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A cold lazy Sunday.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Lazily sitting around the house on this cold Sunday afternoon, we had a high of 38 degrees yesterday so it was a beautiful January day here in New England, but such is many a day here in the good ol North East we had a 29 degree swing over night and we woke up to 9 degrees. I have the crock pot full of pinto beans and pork neck bones cooking since 10am and we are having a whole chicken roasted for dinner so thats helping keep the house nice and warm, well that and I have the wood burner going in the basement. Something is amiss with my body though, I am unsure if that steak dinner threw my body into some kind of rebellion or if its the Cargo ships holding in port but I am up 4 pounds since Friday's weigh in, I know that I did not gain 4 pounds in a day and a half so I believe that its a combination of those things along with the fact that I only drank about 32 oz of water Friday and a pair of cherry cokes at dinner and then yesterday I had only one gallon of green tea and nothing else so I may be slightly dehydrated which I believe to be the case.

My guess is this week will be one with a small loss and if it is, no worries because I am already ahead of schedule with my goal of hitting 300 by the end of June though I am a little anxious to hit that 200 pound lost mark thats going to happen in about 20 pounds. As I type this re-hydration with my special blend of home brewed green tea is happening and I have 2 gallons made in the kitchen and ready to go, Wify has finally seen the light and has decided to bite the bullet and hop on my green tea train, she asked if I would start making a gallon for her when I make mine because of this plateau she has hit with her weight loss. She does not enjoy the taste of green tea (shame on her!) but she sees what its done and is doing for me so she is sold.

Otherwise everything is where it should be and I am on track, before the day is up I plan on filtering that 2 gallons of tea through me and making sure that I am hydrated to proper levels. I will ride my bike just as soon as I hit the post button on this entry and thats all a fella can do. What will you do today to assure that you are doing all that you can to drop some weight? or just get healthier in general? you can always start with a glass of water and move up from there, it works..

Thanks for reading.

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    I'm on vacation, eating on plan, but completely BLOATED too. I can't seem to get enough water in me for it to go away - This is day 3.. I'm not getting nearly enough sleep or water.. Oh well, it's vacation and I get home tomorrow and can worry about it then. :) How much has your wife lost?? Is she on SP, too?

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RACHEL630 1/26/2009 12:21PM

    Great blog! I'm filling up my glass of water as I'm typing this. Grats on being so close to that 200lbs lost mark. You rock!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/26/2009 9:34AM

    I am with your wife. I can't stand the stuff. I'll stick to plain old H2O.

Speaking of that, I need to go get one.


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TRACYZABELLE 1/26/2009 5:39AM

    I love beans, thank you for the idea! I have pintos at home and 2 ham bones in the freezer so a pot of beans it will be! I need to get abck on track- I am not wearing my night garments and I am sorry-- I am so swollen! MY day garments don't want to stay up becasue my legs are so swollen that they roll down!EEK! GOod luck at WI

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DONEPAT 1/25/2009 10:50PM

    I had the same thing for dinner, and I didn't even look at your blog until now. ( I didn't put the bones in the beans tho). I have issues with that. LOL

Sounds like your attitude is good and keep going. Please tell Mrs. Meatball I didn't like green tea either. I found I had the wrong kind long ago (it had mint in it) and I am - allergic to THERE! Then, I asked YOU and now I am a green tea convert. I swear, it even makes me feel better. The premade teas taste too sweet for me, if that makes sense.

I'm sure you'll get rid of the 4 and the bloat, and be fine.
Because, I said so.
I tell my niece and nephew that (in my pic) and it always is true, so it must be.)
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MESACHICK 1/25/2009 6:53PM

  Sodium + not enough water sucks!! It'll be off in no time...I'm betting on 2 days. You are rockin'!!

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LAURA915 1/25/2009 5:39PM

    I want to know what kind of green tea you are drinking. I bought some Arizona Diet Green Tea but it's got caffeine. Now I have Lipton Decaf Green tea and I add a little splenda to it. Anyhow, I was just curious. Thanks!

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_RAMONA 1/25/2009 2:47PM

    Can I come for supper? What a perfect Sunday meal on a cold wintry day... it's about the same here... VERY cold (-22 F), high wind chill (-54 F)... but my sweeties went skating (indoor temp control rink, with helmets and without me). SIGH. I guess it's a day for reflection.

I like that you're not freaking out... you have a plan and you're being pragmatic... back on the bike figuratively, and truly. The fluid should help... there was probably a lot of hidden sodium in your meal too, which wouldn't help, and studies show that pop is a weight loss killer - trainers notice that clients who drink a lot of pop (even diet) stubbornly retain weight no matter what they do. When they stop the pop their bodies begin to cooperate again. "?" Curious, isn't it? make sure you spend some time snuggling with your nears and dears today, too!

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Zeusmeatball will be out of the office..

