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Make a Different Decision - and Everything Changes

Sunday, January 27, 2013

This just happened and it's an "A-ha" moment, so I want to capture it right away.

Background: Yesterday everything was going well, first time I did a 4th 45 minute cardio session since I started SP (this has been my goal). Food, good. Then I was on my way home, and really really hungry (dinner time). Too hungry. I thought about going home and cooking, and how long it would take, and it was too long. So I stopped at the grocery store for some comfort food and went home. Much better comfort food than I would have chosen before, but still.... way too many calories.

OK, so today: Bigger breakfast than I've had in a long time, visiting with my mother. Full, and not feeling good about myself, from last night. Other things, then got home. Needing to do some work, practice (violin), exercise. Feeling blah. Wanting to have a snack. I see bread and cheese, which I have not been eating much at all, and that's an old snack that I used to have (which always lead to more...). Not "bad" but too many calories with the rest of the day still ahead of me. And I could feel that "giving up" feeling happening, like, that dull inner sensation, of sliding downhill... you know what I mean. Like, the inevitability of failing.

As I was reaching for the cheese in the fridge, another voice inside me said, No, have the popcorn. The fat free popcorn that has been my afternoon snack for a couple of weeks, microwave Trader Joe's 130 cal's, big bowl full.

And in that moment - Everything Changed. Everything Changed.

My energy immediately went up, as I reached in the cabinet. Literally, really, I felt a surge of focus and energy and determination - a "Yes I Can" feeling - And In a Moment, Everything Changed.

Put the popcorn in the microwave, got the broccoli and squash and green beans out of the fridge, to cut up and prepare for steaming for dinner. Turned the oven on to roast the sweet potatoes to have as a snack later and tomorrow.

A-HA. This is what the "A-HA" moment is, for me, right now. Like something snapped back into place. My determination, my YES, my Remembering Myself, Remembering what I really want and where I really want to be heading.

WOW - I'm thrilled! I'm thrilled to have been present enough to 'catch it", to have it an enjoy it, and to share it with you. I can't but help think, that the "other voice" is the build up of the work and focus and attention that I've put in on SP, and Spark Coach, over the last 6 weeks since I started. THIS is the moment, where the scale tips in favor of Me. This is good, really good emoticon

Since nothing is a steady state, what I'm hoping now, is to take this precious moment, and let it grow. One moment at a time, one positive experience at a time. I have no illusions that I will never have another "bad" meal, or bad day. Might have one tomorrow.... but This Experience is one I can reach back into, for strength, and remembrance of my True Self.

So - Make a Different Decision, you can do it, this other voice is inside YOU too. Make a different decision, a small seemingly insignificant decision - and watch how Everything Changes for you too :).

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TKLBRIDGET 2/13/2013 9:00PM

    Great blog!

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MARIANNE9855 1/28/2013 8:02AM

    good for you- we all need to stop and listen to the voice that will give us an aha moment if we pause to listen-that's what will make this time different from all the other times I started. I am working very hard to be conscious of those messages.

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MOONGLOWSNANA 1/27/2013 6:31PM

  WooHoo! Good for you! If you can do it then I can too! We're in this together for the better health of all!

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ANGIEN9 1/27/2013 6:26PM

    What a great Ah-Ha moment!!

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DIBANANA 1/27/2013 4:43PM

  I do agree with that one moment that can change everything. I think that moment of choice you took the high road between cheese and crackers and your popcorn. I'm proud of you!

keep sparking

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JACLYN07 1/27/2013 4:30PM

    Go you! A-HA moments rock!

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STAY39 1/27/2013 4:21PM

    That's great! Good for you for being tuned in to that inner voice of strength! It is such a difficult every day struggle and some days are harder than others. I always used to joke that in "dieting" if I fell down 1 step I would just toss myself down the whole flight instead of trying to stop myself. I am really hoping those days are over for me too. Yesterday I had a REALLY bad day at work- mentally & physically draining. I never got to stop to eat, drink, or pee for close to 8 hours! It would have been really easy for me to justify going thorough that BBKing drive through on my way home- and I certainly thought about it! But instead I kept driving and had a lean cuisine pizza as soon as I got home! I consider that a huge success!! Lets keep it up!! emoticon

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KIMZEE71 1/27/2013 4:12PM

    After your overdoing it w/comfort foods and a big breakfast, you could have said what the heck and just go over the cliff. But, you didn't. This is what I am concentrating on right now, too. The fact that you had a little too many calories doesn't make it blown for good. My mantra is "From this day forward" and I try to tell myself no matter how bad my last meal was or bad weigh in, I still have a new day coming up to do it right!
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40 days on Spark People - The View From Here

Saturday, January 19, 2013

As I was in the pool at the gym this afternoon, doing my 45 minutes of water jogging, I realized that today is Day 40 on Spark People, participating in Spark Coach, and being on this new journey. Since 40 days feels significant, I wanted to take stock, and talk about The View From Here.

