Friday, September 05, 2008
There is a photo of me from Woodstock 99 that I chose not to post on spark, if you would like to see it go to my blogspot @ zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/
Learning from what a person does is the best form of education in my opinion, nothing can beat experience where learning is concerned. with that said I have in the past 8 months learned my limits on exercise again, I have learned how to eat properly and moderately and I have learned how to feel comfortable with myself again as far as my size goes. I can read one thousand books about weight loss & health and have that knowledge inside my cranium and be able to answer any question tossed at me by anyone and yet still weigh 500 plus pounds, BUT until I try it out for myself its not really worth as much as if I had the experience under my belt and lived it, now a combination of the two would be optimum. Random is my head this morning as I type and last night I was browsing at some photos of people that have lost weight and I noticed something about a lot of them, in the before weight loss photos the person generally does not look as happy as in the after shots, now I know that doesn't exactly seem hard to figure out, one, the before pic the person was heavy and likely uncomfortable with themselves, two, the person likely picked the worse photo to show the most dramatic difference possible (I know I am guilty!) but the thing that caught my attention the most was that the person looked comfortable with themselves in the after, and what I mean is they look like the size of their body is not something that is floating around the gray matter at surface depth, there is no tugging at clothing to make it feel right, there is no constantly pulling the pants up and just a generally happier look to them. I can remember a time in my life when it would not be totally uncommon for me to be walking around with shorts on with a button up shirt on but totally unbuttoned, that is when I was comfortable in my own skin and I can remember a time when even though I may have been a pretty good sized piece of real estate walking through the crowd I was none the less walking through the crowd. Something dawned on me a while back, I thought about my former self and I am the guy that cleared the pit at Woodstock 99, and what I mean is that mid song I found myself all alone in the middle of the pit demanding that I be joined so that I had someone to slam against but no one wanted any more of what was being handed out, one of my best friends that was there with me said to me shortly after that happened and I quote "I've never seen that side of you and I think I am a little scared now", How could I let myself go from that to a 534 pound guy that couldn't even walk 1/4 mile without making excuses to go back? I walked around Rome NY quite literally for four days all while participating in other physical activities for that event and went to work the day afterwards with no issues! that was only 9 years ago! but yeah like I said randomness is in my skull this morning.
Oh yeah I weighed in this morning, I am going to call it even with last week though there is a slight loss. Last week I weighed 389.4 pounds and this morning I weighed 388.8 pounds so its a .6 loss for the week which I will just round up to 389 pounds so no loss no gain for the week as far as recording it goes. this is actually good news in a way because it lets me know that I can indulge a bit and not gain anything, I did nil exercise this week barring a single ride on my bike on Wednesday and I ate at restaurants twice this week as well as had birthday cake a sundae and a rather large piece of chocolate silk cherry cake at my aunts house and my sleeping was way off this week as well, there was even a few beers in there and no weight gain, but rather a slight loss so can I be upset at this weeks number? no way, no how. I won't put up a pic of what weighs the same etc because its the same as last week for the most part and I did give ya that Woodstock photo instead. I will be back on track this week and plan on exercising daily, My Mom has returned home to CA and there will hopefully be no distractions this week.
That is how do they say? all she wrote for todays entry, thanks for reading along.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
I totally forgot to post this morning! so a late post it shall be and a weigh in is lurking in the next few hours, I do not expect to have lost much with the week that I have had, I have been out to dinner twice, have had cake twice and there was even a sundae in there at one point. exercise was all but not there with me riding the bike a total of one time this week, if I have a loss its not because of anything that I did.
