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Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Hi. I知 here. Still not working out. Still sticking with Gluten Free. Thought I壇 update on how that is going at least:


- My digestive process has NEVER been better in my life. I tried the greek yogurt thing, the probiotic pills thing, everything and I have never had results like this.
- I知 getting a better sense of when I知 actually hungry.
- I have cut my alcohol consumption pretty strongly. I used to drink more beer than I realized.
- I知 no longer crashing hard at 3pm.
- I知 no longer feeling sick or heartburn-y at bedtime.
- I am not overindulging in stuff like cookies at work or apps at holiday parties because I have a solid excuse to stay away.
- My joints are actually aching less. This was a big surprise, I thought that benefit would be the biggest lie of them all lol.

- Eating on the fly is a challenge. I have defaulted to popcorn for lunch a few times. Not good.
- Eating at parties or work events has been challenging. My work holiday party had zero options for appetizers that I could eat. Combo that with open wine bottles it got sketchy for a minute!
- I miss beer. A lot. (Is this really a con? I suppose so I致e had a little emotional strife over it)
- GF food can be pricier but I did discover quite a few good cheaper options at Aldi.
- Eating out has sucked sometimes (again really a con? Probably not. More like a challenge) I caught myself trying to default to a bunless burger and fries twice last weekend. Just because that is gluten free does not make it the best choice!
- I haven稚 lost any weight. I thought for SURE that would happen. Between my eating choices, reduced beer consumption, and my better digestive system, you壇 think something would fall off right?!

My BF even decided he slowly wants to join in it with me. We can still have a lot of what we like to eat, we just have to prepare better. We池e both really sad about beer because craft beer was a big 塗obby of ours. We enjoyed trying them, talking about them, visiting breweries. We have found a few gf beers but it doesn稚 make up for it. Wah.

I really need to buy some serious layers and get outside and get walking. I can稚 bring myself to use the work gym anymore because I hate seeing people I work with in there and I知 always desperate to get out of here ASAP. I can稚 afford a gym membership. It is tough to do a video at home with a puppy who thinks you池e trying to play with her at the same time. If my eating alone isn稚 bringing weight loss in, clearly I need to work on fitness as well.

LOTS of stress at work that I知 trying to deflect. Not having any success on fixing that situation. I知 working through lunch pretty much every single day. I know that isn稚 healthy but I don稚 know what to do. Traffic has been hours long each day. I知 just feeling very tired overall. But that could also be because

Pupdate: She痴 not sleeping. We池e not sleeping. I知 exhausted. She was fine until Thanksgiving when my mom let her sleep on the couch with her. Now she refuses to sleep in her crate. It痴 been weeks. Help?! But she痴 super cute. Here痴 my snuggle buddy:

Guess I'll keep working on everything. Going to keep sticking with gluten free and trying to treat myself gently. 禅is the season! I keep repeating to myself that I can do ANYTHING, but I can稚 do EVERYTHING. (I also keep repeating 典hou shalt not kill but that is reserved for like WalMart.) Trying to keep pushing forward!

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KIKKI-G 12/10/2014 11:47AM

    I like to hear that the GF thing is working for you. I'm a huge beer lover too & have also found a love in ciders after going GF for a bit but just drinking in general hasn't been happening as of late. I can also relate to the work party & the absence of food (my boss never plans to have enough) & have definitely had a liquid dinner at the party which also morphs to sketchy pretty fast...
I agree with the idea that pups are like kids & go through phases, it will let up soon.We don't crate my pup but she sleeps at the foot of my side so my leg movement is restricted at night so it does ruin my sleep quality sometimes.You're not alone in dog struggles haha
Have you thought of crating her or putting her in a separate blocked off area so that you can work out?
Hope your work sitch has some resolve soon, I know how when work life is crappy how it effects everything. I feel for ya girl!

Big hugs & thanks for the update!!!

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K80DALY 12/10/2014 9:51AM

    Your puppy is freaking adorable! They are just like children - they go through their phases. It will pass with time.

The amount of stress you're under could be the reason you're not seeing the weight loss right now. But that's okay; you're building healthy habits that will create long term benefits.

I reduced alcohol drastically about two years ago. It was tough. But like all things, it was habit more than anything. After a few months, I stopped thinking about a glass of wine while making dinner, while eating dinner, immediately after dinner. And my restaurant checks are way lower without a couple martinis added to the tab! :)

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PHEBESS 12/10/2014 2:50AM

    If GF is helping you feel better, stick with it for a while. And yes, walking the doggie or chasing her around the yard will help burn more calories. (Grandparents always spoil the babies.)