As so many people have commented on in other blogs, and what we of course know ourselves, I've been on a zillion diets, including Atkins for a year (never did lose all that much weight) and starting with WW when I was a kid. My family members are all overweight, so weight, weight loss, despair, accepting ourselves who we are etc have been topics of conversation my whole life.

So what makes this time different? First, the wake up moment of really "Seeing Myself" as we were about to go on stage to perform. Seeing myself in the mirror, seeing everyone else, and getting that, NO NO NO NO NO, this cannot go one. This is not who I really am. Probably lots of us have that Wake Up moment. As I've mentioned in a previous blog, I'd tried Spark People before, but had never gotten involved in the community, and this was before Spark Coach.

So fast forward to today, I ask myself, so how are things going?

1. I feel like I'm in a groove, which I don't think I've ever felt before, about food - what to eat, tracking, how often to eat, etc. I understand now, when I've heard people talk about eating smaller meals throughout the day. In working on keep calories low - and healthy - this kind of eating has just naturally evolved. Eating breakfast everyday, I have to say, I can really feel a shift in metabolism. I get REALLY hungry a few hours later. Then eat again a few hours later, all meals 300 cal or less. Then in the afternoon snacks, then more calories available for dinner - which is the hardest time for me. Having a lot of calories left for dinner and evening is working best right now.

2. On Spark Coach, they say that this is a JOB, and is WORK, and that we need to take it that way. Amen to that! Again, having a focus on food, and fitness, and motivations, staying connected on the Spark People Website, tracking etc. It IS a job, and work. It's serious work, and I get that.

3. I made a vision board last week - first time I've ever done that although I've certainly heard about doing these before. I want to do another one now, encompassing some other areas of my life.

4. I'm awed - is that the right word? - at my depth of commitment, the seriousness of this work, and I feel like I am not holding back, but giving it my all. It is SO HELPFUL reading blog posts about the fear of failing, yet again, yet again. But the constant focus from Spark Coach and Spark People in general, about "Keep Going", Never Give Up, Consistency, etc. This is new - and it feels so right. I feel new with it... and that feels really right too.

5. Struggling with not feeling like I'm in "calorie prison", and that each time I eat anything, there's less and less. I'm trying to work this out inside - to free myself from this. Yes, this is about discipline, but a) it's a choice, and b) it's what we all do, as human beings, eat and then stop LOL.

6. Feeling really good when I do my workouts in the pool, so steady, right at my target heart rate, moving like I mean it, and my body is soaking it up. I need to add the strength training component - need to get over my resistance to that, I've done strength training in the past, and I love it. I also need to start walking.... for many years, I couldn't walk more than a block or 2, due to spinal stenosis in my neck and low back. But after intensive massage therapy - intensive! - over the last year, and the exercise, I CAN walk now. I need to set down the fear, and just go. 10 minutes, that's all I need to commit too.

7. I need to figure out how to eat everything, but in moderation. If I don't allow myself some other foods, I know I'm going to burn out. I'm afraid - there's that word again - that if I eat anything other than 0% greek yogurt and blueberries, that I will fall out of this and, well you know, fail. But even as I write this, I know this is not the truth.

8. Goals, where I want to go, what I want to accomplish, its all there, to be had, isn't it?

Fear - didn't realize this until right now - Fear looms big. Wow... ok, need to munch on that...

That's it for now - thanks for reading my blog. Any thoughts, ideas, reflections you have would be greatly appreciated! thank you :)


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KIMZEE71 1/27/2013 4:16PM

    That's GREAT that you made a vision board. I made a vision notebook and I look through it daily to get motivated.

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DONNAFADLER 1/24/2013 8:11PM

  Thanks for sharing

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REDDBETSY 1/23/2013 11:22PM

    I have felt this way. Thank you for writing this. And wow-- I am impressed at your number of responses after only 40 days ! LOL I had to scroll a LONG way to the end! We are all right here behind you! Keep it up!

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LADYMARCIA1 1/23/2013 10:42PM

    Just want to thank you for sharing my thoughts in your blog! LOL Well said, and it's only taken me 60 years to get this. I will keep trying until I get it right finally. Good luck on your weight loss journey. Great blog!

