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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

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So over the weekend I was cleaning the yard and when I brought a barrel of leaves for the compost pile I noticed something in my mother in laws back yard, who lives next door to us. A HUGE tree had fallen in a summer storm and their chainsaw wasn't big enough to go through the mass of an about 6 foot long section of trunk and its been sitting back there just waiting for me. I thought about how I like to toss "alternative exercises" into my program as much as possible and had the great idea that I would go out and buy an axe and chip this massive section of tree into some primo firewood for the coming colder months. This morning I got to the gym nice and early where I did 25 minutes on the stationary bike followed by some weight lifting, spending time on my shoulders felt good but that chunk of tree was in my head the whole time. Sunday I had run out and bought a shiny new 4.5 pound axe which is an inch under 3 feet long and I decided on the ride home that I would eat something quick and onto the tree I would go.


Da new axe.

Spending about 2 hours with that axe in my hands left me with a pair of blisters and a cracked axe handle but I did make a dent in the chunk O wood and there is a small pile of firewood for my efforts. I unfortunately did not take an after picture of the log and the wood but I will take and post one either later or tomorrow, I know, how exciting wood! but hey! it is alternate exercise for me and I am trying to focus on that to change things up a bit so it is what it is, besides all of the people that say that they can't afford a gym membership can see that there ARE other ways to break a sweat. This chunk of wood has sat where it is for months now and isn't really bothering anyone since its at the back of the property but I know that they would like it to be gone and I know a guy stupid enough to chop up a piece of hardwood that's about 6 feet long and has a diameter of more than 3 feet by hand so its on.


Front view with the failed shallow chainsaw marks from over the summer.


Back side, look at all of those knots! its going to be a challenge to actually cut this entire thing up.

I did make some changes in my calories because I had hit sort of a wall with the 2000 calorie up that I did a few weeks back so I am back to 1700 and on weight lifting days I will add a whey protein shake to see how that goes. Over all the weight is in a downward swing right now and has been coming down faster since I changed it back to 1700 so until I hit a wall with it I am going with the if it ain't broke way of thinking. I lost all of my weight on a 1700 calorie intake and along the way I change things in the way of exercise and calories from time to time and I always seem to come back to the 1700 calorie allotment so that's where I am at right now.

This week is Thanksgiving and I will have some good eats come Thursday but I am not going to over indulge in anything and am bringing a low calorie side dish so that I know I can make good choices come dinner time. Making my way towards 275 pounds one meal at a time and one workout at a time I know that I will be there and that April goal is still on the table, perhaps I will make it to that line in the sand and perhaps I will fall short, all to be found out on a later episode of as the fat guy turns.

Until next time, keep on keepin on, its all that we can do after all.

As Ever
Me

  
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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/10/2010 11:09AM

    Definitely a creative exercise opportunity.

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CATLADY52 11/24/2010 5:05PM

    You will be successful with the piece of tree. I have no doubt. Have a good Thanksgiving.

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DBALZER 11/24/2010 1:51PM

    Makes me want to go out and buy an axe and go find something in my woods to chop.

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TRACYZABELLE 11/24/2010 12:14AM

    That is one huge stump to chop up!

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DAISY-HIBANA 11/23/2010 10:22PM

    There's something to be said about an exercise session that leaves a tangible result. I love raking in the fall, leaving a clear yard and heaps of leaves. If I ever get a chance to own a home, I want a rotary mower. No gas or electrical, no stink of exhaust or ear-splitting noise...just the soft, clipping sound of blades as they neatly shear grass. They call it "honest work" for a reason, it is rewarding. (Yes, I cut my share of timber for the wood stove when I was a kid. I loved it!)
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PSMITH3841 11/23/2010 10:20PM

    I have a hunch you and Thanksgiving will be just fine! Hope you and your family have the best one ever! Happy Thanksgiving! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DIANE2110 11/23/2010 9:13PM

    That and shoveling a driveway full of wet snow. What a workout! emoticon
Great job and take care of those blisters. Diane : )

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CARLA-216 11/23/2010 2:07PM

    I'm chucking at this: "I know, how exciting wood!"... because I know lots of men who get excited over wood...my hubby and all his woodworking friends! Even wood in the state as shown in your pics gets the creative gears in the mind of a woodworker a turnin'.

