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From the bottom of the pile to mountain tops!

Monday, August 09, 2010

This weekend afforded the Boss lady and myself the chance to get away on a little weekend retreat just the two of us so we did! I got an email from Wify listing an entire weekend full of stuff to do with a simple question "How does this sound?" I thought it sounded great so the room was booked and we were off. I always talk about not limiting myself during "special occasions" and this kind of fell into that but I did pretty good on the eating front and as far as exercise is concerned we walked for more than 5 hours on Saturday on Mt Sunapee at a craftsmen fair followed by about 2 1/2 hours on Sunday at a HUGE flea market that was on our route home.

Oh no! I ate the whole thing!

We started out on our trip and I had all day Friday where I ate how I should have, we decided to go to the supermarket for a snack for the ride as it was a few hours and some stuff to drink. I decided on a bag of Quaker Quakes rice snacks which is 70 calories per serving BUT I ended up eating the entire bag on the ride up! no worries I thought as I had a very light day so on we went. It was decided before we left that we would do a late dinner when we pulled into town and we found a little bar/restaurant which was surprisingly good where the service and food was concerned. We ordered nachos for an appetizer and I got an 8oz NY strip with a loaded baked potato and sauteed zucchini, I passed on the veggies, ate the whole steak and the potato came back to the hotel with us so again not so bad of a dinner where calories are concerned. Wify ordered a pasta dish with artichoke, spinach, grilled chicken and a light red sauce and she only ate half of it and that meal from Friday fed us for dinner again Saturday and one meal for two nights dinner would have never happened in the past.

A shot of the Healthy eating vendors sign.

Saturday morning we woke up early and started our day with breakfast at the restaurant in the hotel just to make things easy, I had an eggbeater omelet with veggies, whole wheat toast and some home fries. I asked for half of the cheese that they normally use as I didn't figure they used low fat stuff like I do at home, the home fries were baked and I opted for H2O as my drink, over all I was off to a good start. We headed up to the Craftsmen fair and I was pleasantly surprised at what I found there as I was a little skeptical that it was going to be intriguing enough to keep me interested in staying all day. There were glass blowers, blacksmiths, wood carvers, painters and silver smiths along with any other kind of craft type persons that you could think of there, we walked straight away to a fella that was carving logs into sculptures with a chainsaw and immediately bought a mask off of him for our wall of masks at home. After walking around for a few hours we decided that it was time for lunch so we walked on over to the food area to be faced with things like Philly cheese steaks, cheese burgers, pulled pork sandwiches and all other sorts of "fair" type food stuff but then noticed the "Health smart" booth! I ended up with a Turkey sandwich on whole wheat with lettuce on it with a bottle of H2O to wash it all down with so I was still on par with making good food choices to go with all of the walking that we were doing.

Half of my lunch.

and the other half! along with my chipmunk like cheek!

After lunch I was forced we decided to take a ride on the ski lift to take a 10 minute ride to the summit of Mt Sunapee to check out the view and walk around a bit up on top of the world, the brochure said there were trails up there so it sounded fun. The ride up was really fun with lots to look at and the view from the top was even better, it was almost story like as we got to the top and were greeted with what seemed like hundreds of shiny purple dragonflies gliding around the wild flowers and trees. We spent about an hour on the summit before heading back down and to say that I was relaxed at that point would not be close to how I was feeling, Just two and a half years ago a trip like this one would not have been possible just because of the walking that was involved never mind anything else.

My feets on the ski lift, its further down than this pic lets on!

Me and Wify on the summit, another hiker offered to take our photo for us.

This is off of the balcony on the lodge at the summit.

Wify snapped this as we were walking away from the ski lift after coming down.

When we came down off of the summit we decided that it was time to head back to the hotel after a quick trip to the supermarket for some green tea and supplies. I was craving Cheese for some reason, is there something in cheese that my body needed? or did I just want some?! I don't know but we picked up some low fat pepper jack and a box of wheat thins which we used as an appetizer to our main course al la left overs. Saturday night dinner was the loaded baked potato, Wifys pasta and the remainder of the nachos split between us, we did indulge in dessert at the Italian restaurant in the hotel in the form of some Gelato and a small piece of cheese cake which was also split between us after dinner.

Sunday is where my eating went down hill as I feel that I made decent choices throughout the whole weekend until that day, breakfast was at a diner and I got a cup of coffee which I did use splenda in so props to me there but that's where the props stop I am afraid. I ordered hash and eggs, which had 3 eggs over easy on top of a small pile of hash along with some whole wheat toast, the meal was delicious and I haven't had hash in ages but probably not the best choice in the grand scheme. We had decided that we were going to stop in Massachusetts for dinner at a random Italian restaurant that we found on restaurants dot com as we had a few coupons and we were going to kind of skip lunch grabbing a soft serve ice cream at some point after a flea market that we stopped at. Well we did get soft serve at a place called Poor boys drive in, this place was amazing! they had flavored soft serve ice cream in the way of like 30 different flavors! I ended up getting a large rum flavored and wify opted for the cheese cake and that rum soft serve tasted just like rum cake and though I thoroughly enjoyed the cone I am quite relieved that it is so far from me. Our "skip lunch" idea turned into "lets just grab a side and split it" which we did, we ordered something that they called tumbleweeds which was just very thinly sliced onions cooked like onion rings but it was a huge plate! and off we went.