On a different note I have been worrying about the loose skin issue a lot lately but there is something at work in that area of my body. Something that I do not post on this blog is that I take bi monthly photos of myself for comparison purposes and the last one that was taken was on August 12th so it was time for the beginning month photo, and when I put them together I noticed that the picture taken on the first has a noticeable difference in the way I look and more so how I am shaped. in the month of August I lost a total of 11 pounds and in July the total was 16 pounds so a 27 pound difference in the last 2 months total and if I were looking at photos that were taken two months apart and a total of 27 pounds I would think "oh ok its a 27 pound difference and two months" but we are talking about a 20 day difference and on August 15th I weighed in at 394 pounds which is only a 5 pound difference from the 12th to the first and yet the difference in the two photos is clear and obvious. I would post the pictures up to show you exactly what I mean but I take the bi monthly photos in my skivvies and shirtless and I would not want to subject any of you to that sort of thing. So, with all of that aid I feel as if maybe the difference in the way it all looks to me is that skin is shrinking slowly but surely and that is why I appear to be in photos smaller. now is this even possible? hell if I know, but I do know that the 4x shirts that I just bought within the last couple months fit looser on me already and a significant amount of weight has not been lost in that same time period. maybe someone with some experience on this subject can chime in and let me know if I am crazy or not.
but alas children call so I must end this post here, check in tomorrow for the weigh in post and until then keep on keepin on.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Now THAT would take some serious willpower to stay away from.
Let us start with a quote this morning, "What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists...and it becomes available only when you are in that state of mind in which you know exactly what you want...and are fully determined not to quit until you get it" -Alexander Graham Bell- this quote defines my state of mind where losing this weight is concerned, and that may seem like a heavy quote for a thing such as losing some weight to some people, likely the people that have never had to lose the amount of weight that I and many other people have had to lose but heavy none the less. I have always treated this as something that I have to do instead of something that I want to or am just doing and that in itself may be the driving force behind what I have accomplished in the last eight months. I started off at a whopping 534 pounds and in just eight short months with nothing more than raw determination and discipline have dropped 145 pounds of unwanted body weight from my 6'5'' frame and still have more than 100 pound left to lose, imagine that, a guy that has lost 145 pounds still has more than 100 pound to lose before a respectable weight is realized, thoughts like that floor me.
I have grown up around a few family members that have struggled with weight loss and all of them have handled it a little differently than the next, from Atkins diet to taking the latest and greatest miracle pill right on down to basic calorie counting and some have had some good results and some have had less than good but they all have had the same end result for the most part which is to put the weight back on at some point. I think that anyone can be a success where losing weight is concerned and it does not take the next big diet buzz or miracle pill to do so, I have said this before but I think it is worth repeating, we all have what it takes to lose weight and its something that is free to all of us, its called willpower others call it determination and still others call it drive but you do have it and its free for the taking and it is all that you need to successfully drop the pounds. I know that things are tempting and I know that sometimes are harder than others but the fact is that you make the choice to put the food in your mouth and you make the decision to exercise or not to do those things. can it be difficult sometimes to not eat that piece of pie? will that chocolate covered cherry call to you now and again? maybe but it still comes down to whether you have the willpower to not take it or will it be eaten with extreme prejudice? the choice is always ours to make.
Sometimes you just have to stop and ask "what am I doing to myself?" and when the answer is obvious a decision needs to be made. are you ready to begin the rest of your life? or maybe the more important question is are you ready to stop killing yourself? Make the decision...
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Tuesday has come along with a new month and I have been a very bad boy where intake is concerned. On Friday since my mom is in town we treated her out to dinner at Chili's where when I walked in I had all intentions of eating well and by well I don't mean lots of good food but more in the sense that I would watch myself closely but alas that is not what happened, I did order the guiltless salmon dish which has calories listed as just under 500 and I ordered my obligatory unsweetened tea, not bad right? but then we ordered an appetizer of southwestern egg rolls and I had a Blue moon before dinner got to the table. wify ordered the chicken fajitas dinner and I ended up having one of those before the night was finished too, there was also a birthday cake in there at one point as well, so yeah lets just say I went over on Friday, Saturday went well enough and I kept the calories low because of the previous days number and only had 1318 total calories and then Sunday I took my mom to visit her sister where I was tempted with a chocolate silk cake with cherry filling and home made whipped cream and I did not resist and had a pretty good sized piece of that heavenly goodness almost immediately after arriving at her house, we ended up eating at a Friendlys restaurant for dinner that night, and besides the cake I was within calorie range, I had a total of 1550 calories before the cake but I am sure it brought me over. Mondays intake was pretty good besides the fact that I drank almost no fluid (which means about 3 quarts total all day) I did come in at a total caloric intake of 1660 for the day so I am happy with that and over the entire four days 2 of 4 days I did bad which I really am not too worried about because giving up going out to dinner with family and friends every now and again is not something I am interested in doing for the rest of my time on earth and well yeah, its just a part of life, because I eat healthy does not mean that I cannot enjoy dinner out or a piece of cake now and again, Here is Mondays menu.