Great job on the alternative exercise. That chopping wood is no joke...so I hear!

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VEEJAY3 11/23/2010 1:19PM

    Dear Paul Bunyan:
Happy Thanksgiving!!!
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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 11/23/2010 12:10PM

    Real physical labor, no cardio equipment can beat that. Way to go! Watch your back though!

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CODEMAULER 11/23/2010 11:14AM

    "Kickin' logs and takin' names!"

That is a super industrious project. Get some good gloves and have at it; my money is on you!

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CINCYDORA 11/23/2010 10:10AM

    Way to go! No matter how much success I might have at the gym NOTHING is as satisfying as hauling rocks and swinging a pickaxe while doing yard work.

As for the switch back to lower calories, perhaps you should try calorie cycling. I'm not consistent enough with my calorie intake for my body to get used to it but I know several people that are and they find it helps re-start the metabolism if they switch things up from time to time.

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HAPPYSOUL91 11/23/2010 9:47AM

    OMG, that is a huge tree, hopefully once you are done you will be able to lift your arms

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VANB01 11/23/2010 9:18AM

    my recent "alternative exercise" was hauling rocks for my landscaping: pick up good size rocks from construction site, pace in red pull wagon, pull wagon .15 mile (slight uphill) to my house, unload rocks, wash off mud and return with empty wagon to construction site to repeat. cardio and strength training in one!

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MJMONE 11/23/2010 8:56AM

    I love the phrase 'alternative exercises'...but the one you chose seems a bit extreme. My 'alternative exercising' will be stuff like reorganizing the books so I can dust the cases. No axes here!!!

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DDOORN 11/23/2010 8:49AM

    Whew! What an undertaking! Kudos for thinking of it and following up on it too!

Don

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BOTZZZ 11/23/2010 8:44AM

    Indeed I have a chainsaw but if I used it then the machine that is not me would be doing the work! ;) I could section the wood out in a couple of hours with a chain saw I just thought some extra work could possibly equate to a little less around the middle for me ;)

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MRDPOLING 11/23/2010 8:32AM

    If you have one, a chainsaw used to cut wedges out of that mass (sort of like taking bites out of it) will help whittle that massive block into manageable bits.

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INIT2LIVEIT 11/23/2010 8:13AM

    Boy, that's a big chunk of wood.
Good luck with the changes in calories. I just upped mine to see if it would make a difference.


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Set the pace.

Friday, November 19, 2010


This morning I awoke from my slumber and decided before my feet even hit the hard wood floor that I was not going to the gym, I was up late, was out of bed 30 minutes early and feeling it. I read somewhere that we should make our beds every morning because it sets the pace for the day so after I hit the head I walked into the living room and asked the boss lady if she needed any help to get her morning going. She could see that I wasn't my regular old not a morning person self and said "Nah I got it" so there I sat thinking about what I would make for breakfast, a bowl of cereal later I sat down to write a blog post. Nothing was coming to mind and nothing exciting happened that would lead me to write a post, nothing health/weight loss related anyhow because there was the incident with the raccoon a jack O lantern and flip flops. Al Roker was running about on the Today show and I began thinking about how my day would play out, should I finish raking the leaves in the yard? perhaps it was time to paint the bathroom or maybe I would just sit on the couch all day and be as useless as I felt.