At the place in MA I ordered the chicken parm which was served on top of pasta and again was not the best choice but I knew that when I ordered it, the menu was sort of lacking and nothing else really caught my attention. I knew that another blogger Ann whom I met when I went to the Dr. Oz show (
) lived in MA and she had given me her cell phone number at the time so I thought I would shoot her a text and see if she wanted to meet Wify and myself for dinner at said random restaurant. As it turned out she was only 30 minutes away from where we were eating and accepted so that was a cool surprise to end our weekend. Ann found out that I do in fact drink crazy amounts of tea as she watched eight or was it nine glasses of unsweetened tea come to the table one after another, we did joke about that. After dinner back into the car we went and homeward bound once again we drove as I tried to make the "time of arrival" on the GPS get lower and lower until finally we made it home.

Over all it was a great weekend spent with Wify, I made some good choices with my intake, some not so good choices but in the grand scheme it was good. Eight hours of walking/hiking squeezed into two days and some great memories added to the collection along with the three hundred some odd photos that we snapped while making those memories. This entire weekend would not have happened if I had not decided to change my life just two and a half short years ago and I know that I am happier because of that decision.

That was how this fella spent a weekend because of a two and a half year old decision, what are you able to do now because of healthier choices? and with that, the end has come to this edition of as the fat guy turns..

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/10/2010 4:44AM

    Sounds like an absolutely fantastic weekend. May you have many more!!

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NWFL59 8/9/2010 11:05PM

    Congratulations on having a terrific weekend with the wife and being so active. WooHoo!~!

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PSMITH3841 8/9/2010 8:41PM

    What an amazing weekend...glad you two had a great time! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHELLY_DO 8/9/2010 6:16PM

    My husband always trys to beat the GPS also, how funny! Sounds like you 2 had fun. I think sometimes you just have to let go. This is a healthier lifestyle, and life never stops. So occasionally you have to eat something that is not to plan. It is just the human thing to do. Keep up the great work!!

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/9/2010 5:14PM

    And the reasons you are so much more active just keep piling up. This weekend I spent all day Sunday walking the county fair and didn't eat anything fried- LOL

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PUCKYGIRL 8/9/2010 4:48PM

    Your walking away picture, sure looks like you could use a small shirt their skinny! Looks like a great weekend. Just make sure you are back on track.

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    I spent the weekend working on weeds and stripping my deck! Not as exciting as your trip but by the same token, work I wouldn't, and didn't, do last summer because I couldn't! BZ to you!

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AXISLADY 8/9/2010 2:51PM

    Excellent writing - kept my attention all the way through! Sounds like an awesome weekend....and needed!

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    What an awesome weekend you had!!!! One day I too will get to enjoy these kind of physical activities again!

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FIGHT_FAN 8/9/2010 2:38PM

    Sounds like you did all right. You have to have special occasions. Any good choices you made can be counted as a win. All the exercise is bound to balance out some of the other. Sounds like a good weekend away.

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CODEMAULER 8/9/2010 2:10PM

    What a great weekend (and spectacular weather, or so the pictures suggest)! I'm glad that you had fun. Life is too short to sweat EVERY food choice. You got most of them right on target, plus had a lot of activity.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/9/2010 1:56PM

    Sounds like a great time, and good job on making good choices. You're emoticon

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AMBERROGUE 8/9/2010 1:38PM

    Sounds like you guys had a great time! emoticon

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KAILIIA 8/9/2010 1:12PM

    I love how you can have fun, eat well and still be honest. It's very refreshing.

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JBMT08 8/9/2010 12:42PM

    this was a wonderful weekend!!!! so glad you shared with us!!! emoticon

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BONNIECAF 8/9/2010 12:21PM

    What a great weekend! emoticon on your healthy choices. That sounds like a great time!

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I lost 229 pounds and still a round boy

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Can you imagine how frustrating that is? can you imagine working as hard as I do and still looking like you eat cheeseburgers for breakfast lunch and dinner? There are times that I feel like a million bucks and then there are other times that I grab a glance of myself in the mirror and think "Holy hell! am I still THAT big??" It really is a double sided battle for me. I know that I am not even close to what I was at 500 plus pounds but I am not close enough to my goal yet that I can say "yep, couple few more pounds and I'm there" either and I think that a lot of the frustration comes from the skin that's literally still hanging around because of the big losses.

I currently wear a 2XL shirt, well most in that size fit now a days but the top of the shirt usually fits slightly loose while the bottom half is more snug but the skin likes it that way so it is what it is. I think about how big I look to myself at this point sometimes and I can get lost in that until I am feeling like a complete round boy, now this is rare but it still happens. I have to remember that just two and a half years ago I was wearing a 6XL shirt and thinking about a 7XL because the 6XL was starting to snug more and more. This next thing may sound odd but I still have a lot of the clothes that I wore back when I was 500 plus pounds but I keep them to remind me where I was because though I have come more than 200 pounds down a road that's leading me to being fit I still need reminders to keep me pushing. Yesterday we took the kids to the mall for a haircut and a wash, I was walking through the mall and saw that my gym is opening a location in the mall so I was reading the sign but there was a weird angled window next to me and I caught a glimpse. I looked about how I thought I did, sexy fat dude came to mind but when I turned I looked bigger "holy hell! round boy!" and I know that I need to just get over it but I am always looking for my reflection to judge myself, imagine that? judging myself!

