Saturday, February 20, 2010
4 years ago I damaged my right shoulder. An MRI showed no structural damage, and I was encouraged to gradually strengthen it, but given no instructions as to how to accomplish that. I eventually quilt exercising altogether and gained quite a bit of weight.
Last November, my shoulder having felt fine for a long time, I decided to do something about the state of my health and weight. I found Sparkpeople and gladly dove right in. It was during the January bootcamp that the exercises that worked the shoulder, chest and some core muscles began to "tweak" my right shoulder. When it became more sore, I posted a question on the fitness board asking a question of the "experts." I was encouraged to ask for a referral to physical therapy.
Last week I saw my Doctor, who said we first needed another MRI after all this time. Monday's MRI came back "no structural damage," so I was referred to a physical therapist. I saw her on Thursday and really liked her and the exercises she wanted me to do. I felt GREAT when I left her office, and the day was beautiful here in Oregon, so I weeded my garden for 2.5 hours that afternoon. (hindsight says that was stupid.) I was a bit stiff that evening, but it got worse overnight.
Friday I went to work feeling uncomfortable. I got home and felt progressively worse. To the pain in the back of my shoulder (rotator cuff), had been added pain on top and in front of the shoulder and shooting down to the inside of my elbow. It kept me awake most of the night lying only on my back with a pillow under the forearm. (I do NOT sleep that way!)
Today I talked to another Dr in my Dr's office who told me I now have tendonitis in the shoulder. She says I may not exercise at all until next Thursday at the earliest, when I will see my physical therapist. I'm using ice, advil, and a topical cream called Traumeel. The Dr. said she did exactly the same thing and that gardening is one of the worst things you can do to a rotator cuff injury. She did encourage me by saying that she did rehabilitate her shoulder without surgery, but then she told me it took months. Sigh.
I'll get through this. I'm still serious about getting healthy. I wish I felt better and my garden looked rougher, though!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Yesterday I had calories left to use and a desire for some chocolate, so I decided to eat 4 Hershey's Kisses (22 calories each).
I unwrapped one and was totally focused on the taste and texture. I let it melt rather than chewing it. It was soooo good. Then I had the second one. Also enjoyed very much.
Then an amazing thing happened - I didn't feel like I needed the other two! That's never happened to me before. I put them on the table so I could eat them later if I wanted them, since I had already put their calorie count in my tracker. I NEVER felt the need to eat them.
I put them away when I went to bed with the thought "They'll be there another time if I want them. I don't have to choose now or never."
Ah Ha! I've been eating candy for years as though I was competing with others in the house for my fair share. So what if they eat all the rest? There is a grocery store which stocks them, and I can buy more if necessary. It's rather freeing to only eat what I really WANT and be able to let the rest go to an uncertain future. It's funny to realize my body "talks" to me like this. I don't think I've spent much time listening before. I am now.
Friday, January 01, 2010
I joined SparkPeople in mid-November. Due to tracking my nutrition (especially portions!) and fitness, I've lost 10 pounds as of yesterday. Yay! I want to thank the Spark Team "50+ members with 10-24 pounds to lose" for the December challenge motivation to get through the holiday food season. I think I'd have been inclined to let a few more calories settle in without the constant awareness that I'd be posting the daily differential in the forum there.
As far back as I can remember, hunger has not been why I want to eat. If I'm distracted, I can go for hours past a regular mealtime and not miss it. If I've just finished a meal, I can still want to eat many more things.
It has been very interesting to become aware that my "EAT" prompts are really more "CHEW AND SWALLOW" prompts - NOT particularly when I'm hungry.
This insight has given me new motivation to chew everything I DO eat very thoroughly - to taste and to satisfy the chewing and swallowing desire. (gum just doesn't do it for me. There's no substance to the swallowing!)
I've lost and gained the same 20-30 pounds over and over since high school. I seriously want this to be the last time having to lose fat and gain muscle! I want to change the way I think, not just my actions for a period of time, so that I won't go back to the same eating patterns that got me in this shape in the first, second, third, etc.... place.
I think the challenge for me will be in the transition from losing to maintaining the weight and fitness level I want. I have some time to get ready for that. I'm so glad I found Spark People! Thanks, ALLFORONE2009, for giving me the link!!!
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