Not long after I shot down all of my ideas including the one where I had a go at world domination with my new friend the raccoon I thought some green tea needed to be made. Somewhere between the ice cube tray and stubbing my pinky toe I decided that bad attitude and bloody toe be damned, I needed to at least go to the gym for a short bike ride. The gym clothes were placed upon my slowly moving body and I had a time getting the pants pulled up over my dragging ass but I was off. By the time I made it to the gym My attitude improved marginally and I honestly thought "Well, I did technically go to the gym today so now I can go home" Suck it up Butter cup! get your ass in there.

That trip to the gym was very much productive, I started off with a 20 minute bike ride to warm things up and I ended with a 99RPM pace which is great! Off to the weights I went and did my back and biceps, I threw in one shoulder movement for good measure and the weight lifting session took me the better part of an hour, realizing that the mopey uninspired fella that drove me to the gym had gone home it was back onto the bike for 30 more minutes. Covered in sweat now, I return to my car and drive home to make myself a nice lunch, The leaves are raked and I pulled up all of my Canna bulbs to store for the winter.

I just came from my bedroom and ya know what? that bed still isn't made.

As Ever
Me

  
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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/9/2010 9:41AM

    Nice to know that I'm not the only one who has these conversations with myself.

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DDOORN 11/21/2010 2:19PM

    Tough pullin' through when your heart is not into it...you're doing better than I!

Don

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PSMITH3841 11/20/2010 6:02PM

    Been there, done that! I understand the feeling totally...Glad you didn't succumb! Good job...... emoticon emoticon

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VANB01 11/20/2010 4:32PM

    I have *so* been there- and the gym pretty much always takes precedence over making the bed! Great job in getting to the gym and getting your workout in.

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HAPPYSOUL91 11/20/2010 9:48AM

    LOL, leave the bed and do the exercise. Isn't is amazing how many times we "don't want to do it"?

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FUNKMASTERJOE 11/20/2010 3:07AM

    Had many a day such as this. Always a great feeling though once you've gone and excercised. As stated above by Cincydora, never regretted going, but have regretted not.

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MRDPOLING 11/19/2010 8:35PM

    an unmade bed? Got to be some deep meaning there. hehe!

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CINCYDORA 11/19/2010 8:02PM

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I've never regretted talking myself into exercising, although I've often regretted talking myself out of it.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 11/19/2010 7:53PM

    I've had a day or two that resemble yours. Some end better than others.

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TEAWONDERFUL 11/19/2010 6:55PM

    I never bother to make my bed and I am plenty productive, for the most part. Glad to hear you had a great day at the gym. I've done that before, after you start you just feel so good you keep going. Keep up the good work.

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FOXXYROXXYD 11/19/2010 6:22PM

    My bed isn't made either and I had a day that started much like yours. Kinda feeling very much like your twin to be honest! I was struggling with running and walking and laundry and cleaning. I finally managed to get with the program - ran 3.2 miles and walked another 2.5. I did have to drag myself to the laundrymat (stoopid thing to do on a Friday because everyone else is doing laundry then too!) and force myself to do some cleaning but, darn it, it's done! It's all done, and a little strength training to boot. Now I can start the weekend - woo hoo!
Yay to both of us for Gettin' it Dun! Huzzah!

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That guy

Thursday, November 18, 2010


To think that I was "That guy" you know, the one that would eat a whole pizza just because it tasted good and not think twice about the repercussions of the act, in fact I have a friend that would do the same thing and it was normal to us to go grab a couple pies for dinner and scoff them down with a 2 liter of coke. I was the guy that would take the challenge of "So, how many $.99 Whoppers do you think that you can eat at one time?" and run with it, the answer is 8 and because the tab was on someone else I was ok with it and I look back at that and my guess is that it was one of the most calorie laden $8 ever spent. This morning I noticed that it was 8:40am and I had dropped a half gallon of green tea down the hatch already, I thought about how that green tea use to be soda or whole milk and seriously what the hell was I thinking? how could any of that be alright? but that was me guilty as charged.



