Wednesday, April 13, 2011
All right stop, collaborate and listen Zeus is back with a brand new intention, something grabs a hold of me tightly flows like a milk shake makin' me higher.... ok ok so I am NOT a white rapper but what I am is someone that knows how to lose weight and eat healthy. Why then have I stalled? Where is that GO GO GO! Push through it motherfuvker! guy that was there for so long? I'm still here, trust me I am! I am not gaining weight but I am not losing either and realistically I have no reason other than I am comfortable where I am these days, that and dealing with some events not related to health but then that last part would sound like an excuse so I won't use it as a "reason" but yeah.
I've eluded to the fact that I was blessed with a new addition to my family and she is here, healthy and doing awesome right now, Wifey is home for a while and the weather is was cooperating so some bike rides have occurred over the last couple days. My plan is to start riding as much as possible to get my arse back into the condition that it was when last years riding season ended. I took a 10 mile ride on the local rail trail last week and learned just how soft I have become over the winter lull and have dubbed my bike Sir Prison sex as my posterior was not exactly feeling good after the bumpy ride down the trail, time to HTFU again.
Garmin ride report from April 8th, a VERY slow average MPH compared to last year. Click the link for a full size look at how my ride went. zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2011/04/im
I did get a chance to use my new Garmin bike mount for the 305 forerunner and it worked awesome, my Sigma bike computer is almost right on with the garmin and its MPH/Distance which is good! but I still can't believe how soft I got over the winter! notice a trend here? SOFT! Making time for myself hasn't been a big priority lately with all else that's going on but like always it must be made a priority because of what it means. Without making time for ourselves we tend to let things slip that would not be acceptable on any given day, I found out the hard way where that road leads and I don't intend to make a visit back in that direction any time soon so with this new bundle of joy shall come a new time of focus. I know how to focus on me, I've proven that in the last few years but I still have this flaw where I tend to try and fix things happening around me before hunkering down and getting into the meat of my own issues which needs to stop happening.
I have barely had time to shave lately let alone writing blog posts but they are pretty important to me in the grand scheme, I am going to make an attempt to get posts out on a regular again as I have been slipping in that area. I just said how important journaling my efforts is to me and I recently received a message from someone that has taken from my writings the motivation to lose more than 100 pounds and when I got his message I felt awesome. I have said it in the past and feel that its worth mentioning from time to time that I started writing this blog because I didn't know what else to do and it has helped me take and keep off more than 200 pounds in the last few years but I did it for me. I had no idea that so many other people would take from it anything more than just a couple minutes a day of reading a fat guys random thoughts on weight loss but from some of the messages I have received since starting this blog its more than just my thoughts for me. I am humbled every time I hear a comment like "I am an admirer of yours, and your website and advice has motivated me to lose 102 lbs with another 150 to go! Thanks for being a regular guy helping other regular guys/gals! HUGS! God Bless!" and in all honesty I have not been doing my part where my health is concerned but after getting the message above I know that I need to as I've said probably hundreds of times since starting this blog Keep on keepin' on.
I haven't "hit a wall" with my weight loss so to speak, I have simply stopped pusing forward with the unstoppable drive that I possessed in the beginning of my trip to the half. My health is not waning as it was when I tipped the scale at over 500 pounds but I still have unmet goals that need to be addressed with extreme prejudice, a freight train possesses less momentum than I had at one point and I intend to start treating my health goals in that way again.
My life will be lived by my rules..and so it begins.....again.
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Friday, March 25, 2011
Hopefully I will be able to get back to posting daily VERY soon but for now it shall remain when I have a minute to sit and write a post, busy does not begin to describe my days lately. There are some aspects of my life that do not make the front page of ye olde blog and it is some of those things that have kept me away from it but in spite of that I have been how do you say? Back on the wagon again. I have to admit that for the first time since starting down this path to better health I let things slip a ((whole fuvkin' lot)) er.. tad bit in the past maybe three or four weeks and am slightly up in weight, I say slightly because its about 6 on a good day 10 on a bad pounds heavier than I have been maintaining for the last 10 months. Its simply amazing how adding piles O stuff to a fellas day takes away from being able to weigh, measure and quite frankly care about the the food that's going down the hatch. I am not in immediate imminent danger because of my health right now so it makes it easy to lay my focus elsewhere and honestly I have been at this for a little more than three years now with this being the first what I would call lapse in caring about my nutrition.