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I wanted to get a post up before I ran out because I don't know when I shall return from a busy day of errands. Last night I was, well...naughty where the intake is concerned Wify and I had a chance to go out on a "date" because my Mother in law agreed to watch the kiddos for us so we decided to go to a local steak house. I told my wife that I was not on a diet for our date and was just going to enjoy whatever struck my fancy on the menu and well here is how it went. when we are being seated and walking towards (get ready for this) a booth! I shoot my wife that look that says "oh boy here we go we did not specify a table when we made reservations did we" but I slid right in no problems and that is the first time I ate in a booth at a restaurant in YEARS or should I say first time that I FIT in a booth! The waiter comes over and asks us what we would like to drink and I asked if he had unsweetened tea "yes" cool do you have splenda? "we have sweet and low?" ok give me a cherry coke (see I told ya naughty) we ordered an appetizer of mushrooms stuffed with crab meat which had too much celery in it but was decent. I ordered a NY strip steak with a baked potato on the side with sour cream and butter (the real kind! so naughty again) which came with a green salad also, the steak was maybe the second best steak that I have ever had, and I don't know if its just because I haven't had one in a while or if it really was that good but man was it! Now here comes the kicker my wife says to me "are you getting a desert?" and I said "nah I ate pretty bad today" and then she says "they have fried ice cream" Ok what the hell, she brings me to a place that has "fried ice cream"?? this concept defies common sense to me to fry ice cream (as if its not fattening enough alone!) so I asked wify "are you getting some?" she said yes but that she wouldn't share! (half kidding but serious enough that I decided to get one for myself) now what this is, is a scoop of vanilla ice cream and apparently it gets dropped into a deep fryer and then placed on a plate and covered in either chocolate sauce or honey, yeah evil I know but it was good and I only ate part of it but I would say that I was a very naughty boy last night when it comes to eating.

Other than the HUGE meal I did good for the day sticking to calories and had about 800 to burn on dinner but obviously went over, no worries though that is how do you say? calorie cycling! yeah uh thats what I will call it. Seriously though one bad meal in a sea of good ones will not derail the program, it will not kick me into a downward spiraling binge cycle, it is what it is and thats a life style change. I don't plan on never eating cheese cake again, I do not foresee a future filled with never having a bacon pizza again, it is all about moderation and steady as she goes. I can afford to eat that way once in a while, I can have my cake and eat it too per se. Its sort of like my birthday, I have had a rum cake on my birthday since I can remember and this year I will have one again just like last year and every year before going back more than 30 years, but then maybe thats what got me into this mess in the first place! I honestly look at this as a lifestyle change and not a diet so that steak is no worries at all. I think thats how many people that are on "diets" sabotage themselves back into bad eating, I had been craving a steak for a couple weeks so I had it and now that craving is gone and even if its not I can talk myself into the fact that I just had one of the bes steaks of my life, for those that do not know Steak IS the end all of meals for me and I now do not eat red meat so its been a while. When we eat bad and then think that it somehow justifies that next morsel of goodness and the next and the next is where the failure to lose the weight happens, moderation is the king of weight loss.

Thank you for reading along and don't forget that glass of H2O that ya just earned, and remember folks, YOU have to make the decision to drop the weight, there is no one else that can make you do it.

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    You're awesome and I know one delicious steak dinner won't derail you - GO KID GO!

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JOLIEPOLIE 1/24/2009 8:28PM

    I like MESACHICK's idea of calling our "cheat meal" a "treat meal". We need to be able to be healthy and happy at the same time. It'll never work if you dprive yourself!! But man does that food sound goooooood!!!

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LEAVY1213 1/24/2009 4:11PM

    YUM that does sound good and I LOVE FRIED ICE CREAM!!! My favorite is the honey with whip cream and strawberries on top! YUM-O! lol I would not say you were a naughty boy at all. I think if it is something you haven't had in a very long time that you are being realistic. You cannot and should not have to deny yourself ALL the time. If you are eating healthy 95% of the time and then 5% you have the things you crave then it shouldn't matter. I am pretty sure I have heard either Bob or Jillian on BL say something about you should allow yourself to have one cheat meal a week or a month (can't remember very well can I?! lol). So this is your cheat meal for the week and you don't need to feel guilty at all! :-)

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MESACHICK 1/24/2009 2:24PM

  Salivating here...LOL...steak, butter on a potato, and fried ice cream...meals really do not get any better than that.

My trainer friend told me this instead of calling it a cheat meal, call it a TREAT meal, and...TREAT yourself every once in a while. She thinks it's healthy so you don't overdo it on cravings (as I tend to!). So, I say, glad you could savor a totally yummy meal!!

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DONEPAT 1/24/2009 1:43PM

That is truly a wonderful meal. You made me change my mindset about going out- not that I will soon, but when I have the chance GO OUT AND ENJOY. Lots of times, I did'nt in the past, cuz "I was watching it."
One day won't hurt if you just let it be that one day or meal.
Again, YOU ROCK.

Congrats on the booth thing, and all that too. What a change. The whole night sounds like fun. Glad you got to go out.

