Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Making my way towards the line in the sand that I put there so long ago I pissed myself off yesterday because I ate something not in my calorie allotment and I did it just because I wanted to. Things like that do not happen to me very often but when it does and I catch myself aggravation sets in and I tend to take it out on myself at the gym. I got to the gym a little early today because we're suppose to get a good amount of snow over night and I had some errands to run, when I got there it was on. Onto the bike I went and averaged 96 RPM's for 30 minutes, a quick wipe down of the bike and I found an empty treadmill and did some interval running for 20 minutes, 6.0 MPH for 60 seconds then walk at 3.3 MPH for 60 on and off until my 20 minutes was gone. Finishing things off at the gym I did another 10 minutes at more of a cool down pace on the bike and off I went to finish off my errands.
Today's ride through the gym, man I am wishing it was the rail trail right about now.
Having done this better health thing for just over three years or 1106 days now I have a feel for what I need to do to lose weight and what I need to do in order to maintain weight. Once upon a time not so long ago Tommy use to work on the docks...no wait that's something else, but not so long ago I was a 500 pound man who had no idea what the future held for him. I am now a just over 300 pound guy that does pretty much what he wants to but I know how much further I can go, I know that I am capable of going all the way. Pushing myself every day is going to be the key to my success, I can eat right and workout every day but unless I push myself just past where I think my limit stops I will just continue to maintain. This is my world, I can have anything that I want in it but the work will have to be put in, I have already put a ton of work into this venture to be as healthy as I can, now its time to see it run its course.
Tuesday's menu for your viewing pleasure.
2 cups corn pops 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
Dark chocolate Zone bar 190
2 80 cal wraps 160
1oz italian cheese 90
1.5 cheddar 120
2 80 cal wraps 160
5oz ground turkey 200
1oz low fat cheese 80
2 T light sour cream 40
WW ice cream 130
1680 total calories for the day and a post that is later than normal but I had some time and thought I would pop on before I hit the sack and drop some random words on ya. Just over 19 days until I weigh in for the blog again and the plan is to push myself until then and see where the wheel stops, I have a feeling that it will be a decent month but its an over all result that I am going for. April first will be here before I know it and I am planning on being deep into the 200's by then, as close to 275 as possible would be optimal and I will try to get there with everything that I can muster. Warm weather will be here all too soon and I can resume my bike rides out on the trails, I am considering attempting a century on the rail trail but honestly the idea of that is getting way ahead of myself as I just started hitting 20 mile rides at the end of last season but who knows!
A little bit random, just a tad late but there it is, my ramblings for the day! We are expecting the mother load of snow tonight and I will try to get another post up in the am at some point after I shovel the driveway so until then keep on keepin on and all that, As the fat guy turns has concluded for the evening.
Friday, January 07, 2011
Thursday went as smooth as a day could go as far as eating properly and exercise goes, Stayed within my calorie range and made it to the gym, it was a fine day all around. The gym is still more crowded than usual I assume due to all of the new year resolution people, the treadmills are thinning out a bit so finding one to walk on after my workout is no issue. Yesterdays workout was 30 minutes on the bike and 25 on a treadmill, the bike ended up at just over 11 miles at 91 RPM's and I am happy with that, treadmill was 25 minutes 3.4MPH 5% incline. My intake was spot on coming in at 1720 calories for the day, I more than had enough veggies while fluid consumption was on par coming in at just over 2 gallons between the green tea and H2O.
Wednesdays bike ride averaged 92 RPM and just over eleven and a quarter virtual miles, Avg Watts? MET's? no clue what that means besides something about how hard the rider is working, perhaps I should google it!
Thursdays bike ride at the gym netted me 91 average RPM's and just over 11 virtual miles.
I have been keeping a meticulous recording of my intake on my excel sheet lately and thought that I would post up yesterdays menu for anyone who cares to check it out.
2 cups corn pops 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
Dark chocolate almond Zone bar 190
Mixed veggies 140
2 T light sour cream 40
1/2 T Smart balance 25
8oz baked potato 200
1 Banana 105
1.25 T peanut butter 120
5oz ground turkey 200
2 80 cal rolls 160
Steamed brussel sprouts 150
1/2 pear 40
Grand total 1720 calories, and I am happy with what went in, lots of fruits and veggies followed by more than enough fluids. I have tunnel vision with reaching my goals, getting to that 275 pound mark is more important to me than almost anything right now for a very personal reason that will be shared soon enough. Easin' on down this yellow brick road currently with one thing on my mind, beating the rest of the fat on my bones into submission and being as healthy as I can be is my mission, I won't fail.
