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Maxwell Concert in my Mouth

Saturday, October 24, 2009

No fries, no burgers, no fish fillets . . . everything that I have put in my mouth for the last four days required me to either take out a pot, pan, or my keys to drive to a restaurant. Even then, I actually had to walk inside of the establishment to place an order.

Eating better has caused me to feel better in just four days. Also, I'm realizing that I really like food. You might assume that someone who needs to lose half of her body weight would already know that, but I didn't. I knew that I liked eating in large amounts, but I didn't know that I liked eating good quality, good for me fare.

Really, the last few days have brought me Ratatouille fireworks experiences. Remember that scene in The Matrix where the woman eats that err-- breathtaking slice of pie? These few days have brought me meals nearly as good. Tasting the fresh foods and better ingredients was like a Maxwell concert in my mouth.

If you don't know, Maxwell sings "Pretty Wings"-- a recent Billboard favorite. His concerts are like getting tied down and then being kissed in all of the right places: You're not going anywhere soon, and you don't want to either.

Maybe food shouldn't be so delightful to me, but good food is. My eyes start aiming to they sky, my shoulders lift, and I even start to hum.

What's so wrong about finding joy in a gelatin or pleasure in a parfait (so long as it's healthy)? Can that be so bad?

Here's to finding out.

-- Eva

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BLAQUELORELEI 10/25/2009 12:02AM

  You have discovered something wonderful. Most people fail at eating healthy because they try to eat foods that they hate! For most healthy equals tasteless. The fact that you find joy in healthy foods is beautiful. Keep enjoying your quest towards a healthier you.

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 10/24/2009 11:29PM

    Food is meant to be enjoyed, and I am glad that you are finding pleasure in eating healthy foods. Keep up the good work! When I gave up sugar, it was amazing how sweet an apple or banana tasted. It can be like that for you, too. I wish you the best on your journey to better health and fitness. Take care and "Make It Happen!"

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Fasting from Fast Food

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


Eating wise, today was a little bit better. Instead of being so hungry that I could eat a horse, I just nibbled on a little donkey instead. And, like an ass, I stubbornly refuse to completely admit guilt in this weight problem I have. Denial is not a river in Africa, it is a tiny creek that I have found my way up only to find that I have lost the paddle.

Who can get me out?

I guess I literally have to pull myself up by the bootstraps and tug, tug, tug until I get this thing down. Losing weight will truly mean taking one tiny baby step for me, one giant leap for my lifetime.

My first baby step is more like a funky chicken step, a funky fried chicken dipped in honey mustard sauce and one step away from making me salivate step. A buy it at KFC, Popeye's, McDonald's, Hungry Howie's, Dick's Wings, step away from the glistening, well-seasoned chicken step. For the next three weeks, I aim to fast from fast food. Hopefully, as I climb out of the valley of the shadow of poor health, I'll start to feel more energetic, more clear, and more full of life.

Here's to learning to eat to live and not the other way around,
Eva B

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STEPH-KNEE 10/20/2009 11:27PM

    I am in your boat. I don't necessarily eat too much, it's more that I eat the wrong things (like fast food). I am only on day 4 LOL, but holding strong. I want to go a good period without it, and then will have it as a "treat" maybe once or twice a month.

Keep up the good work!:)

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DIZBIZBELINDA 10/20/2009 10:54PM

    I too believe you can do it. Three weeks is a tiny parcel of time in the grand scope of things. Hang tough...I believe in you.

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BLAQUELORELEI 10/20/2009 10:27PM

  You know what? I believe you can do it. I have your back if you need support. emoticon

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McDonald's Experiment

Monday, October 19, 2009

OK, OK, I just left McDonalds's, which I normally visit after a long day at work taking care of other people's kids. This night, I visited the clown's stomping grounds to get a late night meal because I knew that I didn't really want to cook anything so near my bedtime.

Granted, I am aware of weight loss experts who advise dieters to stop eating two or more hours before bed. However, I am not aware of an expert who can tell my stomach to stop being hungry within that same time frame. So, I just eat what I want.

I tried to behave by getting a fruit and walnut and a small fry, but when I got home I remembered last night's leftover curry and downed that too. At least it was vegetarian, maybe that will help me cut some calories.

At a quarter till nine, I'm finally full, but I'm still wondering. How can I help myself get over the need to eat so late? My body sleeps better without the late night munch marathons, but I don't know how to get over that gnawing yet.
To make matters worse, I've just watched a YouTube video about the weird science behind McDonald's meals. Apparently, they don't decompose. You can see the lady of the four-year-old burger here:

I'm so not loving it.

