Friday, August 02, 2013
Okay, so I've been kind of struggling some lately, and I decided to give myself a shot of motivation. Since my Dad died and all the activity connected with that subsided, I guess I've felt kind of blah and like "is this all there is to my life?"
When I was in California and Dad's caretaker, I had a purpose and felt like I was make a difference in his life - and every day I made him so happy just by being there with him. After he passed I had to get rid of all of his stuff, (and BOY did he have lots of STUFF!), and get his home ready to sell. Then I had to pack up his car with everything I was keeping and drive back to Wisconsin (the longest drive of my life - I'll never do something like that again).
But now that's all in the past, and though I have many good memories to cherish from my time with him, I just don't know where to go from here. My nest is almost empty - except for an almost 15 year old son who really ISN'T into spending time with Mom these days. Plus I'm aging fast and feeling like a failure in several areas of my life.
Anyway, this morning I contacted a couple of Spark friends who I've walked with in the past (okay it's been a couple years, but still). I SparkMailed them, gave them my phone number, and hopefully at least one of them will walk with me this weekend.
Eventually I should probably aim to walk with someone on both days of the weekend every weekend - that would get me off my butt and out of the books I'm always reading! Honestly, reading is a wonderful thing - but sometimes I need to put the book down and actually LIVE a little and connect with friends!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Well the weekend is almost over and I didn't accomplish very much.
I planned to do several things that I didn't do, and I guess that happens more often than it should. For some reason I'm sort of feeling at loose ends a lot of the time. I guess I need to ACT motivated even if I don't feel very motivated.
I've been eating better most of the time at least, and tracking what I eat - even when I don't do well, so I guess that's sort of progress.
I'm sure it would help me if I spent more time on SparkPeople, and less on the online game that I spend too much time playing!
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Last night I went online and finally used a gift card from Barnes & Noble and bought the new Spark book. (A friend gave me the card about 4 years ago, and it's taken me that long to find a book that I really wanted to buy. I just love free libraries because I read way too much to be able to buy my own books!)
Since I've been working hard on tracking my food and being a little more consistent about walking, I decided to treat myself by ordering the book. And extravagant woman that I am, I even spent the extra dollar-something to have it shipped to me a little faster!
Yesterday I also made a (free!) reservation to see Zonya Foco, motivational speaker, author, and creator of the Diet Free program. I've watched her videos and listened to her DVDs, so I know she's an exciting, energetic, motivating speaker. She'll be speaking in Madison on July 17th, and I'm really looking forward to it.
So I've got some good things to look forward to, which should keep me motivated and working hard for awhile!
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
Well it might not sound like a huge accomplishment to anyone else, but today I did a GREAT job with sticking to my food plan at lunch!
As I mentioned yesterday, at lunchtime today a group of us had planned to go out to eat, and I wanted to be sure I didn't regret it later. So last night I found where we were going to go, and I looked up their menu online. I decided exactly what I would eat, beverage and everything.
For once, I was the FIRST one at the table who was ready to order - usually I'm indecisive, and I'm one of the last to make up my mind! I chose something that was pretty healthy, wasn't very expensive, and I chose a sensible portion amount, so I wasn't stuffed and sleepy after we headed back to the office.
I'm really pleased with myself - I've been tracking my food for 3 days now, and it's going pretty well. I'm not expecting to lose weight - I just don't want to gain any weight. I don't even have a scale, but the last couple months I noticed that my clothes were getting pretty tight. So I decided it was time to reign in my eating a bit!
Anyway, I just had to share my successful lunch today, in hopes that it will keep me motivated to stay on the right track - at least most of the time. I know I won't be perfect, but tracking my food will at least help me to KNOW how my eating is going.
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