Monday, August 09, 2010
This weekend afforded the Boss lady and myself the chance to get away on a little weekend retreat just the two of us so we did! I got an email from Wify listing an entire weekend full of stuff to do with a simple question "How does this sound?" I thought it sounded great so the room was booked and we were off. I always talk about not limiting myself during "special occasions" and this kind of fell into that but I did pretty good on the eating front and as far as exercise is concerned we walked for more than 5 hours on Saturday on Mt Sunapee at a craftsmen fair followed by about 2 1/2 hours on Sunday at a HUGE flea market that was on our route home.
Oh no! I ate the whole thing!
We started out on our trip and I had all day Friday where I ate how I should have, we decided to go to the supermarket for a snack for the ride as it was a few hours and some stuff to drink. I decided on a bag of Quaker Quakes rice snacks which is 70 calories per serving BUT I ended up eating the entire bag on the ride up! no worries I thought as I had a very light day so on we went. It was decided before we left that we would do a late dinner when we pulled into town and we found a little bar/restaurant which was surprisingly good where the service and food was concerned. We ordered nachos for an appetizer and I got an 8oz NY strip with a loaded baked potato and sauteed zucchini, I passed on the veggies, ate the whole steak and the potato came back to the hotel with us so again not so bad of a dinner where calories are concerned. Wify ordered a pasta dish with artichoke, spinach, grilled chicken and a light red sauce and she only ate half of it and that meal from Friday fed us for dinner again Saturday and one meal for two nights dinner would have never happened in the past.
A shot of the Healthy eating vendors sign.
Saturday morning we woke up early and started our day with breakfast at the restaurant in the hotel just to make things easy, I had an eggbeater omelet with veggies, whole wheat toast and some home fries. I asked for half of the cheese that they normally use as I didn't figure they used low fat stuff like I do at home, the home fries were baked and I opted for H2O as my drink, over all I was off to a good start. We headed up to the Craftsmen fair and I was pleasantly surprised at what I found there as I was a little skeptical that it was going to be intriguing enough to keep me interested in staying all day. There were glass blowers, blacksmiths, wood carvers, painters and silver smiths along with any other kind of craft type persons that you could think of there, we walked straight away to a fella that was carving logs into sculptures with a chainsaw and immediately bought a mask off of him for our wall of masks at home. After walking around for a few hours we decided that it was time for lunch so we walked on over to the food area to be faced with things like Philly cheese steaks, cheese burgers, pulled pork sandwiches and all other sorts of "fair" type food stuff but then noticed the "Health smart" booth! I ended up with a Turkey sandwich on whole wheat with lettuce on it with a bottle of H2O to wash it all down with so I was still on par with making good food choices to go with all of the walking that we were doing.
Half of my lunch.
and the other half! along with my chipmunk like cheek!
After lunch I was forced we decided to take a ride on the ski lift to take a 10 minute ride to the summit of Mt Sunapee to check out the view and walk around a bit up on top of the world, the brochure said there were trails up there so it sounded fun. The ride up was really fun with lots to look at and the view from the top was even better, it was almost story like as we got to the top and were greeted with what seemed like hundreds of shiny purple dragonflies gliding around the wild flowers and trees. We spent about an hour on the summit before heading back down and to say that I was relaxed at that point would not be close to how I was feeling, Just two and a half years ago a trip like this one would not have been possible just because of the walking that was involved never mind anything else.
My feets on the ski lift, its further down than this pic lets on!
Me and Wify on the summit, another hiker offered to take our photo for us.
This is off of the balcony on the lodge at the summit.
Wify snapped this as we were walking away from the ski lift after coming down.
When we came down off of the summit we decided that it was time to head back to the hotel after a quick trip to the supermarket for some green tea and supplies. I was craving Cheese for some reason, is there something in cheese that my body needed? or did I just want some?! I don't know but we picked up some low fat pepper jack and a box of wheat thins which we used as an appetizer to our main course al la left overs. Saturday night dinner was the loaded baked potato, Wifys pasta and the remainder of the nachos split between us, we did indulge in dessert at the Italian restaurant in the hotel in the form of some Gelato and a small piece of cheese cake which was also split between us after dinner.
