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Today's frustration isn't going to become tomorrow's pounds!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

I am a bit angry and frustrated but I am determined not to add this anger and betrayal to my physique! As I have been moving forward in my journey to lifelong fitness, I learned that I used food to deal with the pain and frustration in my life. Right now I am dealing with some pain and frustration, but this time I am actually "dealing with it".

Last month I answered an ad for a position and was hired to work from home to search for and write grants for a local organization. I have worked, attended meetings with the director and his assistant, spoke with both the director and his assistant weekly on my work, etc. I was asked to complete an invoice yesterday to get paid. Today I receive an email that stated that I was never actually hired and that I would not be paid. As you can imagine that came as a shock to me.

I replied to the email with a listing of the work that I had done, outlined my direct work with both the director and his assistant, the fact that I had indeed been hired and even instructed on how to document my time worked, and the fact that I had been deceived. I said what I needed to say regardless of whether or not I will be heard. I used my voice instead of my appetite.

I am not over this--I actually feel like I may cry--that will be better than eating. I was so excited to find this position to earn a little extra money for the holidays and bills. I was also excited to work for the organization.

I ended my email by thanking the director for a valuable, painful lesson and wishing him well. No matter what I am not going to allow his deception to become tomorrow's pounds!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JULIA_211 11/26/2014 5:58AM

    I am so glad that you didn't use this frustration to overeat, I know what that is like, I am an emotional eater. I would though, report these people to the better business bureau. I too need to work from home, but I've been afraid to be deceived also. I wish you the best and a very Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family! emoticon

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TEMIWUMI 11/25/2014 12:02PM

    Wow! What a deception. Am glad you are taking this well and dealing with it the right way, I hope they reconsider and fix the mistake. Stay well! Temi

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Learning and growing!

Friday, November 21, 2014

I have been away from Sparkpeople for a while. During my time away I learned a lot about me and why I am on this journey. The learning process was at times difficult and not at all what I wanted to deal with, but it was necessary. I am not finished learning, but I am embracing the learning process instead of fighting it or fearing it. Choosing to embrace the process has led to growth which has led to wonderful things in my life. I haven't reached my fitness goals, but I am making progress.

As I walked yesterday I began to think about what my life will be like a year from now if I stay focused. I imagined myself either reaching or being close to reaching my fitness goals. Wow!! Although I was thinking about life a year from now, I am excited about my life right now. Today I am wearing a blouse that I haven't worn in quite a while and it is loose!!! I don't need to jump up and down to get into and fasten my pants--I can even breathe while wearing them!! I look forward to work outs instead of dreading them. Eating to live instead of living to eat is becoming a way of life. These things came about as a result of the learning and growing! Although the learning and growing has been difficult, I wouldn't change any of it. I am actually ready for more of it!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JULIA_211 11/22/2014 7:09AM

    You've given me a lot to think about. I like the idea of visualizing your future a year from now. Thank you for sharing what you're learning. emoticon And congratulations on your loose blouse! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEMORPHING 11/21/2014 12:09PM

  Congratulations and keep on taking those steps. You will get there.

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ARNETTELEE 11/21/2014 12:06PM

  Welcome back!

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Determined to get off the merry-go-round!!

Saturday, September 21, 2013

A few weeks ago I saw a post on Sparkpeople about being on a merry-go-round with weight loss. You are motivated to lose--lose some--go back to old habits--gain weight--repeat. I can identity with riding this merry-go-round since I have done it for quite some time. I WANT OFF THIS RIDE NOW AND FOREVER!!

I have so many Sparkfriends who have lost weight, are working hard to reach their goals, and are encouraging me and others to do the same. If they were ever on the merry-go-round, they found a way to get off of it. Now it's my turn to get off and encourage others to do the same. I am tired of losing and gaining back the same pounds, I am tired of trying to find clothes to camouflage my muffin top, I am tired of being tired of being tired of this viscous cycle that is like rocking in a rocking chair--I can do it forever and get nowhere.

