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Wednesday, June 16, 2010


There are times that I sit down to write a post and other things fill my head and blogging has taken a back seat to everything else but I am still here and am still trying to get posts out there because I believe that they are HUGE in keeping me on track. I have always preached the just do it thang where weight loss is concerned and I still believe that but just do it really gets tough when the proverbial $hit hits the fan in other places of life. This is a weight loss/better health blog so I won't bore you with some of that stuff but trust me when I say that my hands are full.

I have not been counting calories the way that I should and I am up in weight from my low of 305 but nothing so far gone that I can't get it back down in a week or two of regular eating and exercise so I am not all that worried about it. The weight loss train is just making a short stop so that some other things can take the front seat and get sorted out which is not optimal but necessary right now so it is what it is. I am sporadically making it to the gym for 45 to 60 minutes of cardio and 2 to 3 times per week am riding my daughter to school in her bike trailer so I am not just a lump on a log its just not what it should be in the exercise department. My intake is where I am suffering the most, I am not drinking as much as I normally do and have had coffee a lot in the mornings because of the lack of sleep that I have been getting lately and I drink my green tea when I remember to make it.

Eating extra calories has become all too easy with the hectic days but then when ya say it out loud like that it sounds like an excuse but I assure you that I make no excuses, it is what it is and just a bump in the road until some things level off again. My days have been starting off pretty decent but then deteriorating at some point and I am eating less fruits and veggies and more stuff thats not so good for me, tie that to the fact that I am not drinking nearly as much as I normally do and well like I said, I am up in weight a bit.

Today I am going to start focusing again, not because I want to (though I do) but more so because I need to, all of the things that are happening in my life right now are high stress with a very low fun factor and just because I am no longer a 500 pound fella lumbering around is no reason to take priority off of losing the weight. When I weighed more than a quarter ton it was not a very hard decision to say to Wify that nothing was more important and shove everything onto the back burner because if something wasn't done when it was I honestly don't know if I would be here typing this out right now let alone anything else. Right now at just over 300 pounds I am as healthy as I have ever been in my entire life and in fact I believe this is the best shape physically that I have ever been in and its very easy for me to unlock focus and put it elsewhere because I am in no danger of losing it all because of my unhealthy weight.

I will try my best from here on out to get a post up daily with my menu and my exercise so that I can see what I am doing "on paper" because that has always helped me keep myself in line. I have lately been a bad blogger but its only because I am not a super human and can only juggle so much at any given moment of any random day and honestly this blog has been from the start a way for me to stay on track with losing weight so by not posting I am only letting myself down when I don't make the time to scratch something down on a daily.

So far today I am in for 330 calories and just under a half gallon of green tea, I will have salmon steaks with green beans and rice for dinner and am planning on a nice long bike ride this afternoon before the rain starts.

That's all I got for today and tomorrow I will try and get another post up, Thanks for reading and thank you for the support it is very much appreciated.

As Ever
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STARTINGALLOVER 6/20/2010 10:23PM

    You are doing fanstastic.. we all are prone to the focus issue..including me this past three weeks. Holy I needed people to kick my a$$ for sure emoticon I think the key though is that even though the focus shifts a bit.. you are right on top of it. You aren't just shrugging it off and thinkin' that tomorrows another day.. you are accountable.
And that is why this will not get you down..
good job..
keep fighting!


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SLIMMER150 6/17/2010 9:45PM

    Hi Again... I am a checkin in.. Your Blogging made a huge difference to you... and YOU made ME a Believer. One day at a time.. no matter What happens to us... we CAN make the CHOICE.. the Right choice. You certainly have in the past. Now that you are so close to the 299 GOAL... Don't get off course.. you know how to eat and what you have to do... Keep Showing Us the Way! You really are Amazing! At times I don't have much strength.. but you can have some of my extra to help your right now! Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! emoticon

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DAVEW175 6/17/2010 9:30PM

    I hope the challenges in your life settle down before too long. It's so easy to get thrown off track when things go wrong. I'm sure you'll be able to refocus and continue your journey.


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DEBIZINHA 6/17/2010 1:21PM

    Hi there...

I can totally rely to your post as today I have just returned to Spark People after being away for 1 year and of course gaining more weight.

Accountability is hard and I think the posts help us stay accountable.

You are still a great motivator and I am glad to see that you are doing well and still inspiring folks like me.



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TRACYZABELLE 6/17/2010 2:31AM

    We all have fluctuations in weight-- I don't remember what I joined spark at only my highest I got while here! EEK! I am sure with the biking-- which is great exercise, you will see a difference.. NOt to worry Tony-- we are all right here with you... twoterville is close! How awesome is that!

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LORISEVERANCE 6/16/2010 8:19PM

    Through it all, you continue to be be an inspiration. As they say, it is not a sprint, but a marathon. There will be hills and bad weather and bad knees to contend with, but progress is progress and the only thing that is important is that you stay the course and finish. And there is no doubt that you will.

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SWEETZMIX 6/16/2010 6:03PM

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PSMITH3841 6/16/2010 4:36PM

    Boy, doesn't life get in the way of the things we want/need to do!!!!! If anyone can get back on track, it's you! You hit a bump and you won't let it be a roadblock...I'm sure of that!!! Keep on keepin' on! emoticon

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NWFL59 6/16/2010 3:26PM

    You are both mentally and physically strong and I'm confident you'll pull through and retain a healthy lifestyle.

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RACKETMOM 6/16/2010 2:49PM

    I like the saying "Obstacles are those things that determine if we really want something" I hope your obstacles will only make you stronger, Super Botzzz :)

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AXISLADY 6/16/2010 2:11PM

    I am back from a weeks' stay with my daughter and family in NJ. Why do my visits there seem to be full of stress? Their life style is so different than my sedentary one and even though I miss them terribly, it is always stressful! So, I didn't pay attention to what I was eating but I did drink moire than enough water every day! I'll see what I weigh tomorrow. Be strong, Botzz- it is not easy, this journey of ours.

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TINYC887 6/16/2010 2:05PM

    life does have a way of getting in the way but we know you will do it, you are determined.

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/16/2010 2:04PM

    Glad you are posting again and realize the importance. Stress and overeating or junking it never helps because if it did, then I for one wouldn't have stress.

Getting back into the successful routine is the biggest high you can give yourself.

Looking forward to tomorrows post

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CATLADY52 6/16/2010 1:30PM

    I support your attitude of "make do with what you have and just keep trying". It says that you really love this life you've been given and are willing to fight for it. Don't ever lose that. "Keep on rocking" as the saying goes.