Have a great weekend!
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SLMTRACE 1/24/2009 12:31PM

    mmmm steak! lol its good to have a bad meal every now and then, like you said just dont make it a habit again, and i highly doubt that you are going to do that.
ive never had fried ice cream, but it does sound tasty!
Last night was my cheat night as well had me a smothered burrito with cheese mmmm but only half was all i could get in before i felt like exploding. oh and chips with some delish seasoning on them LOL it was delish and i told bf he couldnt take me out again all weekend. he always wants to eat out, makes it hard for a girl to eat well LOL
i hope that you have a wonderful day!
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_RAMONA 1/24/2009 11:36AM

    ROTFL! Calorie cycling! ...and considering your usual diet for weeks and weeks on end, it WAS calorie cycling... you likely really did give your body a metabolic boost. Good for you! And let's not forget the evidence of good behaviour... you left a bunch of calories in reserve for the meal, you chose mindfully, and you only ate part of your ice cream. Even if you didn't... it doesn't matter... this was one meal. Your birthday cake didn't get you here, making consistently poor choices the other 364 days of the year, for many years running, did. One of the big realizations in our house over the last year was how often someone said, "let's have a treat!" as though somehow designating it a 'treat' made it okay to consistently over-indulge. Re-defining 'treat' has been one of the main issues for my family to resolve. I think you've got a pretty good handle on all of it, and you're asking yourself the right questions. I also think you should log yesterday's food, too! I'm guessing it's not that terribly bad for guy your size, with your activity level. And the booth... what a great feeling that must have been! I can remember the first time I thought I could get through a space and got stuck. That was my first realization that maybe something had changed, and that maybe I needed to re-consider the path I was on. There's that 'killing me softly' tune again... {{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}

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SWEETZMIX 1/24/2009 10:56AM

    I totally feel you. If we get a chance to go out to dinner, we enjoy ourselves and workout the next day. And dude I LOVE FRIED ICE CREAM. This Thai place by my job makes the BEST. I feel sorry for those who never had really good FRIED ICE CREAM!! It is a treat that if I get a chance to eat some, I do!! Glad you enjoyed!! And I am like wifey, I don't share either. LOL Fried Ice Cream is not meant to be

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Weigh in, a weight watchers lawsuit and a couple of pounds gone!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Upon waking I had low expectations for my weigh in, now don't misconstrue that for anything but I didn't think it would be a decent amount. I as per every Friday walked into the bathroom and did my thing then straight to the scale, first time on 355.8lbs flashed across the display and I thought to myself "thats not so bad at all" so onto attempt two and 356.0lbs showed its face so onto number three and 356.0lbs again so it appears that I have a 2 pound loss this week and I will take it! I would say I am off to a good start for the month of January and have lost thirteen pounds since the first. I have lost a total of 178 pounds since starting and I have done it with nothing but determination, willpower and a lot of reading and that in itself is amazing to me. I will have lost 200 pounds 22 pounds from now, say it with me, two hundred pounds! I was carrying that around with me on a daily basis, go ahead pick up a 200 pound barbell lay it across your shoulders and take a walk and that was what I was dealing with when I had to use the bathroom, walk to the kitchen for dinner, walk upstairs to my bedroom every minute of every day that was stuck to my body, every minute and everything that I did it was there. Menial tasks were a chore, and anything past that was a lot of times an impossibility at 534 pounds, if you read this and think that you need to have special pills, or pay for pre-made meal plans to see success I am proof that all you need is the will to do it.

This old Triumph weighs in at 356 pounds which as you know is what I weighed in at this morning.

Hows that for a Halibut! he weighed 178 pounds which of course is what I have lost to date.

Some of these weight loss plans may not always be as they appear, A lawfirm in Washington DC has filed a class action law suit against Applebees restaurant and Weight Watchers for meals served at Applebees on their "Weight Watchers menu" and these are two well known entities in our lives and the consumer is apparently being duped with the Weight Watchers logo and name. their Cajun Lime Tilapia Weight Watchers menu item claims to have six grams of fat, but when tested at Analytical Labs of Boise Idaho 12 grams of fat was the actual fat content that came back from their test. Applebees Garlic Herb Chicken also from the Weight Watchers menu should have six grams of fat, but that came back as having 18 grams of fat when tested, I just saw this on the morning news as I was typing this post out and it really makes a fella think about going out to a restaurant for a meal, I will be interested to see how this plays out.

All the more reason to buy fresh food at local markets rather than eating out and trusting that you are being fed what you are being sold on. I think with weight loss when it is in the amounts that I and many of you reading this have lost comes personal responsibility for what we eat and how we exercise and with that comes the knowledge of how to do both consistently. I think in the past 388 days I have grown in knowledge as I have shrunk in physical size and have relearned a lot of things about myself that had been forgotten with the weight gain and that is a positive side effect of this process that I did not expect. With that another post has come to an end, but fret not! tomorrow is another day and another post shall emerge! I may even give ya an afternoon nugget to nibble on as I am feeling in a mood to write today, keep on keepin on and don't forget that glass of H2O that you deserve for reading along.

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SLCOLMAN 1/23/2009 5:52PM


How sad about the Weight Watchers and Applebees thing!!

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MESACHICK 1/23/2009 1:03PM

  Congrats!! :-) Your determination is especially inspiring this week. I am under the weather and therefore under on my motivation. Loved the halibut pic... :-)

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SLMTRACE 1/23/2009 12:53PM

    Man your workin it! I am sadly suprised by the applebees and weight watchers, ive eaten that thinking it was "healthy"... but i guess since the creators of weight watchers are not thin (they live here in utah) i should have known it was a schem. blah! anyways great job i am truely proud of you, and you are right, people dont need pills or packaged meals, they need research and will and want to really do it. cheers emoticon have a great day!

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DONEPAT 1/23/2009 12:36PM

    The halibut visual was really cool. OMG.
RE: The weight watchers menu, applebees,etc- I never trust that stuff. I figure, the chefs prepare it differently, and maybe don't adhere to the guidelines (obviously). I don't eat out, but when I do, I am careful. But thanks for the reminder.