I worked in a manual labor job at the time and believe me when I say that I got PLENTY of exercise at that job and I think its the reason that I was able to eat the way that I did and not get over 350ish pounds. Seven in the morning until five or six at night digging holes, mixing concrete and installing most of the time steel frame work for five to six days per week gets the blood pumping and in hindsight I can say without a doubt that is why I never gained weight back then. An injury back in about 2000 forced me to take a job that was not physical at all, in fact I spent the next 8 years either not working because of the injury or behind a desk and since there was no movement other than walking to the car to drive to the office I was unable to drop any of the weight that I had gained in the first few years after my injury. I became "That guy" again, You know, the huge fellow pouring himself into the car each morning wearing uncomfortable "business casual" clothing, looking sloppy because none of it fit correctly and of course because of those things did not come off as confident as he could, typical fat dude behind a computer in an office and not because it was a choice but because anything more labor intensive would grenade his heart.

My life is what it is, I wouldn't change any of it mostly because my experiences make me who I am and I can honestly say that I am happy over all. I have everything that I need and most of what I want in life right now, sure there are things that I wish I had done earlier and other things that I want to accomplish that could have been done by now if I had gotten started years ago but at this point in my life things could be much worse. I choose to focus on the positive things in my existence insisting on doing things the way that they need to be done in order for me to stay where I need to be and I can't say that was always the case, perhaps I am evolving? growing up? maturing? I am unsure but I know that focusing on the negative will only drag me down so its just not how I get down these days. I fuel my body with mostly clean food, drinking H2O and green tea exclusively these days and I attempt to get some sort of physical activity into every one of my 24 hour segments of time that you humans like to call a day.

I go to the gym almost every day and I only say almost because I enjoy riding my bike more than I like the gym so when weather permits I try and ride instead, I hike when at all possible and Wify comes with me when that happens, I am always looking to do something physical. My kids randomly drop to the floor and bang out some push ups or sit ups all of the time, they say that kids learn from their parents and I would like to believe that they do it because I do the same, I know its why and I have faith that none of my kids will ever suffer from being obese from inactivity. Every person in my family eats healthy these days, there is no soda in my home, no jars or bags full of cookies and I know that the home prepared meals are full of nutrients and not laced with fats and overly salted calories. Again I am finding that I am "That guy" but this time its something to look up to, no more "So, how many $.99 Whoppers do you think that you can eat at one time?" instead I am that guy that insists on living healthy and making it to the gym each day is a very important ideal to me. I don't care how "picky" or "pain in the ass" I might seem to be these days when it comes to what goes into my body, the key words are "My body" and its the only one that I have so from now on its just how its gotta be.

I like this version of "That guy" so I think that I'll keep it for a while.

As Ever
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PAMINHALF 11/23/2010 8:26AM

  What a great blog! Thank you for sharing!

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L_CHANGES 11/22/2010 8:46AM

    Thanks for sharing. This was very motivational to read. You have done so well and you should be proud.

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XTIGERLILYX 11/18/2010 3:48PM

    I've always wondered about your weight story -- the one when you were on your way up, I know the one where you're on your way down! ;-)

You are an inspiration, as always, Botzzz!

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PSMITH3841 11/18/2010 3:33PM

    You know, "that guy" inspires a whole bunch of people! Keep the blogs coming, you are doing a lot of good.... emoticon emoticon

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KAREN_NY 11/18/2010 3:13PM

    Love it -- the new definition of That Guy!! emoticon

Rock the day!
K:)

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DBALZER 11/18/2010 2:24PM

    I also have been "That Guy" and am done! I think the thing that motivates me most to become fit is the thought of my children learning my ways. I want them to learn to become the man I am striving to be, not the one I have been the last 15+ years.

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MRDPOLING 11/18/2010 2:04PM

    If you don't want this version of That Guy, I'll take him. :P

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MINNA72 11/18/2010 1:45PM

    That guy seems to be an inspiration and someone who has it together these days. My hat comes off to a guy like that. Well done.

