Friday, July 30, 2010
Just another Friday and I am being over run by tomatoes! which isn't really a bad thing right? Last year I planted three lowly tomato plants and got a few decent sized tomatoes off of them before the blight hit so this year I figured try four plants to see if I could get a few more and boy have I! For the last week or two I have had to pick tomatoes almost daily and my wife's response was "thats ok you are the tomato fiend I am sure you will get em all" truth be told I have too many now! I daily get a handful of grape tomatoes and two to four better boys and I just can't keep up! perhaps I will make a tomato salad today because I have three left from Wednesday and this morning I picked another four along with the handful of grapes. My neighbor was happy when I dropped some off to him that were picked yesterday morning and I have a feeling that he will get some more over the weekend. This is much better than the blight stricken bunch from last year and I am going to try and talk wify into letting me expand my garden a little bit next year, to expand it means that I will encroach further into the front yard than I already am with my current set up.
Just a shot of some flowers in my yard.
My honeydew melons are starting to pop up in my little melon patch as well, I have two pretty good sized melons out there now and a bunch of smaller ones and since the melon patch was an experiment to see if I could grow them I am happy with whats out there. I only have three pepper plants and that is the reason that I want to expand the garden, I eat peppers pretty much daily and three plants just isn't holding me over, I eat loads of peppers. This all ties in with my better health program because hey! if I have a ton of free fresh veggies 30 feet from my front door it makes things easy in the getting them into my day thing. My daughter and I head out each morning to see what is ready to pick and bring it on in for the table, I have three eggplants out there right now that should be ready all about the same time so I will plan on perfecting that stuffed eggplant recipe from a couple posts ago when that happens.
This is today's pile O Maters fresh from the garden, literally 5 minutes off of the vine.
One of the three eggplants that is growing right now, yes yes, I do know that I need to weed around my eggplants!
One of the Honeydew melons from my tiny little patch, I am very curious to see if these turn out to be as big as the store bought melons.
My intake for Thursday came in at 1830 calories because of a skinny cow ice cream sandwich that I had with my daughter, 1830 is a little bit high but not so much that I am worried about it, especially because I got to the gym last night. Somehow I feel like I have focus again, staring through the things that would stand in my way and I can see that line in the sand with "300" carved next to it and I am aiming for that spot. Here is a look at my menu from yesterday, it was not the best of the best but I am just barely over on my calories so its a good one to me, and yes it says that I had a Coolata from Dunkin' donuts! A 16oz Coffee Coolata made with skim milk is 140 calories and Wify did get whipped cream on it so I added 30 for that but it falls within my caloric range so no worries, here is the whole menu.
5 egg whites/1 whole egg 145
8oz red potato 200
Whole grain English muffin 100
smart balance/onions 50
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95
1 tomato 25
1oz Cheddar chips 140
16oz Coffee Coolata 170
4oz turkey burger 160
1oz American cheese 110
2 slices whole wheat bread 140
2oz Lays light chips 150
1 deli slim 100
1 Skinny cow ice cream sandwich 140
I mentioned that I made it to the gym last night, this is not optimal but I figure going late and then being all energy before bed is better than not going so that's that. I also noticed that there were 7 comments from yesterdays post so that's 70 push ups that I owe you guys that left me the comments so they will be done today and I am going to do an extra 30 which is what I was going to do anyways for an even 100 push ups for today, wish me luck on that one. The past few days I have been trying to clear my head and I seem to be VERY motivated to keep this train rolling I'm looking for some good losses so that I can finally and once and for all bust through that 300 pound mark and finally see what the 200's feel like.
Thanks for following along with me as I go up and down learning what I need to do to take off and keep off the weight that has held me back long enough, the support is more than appreciated. If you read this all the way to here then you owe yourself a big ol glass of H2O so hop on up, go grab yourself a bottle or fill a glass in your sink and drink it up Johnny!
That's all I got.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Its raining its pouring the old man is snoring, well I was anyways but now I am up and at em with breakfast down the hatch and a glass of green tea in front of me I am ready to get today going. This morning I am feeling somewhat run down and I am unsure whether its the stress of my father being in the hospital that's caught up to me or if I am coming down with something, whichever it is its going to have to step aside because I need to get rolling again. My intake for yesterday was a bit high coming in at 1820 total but it went high because of a mango that was calling to me so I am not too worried about it, I kind of LOVE Mangos when they are perfectly ripe like this one was so it was irresistible. Drinking is always on par except when I get into situations where I am stuck in a car all day so I am definitely hydrated right now and am still loving the iced tea maker that I got for my birthday as it is making my life easy with the keeping fresh brewed tea around.
Making sure that I am recording my intake has again become a priority which means that I can share with you what I ate each day as long as I am keeping up with that. I made some grilled salmon on Tuesday and had a couple small fillets left and I won't eat a reheated salmon fillet so I usually end up preparing it like you would tuna and it turns out pretty damn amazing if I do say so myself. I simply take some of the fillet and break it all up so that it looks like tuna, dice some red onion into it, a tiny bit of sweet relish, Miracle whip and a shake of black pepper later its done and I serve it on sandwich thins which are 100 calories each with some fresh from the garden tomato sliced on top, bamn! a very yummy lunch made from leftovers. Have a look at yesterdays complete menu, the meals are a little heavy so there was less snacking but that's ok as long as its not an all of the time habit.