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PUCKYGIRL 6/16/2010 11:56AM

    Hope all gets back to normal (whatever that is) with you. You got your mind set and you can do this. It is just a bump in the road of this long journey and you will to over come that as well. Thanks for the inspiring blog and get your A$$ back on track and keep the blogs coming. Thanks for being an inspiration to us all.


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ITSHOWYOULIVE 6/16/2010 11:23AM

    Thanks for another inspiring blog. You are busy living life and riding your daughter to school and that is awesome. Have a great summer and hope you can get some more sleep...

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CFLOTT 6/16/2010 11:00AM

    Yes yes, there is something freeing in acknowleding and recognizing bumps in the road for what they are: life. That there really is no perfection and to not use that as an excuse but a fact that we all deal with. When we're in the right place, these bumps in life will not throw us so far akimbo that we're back at square one.

And...you have reminded me to go get some water for myself!

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CLAIRESML 6/16/2010 10:52AM

    There are always going to be ups and downs not a straight chute down. You have been such a success and will continue to do so! Go YOU!
Claire

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SSDCQUINCY 6/16/2010 10:48AM

    You are here and taking steps in the right direction!! Keep up the positive attitude and you will be right back into the game. We have our little slip ups, but as long as we keep fighting then we will win. Keep it up.

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CAROLYN1213 6/16/2010 10:40AM

    I'm with you buddy! Stress and life pressures do not change, just because our body size and health have. I'm glad you took the time you needed to focus on your health when it was crucial. Now something else needs that focus. You will find a balance, you will get back to doing the work you need to, you know how to do this.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 6/16/2010 10:39AM

    Life happens brother. The best we can do is keep our awareness up and deal with what we're dealt. Be strong.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 6/16/2010 10:27AM

    Good to see a post. I will keep you on my mind. May life (and green tea consumption) return to normal soon.

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STARGIRL66 6/16/2010 10:27AM

    Hang in there. I'm also under a lot of stress right now, and I've decided that for me to survive and be ok mentally and physially, I HAVE TO take care of myself, #1. Some days are better than others, but I start each day with a good plan in place. The ups and downs of life will always be there, and it can be difficult at times to stay on track. Hope you have more ups and than downs in the near future!

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SHANTRA 6/16/2010 10:26AM

    At least you are aware of where you are at and that is SO important as is putting the brakes on right now before things get worse. As this becomes a part of who you are rather than something you are doing to achieve a goal.. the easier it will be.

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SHRNGRD 6/16/2010 10:11AM

    I completely understand how you are feeling! Trust me! I myself have gotten off the wagon this past month an a half. I ended up gaining about 2lb. May not sound like a lot, but it upset me since I've worked SO hard this past year.

My sister and brother in law had been in town for about a month and a half. My brother in law had a kidney transplant, at the age of 29, while they were here in town. Along with it came some complications. So about two weeks of being in the hospital, supporting my sister, we ate nothing but cafeteria foods and ate out a lot! You can only make so many good choices after awhile. All in all, my brother in law is onto a GREAT road of recovery and they were able to go home last week.

So after they went home, I was able to get back onto my wagon and start eating right again and exercising regularly again. Long story short, this is life...and there are always going to be bumps in the roads. So, you just have to hop right back on track! :o)

I hope that you and your family are doing well through your tough times. :o) Just remember to take care of yourself. :o)

Sharon

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CALLIKIA 6/16/2010 10:06AM

    Life happens! But good for you for realizing that your health does not need to suffer just because your mental capacity is while dealing with all that stress. Hope things turn around soon and you feel some of that extra weight lifted off your shoulders (and I'm not talking about the few pounds you may have put on in the past few weeks).

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CINCYDORA 6/16/2010 9:59AM

    I'm glad to see you recognize the wisdom of making self-care a priority. That's always where I fail when things get stressful. Keep hanging in there and you'll make it through. You've already proven you are strong enough to take on most challenges.

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JBMT08 6/16/2010 9:56AM

    Hey Guy,
We are all here supporting you through your journey! Chin up, and we look forward to your next post! I havent been posting much lately either.....

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FROGGERHKC 6/16/2010 9:47AM

    I hope that things smooth out for you soon! I hate when life gets hectic and throws a wrench in the positive things. Keep going strong, you can do it!
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NORDAKOTA 6/16/2010 9:46AM

    Keep on keeping on! It will get better. I'm telling you that if I weren't exercising now (by natural anti-anxiety/anti-depressant) --my kids would be visiting me on weekends in the loony bin.

YOU CAN DO IT! You are WORTH it!

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TAMMIE1006 6/16/2010 9:45AM

    good to 'see' you again here, miss you when you're not blogging, but you do what you have to.....we'll be patient :)

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BOOKSCATSTEA 6/16/2010 9:44AM

    We all understand, and we are rooting for you! You have lots of people who are sending positive energy and thoughts your way. Take good care of yourself.
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ADANA2009 6/16/2010 9:43AM

    Your still working hard! Hope things unstressed for you soon

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Thursday, June 10, 2010


I am not perfect but I am as perfect as you are..

Here's the thing about it, I'm comfortable, I am not limited and the term bigger fish to fry pops into the ever moving space inside if my gray matter. Once upon a time in the 70's a kid was born and he was pretty much a normal kid as far as anyone could tell and if you had asked any of the people around if that kid would grow up to weigh more than 500 pounds my guess is that not a one of them would think so but alas! he did. Let us fast forward to the year 2000 and the blown out back that started it all, er finished it all. Somewhere after that a few $hit storms ensued and attitudes were changing and before anyone knew what hit them there he was defeated and in pain mentally as well as emotionally but hiding it became a full time job. To this day I am unsure if anyone actually knows how depressed I had become because of the wall that I put up between my emotions and what was seen, like the Cock fighting arena under the unassuming Chinese take out place no one could see what was really there.

There was a point where a little girl literally became the strongest force in my life and it clicked that some doing had to be done or else it might be me that was done and I wasn't having that and so it began. Fuvk you, I don't care what you are doing because this is what I am doing and if you don't like it you can go straight to hell and take your hand bag with ya because its gotta be this way, That's how I felt about it where my eating and exercise was the subject. Going to my mother in laws house for dinner? "Honey where's my scale and do we have tea made?, does your mom know what I can and can't eat? otherwise I will bring something" Like I said, there was no veering off the path at all if it went in my mouth it was weighed and measured. Getting my weight down was a full time job, there was nothing more important than that program because if I failed I felt that I would die and that's as plain as I can say it.