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CHODGES83 12/9/2014 9:46PM

    So glad the gluten free is working for ya. I totally understand your fitness challenges. I definitely have been lucky to have the fitness room to myself at work. I wouldn't be able to breath if there was another person in there with me. You are braver than me to be heading outdoors in these temps. They say to layer up, but also dress likes it's about 20degrees warmer than it actually is because you'll warm up that much.
Good luck with the pup and the job. I really hope something changes for you soon.

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MARGOH12 12/9/2014 12:13PM

    Glad th GF is working so well for you. The way guide dog pups are trained to sleep in their crates is to get up settle them without speaking to them the putting them back in theur crate. I have used this method and it works quite quickly. Good luck with the pup.

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Balance/Working Out Advice Needed!

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

Hi All

Hope you had a good holiday! We had an interesting trip to Pittsburgh full of snow and such. I did take a small break from gluten free to have some pumpkin pie. I致e really been sticking to it as much as I can. So far I have noticed my digestive process (lol) is improving and my energy levels seem just slightly higher. Curious to see how it goes after 30 days are up. So far I really miss everything I shouldn稚 be having anyways croutons, beer, pizza, bagels, pizza bagels, anything breaded and fried. I just try to remind myself of the fact that I am not supposed to be eating junk anyways lol. I did go to the store to buy some gf crackers, noodles, and pretzels.

As far as a Pupdate, little Miss Bea has some shots tonight. She痴 really growing! Her head is outpacing the growth of her body a bit lol. Still very cute:

I知 still struggling to adjust to having her. I知 carrying a lot of guilt for crating her. Since she is in there all day, I never want to put her in at night after work or the weekends. This means pretty much all activity outside of the home for me has stopped. We致e been invited to a few holiday parties and I知 already struggling with the idea of leaving her. We are not eating out nearly as much as we used to, so there is a benefit to it, but I am struggling with things like 展hen do I work out? She really can稚 be left alone and when I get home wants to play like crazy because of being cooped up all day, so I haven稚 been able to come home and do a video or something. Her sleep schedule is still a bit wonky. My mom watched her over Thanksgiving and let her sleep outside of her crate at night so now she cries all night in it we致e had a few rough nights in a row I値l say. I love her to death but at some point this balances out, right? Am I crazy? Lol. Don稚 answer that.

My dad is back in the hospital again. Hopefully we will have more answers there today. I have a lot on my mind in my home life, but also work life too. I知 starting to reach a point where I am ready to start looking for a new job again. With all of the changes here recently, I think they are losing me. They are firing people, and not in a 田lean way, and making changes in a way that demonstrates they are more interested in profits than the people. Add on to that my ridiculous commute (two and a half hours t get home last Tuesday! No joke!) it has become a drain on me. I know I should be thankful to have a job but my soul argues differently. I know I should be working out more but struggling there as well. At least my eating is getting in line!

Can稚 believe it is the holiday season again. We put up our tree and such. I really want to acquire an electric menorah too. Spending money I don稚 have! Little Bea is wearing a Hannukah collar lol.

Anyways any pet owners out there with some advice for balance and schedules?! I could really use some! THANK YOU!

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SONICB 12/3/2014 2:05PM

    Can your boyfriend play with little Bea while you work out?

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PHEBESS 12/3/2014 5:23AM

    I've known people who close off the kitchen with the puppy in there, paper around for the pup, and the crate open so the doggie can go in and out. Not sure if you want to try that or not, might help.

I'm helping take care of a kitten who's just a few weeks old - I'm good at the cuddle part and bad at the feeding part, LOL!

And there's a cauliflower pizza crust recipe in the recipe section, if you really really need pizza!

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KIKKI-G 12/2/2014 9:08PM

    I have a dog & experience the exact same guilt in leaving her all day then wanting to go to the gym but feeling i can't. I don't even want to go to the gym in the morning since I would leave direct to go to work thus leaving her even longer too!! Or we also focus our gym days on our days off since you're home majority with her anyways & whats a couple of hours. Even our friends know that we have to go home to let her out first before going out after work too.
We don't crate her at all since she's a rescue from a puppy mill so her life was a crate so we don't want her re living the horrible experience. We lucked out as she is a really good dog & doesn't bark or destroy anything.

I have remedied it a bit by videos at home though, i just figure at least being at home with her is better than not. I go to the gym with Josh a few evenings a week even though morning would be preferred.

I look at it this way, its a good change. its an addition to your family & everyone has to adapt, just like having a kid right? She has brought so much joy to our lives that i don't even remember what it was like before.
You'll work it out!!!

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CHEETARA79 12/2/2014 4:19PM

    Can you get a dog walker to come by once a day? Or maybe if you take the dog for a long walk 20+ minutes in the morning and evening that could be your fitness and the dog would get some exercise?