2 servings corn pops 240
1 cup 1% milk 110
2 deli thins 200
3.5 oz grilled salmon 175
1 T miracle whip 50
1 banana 105
1 T peanut butter 95
5oz ground turkey (turkey burger) 200
hard roll 170
1 cup rice and beans 300
grilled onions 30
1 mango 110
Not too shabby and that lunch really was good, I drank a gallon of green tea and just over a gallon of straight H2O for the day and am feeling fairly good about where I am headed this week. Remembering where I came from with my health and weight loss I have to keep in mind just how unhappy I was back when I was 200 plus pounds heavier and use that to push me through stressful times because without my health stress is something that I lived with on a daily and constant basis. I use to do challenges to myself and since I haven't had time to get to the gym I am going to post a little challenge for myself on today's post, for every comment that I get on THIS zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/2010/07/gi
ve-me-forkanspoon-what-did-she-say.html (COMMENTS ON THE BLOGSPOT PAGE COUNT FOR THE PUSH UPS) post by midnight tonight where the poster promises to drink an extra 16 oz of water today I will do 10 push ups tomorrow. Here is your chance to make a fat man sweat and not feel bad about it so let me know that you are drinkin' that extra H2O and I will pay for it with my sweat, so the bar tab is on me this time.
With that the end has come to this installment of as the fat guy turns and I am off to do my crunches for the day, drink some more H2O and try to get out for a bike ride when/if a clearing floats over me. I am trying to work something out with the boss lady that will allow me to get out to the gym later in the day but its going to take some doing so we shall see because I NEED to get back to regular cardio ifin' I'm going to win this fight and with the little animals home from school for the summer is making that task harder than it has been. That's all I got for today so keep on keepin on and all that good stuff but whatever you do never forget that You are the one controlling that fork at the end of your arm.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Disaster averted? perhaps, perhaps not but lets pretend that it was anyways because I have a body to sculpt into that of a Greek God....um yeah, lets just say that I have some work left to do. You may have noticed that I changed the layout of the blog a bit and that was mostly because of boredom but partially because I need to start working on me again and I thought a new look for my chicken scratch might go with that so there you have it. I have been working on other people for the last two months and suddenly I am reminded that the last time I paid myself no mind that it didn't end up so good for my hard body status, you know, that time where I ended up weighing 534 pounds? So onto me for a while, I mean, keeping things in focus for the other things is a must just because they are but that doesn't mean that I can't squeeze in some time for Me, Myself and I and with that it begins again.
Today as I type this at just after 6PM I am 1680 calories into my budget and as full as I ever want or need to be, I made some rice and beans with grilled turkey burgers or should I say burger because I only had one but either way I am where I should be with the calories. I am a little light on my fluids today compared to my usual, I have about a half gallon of green tea down the hatch along with just under three quarts or so of straight H2O but I do have a half gallon of tea in the fridge for when I am through with this post. Yesterday my calories were over by 2 yogurts a banana and a bowl of cookies and cream ice cream with some whipped cream and I honestly don't know what the calories for my side dish at dinner was as I made stuffed eggplant and did not figure what a serving would be on my excel sheet yet.
The dish turned out good and I winged a stuffing for it consisting of the guts from the eggplant, chopped red onions, green bell peppers, yellow summer squash and baby bella mushrooms sauteed and then coated with a light amount of panko bread crumbs and seasonings. A shake of Parm cheese some bruschetta and mozzarella later and it was pretty damn good for a "wingin' it" kind of recipe and sort of had an eggplant parm meets stuffed mushroom feel to it. I do need to adjust the recipe a bit with the next couple few eggplants that I have in the garden growing right now and when I do I will post a complete recipe and the steps that I took along with the calorie value for the dish.
Yesterday I was granted what some people call a "non scale victory" when I went for a ride on my bike, apparently all of that towing the little monster, er I mean darling around for the last few months has improved my strength on a bike. Let me start with a short description of the road that I live on, there is a very steep hill that is shorter than another hill that is twice as long but not as steep until the very top, one hill is on one side of a Y in the road and the other is down the opposite way. Last I want to say September or so I took a ride up that longer hill and was out of commission for a couple days because of it and I have since dubbed that hill evil and have not tried to ride it again. Now if you read this blog regularly you probably know that I rode my daughter to school in her trailer for the last several months since it was warm enough to do so and I needed to go up the shorter but steeper hill to get her there. Yesterday I decided to go out for a quick 6 mile ride and thought about that hill and frankly I was just bored with the other route so off I went.
The bottom of the hill looking up feels like it goes for a mile and I was quickly brought back to last year and the sore hips and arse from the previous time me my bike and that hill were acquainted but I stood onto the pedals and went for it. Hitting the top of the hill I was barely winded and thought "Ok here is a flat spot now for the run at the top, you can do this" but alas the stop sign that brings me into the turn down a really steep decline was right there in front of me. I looked back to make sure that there was a hill behind me because I really was not winded as much as I felt that I should be but there I was, at the top with nothing but a fast ride down to the next incline. This route is longer than the other one by just about a mile and I am going to start riding this way instead as it offers me a change of scenery and now that I made the hill my bitch I need it to remember it.... I need to remember it.