Have you ever felt that if you did not change something that it would mean that you die? its not a warm and fuzzy feeling sitting in the biggest part of your heart and its not anything that I would wish on anyone, it sucks, it consumes you and drags you down further than you already are every single day. Now add the fact that you have the most incredible family and if failure occurs they are left behind with memories of a fat man that was too weak to do something about a fixable problem, not something that I aspired to see happen. There was a point along this ride where I stopped thinking about whether I would die or not and it happened somewhere between the day that I realized that I could walk up a steep hill without gasping for breath and realizing that I am towing a 45 pound kid behind me for miles up and down hills and contentment entered stage right.

Being content with where I am physically is not something that I thought would ever happen, especially while I am still above 300 pounds but I am happy right now. I am not completely happy though and that I suppose is the next chapter in this story because I need to finish what I started and get to that line that was made in the sand and cross it and go beyond and into uncharted territory and I will. I don't want to be content, I don't want to be 300 pounds yet healthy, I want to amaze myself and so it begins...

again...

As Ever
Me

  
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AURORAVII 6/24/2010 8:24AM

    "Have you ever felt that if you did not change something that it would mean that you die?"
Yes. I felt that way once and it was the hardest and most important turning point in my life.
You have my respect sir! emoticon

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VGIMLET 6/21/2010 8:42PM

    Great blog.

I personally had that 'if I don't change I'm going to die' feeling. For a long, dreary time. So I know it well.

You can do it, because, well, you just can, that's all.

Very inspiring.

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STARTINGALLOVER 6/20/2010 10:20PM

    You are what I needed to read tonight.. keeping up the good fight with the ups and downs.. and not settling for "better than before"
You are simply amazing..and your family is richer because of you...
awesome..you are.

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MINAMURO 6/19/2010 11:16PM

    emoticon Great post. I know you will make it !

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TINKLOVESBEAR 6/19/2010 4:49PM

    Love it! And it sounds like "Tubby" already went down!! emoticon

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CBAILEYC 6/19/2010 2:14PM

    Fabulous! emoticon

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MERALO 6/19/2010 4:26AM

    Great stuff!

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FISHKNEES 6/19/2010 2:13AM

    This rocked!!! way to go..I can totally relate!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TEASJOURNEY 6/15/2010 6:52AM

    Thank You! This was exactly what I needed to hear today...you are amazing!


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SUNNY89 6/12/2010 1:53PM

    Great job! It is a journey as you know. Learn something from each step. Enjoy each step. Each step along the journey is important. You will make and beat all the goals you have ahead of you.

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LORISEVERANCE 6/12/2010 1:46AM

    Your strength and spirit amaze and inspire me. All the best to you. You deserve it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SLIMMER150 6/11/2010 7:02PM

    You still have it in you! And you know how to get the weight off! The 4th of July is around the corner... How about giving yourself, and all of us, to know you made it UNDER 300!

Doesn't 299 sound Wonderful! It is possible..........

Go For It.... Show Us How It Is Done..... LEAD THE WAY!

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DIFROMWYOMING 6/11/2010 3:01PM

    As always, I can relate to everything here...including feeling okay where I am today which is at once exhilarating and scary....because it means I can easily become complacent and the journey is NOT over yet. It's just that toting around a body that is 100 or 200 pounds less than you've toted around for years is very freeing, isn't it?
This was a wonderful and insightful blog! Thanks for sharing it.

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KNITSTRONG 6/11/2010 2:11PM

    I so enjoy reading your blogs. Thanks for reminding me of the basics.

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PSMITH3841 6/11/2010 9:13AM

    As usual.....my friend...YOU ROCK!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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WENDYSPARKS 6/11/2010 8:12AM

    You are important and you are loved by your family. They care about you and want you around for a long long time. That means you have to take care of yourself...and Ch. 2 begins. Good luck on your journey and God Bless You, Wendy

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 6/11/2010 7:45AM

    It's amazing how much our kids can drive us. Mine constantly surprises me and makes my heart shout for joy.

Keep on keeping on!!

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KAATII 6/11/2010 7:15AM

    Powerful Blog. Truly inspiring...... and talk about dedication! It doesn't get any better than this......



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TRACYZABELLE 6/11/2010 6:47AM

    Awesome-- perfection is not found in a number but in a feeling.

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250STRONG 6/10/2010 9:27PM

    Well said!

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METALMAMA4 6/10/2010 9:01PM

    You are amazing!! I remember feeling like if I didn't do it I would die. I still feel like death is still right around the corner so I have to do this!! Hang in there!

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AKJADE 6/10/2010 6:18PM

    Fantastic! Inspirational! Keep going, you'll make it across, I know you will! emoticon

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TELERIE 6/10/2010 5:51PM

    Hell yeah!

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SHANTRA 6/10/2010 3:34PM

    Fantastic blog! AWESOME!

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NWFL59 6/10/2010 1:12PM

    Thank you very much for sharing some of your internal thoughts and motivations. It is of course both inspiring and motivating. We all have experienced some similar ideas about our individual situations and how we react and become proactive to make changes for the better. You're awesome.

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PERSISTENTTIM 6/10/2010 12:34PM

    I can relate man. I've been sick for 6 weeks and I was thinking this is the time I die but now I am better and I know I have to lose weight NOW!

You've done great and I can only imagine how good it feels to do what you can do. Good luck with the rest of your journey!

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CINCYDORA 6/10/2010 12:22PM

    Wow man, cue the inspirational music! This is the part in the movie where the protagonist makes a big speech and the music swells and everyone is motivated to act! I want to go to the gym right now.

Seriously awesome!

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AXISLADY 6/10/2010 12:05PM

    I was struck by the idea, that you should put your blogs into book form when you hit that number that you want. I am glad that you are happy but not letting it stop you in your quest. always amazing. Maybe you should change your name to that. lol

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BEAR_GURL 6/10/2010 11:55AM

    You ARE an awesome man and braver than most; I KNOW that you CAN and WILL beat this...you are NOT alone (your family, friends and SP pals have your back!). Continue to stay positive and best wishes throughout your journey--you ARE an inspiration to us all (please keep us updated)!!!


HUGS,
>Melissa

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VEMAN1 6/10/2010 11:48AM

    This journey is fraught with perils only imagined by the likes of Edgar Allen Poe or others of the macabre. My walls are as high as yours although the numbers appear smaller. This past week has found me in a bother and stirred up lethal emotions yet again. These things do drag our hearts and dampen our spirits. So, let us band together and cheer each other on and we both brush ourselves off, knocking the clods off our shoes, and start all over again.

I know 299 is just around the corner for you.
I know 215 is just around the corner for me.

We gotta do this thing!