The green shirt is one of my old 6XL's while the black Under Armour shirt is a 2XL and fits me now, putting them on top of one another really shows just how big of a difference there is, I promise that black one is not a kids shirt!.

We go through life with people judging or prejudging us and here I am having successfully lost more than 200 pounds and keeping it off for more than 2 years and I am doing to myself something that I loathed as a heavier person. I got over it pretty quickly but the thought entered my gray matter center stage if only for a second or two, it did enter. I walked into GNC and read a fitness magazine for a minute or two and didn't question me being in there or look around to make sure there wasn't more than one person in there like I did back when I was heavier and needed to use their scale. Two things need to happen for me, I need to just stop thinking about the bigger me and by that I mean the version of my current self that looks bigger whether in my minds eye or in reality sometimes, and I need to realize that I look extremely different than I did when I began my better health campaign.

That image above shows me a lot, it is proof positive that I am leaps and bounds ahead of where I started because when I thought to lay one shirt on top of the other I didn't think that it would look as different as it does. Maybe I should just accept the fact that I am much smaller now, perhaps if the new me was to lay on the old me the difference would be just as dramatic. Maybe I should stop caring about those odd angles where I look bigger than my minds eye shows me I am? I wish that it was that easy. Having memories of wearing that green shirt that is above and those memories being so close in the grand scheme it would be like forgetting something that happened yesterday, even though today is a completely different day, what happened yesterday is still there. Hopefully sooner than later I can get past that feeling of being a round boy because I do know that there is a huge difference but all at the same time I see a bigger me than people say is there now from time to time.

947 days after starting down this path to better health I am much lighter, stronger mentally and physically, I eat better than I ever have in my life and still I battle with seeing myself smaller. Perhaps this shall pass, perhaps it won't but how ever it goes the plan is to keep on keepin on until I reach all of my health goals. My feeling is that I am not the only one that has fought or is fighting this self image battle but I will take this fight over the other any day because this is much easier than weighing 500 plus pounds and struggling with EVERYTHING.

As the fat guy turns has come to a conclusion for the day, make great decisions when it comes to intake and drink much for all you have to gain is your health!

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TINA5318 8/22/2010 9:03PM

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LUCYSRAIN 8/8/2010 11:18AM

    I have been reading your blogs for 5 months now....your journey has amazed me, inspired me, ad touched me in so many ways.

The determination, the openness, the honesty in your words are appreciated more than you know. I realize you are here blogging because it helps keep you focused, it helps you remember, and it helps you reaffirm everything you have done!

I just want you to know it also helps me, so thank YOU!

Your a winner

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ICANCHANGE1 8/8/2010 6:34AM

    Congratulations on how far you have come! Good visual w/2 T-Shirts - it's clear to see how huge the weight loss is.

It would be interesting to know the changes in bloodwork then and now. Blood sugar, lipids, blood pressure - they all must be hugely improved!

Even though you may focus on what you have left to lose, I bet the numbers on that bloodwork would make any doctor happy. One can dwell this data instead of the mirror on when 'death is not an option.' lol

I appreciate your blogs and check in with them frequently. They are very helpful to me & your honesty is appreciated.

Congrats on all the hard work!

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    What an amazing, thoughtful, candid blog. Thank you for writing it.
I feel like this a lot. Some days I will be walking around in my lighter body (still not great but lighter) and I will "feel" lighter, feel almost normal. And then I'll see myself in the mirror or in a reflection and think OMG I don't feel like I look at all! The world still sees a fat person in me, I know that. I sometimes do...sometimes don't. It's all about keeping on, isn't it?
I appreciate you!

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JLUVSHIKIN 8/6/2010 7:46PM

    I know you recognize that you have lost a whole other person plus... but I totaly understand the mental image thing. I have the same problem I have lost two dress sizes and thirty pounds and if I didn't have pictures to prove that I had lost weight and am actually smaller, I would never be able to see it. It isn't easy changing your mental image of yourself but it is so very important. I wish I could give you a tip but I don't have one to give.
Good luck and keep up the good work!

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CATLADY52 8/6/2010 10:05AM

    What a difference in sizes. Wow. You've done it and yet you're thinking the old you is still under the skin. We can't get rid of the 'Old Me" completely, what would drive us to better pastures? Try taking a mental snapsot of your "former self" and pinning it on the bulletin board of your mind under 'What is Past stays past' next to ' What is Now' and before ' The Future ?'.

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CAMERABABE 8/6/2010 9:30AM

    You have come so very far. You are also an inspiration to us all. WE are all here for the same reason not only to lose but to feel better about ourselves.

YOU are amazing. Keep it up

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LUNADRAGON 8/6/2010 1:17AM

    You have made such outstanding remarkable progress! You are inspiring nonetheless. We are all on this journey, and you are rocking it!

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LINIS_THIN 8/6/2010 1:13AM

    Get some rest and breathe...
Don't let the bad thoughts take over.


You've done great and you know it. Try not seeing a finishline or it may seem too far a way. See your life as a series of goals to keep making you a better person. FOREVER

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NWFL59 8/6/2010 12:41AM

    Placing the new shirt over the old is a great idea to give to immediate visual positive feedback of how far you've come. We all carry internal images that aren't the same as the mirror ones and need that 'other' reference to 'see' how our external appearance has changed. You're awesome and doing terrific!

