Monday, July 12, 2010
Losing weight has changed my life in ways that I am unsure are describable in words on a computer screen written in a blog, I have found direction in more than one instance since deciding to get my $hit together in the health department. People have told me that I am "amazing" and that I am "dedicated" right down to "holy $hit you've lost how much? dude you are my hero" and yet I don't feel that I am any different from you or the next guy walking down the street. I am in the belief that anyone that finds themselves in a situation where their health is declining faster than our current presidents approval rating that they can make small changes and get decent sized results. January 2008 was a turning point for me and most of you that read my blog already know that but in the beginning I literally just limited my calories and exercised when I could and when I did it was usually 15 minutes or so at a time or a short walk around the block, that doesn't seem so drastic now does it? yet the results are stunning because I am more than 200 pounds lighter today because of those tiny steps in the beginning.
Circa 1995 pre back injury and more hair screwing around my brother asked me to make a "get the fuvk away from me" face (I will spare him by not posting his image from that day) but this is probably the last time in my life where I felt unstoppable until recently so to remind me what it felt like I decided to pop it up here.
Evolving into something more every day my plan became something stronger than the baby steps that it started with, walking turned into running and that into biking onward to joining a gym and here I am today. Creating habits with my eating that I don't have to think about because its what feels natural now and is just how I am or should I say who I am now. I think that is pretty good considering where I started back in 2008 at 534 pounds unable to sustain a slow paced walk for even a quarter of a mile without feeling like I was going to grenade my lower back or have my heart beat right out of my chest only to explode on the sidewalk in front of me. I almost see it as being a coward, the older me that is because instead of taking life by the throat and making it what I wanted it to be there I was sitting idly by as it flew past my eyes at breakneck speeds as I grew more rotund. I always feel the need to give myself the tiniest bit of a pass because of the back injury that I got back then because it really was the pivot point from being a "big guy" to weighing more than 500 pounds but I can still look at it with unbiased eyes and call it an excuse at this point because of the fact that eating less is always an option no matter how much pain is involved, the two are unrelated.
So whats my point? "where are you going with this today man?" I actually don't have a point right now other than deciding that I needed to put into words something, anything because its what I need to do to get my ass back on the path. I've got no time to lose and If you think you got 1000 years to mess around....You're wrong! I got no time for addiction, no time for smoke and booze, too strong for a shortened life span, I've got no time to lose! It's time to shine, yeah, it's hero time.
Hero time starts right now.
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Wednesday went pretty good on all fronts of this war on blubber and you could imagine the shock and awe that my body experienced in the beginning when it was all brandy spankin' new and this morning my quads looked up at me with a whimper and said "no mas senior" not unlike back then. I woke up and my quads and shoulders are sore because of a bike ride that I took and the fact that I waxed my entire car yesterday afternoon, the bike ride was of course with daughter in tow but I hammered the entire ride both ways standing on the pedals for almost the entire cruise and I have to say that riding that way uses a slightly different muscle group than when sitting judging on the way I feel today. My intake was slightly over but well within my limits and I drank more than two gallons of fluid throughout the day, oh and I found out that I am NOT allergic to wasp stings when I was attacked during my bike ride and making green tea just got easier.
Deciding to take a ride over to a dam that's close by turned out to be more painful than I was expecting because of some small flying terrors. We roll up to the dam and hop off of the bike and head on over to look at some wild life and bamn! bamn!! BAMN! my right calf felt like it was burned and hit with a bat or something all at the same time I look down to see a small swarm of black wasps all around my leg. Looking up I told my daughter to run as I watched wasps in formation slip one after another out of the hand rail on the bridge so we took off down the dam and stayed about half way across until the cloud of attackers dissipated. I will very likely be heading back over to the dam later this afternoon with a can of wasp spray to exact my vengeance on the little fuggers as I am sitting here with 6 stings on my leg not feeling to awesome, here are a couple shots from our ride.
A shot of our chariot parked next to the dam, this was pre wasp attack.
We had a few visitors come over to see what we were doing out on the small pier near the dam.
A shot of the bridge over the dam taken from the pier.
Finally a look at the lake from the middle of the bridge.