Making my nutrition and exercise my number one priority must remain my number one...um..priority, because having lived on the other side of 500 pounds I know whats in store for me if I let things slide. I don't fear that I will ever slip back into a completely sedentary life again but I want to be as active as possible so that I can continue to excel with my physical self. I find that having something to focus on helps loads! lately its been my bicycling...even though there has been a lack of said activity because of schedule conflicts and weather I find that when I am in "bike mode" I am on point with my nutrition. Bicycling has become my passion, of course after my wife and kids but you get my point, If I am on a bike I am happy, I am unsure if its because I was unable to ride one for so long and now I am free to do so as I wish or if I really just have a love for riding these two wheeled contraptions down a dirt trail looking at the scenery....my guess is the second option.
The new Giant.
My K2 dashboard with the Garmin 305 forerunner on the new bike mount, you can also see my Sigma 906 cyclometer mounted on the stem.
Speaking of bikes I am always on the look out for "bike deals" and last week I found an incredible deal on what appears to be a great bike! its a Giant Cypress lx full suspension hybrid. The woman that I bought it from gave me an indoor bicycle rack and a trunk mount bike rack when I bought the Giant, lets just say that I got more than a good deal on the bike and accessories and couldn't be happier with the deal. Getting ready for the trail I also picked up a Garmin bicycle mount for my 305 forerunner, I installed it and mounted the GPS yesterday so I am all ready for the rail trail! I took it out for a short ride to test the connectivity to the satellites with it in the position that it is on the bike, worked great. This year I will be going for records on my bike, I will have to look but I believe that my longest ride on the rail trail is right around 25 miles and I want to double that this year and have a goal to hit a 50 mile ride at some point, perhaps beyond that even. The weight will come off, I am not too worried about that honestly because the amount of riding I am planning on doing it will have to come off!
Last year I worked on my endurance on two wheels and the year before that was getting use to how being perched up top of a skeletal aluminum frame with skinny wheels between me and the pavement felt, this year we are going for distance. My first bicycle ride was about a mile and I had to pull over because of the prison sex like feeling on my plump posterior...not that I have ever experienced prison sex but I do have an imagination and its how I would imagine it feeling. Now that a 20 mile ride is par for the course I feel ...dare I say... Normal? no longer a 500 pound guy rooted to a couch looking out the window wishing he could join in the fun that is life but a 300 pound man doing what he wants when he wants to but I am far from done with my health journey.
I have more goals that I have not reached yet with my health and weight, there have been times when I doubted that I could get there but when I think back to the 500 pound version of me I doubted that I could lose even 100 pounds. I have done double that figure to date and kept it off for the better part of 3 years now, for whatever reason breaking through that barrier of sub 300 pounds has been a task for me, more mentally than anything else and I can't for the life of me figure out why a mental barrier could stop me. Enough is enough with letting an imaginary line in the sand stop me because if I take the whole number factor of my weight out of the equation its just that... a number. I have lost as much as 229 pounds since starting and have bounced around in that 200 to 229 pounds lost zone for like I said the better part of 3 years now and it would seem that every time I get close to going below 300 pounds it slams into that wall....this time I am bringing a sledgehammer with me, I have to finish what I started.
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Well well well, look who walked in through the door... Its been some time since I posted on ye olde blog and I am sitting here after a long day of organizing boxes of diapers N vs 1 vs 2 vs 3!! Rattles and bumpers and and and the day is getting close. I have recently found some success on the list of Craigs with the selling of some of my double wheeled transportation devices which hurt and is awesome all at the same time! the extra dough is nice and I am deciding on which color my new bicycle will be, what you didn't really think the profit from the bikes would go to diapers did ya? but this ain't that kind of blog so enough about the new addition that's on the way and perhaps I will touch on the bicicleta situation later but lets get to how the fat man has been doing lately.
I haven't made it to the gym in quite a while and my mood is definitely being affected by this, I am an addict after all, and I don't mean cheeseburgers! With gas prices reaching up into the $4.00 range I have decided that my workouts will be local for a bit because of the strain in ye olde wallet and I have been enjoying walks around the lake and the occasional romp on my "Hilly course" on the K2. Honestly though I have not been all I can be in the working out department and my intake has been how do I say? anything but on track what with all of the excitement of the new addition, not to mention the waiting hand and foot on Wify so that she can relax a bit after lugging around her new again rotund belly. If I am being completely honest I am struggling a bit the past few weeks with getting my intake within the range that it needs to be and my waistline is certainly paying the price!