Sunday is where my eating went down hill as I feel that I made decent choices throughout the whole weekend until that day, breakfast was at a diner and I got a cup of coffee which I did use splenda in so props to me there but that's where the props stop I am afraid. I ordered hash and eggs, which had 3 eggs over easy on top of a small pile of hash along with some whole wheat toast, the meal was delicious and I haven't had hash in ages but probably not the best choice in the grand scheme. We had decided that we were going to stop in Massachusetts for dinner at a random Italian restaurant that we found on restaurants dot com as we had a few coupons and we were going to kind of skip lunch grabbing a soft serve ice cream at some point after a flea market that we stopped at. Well we did get soft serve at a place called Poor boys drive in, this place was amazing! they had flavored soft serve ice cream in the way of like 30 different flavors! I ended up getting a large rum flavored and wify opted for the cheese cake and that rum soft serve tasted just like rum cake and though I thoroughly enjoyed the cone I am quite relieved that it is so far from me. Our "skip lunch" idea turned into "lets just grab a side and split it" which we did, we ordered something that they called tumbleweeds which was just very thinly sliced onions cooked like onion rings but it was a huge plate! and off we went.
At the place in MA I ordered the chicken parm which was served on top of pasta and again was not the best choice but I knew that when I ordered it, the menu was sort of lacking and nothing else really caught my attention. I knew that another blogger Ann whom I met when I went to the Dr. Oz show ( zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2010/02/so
html ) lived in MA and she had given me her cell phone number at the time so I thought I would shoot her a text and see if she wanted to meet Wify and myself for dinner at said random restaurant. As it turned out she was only 30 minutes away from where we were eating and accepted so that was a cool surprise to end our weekend. Ann found out that I do in fact drink crazy amounts of tea as she watched eight or was it nine glasses of unsweetened tea come to the table one after another, we did joke about that. After dinner back into the car we went and homeward bound once again we drove as I tried to make the "time of arrival" on the GPS get lower and lower until finally we made it home.
Over all it was a great weekend spent with Wify, I made some good choices with my intake, some not so good choices but in the grand scheme it was good. Eight hours of walking/hiking squeezed into two days and some great memories added to the collection along with the three hundred some odd photos that we snapped while making those memories. This entire weekend would not have happened if I had not decided to change my life just two and a half short years ago and I know that I am happier because of that decision.
That was how this fella spent a weekend because of a two and a half year old decision, what are you able to do now because of healthier choices? and with that, the end has come to this edition of as the fat guy turns..
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Can you imagine how frustrating that is? can you imagine working as hard as I do and still looking like you eat cheeseburgers for breakfast lunch and dinner? There are times that I feel like a million bucks and then there are other times that I grab a glance of myself in the mirror and think "Holy hell! am I still THAT big??" It really is a double sided battle for me. I know that I am not even close to what I was at 500 plus pounds but I am not close enough to my goal yet that I can say "yep, couple few more pounds and I'm there" either and I think that a lot of the frustration comes from the skin that's literally still hanging around because of the big losses.
I currently wear a 2XL shirt, well most in that size fit now a days but the top of the shirt usually fits slightly loose while the bottom half is more snug but the skin likes it that way so it is what it is. I think about how big I look to myself at this point sometimes and I can get lost in that until I am feeling like a complete round boy, now this is rare but it still happens. I have to remember that just two and a half years ago I was wearing a 6XL shirt and thinking about a 7XL because the 6XL was starting to snug more and more. This next thing may sound odd but I still have a lot of the clothes that I wore back when I was 500 plus pounds but I keep them to remind me where I was because though I have come more than 200 pounds down a road that's leading me to being fit I still need reminders to keep me pushing. Yesterday we took the kids to the mall for a haircut and a wash, I was walking through the mall and saw that my gym is opening a location in the mall so I was reading the sign but there was a weird angled window next to me and I caught a glimpse. I looked about how I thought I did, sexy fat dude came to mind but when I turned I looked bigger "holy hell! round boy!" and I know that I need to just get over it but I am always looking for my reflection to judge myself, imagine that? judging myself!
The green shirt is one of my old 6XL's while the black Under Armour shirt is a 2XL and fits me now, putting them on top of one another really shows just how big of a difference there is, I promise that black one is not a kids shirt!.