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TEMPEST272002 8/5/2010 5:42PM

    I was feeling exactly this way today. Out kayaking, muttering to myself "It's not FAIR! Not one single person in this community spends as much time exercising as a I do. My skinny in-laws eat crap all the time. Why aren't I thin already?"

So I'm really glad I came across your blog. I loved yourphoto with the t-shirts! You can't dispute that kind of change! Maybe you should put a copy of that photo somewhere you'll see every day? Maybe for your background image on your computer? I think I'll do one with my new & old jeans and put it on my motivation board. Thank you for a moving, thought provoking and inspiring blog!

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    I know the feeling, it's as if your mental picture of who you were supercedes the real you. I remember when I had lost 86 lbs a few years ago and all I could see was the fat that was still there. Everything was smaller, but yet, all I saw was how big I still was ... and I hated it. I never really enjoyed how far I had come or in a way, even realized it. Imagine that! Maybe that's why I put it all back and then some .. Now I'd give anything to be back there.

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FOTOGRAFFITI 8/5/2010 3:04PM

    Thanks for posting the picture of your shirts. It really puts all your hard work in perspective and shows just how far you've come. I've always heard people say that once they have lost significant weight, it can be hard to get rid of the "heavier you" self image they had. It is unfortunate that after battling to lose the weight, we then have to battle to let ourselves acknowledge it.
Don't let yourself get discouraged and know that there are many in your corner wishing you the best. You are a true inspiration to the rest of us!


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    That was my down fall when I lost 100 pounds the first time...I never did see myself as smaller and I put all of those 100 pounds back on plus 50 this time around I am really working hard on chainging my mental immage of myself as I lose the weight this time so I can begin to see myself shrink this time! I also know I will probably have to look at surgery to remove excess skin when I reach my goal.

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AXISLADY 8/5/2010 2:18PM

    When my hubby built this house, he made a mistake in the main bathroom (the one we use) and so there was a hole in the wall too big to patch. He put a full length mirror over it......right in front of the john. What a big fat rear! I can't get away from my self image any time of the day or night, and it's not good. hahahahaha

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PSMITH3841 8/5/2010 2:01PM

    You're right when you say you're not alone in the "self image" department....people I haven't seen in a while will say Wow, you've lost weight, you look great! Then, I go home and look in the mirror and question their eyesight!....I'm in smaller sizes, moving better, feeling better and still I'm not seeing it in the mirror....I think there is this receptor in our heads that continues to distort our own image of us....we just have to continue to realize that we have done one hell of a job, we're looking good, and living better and that's what counts... emoticon

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/5/2010 1:42PM

    i had never thought about how much bigger our clothes was. I have gotten rid of a lot of the old clothes, but I still have my old suit and a couple tee shirts for yardwork (more cloth to wipe away sweat). I may have to put that on and snap some pics.

Thanks for sharing again, my friend.

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VEMAN1 8/5/2010 11:57AM

    Truly amazing is all I can say.
We are always our own worst critic. Now take those shirts and buy a bright red one of the size you really want to be and retake that picture.
You rock!

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DEREKCSIMMONS 8/5/2010 11:47AM

    The shirts are a great picture brother! Keep that in mind and keep moving forward. I think we all struggle with the self-image issue. Know that you've made amazing strides and are well on the road to your goals!

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SPALM01 8/5/2010 11:42AM

    You have such an incredibly amazing spirit and I truely thank you for being so open and honest because it is very encouraging. You have obtained such incredibly goals already and I know that you will continue to reach your goals that you're working on now. The picture with the two shirts speaks a thousand words and you should take great joy in all the hard work you put in to make that happen.

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CRIS76 8/5/2010 11:34AM

    I am often scared that I will not ever see the "me" that everyone else sees. And I also worry a lot about what others think when I'm doing fun stuff I would have avoided 70 pounds ago. I know I'm still fat but I know I feel great. Other people who do not know me - they don't know this.

It's an interesting mental battle - but it exists for me too.

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/5/2010 11:21AM

    Sself image battle, humphh that my friend is a problem with most people. I lost over 100lbs and still have the problem because of loose skin and what part of my body I still don't like.

However, it sure is tons and tons better than where I was. I kept just 1 top, 1 bottom and 1 underpants to remind me how big I was, the rest were given away.

We know how far we have come and many times we just need to remind ourselves

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JRIMM4 8/5/2010 11:16AM

    Your perseverance is truly motivating as well as uplifting. Especially with the challenges behind and those yet to come.


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You're such an inspiration!

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MILNE81 8/5/2010 10:41AM

    For me, the problem is when I encounter the people who don't know how hard I'm working. The people who don't know that I've lost 30 pounds and that I'm working my butt off (literally) by running and biking and swimming. They just see that I'm still overweight and assume that I'm lazy. I was insulted when I got take out the other night by a lady who has never met me. She basically told me she figured I was the only one eating the meal I had ordered for 2 people (long story but she sucks). It really made me feel so badly about myself. I know I have a long way to go but I'm proud of what I've done thus far. And I'm hard enough on myself... I don't need some bitchy stranger to point out things I already know. Sorry for the vent and rant. Thanks for being an understanding outlet.

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KAILIIA 8/5/2010 10:39AM

    You've gained so much in loosing 229 lbs, energy, being more involved in your kids lives, your own life back and a smaller wardrobe. We will forever be works in progress but be proud of the progree you've made!