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 11/18/2010 12:46PM

    I think "That Guy" is pretty darn cool!!

What kind of green tea do you drink?

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MAMADWARF 11/18/2010 10:55AM

    Love your blog and your attitude. I love that your kids are being healthy because of you and I love that you and your wife go for the hikes together. That is something I love doing with my hubby now. we take the dog for a walk nearly every night and it is a simple thing but it makes us closer. Good job on the changes. That guy is a winner!!

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HAPPYSOUL91 11/18/2010 10:43AM

    I also like and ADMIRE that guy! What a feeling to know that we can re-create ourselves to be better

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RUNNER12COM 11/18/2010 10:41AM

    That Guy, indeed. Well done!

SDJ

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KENDRACARROLL 11/18/2010 10:39AM

    Just stumbled across your page. Great blog! Congratulations on your awesome achievement!

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    Loved your blog. Keep up the good work and your positive attitude! emoticon emoticon

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Giving up..

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


What can I do? it feels hopeless and I can't figure out how to fix it, this is how it's going to be forever no matter how short forever is and nothing that I can do will be enough. I know that I need to do something about this or it will do something about me and the story will end up with a fat man in a hole with a rock at one end carved with something nice about him while the earth keeps spinning. Why can't I just stop eating the garbage that passes for food these days? What is it about eating a satchel full of greasy over processed food that is so appealing? yet here I am with a bag full of Del Taco in my lap wolfing down my second cheese burger so that when I walk through the door no one will know exactly how much I ate. I don't want to get up off of the couch any more, simply sitting here has become enough, at least that's the perception that I want people to believe because if they don't believe it then I have to admit that I can't do much more than this, fuvk, I have to piss and I can't just sit here and do it on myself, I suppose I will drag myself into the bathroom even if it makes my back hurt.

I made it to the top of the stairs which is awesome but now I need to wait a few seconds so that I can catch my breath and let my heart rate go down, I don't want Wify to know how hard I struggle with every stair and I know that I am only fooling myself because the concern is all over her face day in and day out. Why can I not get a hold on this? something that in theory seems so easy is turning out to be the bane of my existence, will today be the day? the day that my heart hand grenades behind my ribs shredding everything that I know and love as the shrapnel exits my chest? Front page news, 550 pound man had to be cut from his home this afternoon as the scene of a hole in the side of my house graced the news sites and television, no fuvkin' way I was going to let it be me.

Diligently counting every calorie that entered my body while walking as far as I could every day feeling a little more confident in what I was doing. I started off by eating the foods that I was use to but in smaller portions, then I began researching types of foods and what they do for me or to me and adjusted my diet to include as many whole foods as possible. Walking one third of a mile at a two and a half year old girls pace became walking at my pace while she rode in the stroller for half of the ride which became her on my shoulders and on and on. The weight was coming off and I was feeling better and better physically, I was missing less and less and it dawned on me that as long as I did my part the rest kind of just happened on its own, who wouldda thunk? When you weigh 500 plus pounds everything that you do is hard, I mean everything and without getting into details I am sure you can use your imagination and get pretty close on most of it but as plainly as I can say it life pretty much sucks when you weigh that much.

I've had people say to me "I have X Y and Z which limits what I can do so you don't know what I am going through" when I say to start small and do what you can while making the commitment to the eating less part priority. That is ALL excuses, I don't care what a person perceives as a roadblock I call them excuses at this point and before you get all "Oh you cocky son of a bitch where do you get off blah blah blah" I weighed more than 500 pounds, yeah that's a quarter ton, I have a disk injury in my lower back and I go to the gym every day currently and am limited only by my own hand, as a 500 pound man I walked while my back was on fire, my heart pounded and sweat poured from every inch of my skin but I kept doing it despite the pain and discomfort. The whole time I walked I held the hand of the most beautiful little girl in the world which was a constant reminder of why I needed to keep going no matter how much it hurt, no matter how slow I went and no matter how uncomfortable I was. I never said that it would be easy and every one of us that has lived or is living the life of a super obese person knows the feeling. Something that I've learned is that I am not and was not the only person with this problem and feeling sorry for myself helped me to get to that 500 plus pound stage of my life and if I had looked in a mirror sooner I may have figured it out earlier than I did.