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CHODGES83 12/2/2014 1:58PM

    I have no advice for the pup. I had a very laid back outdoor dog growing up and our pupsitting over the summer was brief. Sounds like a lot right now with holidays on top. I think one thing in line (gf eating!) is better than no things! Stay positive and I hope good news finds you!

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THELILEA 12/2/2014 1:43PM

    Oof, that sounds hard!! I don't have any pet wisdom to offer but I'd say, stick to your guns with keeping the pup in the crate, or she'll walk all over you from then on! Hopefully she will calm down soon!! Best of luck to you!

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Some people... and this week...

Friday, November 21, 2014

Need a moment to rant

This week has sucked, from a health standpoint. Between that crazy doctor and my non-results results and more.

I also kicked in the gluten free stuff this week and already hit a few walls. We play trivia on Wednesday nights at a brewery. They don稚 serve food, so usually there is a food truck and the food truck this week just so happened to be a WAFFLE truck. I ended up getting a baked potato and side salad from Wendys near the brewery, which was not enough or with any protein. They also did not have any gluten free beers or ciders, so I watched my whole team eat waffles and drink beer and THAT feeling sucks. But I survived.

Then last night I went to girls night, which I was super excited about! Every place had free cookies and sweets out, which didn稚 bother me because I actually don稚 really care for sweets. We went to a Mexican place for dinner and I was thrilled to see that they could make the $5 quesadilla special with gluten free tortillas. Our waiter was such a jerk and when I asked for the gluten free option, he gave me a weird face and said 的 guess and then when he brought the food out he made some comment like 的 sprinkled some gluten in there for you.

Okay. Maybe he thinks he痴 funny. He certainly didn稚 look happy or like he was laughing, so maybe he was having a bad day and taking it out on others. I responded to him with 添eah, those darn doctors telling me how to make myself feel better! and he just walked off. WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE?!?!?! First this doctor calling me fat & crazy this week, then this guy knocking on me for gluten free?

Then last night when we were walking around I had a crazy neck spasm. I wasn稚 even carrying that much stuff so I知 not sure how it got so stressed. I came home and just wanted to go to bed so badly, which wasn稚 what my bf had in mind and I felt soooo bad having to be like 的 hurt and want to sleep. Then I woke up in the middle of the night last night with my left calf and foot in complete spasm. It was one of the worst charley horses I have ever had. I had all my water yesterday, so I know I wasn稚 dehydrated. I guess I shouldn稚 expect being gluten free for 4 days to reduce inflammation that much, but I also know my spinal structure can cause this as well. I think all signs point to me needing to go back to PT again. I知 thinking I need to find a new doc because I think the best way for me to fit it in will be to do it on my lunch breaks. It will ensure I start taking my lunch breaks again, and will let me get home in time for the pup at night. So I知 on the hunt again!

Anyways, I知 so glad it is Friday because I just want to sit at home with my Beatrice dog and not have to deal with crazy people for a few minutes. That being said, I have my family痴 Thanksgiving tomorrow so it feels like the holiday season is really starting to kick in, so I know these 電owntime moments are going to be precious! Don稚 forget to take time for yourselves!! I知 trying to keep that in mind and hopefully keep the crazy at bay. TGIF!!!!!

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SONICB 11/23/2014 7:30PM

    Oh gosh, I HATE charley horses. They're usually a sign that I'm not drinking enough water and/or not taking in enough potassium. :( Hugs!!!

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PHEBESS 11/21/2014 11:30PM

    People can be major jerks, so just write that dr and the waiter off.

Re the leg cramps - I found that if I untuck the covers at the end of the bed, I don't get leg cramps in the middle of the night. I tend to sleep on my back (pillows under my knees) and the tucked in covers pulled my feet down and caused cramps. Simple solution, made a huge difference.

Does ice help your neck feel better? Or heat? Try both and see which feels better, and give that info to your dr or PT person. (Ice reduces inflammation, heat relaxes muscles - so whichever feels better should be a clue as to what's going on inside.)

Hope you feel better!!!

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CHODGES83 11/21/2014 12:41PM

    So are you being treated for fibromyalgia? Your symptoms sound a lot like that especially the foggy feeling in combination with muscle spasms. I believe the treatments are pretty similar to what you do now, with some "non indication" medication and pretty strong focus on lifestyle. DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HAVE A MEDICAL DEGREE OF ANY KIND AND MY THOUGHTS AND OPINOINS TO DO NOT REFLECT THOSE OF MY EMPLOYER.
Whatever it is, I hope you find something to help you feel better.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/21/2014 10:15AM

  my goodness girl. I am so sorry you are going thru this, but I am here for you! try keeping gluten free snacks in your purse. almonds, nuts, gluten free bars that Elizabeth Hasselbeck has are good too!! this was if something pops up, you have something handy at hand! as for the waiter, he is just ignorant. I want to trip him while he is carrying something hot so he spills it on himself. so rude!!!

