Sunday, August 17, 2008
Sunday morning and I am finally feeling a bit better than I have been, actually yesterday I felt pretty good too, good enough that we went out and did some shopping for the wedding that I have to go to next weekend and I sort of hit a milestone that I had not expected at all and honestly haven't thought about. As we were walking around wify said "lets check out the mens section, who knows they may have something for ya" and me being me and not being able to shop in a "regular store" since I was about oh I don't know 18? I thought sure we can look but nothing will fit and off we went to the mens section where I ended up buying a button up shirt! this may not seem like something of a big deal to someone that can shop in normal stores but I cannot remember the last time that I walked into a store and bought anything clothing related right off of the shelf, it has either been in a "big and tall" shop or ordered out of a catalog so this is kind of a big deal to me. I am right on the size line with my pants as well, I am comfortably in a size 46 waist and most stores stop at 44 waist so I am close to being able to buy some new jeans at a "regular store" as well. the store we were in had jeans in my size but it was just not the style that I wear so I passed on the jeans for now but I bought something in a regular store! so I am a little bit excited about that.
Ok ok enough about the shirt, my intake from Saturday was very odd because we ended up out and not really in a position to get food when we should have made time and I ended up eating only 1275 calories with 85 of them coming in around mid night in the form of an orange, I don't feel hungry or anything today and I partially blame being under the weather for not having an appetite as well as the wrong place at the wrong time and not being able to get a meal in when I should have. Intake is pretty good otherwise and I am still happy with my losses and rate of loss and all of that and believe that raising my calories a bit has helped kick my metabolism into gear again.
I was thinking about how I stay driven and motivated during this entire time where I have been losing the weight and getting healthy and it dawned on me that I really don't know how I am staying driven, I don't have a go to plan or a panic switch that I hit when the going gets tough, I just keep doing what I am doing no matter the circumstances and it seems to be what has worked up until this point. I do think that having my lovely wife by my side with the same health goals in mind helps a lot, she is there to remind me when I am about to make a mistake and grab that bag of beef jerky off the rack at the store or to remind me that I wanted to ride the bike a second time on a certain day so having her there as support definitely helps but I think what keeps me on track the most is the fact that I know what I have to do and there I just about nothing that I can think of that is more important than that to me right now because if I do not correct it I might not be here to see the rest of what is important for very long, that and the fact that I believe once you can slip into a state of mind where knowing that you don't NEED the pizza or knowing that you do not NEED to eat those extra fries with dinner it becomes easier and easier by the day, and the exercise becomes an addiction, at least it has for me in the past couple months, I have been not feeling well for the past few days and I am going nuts because I want to ride the bike or go for a walk..something! anything! just sitting here is not cool! with all of that said I think it comes down to being in that State of mind and knowing no matter what, you have to stay on track because it is what must be done and failure is NOT an option, at least thats how I look at it. so maybe I stay driven because I know that I made a decision to lose the weight and I am the type of person that when I make a decision to do something I feel that I need to have the follow through to complete the task, or maybe I reflect back to the first day in my adult life that I actually felt fear when I read that a WLS came with the chance of death and until that point had came to the conclusion that it was my only option to lose weight, I don't know for sure. what I do know for sure is that I have to lose this weight, I have to be around for my wife and kiddos and I have to be around to see all of the things to come in this life and at 534 pounds I feared it wasn't going to last much longer, here I sit at 394 pounds typing out an entry on a blog that I started almost out of desperation and maybe just to put it out there even if only to strangers that I was in fact more than one quarter of a ton in weight and hoped to be embarrassed into submission, I don't know, all I knew is that something had to be done and here I am doing it. does that explain how I stay driven? again I don't know but its what came out when I asked myself that question so I guess maybe it is. There is no easy way to do this, there is no miracle pill and wishing won't make it happen either. the bottom line is that a lot of hard work and a lot of discipline will need to be found and put to use if success is to be found and staying driven is all a part of that, am I driven? Yes I am.