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    You need to be strong and you need to silence the negative self talk. Period. When it starts up, silence it by immediately saying something positive about yourself. You have come so far and are doing so well -- and that's what you need to focus on. That's what we all need to focus on. We all battle this - the nasty little voice inside our head that tries to bring us down, no matter how far we've come or what kind of successes we've had (big or small). We owe it to ourselves to silence that nasty voice once and for all!

Best of luck to you. You're doing great and should feel so proud - especially every time you see your reflection!!

- Michelle

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LECIADB 8/5/2010 10:32AM

    It's crazy what we do to ourselves!I have been...depressed...about gaining back 8 lbs since February. I am now back to working hard to get it off but the scale hasn't budged yet. Just yesterday, my SIL (who sees me at least once a week) told me how good I was looking. Instead of me thinking "Yay me!" my first thought was "What?! I've weighed less than this." I have totally been beating myself up and my husband is convinced that this is why my weight is being so stubborn. Our attitude and our stress and worries really affect us. So keep that picture of the shirts in mind and tell yourself what an amazing job you have done so far. I'll keep reminding myself, too :)

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    To use an overworked and often misapplied term- Awesome!

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BAYBELIEVER 8/5/2010 10:26AM

    What a great idea laying new shirt on top of old! What an image! And if that helps you see how far you have come, then great! Because whatever we can do to help ourselves see the changes is important. It will take the mind much longer to catch up!

Have a great week and keep on doing such a great job! What an inspiration you are!

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GAYLE-G-63 8/5/2010 10:24AM

    Comparing the shirt sizes was a great visual!

Don't be too hard on yourself. You're doing great.

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MBVMFLUTIST 8/5/2010 10:23AM

    I agree, it is so hard to see myself in mirrors now. I feel like I see the new me, and the old me, at the same time. I love your photo of the 2 shirts! I think my husband will like to see that. He's in a 4X right now and been struggling to get to the 3X.

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LINDAKAY228 8/5/2010 10:20AM

    I think a lot of us who lose weight still feel that way. Mine isn't as dramatic as yours, but I'm down 65 lbs from the 225 I started at a year ago. I still have about 30 or so to go. Some days I look in the mirror and am so pleased because I haven't been down this low since probably junior high and I'm 55. Other days I still see the fat bulges and still mentally feel like the fat person I was most of my life. It's a mental battle as well as a physical one.

You are totally amazing and over 200 lbs is such a huge accomplishment, and keeping it off is a task few people achieve. Keep working on getting rid of those old "fat" thoughts. You have so much to be proud of and should never feel ashamed or embarrased. If anyone else judges you that's their problem. They only see one moment in time and not the incredible journey you've already been on and are still going.

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STEELCACHER 8/5/2010 10:19AM

    Your a great insperation to all of us other "round boys", thank you! emoticon

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RAINSTORM17 8/5/2010 10:19AM

    WOW!!!You must feel amazing. After all, you loss over 200 pounds, have regained your health and are able to do alot of things you probably couldn't do before.You have come so far and are a inpiration for everyone. Maybe I shouldn't complain and just get up and do it. Thanks for sharing and stay strong. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/5/2010 10:19AM

    As some would say "The proof is in the pictures". You have come a long way, you're doing great. From a 6XL to a 2XL is quite an accomplishment, so be proud.
Don't look at your reflection and judge. Look at your reflection and SMILE. You're doing it. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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JESSSPARK 8/5/2010 10:17AM

    The size of those shirts is really stunning. You are an inspiration, and I can definitely see how hard it would be to have all that work in, all those pounds lost, and still see the road being long. The way I try to think about it is that the road is really for the rest of our lives. Once I get to whatever my end weight is it's not like I get to stop working out or start eating crap anyway. It's still going to be me here tracking everything, just in smaller clothes.

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Decisions...Can you make the right one?

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

We make decisions every day of our lives which takes us down our own path ultimately deciding where we end up for the end game, These are the decisions that mold our very existence. At every Y in the road there is a choice to make and that is no different than when a person struggling with weight has to decide whether to skip the brownie or not, there is a choice and what we decide will dictate where the path takes us. I have literally had to take pause and think to myself "is this cookie really worth the end result?" sometimes I eat it but most times I choose to not take the empty calories and grab some baby carrots or a glass of H2O instead because I know that making better choices most of the time is how I will succeed with my health goals.

The choice to workout each day falls on each of our own shoulders, there are days that I do not no way ain't gonna happen have the time to get to the gym or out for a ride on my bike and a lot of those times I go without any exercise for that day. Instead of skipping a workout there is always something that we can do to get at least some exercise in, now it may not be a vigorous 30 minute cardio session followed by weight lifting and a nice calming stretching routine but something is better than nothing. Push ups and crunches are some of my favorites, I can do either of those exercises in the spare seconds between chores, or right before bed even, they don't take long at all and help us keep or add some muscle while we shed weight. These decisions are the key to success when it comes to our health, if we make the wrong decision too many times we can end up weighing in excess of 500 pounds and unable to do many remedial tasks that most people take for granted.