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XTMONT 6/10/2010 11:33AM

    Yeah! Do it! But hold onto that feeling too. You're a fantastic writer. Thanks for sharing.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 6/10/2010 11:28AM

    Satisfied in what you've accomplished, nothing wrong with that. Get after it brother!

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TAMMIE1006 6/10/2010 11:17AM

    you SHOULD be content & happy with your amazing success, but don't let that keep you from going even further. enjoy while you need to, but you KNOW that niggling little thought will be coming and saying "what if i just do a little more?", and THAT'S gonna be what keeps you from being too content for long. that, and your precious little girl and her mommy!!
best of luck!!
~tammie

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CHERI_F 6/10/2010 11:15AM

    Thanks for sharing your posts. I love the no nonsense voice you use in your writing. I can feel your words just as if you were sitting down talking to me.

Thanks for continuing to help keep me motivated - for myself and for my family.

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ELIZABETH525 6/10/2010 11:04AM

    It is def. a scary feeling, to know you have a problem that can kill you. I have felt tlike this before and I realized there are so many people in the world that are much worse off, that were born with birth defects or diseases and they make the most of their life...yet here I was, and I realized this problem of mine was not chronic. I was not born this way. I did this to myself and I would get myseelf out of it. Keep up the good work!

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/10/2010 10:59AM

    You have been amazing yourself and others since you started on this journey. Outstanding on what you have accomplished!

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BOOKSCATSTEA 6/10/2010 10:54AM

    You go boy! We're all rooting for you (and proud of how far you've come too)!
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The terrible blogger, the amazing Dad.

Monday, June 07, 2010


Pulling it all together this week I am getting back to business and the weight is coming off once again, Ten days ago I weighed 17 pounds more than I do right now as I type and I am getting close to that low weight again. I will weigh in this Friday "for the record book" and I am hoping that I can get back to that lowest weight of 305 by then though I think its going to be hard and that my friends sucks. I don't make any excuses mostly because I don't have to but more so because it is what it is and excuses is partially what got me to 500 plus pounds in the first place. Lately I have been thinking about mental barriers and the whole struggle with losing weight and why those things are there and get in the way so easily. Cover your eyes and stop reading right now if you are over weight and don't want the truth about why we eat too much, its an addiction and we fall back on it as soon as the $hit hits the fan in life or in many cases as soon as we can blame something on why we're doing it.

I hate that food has such a hold on me but it does there is no two ways about it, I am indeed ultimately stronger than the food because I am not going to stop until I reach my health goals but that's not to say that I won't slip now and again. I could say that its there to comfort this that and the other but the fact is that I just like the way it tastes plain and simply. I have never done drugs in my entire life and I mean nothing, nada, not a single thing and I don't have the desire to start any time soon, I grew up in a $hitty city in a not so good area and have seen it all and when I say that I have seen it all I mean it. From anonymous zombies strung out on the side of the road sitting on busted milk crates with fragile bodies cooking death in a bottle cap or aluminum can to idiot friends doing everything from weed to pills to coke to to to....and I have never EVER tried or wanted to try any of that trash yet drop a triple bacon bacon cheeseburger with fried onions and a side of fries in front of me and bamn! I'm in for two.



In the last two plus years I have completely changed the way that I see and treat food, I have lost more than what most people would call a significant amount of weight and have kept it off in that same time which has given me a new outlook on how things should be. Its funny because I wasn't always what I would call huge, yes I was the "fat kid" which was more like the chubby kid looking back at some old photos but once you get that label attached it sticks and at some point we embrace it then before you know it you are starting a blog because you weigh more than 500 pounds and have no idea what else to do. My weight gain was a compound issue because of a back injury that I got in about 2000, when you love Bacon pizza the way that I do and then you add a back injury that's as depressing as it is painful you get a recipe for a fat guy. Imagine not being able to walk without pain and on some days stand without pain and then add in some normal life stresses along with over eating and some video games and viola! before you even realize that it happened Houston, we have a problem here.

I am the same person that I was then, I am the same guy that loves the tiny little greasy Greek style pizza from the best little pizza house in the state and I am the same fella that blew his back out 10 years ago. My drive is different, my focus is different, my back does not smart as much as it use to though I still have pain now and again my relationship with food has completely changed and I actually crave exercise instead of that big D chili cheese burger (points for anyone whose had one or knows what it is without google). I am just a guy getting healthy and experiencing all of the bumps in the road that come with that and with all of my success thus far I still struggle at times because no matter how much I success I have had I am not perfect and am only human, at least to most people.

My daughter was talking to Wify last night and she was singing Owl Johnson "I love to singa" which is something that I randomly blurt out now and again while dancing across the floor and wify said "You're just like your dad" and the reply from my daughter was "Dats because I wanna be just like my Daddy" and I don't think I needed to hear anything else to realize that I am not doing this just for me.

Onward and upward we go...

As Ever
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RAINBOWANGEL99 6/9/2010 10:51AM

    Great Blog! I admire your determination and agree your daughter gave you a great incentive to keep going.

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DAVEW175 6/9/2010 7:58AM

    It's great to see that you're back.... although the references to pizza,cheese burgers and fried onions definitely tempted me... I could almost smell them.

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SWEETZMIX 6/8/2010 7:24PM

    Onward on indeed!

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 6/8/2010 12:19PM

    Food is probably the worst addiction to have since we need food to survive.... my brother once told me (of course, Mr. I was born with the skinny genes of the family), I eat to live, not live to eat.... yeah, I've been trying to do that for decades now... still working on it.

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CATLADY52 6/8/2010 12:02PM

    As ever you leave an indelible message for those who like to read them. Don't ever give up. You lay things out, on the line, then trample them into little bits. It is quite refreshing to hear someone say "I dd it, now watch out, cause I'm gonna undo it". Love ya like a Brother!

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FRSTNOEL 6/8/2010 11:52AM

    Honesty & amazing clarity-thank you :)

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TINYC887 6/8/2010 12:11AM

    out of the mouths of babes, what better reason is there to get healthy

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WALKINGDAVE 6/7/2010 6:45PM

    glad to see you back too, I enjoy your blogs, they are always very positive and give me the incentive to get my butt in gear. Thanks emoticon emoticon

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DIFROMWYOMING 6/7/2010 5:39PM

    That is wonderful and I'm happy to hear you're back among us and we can maybe look forward to more regular updates from you! emoticon

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SHANTRA 6/7/2010 5:18PM

    The thing that is so great here is that you are being totally honest with yourself. Our relationship with food is not a great one or we wouldn't be in the mess we are. What I think is great is recognizing it and then practising damage limitation. That and a total lack of guilt over it is really helping me.