I had to carry up a big plastic tub of cat litter the other day. It was 28 pounds. I 've lost more than that, but even that was a lot to carry. I imagined myself carrying that around the block- but back to you- you've really done amazing. No special diet, etc.

But that laughing cow stuff IS magic! LOL

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SWEETZMIX 1/23/2009 11:54AM

    emoticon on the weight loss!! Well I LOVE to eat out. Don't like Applebee's though. But when i go to a restaurant I enjoy myself and eat what I like and take half home with me. I don't stress myself over calories and fat because I know I work hard every day and eating out once in awhile won't kill me. I wonder how this whole weight watchers and applebee's thing plays out too!!!!!!!!!

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SCIENCE_WRITER 1/23/2009 11:43AM

  Using the visuals really makes a difference. It changes your thinking a lot! Thank you for posting this!

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LEAVY1213 1/23/2009 11:41AM

    Excellent job this week!

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DALAI_LALA 1/23/2009 9:39AM

    You are doing a wonderful thing for yourself, man! Keep up the good work...

That halibut picture is a brilliant illustration, I love it!


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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/23/2009 9:19AM

    It's going to be a huge party day when you cross that barrier.

That is also curious about the Applebee's thing. It does help to emphasize that going out to eat for a treat isn't such a bad thing, but going out to eat all of the time can really pack it on, even if you are eating the "healthy" options.

Keep on going and I'll go get my water.

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/23/2009 9:15AM

    I wanna see you carry that halibut while you ride that bike! :) That would be the ULTIMATE visual! :)

Phew! You're sooo close to losing 200 pounds ... makes me just think how little I need to lose and how lazy I've been about doing it! :) No fair making me think - my little brain cells don't like all that extra stress! :)

Keep going - you're doing soooo very awesome! 13 pounds in a single month (which isn't even OVER yet) is very impressive!


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Ships in port and realizations, what say you!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

I had to pick up a few things at the supermarket last night and while I was walking around the store with my 3 year old screaming jingle bells the whole time providing entertainment for the entire store I was taking notice of the things in peoples carts and I started noticing a trend, virtually every person had a cart full of processed food items. Ho-Ho's, Hostess muffins, soda of all types, pre-packaged fish and tv dinners and it became clear to me why so many people are over weight these days, myself included. I use to be that guy walking through the isle (well my wife was that person I usually stayed home) with all of those things in the cart and now here I was with a bag full of apples, another full of pears and a bunch of bananas sitting next to some green tea a carton of eggs and a package of light multigrain english muffins not to mention the skinless chicken breast in my cart. I was waiting in line at the deli counter for some American cheese and next to me was a woman with a kid in her cart and he had a box of cheese nips in the little seat next to him and his fingers were covered in cheesy goodness and he was digging in, but so was mom so its just what normal life is to the little guy. I thought about that kid and how he may just turn out to be a 534 pound fella like I was some day, I thought "She should have given him a bag of grapes to graze on while they shopped" and then thought about how I was that person once upon a time, I was that guy with the open bag of chips in the cart while walking through the isles just munching away and not so long ago my thought may have been closer to "Ohhh cheese nips! now there is an idea!" as I dropped a couple boxes into my own cart, It is amazing how we perceive things depending on the state of mind we are in.

I like to believe that I have turned myself around 180 degrees where health and my eating habits are concerned, I know that I will live longer because of my decision, I know that my kids and wife will have me around just a bit longer and we will do more in that time because of making the choice to get healthy again and lose this weight. It is not only my family that is getting a benefit from this change either, I get email messages from total strangers telling me how something I wrote made something click inside them and they have been eating better because of it and I have to admit that messages like that make me want to stay on track even more than I already do. I have made friends through this blog that if not for my weight I would not have had the pleasure and I have received some great messages from people from all over the place asking me questions or telling me of their success and in what way my blog has helped them in that and thats not something that I expected to happen when I started writing in this blog. I started writing because I wanted a place to stay accountable and I left it public because then I knew there was a chance someone would see it, then on my 4th post there was a comment by "Anonymous" and I thought "wow someone read this? pretty cool" and then in the next week a couple more comments came in and it really made me want to write more on this blog that I started on a whim. Now I see that 49 people have added themselves to the "follow" part of this page (I know there are more of you that are not on that list too) and I thinks thats very cool! there are a few of you that have emailed me and we chat often and then there are others that have never left a comment and I appreciate each of you that choose to follow along with me as I get healthy again, this blog has helped me stick to plan more than you know, so Thanks. Ok ok before I start getting sappy or something have a look at yesterdays menu.


8:00 AM
2 light english muffins 180
1 serving turkey pepperoni 70
sliced tomato 15
2 wedges laughing cow cheese 70
1 dill pickle 5

11:45 AM
1 pear 85

2:30 PM
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95

3:15 PM
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T jam 50

6:45 PM
1 can tuna 150
1 T miracle whip 35
2 80 cal rolls 160
1 dill pickle 10
sliced tomato 15

8:30 PM
1 Pear 85
1 Apple 90

Thats a grand total of 1455 calories for the day, I did get in a 25 minute ride on my stationary bike last night as well but I am afraid I have to admit that the ships have not left port in a couple of days. I do hope thats on the schedule for the day at some point because tomorrow is weigh in day and I am afraid its looking bleak if some of these ships don't clear out. Otherwise this week has gone well enough that I think there will be at least a small loss tomorrow morning and if not? no worries there is always next week right? Thats it kids, another episode is behind us and hopefully another pound or 3 gone for good, You know the place so be here tomorrow for the next episode of as the fat man turns.

