Saturday, May 04, 2013
I started out here last month with all the great intentions and motivations and everything else that comes with the idea of starting something new and fresh and positive. It lasted about 4 days. This past weekend I was at a family swim with a couple of friends. One friend mentioned needing to lose weight (for herself). I mentioned that I started a program 4 weeks ago that lasted about 4 days. Instead of laughing (which I anticipated) she said, "That's good! You started, you tried to do something". I had never really thought of it like that. I had been thinking I am not good at eating well for myself.
When I was younger and healthier I would look at larger people and think, why can't they stop eating so much? Now that I'm older and larger I get it. I have a hard time stopping eating so much. I am hungry. Logically, I know I'm not truly hungry. I don't have hunger needs like those who are truly starving in the world, but hungry like food addiction type hunger. The larger you are the more it takes to fill you up. I've never understood skinny women who take two bites of a dish and declare themselves so full. That's not me.
I survived a larger woman's nightmare last weekend and went bathing suit shopping. I did it. I found a suit - well, 2 pieces at 2 different stores. Swimming is something I've tried to avoid the past couple of years. I'm embarrassed to be out on a beach looking the way I do. So I would swim and then pull on a pair of shorts and a tank top over top as soon as I was out of he water. Well, my kids love swimming and it really is a great family activity so I am determined to stick it out and swim with them this summer.
So this is me, 4 weeks later and not a pound lighter, but I'm here.
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Well, day 1 was a day of mixed success and not so much success. I achieved my goal of tracking every bite. That was a wake up call! Wow - no wonder I'm gaining weight.
I also started my bonus goal of getting daily excercise in - I walked 20 minutes on the treadmill (while watching How I Met Your Mother on Netflix - made the time go by really quickly).
Today, I just finished tracking my food, thought I'd be able to have a little snack later, but now realize that I am done for the day. I am 30 calories away from going over, so my snack will be tea. I hopped on here to stay in touch and keep going.
Monday, April 01, 2013
Well now I know where 2 years off plan gets me. It gets me an extra 20 pounds. I now weigh more than I ever did pregnant. Wow! I have no excuses. I have eaten and lazed about for every extra inch.
Being this heavy now, I started to realize that the more you eat, the more you need to eat to feel full. It's a vicious cycle.
I'm starting this week with two simple goals.
The first - replace my diet pop with water. I have read enough to know how detrimental my diet Coke addiction is for my body.
The second - track every bite. I know that will be a challenge for me, but I know how essential it is to a weight loss journey. I need to keep myself accountable.
I've joined two teams which is enough to start building a community here without being overwhelmed and getting in too big to keep up with.
Looking forward to getting real and giving this a go.
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
Yesterday I did the dumbbell workout with 10 pound dumbbells, purely because I couldn't find my 5's and my husband's set is easy to find. I was worried that it would be too much weight for my, but guess what, it wasn't. That has got to be the Mom muscles working. I haven't carried kids around for almost 7 year to be an arm weakling. Wow, I never thought I would be able to do that!
Today I was dreading. I knew an ab workout must be coming and I'm so weak in the abs it isn't funny. I was so pleasantly surprised to find that this was the easiest ab workout I've ever done. A standing ab workout - who would have thought it?
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