As for the back oh I can SO relate. I don't think I have had a single day without pain in 24 years since the fateful morning I fractured my spine in 4 places. And the increase in pain doing this exercise program at this stage in my life can really scare me.

Thing is.. we can suck it up and go on or we can be 500lbs and 300lbs respectively.. I know which you would choose BOTZZZ.

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ACLUBB5 6/7/2010 3:04PM

    Pain is weakness leaving the body

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AXISLADY 6/7/2010 2:39PM

    I thought about parts of this over the weekend. Grandson got married and the rehearsal I did so well; come the wedding day and it was 4 hours between the wedding and the dinner. I said, "let's go get something to eat or I will nosh on everything." Well, course, I didn't push, so there we sat at the reception hall snacking. You got it; beer, chips, dip, cookies (yuck), crackers and cheese. Then came dinner; a wonderful dinner with chicken, slaw (home made), vegetable, etc. I actually hated myself in that moment. Why didn't I push for the healthier choice; something to tide us over; something that would not have packed on the calories and fat? We are so damn addicted (our word here on Spark) to what is not healthy for us. Thank you for writing.

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LUCKY8GAL 6/7/2010 2:35PM

    Awesome! Your kids will get alot out of your journey and not just how to lose weight.

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MAMAANGE 6/7/2010 2:32PM

    Thanks so much. I really appreciate what you wrote.

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VEEJAY3 6/7/2010 12:49PM

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 6/7/2010 12:41PM

    When my youngest yelled "Mommy" in a proud, not needy, sort of way when I ran past her during my 10K and I saw my other two watching me run I knew I had my motivation to keep me going for awhile. My kids are my biggest reason for this. Sure I could be the fat mom my entire life, but I want to be the fun mom for all of thier life, and the fun grandma (many years from now). Another great blog

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PSMITH3841 6/7/2010 12:32PM

    Out of the mouths of babes!!!!!! Way to go Dad.... emoticon

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PRINCESSNURSE 6/7/2010 12:27PM

    great blog. I have never done any illegal drug either--nothing. Yet put a gallon of ice cream in front of me and I will gladly eat it all and still want more. More socially acceptable than drugs but really the addiction is the same. I wish I could get to a place where I don't have to track my calories and don't have to think about my food constantly, but the sad truth is I will need to do this for the rest of my life to achieve my health goals. Do I wish it were different? Yes. Does wishing make it different? No. We will both get there my friend--I have great faith in our abilities.

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NWFL59 6/7/2010 11:42AM

    That's great!

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/7/2010 11:37AM

    You are a great role model for your daughter. I am sure she always notices what you are doing to improve your life and theirs

Great blog as usual!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 6/7/2010 11:27AM

    I get that occasionally from my youngest as well. It makes my heart so big that I can hardly contain it.

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TRIGRAMPS 6/7/2010 11:25AM

    Got to love daughters like that! You are so fantastic to have lost all of that weight in spite of the pain. Getting over a food addiction is tough, but doing it while in pain is miraculous. I've been reflecting a lot about how pain affects our eating. I'd like to see another "terrible" blog from you about that. Blessings! --Sam

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DEREKCSIMMONS 6/7/2010 11:14AM

    From the mouth of babes come the most profound truths! Good for you and good luck on Friday!

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JBMT08 6/7/2010 11:06AM

    OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is SOOO touching! As always, thank you for posting TRUTH!

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BANDGB 6/7/2010 10:58AM

  Cripes, now I have tears in my eyes. I think your daughter has a great role model. Keep on keepin on.....

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Well look who just walked through the door..

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

I'm back BUT todays episode of as the fat guy turns will only be brought to you on my blogspot because of a few choice words, we wouldn't want to offend anyone and hurt der widdle eyes with big boy words ;)

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VEMAN1 6/6/2010 10:00PM

    I'm with you man. The week at Disney and all there was to eat was fried foods and ice cream. Holy moly. I returned up almost 5 pounds and really tired. I guess that is why he is named Mickey!
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PS I have been on a real stress riser too. Those kids throwing rocks are pretty darn accurate too!

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 6/5/2010 10:56PM

    Love the watch analogy!! It might be time for me to tie up some kids so I can focus again...hmm. Thanks!

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SUNNY89 6/5/2010 11:09AM

    Good to see a new post. We have all been there. Anyone who is honest on their weight loss journey anyway. Trucking along swell and then life comes in and bites you in the rear. That is where we all get to make the choice on how we will handle it. To be honest, for me the reaction is different with each crisis I encounter. Cope with life however you must to get through it. Only you know what is good for you.

I loved the watch analogy. Very true words. Felt that way many times myself. Sometimes I have been known to pick up all the watch pieces and throw them all at the little kids before I tied their little punk rears to the fence post. Take care and I truly hope this junk that needed cleaning up can be cleared up soon for you.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 6/5/2010 7:52AM

    I'm up too, and hating it.

The night eating Has. Got. To. Stop.
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DDOORN 6/4/2010 11:13PM

    Late to the party, but hey...gotta say the old nasty food-as-comfort thing has been hitting me hard also lately. SUCH a tough thing to shake! Seems like a lot of us big losers are struggling lately...maintaining and nailing those last few pounds is what really challenges us...OOF!

Thx for checkin' in and keep us posted!

Don

btw...my eyes *survived* all those big boy words...lol!

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BIBLIOMANE40 6/4/2010 5:58PM

    Sorry to hear that things are stressful around the house right now. Here's to the best working out for all concerned! And stay tough - we need ya!

Sherry

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AFITJULIE 6/4/2010 1:31PM

    Wow...that was A LOT of Big Boy Words emoticon

Wishing you the best!!

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SWEETZMIX 6/3/2010 7:15PM

    YO!! I hope everything is ok with you and the family. I know when things hit hard, who really cares about tracking. I am guilty of that too, but sometimes we need to stop and take care of home....it just is what it is. If you need a friend, you know where to find me. Take care!!!

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LUCYSRAIN 6/3/2010 11:34AM

    Welcome Back!

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250STRONG 6/3/2010 9:55AM

    I sure love that watch analogy. I can completely relate to the s--- storm that is life. It's called divorce at my house right now. But I am also SO close to being under that 300 mark (8 pounds). Let's go for it!

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ASHARON 6/3/2010 9:31AM

    Welcome back. Hang in there!

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DIFROMWYOMING 6/3/2010 9:16AM

    You'll be back here with your I'm finally under 300 post. Life bites sometimes. I fell all apart in the last month before I left for vacation and was worried I had pushed myself back UP over 300 when I had worked so hard to get under it, but I just missed it by a pound. Sometimes it takes a few punches to get yourself back in fighting shape. You'll get there.