Don't forget that H2O that you deserve for reading the post.

As Ever

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_RAMONA 1/23/2009 1:21PM

    What inspires me most on a daily basis is watching my 4 year old daughter relate to food... it doesn't even compare to what I learned. She wouldn't accept the cheese nips... she would DEMAND the grapes! LOL! And when people do offer her things like cheese nips she just sort of blankly looks at them, or will politely nibble one and then quietly ask me if there is something else she can have. I've seen her pick up a piece of wonderbread, sniff it, look under it, and then look around for 'real' bread. THAT'S all I need to keep going. And in many ways, she's leading me... her instincts and impulses aren't messed up yet, and she is helping me regain my own authentic response to food and in eating to live, rather than living to eat. Thanks again for sharing YOUR authenticity! That's what keeps me coming back here.

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    In keeping with the TMI theme that you have begun - Just get some poo medicine! I've been using it off and on since I started - sometimes you just need some help to get it going if you know what I mean. Huzzah for the awesome post as per usual.

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TELERIE 1/22/2009 3:09PM

    Very interesting read! I'm reading stuff from your blog to my darling too, as some of your other commentators mention. Our shopping cart is looking different these days too - I'm amazed when I think back on what we used to buy....
Good luck on the weigh-in, grab some fiber and you'll see the ferry get moving again.
Enjoy the journey!

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SWEETZMIX 1/22/2009 2:45PM

    Ok I will keep this short because I see a lot of long comments. LOL We love u, love the blogs, love that you are honest and can handle the honesty back. Make sure ur fiber is good and exercise today. Movement usually helps. If nothing happens after weigh in, get something for that from the store and stay in the house that day. LOL The re-weigh urself. I will be looking out for your blog tomorrow.


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TX.PATRICIA 1/22/2009 2:27PM

    I always look forward to reading your blogs! They are always HONEST above all!! That's what makes them so motivating. You realize there are many things that will happen along your journey both good and bad!

Always remember to shop the outside aisles of the grocery store! At least that's what I have been told. Now if I would just do it, LOL!!

Keep up the good work!

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ANGELBLEU 1/22/2009 1:57PM

    I read your stuff all the time... it is an inspiration to see that you have lost all that weight.. AND the difference in your pictures is amazing! I have showed my husband even the pics and he is like in shock ( my hubby is the guy who can eat 6 big macs in one setting and not gain anything...JERK!) its awesome that you have stuck to everything you do!

As far as the shopping goes... i do the same thing! I make sure my kids get a small "goodie" n their lunches, but i try to make it as healthy as possible with veggies on their sandwiches and fruit either a banana grapes or oranges from our own tree... raisins too... they of course get chips but i try to go for the baked ones or sun chips....and i have told them they do not have to eat it all and believe it or not they eat all the fruit and leave half the sandwich and half the chips...but when you see what some people have in their carts... and yes i used to be that person... with tons of cans of chef boy ardee for the kids and hostess cakes.. not any more...and really being a restaurant manager, I could go on for hours about what people order just for dinner... and the calories...sigh... I used to be that person too... BUT NOT ANYMORE!!!!!!! good for you and congrats on your journey.... you are doing yourself a whole lotta good! :)


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MESACHICK 1/22/2009 1:38PM

  That's funny...I remember thinking I was being SO healthy for getting a footlong TURKEY sub instead of a footlong CHEESESTEAK...and for eating a large bowl of LIGHT ice cream instead of a large bowl of FULL-FAT ice cream. LOL You are right - it's all about where you are at, and your state of mind. Such an interesting post.

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DONEPAT 1/22/2009 1:35PM

    You DO inspire people- esp. this Jersey Girl. :0) I know what you mean re: people's carts. I do stay away from the processed stuff, and yes, it is a bit more expensive in some ways, in other ways, its cheaper, cuz I'm not getting the Ho Ho's donuts, or things like that. Grapes Rock. So do Clementines. A big box here on sale was 3.75. lasts longer than ding- dongs.

.......Although, yes, the ding dongs do sound good at times. I've seen people shop with bags of chips open, munchin' away. Like- can't you wait? Eat grapes.
Oh, and I'm not a sucker for the 100 cal packs either. You CAN eat more than one at a sitting, ya know? :)
Ok, Um, I really really just stopped by to say HI. Loved the blog. Keep going.
You are just .....awesome. ....dude. (I NEVER use that phrase)- so you can laugh!

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    I have started also looking at what others buy at teh grocery store. It is usually junk especially if there are kids. I've have started at the produce section and work my way around the outside of the store. It amazes me how much I just don't go down most aisles anymore. yes, we do indulge every once in awhile, but my kid used to be a junk food junky. Now, she has changed her habits along with mine just by following my example. I never preached to her to do it, she just realized that mom was getting healthy and losing weight and it made her want to get healthy. now she questions everything that we buy, is this healthy? why is it healthy? why isn't it? I think it is great, I have her read the labels and tell her what is bad on it. she is a much smarter 6 year old now with knowledge of eating healthier. she often will choose fruit or some low fat cheese or cottage cheese over any junk food. she even does this at friends houses which makes me proud. one friend's house she just didn't eat becuase there was nothing healthy to choose from. I'm so proud that I can be that example finally for my daughter and you are doing the same for your children. Great job!!!

