Monday, July 21, 2014
I braved the scale this morning. I fully expected to see a giant gain. I have been terrible. Well, maybe not terrible but certainly not behaving myself. With my ďtimeĒ last week, I was down in steps and ate some junk. Iíve gone out and made some bad choices, like French fries and beers being involved kind of choices. So I was honestly surprised this morning to see I didnít lose weight, but I didnít gain either. Hmmm.
This is why the human body really puzzles me. I spent weeks getting in tons of steps, eating all of the right things, and I gained. I spend two weeks almost fully off the wagon and nothing? Dear body, HOW do you work?!?!?!
Last week I realized Iím kind of over worrying about things. 5th boss in a year? Travel on. Company sold? Out of my control. Coworkers being fools? Steer clear. Analyzing everything is EXHAUSTING. But here I am to say Ė the scale and the body is a weird thing and I am going to try to accept that it is what it is and keep up my efforts to see some change.
I know I feel better when I take my walks, eat healthy and whole foods, and treat myself with respect. Why not keep working at it?
That being said, we do still have a lot going on. I have a team outing on Friday, TWO baby showers on Saturday, and my Grandmaís 90th birthday party on Sunday. Whew. BF and I decided to take time off and go to the beach next week so weíll be heading there on Sunday as well. Weíre packing food for breakfasts and lunches so hopefully we donít stray too far from the ranges. There are always drinks and beach treats that we only get once a year. Iím not going to restrict myself but I can also order the smallest version too AND do activities to offset anything. We want to rent bikes one morning for sure. Weíve also already decided to walk 10 blocks each way to a dinner place one night. That has to help right?! So Iíll probably be MIA next week but that is okay with me!
So that is where I am today! My coworker and I are going to be taking a walk at lunch. Iíve got a healthy meal to throw on the grill for dinner (LOVING the grill btw! Would love any of your favorite recipes if you have any to share!) Iím going to try to make today a great day and to have an even better week. Hope you do too!
Friday, July 11, 2014
What. A. Week.
I have been all over the place this week. Physically, emotionally, everything that ends in ďallyĒ
Weíll start with the ďprofessionallyĒ bit Ė this week was the final announcement of the big change at my work. Weíre officially sold and no longer work for our old company. I had a big part to play in this and worked A LOT of hours earlier this week. Now starts the fun of transitioning to the new company. Iím trying to keep my blinders on and just focus on my work because Iíve found thinking about this too much sends me down a bad path mentally. There are A WHOLE LOT of unknowns right now and they are all pretty much out of my control so I just have to keep trucking.
All of that happened while the a/c went up in our new house. Luckily we had negotiated a home warranty as part of the purchase so it was covered, but we spent 2 nights sleeping in the basement because it was 90 degrees in the house. Letís just say I have not slept well all week. So of course I ended up with a migraine. Physically, I have been struggling. I went to PT this week and begged for help.
Also physically/emotionally, its about time for my quarterly adventures with TOM. I only go through this every few months so I almost forget in between how awful this can be. Last week I insanely started struggling with food. Cravings, urges to binge, just intense food feelings out of nowhere. Then I realized what time it wasÖ. Oh. Iím run down, out of sorts, just no good physically and emotionally. I know I moved to this quarterly plan because of this. It has way too much of an effect on me. I hate feeling like this and I know Iím gaining weight and being unhealthy and that bothers me too.
Quite frankly, Iím exhausted today. Between the long hours, my body rebelling, lots of stress, etc. It is now July 11 and I have not used a single vacation day. I tried to put in for some vacation later this month and found out Iím already going to have to work one of those days. Iím almost too tired to care right now.
Iíve got a lot on my mind this week and I havenít been very devoted to my eating or exercise. I know this happens and Iím trying not to beat myself up for it. I know I should be thankful that I still have a job and got to play such a big role in everything this week (which is a very good story for me to have in my back pocket) but sometimes it feels like I donít have enough time for myself and my wellbeing (and THAT bothers me!)
Anyways, sorry for the dramatic post. Iíll live. And maybe be avoiding the scale for a few weeks until I undo all of this damage lol. Hope you all have had a great week too!
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Been really getting back into the swing of things this week! Packing meals and snacks for work, cooking dinner at home, 3 nights of PT, taking care of chores like laundry that I hate, plus getting even more stuff in order at the house. Iíve been trying to get my walks in at lunchtime to keep my steps count up. That Wednesday last week is still bothering me!
(ps - I know my goal seems low but it is what I can do right now. I am planning on taking it up a notch eventually when this gets comfy!)
We had our company picnic yesterday and I behaved myself. Ate my lunch from home but had a small free Ritaís and a piece of watermelon. Took this picture with my interns and I think Iím finally starting to see a difference!
