Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Addiction is a funny thing, for some people its the burn in the back of their throat from a stiff drink and others get it from drugs and then there the people that get it from a good solid workout. There is a group of people that are addicted to food and I do believe that I fell into that group for a good long period of my life. Addictions can control us in ways that no one would ever want to admit because they show our weak side, something that can control us, decide our fate for us. This weekend my wife has discovered that I have an addiction, and this addiction is not made of ground beef a hardy roll and a half pound of toppings, this addiction is not made from plastic and electronics that display digital characters running through Batilla downs on the tv and computer screen, it is much different.
My daily rider K2 ZED that started it all.
1988 Specialized Rockhopper Comp which I cleaned up and it is tuned and ridable, it has new tubes and tires on it now but I haven't taken a new photo yet.
Old Murray Legacy, this is no where near big enough for me but the price was the same as a 6 pack so I couldn't pass it up.
1990 (dated from component dates) Specialized Hardrock sport, This bike is very fun and I have been riding it twice a week or so in place of the K2 just for kicks.
This is a Trek Mountaintrack 220 that I picked up yesterday from craigslist, its a kids bike but fits my son perfect so I will likely clean it up and let him ride it a little bit as he is riding on a Next MTB currently.
I have in the last year been consumed by bikes, reading about bikes, buying bikes, and most importantly riding bikes, I have come to love bike riding once again. I see biking as a huge factor in how I lost most of my weight on this trip to the half as I started off on a used stationary bike bought from Craigslist back in the beginning zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2008/01/da
y-7_08.html and I loved it even back then on that old used monstrosity of a bike looking thing. I ride a stationary bike at the gym and then come home and ride my bike around the lake that I live on, When you are caged and unable to participate in something that you know is enjoyable it hurts. Biking was something that I knew I loved because when I was a kid I rode everywhere on an old Schwinn Super Le Tour with my best friend, like clock work we meet in front of the house and headed over to the corner store to fill our bike bottles with 25 cent juices and off we went.
Missing something and not knowing that you miss it is unfortunate because it could have been a huge motivational tool for me with my weight loss a lot sooner if I realized how much I actually enjoy riding a bike. This is an addiction that I am proud to say that I have, I love my bikes and am planning on a few more before the summer is over which should make the boss lady happy as she tells me daily to move this one or that one out of her way. I would love to find myself an old Super le Tour in dark blue with the chrome fork tips like back in the day for nostalgia's sake so I am always keeping my eyes out for one of those to pop up, mine was stolen from my back porch back in about 1993 or so. Last night I told Wify that having all of the bikes was a lot better than having all of the video games and systems with a side of big fat cheeseburger addiction and she agreed wholeheartedly so they get to stay.
Finding something that we love to do that will keep us fit while we spend precious time doing it is more than a good thing, its the absolute to sustain a healthy life. If we enjoy what we do for exercise then it becomes a hobby more than exercise and we want to do it every day if not every minute.
So I am more than proud to say that I have an addiction, that addiction is going to help me excel with my health and fitness level all while giving me views that I have not had for quite some time on top of a frame and some wheels pedaling my ass off every day.
Hi, my name is Tony and I am an addict...
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Making better choices in my diet and exercise for nine hundred fifty three days now and loving every minute of it, I promise you I am! Starting off not being able to walk a half mile to where I am today hiking, biking and hitting the gym regular like my life is completely different than it was when I began down this road paved in low calorie meals and sweaty bike rides. Living life on this end of the spectrum is a lot nicer than where I started, the view is much better from this side to put it simply. Something that has happened recently is that since the kids have been off of school my exercise has slowed way down and I know that having them here makes it more difficult to have a strict exercise schedule but I should honestly be able to get something into every day regardless so my lack of movement sits squarely on my shoulders, it is what it is. My weight has sort of whats the term the kids are using these days? plateaued? for the last couple months...hey! exactly when I stopped going to the gym every day, who wouldda thunk?? but its the reason that I am not too worried about it too. What it shows is that I can maintain my weight pretty easily because I am not really up in weight in the grand scheme but I am fluctuating within about a 10-15 pound range that hasn't changed in a couple months.
Did somebody mention the view being better on this side?
Here is my menu from yesterday, I did go over slightly but I swear its not my fault! those rice and beans that I make are seriously addicting for me and I really should stop making it! but I can't! I must!! there is no way that I can't have them! think of your ass man! but! but! no pun intended! or was it? oh I don't know any more....see?? I've gone crazy talking to myself in my own blog over them..... here is the menu at any rate.
onion/peppers/tomato/1T smart balance 87
6 egg whites 1 whole egg 160
1 whole grain deli thin 100
1 garlic pickle spear 5
1 banana 105
1 med tomato 25
1 T peanut butter 95
1 T strawberry jam 40
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
1 Yoplait thick and creamy yogurt 100
1 med tomato 25
1 1/3 cup rice&beans 400
6oz panko breaded baked haddock 250
tartar sauce 50
1/2 cup rice & beans 150
That comes to 1732 total calories for the day which is not bad at all and pretty much on the button but truth be told I did take a bite or two more than the measured portions that are listed so it is a tad bit higher than the 1732 on my excel sheet. I've started weighing everything again too which means that all of my chopped veggies and smart balance etc is getting itemized into my spreadsheet again, its sort of just a check system for myself to make sure that my visual scale skills are still sharp. I never stopped weighing portions of meat and I never stopped measuring my rice or pasta etc on my salter scale or in measuring cups but my diced veggies, whole fruits etc I have been eyeballing for a while now. before I weigh anything now I take a guess and I am happy to say that I am still pretty much right on so my eyeballing skill has held up.