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TRACYZABELLE 1/22/2009 11:33AM

    Your shopping cart sounds like ours but I feel as if people look at me like "Who is she shopping for" I dont buy crap.. It is the food I eat outside of the house that makes it harder to lose.. I need to get to where I am making all of my meals with an occasional eating out.. WOrk meals need to change! WHen I look at what I make at home and what I am fed at work..I know what is at home is better.. I can do it-- if you can I can!Thank you again!

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NEWLYWED3709 1/22/2009 11:17AM

    Sounds like you truly have come 180 degrees! My fiance and I can totally relate to your shopping cart versus others. ^_^

Way to go!

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JADEDINVASION 1/22/2009 11:05AM

    I do the same thing when I'm shopping and I'm amazed at what some people put into their carts! When i was growing up i HATED that my mom wouldn't buy that kind of stuff for me, but now i'm glad because i hate eating food out of a box.

To be honest i get some quiet satisfaction when I'm lined up with some thinner girl standing infront of me buying a bunch of boxed up foods where all mine is fresh and un-prepackaged. A little catty? You bet but we need to take pleasure in the small things when we can ;)

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CHEEKYMUNKEY 1/22/2009 10:30AM

    I know what you mean about the supermarket. I see people with kids who are obviously way overweight and yet they are letting them walk around the store eating horrible things and even worse in their cart. My heart really goes out to the kids. Luckily, my 7yr old daughter has jumped on the health bandwagon with my husband and I. She is wild about fruits for dessert and even if we eat fast food, she will order apple slices and such to eat while I eat my salad. She loves to exercise with me and I don't feel so bad when she is exhausted too. LOL

And I definitely have to agree that you are an amazing inspiration. I love that you blog so much, both your ups and downs. When you are soaring high, your success is motivating and when you have a down it is still motivating and proof positive that there are bumps for -everyone- on this journey...even someone as successful as you. I have often read snippets of your blog aloud to my husband and he thinks your success is incredible too.

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ELFITZPA 1/22/2009 10:13AM

    You DO inspire people! I've actually told my boyfriend - a non-Sparker - about your story and he's amazed!! He's no slough himself, dropping about 100lbs a couple years ago and staying comfortably under 200lbs ever since, through good old diet and exercise. He knows what it's like to totally change your life around and he loves to hear about other people who've done the same. So you actually have 2 new people following your progress.

Keep up the excellent work!

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She's a maniac, maniac on the floor...Neckholes!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Stepping out of the shower yesterday I had grabbed one of my 6XL shirts out of the closet because I was just going to be watching some boob tube (the biggest loser of course) and then heading to bed, as I was walking from the bathroom I noticed that my entire shoulder was hanging out of the neckhole like some 80's chick. I couldn't help but laugh as I walked through the hallway and into the living room feeling like Molly Ringwald in sixteen candles or Jennifer Beals in Flashdance to show wify. It is amazing that I at one time filled these shirts in to the point that I was wondering when it was going to be time for a 7XL or maybe a trip over to Charlie the tent makers place for a fitting. Now I just about fit perfectly into a 3XLT instead of being on the cusp of a Coleman 4 Man tent and that folks is what they call a good feeling, I have a 3XL shirt (a small 3x I might add) that I have had since before I met my wife that is from an old job and I have held onto that shirt all of these years because I have always said that I would wear it again and I am so close to fitting into it right now that I cannot believe it, I was 22 years old the last time that shirt fit me and I know that I will be able to comfortably wear it this summer.

Which brings me to my next point, I have a lot of clothing that ranges from 56 waist jeans, slacks and dress pants down to shirts from 6XL on down to my current size that I will need to get rid of at some point. It has been suggested to me to drop them off at good will or the salvation army but something dawned on me while pondering that, Big guys don't or won't look at those places for clothing because it would be a fruitless venture to seek out used clothing that large, its just how it is. Most clothing in that size has to be bought at specialty shops, Casual Male (most of my clothing is from here) or from online places like King size direct and thats just the way of the fat man. So back to my point, I will have all of these clothes that are way too big for me when I reach my goal weight and I was thinking about donating them to someone that could use them after I hit that mark of 275 pounds, I also am NOT the heaviest guy I know any more so I can ask the two fellas that I know if they could use any of the clothing as well. A lot of the stuff that I have in those larger sizes are brand new and not even worn! I have some dress shirts that were bought online (King size direct) a long while ago that are still in what they came shipped in, and some T shirts hanging in the closet that still have tags on them all in around 6XL size. Then there is the jeans and shorts etc, I have jeans that were bought right before I started losing this weight that are still folded with tags on down to dress pants and a suit that is WAY too big for me currently (maybe the suit can be taken in? I don't know) but I do think at some point I will offer some of it here on this blog to some of the larger fellas that may be reading as well as my friend and my wifes friends Hubby whom are both a bit larger than me currently.