I suppose what I am getting at is what I have said from the beginning, well, the beginning of this blog anyhow, and that is every one of us holds in our hands the power to change our rotund physiques into a healthier version with our choices. At the end of the day it is each and every one of us that is responsible for ourselves so when 10:30 pm comes around and we are sitting on the couch before bed, every decision that was made where eating and or exercise is the subject falls squarely onto our own shoulders. Eating is an important thing for us as human beings, I mean we can't live without eating but I don't think that any one of us should live to eat, in the grand scheme there is not a food on the planet that tastes as good as being free to do whatever we want to on our own terms. That is a fact that I have learned first hand and I never want to be on the wrong side of that equation ever again.

I'm just another fat guy getting healthier but I can tell you first hand that making better decisions one day at a time has changed the way that I live completely and you can do it too, if you want it.

Thats all I got.

As Ever

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SHELLY_DO 8/6/2010 12:03PM

    true that. Thanks for the blog, it is a great reminder. :)

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NWFL59 8/4/2010 10:56PM

    I embody the appearance of making choices that were not in my best interest.

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    Very well said!!!!!!!!!

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AMBERROGUE 8/4/2010 1:51PM

    I wrote about decisions just yesterday! It's amazing how one decision can change the course of a life, and all the smaller decisions we make every day are SO important. Sometimes we don't even realize it.

Great topic. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

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CATTI53 8/4/2010 1:44PM

    Your words are so true. It is our choice and I choose to be healthy. Some choices are not as easy but the option is no longer an alternative for ME. As I sit here writing this the last thing I feel like doing is working up a sweat. Thanks for reminding me that at the end of this day I will be unhappy with myself if I choose not to work out. Time for me to get moving!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/4/2010 1:28PM

    You are right. Those small simple steps add up quicker that you can imagine.

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    Great post. In many ways our life is defined by the the results of our choices.

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/4/2010 12:34PM

    Excellent blog, thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/4/2010 12:25PM

    Great blog as always. We are in charge of our destiny, one choice at a time. emoticon

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MINIDRIVER63 8/4/2010 12:05PM

    I have the following pasted over my desk, and several places around the house:

How does this action contribute to my goals?

It really makes me think about consequences, both positive and negative. This bike ride burns calories and helps build/maintain fitness. This cookie represents empty calories and a sugar rush.

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MILNE81 8/4/2010 12:02PM

    Thank you so much. This is the reminder I needed today. Pizza is being brought in for all of us today for lunch at the office and I have to make the decision of what to eat. And now that I have been reminded that I have a choice, I will make the best one for me! So thanks friend for providing the words I needed on this day.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 8/4/2010 11:55AM

    Amen brother. In business we call the cost of decisions opportunity costs. If you choose A, you don't get to do B. If you choose the cookie, you don't get to do the bike ride. If you choose the brownie, you don't get the extra time with the kids. Doesn't make it any easier mind you, but, it can focus the brain a bit.

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KSIGMA1222 8/4/2010 11:49AM

    SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TRUE! Better decisions in your life as a whole allows you to have more to choose from, and really that is great as well!

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What do you mean there is no magic???

Monday, August 02, 2010

Last time we met, our man of interest Zeusmeatball had acquired a new means of transportation in the form of a fat burning, muscle building dual wheeled crank driven vehicle new old bike which was added to the fleet. A long weekend that included more eating than should have happened because of going to a HUGE car show and frankly not caring about having a burger and a hot dog from a vendor at said show, the Holy Grail of cars was found and a good time was had by all. He walked for more than two hours looking at classic cars which evoked more drool on his chin than any cheeseburger could ever hope to achieve, now plans for a new old car are floating through his gray matter. This weekend was decent on the movement front but the eating properly was lacking as the trip to the car show paired with an adventure to a Drive in movie relaxed the usual stern resolve that normally resides within me.

1969 Shelby GT500, they don't get much nicer than this.

My neighbors 1951 Plymouth Concord with the Shelby in the background.

The fact that I was able to walk around a car show for more than two hours much of that time with my 47 pound daughter bouncing around on my shoulders is a testament to what can be done when we take things into our own hands where health is concerned. I was unable to walk a quarter mile to see a broken bridge not so long ago and now my little girl gets to have great memories of riding around on Her Daddy's shoulders with her red balloon in hand dripping ice cream onto my shiny dome. Things could have ended up so differently for me if I had not hit that turning point where I decided to change my lifestyle up, This is a much better option for everyone involved if ya ask me.

I believe that anyone can lose weight if the time and effort is put into it, once upon a lullaby I was that guy sitting in the couch thinking about how impossible losing the weight was and had all but given up hope of ever being smaller. That guy felt defeated and backed into a corner where his health was the subject and started looking into alternative options to help with the weight loss but what he found out was that there is no such thing as magic and nothing but hard work was going to change things. Without putting work into ourselves we can not hope to accomplish weight loss or any health goals, If I had chose to continue sitting on my ass with a joystick in my hand..lets keep our minds out of the gutter kids that's not what I meant! who knows where I would be today? perhaps that couch would have collapsed by now and the wood floor would have the beginnings of an ass shape forming into the very fibers of the wood itself! I don't know and I don't want to know, I am just happy that I made my mind up and stuck to it.

If you are reading this blog for the first time or the 700th time know that you can change the way that you eat, no disability, no problem and no lifestyle requires a person to mindlessly shovel food into their face, those things are just excuses. Even now after two and a half years of doing it right I still struggle with eating more when I am stressed but at the core of that I am the one that lifts food to mouth no matter what else is going on in my life so I am responsible for my own actions each and every time, just like you are.

Eat less, move more, hold on tight and enjoy the ride is what follows, go ahead ask me how I know.