I have been my own worst enemy. The problem lies with me--so does the solution. If it is to be it is truly up to me. I am getting off this merry-go-round today by taking the following actions:

1) Committing to reaching my weight loss/health goals daily, hourly, minute by minute if necessary--I have set reminders in my phone to go off to remind me daily of how many days are left in this year for me to work towards my goals. I am joining a Sparkfriend in working hard through the end of the year so that we are on track with our weight loss goals when 2014 begins.

2) Staying within my daily calories!!!!!!!!!!!!! This has been my achilles heel--no more!! I am going to research, plan my meals, and stick to the plan!!!

3) Continuing to exercise regularly--getting a minimum of 1000 minutes of fitness monthly--this has been relatively easy and really blesses me.

4) Drinking water, water, water, and more water. Got to stop drinking my calories!!!

5) Connecting with my Sparkfriends a minimum of once per week--I need the accountability and support

6) Reaching out to help others who are struggling with the merry-go-round too. There is a quote that I love that says--"When you help someone else up the hill, you help yourself up the hill too." author unknown. This is so true!!

7) Repeat, repeat, repeat. Maybe this action plan can be my new merry-go-round. I saw Rick Warren, author of the Purpose Driven Life, on Oprah's Lifeclass, and he said that instead of fighting your temptations replace them. This merry-go-round is much better than the old one. I may need to add some things to the ride, but it has the potential to get me to my weight loss/health goals unlike the old merry-go-round. Sounds like a good replacement to me!!

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LYNETTEMOM 1/3/2014 1:23PM


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CLPURNELL 9/24/2013 4:36AM

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TEMIWUMI 9/21/2013 11:38PM

    Am with you, I need to do the things you mentioned above. This is a lifestyle and to reach the goal, there are certain things we will have to stick to. I am committing myself to stop the merry-go-round also. emoticon

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PGHP31CK 9/21/2013 8:16PM

    You CAN do it, YOU can do it, you can DO it!!! You've got a plan, and you can make it happen! emoticon

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SLENDERELLA61 9/21/2013 2:17PM

    Great blog! Love your insight and determination. You can do it!!!

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JERSEYGIRL24 9/21/2013 11:46AM

    Good for you!!! I hope you can do two things: first of all, achieve your goal and get off the merry go round. Second of all, after you do it, please share your secrets with me!!! In addition to everything else you mentioned, I see myself as the queen of self-sabotage. I am the classic person who rewards a weight loss with an ice cream sundae. Well, maybe not exactly (though at times I have), but when things seem to be going good, I seem to get lax and lose all my progress.

What is key though is not to beat yourself up. Dust yourself off and get back in the game!! emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 9/21/2013 11:36AM

    Good for you !! Just don't comparing yourself to others. We all go at a different pace. And this is a journey ! as we go thru it we learn and grow. !! I know you can do this!!! Hugs!!

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Still learning--still growing!!

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

I can't believe it has been nearly a month since my last blog. So much has happened it seems: my son deployed to Afghanistan, work issues, lost then gained weight, strained my calf muscle running--rested it for two weeks--started running again--re-injured it yesterday, family drama, lost 5 pounds, and the list goes on. I am certain that everyone has a list of their own--those list make up this journey called life.

I have a metal wall hanging that has the quote "Life is a journey not a destination" on it. That is so true!!! My journey has taken me places that I never dreamed of going and would not have visited if I had a choice. But those places, the people, and the lessons learned have shaped me. Maybe that is why I am still working on my weight loss goals. This time with more determination than ever before.

Unfortunately after taking the "What's Your Exercise Personality Quiz" on Sparkpeople today I learned that I have to channel that determination in a better manner. My quiz results said that I am a Hardcore Exerciser--guess that is why I got addicted to running. I do like to push myself physically--unfortunately I think that led to my calf injury a few weeks ago and the re-injury last night.