We go through life with people judging or prejudging us and here I am having successfully lost more than 200 pounds and keeping it off for more than 2 years and I am doing to myself something that I loathed as a heavier person. I got over it pretty quickly but the thought entered my gray matter center stage if only for a second or two, it did enter. I walked into GNC and read a fitness magazine for a minute or two and didn't question me being in there or look around to make sure there wasn't more than one person in there like I did back when I was heavier and needed to use their scale. Two things need to happen for me, I need to just stop thinking about the bigger me and by that I mean the version of my current self that looks bigger whether in my minds eye or in reality sometimes, and I need to realize that I look extremely different than I did when I began my better health campaign.
That image above shows me a lot, it is proof positive that I am leaps and bounds ahead of where I started because when I thought to lay one shirt on top of the other I didn't think that it would look as different as it does. Maybe I should just accept the fact that I am much smaller now, perhaps if the new me was to lay on the old me the difference would be just as dramatic. Maybe I should stop caring about those odd angles where I look bigger than my minds eye shows me I am? I wish that it was that easy. Having memories of wearing that green shirt that is above and those memories being so close in the grand scheme it would be like forgetting something that happened yesterday, even though today is a completely different day, what happened yesterday is still there. Hopefully sooner than later I can get past that feeling of being a round boy because I do know that there is a huge difference but all at the same time I see a bigger me than people say is there now from time to time.
947 days after starting down this path to better health I am much lighter, stronger mentally and physically, I eat better than I ever have in my life and still I battle with seeing myself smaller. Perhaps this shall pass, perhaps it won't but how ever it goes the plan is to keep on keepin on until I reach all of my health goals. My feeling is that I am not the only one that has fought or is fighting this self image battle but I will take this fight over the other any day because this is much easier than weighing 500 plus pounds and struggling with EVERYTHING.
As the fat guy turns has come to a conclusion for the day, make great decisions when it comes to intake and drink much for all you have to gain is your health!
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
We make decisions every day of our lives which takes us down our own path ultimately deciding where we end up for the end game, These are the decisions that mold our very existence. At every Y in the road there is a choice to make and that is no different than when a person struggling with weight has to decide whether to skip the brownie or not, there is a choice and what we decide will dictate where the path takes us. I have literally had to take pause and think to myself "is this cookie really worth the end result?" sometimes I eat it but most times I choose to not take the empty calories and grab some baby carrots or a glass of H2O instead because I know that making better choices most of the time is how I will succeed with my health goals.
The choice to workout each day falls on each of our own shoulders, there are days that I do not no way ain't gonna happen have the time to get to the gym or out for a ride on my bike and a lot of those times I go without any exercise for that day. Instead of skipping a workout there is always something that we can do to get at least some exercise in, now it may not be a vigorous 30 minute cardio session followed by weight lifting and a nice calming stretching routine but something is better than nothing. Push ups and crunches are some of my favorites, I can do either of those exercises in the spare seconds between chores, or right before bed even, they don't take long at all and help us keep or add some muscle while we shed weight. These decisions are the key to success when it comes to our health, if we make the wrong decision too many times we can end up weighing in excess of 500 pounds and unable to do many remedial tasks that most people take for granted.
I suppose what I am getting at is what I have said from the beginning, well, the beginning of this blog anyhow, and that is every one of us holds in our hands the power to change our rotund physiques into a healthier version with our choices. At the end of the day it is each and every one of us that is responsible for ourselves so when 10:30 pm comes around and we are sitting on the couch before bed, every decision that was made where eating and or exercise is the subject falls squarely onto our own shoulders. Eating is an important thing for us as human beings, I mean we can't live without eating but I don't think that any one of us should live to eat, in the grand scheme there is not a food on the planet that tastes as good as being free to do whatever we want to on our own terms. That is a fact that I have learned first hand and I never want to be on the wrong side of that equation ever again.
I'm just another fat guy getting healthier but I can tell you first hand that making better decisions one day at a time has changed the way that I live completely and you can do it too, if you want it.
Thats all I got.
Monday, August 02, 2010
Last time we met, our man of interest Zeusmeatball had acquired a new means of transportation in the form of a fat burning, muscle building dual wheeled crank driven vehicle or..um..a new old bike which was added to the fleet. A long weekend that included more eating than should have happened because of going to a HUGE car show and frankly not caring about having a burger and a hot dog from a vendor at said show, the Holy Grail of cars was found and a good time was had by all. He walked for more than two hours looking at classic cars which evoked more drool on his chin than any cheeseburger could ever hope to achieve, now plans for a new old car are floating through his gray matter. This weekend was decent on the movement front but the eating properly was lacking as the trip to the car show paired with an adventure to a Drive in movie relaxed the usual stern resolve that normally resides within me.