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4MYBOYSANDSELF 6/3/2010 7:52AM

    Just sending hugs...I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. But no worries that you'll get back on track. Hope everything turns around for you soon.

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AKJADE 6/2/2010 10:36PM

    I haven't "met" you prior to this, but after going and reading your blog and seeing also what others have to say, and seeing your incredible weight loss...You truly are an inspiration. As others have said...STUFF happens, but I can tell you have a great outlook and will get thru with flying colors. Kudo's to you!

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RIVERCITYTOM 6/2/2010 9:46PM

    Great Blog Post. Thanks

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VANB01 6/2/2010 8:02PM

    Hey, if we're honest, EVERYONE has these kinds of weeks every once in awhile. i think we need to take a break sometimes and just deal with life as it comes.

hang in there

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KT-NICHOLS-13 6/2/2010 7:43PM

    Although I'm a silent follower of your blogs I too had been wondering where you had gone off too. You said it all in your post and I believe you will find your way.
Lessons are often learned during our darkest hours.

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TELERIE 6/2/2010 6:16PM

    Good to hear from you - keep on keeping on! Hope life gets less stressful. Hang in there and do the best you can!

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JOSOP2009 6/2/2010 5:28PM

    It's nice to see you back! As for the rest of it, life is about making the best choice at the time, not being perfect. Some times you've just gotta say what the (oops. Please refer to the censors regarding the word that should go here).

Keep getting up every time you get knocked down. And please keep letting us go along for the ride.

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ELYMWX 6/2/2010 5:07PM

    Loved the image of tying the kids to the fencepost! Welcome back.

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/2/2010 4:44PM

    I was worried when you didn't blog. Life does have a way of kicking us but this will end and a new beginning will happen.

Keep moving forward and soon it will be behind you

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PUMPKINFACE73 6/2/2010 4:19PM

    Read your blog...when life evens out you will be back at it, I wish you all the best getting the stress under control..Bea can stop by and help out if you need me...I'm proud of you for posting, keep your chin up :)



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CATLADY52 6/2/2010 3:37PM

    I guess we are faced with a choice, either grow up or stay in a cocoon. I'll be seeing your words soon.

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JIMDAB 6/2/2010 2:34PM

    Sounds like you got a handle on it. Good luck, tho I know you're a survivor and would get by even without it.

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PSMITH3841 6/2/2010 2:22PM

    Been missing you Mister, glad you're back...and I'm really glad you tied the little suckers to the fence! No one needs the rocks! Good luck with with getting the watch back together. I'm sure you'll get it working just fine! emoticon

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MAMAANGE 6/2/2010 2:21PM

    Glad you're back. I was worried about you!

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GRANDTO4 6/2/2010 2:07PM

  Glad you're back! Your blogs are always inspiring. I have been teetering on the brink of 300 lbs too, for a few weeks. Recently I was diagnosed with cancer and have to have surgery next week. Life does kick you in the teeth sometimes. When I got the diagnosis, my tracking bit the dust and I have been struggling - but trying not to go crazy. My prognosis is good, and while I am home recovering, I expect to see more from you, back to kicking @$$!!

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CODEMAULER 6/2/2010 1:30PM

    If everything was easy, life would be very different (and probably pretty darn boring). Setbacks are just that and we all get them. I tend to crawl into beer bottles when life rears the ugly side my way, and I know it's not a great way to handle things... but it's me and that is not open for debate.

Hang in there and know that we are who we are and we all deal with "stuff" in our own ways. You'll be back in the saddle, kickin' @$$ and taking names soon enough!

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RSHDSTCKS 6/2/2010 12:45PM

  I always love reading your blog it is so honest. I think what you have accomplished so far is above and beyond wonderful. Life happens and even if you take a day or a week or a month to deal with what is going on that is just how long it takes. Every one has their own 'stuff' to deal with but not everyone gets back on after falling off. You are an inspiration not only for your honesty and weight loss but for not just throwing in the towel completely when life gets to you. I wish you the best of luck on your continued journey.

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BOOKSCATSTEA 6/2/2010 12:41PM

    Welcome back! Life can be crappy sometimes, that's for sure! But You are a survivor, and you're in it for the long haul. Good for you for being honest with yourself and others - that's not always easy or fun.
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CATTI53 6/2/2010 12:34PM

    Glad you're back! Hang in there my friend. I'm quite familiar with the stress factor. For me the only thing in my control right now IS my weight loss effort. Just take a deep breath, reconnect with that inner strength that has brought you so much success already and try to continue moving forward.
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JJPJ4242 6/2/2010 12:23PM

    Thanks for your straight up attitude! Refreshingly BLUNT!

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1_AMAZING_WOMAN 6/2/2010 12:20PM

    I know the 'feed your face' feeling. I have really made a thing of it myself the past week. Same with the explitives. Last Friday when talking to my counselor I swore like a sailor. Just had to get out all that rage and pain. It does help.

Amber

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FOXXYROXXYD 6/2/2010 12:16PM

    Thanks for sharing. Sorry to hear you are going through stressful "stuff" = hope this are looking and feeling better for you soon! Hang in there!

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MAMAEAGLE4 6/2/2010 12:09PM

    I love your honesty. We all know the blah, blah, blah and sometimes we don't really want to hear it. I'm glad you are back. Take care.

Shari
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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 6/2/2010 12:04PM

    Hey, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do ... so be it! Next .... lol!

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JBMT08 6/2/2010 11:42AM

    I am so glad that you posted this. We are NOT robots, and the sooner we realize that, the easier it will be for us to accept the changes we will make, and the falls we will endure.

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MCOGHLAN 6/2/2010 11:33AM

    Thanks for the blog, it was honest and refreshing. We're not weight loss robots and life happens. I know it most certainly happens to me too. Hope things get better,

As Ever, a fan.

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BETHANYBOO 6/2/2010 11:30AM

    LOL how ridiculous that you can't express yourself in your blogs here.

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CINCYDORA 6/2/2010 11:25AM

    Some times you just need a good expletive to work the bugs out of your system. I think it's great that stress has only thrown you off for a week. For me, it's often an excuse to fall right off the wagon and get run over, then hide and lick my wounds for a few more weeks. Or months.

I hope your stressor has passed and you are able to get back to your daily task of living a healthy, active life.

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AMBERROGUE 6/2/2010 11:14AM

    Ya know, that's just what I needed to hear today. emoticon

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CRIS76 6/2/2010 11:13AM

    I am effin' offended. *cackles*

Seriously though - I can appreciate stepping back and taking care of business. Glad to see a post - hope things calm down for you soon.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 6/2/2010 11:04AM

    I'm a big boy so no bother there. I loved the watch analogy. Priorities and realities are often at odds. Back on track and away we go.