We all have decisions to make on a daily basis, most of the decisions we make are not crucial but then there are those that define us. Making the decision to get healthier back in 2008 is defining me, it is showing myself how disciplined that I can be as long as I put my mind into it and rush the gate with everything that I have in me. I will get to my goal this year, hopefully I will get most of the way there if not all of the way before April gets here but if not the pushing will get that much harder. We all have choices to make on a daily, we can choose to float along with the flow and what happens happens or we can decide that we will control every turn that we make and force our way through the tougher situations and create our own destiny.
I choose to force my way through and get exactly what I want out of life.
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Thursday, January 06, 2011
Its a later than normal post and I have been playing around with some of my bicycles getting them ready for the spring and Craigslist. I believe that I know which ones will be kept for myself and which are going to new riders, maybe I don't but it dawned on me that I have photos of each of the bikes that I have and thought I would do a more bike kind of post since I had a minute. When I was 500 pounds there wasn't a chance in hell that I would have been able to take a spin around the block on a bike and since losing the weight I am well..I'll just say it, addicted to messing about with older bicycles. It all started with an idea and a walk through a sporting goods store, that idea ended up with me driving home with a brandy new 2009 K2 Zed in my car, from there I was obsessed with bikes again. When I was a kid I had an old Huffy Santa fe' 10 speed, that turned into a Schwinn Super le' tour which ended up getting stolen off of my back porch in the early 90's and that was the last time that I owned a bike until the K2. I thought it would be fun to post up my little collection that I have acquired over the past months since I got a couple inquiries as to "what kind of this or that" do I have lately, so here goes.
The one that started it all my K2 Zed, this was a birthday gift from my wife in June of 2009 I was very self conscious about getting back on a bike because of my size and I even had my father pop off a quick picture of me sitting on it in the store before I bought it for that reason. This picture is exactly how I got it and there have been some changes to the bike since then but I figured it was a good shot so there she is, I started off riding about a 3 mile loop near my house and ended last year with 20 mile runs on the local rails to trails.
I picked this 1991 Schwinn Crisscross up just last week for a decent price and the frame is my size, its a really comfy position when I am on it and I will not be getting rid of this one any time soon. The plan is to upgrade a couple things and make this my secondary ride, or for when I am going to be doing more riding on the street than the rail trail.
From what I can tell this is a 1994 Trek 750 multitrack, I like the way it rides and it fits me but is a little small but it does adjust to a comfortable fit. I was thinking that if it adjusts down to closer to my wife's size that I would give it to her but it may be just a tad too big for her but since she hasn't checked yet I don;t know if it would work, my guess is that it will be just a bit too tall for her. This will likely be up for sale in the spring unless wify ends up liking it but she is more of a hiking kind of gal so chances are it will be on the list of craigs eventually.
I haven't looked into the year too much on this one, its a Trek 220 mountaintrack and is a kids bike, I suppose a small woman could ride it too but its more geared for kids. I thought about giving this one to my son as an upgrade to his bike but his is brand new (a year old) and he didn't seem to like this one so much when I brought it home so again it will probably end up on Craigslist at some point.
This is a 1995 Specialized Hardrock Sport, this frame is way too small for me but the bike is like new! if Wify does want a bicycle this will likely be the one that I make more comfortable for her. There is not a lot that I can say negative about this one besides a broken grip shifter that still works, I rode this one around the lake last week when it was warm and if it was my size I would keep it for sure. I am replacing the grip shift and it will go onto the list of craigs unless wify fancy's it once I have it 100% with the new grip shifter on it.
This one for whatever reason is very cool to me and I can't figure out my attachment to it! its a 1988 Specialized Rockhopper Comp and other than some spots that could use touch up paint rides awesome! I think that its all of the work that I put into it to get it looking good, this thing was covered in dirt, grime and all of the chrome bits were covered in a light rust. I spent more than a couple hours cleaning her up and was the first of my "addiction" after the K2, perhaps that's where the attraction is. It has new tires on it as it sits now (the tires in this image are gone) and its all cleaned up and ride ready, its a bit small for me but it is comfortable, more than likely it will go up for sale come spring but I don't want to let this one go.