Now its time to finish what I started because even though I am seemingly unlimited in what I do these days I do have health goals that I wish to reach so its on, I wouldn't recommend standing in my way.

As Ever
Me

  
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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/8/2010 8:54AM

    I admit that the first bit of this blog had me worried. Great post!!!

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PUCKYGIRL 11/18/2010 9:31AM

    Have your ever seen the movie "what's eating gilbert grape" That will take a whole new meaning to what you just were describing. The first time I saw this I tears streaming down my face. That I never wanted to be cut from the upstairs of my house. If you ever get a chance watch it. At least the end, it is kind of a boring movie. But at least the last 1/2 hour. It has Johnny Depp & Leonardo DiCaprio in it anyway. If you don't watch it let me know and I will tell you why... :)
BTW Turkey sausages are the bomb. Thanks for that tip.
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CAMERABABE 11/18/2010 7:50AM

    You had me concerned by the title too. You are such an inspiration for all of us on here. I know that you will make your goals you set for yourself and look good doing it too.

Thank you for posting such an inspiration.

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CLAIRESML 11/17/2010 5:56PM

    Glad its on!

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MINNA72 11/17/2010 5:25PM

    What an inspiring blog entry. Thank you.

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DEEO12 11/17/2010 2:35PM

    #1 Motivation blog award coming up! emoticon emoticon

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SONYARODRI29 11/17/2010 2:29PM

    You inspire me!

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BAYBELIEVER 11/17/2010 2:23PM

    Awesome blog. Like others, I was really scared when I saw the title, I thought: "There's no way he is giving up!!" And you aren't! But you are out there reminding us all that this CAN be done--and it has to be done, not some miracle cure! Thanks!

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FOXXYROXXYD 11/17/2010 1:59PM

    Love this blog and the way you can share exactly what you are feeling. You inspire and motivate - way to go! You ROCK!

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PRUPLEBEAR 11/17/2010 1:52PM

    You Rock!

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TWENKY215 11/17/2010 12:31PM

    You had me worried for a minute when I read my feed and it said "Giving up". You are my favorite Sparker, hands down, so don't you ever scare me like that. Now that I have read your entry, Thank you.

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BORNAGAINBRAT 11/17/2010 12:29PM

    You brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations on finding the will to get to where you are. You are in inspiration!

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CANARYKARI 11/17/2010 11:39AM

    Wow - very powerful blog. You really have a way with words! You should be extremely proud of yourself!!!! You are an inspiration...... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KIMROID 11/17/2010 11:37AM

    Great blog! Thank you so much for sharing!

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 11/17/2010 11:33AM

    You reminded me of a movie I saw ions ago, "What's Eating Gilbert Grape?" Fantastic movie. Along the lines of the whole in the side of the house to remove his morbidly obese mother after she dies.

I think your daughter will always have the memories of her daddy taking her for walks, rides and being active with her all the time, and that's worth every ounce of sweat you dropped.

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RYANDEJONGHE 11/17/2010 10:35AM

    Another great post. Thanks for sharing and being an inspiration to us all!

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RUNNER12COM 11/17/2010 10:14AM

    Start where you can, do what you must, and get where you want to.

I love this blog entry. Thank you for sharing it with us!

SDJ

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DIANE2110 11/17/2010 10:00AM

    Well Me, you should be syndicated! Your blogs are so vivid and heart-felt, they are powerful. You had me worried at first, after reading your other blogs I couldn't see the connection. What do you mean BOTZZ's giving up!?!

I just saw another sparker's blog and he need a lift. I'll refer him to you! You are inspiring!

You are so close. Go get it!

