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Monday, June 07, 2010
Pulling it all together this week I am getting back to business and the weight is coming off once again, Ten days ago I weighed 17 pounds more than I do right now as I type and I am getting close to that low weight again. I will weigh in this Friday "for the record book" and I am hoping that I can get back to that lowest weight of 305 by then though I think its going to be hard and that my friends sucks. I don't make any excuses mostly because I don't have to but more so because it is what it is and excuses is partially what got me to 500 plus pounds in the first place. Lately I have been thinking about mental barriers and the whole struggle with losing weight and why those things are there and get in the way so easily. Cover your eyes and stop reading right now if you are over weight and don't want the truth about why we eat too much, its an addiction and we fall back on it as soon as the $hit hits the fan in life or in many cases as soon as we can blame something on why we're doing it.
I hate that food has such a hold on me but it does there is no two ways about it, I am indeed ultimately stronger than the food because I am not going to stop until I reach my health goals but that's not to say that I won't slip now and again. I could say that its there to comfort this that and the other but the fact is that I just like the way it tastes plain and simply. I have never done drugs in my entire life and I mean nothing, nada, not a single thing and I don't have the desire to start any time soon, I grew up in a $hitty city in a not so good area and have seen it all and when I say that I have seen it all I mean it. From anonymous zombies strung out on the side of the road sitting on busted milk crates with fragile bodies cooking death in a bottle cap or aluminum can to idiot friends doing everything from weed to pills to coke to to to....and I have never EVER tried or wanted to try any of that trash yet drop a triple bacon bacon cheeseburger with fried onions and a side of fries in front of me and bamn! I'm in for two.
In the last two plus years I have completely changed the way that I see and treat food, I have lost more than what most people would call a significant amount of weight and have kept it off in that same time which has given me a new outlook on how things should be. Its funny because I wasn't always what I would call huge, yes I was the "fat kid" which was more like the chubby kid looking back at some old photos but once you get that label attached it sticks and at some point we embrace it then before you know it you are starting a blog because you weigh more than 500 pounds and have no idea what else to do. My weight gain was a compound issue because of a back injury that I got in about 2000, when you love Bacon pizza the way that I do and then you add a back injury that's as depressing as it is painful you get a recipe for a fat guy. Imagine not being able to walk without pain and on some days stand without pain and then add in some normal life stresses along with over eating and some video games and viola! before you even realize that it happened Houston, we have a problem here.
I am the same person that I was then, I am the same guy that loves the tiny little greasy Greek style pizza from the best little pizza house in the state and I am the same fella that blew his back out 10 years ago. My drive is different, my focus is different, my back does not smart as much as it use to though I still have pain now and again my relationship with food has completely changed and I actually crave exercise instead of that big D chili cheese burger (points for anyone whose had one or knows what it is without google). I am just a guy getting healthy and experiencing all of the bumps in the road that come with that and with all of my success thus far I still struggle at times because no matter how much I success I have had I am not perfect and am only human, at least to most people.
My daughter was talking to Wify last night and she was singing Owl Johnson "I love to singa" which is something that I randomly blurt out now and again while dancing across the floor and wify said "You're just like your dad" and the reply from my daughter was "Dats because I wanna be just like my Daddy" and I don't think I needed to hear anything else to realize that I am not doing this just for me.
Onward and upward we go...
As Ever
Me
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
I'm back BUT todays episode of as the fat guy turns will only be brought to you on my blogspot because of a few choice words, we wouldn't want to offend anyone and hurt der widdle eyes with big boy words ;)
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Friday, May 21, 2010
First weigh in with the new scale is here and I can't say that I am unhappy with the results but it could have been a better week because I did everything right...besides a few nights of less than optimal rest. Getting right to it 305.2 was what the display said and it had that same number all three times that I stepped onto the scale so into the books it goes and a one pound loss for the week. I am now 229 pounds lighter than when I started this whole weight loss gig which translates into 42.88% of my total body weight in losses and every week that I do this I get closer to a crossing point where I will weigh less than what I have lost. When I set out on this whole process I chose 275 pounds as my "I think I will look good at that weight" weight, and the closer that I get the more I think I want to stop closer to 250 pounds but I am happy at 305 so that will be found out as I get closer because at some point I am going to focus on strength training with cardio as secondary, which just means that it will be more balanced because right now I focus on cardio much more than weight training.
This Scorpion scooter weighs in at 229 pounds and is what I have lost to date.
This Scott Mk1 silk 700S came in at 305 pounds and is what I currently weigh.
If I were to get down to 250 pounds I would feel like I should just keep going and get to 234 so that I could say that I lost 300 pounds, the fact that I can realistically lose 300 pounds and still weigh 234 pounds is fuvking amazing and there is no other way to say it. I was at a point in my life where I weighed more than a quarter ton, say that out loud and you begin to see how crazy that is and now I am a mere 30 pounds from hitting 275 in under two and a half years. Ultimately I have no clue where I will end up with my weight, I am six foot five feet tall and honestly feel that I would look too small at 234 pounds but I don't know where that image comes from as I was probably 11 or 12 the last time I was remotely close to that weight. Its just a matter of time before I get where I want to with my weight, I would say that I am already there with my health because the limits of what I can do these days far exceeds anything that I can remember.
A few days ago My wife and I were featured in a yahoo health article which was a copy of the Woman's day article that we were in but it spawned a lot of email to my inbox and I first want to say Thank you all for all of the kind words! I enjoy getting personal emails like that and I literally had a full inbox that day and am still getting responses. The same question was repeated in a lot of those emails that I got and that question was "Do you have any tips for a beginner that is just starting off with weight loss?" and I guess the only thing I can say is take it a day at a time and stick with it no matter how hard it feels because carrying extra weight around is much harder than skipping a cookie or a soda. I feel that if people could have just a glimpse of how life is post weight loss vs the struggles that take place when we weigh 50, 100, 200 or more pounds than we should that many more would just do it because the contrast in my life from then to now is indescribable.
