Thursday, December 27, 2012
I find it interesting that when I was in high school and gaining weight the first time, the image I had of myself was slim even when I wasn't. When I've been heavy for a time (until it seemed normal)and have begun losing weight, I find I've still thought of myself as heavy. This time is no exception. ( I plan on this being the LAST time I have to make this adjustment!) There is a lag in my perception of myself between what I have considered my normal size and what I am now.
I've lost about half the extra weight which has burdened me. (about 15 pounds.) People are noticing enough to comment now. Yet I catch myself thinking I'm still at my heaviest. Certain styles that aren't flattering on my large self are quite acceptable when I'm smaller, but I'm still avoiding them subconsciously. Certain activities which make me feel I stand out in a negative way when I'm "size large me" are merely mischievous/ energetic/ adventurous in "size small me."
I've never really thought about how long it takes for the mind to catch up to the new reality of a smaller, fitter body. I didn't take note before. It must take some time, but how much? I wonder whether this lag bears any part in weight re-gain? I do want to short-circuit that!
Those of you who have maintained for some time, Did you notice this lag? If so, how long before mind and body both believed you were the new size? How long before it was "normal," and you didn't have to struggle to see yourself as you are? Thanks for sharing!
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
These past two days I've been thinking about why I feel "deprived" during Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter and any other extended family eating time of the year - even when I'm not "hungry."
Using Sparkpeople to track my food and exercise, I know what I need to consume to lose the extra weight. I'm not usually hungry. Where do these feelings of deprivation come from?
I'm coming to understand that the difference is the ABUNDANCE of MANY kinds of food. I can't even eat just a taste of all of them without going over my calorie range. They don't show up the rest of the year, so they are special in my mind. There are only a few I don't like.
During a normal day I have just 2-5 components to a meal. On Christmas Eve there were choices to be made from 10 meal components and 12 (!) different desserts (not large amounts of each, but requiring decisions or mindless eating.) We have four households contributing to this meal, and some of the desserts are a sharing of what their friends have also shared with them during the last week.
I'd love to taste things I'm not familiar with to know if I'm interested in getting that recipe. But I don't want to spend my limited calories on something I don't know tastes good. It's a problem.
I really don't know how to make this much easier as long as it's an organized pot-luck that isn't at my home. I can't tell everyone that they can't bring or eat their favorites because it will tempt me. I did reduce the number of dessert items I brought by over half this year. It didn't seem to make a dent in the abundance of that table. I guess I'll just have to repeatedly gear up my motivation to be fit, reserve some extra calories ahead of time, and get back to my regular routine the next meal.
How do YOU handle situations like these?
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Yesterday I had a plan for getting through the family gathering (LOTS of food!) without damaging my Sparkpeople journey. I was not going to bring as many desserts. I was going to eat reasonable portions. There would be a few tastes of high calorie favorites because I had eaten less earlier in the week, so I had a few extra calories I could spend.
Here is what happened:
I brought a batch of cookies and some fudge, as planned. I didn't eat them. (I did bring home more than I had wanted to!)
I had reasonable portions of ham, scalloped potatoes, fruit salad and some carrot sticks with water to drink.
I had 1 medium potato chip with a taste of clam dip (a favorite I don't provide for myself anymore.)
I had a small clump of homemade Caramel Corn.
I had half a cookie my daughter made and was raving about. (I split it with my other daughter.)
I'm pleased with that. It was a large calorie meal, but I didn't go over my calorie range for the day. This morning my scale shows a loss of .2 of a pound.
What I'm not so confident about:
Many of the presents from younger members of the family were homemade cookies or chocolates.
What I plan to do:
The excess cookies I brought home will go into the freezer if I like them.
The chocolate things I don't love will be eaten by my husband or migrated into the compost bin.
The leftover fudge I made, which I do like, will be stored in a container in the fridge where I won't automatically see it, my husband can eat it, it can be offered to guests, and I can enjoy a piece once in a while when I plan for it.
Whew! I think I passed this test!
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