I went over my calories yesterday, and I went over because of weak willpower. We were not going to get home until a little later than normal so we decided on Subway as dinner and wify grabbed a bag of doritos to have on the side, so I came home and like a good boy figured out that I could have my subway (turkey/veggies) AND 1oz of doritos (which is like crack to me btw) and still be at my limit, Perfect! or so I thought. after I was done I grabbed a couple more out of the bag and ended up eating an extra oz worth of the cheesy crack that is called doritos so I ended up going over by 140 calories which is what the bag says 1oz is equal to. Bah! I went over? so I immediately felt guilty for doing it and told my wife and I quote "since I can't go throw it up imma ride the bike to make up for it" to which she responded "but your back hurts" "yes dear but I feel like crap for going over on a binge food" and off I went to ride, and 25 minutes later I didn't feel as bad though it was not a shining moment. I know not an exemplary example and certainly not my normal rock of a self where deciding against such things goes but I did workout to try and offset it a bit so I am good with it. Here is a look at the menu.


8:00 AM
2oz honey combs 220
8oz 1% milk 110

10:30 AM
1 pear 85

11:45 AM
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T jam 50

1:15 PM
1/2 T peanut butter 45
1/2 banana 50

3:45 PM
progresso soup (pot roast) 160
brussel sprouts 45

6:15 PM
turkey subway 560
2oz doritos (crack) 280

Thats a grand total of 1840 calories and 140 above where I should have been, I rode the bike for 25 minutes even though I was going to skip it because of a sore back. I am not going to sweat an extra 140 calories though I do feel like I let myself down a bit only because it was a binge situation and I just wanted the extra I mean chips. With that an end comes to another broadcast from the emergency fat loss system, tune in tomorrow for more details on how a fat guy got (is getting) not so fat, keep those glasses full and the movement constant and fat loss WILL happen.

As Ever

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TBUCY75 1/23/2009 11:11PM

    I was just going through and reading blogs from ppl on our team (300+) and I have to tell you that I really enjoyed this blog. You were cracking me up talking about Sixteen candles and Flash dance yet I so know what you mean. I have a bad habit of always saying I am going to go to the Coleman outdoor warehouse to find me a lovely dress so I was laughing again when you referred to the tent. I know that you were adding some humor in there with a serious subject and that's why this was so enjoyable to read. You should write for a magazine or paper I swear.

You have done great and I wish you all the luck in the world on finishing and reaching your goal.

your emoticon,Tina

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_RAMONA 1/23/2009 12:46PM

    ...But did you DANCE, Botzzz?! If you're going to wear the shirt (especially if it is for the last time) you have to DANCE! Good for you... what a great feeling it all must be. I have a suggestion for the clothes, if you're interested. - The group is great - and it just may be the place for you to bless someone who really needs what you are offering!

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ANGELBLEU 1/22/2009 2:09PM

    i know the feeling of clothes as well.... my work told me my pants were too big and i had to get new ones... nope i was thinking im too comfy and they are not that big....then of course they said i looked sloppy...which pissed me off so i went to get new pants...(they know how to get me to do stuff by pissing me off lol) i went down 10 sizes. in pants thats alot i went from a 56 to a 46 so i guess that be inches? i dont know but i was like what the hell.... and now that means I hafta wear a belt.. EW..but i can see the weight loss now which is amazing to me! so congrats Mr flashdancer! That is awesome! :)

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RUNNING@MYPACE 1/22/2009 9:08AM

    LOL Ok love the image of you as a flashdancer!! I love when the clothes start to fall off!! That is one of the best feeling there is!
I got into a new size pants while I was in Arizona doing the 1/2 marathon....size 8 woohooo Still a little hang over at the waist but I'll take it!!

You did good on the calories...don't beat yourself up for 140 over! You know how to fix it and I know you will!!
Take care! Thanks for the smile!!


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TRACYZABELLE 1/22/2009 4:58AM

    Maybe I need to look into mens shirts-- ladies dont give u enough room.. MY 5x are way r=too small and of course we wont discuss the pants other known as sausage skins I shimmy into.. sucks being this heavy-- youda thunk I would hurry up and get thin! grrrr..
LOve the flashdance reference! Ya know that MIchael Nouri (her love interest) is in a series now-- OC my kid watches it..

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MESACHICK 1/21/2009 10:46PM

  Good for you, Flashdance!! WOO-HOO!! LOL "crack" is baked goods (cookies, rolls, pastries). If they are in the house, they vanish little by little, usually at my hand alone...I am totally going to start calling them crack! You CRACK me up!!

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LEAVY1213 1/21/2009 7:23PM

    I am proud of you for realizing it after the 1 extra ounce and did some bike riding to make up. How easy it is to say, "oh well I blew it, so I am going to go crazy and then I will start again tomorrow." But you didn't! You said, "okay what can I do to fix it? well nothing about what already went down the shoot, so I have to take care of those extra calories by exercising" and you did it. WTG! We can't always be perfect so sometimes we have to do other things to offset those not so perfect times. :-) Have a great evening and a terrific day tomorrow! Oh and I hope your back is feeling better. I swear back pain is the ultimate worst. So I certainly hope you don't have it continue for too long!

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DONEPAT 1/21/2009 6:40PM

My hero! LOL
You did well.We all have crack moments. You've probably read or saw my pickle blog. " One a pickle, always a pickle, you can never go back to being a cucumber." That's a phrase a counselor used on the show Intervention when talking about any addiciton, or um.....well, habit, problem, whatever you want to call it. whether it be food, drugs, or drinking. Meaning the feeling will always be there, you have to learn to control it. i.e. a pickle cannot go back to being a cucumber. - So, if you see "pickle talk" at my page, that's where it comes from. Anyway, I digressed and you DID SO WELL. You were so aware and wanted to "fix" it right away. How many of us get into mindeless eating? Alot of us- I mean,how many of us are on spark? Just don't fall into the habit.