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! & try biofreeze for spasms. it helped me a lot!

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Results & Doctors

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

I am still trying to process yesterday but not in the way that I thought it would be.

My primary doc recommended me to see a 斗ady doc specialist, but all she said was that all of the docs at this women痴 practice were good. So when I called, they suggested this one doc and I agreed. They know best right?

This woman should come with a warning.

I have never had an experience like this in my life. She quoted poetry, maybe something in German, made one comment that was so off color I can稚 repeat it here but included some strong opinions and words relating to the male anatomy. She pretty much said I was crazy because nothing showed up on my scan so why was I there BUT declined to actually 鍍ake a look inside for herself, which now that I think about it makes no sense? And then she said: 添ou have three options, well really two. One we could cut you open and look inside. Two you can try this medication approach. And the third I wouldn稚 recommend for you because you池e already carrying some extra pounds.

Yes. That is what she said. And not nicely, or joking. As in 添ou池e fat, so we won稚 let you have this third option.

I get it, she痴 one of those straight talking people. She痴 a doctor. Maybe she just has become desensitized to this. But as I noted to my BF last night, what if I was a recovering bulimic or something and that is how she identified me so bluntly? It was really harsh. I left there not knowing whether to laugh or cry. I am glad my scan seemed 渡ormal but I also want to know why I get so much pain and all. I got no answers, instead I think I got attacked? It was very strange and completely opposite of what I was hoping would happen.

Then I left and came back to work, and my other doc called. All of my blood tests were okay. No lymes, no crazy inflammatory markers, nothing super off with my thyroid. They did note my cholesterol is slightly high. Really?!

I had a pretty strong meltdown last night. My poor boyfriend, I mean it was a big full blown meltdown. I pretty much got called fat, my cholesterol is high which is why I joined Spark years ago so it feels like nothing has gotten better, and I still FEEL BAD. I know my neck and back hurt because I haven稚 been going to PT, but it doesn稚 answer why I知 SO DANG TIRED all of the time or why my muscles ache or why I get so foggy some days (like yesterday when they called!) that I can稚 even look people in the face. I got no answers whatsoever. I don稚 want to give up, but it gets exhausting and expensive just trying to find some way to feel better.

I suppose I should be glad because I could always have had a really bad diagnosis like cancer or worse, but I still would have appreciated SOMETHING to improve upon considering how I feel.

I am giving the gluten reduced diet a try. So far this week I致e been pretty good. I had a mini oops on Sunday night when my bf tossed a pretzel in my mouth hibatchi style, but it was only one bite. I made two killer new gluten free recipes! I may let myself have a beer tonight. We play trivia at a brewery kind of hard to ignore that! I知 really hoping something positive comes out of this because I知 starting to feel a little desperate.

So there is my complaint for the day. Not much good news to report, I知 afraid. So here is a picture of my dog:

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SONICB 11/20/2014 5:55PM

    ... I probably would have responded to the doctor, "At least I don't have a sh*t personality." But seriously, a good doctor for YOU would be one whose personality works with yours. I would ask for a second opinion, if possible.

And then pan her on doctor review sites.

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SUMMER2203 11/20/2014 11:51AM

    oh my god that is awful. dump that woman immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is SO important to feel comfortable with a doctor - and she sounds like the worst! in other news, i hope that you are able to find some relief for your symptoms! if nothing else, the gluten-free diet is sure to help with the weight loss!!!

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THELILEA 11/20/2014 11:39AM

    Arrrg, that sounds like the HEIGHT of frustrating. NEW LADY DOCTOR is needed, STAT!! I have had a similar horror type story, the nurse practitioner at my lady dr.... It's so disturbing, and yours sounds so much worse. I'm sorry she minimized your concerns and really didn't help you. OH, and lets not forget the INSULTING you part. WTF!!!
GRRRR, I'm mad for you!
I hope you will move on to a new one, seriously, immediately, and let us know how THAT goes, because, silver lining, it can ONLY be better!!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/20/2014 10:30AM

  emoticon I can totally relate to doctors and negative results...its disheartening but DO NOT GIVE UP. I am going to a homeopathic natural doctor who believes in symptoms not numbers which is helping. Maybe you should try a new doc for a second opinion? I still think thyroid is so misunderstood. When someone is medicated, their goal is a tsh of around 1 but 2.5 isnt hypothyroid...THAT MAKES NO SENSE. keep fighting for your health girl!