Today might break ďthe streakĒ Ė Iím supposed to have girls nightÖ Those rare but off-the-eating-plan type events. My stomach was iffy this morning before work which kept me from caving and going to Starbucks, so I may have a good excuse to stay tame tonight too. But you know how wrapped up in the moment you can get out with friends. We shall see.
Professionally, this has been a pretty good week. For the first time, I managed a big external-facing project from idea to completion and it turned out rather well if I might say so myself. Weíre still facing a lot of uncertainty with the sale of the business but it seems to be full steam ahead. Iím hanging in for the ride.
Iím hoping life starts settling down a bit soon. We have some final move stuff to wrap up this weekend and then hopefully weíll be done with the old place. Our new furniture is finally being delivered next week so Iím going to have to fight to keep my steps up with a new comfy couch available to lay down on in the house haha.
Hope you all have had a great week and letís make it a great weekend too! (Yes I know I am getting a slight jumpstart to the weekend, wishful thinking!)
Monday, June 23, 2014
I canít believe this weekend has come and gone!
Friday night we just relaxed. We were both pretty tired and wanted to rest up for the weekend.
Saturday we did a ton of errands and got most of the final stuff over from the rental house. We did a HUGE grocery shop and I feel so much better now that our fridge is stocked with fresh food! The veggie drawers are full and I even treated us to a rather expensive asian melon for desserts this week. We restocked greek yogurts, almond milk, cage free eggs etc. I swear if you looked at our fridge two years ago and then looked again now, youíd be surprised how different it is! We went out for dinner Saturday night and walked around a little bit afterwards to try to offset the damage. Iíll be cooking dinners at home this week to make up for it too!!
Yesterday was a nonstop but great day. I woke up and cooked breakfast & meal prepped for this week, all of which was so nice to do in our new kitchen. I know that sounds like bragging but for now the new kitchen is motivating me to spend more time prepping food and cooking at home and that is a plus in my book!
It was SO nice outside so I decided to spend nearly the rest of the day doing outdoor chores. Now, I know I didnít run a 5k or anything, but I feel so incredibly sore all over today that I must have done something right for exercise related activity. I mowed the lawn, trimmed the hedges/trees, laid grass seed, soaped and sprayed all of our outdoor stuff, moved and re-set up our grill (which fell on my foot and left a nice purple swollen lump), etc. It felt awesome to be doing so much outside and I feel like the house looks better for it too! Then I watched the USA world cup game, my first soccer game watching ever, and that was too much excitement for me.
Sometime in the middle of the night last night, I realized that everything hurt. I mean EVERYTHING. I could barely turn over in bed. Iím struggling today. Iím going to have to convince somebody to open my water bottle for me, that bad. Iím a bit concerned Ė one day of outdoor activity should NOT leave me this sore, right? Maybe I just really need to increase my strength training? Today might just be a slow walk for exercise kind of day.
I am also having such a case of the Mondays. Maybe it is because of the soreness, or the bat hanging outside my door this morning that spooked me, but I got to work and realized I left my entire purse at home which is awesome. Going to try to make this a great week nonetheless!
Friday, June 20, 2014
What a quick week! Feel like I was just here posting onÖ Monday?!
Monday and Tuesday my exercise was PT and moving more stuff to the new house after work. I did a little too much heavy lifting on Tuesday and needed a break on Wednesday (my PT gave me the whatnot about my back!) Iíve pretty much been eating salads for lunch and cheese and crackers for dinner. This approach isnít going well, I canít wait to go grocery shopping and have REAL meals and snacks again. Our fridge is looking sad with no veggies or real food in it! The weather has been wacky this week as well and last night it all cleared up and BF and I went for a walk around the neighborhood. I hopped on the scale and there has been zero change, up or down, which I suppose is a good thing seeing how thrown off my habits have been these past two weeks.
That being said, I still nailed it on my steps goals this week:
Except for that ďrest dayĒ on Wednesday where I just snuck under the goal line. Looking at that now really bothers me! Plus those steps were combined with a lot of lifting, hope that helps!
This weekend we are trying to wrap up some final stuff at the old house and do some organizing in the new one. Weíre trying to get enough of the house together to have some folks over for a cookout and watch the USA World Cup game on Sunday. Weíre going to go on a good grocery shop and try to stock up Ė I could really go for some fresh spinach, peppers, onions, you name it. I swear I have really changed, craving veggies?! I also saw someone with a fresh peach at work and Iím salivating for some fresh peaches too!
As I came into work this morning, someone said ďGosh you look so tiny!Ē I disagree with the being ďtinyĒ part but I am glad someone noticed a change. Iím hovering around the 15 lbs. down mark and I was wondering if it had made any difference. Sometimes a little validation goes a long way!
Anyways, I hope you all had a great week and have a great weekend!
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