Frowny faces,
Eva B

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KIMBEEJ16 10/25/2009 5:35PM

    Hey, if eating right up till bedtime makes you gain weight, then how to you explain me? I eat right before bed all the time. Maybe a smoothie or a bowl of oatmeal or cereal. If I'm hungry, I eat. Just include the late night meal into your daily calories and you'll be fine.

As a self proclaimed food addict, I had to give up McD's and other fast food...something I ate a least once daily. The fat, salt and sugar combos are truly addictive, and our brains process them like drugs. I literally had to detox and after a few weeks it got really easy to resist the cravings. Read more about this in Dr. David Kesslers book "the End of Overeating". Excellent. And as an addict, I simply will not be able to eat these foods ever again. Too bad so sad to me, but them's the facts! Honestly at this point, I've come to enjoy the taste of real food so much I don't even want to poison my body with all that junk again. :)

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BOSSYBELLY 10/19/2009 10:36PM

    Good ideas. Two of you suggested the yogurt and fruit. Have you tried Oikos, the Greek yogurt?

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BLAQUELORELEI 10/19/2009 10:33PM

  Have you ever tried the reverse meal thing? It's where you eat your heavier foods during the day, then at night eat a light breakfast type meal so you're not too full before bed.

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X98COLLEGEGIRL 10/19/2009 9:42PM

    i eat yogurt and a muffin if i am hungry at night instead of a meal. i totally understand the mcd's thing though cause i had a craving for it today and got a mcchicken/mcdouble and a large fry! then, i went to workout!

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ARAMADAN20 10/19/2009 9:18PM

  Maybe you can drink a yogurt drink instead of eating that bad stuff. Yogurt drinks fill me up. Try it.

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In Another Life, I'd be a Poet, and a Good One

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Today I wanted to rejoin my normal habits of eating out of emotion. I am not pleased that someone did not return my phone call. However, instead of eating tomorrow's lunch, I decided to write two less than mediocre poems to cure the intense waves of pissivity that were threatening my shoreline. Here they are:

1. Today we have not talked for more than half an hour
But you could not pry yourself from Peter and Powell
For more than five minutes before I tried to go to church
I was even talking when you hung up to make things worse
You didn't notice that because you clearly could care less
Since you never called back or even sent a text
Although you can't see it wrapped inside this stupid poem
I really am serious when I say you left me lonesome
And if you are tempted to say that this poems sucks doo doo
Then first remember that I think the same about you

2. Falling in is easier
We talk for three hours
You cry to the cuckoo
her neck thins to twine
Ooh, you two, do too
how cute
thatís love

Falling out is colder
it is the cold shock of air
after pruning in water
and the dry grit of sand
on beach swathed toes

Falling out is remembering the life you had before you fell in
and the pain you feel when he remembers too

OK. I realize that both of these poems suck. However, they were beneficial for me to write. Plus, my desire to eat more food has temporarily been quelled. Not to mention, neither of them sucks as much as the catalyst for these poems. He sucks a lot.


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BILLIEC2000 2/12/2009 12:43PM

    I thought they were good. I especially appreciated the creative use of the word, "pissivity" Hope you are feeling better...Glad you resisted the urge to eat.

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Teenage Mutant Muffin Tops

Saturday, February 07, 2009

It's 2009. There is still too much booty in my pants and too much muffin on top. Last winter, I lost a grand 30 or so pounds that made me feel healthier, look better, and shine with accomplishment. Then I gained it back.

Now, I'm down in the sewer of disappointment, and there are no Teenage Turtles with pizzas to save me. I did buy the pizzas, but when nobody came, I ate the Dominoes myself.

That's how I got myself in this mess. . . pizzas, pies, pastries, potato logs, pastas, Popeyes. Those are a few of my favorite things. They taste great going down, but then I have to deal with the aftermath: the heartburn, the reflux, the upset stomach, the pregnant woman belly that keeps me pinned to whatever surface I lie on. (Do you know how hard it is to get up with a jiggling medicine ball consistently strapped to your midsection? If you don't know, never find out. If you do, I feel sorry for you too.)

Here's the point: all of this eating I'm doing is killing me. But I still don't know if I can stop. I'm choosing between quarter pounder combos or another quarter century of living. The choice should be obvious, but it's clouded by my desire to have my cake and it eat two, four, and six times over.

I'm hungry for something. I just hope I find it before I run up a tab I can't pay. My ankles, knees, back, and hips have started to creak already. What's next?

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SPATTERS3 2/7/2009 6:12PM

    cute and clever :-) I guess if weight loss were a matter of mind over matter (ha !) you would have this problem "licked". Alas, I am also waaaay too clever for my own good. Maybe we should dumb it down - make believe all of those not-so-good-for-you foods are actually part of an evil plot foisted on the world by the fat-mongers (Kraft, Dominoes, Little Debbie, et al). We MUST resist !

hehehe good luck little sister


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