As Ever

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CUTIECAT1 8/4/2010 12:26PM

    thanks for yet again keeping us all honest and spot on!!! P.S. sooo loved the pic of the Shelby - SWEEETTTT!!!!


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LUCKY8GAL 8/3/2010 6:29PM

    I love car shows. I love your blogs, always so honest.

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    Fantastic, fabulous and are going to be your daughter's favorite memories of growing up..and you will be right there to share them all with her as an adult-amazing!

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AMBERROGUE 8/3/2010 2:03PM

    You rock! I love this blog - it's spot on!

PS That's a sweet Shelby!!

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    Oh yes the elusive magic potion ... no such thing ... great blog and great reminder that ultimately, it's all in our hands. Thanks again!

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SLIMMER150 8/3/2010 3:40AM

    You are right.. no majic bullet... and it aint always perfect days ahead Today I lost it because of old habit... internal stress, people got to me today and I can't change what is going on.. but I thought Beyers Mint Chocolet Chip ice cream would!... Hmmmmm it did for a while.. Now 3AM and my sugar is 129.. guess you could say I dodged a bullet.. to eat that much sugar and be down now... Tomorrow IS Another day....

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NWFL59 8/2/2010 11:16PM

    Thanks for today's blog, enjoyed it... got to keep up the internal chant
Eat Less, Move More...until its as incorporated into my mindset as I can get it.

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RIVERCITYTOM 8/2/2010 10:28PM

    While your in IL picking up Derek come a little farteh south and pick me up. That is a sweet looking car. Although you probably have more fun with the bikes.

You have many great points to are so dead on. Thanks again.

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PSMITH3841 8/2/2010 9:32PM

    Sounds like a great day.....not to mention, I think more than sweet baby girl will have fond memories of this time....You worked hard for those moments, and you deserve them! emoticon emoticon

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    Awesome blog! I weighed this morning after my first 5 days of eating healthy 100% and lost .8 pounds....yes that is less than 1 pound. In the past I would have thrown in the towel and gave up.....but not today! I was sad for a few mins then decided to see what the next 10 days of eating healthy would produce and to just keep going and re-weigh on the 10th and then keep going from there.

You are 100% right on there being zero excuses. On bad pain days I can still find ways to get movement in and watch what I eat as I am the one making the choices. I can choose to sit and do nothing or I can choose to try something and make a step forward towards that finish line!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/2/2010 5:06PM

    Hope you drank plenty to account for the drool!!! Ya gotta stay hydrated!!

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SHELLY_DO 8/2/2010 4:16PM

    Sounds like you had fun at the show. I know what you mean with your daughter. I went with my family to Silver Dollar City ( a theme park) this weekend. I was able to ride all the kid rides with my son who is soon to be 4. I think on every ride we got on 1 parent had to get off because they did not fit into the ride. That would have been me just 7 months ago. I am so happy that I made the decision to get healthier, and I can tell that you are too. Keep up the great work!!

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CHRISSYVB 8/2/2010 2:30PM

    I love that you made that choice so many days ago and that you continue to make it everyday!! We are all responsible for our choices.

Your attitude reminds me of the poem 'Invictus'. It was written in the late 1800's by William Henley after he had his leg amputated (just imagine how brutal that surgury was in that time). The last few lines are:

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

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CRIS76 8/2/2010 1:37PM

    Ok - those cars are pretty darn sweet!!!!!

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    I finally realized that there wasn't a magic pill too. Its tough but you are right ultimately we are the only ones responsible for what goes in our mouths. Thanks for another great blog.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 8/2/2010 12:48PM

    So, did you boost that ride? If so, drop by IL and let's go!

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MILNE81 8/2/2010 11:23AM

    The time you spend with your daughter and the memories you are creating with her make me respect you as a father more than I can say. If only every little girl out there had a Daddy who loved her enough to make himself uncomfortable so that he can spend many many more years with her, this world would be full of happy people.

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    Right on. Regardless of what we're thinking or feeling, we can choose how we act. Commitment.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/2/2010 11:15AM

    We are masters of our own bodies and it is our job to learn to control it, nourish it, feed it and move it. Well said dude - I know you speak from experience and lead by example. Enjoy your day. emoticon

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KLEONIKI 8/2/2010 11:09AM

    O.k. then how do you know?he!he!
I am only kidding i can see very well HOW from your pictures!

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/2/2010 11:04AM

    You said it all " Without putting work into ourselves we can not hope to accomplish weight loss or any health goals"

Have copied your quote and it will go up on my bathroom mirror to see it before I start my day.

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AEL_RHIANA 8/2/2010 10:44AM

    Ooooh, I want that car!

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A new bike for the Meatball!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Just a quick post for an early Saturday evening because I got another new toy thanks to Craigslist yet again. I am always surfing through Craiglist looking for things, selling things and just browsing in general and this morning Wify asked me to post some books on there in the free section and when I was done I started looking around. Of course I go straight to the bikes and at the very top of the list is a freshly placed ad for a Specialized Hardrock, click, load and I fired off a quick email to the owner and was in the car 20 minutes later on my way to take a look. I am not sure what year the bike is but my best guess so far is early 90's perhaps late 80's but that's to be found out still as I haven't done a lot of research just yet. Bikes are quickly becoming an hobby for me as I am finding out that I enjoy finding great old bikes for little to no money and cleaning them up and riding them again makes the riding them that much more fun. The ad for this bike said that it was "rarely ridden" and after seeing it I completely believe it! have a look at my new toy.

