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When your daddy cries

Monday, January 03, 2011

After visiting my dad this last week, I reached that point in life of where you realize that no matter what the past was, there are some things that can reach to the depths of your heart like no other. For me it was seeing my dad cry several times. This is a man who I can't really remember see cry. When we took him to see his wife in the dementia center and saw them look each other in the eye and just start crying, it broke me. No matter how strong you are, there are times when tears need to come and love at its best needs expressed. She thought he was coming to get her out. He couldnt tell her it wasnt. They have been each others support for so many years. Now that time is ending as we make tough decisons in their care and what is best for each of them in their last years. Time can sting, but it also can be so beautiful. This one moment in time was as painful as it was beautiful. I wonder how much we all forget to just love each other on a daily basis because of all the small stuff we make excuses for. Our weight is one of those. We always have an excuse to just eat. What is our excuse to just love unconditionally? To just embrace a moment for its good? To see the positive in light of a bad situation? If we could just work on our mind sets with that simple love for each other and for ourself, would we have all these excuses or could we just enjoy our beauty, honor our bodies, and honor the time we are given. All these thoughts are ringing in my heart, just because I saw my daddy cry once to many.

  
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CIELO777 3/12/2012 12:07PM

    The mutual love bond that your father and his wife have is enduring. I wondered about their age and that difficult disease which has attacked her. You are honoring your body by being on Sparks People because you have chosen to eat healthy and "embrace a moment for its good."
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JUNEBUG150 6/17/2011 1:44AM

    Wow, as long as we have been communicating on the CL team, I didn't know that about your DM. Or at least I don't remember reading anything about it. Thank you for sharing, will keep them in prayer. Hugs, Melody

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JENNY712 5/18/2011 8:15AM

    HUGS! Thank you for sharing! I am so sorry for your pain and that of your family! Tears are not all bad. They help! May the Lord wrap you all in His love and tender mercy as you face each new day. Love and prayers Jenny emoticon emoticon

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JUSTJO66 1/4/2011 3:03PM

    What a beautiful blog. It almost brings tears to my eyes.
Thank you
Jo

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IAM_HIS2 1/3/2011 11:26PM

   
what a beautiful, honest blog that says so much! Thank you and God bless you as you have to make very hard choices for your parent's care.

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BPULLOS 1/3/2011 11:08PM

    Lots of love sweetie....not many words here but you know where I am if you need me. Prayers are lifted for these needs and the people that are making the decisions....may they make them in DDs best interest. ::hugs::

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DADDYS_GIRL6 1/3/2011 6:30PM

    Hugs to you Sweet Born! What a testimony of their love for one another. So sorry time is hard for them right now! Praise the Lord they have loving children to help them face this time. Hugs to you! May the Lord give you strength to do what you need to do to help your Dad now. Know we are here for you! You do matter at this point too and you have to take care of you as well as Dad. Again, hugs!!

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NATURALSTYLE 1/3/2011 5:51PM

    Thank you for sharing a part of your life with us. Yes it becomes difficult to see the roles in our lives reverse and we become the parent or caretaker and make these decisions.

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Why do doors open and close so fast?

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

There are days where I ask, Why God do you put something or someone in my life and then as fast as they enter or a situation changes its closed. I am wondering this because lately I really feel like people have entered and exited my life so quickly for various reasons and some situations have come and gone the same. While I know some of this is just life, I still wonder, why does God move us in these immense changes sometimes faster than we can keep up with. Hopefully its He trusts me to do what is right or just be a seed of good hope or love to certain people before they move on to something else. I guess that is called good will. Maybe that is what we all need to remember not just at the holidays but throughout the year. While I am thankful I am strong, flexible, and ever changing, I guess some days I also wish that I could just have a regular day without a worry. I haven't had that for so long, I forgot what its like. So I guess this is where I am supposed to be a good steward of good will. I am not sure I volunteered this, I think its just happened. Hopefully I will get the days of restful peace mixed in with it soon. I can say life has sure been a roller coaster and yet, I am still on for the ride. emoticon

  
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JENNY712 5/18/2011 8:18AM

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JIBBIE49 12/10/2010 4:52PM

    emoticonI read Eckhart Tolle's "The Power of NOW" and realize that this is all we have so what happens today is always for a reason. The older I've gotten the more I know that things change and we have to be willing to let go.
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DIDMIS 12/10/2010 4:45PM

    And the older you get the more this happens.

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JUNEBUG150 12/9/2010 11:20PM

    Wow! Those are some heavy duty thoughts and well worth rereading! Beautiful blog, thank you. emoticon

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IAM_HIS2 12/9/2010 8:53AM

    I feel this way too. I wonder if the people come in and out so fast because we need to give them some gift, however, they need to exit because we might lose our dependence on the Lord? All I know is, our Lord knows what we need and He gives us exactly what we need. The roller coaster ride you are going through, is to strengthen you--it will lead you to become more dependent on our Lord as well as give you more inner strength. This is a time of formation for you...a time of growth, a time for getting out, a time of change, and a time to ask for help and have total trust in our Lord. It is a time your heart is being soften and changed.

Thank you for this beautiful blog...it has helped me so very much.