You can do this. and You it so well. :0)

As for the bigger clothes, I can imagine it must be harder to find a larger person, i would hang on to them until you can find someone that needs them.
Until then, keep on doing what you are doing. You are the greatest!

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CHEEKYMUNKEY 1/21/2009 6:38PM

    ROFL! The 80's tee part cracked me up. I think we can all relate to having to fight against the cheesy goodness of Doritos and such. Maybe next time exercise before the 2nd oz and see if you are still craving them.

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SLMTRACE 1/21/2009 2:28PM

    i was laughing so hard at your 80's chick shirt comment, that is just so awesome though, and i'm so happy for you!
dang those cheesy crunchy goodness you call crack, those are one of my problems as well, and they are very hard to resist. I think that the next time you will remember last night and not do it again, so something good did come from indulging a bit. and good for you for getting on that bike even though you were sore! dont let it beat you up to bad, you did great!
have a wonderful day!

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SWEETZMIX 1/21/2009 2:24PM

    Ok I totally understand by wanting something but not needing it. I did the same thing yesterday (sometimes I think we have 2 much in common). So anyway we had an office inauguration party and I avoided the egg plant parm, the chicken meatballs, the brownies, the brushetta...everything. Of course what did they have, soft chocolate chip cookies. (Good ice cream and chocolate chip cookies are my thing crack!!) I had 3 tracked them the best I could in spark and when I was done I said to myself I really didn't need 3. And there I was drinking tons of wash away the taste. But it's OK. I went over my cals by like 10 or 30...not a big deal. We live and learn!!

Thanks for sharing your world with us!!

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SLCOLMAN 1/21/2009 1:44PM

    At least it was only 1 oz extra on the "crack" food!! And WTG for getting on that bike and working some of it off immediately! You my friend are a Rock Star!!

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TAMMIE1006 1/21/2009 12:56PM

    you are such a freakin' rockstar!! if i had binged on my usual suspects of brownies and/or ice cream, i woulda just sat there feeling guilty - you actually got on the bike to make up for it right then and there!! you are my hero, i am not worthy (kneeling and bowing at your feet)
my cardio of choice is the elliptical, which i only have access to at the gym.....i REALLY need to get one for at home!
keep it up, my fab friend!
your groupie,

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LAURABRAT 1/21/2009 11:42AM

    If you cannot find a friend to send those clothes over to, there is a clothing exchange team here on SP. I have given away some items there before, you just ask the person to pay shipping on the item. Also, plus size items sell really well on ebay. Like you said, they are not easy to find items, and as I know plus size clothing can get really expensive. Just a couple of alternatives for you:)

As for your crack of choice, I'm sure MANY of us understand exactly where you are coming from. I'm one who believes you have to keep giving yourself the things you love, indulgences, or the denial will push you over the edge into a huge binge. I'm not talking an oz. over, I'm talking a family size bag over. You did it, you were proactive about it, and you'll move on. Great job:) Have a fabulous week!

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    I'd be careful with the crack. Once an addict, always an addict. I don't really buy that occasional use stuff - I personally can't eat a piece of cake right now - or maybe ever again. That sounds harsh, but it's my reality. I've said it before - I'm the Gary Busey of weight loss.

Now, that being said I am SUPER proud of you for what you've accomplished, and I just want to know - did you do the little run dance from flashdance???? Just say yes.

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KWOLF150 1/21/2009 10:44AM

    Hey my friend! We all have the "crack" moments. It is in my BLOOD brother! Do not beat yourself up over the 140. Ya know? I think the difference in you now is that before you would not even have thought about it at all. or so conscious of what you put in your mouth and THAT is a wonderful thing. So..lift that head up. You did GOOD!
Having said that....I do the same thing. I always feel so guilty and BAD when I go over. Like your moment last night....I usually don't go over by much when I have the "crack" moments.
So..I think we are way ahead on points in that area. When I think about how easy it is to go over...and how well I do to stay within my limits...I think I do pretty darn good now.
I am proud for you. You are so" in" to what you are putting in your mouth and the exercise....that is great.
In my had a GREAT moment. Way to go.
Keep up the fantastic work. 3XL? are going to be wearing XL. You are doing so well.
We are such funny creatures. I too held on to some jeans that I have had in my closet for so many years that I am embarrassed to say. I WILL wear those jeans. I will. :) (I think they are totally back in style now also LOL!!!)

GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Kel

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JANA_N_TN 1/21/2009 10:33AM

    Found your blog VERY inspiring as chocolate is my "drug of choice". Congratulations on your achievements thus far...............they far outweigh (no pun intended) your slip ups. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 1/21/2009 10:10AM

    We all have the crack moments . . . Just don't make them crack habits.

On the clothes, you might want to consider having a yardsale. I now that when I was bigger, if I saw a yard sale with big man's clothes, it was definitely on the list. You can then use the cash generated to either buy new clothes for you or to donate it to your favorite charity.

How does the back feel after the ride?

Off to get my water.

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