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VEEJAY3 6/2/2010 10:58AM

    OOOOOPS! I posted a taunting "Let me call the wah-mbulance" on your status feed, and now I feel all bad and unfeeling and callous and rude.

Seriously sorry that life has whacked you upside the head. It happens. You get knocked over by a wave now and then.

Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming!

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GIG2828 6/2/2010 10:55AM

    Great blog! Sometimes those words are appropriate and are the only ones that accurately describe your feelings. Glad to see you back!

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FROGGERHKC 6/2/2010 10:42AM

    Lol! You are too funny! I will be sure to check it out at your blogspot!

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THESHRINKINLADY 6/2/2010 10:23AM

   
Ha! I find it refreshing that you use "big boy words". Sometimes it takes getting THAT real to wake yourself (and others) up.

Thanks for sharing!

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A new low...its weigh in day!

Friday, May 21, 2010


First weigh in with the new scale is here and I can't say that I am unhappy with the results but it could have been a better week because I did everything right...besides a few nights of less than optimal rest. Getting right to it 305.2 was what the display said and it had that same number all three times that I stepped onto the scale so into the books it goes and a one pound loss for the week. I am now 229 pounds lighter than when I started this whole weight loss gig which translates into 42.88% of my total body weight in losses and every week that I do this I get closer to a crossing point where I will weigh less than what I have lost. When I set out on this whole process I chose 275 pounds as my "I think I will look good at that weight" weight, and the closer that I get the more I think I want to stop closer to 250 pounds but I am happy at 305 so that will be found out as I get closer because at some point I am going to focus on strength training with cardio as secondary, which just means that it will be more balanced because right now I focus on cardio much more than weight training.


This Scorpion scooter weighs in at 229 pounds and is what I have lost to date.


This Scott Mk1 silk 700S came in at 305 pounds and is what I currently weigh.

If I were to get down to 250 pounds I would feel like I should just keep going and get to 234 so that I could say that I lost 300 pounds, the fact that I can realistically lose 300 pounds and still weigh 234 pounds is fuvking amazing and there is no other way to say it. I was at a point in my life where I weighed more than a quarter ton, say that out loud and you begin to see how crazy that is and now I am a mere 30 pounds from hitting 275 in under two and a half years. Ultimately I have no clue where I will end up with my weight, I am six foot five feet tall and honestly feel that I would look too small at 234 pounds but I don't know where that image comes from as I was probably 11 or 12 the last time I was remotely close to that weight. Its just a matter of time before I get where I want to with my weight, I would say that I am already there with my health because the limits of what I can do these days far exceeds anything that I can remember.

A few days ago My wife and I were featured in a yahoo health article which was a copy of the Woman's day article that we were in but it spawned a lot of email to my inbox and I first want to say Thank you all for all of the kind words! I enjoy getting personal emails like that and I literally had a full inbox that day and am still getting responses. The same question was repeated in a lot of those emails that I got and that question was "Do you have any tips for a beginner that is just starting off with weight loss?" and I guess the only thing I can say is take it a day at a time and stick with it no matter how hard it feels because carrying extra weight around is much harder than skipping a cookie or a soda. I feel that if people could have just a glimpse of how life is post weight loss vs the struggles that take place when we weigh 50, 100, 200 or more pounds than we should that many more would just do it because the contrast in my life from then to now is indescribable.

When I began down this road essentially to life it looked like an impossible task to me staring down from the bad side of 534 pounds, I thought about how many pounds that was and all of the work that it would take to do it and on some days it felt like I may as well try to fly to the moon hanging off of the feet of a sparrow but I kept going. The alternative to the hard road is an even harder road of missing out on everything that life has to offer because of the leash that holds us to the couch or moving in short spurts because anything more than 10 minutes gets the hand grenade in our chest bumping and spurting its way towards boom! I can't really say what my "tip" for a beginner to the weight loss game would be because I feel that it will be different for every single person and their own personal struggle and what worked for me may not work for everyone. The thought of not being there for my daughter was a strong force in me getting my $hit together among other things but I think in a more general kind of way that we all know what to do, we all know how to do it and we all know that basically moving more while eating less is what must be done its the how to deal with that mental block that is really the hard part, get over the mental part and the physical just follows along.

Another successful week on the record books and another pound closer to my goal weight I am happy with the loss this week because a loss is a loss is a loss which is not something that I agreed with early on in my trip to the half. That will conclude this message from the emergency weight loss broadcast system, you may now go back to whatever it is that you were doing before clicking the link that brought you to my little nook on the internet.

That's all I got for today.

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WALKWITME 5/30/2010 2:21PM

    Do You!

Congrats! on your weightloss and your article.

I'm sure the Mrs. is Proud of You !

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STRAPPED_182 5/29/2010 2:07PM

    I read the Yahoo! article. I was like OMG! thats BOTZZZ! I texted my wife and mother, both SP members. I hope they read the article. Fist bump to getting a little recognition for a LOT of work done!

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VEMAN1 5/27/2010 8:50PM

    T minus 5. You are almost there! This celebration is going to be a great one.

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BIBLIOMANE40 5/27/2010 5:05PM

    I love when you show pictures of things that show how much weight you've lost! That's very motivating!

Sherry

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TEENSYTOES 5/27/2010 1:02PM

    Thanks for keeping us going!!! You rock!
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ANISMENDOZA81 5/25/2010 5:52PM

    emoticon Loved the advice "take it a day at a time and stick with it no matter how hard it feels because carrying extra weight around is much harder than skipping a cookie or a soda". Through this short time in trying to change my habits I have been hit hard with the mentality of giving up but the inspiration that you and other sparkers give is so worth sticking to it. Keep it up emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 5/24/2010 6:38PM

    Glad to "hear" you are still rocking on, as I missed a few blogs.

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PUMPKINFACE73 5/24/2010 4:56PM

    you are doing great!!

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AUNTRANDOM 5/24/2010 3:05PM

    Awesome as always - thanks!

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MBVMFLUTIST 5/23/2010 6:40PM

    Tony, my husband is 6'3" and when I met him he was 170. Too thin! I don't think 234 is too thin, even if you have a couple inches on him...plus the 300 lb. loss would be a really incredible feat. Rock on, you're doing it! :D

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LORISEVERANCE 5/23/2010 2:44PM

    Right on. You are a beast. Keep up the good work. I know you will! emoticon

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MOM2BSA 5/22/2010 6:47PM

    Great job! Your blog postings are so motivational! Keep up the wonderful work.