Making the best choices for my health has to be priority one and I need to keep that in mind somehow, as soon as tragedy strikes in another facet of my life I go straight into fix it mode and the focus on myself is out the window. This isn't going to be easy and it has never been easy but I have come so far along now and so many changes have happened that I am making it hard for myself to fail and I need to keep pushing as hard as I can because I have to, not because I want to, not for someone else, not so that I can wear my yellow polka dot speedo to the beach but because I must and that's how its going to be.
That's all I got..
Monday, July 26, 2010
Lets take a step back in time to say somewhere around 1985 and see where some of these issues with being the fat kid came into the picture. I was in the boy scouts for more than a few years as a kid and we would hike, camp and do all kinds of stuff on our camping trips that was extremely fun even though we were kind of considered the misfit troop getting into trouble a lot of the time, good old troop 24. Sometimes we would participate in the Jamborees where all of the area troops would get together and show off our scout skills in the way of fire making, knot work and all kinds of other things that we were learning about back then but as I said we were kind of known as "the wild troop" for some of our antics . Each troop would set out on one big project and then do a sort of demo for the other troops showcasing our mad skillz yo, ok ok let me not get out of character because this is a reflection kind of thing going on here. The biggest Jamboree of the year we decided that we were going to shake that stigma and make the best suspended rope bridge that anyone ever did see because it was a big project and could include every one that was in our troop on some level of the construction between all of the knots and cutting of wood and rope not to mention if we pulled it off it would be pretty cool.
The Jamboree started and we all put everything that we had into this little rope bridge that could, I clearly remember working on it all day Saturday while we all took turns making knots and lashing the braces together. Dragging logs from the woods the whole of the troop was like a perfectly oiled machine all working together like the borg to get to a single point where this rope bridge was built and we were going to win that first place badge for our project if it killed us. I can remember being covered in sweat and wood chips, sore hands and feet from cutting and tying all day and by Saturday mid day we were almost complete. Off we went to get some food onto the table because there was a daily time limit on working on the projects so we were done for the day but went back to our lean to and literally discussed between the all of us how we were going to get up at first light and finish the bridge before the time limit was up so that we could enjoy some of the other things that were going on.
Sunday the first glimmer of light we wake up and off we went again working all morning, more than proud of what we were creating and confident that we would win the projects stage of the Jamboree. I can honestly say that it was one of the first times in my life that I can remember feeling a sense of pride about something that I did, we worked hard, I worked hard to make sure that our bridge was exactly how it needed to be in order to win the day. We all sat back covered in sweat, blood and little pieces of wood and rope just staring at the bridge, it was perfect and we made it that way, it was our bridge. Excitement set in and we were all going nuts because we wanted to of course test it out and have a little bit of fun with our new creation so into a line we filed and one at a time started crossing the bridge. Someone said "Hey don't let Tony try it out we don't want it to break" which was silly as I was still just a Husky lad at that point and no where near heavy enough to do any damage to the structure but alas I was indeed told not to cross the bridge. Standing on the side line I watched most of the others including a couple full grown men cross the bridge in victory while I felt like my heart was torn out because I literally put everything that I had into that silly rope bridge and now I was suspended from actually trying it out.
Everything that I felt because of the accomplishment was taken from me with a single sentence and a silly decision from a scoutmaster that probably didn't think about what he was doing by denying me the opportunity to experience what all of the others got to. I can honestly say that I wanted to cry and just go home, I lost interest in the entire Jamboree at that point and didn't care about whether we won or not. When it came time for the whole group of scouts to make the rounds and see what each troop did as a project I stayed in the lean to, you guessed it eating roasted marshmallows and chef boyardee straight from the can. I remember everyone coming back and declaring victory as we placed second for the projects but I didn't care. I worked as hard as anyone yet was not able to enjoy what we had done I just pretended that I didn't care either way about any of it but I did, I wanted to celebrate with the others but I was down and didn't want to let any of them know how hurt that I was so as far as anyone knew I just was not interested in any of the afterward. I got over it and life went on but looking back at it I can see now that it was definitely one of the stepping stones to an obese me, and just think, the project was meant to be a confidence reinforcement tool at its very root.
There are a lot of things that happen to a person that helps push them into the path of that moving train that is obesity and sometimes no one sees it happening at the time but it happens. I have plenty of stories like this one that I could write about or reflect back on where I remember feeling completely left out of situations and turning to food for comfort as a kid and even as an adult as a result. Now I don't blame this event for anything, its just one of the notches in my belt of growing up and becoming who I am today and we all have notches like this, fat thin, short or tall everyone has felt this way at some point in their lives, I like to look at it as I learned to have a little bit of compassion that day. Pile experiences like this one on top of one another and a person starts believing that its the only truth that is there for them, I can say that because I know first hand how it happens now that I can step back and examine some of the things that happened in my younger days.
To be continued..
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