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Goal Achieved - and Reconsidered

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Last week the scales didn't budge in spite of the fact that I ate and exercised consistently. This week the scale has been all over the place, but I was still consistent and much less emotionally bothered by the variation. Today I am down 2 pounds. That's one pound below my initial goal emoticon

The last time I weighed this amount, I was wearing smaller clothes. I'd been working out with a personal trainer who had me lifting heavier weights and SEVERELY restricting my diet. I'm sure I had much more muscle.

As I look at myself now, I like the change, but don't think I'm finished with the work. So I've decided to shoot for 6 more pounds down from here (23 total). Many of you were such an encouragement to me when the scale didn't move appropriately the first time. You really helped me climb out of the self pity pit. Thanks gang! emoticon

I just realized - tomorrow will be my . emoticon I'm so glad I found Sparkpeople!

  
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WATERMELLEN 2/14/2010 7:36PM

    Congrats to you on the weight loss! You have done great!! Maybe you want to think about alittle strength training again?? If your previous trainer was a little too enthusiastic, it doesn't have to be that way . . . but does help slide into those smaller sizes since muscle packs more tightly than the other stuff. Love the feeling of muscles!

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Disappointed

Saturday, February 06, 2010

I had expected to post a very different blog entry today. One pound down from last week would have reached my first goal. This is the first week since the middle of November, when I joined Sparkpeople, that I have not lost anything. It's worse that I saw the goal weight on my scale on Tuesday.

I was feeling a bit weak and hungry mid-week, (unusual for me) so I changed the settings on my fitness tracker to reflect what I actually am doing for exercise rather than just the easier "goal" I had set. It didn't kick my calories up that much, about 50 calories, and I'm usually near the bottom of that range anyway. Some of the extra things I ate were salty. I wonder if I'm retaining water.

Sigh. It seems that I am motivated by seeing results. Not seeing results leaves me sad and wanting to sit in a corner and read. I still did my workout today, but it wasn't really joyful and there wasn't the usualy bounce in my step. I've changed my fitness tracker settings back to the easier "goal" I had before. Maybe I'm one of those people who do really well in a famine but find it hard to lose weight on "normal people" calories.

Thanks for letting me vent. I'll get over it and keep on with the program. Right now I want a hug from my Mom. (good thing I'll be seeing her tomorrow!)

  
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GILDEDCROW 2/11/2010 7:08AM

    I weigh myself everyday. It is a compulsion since I USED to be anorexic. I know that weight varies throughout the day. I never gain or lose at a steady pace. Usually it will show up as 1-3 pounds at a time on the way down, but slowly. I can eat all through the holidays, and no change on the scale until January 3rd, then ZAP, 5 extra pounds. You will continue down. Your body is just adjusting. You will do it! emoticon

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HAPPYCRICKET 2/6/2010 9:21PM

    Water retention is a likely culprit, since we females have all those tricky hormones...I read that you can "gain" several pounds overnight, just from hormones! Sometimes I think to myself "It is impossible for this to be real weight, because a pound is 3500 calories and I KNOW I didn't consume 3500 extra calories." There are so many ways to mesure success other than a number on your scale--you are exercising, eating mindfully, and hanging in there--you are a success no matter what the scale says! emoticon
Here is a hug to tide you over til you see your mom!
Christine

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WATERMELLEN 2/6/2010 4:44PM

    Betcha anything it's water retention with salt and you'll see the number you want very very soon.

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LIZBUCK1 2/6/2010 3:40PM

    Don't let this sabotage all your good work. I know it is sad when you have actually seen that loss previously but on "weigh-in day" it mysteriously creeps back up! Hopefully it'll show up by a good loss next week and you'll be at your first goal.
Don't give up
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LOVEAGOODBOOK 2/6/2010 3:05PM

    Despite not seeing the results this week you still have a great attitude. Speed bumps just slow you down, not stop you. Have a great new week. emoticon

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A triumph and an Ah Ha moment

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Yesterday I had calories left to use and a desire for some chocolate, so I decided to eat 4 Hershey's Kisses (22 calories each).

I unwrapped one and was totally focused on the taste and texture. I let it melt rather than chewing it. It was soooo good. Then I had the second one. Also enjoyed very much.

Then an amazing thing happened - I didn't feel like I needed the other two! That's never happened to me before. I put them on the table so I could eat them later if I wanted them, since I had already put their calorie count in my tracker. I NEVER felt the need to eat them.

I put them away when I went to bed with the thought "They'll be there another time if I want them. I don't have to choose now or never."

Ah Ha! I've been eating candy for years as though I was competing with others in the house for my fair share. So what if they eat all the rest? There is a grocery store which stocks them, and I can buy more if necessary. It's rather freeing to only eat what I really WANT and be able to let the rest go to an uncertain future. It's funny to realize my body "talks" to me like this. I don't think I've spent much time listening before. I am now.

  


Insight into my eating

Friday, January 01, 2010

I joined SparkPeople in mid-November. Due to tracking my nutrition (especially portions!) and fitness, I've lost 10 pounds as of yesterday. Yay! I want to thank the Spark Team "50+ members with 10-24 pounds to lose" for the December challenge motivation to get through the holiday food season. I think I'd have been inclined to let a few more calories settle in without the constant awareness that I'd be posting the daily differential in the forum there.

As far back as I can remember, hunger has not been why I want to eat. If I'm distracted, I can go for hours past a regular mealtime and not miss it. If I've just finished a meal, I can still want to eat many more things.

It has been very interesting to become aware that my "EAT" prompts are really more "CHEW AND SWALLOW" prompts - NOT particularly when I'm hungry.
This insight has given me new motivation to chew everything I DO eat very thoroughly - to taste and to satisfy the chewing and swallowing desire. (gum just doesn't do it for me. There's no substance to the swallowing!)

I've lost and gained the same 20-30 pounds over and over since high school. I seriously want this to be the last time having to lose fat and gain muscle! I want to change the way I think, not just my actions for a period of time, so that I won't go back to the same eating patterns that got me in this shape in the first, second, third, etc.... place.

I think the challenge for me will be in the transition from losing to maintaining the weight and fitness level I want. I have some time to get ready for that. I'm so glad I found Spark People! Thanks, ALLFORONE2009, for giving me the link!!!

  
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CARLARCO 1/1/2010 4:15PM

  Good Luck! Happy New Years!

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