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PHEBESS 11/20/2014 10:17AM

    Ugh, I can't stand doctors like that. I've actually called a group and requested an appointment but NOT with Dr A who I thought was a total schmuck.

Have you tried fish oil capsules? Well, more like gel caps. Both my dr and my chiropractor recommended taking 1000 mg a day (in the evening, before bed) for both high cholesterol and for arthritis. Might be worth a try. Only side effect is that it can somewhat thin your blood, so tell a dr before surgery if you start taking it. But for me, it's the only way my hips don't kill me with all the walking we do.

Hope that helps!

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/19/2014 7:34PM

    Hmm.. I would seek a second opinion. Sorry this is so frustrating to you.. Don't give up hope in finding an answer. It IS really hard going place to place to get answers.. But at the end of the day you have to live with it.

I am the first person to roll my eyes when I hear people doing the gluten free thing in the name of health.. But what you are describing sounds a lot like what other people have said in terms of symptoms of a sensitivity. I would say really give that a chance.. It may help, but if it doesn't, least you'll have ruled that out. (PS- I am not a medical professional.. Simply stating my observations on the subject)

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IAMZBEE 11/19/2014 5:11PM

    So sorry that doctor was so mean! No matter what, you are coming to her for a service... and you can easily go to another doctor for similar services. She needs to treat you like a customer AND a patient. HMPH! Made me mad even reading about it... emoticon

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No Blame Game

Thursday, November 13, 2014

As I mentioned in my status, I finally went and got all of the doctors orders tests done.

I知 a gigantic baby and have been dragging my feet on the blood work. My doc prescribed me meds to help but I was having trouble even committing to a date. I have to fast and be driven there if I take the meds, so I would have had to make plans with my bf for a ride. Anyways, yesterday I went to the imaging place to see my insides and what was this? A blood place was in the lobby. And I had fasted and super hydrated. The conditions were perfect. I forced myself back in the building and got my blood done - no tears, no cussing, no passing out. I did it! It wasn稚 so bad in hindsight. And now I just get to wait for all of the results to roll in. I have another doctor痴 appointment next Tuesday so I知 hoping for more answers at that time. Good thing I won some money in vegas, because medical stuff ain稚 cheap and I need brakes on my car too! Adulthood, awesome.

Nobody ever really wants a diagnosis of anything besides health, but I am hoping these tests have some answers for me as to why I致e been feeling so achy and out of sorts. I plan on doing a big grocery shop this weekend to get my gluten free in gear. I NEED to feel better. My neck is acting up again so I may need to consider bleeding cash for PT once more sigh. Why is health SO expensive?!

If the money wasn稚 making me feel a sort of ways enough, my mom toss one on me yesterday that she feels bad that my sister and I have these health issues. She feels like she gave them to us. Maybe that is genetically true, maybe not? Maybe it is my dad? Either way, she kept saying how bad she felt. My sister uses these health issues as an excuse not to work. I don稚 do that, but my mom allows that to make her feel bad too that my sister is doing nothing because of the health issues she gave her? I guess? I refuse to sit here and play the blame game. Does my health give me more challenges than other people? Yes. But not as bad as it could be. Does my broken thyroid make losing weight hard? Yup, but again not impossible. Do I struggle with eating and exercise habits because of the way I was raised? Sure, but I can change that if I really want to.

My life is up to me. I can work at it and make it what I want, but I don稚 see value in blaming anyone for my condition. Some answers would be helpful in directing me in the next steps, but I know the basics eat better, get more action, treat myself more gently. Making excuses will get me nowhere and I know it won稚 be good to stay here! That is just my thought to get out for today Thanks!

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CHODGES83 11/15/2014 3:30PM

    Hope you get some answers. You're always so positive, keep it up!

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KAMINEKO 11/14/2014 1:24PM

    Thanks for spreading that positive sunshine. I've missed that !

Agree completely on your sentiments about health care. It's ridiculous, right? Hope you don't have to hemorrhage too much.

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PHEBESS 11/13/2014 10:44PM

    All we can do is work with what we've got - and who knows where our health issues come from. We just learn to live with it and work around it, right?

Hang in there, keep doing the best you can, and yeah, don't give up and don't blame is the way to go!

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/13/2014 6:35PM

    Go you! A lot of fear in bloodwork is the anticipation. Love your attitude too.. Your life is what you make of it.. Giving up is not an answer! Hoping the best for your test results!

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GEORGE815 11/13/2014 4:40PM

    You are what you eat!

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