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BIGGIRL2082010 5/22/2010 7:08AM

    Woohoo! Just 5 pounds to go to get to 300 ... WHEEE!

You're SO doing this whole thing - and I like the more-strength idea, too. Weights really will sculpt that body you've worked so hard on!

Cheers,
Maya

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ANDASI 5/22/2010 2:17AM

    Do you have a link to the article ? It would be nice to read it.

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RIVERCITYTOM 5/21/2010 7:51PM

    Way to go..your blog is truly a great read. It is encouraging and gives insight. Good luck to the next weigh in.

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Keep up the good work! You're doing great!

- Karen

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HAPPYSOUL91 5/21/2010 3:40PM

    You are an amazing person with an amazing story, so glad I have taken part in reading what you have done.

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DEREKCSIMMONS 5/21/2010 2:09PM

    BZ Mr. Botzzz!

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LISALIVING1980 5/21/2010 1:56PM

    atleast your scale moved!! mine didn't this week :( but i'm hopin to get a nice surprise next week!! One day at a time.....


Your doing great!

Lisa

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WAUSUP 5/21/2010 1:33PM

    Wow! Keep up the work! It isn't a race, it is a journey, one step at a time. You inspire the rest of us!

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TAMMIE1006 5/21/2010 1:28PM

    one pound at a time if you have to, but you're still getting there!! keep up the great work!!

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FROGGERHKC 5/21/2010 1:14PM

    Awesome! Keep it up!

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STEELERCRAZY 5/21/2010 12:56PM

    Absolutely loved the visuals...keep on keeping on!

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ELYMWX 5/21/2010 12:52PM

    Congratulations all on your successes!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 5/21/2010 12:25PM

    Congrats on another loss my friend.

One of these days, you are going to have to go to a motorcycle dealership and see if you can pick up one of those scooters and see if you could walk more than a parking space with it.

That might be a possible for you first video blog . . . .

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MYLIDDLEDALLAS 5/21/2010 12:22PM

    Whoo-hooo!! Congrats. I love reading your blogs! Each one is filled with a lot of insight and first hand experience!! Great job on the 1 pound! I think next week is going to be fantastic for you as well!

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CRIS76 5/21/2010 12:07PM

    Aside from finding that internal motivation and understanding your journey will be different, a beginner to losing weight .. I think you hit the nail on the head, the commonality is that you will feel so much better the more weight you take off.

THAT is the motivation and if they could experience 1 minute of how good they'd feel, I think every single person who is obese would jump up and start moving. It feels great. The funny thing is - you don't even have to be at your goal to feel great. I feel fantastic with another 70 still staring down the barrel at me. And I'm going to blow it away because I feel fantastic - I cannot wait to look like how I feel.

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MAMAANGE 5/21/2010 12:03PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are wonderful. You wrote something that I have been wanting to blog about, to the effect that if people could just get an idea of what their life will be like after they lose the weight, there's no comparison! I've tried to answer the question, "What did you do?" in my blogs. And you answered that, also, "Just keep doing. One day at a time." Thanks!

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VEMAN1 5/21/2010 11:27AM

    Great news! You are correct. Negative patterns facilitate negative patterns. IT the Monty Python (Eric Idle) song...

"...and always look on the bright side of life. Always look at the light side of your life"

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JBMT08 5/21/2010 11:08AM

    You are DOWN!!!! CASE CLOSED. BOTTOM LINE. no need to beat yourself up b/c you didt get to a perceived weight lost or an ultimate low. You did what you needed to do this week, and so what the scale didnt hit the number that you wanted? You have been changing your life one day at a time for about 2 years? THOSE lessons are the ones that will stay with you forever! Now, I know that you dont need this pep talk....maybe this is coming out because I need it more than you so I can sashay down the weight train once I give birth to my little girl. In any case, You are the reason why I continue to make better choices every day. Some days I slide, but then I think about what you have done, day in and day out for 2+ years....I mean, 229 pounds?! WOW. Thank you for being such an inspiration and letting all of us know that you do not need to go to the doctor to get a "quick fix"!

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AXISLADY 5/21/2010 10:44AM

    I had a loss this week. Unfortunately it was from a gain the last two weeks, but I still feel good that after Day 1, 4 days ago now, I'm paying attention. Congrats!

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MSHOPPER63 5/21/2010 10:26AM

    You are such an excellent writter, I am so thankful you are sharing your journey with us. Everytime I read your blogs it reminds me I can do it.

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PSMITH3841 5/21/2010 10:25AM

    Boy, you got that right...take whatever loss we get....I smile with every little point something I see on the scale...a loss is a loss not matter how small...Great job this week! emoticon

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X_NITSIRK 5/21/2010 10:16AM

    Way to go! Any loss is reason to celebrate. You are absolutely correct that a glimpse of what life can be like as the weight comes off would be a great thing for someone just starting out. I'm 60 pounds down from my heaviest and I have a long long journey in front of me - BUT - things are so much better already! I think it's a combination of losing the weight, eating healthier, and moving more - all three combine to give you a taste of what you are moving towards. A loss on the scale is a great thing but the increased energy, and slowly being able to do more are absolutely wonderful things! One you get a taste of that you never want to go back - EVER.

You are an inspiration! Keep sparking along!

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SHANTRA 5/21/2010 9:58AM

    You made me feel better about my 0.8 loss this week. The going has been painfully slow... still waiting to hit the sweet spot. The BOTZZZ Brew continues to carry me through the day.. YUM. Thanks!

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MCOGHLAN 5/21/2010 9:55AM

    Way to go! As always a motivational blog from you that keeps me heading in the right direction. Thanks

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CHERI_F 5/21/2010 9:51AM

    Thanks for the motivation. You help me to realize that regular people can make changes that last. And that's my goal. I'm not looking for just weight loss, I want to be healthy and happy for the rest of my life. I've got a 6 year old to try to keep up with and I want to be a part of his life for as long as I can.

So thanks again for the little boost in my day.

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LAURIE5658 5/21/2010 9:49AM

    Botzzz, you are Sparktasticaly awesome!!! The incredibly shrinking man!!!! Congratulations!

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BOTZZZ 5/21/2010 9:40AM

    Aclubb, at least? there is nothing negative about a loss ;) a loss is a loss is a lo....oh wait I said that already :P

negativity breeds more of the same and thats not me any more.

As Ever
Me

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ACLUBB5 5/21/2010 9:37AM

    at least you found a positive spin

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ACLUBB5 5/21/2010 9:37AM

    at least you found a positive spin

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