For my birthday Wify got me the bestest gift that ever was! an ice tea maker! so now when I forget to make a gallon over night I can just plug in the old ice tea maker and bamn! 13 minutes later three quarts of fresh and ice cold green tea. The instructions says that it calls for filters but when using tea bags there is no reason to use any as the bags work just fine all alone and last night I brewed my first pitcher of the good stuff and to my amazement it was strong enough. I was expecting it to be weak because it brews the tea hot in a little catch thingy at the top and then drops it into the pitcher of ice thus making iced tea, I love this gift. I brewed a pot this morning so that I could take a couple pictures to post up and I timed it to see how long it would take and 13 minutes seems to be the magic number, here is a photo of the new toy and some tea that I made this morning which is darker than normal because of the black tea that I added.
Some tea plus that dandy tea maker plus a pitcher of ice and..
Bamn! 13 minutes later an ice cold pitcher of green tea! I used 3 green tea bags, 1 green tea/passion fruit bag and a black teabag in this batch but haven't tasted it yet so I will report how it came out tomorrow.
Over all my focus has returned and we seem to be getting it done again in the intake department while the exercise is starting to come along as well. Measuring every bite that goes into my mouth again to kick start some losses is my plan and I'm stickin' to it because like I said yesterday it works. Its time to head out and do a little weeding in the garden followed by a bike ride so for today that's all I got, Thanks for following and thanks for the support and remember that we are the ones controlling what goes into our mouths.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
We're taking it back to old school kind of posting for a bit to get a groove going which means that menus, exercise and hydration will be posted daily along with a Friday weigh in. Tuesday went well in the intake and hydration area but I didn't get anything into my day that I would call exercise past regular daily kind of chores. Two gallons of straight H2O went down the hatch as I forgot to make my green tea the night before and my calories came in at 1725 which is right in there as far as what I want to be eating right now. For dinner I made a really good omelet consisting of 1 whole egg, 4 egg whites, 1.5 oz New York strip, Egyptian onions, yellow onions, tomato, green bell peppers, jalapeno, baby bella mushrooms and 2 oz of Kraft low fat cheddar cheese with a couple Zesty dill spears and some whole wheat toast on the side all for 515 total calories and as you can see from the menu it was an eggy kind of day for me.
Straight from my garden here are some of the smaller Egyptian onions that I didn't use in the omelet.
This is my omelet, there are many like it but this one is mine...you can see some of the Egyptian onions next to the plate, they have a strong smell and a mild flavor.
coffee creamer 50
1 whole egg 4 whites 130
2.5oz steak 150
2oz kraft low fat cheddar 90
2 slices whole wheat toast 140
1 T almond butter 95
1 T strawberry preserves 35
1 whole egg 4 whites 130
1.5oz steak 90
2oz kraft low fat cheddar 90
Zesty pickle 10
2 slices whole wheat toast 140
Smart balance 25
3/4 banana 75
1 banana 105
2 oranges 170
There was nothing in the way of exercise in my life yesterday, cleaned up the yard a bit, weeded my garden and some normal house cleaning kind of stuff but no bike rides, no gym, no calisthenics or the likes. Today will be different, I will at least get a bike ride into my day at some point and would like to try to get to the gym as its been a good while since I have been able to get there because of the kids not being in school. The idea to wake up at O dark thirty and go to the gym has entered into my head but I have never been a morning person and my back still smarts for about the first hour of my day unless I give its space to warm up naturally so I am unsure thats the best idea but I am going to explore it because I have to get my cardio in each day and its just not happening lately.
The plan for today is to eat within my 1700 calories, get a bike ride in and drink a plenty, I did not get any green tea in yesterday because I forgot to make it the night before. Forgetting to brew my green tea the night before usually means one of two things, I run out and give Arizona tea a couple more of my dollars buying a gallon of tea or I miss out for the day. I did get an iced tea maker from wify for my birthday (most thoughtful gift award) and am planning on reading the instructions today so I shouldn't have a reason to miss out on a day without tea any more and hopefully it saves us a few bucks because of not having to buy a gallon of the pre-made stuff.
I have been going through some of my older posts from the first year and am beginning to get myself back into a frame of mind where I have to push myself to the front of the things to do list again regardless of the other stuff that's going on currently in the life of me. Tomorrow will be more of the same as I continue down this road to a healthier me, I have a few goals that still need to be reached and I have not gotten down to my goal weight just yet so that must be a priority because not doing for myself is partially what got me into this obese situation (man I hate that fuvkin word) in the first place.