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95
4 slices light Italian bread 160
2oz low fat Mozz cheese 160
1 serving turkey pepperoni 70
light parm cheese 10
pizza sauce 30
9.5 oz Atlantic salmon fillet 420
lots of brussel sprouts 225
3/4 cup pilaf rice 220
12oz Dannon light and fit yogurt 160
Exercise, whats that? I have not ridden my bike since my Mom got here but we have done a good deal of walking around (malls etc and random walks with my daughter) but nothing in the way of real cardio, I do plan on riding today and getting the cardio back on track to finish up the week. otherwise its business as usual around here and the weight is hopefully coming off this week, I was down a pound from Fridays weight on Sunday but have not weighed myself since then and forgot this morning until after I ate breakfast. nothing spectacular to report today I am afraid but it is what it is and there you have it. Thanks for reading along and remember that its just life, enjoy it while you can.
Friday, August 29, 2008
This Suzuki GSX400 weighs in at 389 pounds.
Todays post is a little later than usual for a weigh in day post, My Mother flew in from California for a visit so I have been tied up but I did want to get on and post up the progress for the week, I hopped on the scale this morning and it said 389.4lbs and I am happy with the number, thats a 4 pound drop for the week and the exercise has paid off. speaking of exercise I have not ridden the bike since Tuesday, but I have gone on a few walks including one this morning (about 1/2 mile just to let my daughter get a ride in on her new bike) but I plan on riding the bike today so I will update the new deficit tracking section on the page after I do that. my intake has been very good this week and I am averaging 1630 calories per day so I am happy about that.
This week has been a good one where weight loss is concerned, I got my juju back, I am back on the bike and things are headed in a good direction and I firmly believe that keeping a positive attitude about losing the weight and submitting to the fact that it HAS to be a lifestyle change and NOT a diet is key in my success to date. I have in the past had people tell me that I am doing this whole weight loss thing wrong, mostly in the area of my intake calorie amounts, I was told that I am not eating enough and that I will not lose weight eating 1500 calories per day despite a doctor telling me this is what I should do, that was 100 pounds ago. here I am 145 pound less than I was 8 months ago and still there are naysayers and disbelievers around, all I can do is smile at the fact that I have lost 145 pounds and counting. If I were failing at this weight loss thing I could see where someone could want to pop in with an opinion and maybe steer a fella in the right direction but how do you tell someone that has lost 145 pounds on his own without any surgery or pills or anything at all besides raw willpower and discipline that they are doing it wrong? weight loss is a matter of K.I.S.S (keep is simple stupid) eat less, move more, stay hydrated and in control and waddya know? 145 pounds gone, yes it is that simple.
I think when people get over weight that they start making excuses for why they cannot lose weight, or start the blame game to try and justify why they are heavy and unmotivated, it makes me think of something my wife has said recently in normal every day chat when the subject has come up she says "thats talking like a fat person" (she has a friend that is happy about her weight loss and yet somehow annoyed that she is doing so well) and what she meant when she said talking like a fat person is that when you are fat (yeah I will use the word fat we ain't all PC around here) you tend to make excuses for why you should be able to eat the way you do and still lose weight, yet these are the same people that are ALWAYS on a "diet" of some sort and never seem to hit their goals. "all I need to do is drink more water" welp then why don't ya? "I can drink as much diet mountain dew as I want, it is after all diet right?" ummm nope, "but I just had a tiny bite, so I won't count it" good luck with that!, "I just need to stick to it for 2 whole weeks and I will lose it" really? that easy? have at it then! and I speak from experience with some of that! but no more is that me or the way that I think and that is why this is working for me, here I am losing weight regularly and I feel great, who wouldda thunk? Nothing tastes as good as thin feels, I AM going to find out if thats a true statement, even though I already know the answer.
Stop talking like a fat person!
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