When I began down this road essentially to life it looked like an impossible task to me staring down from the bad side of 534 pounds, I thought about how many pounds that was and all of the work that it would take to do it and on some days it felt like I may as well try to fly to the moon hanging off of the feet of a sparrow but I kept going. The alternative to the hard road is an even harder road of missing out on everything that life has to offer because of the leash that holds us to the couch or moving in short spurts because anything more than 10 minutes gets the hand grenade in our chest bumping and spurting its way towards boom! I can't really say what my "tip" for a beginner to the weight loss game would be because I feel that it will be different for every single person and their own personal struggle and what worked for me may not work for everyone. The thought of not being there for my daughter was a strong force in me getting my $hit together among other things but I think in a more general kind of way that we all know what to do, we all know how to do it and we all know that basically moving more while eating less is what must be done its the how to deal with that mental block that is really the hard part, get over the mental part and the physical just follows along.
Another successful week on the record books and another pound closer to my goal weight I am happy with the loss this week because a loss is a loss is a loss which is not something that I agreed with early on in my trip to the half. That will conclude this message from the emergency weight loss broadcast system, you may now go back to whatever it is that you were doing before clicking the link that brought you to my little nook on the internet.
That's all I got for today.
As Ever
Me
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Hi my name is Zeusmeatball and I am an addict....to the scale.. My scale is not working and I have to say that its driving me insane. Yesterday when I came home from the gym I stepped onto the scale to see where I was and nothing on the display, hmmm batteries must have died no worries I can weigh myself later. Fast forward to later and new batteries were placed into my cold black friend and still nothing, she is kaput and its been two days since I have been able to check my weight and I can't stand it. I am a daily weigher, EVERY morning only after using the bathroom and before I eat breakfast I step on to see where I am and not being able to do that since yesterday is bothering me way more than I thought that it would if ever I was not near a scale, what ever will I do?
I have a couple choices, A.) Go buy a new scale at Walmart or the likes, after all I can use normal people scales now so I have what you normal sized folk call options, or B.) Weigh myself at the gym later but then I am in clothing and its an afternoon weigh in which tells me nothing really because I am all over the place in the afternoons usually (yes I weigh myself more than once per day) or C.) don't worry about it at all and wait for the warranty scale to get here in the mail after of course I find my receipt and warranty paperwork for the scale that I have and send this one in, yeah like that's going to happen, so..I find myself looking at some options.
I mentioned that I weigh myself multiple times per day and thats true, I usually weigh myself in the am, then again after I get home from the gym and again right before bed and these different times tell me different things. The morning weigh in tells me exactly where I stand with my weight and is usually only fractionally different from the previous morning whether its up or down and this is the most important weigh in for me. The afternoon post gym workout is purely because I am nuts and addicted to checking my number on the scale and is usually only a pound or so over my am weigh in and if its more than that I usually drink more that day but it really is an unnecessary step on the scale. My before bed time weigh in tells me where I am going to be in the am and is usually not off my much at all, I tend to drop 3 to 3.5 pounds over night between my am trip to the little boys room and just night time burn off so it gives me an idea of how my morning will look. I promise you that I am not like this all of the time but when I am looking for a number, oh you know the 200's I tend to get scale happy and am on more than I want to admit for fear of being put into a 12 step program.
I will figure the scale out and will likely have a new one because I don't want to wait for warranty paperwork and mail etc etc to happen before I weigh myself again, yes the 550 pound limit scale that I bought has a 30 year warranty on it which is nice but I honestly don't know if I have that paperwork. Anyways, onto normal stuff and off of the broken scale, Yesterday I did about an hour of gardening in the morning before it started raining and I did miss out on my afternoon bike ride because of rain but made up for that at the gym. I got in 65 minutes of cardio yesterday by doing 25 minutes on the stationary bike, 20 on the arctrainer and 20 on the treadmill 6.5% incline 3.4mph so I feel good about the exercise for the day. I have also started doing my push ups at night again because I don't remember why I stopped and since there was no reason I figured they needed to be added in again so hopefully they help keep some muscle from leaving my chest.
My intake came in at 1910 calories for the day and I have to admit that I am enjoying having the extra 200 calories to play with. I am able to now include a couple more snacks throughout the day because of the up in calories and though I wasn't hungry before the additional calories I am feeling more than satisfied now that my limit is higher. Nothing has changed with my meals at all, I eat the same portions besides lunch where I do add a couple calories but for the most part it means 2 pieces of extra fruit sometime in the day for me or a yogurt and a fruit and I feel like I always have something in my mouth lately. Drinking is never an issue with me and averaging 2 gallons per day is pretty much how I roll, yes I just said its how I roll so get over it aight yo! don't start none won't be none..ok ok enough of that I drink a lot and that's that.
I am pretty much doing what I need to do and expect that the scale will reflect the work BUT without knowing for sure I am going a tad bit insane currently and though I will check in on the scale at the gym today I know that its not really accurate so...yeah I think that I will be stopping to buy one on the way home from the gym. That will sum up this episode of as the fat guy turns, be sure to tune in tomorrow to see if our Hero makes it through the day without imploding as a result of not knowing his starting weight for the day! Let us hope he makes it!
As Ever
Me
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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
Loved the advice "take it a day at a time and stick with it no matter how hard it feels because carrying extra weight around is much harder than skipping a cookie or a soda". Through this short time in trying to change my habits I have been hit hard with the mentality of giving up but the inspiration that you and other sparkers give is so worth sticking to it. Keep it up 