I am working out a schedule to make sure that I can get to the gym every day because I must do it, I miss going regularly to the gym and my weight hasn't budged since I stopped going daily so it must resume. The problem that I run into when I go to the gym later in the day, meaning early evening is that I am all kinds of pumped up and awake after my workout that I end up staying up until after midnight because of that high so my sleep suffers. When sleep suffers everything suffers because I am tired and not at my best so its hard for me to commit to a late workout but I am thinking that I have to because besides the fact that I am not getting in the cardio that I would like to be I just plain old miss it.
Today I will be at the gym at some point, the plan is my 15-15-15 workout but I changed it to 20-20-20 so that its an hour of cardio instead of the 45 minutes. I have 4 eggplants out in the garden that are ready to be picked so perhaps a healthy version of eggplant parmesan will be born today. My day must begin so that's all I got for now, the one thing that I ask of you is that if you made it all the way to this point of my post is that you get up now and go grab a glass of H2O to start your day off right, I am already down 1/2 a gallon of water and 30 seconds after I hit publish I will have a glass of Green tea in my possession.
Keep on keepin on, its all that we can do..
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Don't tell me that you can't do it, if you do I will not believe the words weakly falling from your pie hole.
That sounds a lot like an excuse to me, perhaps you should reevaluate your stance before making the decision to not workout today.
I understand that its just a tiny amount of cereal grabbed from the box but you don't need it so put it back right this very moment.
I will start being strict again tomorrow, do in NOW not later.
Making the decision to get and stay healthy has to be all of the way, it has to be how we live each and every day of our lives, we need to eat real foods and exercise our bodies in order to be at the top of our limits every day. I can tell you that at 500 plus pounds nothing is easier, not a single thing in life is made more simple because of weighing more than a quarter ton unless we are talking about anything gravity related, or perhaps breaking the inner structure of a couch. Being chained to an uncomfortable life because of our weight is not a fun thing, I do not wish it on anybody and I feel for people that I see walking around or in a lot of times rolling around in motorized chairs breathing heavy while struggling to appear as if they are in control of things. I honestly at times have to stop myself from offering help to random people that I see struggling to breathe because of their weight, I know first hand how it feels as well as knowing that a hand reached out would feel like an insult because at my highest if someone offered to help I would have insisted that they were crazy and that I was just fine.
Making the decision to snatch our lives from an almost certain heart attack or hand grenading our knees isn't easy, its not something that is a snap change in the way we eat and exercise but when a person weighs 500 plus pounds its time to start making it a priority. I don't think that anyone can just flip a switch and be mister super weight loss eat right guy but over time and lots of research that can develop and a healthy life can be his. Nobody forces us to eat badly, there is no giant with a club holding our mouths open while he shoves greasy morsels of artery clogging food down our gullets, it just doesn't happen like that. We have to be our own police, when its food that is the addiction its hard because we need to eat, and we need to do it every day so how do you police that effectively all while not obsessing over it? You have to want it more than you want the handful of cereal or the bacon double bacon cheeseburger pizza dipped in chocolate sauce and melted cheese.
When I was 500 pounds I was the very same man that I am now but there was a difference, that difference is that I hid behind the difficulty of what was in front of me where as now I take responsibility for whatever I do, they are my decisions and mine alone. Nothing is going to change if we don't make it change, in some cases we must force a change because if we don't then it will always be our downfall and when you are (if you read my blog regularly you know I hate this term) Morbidly obese time is against you. I wish that someone would have told me that I had a case of being a little bitch and prescribed me a heavy dose of man the fuvk up a long time ago because that's what it comes down to for me, and its how I look at my health these days. I have to do what I need to in order to assure that I am around a very long time so that I can show my kids that there is a right way and a wrong way to approach their health so that they will never have to concern themselves with the struggles of being an extremely heavy individual in a society that just does not accept it not to mention all of the health risks involved with weighing as much as a silver back gorilla.
Make excuses or make your mind up to do something about the weight, it is your choice, your decision and your life. I can't tell you that its easy because it really has been one of the most difficult things that I have done in my life but I can tell you that I am happier right now than I have been in my entire adult life because of making that decision to live life on my terms.
I can and am doing it..
I will workout today...
I did walk past that cereal box without dipping into it....
I am on plan and full steam ahead NOW not tomorrow.....
Won't you join me?
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