Friday, August 15, 2008
This Ducati S2R 1000 weighs in at 394 pounds. and because spark only allows one upload on a blog you can check out my blogpot @ zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2008/08/we
html to see what weighs as much as I have lost...er sorta this week :)
Upon waking this morning I feel worse than I did yesterday, I will say that first. But onto business, I hopped on the scale and it said 394.4 pounds twice so I will call it 394 and a loss of 2 pounds this week and at that I am a bit surprised I must admit. I have done no exercise as I said in my last post and upped my calorie to 1700 this week and somehow pulled off a 2 pound drop all while being sick for the past 5 days so I am happy about that. one thing I am going to for a day or two to attempt to get better faster is eat a few oranges and not count them in my 1700 calories if I can help it, maybe some orange juice as well as its always seemed to help me get better faster in the past and being sick isn't fun and worth the extra intake.
My intake came in at 1550 calories yesterday mostly because I wasn't feeling well and didn't feel like eating and the fact that we had a later than usual dinner so I called it a day and did not make up the last 150 calories, no worries. and with that I give you yesterdays menu.
2 cups shredded wheat 380
1 cup 1% milk 110
3 slices light rye bread 120
4oz deli turkey breast 110
1 T Miracle whip 35
dill pickle 10
1 hebrew national hot dog 45
1 slice light rye 40
8oz ground turkey 320
2 80 cal rolls 160
6oz sweet potato fries 150
Grand total of 1550 calories and a 2 pound loss this week, I'll take it, and other than being sick I guess its not been too bad a week where my weight loss is concerned but I am missing the exercise part of the equation which is not something you would have heard me mutter just seven months ago but at the same time maybe my body needed a rest and is why I am sick currently, who knows? not me, but as soon as this congestion and sore throat is gone I will be back outside hiking and riding my bike in the evenings again. This weeks 2 pound loss is great and I am constantly chipping away at the extra weight, I am looking forward to lighter days.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
The title says it all, I am sick as a dog, sore throat, cough, stuffy head and feeling tired as anything and I have just been sitting around trying to feel better hence the lack of posts in the past few days. I have done zero exercise since the walk at my MIL house mentioned in my last post but I decided to keep the calories at 1700 per day anyways just because I honestly believe that I need the extra intake. things intake related are on track I did have one day where I went over by 32 calories because a beer was needed and I am not even worrying about going over by 32 on one day, I have stayed off of the scale so I am not sure how it will look in the morning, I am hoping for a loss of course but with the week that I had I am not expecting anything and I know that the smaller guy inside me will tear his way out because it is already happening, even as I type this.
I have been watching as much of the Olympics as I can and told my wife that I want to start swimming, swimming being what is keeping me interested in watching right now. My wife was a competitive swimmer from age 6 to 18 and it has always impressed me with the way she swims, when wify is in the water is when she looks the strongest to me and well if I am being honest its hot, so I think part of my interest stems from that as well, in fact I will admit to having a bit of a lets call it a crush on one of the swimmers this year Natalie Coughlin and someone brought it to my attention that there is a resemblance between my wife and her and I wonder if thats where it comes from, but enough about that. I think a lot of people watch something like the Olympics and get motivated and its doing just that to me because I know that I will start swimming soon enough, one because its a great way to get Cardio into a day, two I am not really what you would call a strong swimmer, I can swim just not as good as I would like and three it is something that wify could/would get into more if it were to happen. so to sum that up I am enjoying watching the Olympics this year and I am actually getting motivation from it so though I am sick I am enjoying myself.
I have to admit that I have a bit of cabin fever because of being sick and I am just pining away to go out on a hike or a long walk or something and its been beautiful here in New England the past few days so its doubly frustrating to be under the weather. I mentioned that I was going to start deficit tracking this week but with the not being able to workout I was not able to start it but as soon as this cold or whatever this is passes I will jump right in there. did I mention that I am going nuts for a hike or something? oh yeah I did...
I plan on weighing in tomorrow morning and getting a weigh in post up fairly early so look for that and I hope to have a loss or at least stay the same as last week but I would not be surprised at a small gain just because I upped the calories and the exercise was non existent this week, we shall see, Thanks for reading along while I drop a whole person from my body.
Monday, August 11, 2008
How about a magic trick? Ta-daa!