Making ones self priority one is as important as the air that we breathe sometimes and I can't lose sight of that again.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
The smell of Jalapeno and steak is wafting through the air right now as I type because of the most amazing omelet that I just had for breakfast and its back to the grind that is my weight loss journey. This weekend I did step away from the wagon because of a little shindig that was thrown in honor of my aging 365 days and I did not want to disappoint the hostess, that and there was Haitian "rhum" and Italian rum cake, a themed party perhaps? It was a very small gathering and was a good day but as I said off the wagon I went and that's just how its gonna be because from the beginning I have refused to pull out my salter scale etc for an event, there are times when enjoying the moment is more important than measuring every ounce of whatever will be eaten, I didn't notice a nutrition label on the bottle or rum either so that must mean it s void of calories right?
Other than the weekend being that of drinking and pillaging the weak and unprepared...um I mean the junk I ate at the shindig it wasn't all too bad. I stayed hydrated throughout and did manage to stay clear of any chips or party mix sticking to steak and potato salad for the most part. This morning I am up in weight but I am 100% sure that its the bad eating Sunday and the trickle effect that spilled into yesterday that's causing that and today everything is back where it should be with my counting and the omelet that I just made was weighed, measured and put into my excel spread sheet as normal. Since the humidity today feels less like Ecuador and more like New England I am also planning on a bike ride this afternoon with my daughter in tow to get the blood pumping and a few more miles under my belt.
Recently it dawned on me that I am closer to a normal sized person than a super obese person now and its a hard stigma to shake. I look in a mirror and can see HUGE differences from where I was but I do still see that bigger me more often than not and catch myself getting caught up in that thought for longer than I should at times. Am I sitting around feeling bad for myself? not even for a second, I am in a place where physically I can do whatever I want and feel unlimited, I mean I am not out in the yard doing cart wheels but I did say anything that I "wanted" to do so I am cool with the no cart wheel rule as I prefer my arms don't look like an accordion. Sunday we were going through some pictures from my wedding and I am a lot bigger in those photos, a friend of mine who was in our wedding party looked at a picture then looked up at me and said (obviously busting my balls) "you look goofy thinner" and I looked at the picture from the wedding and honestly thought "I don't look much different than in that picture whats he talking about" and left it at that. Later I was thinking about it and I was in a 70 long jacket at my wedding and a shirt that I had to special order tailored and the works, I am now in a 2XL shirt all day long and thought about how my mental image may need some adjusting.
With that all said things are where they should be, I am enjoying being a smaller version of my prior self and taking it all in, eating to live instead of living to eat and the realization that it just takes a little bit of hard work to have everything that a guy could want physically is sinking in a little bit at a time. Ultimately I do believe that I will end up at a healthy weight as well as being in a physical place with myself that will allow me to do whatever I want to do in an unlimited fashion, even cart wheels if I so choose. Drink much, weigh the fuel and exercise the machine is the plan that will get me where I want to go so its what I'm going to stick with and why not? so far I am more than 200 pounds lighter doing just that.
I am going to start posting my menus again as I feel that it helps me keep a closer eye on whats going in and honestly I need the accountability with my choices because currently I know that I am lacking in the fruits and veggies department. There is always someone willing to in a comment say "Hey man! where is all of the foliage???" and most times when I review the menus after a comment like that the pattern of less veggies is in fact present. Perhaps I will start logging my exercises again as well and go a little old school with my posts again because if you re-read some of the older posts I was big about posting my menus and exercises, back in the first year when most of my posts were titled "Day 1" etc so maybe its what I need right now because I was more than focused at that point.
A less critical health situation for myself paired with some bigger fish to fry in the giving attention to things department has made me less concentrated on my program than in the past and I feel that it needs adjustment because I am not through with what I have started and honestly deserve to give myself that attention. I shall return tomorrow and will post my menu and exercise for today no matter what it is, good, bad, ugly it will be here for your discerning eyes to ponder and tear apart if you wish and with that the end has come to this episode of Fat man and Blobin so until next time.
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