very inspirational. Thank you. (This is my first time writing on a blog)

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WRITER28 1/31/2009 10:40AM

  Botzzz, I like this post, so inspirational. I know you read that from people a lot, but it's the truth.
Your dedication to your weight loss goal inspires me so much. There is one thing, said you will see 'what being skinny feels like for a while'. Instead of saying and thinking 'for a while' think forever. I believe you will get to your goal and stay there forever and I'll bet you everyone else who's been reading your blog posts feels the same way.

We are all behind you, cheering you on!


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WITHSPIRIT 1/31/2009 8:43AM

    I found your page once and loved it and here I am again and you are flat out AWESOME - not that you don't know that already...I am subscribing to your blog and expect that you will help me too =) Hugs, Lisa

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/31/2009 5:38AM

    Awwww, MAN! You're almost at that 200-pound mark - what an achievement! When you get there, you'll have lost an OBESE short woman's worth of weight! Wow! Actually, at 180, I believe you've _already_ lost that OSW's worth - it's just that most of us don't clue in until we hit the dreaded 2! Phew!

Keep going, keep going. You're SUCH an inspiration ... I can't WAIT to hear that YOU reached the 2##s - from the OTHER side. I'm sure you're gonna over-achieve your way to the June and December goals - let's just watch! :)

*glug* *glug* *glug* *glug*


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TRACYZABELLE 1/30/2009 10:09PM

    I wish I had the energy and stamina to move more-- it would be nice to lose 1/3 of my weight in a year for sure..THe way I will look at it, any loss is a win!
YOU are most certainly a big winner!

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LEAVY1213 1/30/2009 9:00PM

    Congrats on another great week! I think you are right, I think I will try being the skinny kid too, rather than continuing to be the fat kid that everyone teases or at least looks at. I sure know my life has changed for the better by not being the AS fat kid! lol I can't wait to see what it will be like when I really am one of those "skinny kids" lol I am sure I will do things that I said I would NEVER do! I know I can do it! I just gotta keep moving forward!

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SEEHOLZ 1/30/2009 8:55PM

    15 lbs in 1 month! Hard work pays off!

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SUEFROMAZ 1/30/2009 4:57PM

    WOW! Your story is really an inspiration. You'll be at that goal weight in no time!

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DONEPAT 1/30/2009 4:50PM

    You are gonna get there before June, I know it.
Wow, you are just on fire. ....And Awesome :) (had to say that)

Hope you and yours have a wonderful weekend.
and the green tea drinking cat. (yes, he does).

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TAMMIE1006 1/30/2009 3:57PM

    you're amazing! i'm sure that you will have NO PROBLEM surpassing even your new goal ~ just keep doin' what you're doin' ~ and inpiring a heck of a lot of people along the way!

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SLCOLMAN 1/30/2009 3:11PM

    Your progress is amazing!!

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RUNNING@MYPACE 1/30/2009 2:10PM

And for the first time that "fat kid" wont be .....................

It will be Tony, a healthy happy guy!

You always inspire

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RACHELTEEHEE 1/30/2009 12:30PM

    WOW -- just wow. Thanks so much for keeping us posted on your progress. We appreciate your updates more than you know.

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SHINESPARK 1/30/2009 11:46AM

    Great!!! Keep up the fantastic work - My thought of the day is this (and I'm sure you've heard it a ton of times): Nothing tastes better than being thin. Good luck to you!


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SWEETZMIX 1/30/2009 10:06AM

    Great blog and emoticon on the poudage lost. I like the example of not knowing how to feel a certain way because it's always been a way of life. It is sO true about everything, like how we used to eat. We ate that way because that is how we always ate, how we lived (didn't know we all that poor growing up) because everyone else lived like us. Either way I am with ya on seeing how skinny feels. I was never skinny, got to slim, but never skinny. So I am working on getting slim and what the hell...we might as well be the best we have never been and go all the way and be skinny!!

Enjoy ur weekend!!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/30/2009 10:04AM

    Congrats on kicking a couple more to the curb.

I can't wait to read the post on the day you break 300 and the day you cross 267.

Those before and after pictures will be priceless. Think about it . . .

Large Double Bacon Pizza - $25

5XL shirt and __ pants - $100

Losing half of yourself - priceless

Keep it up!!

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