I have been focused on exercising, but I haven't been focused on my eating and tracking. I know that isn't the formula that is going to help me reach my weight loss goals, but somehow it was the formula that I was working with. Not anymore!!!

I am faithfully tracking my food intake in myfitnesspal on my phone, staying within my daily calories, drinking plenty of water, and planning my meals. Losing 5 pounds in one week is pretty motivating!!!!

I suppose I am truly a work in progress--still learning--still growing--continuing to move forward on my journey.

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MICHELELYNN777 8/8/2013 9:32AM

    emoticon on your 5 lb loss! You are making positive changes and continuing to move forward and that's what matters. Hope your calf heals quickly so you can get back to your running.
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CLPURNELL 8/6/2013 11:01PM

    We are all a constant work in progress and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

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MNABOY 8/6/2013 9:49PM

    Weare all work in progress until we die.

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MIDROAD 8/6/2013 2:32PM

    Stay the course, you are rocking this thing!

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BRADMILL2922 8/6/2013 10:57AM

    Yes! We are a work in progress and we are still learning and growing! I love the quote that "Life is a journey, not a destination" because it is so true. We have our ups and downs along the way like you have recently, but we keep pushing! You keep pushing and I am happy to call you my friend and I am happy to be on this ride with you :)

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KNLILLA 8/6/2013 10:56AM

    Sending prayers your and you son's way!!


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I'm addicted!!!

Monday, July 08, 2013

I never thought I would be saying this, but I'm addicted to running!!! Not in a way that will cause harm to me or anyone else, but in a good way. Let me explain.

I have been running three days a week since I completed the Couch to 5K training plan in June. Last week after reading an article on helpful weight loss tips I decided to begin running 4-5 days per week. I ran Tuesday through Thursday and planned for Saturday's run to be my fourth for the week. Well, when my alarm went off on Saturday it was pouring rain. I have been caught in the rain while working out, but I have never started out in the rain so I decided to wait for the sky to clear. I kept peeking out the window and going outside to check the conditions. When the sky finally cleared I got so excited that you would have thought I was a child on Christmas morning!! I got in my run and didn't even mind getting caught in a downpour as I walked back to my car.

Today my alarm didn't go off at 5:00 am. I had forgotten to reset it after I changed the time to 5:30 am on Saturday. At 5:20 am my eyes flew open and I realized that my alarm hadn't gone off. I got up and got moving so that I could get in my run and get to work on time. I did it and got to work a few minutes early!!

I feel so energized!!! I love this feeling!! I love the blessings that are coming from running. Last week I went to the doctor for refills and was told that it was obvious that I was taking care of myself. Running is helping me take care of me!!! I can't wait to get up and get in tomorrow's run!! I am addicted!!!

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SUNRISE4LV 10/18/2013 8:38PM

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I am looking forward to the day I can go on a daily run...

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WADINGMOOSE 7/23/2013 10:07AM

    Nice. I love my running addiction too!

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SPARKCHANTAL 7/10/2013 7:50PM

    oh don't I know what you're talking about.
it was running way back in my school years, then it was dancing.
now it's sparking.

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CLPURNELL 7/9/2013 4:08PM

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LIZ324_NYC 7/9/2013 9:40AM

    That is so great! I'm happy for you! emoticon

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BRADMILL2922 7/8/2013 6:26PM

    WooHoo! Addicted to running is awesome! That is so much fun to read how it makes you feel. It made me smile! Keep it up!

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SHARON10002 7/8/2013 3:45PM

    Gotta love those endorphins!!! emoticon It's so much easier when we find a form of exercise that doesn't seem tedious, and that we enjoy so we can look forward to doing it tomorrow. emoticon

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CAROLJEAN64 7/8/2013 11:53AM

    I understand what you atre talking about. For me it is yoga. I have been practicing for quite a while, but started a regular practice with a skilled teacher going to 6AM clssses 5 days a week. Now I wake up before the alarm... and I never was a morning person.

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MIDROAD 7/8/2013 8:39AM

    I'm so happy for you! Good job!

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