Just a small unknown year Murray Legacy, this one will definitely go up for sale come spring, its too small for me, my son doesn't dig the looks or the only 10 speeds and ita gotta go so I can make room for more new old bikes.
Early 1990's Specialized Hardrock sport, I picked this one up last spring and cleaned it up, tuned it up and sold it to my brother in laws girlfriend, She seemed happy with it, I am happy that it got sold so win win for everyone. I was able to sell a bike so this proves that I can do it! so Wify knows that I have it in me to actually let go of a bike and our basement is starting to look like a bike shop between all of the parts I have accrued and the eight bikes that live down there currently not to mention the one in my bedroom.
I may have traded addictions or perhaps just found a hobby that helps me nurture a healthy lifestyle, either way I enjoy playing around with bikes and I like riding them even more. None of my bikes are the end all of high end two wheeled vehicles but they have all in their own way helped me to stay on track in one way or another along the way. As far as hobbies go I will take this one over my Playstation and Final Fantasy 11 online any day but it wasn't the case once upon a time and I am still a Final Fantasy geek even if I don't play online anymore.
That's my fleet? stable? pile O bikes, some I will keep, some will be sold in order to buy more bikes, this is my hobby and it is in fact an integral part of how I am able to keep the weight off. When You love what you do for exercise its not hard to go out there and do it every day, I even for some odd reason miss it if I can't get to the gym and take a ride on a spin bike or a stationary bike, it suits me.
That's all I got for tonight.
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
The gym has been a little challenging lately, not because I am working my ass off therefore I am challenged but because of the treadmill army that seems to have developed. My normal routine usually ends with a 20 minute brisk walk at a mild incline just to slow things down before I walk out the door but lately it has been nuts at the treadmills but I suppose tis the season. The time that I normally go isn't an especially popular time and the gym is relatively calm when I am usually there, no lines for equipment, no waiting and I hope all of these beginning of the year commandos don't last too much longer! which is bad to say honestly because it means more people are working out and that's good right? I am a creature of habit and having to search for a treadmill isn't what I want to do but the fact that I might have to wait for a treadmill isn't going to stop me from doing what I do. In the beginning all I could do is walk and I somehow connect my success with that fact and I try to walk every day as much as possible because of that, I believe that a person that walks in addition to what could be called "a workout" has a leg up on the game figuratively as well as literally!
My virtual bike ride results from yesterday, RPM's are slightly lower than normal and don't pay attention to the heart rate as it was the only time I touched it and I was pedaling about 105 RPM's when I did that! not a bad 30 minutes.
There are people of all sizes and shapes that need or want to lose weight, get healthier or just workout because it feels good! and some of the bigger folks have to struggle a bit more because of the weight. The new season of The biggest loser started last night and of course I watched it as I do each season (I am sure there will be a ton of blog posts about TBL today but hey! its relevant to what I am gonna say!) anyways, there was a fella on the show that weighed if I remember right 507 pounds and he had already lost 150 pounds to get onto the show or something to that effect, anyways to my point. The 500 pound guy got off of the treadmill at one point and said that his leg hurt and it looked like he tossed himself onto the floor of the gym to prove his point (which at 500 pounds probably wasn't a good idea!) he laid there for a moment and then got up and said something like "it feels better now" and I thought about the whole display and how that state of mind is not a good one when facing a challenge like that. At 500 plus pounds guess what? working out is going to hurt! even just walking like that fella was doing, it IS GOING TO HURT, I know this because I lived it.
When I started off and I know that I've mentioned this before I could only walk for roughly 5 to 10 minutes at a time, my back and legs were on fire the entire time, I was covered in sweat and breathing hard enough to suck any unfortunate bird that flew too close into my lungs. At first I thought about how would I continue? this $hit hurts! so the next day I did the same, I walked as far as I could and slowly added length to my walks, then speed and here I am today. Coming to terms with the fact that when you weigh as much as two people that exercising is going to hurt must happen, it is not comfortable, it is not fun but it is in fact a necessity for a healthy life. I don't mean an injury kind of hurt either, that is something different all together but if you expect to walk around and float through the air with the grace of a Gazelle its just not going to happen, we have to crawl before we walk, walk before running and on and on, the graceful part comes later, I hope.