Lately I find myself thinking about how things were 7 months ago and earlier when I weighed 138 pounds more than I do now and the things that I couldn't do then back then, and more so I think about the things that I can do now compared to that time in my life. over the weekend as I took a walk with wify and the kiddos I found myself thinking back to last summer and how I could not make a 1/4 mile walk to see a broken bridge, and I have mentioned that day in this blog before but I feel that it is one of the moments in my life that made me really think about just how over weight I was so it sticks in my thoughts, anyways we were walking around a lake that is close to my Mother in laws house and ended up walking for two and a quarter miles so just about two miles further than that attempted bridge walk last summer and it dawned on me what I had accomplished, here I am walking more than 2 miles and I have zero back pain, I am not out of breath and the only thing that was a slight annoyance was a small spot on my foot where my sneaker was rubbing because I had on old socks that have thinned a bit and then Sunday we had a sitter and decided to go see a movie, we went to see The Dark Knight (which was a great movie) BUT the worry that I had was the theater seats, I had never been to this place and was worried that they would not have the seats where the arm rest lifts up so I was thinking about how this may just be a very uncomfortable couple hours worth of fidgeting around trying to enjoy the movie and when we got there indeed the seats arm rests did not lift up "here we go" I thought to myself as I ran up (yes I ran up the stairs) to the back row, sit down and wow I thought its not the most comfy thing in the world and I will admit that I was wiggling around a bit but I was able to sit in the non movable arm rest style theater seats which to many people may seem like a so what kind of thing but I honestly can't remember the last time I was able to go to a movie that did not have the arm rests that lift so this is a good thing. I have come a long way in the past few months and it was a lot of hard work and a lot of retraining myself to not look at food as anything more than fuel for my body, with the occasional treat of course but thats the key to losing weight I am finding, it is a very simple formula of eating enough to fuel your body without leaving an excessive reserve, who wouldda thunk?
Ok now for that movie and only because it was so good I feel like a review is in order, I will admit that I went in thinking it was going to be a good movie because all of what I have heard and I heard a lot of people all say that it was a good flick but Man! it was awesome. Heath Ledger was amazing in it and thats the part that I thought was all hype before going to see it for myself, I thought that because of his death that he was being hyped, now that I have seen it myself I can say that he did an excellent job in that role and I was already a fan of his because of the movie "A Knights Tale" its sort of one of the movies that makes me think of my wife because we both love that movie so much. from his magic trick in the beginning of The Dark Knight straight on up until a Nurse with a silencer He really did have the crazy motherfuc... role nailed down perfectly, I absolutely loved him in this flick it is truly a loss to the world of movies that he passed. I highly recommend that if you didn't see this movie that you do so.
Intake for the weekend was a bit meh, but over all I think it was not too bad I did have some take out Chinese food on Saturday (General Tso's chicken with white rice) which I do not know how many calories was in it but I don't care either, its not a terribly bad thing to have a treat now and again and thats how I look at that meal, I did have 815 calories to spare at dinner so if I went over I couldn't imagine it was by much. Sunday I hit 1700 calories on the nose, well I shouldn't say "on the nose" because I am not exactly sure how many calories were in the pop corn I had at the movies, My wife and I shared a medium popcorn during the movie and I ate about 1/3 of that (small) medium bag and we guessed it at about 200 calories after looking up a few calorie websites, so take my "on the nose" with a grain of salt. here is a look at that menu.
2 cups of honey bunches of oats 320
1 cup of 1% milk 110
less than half of med movie popcorn 200
2 multi-grain english muffins 200
2 wedges laughing cow cheese 70
1 serving turkey pepperoni 70
sliced tomato 15
5.5oz roast chicken breast 275
3/4 cup white rice 150
1/2 cup black beans 100
light sour cream 20
1 apple 100
1 fudge pop 70
Grand total of 1700 calories for Sunday and theres another day down in the trip to the half, I also wanted to mention that I am going to give deficit tracking a go, I figure with all of the exercise that I am trying to get into my days that I may as well track it and see what I am burning, it may just push me to do a bit more work which can only be a good thing so it shall be so, I will start counting today and see what I end up with by the end of the week and then set a goal for myself for next week and see how I do with it, maybe it will be something that helps me or maybe it will be something that I discard after looking at it for this week we will see. Thanks for reading and all that jazz.
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