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AAQUWAA 11/17/2010 9:59AM

    Thanks for sharing, love your blogs, a real person, with real struggles, you make me check myself and get over it, just do it :)

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TWISTEDSTEELE 11/17/2010 9:59AM

    I WAS THERE I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE

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ANIKA34 11/17/2010 9:52AM

    Thanks for sharing your blog! I know exactly how you are feeling. Today is a new day, start fresh, forget the past and do something positive today for your health. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!

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JOHNSONZ 11/17/2010 9:51AM

    I had something all planned to say when I read GIVING UP as the title.
Glad I got to hold my breath on it.
Wonderful blog on excuses.
We all have them.
Thanks for Posting!

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LUCRETIAO 11/17/2010 9:50AM

    Loved the blog thank you for sharing. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 11/17/2010 9:41AM

    Gut retching blog.

Have you been to a Dr. recently and actually had all body systems checked? Don't kid yourself, when you are obese or morbidly obese there are repercussions and you should be aware of them.

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CRIS76 11/17/2010 9:37AM

    I have blogged on excuses before.... and yup, we all got 'em - but sometimes you just gotta tell yourself to stfu and move on. Thanks for the blog :)

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/17/2010 9:36AM

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DEREKCSIMMONS 11/17/2010 9:33AM

    Amen brother. My Company Commander in boot camp used to say "excuses are like armpits, we all got 'em and they all stink!" Well, he used a different part of the anotomy that also begins with A and we only got one but you get the picture.

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INIT2LIVEIT 11/17/2010 9:29AM

    OMG I had my heart in my throat for the first couple of paragraphs. Phew glad it was a retrospective...


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TREASURINGLIFE 11/17/2010 9:25AM

    Great blog!! :) Thank you so much for sharing!!

- Michelle

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CARLA-216 11/17/2010 9:25AM

    I totally to agree with you re: "That is ALL excuses, I don't care what a person perceives as a roadblock I call them excuses at this point..."

Great blog! Proof that for most people, it really is excuses that hold them back.

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MRDPOLING 11/17/2010 9:20AM

    You go Girlfriend! hehe!

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CINCYDORA 11/17/2010 9:17AM

    Powerful. Thank you.

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Wednesday, November 17, 2010


Lately the name of the game has been get to the gym, count the calories and drink my green tea and H2O, I have been all business at the gym and for my efforts the posts have been coming slower lately. This afternoon I did 20 minutes on the stationary bike at the gym @99RPM's covering eight virtual miles, following that I lifted weights for about an hour covering my chest, triceps and did one movement for my biceps since they were a secondary group being used in one of my chest exercises. My calories as I type this are at 2005 total and I am done for the day at this point, included in those calories is a banana, 2 peaches, 4oz of roasted turkey breast, a whey protein shake and the rest of the menu is very similar, to say that I have been eating cleanly is an understatement. Somewhere along the way in the last week or so my focus has become strongly aimed at getting below 300 pounds as fast as possible without stressing over it and I can see the numbers on the scale in my head as clear as I can see the screen in front of me as I type right now 299.

I have not been posting my weight on Fridays for a couple weeks and that is sort of purposely not on purpose, wait what? Somehow having that "I gotta post my weight on Friday" monkey sitting on my shoulder was screwing with my mojo so the first time around it was literally I lost track of days but last week I decided that I wasn't posting it because I was in a zone and didn't need the false road block to get in the way. I have had no time to write daily because of a non weight loss related situation that has kept me from the keyboard as often as I would like to be here but I am going to try and get to posting on a regular basis once again as some of the smoke is clearing and I actually feel guilty not writing a post! not to mention that I have fallen behind on all of the other blogs that I enjoy reading.