I am slightly up from where I was the last time I focused on my weight but I don't think that its going to be too big an issue to get the couple few extra pounds off with the weather warming up and Wify being home from work very soon. I have a problem putting me first when someone else needs it and I am not in imminent danger of having my heart grenade in the driveway, this is a fault of mine that I am working on but not having much success with when I need to tend to someone else. With all of that said I have to keep in mind that not putting me first is what got me into this whole Hyper obese Supersize me state in the first place so getting my calories back down to my "losing" amount is an important item on my shopping list for the coming days. My eating habits are right now not what I would call on track, Yes I am still eating whole foods, No I am not eating processed foods, I still do not eat red meat or pork but my fish consumption is way down because of Wify not being able to eat as much as we usually eat, possibly most importantly I am not sticking within my calorie allotment.
Making up for the past I would say three weeks is going to be where my focus is for the next couple because after that things will need to be changed up a bit and being able to recognize that is probably a great thing. I am up in weight some, nothing that could be called back sliding or anything but up none the less, My bike is tuned up and rearing to go as soon as the weather starts being more consistent and the trail dries up a bit more and I don't want to get out there to find out that the extra few that I have on me is going to effect my ability to ride the trails. My life is where I want it to be for the first time in a long while, I do what I want to when I want to and feel unlimited in that, I will not give that back for anything because it is who I am, who I have been the entire time and I ain't not gonna give it up.
I have a goal to ride a consecutive 50 miles at some point this year and I have the route mapped out on a local trail, actually a couple trails that intersect and I honestly get excited when I think about the day that I will do it. I have a friend that rides too and I actually met her through my blog and the plan is to talk her into doing that 50 miler with me when I do it, She is capable of doing the ride and I know that I am capable as well and I believe it will be a fun goal to reach. I am going to try and make time to post regularly again but life sometimes grabs you by the cajones and all we can do is go along for the ride and finding time for non necessities just doesn't happen. Keeping my $hit together while mixing the ingredients in the proper order to get what I want as an end product has been how I get down for a few years now, the last few weeks has been a break from that and I know how to do it, I have done it and have been doing it so back to the grind I go.
That my good people is all I got for tonight, I shall return again to drop some random thoughts from my gray matter as soon as a few extra minutes pile unto one another again.
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Friday, February 18, 2011
Its amazing how a simple thing like sitting on an aluminum framed contraption and an afternoon can change ones mood to the point that I would compare it to a high. The thermometer hit the mid 50's yesterday and wet roads be damned I wasn't missing the opportunity to get out on the bike for a ride! The trails are still covered in a heavy layer of snow so for safety's sake staying off of them until its clear and I can see the land mines which fell from the trees laying on the path is how its going to be. Everything is melting so the street looks like it is raining out and I was completely peppered with dirt, mud and puddle water by the end of my ride but it was more than worth that small nuisance, I thought that I had the bug to ride but after yesterdays trip around the lake and surrounding roads I am bit and can't wait for the weather to warm up for good.
The one time I stopped to snap a quick picture of my trusty steed next to the still frozen lake.
Figuring that I could get a decent workout if I targeted all of the hills I came up with a just over 6 mile loop that would assure that I hit all of the steeper hills and off I went. Amazingly enough not a single hill phased me, perhaps all of the high RPM spinning that I have been doing at the gym is helping me more than I thought! Dealing with puddles and just an over all soaking wet road for 70% of the ride only to have the other 30% be slush/ice patches or really sandy declines it was a dodgy ride to say the least and I did have one pucker moment where the Darwin alarms sounded loud and clear.
Coming down the steepest decent I got up to about 25MPH, this hill is usually a 35MPH hill but with the roads the way that they were I took it easy but there is one section that has a curve to it and I had relaxed because the middle section of the grade had no sand and was dry. Coming around that bend suddenly there was a small patch of slushy ice sort of like where the car tires make a rut and left that small patch on the side towards the center of the road and it was lining up perfectly with my line and I had to hit it, ooops. All at once in the 1.2 seconds that I had before hitting the patch I thought "Oh $hit!", "I hope the tires hold onto this", "I should get a helmet", "You Shall NOT Pass!!" in my best in my head Gandalf voice and then the front tire connected with the beginning of what I thought may be the end. The warm weather had softened it up enough that the patch split with my tire in the center and for a split second I thought "Yay!!!" and then up onto the patch I went "Oh $hit!", the bike slid off the side and I was back on the road surface with an adrenaline rush for my efforts.
