Thursday, February 10, 2011
Here I am... months from my last post. After falling off the bandwagon yet again, I decided I needed to make a major change... especially while I am here at school. I just don't know how.
I've been so busy like every college student is, but I can't keep using that as an excuse. I walk with in 100 feet of one of the on-campus fitness centers at least once a day, usually three or four times. But I make the excuse that I need to be studying or I am exhausted or maybe just that I cannot fit a day's worth of course materials and my clothes for the gym in the same backpack. Those are the big ones that I use.
Tonight, I bought an Odwalla Protein Monster drink (chocolate). I am a big fan of smoothies and protein drinks, but the disease I have keeps me from getting fresh-made ones on campus because I'm allergic to bananas. I've been drinking the Strawberry C flavor for a while now without thought, so I decided to expand a bit today. And I drank the entire Protein Monster without bothering to look at the nutrition facts. 400 calories in that bottle? 400?! I was so angry with myself that I signed in to SparkPeople to track my food for the day and see how bad it really was.
I went over, and in come cases WAY over, my limits for the day on everything except protein, ironically. I had maybe one glass of actual water, and the rest was sugary juices and that ridiculous protein drink. And I made myself feel okay with it as I was doing it... rationalizing it. Closest place to get lunch? Let's get a chicken tender wrap from the specialty dining hall. Two or three iced caramel soy lattes a day? Gotta stay awake. Uncrustables? Easy sandwich on my way to class. Salmon and cream cheese rolls? Sushi is supposed to be good for you... isn't it?
I'm fully disgusted with me at current. And while positive thoughts are important, sometimes it is better to get the negative ones out than keep them bottled up inside. I need to find some way to work on this... to see what I am doing to myself.
Has anyone tried the BodyBugg? I was thinking today about purchasing one with my tax return, but I wanted to ask in case someone sees this and maybe tried one but didn't like it. If someone out there still has one and would be willing to let a broke college student try it out before she invests, that would be appreciated and would be sent back to you with a nice thank-you card as soon as I know how I feel about it. There is a TON of good feedback on how it records your daily burn, and I think that knowing how much I am taking in and not having to completely guess how much is going out would really help me.
Thanks SparkPeople. If nothing else, you are excellent for stopping me from lying to myself. But of course we all know that the spark is a lot more than that.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
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Thursday, July 22, 2010
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
So if I have learned anything with fighting my emotional being in the past couple weeks, it is that you need to reinforce what you can do and not what you can't. And in no specific order:
I CAN eat delicious things and still be healthy.
I CAN say no to that pastry for desert at Panera Bread and substitute chunks of watermelon.
I CAN get up and eat breakfast every single morning instead of skipping it.
I CAN walk one mile, without stopping, at a good pace even though I wasted so much time insisting I couldn't.
I CAN (and have) stop(ped) drinking soda.
I CAN enjoy a glass or two of wine in a week instead of a bottle or two.
I CAN learn how to eat well in most any situation.
I CAN build muscle and have, in fact, done so over the past few weeks.
I CAN still play tennis, even if a bit slower. But the slowness won't last long.
I CAN talk to the people I trust about my goals, health-related and not.
I CAN live a healthy lifestyle on a college student budget.
I CAN get up and go to the gym 5 times per week, and will start as soon as I move into my apartment at my new college. Yay free state-of-the-art gym usage!
I CAN convince myself that water is tasty enough to drink all of the time instead of just once in a while.
I CAN surprise my friends at the "all years ending in 0" class reunion in September. Yay class of 2010!
I CAN learn to drive and not be paranoid about seat belts not fitting.
I CAN run a 5K.
I CAN be a better, healthier girlfriend to the man I adore.
I CAN score a 173 on my Law School Admissions Test and get into Columbia Law.
I CAN tolerate the small amounts of pain that come with big amounts of satisfaction that I am doing good things for myself.
I CAN dance, and plan to start again when I feel coordinated enough.
I CAN make those around me proud, and make myself proud in turn.
I CAN lose 150 lbs.
I CAN be healthy and happy.
I CAN feel comfortable in my own skin.
I CAN live a lot longer if I don't quit again.
I CAN do anything I want to.
So my challenge for anyone reading this today is to blog a lots of positive things that you CAN do on your own sparkpage, and make sure to comment here so I know to go read them.
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Granted, it IS only 9am. But at least I am not exhausted and dehydrated like I was yesterday. I just walked 3/4 of a mile in record high heat - 82 degrees at 8:40am. I had to do it in my jeans and polo that I was wearing to work though. =( I'm silly and forgot to do laundry last night. I'm about halfway through The Spark now and have discovered how to be coordinated enough to read it while walking. Win for me!
For the first time in a very long time I am SO excited about eating lunch, but not excited enough to gobble it down early and go hunting for a piece of pizza later as per usual. I am full, drinking water, and chewing gum. That really helps!
-crunchy peanut butter sandwich on multi-grain bread
-baby carrots and sliced mushrooms
-3/4 cup of raspberries
Only thing I am not looking forward to as of yet is taking the bus and then walking a mile from the bus stop home. It wouldn't be so bad if it were all flatland, but there are lots of hills. Ugh. =(
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