You can see form these pictures that the condition is very good besides the dry rotted tires which are original to the bike, the images above are literally 5 minutes after I took it off of the bike rack on my car and is exactly how I got it. This is the second older Specialized mountain bike that I got from Craigslist this year, the first one was a 1988 Rockhopper that I did some work on and posted some pictures up Here
and now this one is in line for the treatment. I have to say that before I changed the way that I eat and move this hobby wouldn't have been an option for me, I mean, I could have gotten the bikes and fixed them up but for who? where is the fun in doing something like this if I don't get to reap the benefits right? Two and a half years ago I literally thought to myself "who the hell would want to go for a walk just to go for a walk?" along with "why would anyone want to ride a bike when a car is so convenient?" and that was the bitter fat guys thoughts because now I want to bike everywhere!

I currently have four bikes where as I said not so long ago I wondered why anyone would enjoy riding a bike, I have ridden a bike more in the last year than in the last 20 years combined and am sorry that I ever stopped. My life has completely changed for the better on so many levels when I decided to do something about the weight that was holding me back and as I sit here typing this I know that I will be around a lot longer because of that choice. Eating better, moving more and finding healthy hobbies and interests to keep us busy may likely be the key to a long healthy and happy life, you can ask me in 40 years if I was right, that old heavier me would surely not be around that much longer but this version of myself is planning to surpass that time.

That's all I got for today, keep on keepin on.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/5/2010 3:27PM

    Can't wait to see the pictures of this one refurbished.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/2/2010 7:19AM

    Love the new wheels. Enjoy. emoticon

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RIVERCITYTOM 8/1/2010 2:22PM

    Way to go. Recycling like that makes a lot of sense. New is nice but think of the great enjoyment you will have and at a bargain rate. I may have to check out Craigslist. Thanks again for sharing.

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PSMITH3841 8/1/2010 1:49PM

    Nice Bike...I know you're going to ride it in good health!!! Yay You! emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/1/2010 9:34AM

    Well if you are going to have an addiction, having bikes is a great one. This bike is cool even though I think "boys bike" with the bar is crazy! emoticon

Are you keeping all 4 of them and are they like shoes (change off every day)! Now get on it and ride with your daughter and enjoy life.

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    I have been a regular reader of your blogs but I just dont leave comments very often but when you said........."I literally thought to myself "who the hell would want to go for a walk just to go for a walk?" along with "why would anyone want to ride a bike when a car is so convenient?""........have been my thoughts exactly for many years and I am just now beginning to see the internal change in me concerning those activities.......being close to 400 pounds and having lots of pain issues riding a bike right now is impossible for me and walking is not enjoyable at all as it is 100% pain with every step.......but I watch someone zooming by on their bike and I now say to myself, "that will be me one day" and when I see a person running for the fun of it I can now envision myself maybe some day doing that as well.....and seeing someone just walk to go for a walk will be something I know I will get to eventually...........Thanks for sharing both your ups and downs in your journey as well as the pics to help motivate us who still wonder if it is really possible to reach that goal!

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AXISLADY 7/31/2010 8:28PM

    I wish so much that I could emoticon but unfortunately it isn't going to happen in my lifetime. But walking....I really get into that and will get myself together here on Monday and get started again. As always, a joy to read!

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VEEJAY3 7/31/2010 8:04PM

    You are a bike addict!!! (Takes one to know one.)
My latest purchase: a really cool Burley trailer that fits on the back of my older bike. I can pull a big load of groceries or ... my autumn plan: head out on the Katy Trail that runs from Kansas City to St. Louis with my Missouri friend. I think it's a four or five day trip. Mostly flat. Lots of cute little towns and B&Bs along the way.

I LOVE my bikes. emoticon

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NWFL59 7/31/2010 7:51PM

    Congratulations on discovering and developing a passion for bikes and biking.

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-SHE-WOLF- 7/31/2010 7:21PM

    I have to say that i really enjoyed reading your Blog, i love the idea that you just don't go for the easy option and buy a new bike to ride, you take the harder option and in the process get more than you would get with a brand spanking shiny new bike.

The hard work in cleaning it up, the difficulty in fixing the problems and the enjoyment of the achievement you feel when you have finished with it and can take it for a ride. Just like your Sparkies Journey in a way and i can see how well and far you have come. Well done to you Botzzzs, you should be very proud of yourself as i'm sure you are, i'm proud for you.

I love walking, especially with my 2 German Shepherds, i'm the only dog owner where i live that doesn't care if it's pouring doon with rain, blowing a gale, snow storms, freezing cold, i'll still go for that walk and each time we all get back i feel just awesome. So, in a way i can relate to your words. Thanks for sharing, you put a wee smile on this Sparkies face tonight.

Sending you some Scottish Love, Laughter, Happiness and Sunshine in your Heart. Have a Sparkariffic Weekend.
SheWolfs' sending a wee Howl into the night just for you.

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MILNE81 7/31/2010 6:43PM

    Great find! Isn't riding the best feeling ever. We did 41 miles this morning and I set a new personal pace record. It felt amazing. I was so proud of myself.

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PINKBEANBOO 7/31/2010 6:36PM

    Cool bike. Getting it for a steal makes it even cooler.

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