I began this trip to the half three years ago, walking at a two year old girls pace and thought about the day that I would be able to do 30 minutes straight of any kind of cardiovascular workout, that day seemed so far ahead but I knew if I kept going that I would get there and now an hour is par for the course. I wanted to use that excuse of "it hurts" many times, a lot of the time Wify would say in her kindest voice "you should just do it, once your done you can relax knowing that you did it" and she was right so I pushed through it. In the beginning I was in pain almost constantly, I mean sore when I say in pain, I mean my arse hurting from the seat on my exercise bike and the 500 pounds of pressure that was balanced on that small seat for a whopping 10-15 minutes at a time. Coming to terms with the fact that it is going to hurt is as I said key, even now three years later I get sore after an especially hard workout, walking doesn't hurt any more, biking doesn't hurt me at all but a hike can and does leave its mark most times and I do that for fun these days.
Extra weight will not fall off on its own, we have to make sacrifices in order to get into the shape that we want to, pain will be a part of the process, discomfort will be a part of the process and giving up all of that comfort food will also be a part of that process. In my opinion weighing 500 pounds comes with more pain, discomfort and agony than any exercise gave me, I have come to terms with the fact that exercise does in fact at times hurt, I'm done hurting because of my weight so I'll gladly take it.
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Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Keep on keepin on, that's what He says right? this Zeusmeatball fella, This is the plan for me, I am on a roll and keeping to that has got to be how it goes down. Talking about myself in the third person now? sort of, a while back I wrote a post as Anthony and of course that is my name and the post was by me (though I think a lot of people missed that part of the post) anyways back to my point. When I started writing this blog I was a 534 pound guy that was unsure about how this run at a lighter version of himself was going to pan out and I took on the persona of this God of the meatball namely Zeusmeatball partially because I thought it was a cool name but also because I wanted to remain relatively anonymous. My blog has evolved a bit since that first day of sheepishly writing down my thoughts for the first time and I now put it all out there as long as its weight loss or health related for anyone that cares to click the link which leads to my little nook on the net and I do it as Tony, or simply sign off with "Me" after each post. I am not even close to the same person as when I started down this road to better health and am finding that hiding behind an alias isn't something that I need to do any more but I like the Zeusmeatball persona so he...er, it stays but know that I am not in the same state of mind as that 534 pound version of myself.
State of mind? where have I heard that before? oh! that's right! its sort of my tag line and is right on the header of the blog and has been there from day one. People have emailed me, left comments for me and have messaged me on my facebook page asking me "how do you do it? how do you stick to losing weight?" or "can you explain to me how to lose weight?" and I mostly just link them to my day 1 post and say start here to see what I did. I don't have no singular answer as to how I did it, in the most basic way I ate less and moved more. I believe that the most important part of any weight loss regimen is getting into a state of mind that will allow us to keep focused on the task at hand no matter what gets in the way. I could tell you stories of woe and sorrow, stress and dismay that has happened over the last few years but this blog is about my weight loss and the efforts because of that, not about my personal struggles outside of weight loss, besides I am sure you have your own battles. In lieu of any of the madness that goes on around any of us we have to keep our minds right, forcing ourselves into a state of mind which dictates that health is one of if not the most important goals each day is key.
Knowing that we are able to do whatever we put our minds to is very important, this isn't something that I was unaware of at 534 pounds but it is harder to push when simply walking to the bathroom to take a piss is a chore. I mentioned in earlier posts that my father once talked about how small fish will routinely attack fish that are much bigger than themselves in an attempt to eat them or defend etc and how they have no idea of their relative size to the bigger fish because they can't see themselves so in essence they think that they are the dominant fish in this clash therefore they are. This state of mind that I talk about is like that in the way that you are what you believe yourself to be, a lazy no good fat ass on the couch with nothing better to do than eat a half gallon of Ben and Jerry's complaining about how bad you have it? well guess how that one ends? Get into a state of mind where you know that nothing can get in your way where your health and fitness is involved, eat properly (yes I said properly) get some movement into your days and focus on that instead of any of the negative and the same can be said about the results. Expecting thin and healthy to just happen, perhaps it will just fall into our laps while we devour a double bacon bacon and pepperoni pie with extra cheese while watching The biggest loser? is stupid, take a look in that mirror and ask which life you would prefer. I can honestly say that I haven't worn a crown in quite some time now and the fact that I am healthier than I have ever been shows where my head is in this game.
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