Upon getting back to the house with my ear to ear grin I cleaned the heavy debris off of the bike and wiped it down, changed my dirt covered clothes and felt relaxed. I did get to use my new Garmin 305 that Wify got me for Christmas for the first time and it seemed to perform as it should have, it reported that I burned 762 calories on my 38 minute ride and I'll take it! I very much dislike wearing things on my wrist so getting a handlebar mount is on the top of my list of things to do and will likely place an order as soon as I click publish on this post. I still find it amazing that I was once upon a time a 500 pound guy that struggled to walk for more than 5 minutes at a time and when I hammer up a hill on my bike I think its somehow pushing me because I know what it feels like to be caged within my own body.
My life is completely different these days because of losing the weight, I am not alone in that I am sure anyone that has done it has similar feelings on the subject. My love for riding a bike was very likely always there but I stripped it away from my options when I allowed myself to grow to more than 500 pounds but I assure you that I will never see that side of the equation again. Make the choice, refuse to accept a life that involves a cage made of flesh and the entire world gets as big as it was when we were children with new experiences around every corner. For too long I sat idle on an old couch wishing that things could be different, these days I choose to take the difficult line and go uphill merely because it will get my heart pumping a little harder than the easy path would. Taking the easy path only got me into the quarter ton club and its not something that I want to be a part of ever again so I refuse to let it be a part of my life ever again.
My bike, my life, my terms, I ride for me and that will never change I will not be caged by my own hand ever again.
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
Getting over the flu and having not been out on my bike since before it got too cold and snowed in to do so has me itching for a ride but if you read my blog you probably know this. Today I woke up and the little man in the magic box claims that the weather gods shall shine upon my part of the world blessing us with a sunny 54 degrees today which means that I will perhaps get a chance to take ye olde mountain bike out for a trot around the lake. The rail trail is still covered in what appears to be more than a foot of now retreating snow and ice but the roads are pretty clear so I will take advantage of it congested chest be damned! My eating has been on point for the last week or so and my weight is reflecting that...sort of, I am not going up at all and coming down very very slowly over the past week but for being under the weather with no real workouts to speak of it is what it is.
This is whats in my bike bag, The bag itself with a map of some trails wify and I hike stuck in the net, 1 Live strong wrist band, 1 tube, 1 patch kit, 3 tire spoons, allen key for my brakes, small allen key set, 2nd small allen key set with screw drivers, multi-tool with small led flashlight, pressure gauge and the pump rides on my frame usually but it was in the bag when I emptied it so it made the shot.
This break in the weather is going to give me a chance to go over my bike and see what I need to do if anything to get it set to start riding regularly again, which probably just means putting the proper pressure in the tires. I do need to get a new under the seat wedge bag for my tools and junk that I bring along when I ride because last year the zipper failed on the one that I had which es'ploded the contents all over a bridge at speed during a ride so if anyone has a suggestion for a decent yet economical wedge bag I'm all ears! I don't mind using the small camelback style pack that I switched to when the bag broke last year but rides like today where I don't expect it to be more than a couple "warm up" miles on the hills around my house I would rather not have to wear a pack so getting a new wedge would be nice.
I think that its important to find a form of exercise that we enjoy doing as it will help to keep us interested in doing it day in and day out, I tried running and though it had its moments of awesomeness I just didn't take to it like I did to the bike. The bike riding allows me to see trails and sights that no other form of exercise would offer, I suppose running could give me some of the same but the range that a bicycle gives me dwarfs what running could ever hope to. My longest ride last year was 20 miles and this year I am hoping to achieve at least 50 miles in one shot perhaps even more! I have been mapping some routes for me to try out when it warms up and have a 21 mile trail ride that I am looking forward to and hopefully I will be able to do the round trip version of that ride and make it a 42 mile fun ride before the end of the season. My normal rides were falling between 15 and 20 miles depending on whether I left from my house or drove to a trail head in a different city and I was doing that two maybe three times per week, I would like to make my average ride a 30 mile round trip maybe extending out to 50 or 60 at a time but we shall see how that pans out.
My physical limitations shrink by the day as I get stronger and stronger, more weight comes off as muscle builds and my legs are starting to get quite large muscularly with all of the biking at the gym and on the trails. When I was 500 pounds I always thought about how strong my legs were, I mean hell hauling 500 pounds around everywhere I went they needed to be right? but since I started riding I have realized that they were strong as far as raw one time pushing ie: peeling my ass off of the couch to take a piss but when it came to anything lasting longer than about 4 minutes they didn't really have lasting power. These days I am seemingly unlimited strength wise and with my endurance and its clearer today than it ever has been how much I was fooling myself back at 534 pounds, I cannot stress enough at how happy I am that I decided to make that change in my life.
Today I leave you with a quote.
"I believe that one defines oneself by reinvention. To not be like your parents. To not be like your friends. To be yourself. To cut yourself out of stone."
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