1969 Shelby GT500, they don't get much nicer than this.
My neighbors 1951 Plymouth Concord with the Shelby in the background.
The fact that I was able to walk around a car show for more than two hours much of that time with my 47 pound daughter bouncing around on my shoulders is a testament to what can be done when we take things into our own hands where health is concerned. I was unable to walk a quarter mile to see a broken bridge not so long ago and now my little girl gets to have great memories of riding around on Her Daddy's shoulders with her red balloon in hand dripping ice cream onto my shiny dome. Things could have ended up so differently for me if I had not hit that turning point where I decided to change my lifestyle up, This is a much better option for everyone involved if ya ask me.
I believe that anyone can lose weight if the time and effort is put into it, once upon a lullaby I was that guy sitting in the couch thinking about how impossible losing the weight was and had all but given up hope of ever being smaller. That guy felt defeated and backed into a corner where his health was the subject and started looking into alternative options to help with the weight loss but what he found out was that there is no such thing as magic and nothing but hard work was going to change things. Without putting work into ourselves we can not hope to accomplish weight loss or any health goals, If I had chose to continue sitting on my ass with a joystick in my hand..lets keep our minds out of the gutter kids that's not what I meant! who knows where I would be today? perhaps that couch would have collapsed by now and the wood floor would have the beginnings of an ass shape forming into the very fibers of the wood itself! I don't know and I don't want to know, I am just happy that I made my mind up and stuck to it.
If you are reading this blog for the first time or the 700th time know that you can change the way that you eat, no disability, no problem and no lifestyle requires a person to mindlessly shovel food into their face, those things are just excuses. Even now after two and a half years of doing it right I still struggle with eating more when I am stressed but at the core of that I am the one that lifts food to mouth no matter what else is going on in my life so I am responsible for my own actions each and every time, just like you are.
Eat less, move more, hold on tight and enjoy the ride is what follows, go ahead ask me how I know.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Just a quick post for an early Saturday evening because I got another new toy thanks to Craigslist yet again. I am always surfing through Craiglist looking for things, selling things and just browsing in general and this morning Wify asked me to post some books on there in the free section and when I was done I started looking around. Of course I go straight to the bikes and at the very top of the list is a freshly placed ad for a Specialized Hardrock, click, load and I fired off a quick email to the owner and was in the car 20 minutes later on my way to take a look. I am not sure what year the bike is but my best guess so far is early 90's perhaps late 80's but that's to be found out still as I haven't done a lot of research just yet. Bikes are quickly becoming an addiction....er hobby for me as I am finding out that I enjoy finding great old bikes for little to no money and cleaning them up and riding them again makes the riding them that much more fun. The ad for this bike said that it was "rarely ridden" and after seeing it I completely believe it! have a look at my new toy.
You can see form these pictures that the condition is very good besides the dry rotted tires which are original to the bike, the images above are literally 5 minutes after I took it off of the bike rack on my car and is exactly how I got it. This is the second older Specialized mountain bike that I got from Craigslist this year, the first one was a 1988 Rockhopper that I did some work on and posted some pictures up Here zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2010/06/sh
ifting-focus-tale-of-clyde-and-his.html and now this one is in line for the treatment. I have to say that before I changed the way that I eat and move this hobby wouldn't have been an option for me, I mean, I could have gotten the bikes and fixed them up but for who? where is the fun in doing something like this if I don't get to reap the benefits right? Two and a half years ago I literally thought to myself "who the hell would want to go for a walk just to go for a walk?" along with "why would anyone want to ride a bike when a car is so convenient?" and that was the bitter fat guys thoughts because now I want to bike everywhere!
I currently have four bikes where as I said not so long ago I wondered why anyone would enjoy riding a bike, I have ridden a bike more in the last year than in the last 20 years combined and am sorry that I ever stopped. My life has completely changed for the better on so many levels when I decided to do something about the weight that was holding me back and as I sit here typing this I know that I will be around a lot longer because of that choice. Eating better, moving more and finding healthy hobbies and interests to keep us busy may likely be the key to a long healthy and happy life, you can ask me in 40 years if I was right, that old heavier me would surely not be around that much longer but this version of myself is planning to surpass that time.
That's all I got for today, keep on keepin on.
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