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Refreshing a Church

Saturday, July 17, 2010

It was good to see so many come out today at the church for a work day when it was so beating hot. Yard work was being done and the inside was being cleaned well. Its refreshing a church. I am so proud how through this time of change waiting to get a new pastor that I have seen so many faithful people keep things going and give of their time and talents. Its a reminder that a church isnt the building, its the people who give of themselves over and over. If we would keep that same mentality in the work force, I think people would love their jobs more and trust would be so much easier. So while we refresh our church, we also need to refresh the spirit that goes with carrying out that same mentality wherever we may be working. Give a helping hand, do the dirty work and not complain, volunteer for the not so good parts and do them with some pride. Not easy to do, but once and awhile we need to say, its ok, I too can give something more.
So as I cleaned grime out of the kitchen floor and changed the color of it, I was reminded that we are preparing to greet and hopefully find our new pastor this next year. How much nicer to come with a sense of a refreshing place to be.

What refreshing moments can we add to that now?

  
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NO_DEFEAT_HERE 8/20/2010 12:26PM

  May God bless your church with a pastor soon.

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HISOWN1 7/21/2010 7:42AM

    Remember Here's the church with your fingers

One thing I taught kids

Here's the church
Here's the steeple
You can have a church with a steeple
You can have a church without a steeple
YOU CANNOT HAVE A CHURCH WITHOUT THE PEOPLE!!!


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DADDYS_GIRL6 7/18/2010 3:23PM

    How true your words are! My Dad would often tell me, if you find a perfect church don't join it, because it won't be perfect any longer! :) He wasn't telling me I wasn't perfect, just that there really isn't a perfect church as we are all imperfect humans ... sinners! That's why we need the Lord Jesus' Salvation in the first place and therefore need church to help us grow to be more like Christ!

Thanks, Born for reminding us all again!

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BPULLOS 7/18/2010 2:38PM

    So very true....we were reminded today at our service that when we all start looking for a new church in two weeks that we need to go in with the attitude of what can I do for the church not what can the church do for me...I know I will find it.

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SWIMLOVER 7/18/2010 9:07AM

  I love your blog! You are so right! Church is not a building, it is people coming together showing that they care. Another refreshing moment would be people coming together to mentor children who need it. Well, again, I loved your blog!
GOD BLESS!
Louise

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TRACI175 7/17/2010 3:13PM

    emoticon Always happy to hear about people coming together and making a difference

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The life of a wrinkle

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I read the article today about how people judge themselves against others. Maybe its my old age, but any more I dont care as much about that stuff. I mean welcome to America. We are so obsessed with what everyone else looks like. It isnt until you wake up one day and look in the mirror and realize. Darn it, I have wrinkles. I remember the first time it really hit me. I couldnt possibly be getting old yet. Then I remembered something. When I was young and even into my young adulthood I remember the beautiful visits to see my grandmother. She had these soft wrinkles on her face and when she greeted you with her usual hug and kiss, you felt them. I always just looked at her and thought how beautiful each one was created and that they each told a story of sorts about the passing times in her life. She to me seemed so beautiful in all her wrinkles. Guess what, she never complained about getting old, she never complained about what she did or didnt have, or compare herself to neighbors. She always thought about others and found the best in every situation. Her wrinkles were soft and kind and loving just like her. A wrinkle has life just like everything about us. Now that life may show hardship, it may show kindness, or love, but no matter what it is part of the passage that God gave to us to change us like the seasons of time. We cant fight everything and try to be like everyone else. Time is so much better spent finding ways to enjoy it, embrace good and work to get through the barriers. Each moment is a wrinkle in time and we get to decide what that moment and that wrinkle can do to us. Good or bad, we can choose to look at it as ugly or offensive or holding us back, or we can say its just another part of what I face and embrace the moment to work through whatever the wrinkle may be.
So the wrinkles on my face that are starting now, well they are part of me. And when I think of them, I just remember the many soft wrinkles on my grandmothers loving face. God blessed her to a ripe age of 94. Wow, maybe I'll earn that privilege too. So maybe they aren't so bad after all. Keep smiling. Maybe our wrinkles of time will be good to us.

  
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NO_DEFEAT_HERE 8/20/2010 12:25PM

  Real wisdom in these words!

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BPULLOS 7/11/2010 11:26AM

    Awesome story and very true....thanks for the memories of my grandma and hopefully someday my grandchildren will remember me for soft wrinkles....I sure don't want to have hard ones.

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ANNIELAV 7/11/2010 8:39AM

    Wow, made me think of my Grandma LaVenture. Have not thought of her in a long time. Loved her hugs and stories. Thanks

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MITECU 7/11/2010 7:21AM

    Your blog is inspiring to those of us with wrinkles, gray hairs, age spots, or any other signs of the passage of time. Thanks for posting.

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DIDMIS 7/11/2010 2:30AM

    I loved your blog Born. Now that you have stepped out maybe you will write more.
Irene

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KKLENNERT809 7/10/2010 11:56PM

    I loved your blog! It is rather startling when you notice your first wrinkles. But you are wise in your thoughts and we should all be happy with ourselves because life is too short. Life is good! It is a great gift.

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LINDABENEDICT 7/10/2010 11:34PM

    What a great blog !!!! emoticon

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