Tuesday, November 25, 2014
I am a bit angry and frustrated but I am determined not to add this anger and betrayal to my physique! As I have been moving forward in my journey to lifelong fitness, I learned that I used food to deal with the pain and frustration in my life. Right now I am dealing with some pain and frustration, but this time I am actually "dealing with it".
Last month I answered an ad for a position and was hired to work from home to search for and write grants for a local organization. I have worked, attended meetings with the director and his assistant, spoke with both the director and his assistant weekly on my work, etc. I was asked to complete an invoice yesterday to get paid. Today I receive an email that stated that I was never actually hired and that I would not be paid. As you can imagine that came as a shock to me.
I replied to the email with a listing of the work that I had done, outlined my direct work with both the director and his assistant, the fact that I had indeed been hired and even instructed on how to document my time worked, and the fact that I had been deceived. I said what I needed to say regardless of whether or not I will be heard. I used my voice instead of my appetite.
I am not over this--I actually feel like I may cry--that will be better than eating. I was so excited to find this position to earn a little extra money for the holidays and bills. I was also excited to work for the organization.
I ended my email by thanking the director for a valuable, painful lesson and wishing him well. No matter what I am not going to allow his deception to become tomorrow's pounds!!
Saturday, September 21, 2013
A few weeks ago I saw a post on Sparkpeople about being on a merry-go-round with weight loss. You are motivated to lose--lose some--go back to old habits--gain weight--repeat. I can identity with riding this merry-go-round since I have done it for quite some time. I WANT OFF THIS RIDE NOW AND FOREVER!!
I have so many Sparkfriends who have lost weight, are working hard to reach their goals, and are encouraging me and others to do the same. If they were ever on the merry-go-round, they found a way to get off of it. Now it's my turn to get off and encourage others to do the same. I am tired of losing and gaining back the same pounds, I am tired of trying to find clothes to camouflage my muffin top, I am tired of being tired of being tired of this viscous cycle that is like rocking in a rocking chair--I can do it forever and get nowhere.
I have been my own worst enemy. The problem lies with me--so does the solution. If it is to be it is truly up to me. I am getting off this merry-go-round today by taking the following actions:
1) Committing to reaching my weight loss/health goals daily, hourly, minute by minute if necessary--I have set reminders in my phone to go off to remind me daily of how many days are left in this year for me to work towards my goals. I am joining a Sparkfriend in working hard through the end of the year so that we are on track with our weight loss goals when 2014 begins.
2) Staying within my daily calories!!!!!!!!!!!!! This has been my achilles heel--no more!! I am going to research, plan my meals, and stick to the plan!!!
3) Continuing to exercise regularly--getting a minimum of 1000 minutes of fitness monthly--this has been relatively easy and really blesses me.
4) Drinking water, water, water, and more water. Got to stop drinking my calories!!!
5) Connecting with my Sparkfriends a minimum of once per week--I need the accountability and support
6) Reaching out to help others who are struggling with the merry-go-round too. There is a quote that I love that says--"When you help someone else up the hill, you help yourself up the hill too." author unknown. This is so true!!
7) Repeat, repeat, repeat. Maybe this action plan can be my new merry-go-round. I saw Rick Warren, author of the Purpose Driven Life, on Oprah's Lifeclass, and he said that instead of fighting your temptations replace them. This merry-go-round is much better than the old one. I may need to add some things to the ride, but it has the potential to get me to my weight loss/health goals unlike the old merry-go-round. Sounds like a good replacement to me!!
Tuesday, August 06, 2013
I can't believe it has been nearly a month since my last blog. So much has happened it seems: my son deployed to Afghanistan, work issues, lost then gained weight, strained my calf muscle running--rested it for two weeks--started running again--re-injured it yesterday, family drama, lost 5 pounds, and the list goes on. I am certain that everyone has a list of their own--those list make up this journey called life.
I have a metal wall hanging that has the quote "Life is a journey not a destination" on it. That is so true!!! My journey has taken me places that I never dreamed of going and would not have visited if I had a choice. But those places, the people, and the lessons learned have shaped me. Maybe that is why I am still working on my weight loss goals. This time with more determination than ever before.
Unfortunately after taking the "What's Your Exercise Personality Quiz" on Sparkpeople today I learned that I have to channel that determination in a better manner. My quiz results said that I am a Hardcore Exerciser--guess that is why I got addicted to running. I do like to push myself physically--unfortunately I think that led to my calf injury a few weeks ago and the re-injury last night.
I have been focused on exercising, but I haven't been focused on my eating and tracking. I know that isn't the formula that is going to help me reach my weight loss goals, but somehow it was the formula that I was working with. Not anymore!!!
I am faithfully tracking my food intake in myfitnesspal on my phone, staying within my daily calories, drinking plenty of water, and planning my meals. Losing 5 pounds in one week is pretty motivating!!!!
I suppose I am truly a work in progress--still learning--still growing--continuing to move forward on my journey.
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