My wife has been a peach the last couple weeks, She has kept me on track with some extra support and we even got out on a hike yesterday which played a part in why I didn't get a post up. We hiked about 4.5 miles much of that was up hill and we packed a lunch that we enjoyed on a "look out point" along the trail that actually over looks one of the bike trails that I ride and that was probably the most awesome lunch that I have had in a long time. I started something back in January 2008 with this whole weight loss thing and back then it was a matter of do I want to live or do I want to die and that made things easy because if there is one thing that is certain its that I want to be around for my wife and kids, for about the last year though I found that I was/am comfortable with where I am physically....to a point.

Comfort is one of those things that can sneak up on a fella and slowly take over the drive that was once flowing in his blood, it is after all one of the main reasons that many people try and lose weight right? I LOVE the being comfortable with myself thing, I am finding it harder to find things that I am limited from doing these days and feel that I have my life back not in the respect of anything other than my stamina is there again and I do what I want to. The mere fact that I can on a whim go on a hike with the love of my life and sit in the quiet of the New England woods sharing a moment of just enjoying the company is something that I was not a possibility at 534 pounds and I have been soaking those moments up as they come for the last year.

There is something on my horizon that is very important to me and getting myself back into the groove of dropping weight like its my job is just how its going to be for as long as it takes me to get to my goal weight. The days of letting the comfort be the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow are over, I need to get to my goal so that I can prove to myself that I can in fact go the full 100% and not be mister 97% like I have been in the past, its time to get the last couple few off of my bones once and for all. My lowest weight since starting down this road to better health was 305 pounds back on May 21st, I am right now as I type this post 25 pounds higher than that low number and honestly it aggravates me more than almost anything that I can think of right now but to focus on that would be a mistake.

I am focusing on my calories, I again started weighing EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth a week ago, no more "going off of what I know" with my "eying it" technique. Missing a workout is not an option which is nothing new because as you all know I LOVE the gym and I LOVE the workouts but I am going to push myself harder in order to get to my goal weight which will start by me getting back down to that 305 pound mark that I made back six months ago. I need to get to that initial goal not because of anything other than to prove to myself that I can finish what I started back in January 2008, I've come this far and I've done it on my own, no payment plans or food in a box delivered to my door, not at the edge of a knife on an operating table and no miracle pills, I will get to the weight that I set out to get to, my way.

That's all I got for tonight, tomorrow will be just the next day in a string of many where I punish my body into submission.

As Ever
Me

  
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DEREKCSIMMONS 11/17/2010 2:14PM

    I'm struggling with the "comfort zone" myself. I'm trying to tell myself it complacency and that doesn't sound so good. So, I will be trying to tame the complacency beast as well! Good Luck!

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 11/17/2010 11:42AM

    True awesomeness! Wait, is that a word? emoticon

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FRANNIEDID 11/17/2010 10:31AM

    I have been slacking a lot lately and you are inspiring me so much, thank you!!!

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FOXXYROXXYD 11/17/2010 9:37AM

    Great Blog as usual! The part about ejoying a hike with your wife, etc., touched me and I hope you shared that with her. It's all those non-scale victories that make this journey so worthwhile, don't you think? I know it is for me and my hubby.
I love your attitude - there is nothing that can stop you!
Keep up the strong work!

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INIT2LIVEIT 11/17/2010 9:26AM

    OMG I had my heart in my throat for the first couple of paragraphs. Phew glad it was a retrospective...

Sorry meant to post this on the blog above.

Comment edited on: 11/17/2010 9:34:22 AM

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TWISTEDSTEELE 11/17/2010 9:01AM

    YOU ARE THE MAN I NOPE TO BE THANKS

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MRDPOLING 11/17/2010 8:14AM

    I need to get that diligent too!

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AXISLADY 11/17/2010 8:09AM

    Such a great post. I usually read on FaceBook then come over here to make a comment. You've got skill with putting words together. Is that part of your work life? You do it well.

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INIT2LIVEIT 11/17/2010 7:33AM

    I appreciate the way your words always resonate so much. You have a way of saying exactly how this process feels. Thank you again.

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