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TERILCARTER1960 1/23/2013 8:47PM

    I have only been here a week and I have pretty much used sp as a life line
reading and learning understanding, I too have tried and tried so many times before
I know fear all to well I have hardly said a word about this to my family because I am afraid of failing again. I am doing so good I got so much out of your blog thank you for sharing that. Teri

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1MYSTERY_LADY 1/23/2013 8:09PM

    Well Done

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MARYJEANSL 1/23/2013 5:51PM

  I think you are doing really, really well...I have come to the conclusion that the people who manage to stay motivated and keep going on a (relatively) steady path to their goals are those who have a fire - or a spark, if you will - going inside them that keeps burning even if they have a bad day or two. It sounds to me as though you are one of those people. Congratulation and best wishes for continuing success!

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RED-D-2DOIT 1/23/2013 5:44PM

  All I can say is, "Thanks for sharing!" emoticon emoticon

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SAMMI4444 1/23/2013 12:37PM

    That's amazing! Keep it up!

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JOYFULSONG45 1/23/2013 11:21AM

    It sounds like you are doing all the right things and that you have a positive attitude. You are well on the road to achieving your goals and Sparkpeople is the right place to be. I've tried many different diets too and this one has been the best. Keep up the good work

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KARRENLYNN 1/23/2013 9:59AM

    I love the support and friendship from other real, average everyday people who have the same general goals I do and the same issues too. Not celebrities getting paid to say a diet product works for them.

I also love that this site has so much information on weight loss and general health subjects too. The teach you to view it as a lifestyle change not a temp project with a finite day to return to bad habits.

Good luck in your journey to better health and we're all here to support and cheer you to victory!

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CM_GARDNER78 1/22/2013 11:05PM

    You sound like you have been having an AWESOME 40 days!! Think about what it will be like in another 40...or much progress you will make!! And that's all you need - progress, not perfection, to get this journey going! Way to go!!! :-)

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PATTISTAMPS 1/22/2013 1:00PM

    Keep that mommentum going - You WILL do it this time... because it is NOT a diet, it is a life change. As they say - If you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you always got. Keep that Spark burning!

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THEIS58 1/22/2013 8:20AM

    Keep at it!

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LOSE2CRUIZE 1/22/2013 8:04AM

    Thanks for sharing! emoticon

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FISHER011 1/22/2013 2:52AM

emoticon for the great blog!
Your insight is motivating!
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NEW6306 1/22/2013 12:16AM

    I love your insight! I'm on day 3, so I love hearing your story and knowing that I will be a pro at this like you very soon! Thanks for the motivation!

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HELENWLMS 1/21/2013 10:01PM

    Sounds like you've got it under control. Keep up the good work!

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BKNOCK 1/21/2013 8:52PM

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CYNTHIAAJ 1/21/2013 7:01PM

    I love the phrase you wrote "moving like I mean it" I am going to use that this week. I use auto pilot too often. If you like to read try No Need For Speed. Its a book by a runner-don't panic! He has an amazing story of going from unhealth to health. Instead of thinking about movement in time increments he had even smaller goals- today to my mailbox and back, the next day to the neighbors and back, etc. Then after he regained some fitness he would use markers to increase speed (intervals anyone?) Challenging himself can I walk quickly between these two trees-slower for two trees and then fast again? Its a lovely read even for those of us who can't run (I have arthritis in my foot). Thanks for sharing your journey in progress! emoticon

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FARIS71 1/21/2013 6:53PM

    You sounds like you are being very smart on this journey. Recognizing you want to work in other foods so you don't go coo coo on just the same healthy stuff. Very wise!

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VIVIANKAY3 1/21/2013 4:28PM

    I understand what you are saying. I feel the same way. I have started and stopped a few times. but feel totally different this time. Like this is it and it feels Great!! Yes I also have started water jogging in a resistant current pool. I am trying to figure out how to track this in my fittness tracker. which do you choose? I could not find any jogging in a current resistant pool I do thirty minutes at about 2/3 of the current level. pretty strong. Any one help me with this??? Thanks Kay emoticon

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FIRECOM 1/21/2013 2:55PM

    I just re-read this and I am STILL IMPRESSED. The road we are on is very bumpy and often full of pot holes. Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead.

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MOONGLOWSNANA 1/21/2013 2:31PM

  "Fear looms big." I think that if we are being truthful, fear is a factor in weight loss. There is the fear that this program won't work either, and that even if it works the weight will come back. There is fear that exercise will be too hard and I won't be able to lose weight without it , and what will happen, where will I be if I can't exercise? The fear of the unknown is real and can be exactly like walking a tightrope, hoping to balance and to be successful in reaching the other end, finishing the scary walk and reaching a place of safety. Spark People offer a helping hand. Many of them have experienced the same things and can be encouraging as we find our way. It takes away some of the fear when we realize that other people have walked this way before and found success by conquering their fears and pushing on, by walking with a friend. emoticon

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NEEDBU66 1/21/2013 11:08AM

    Great Blog. Thanks!! emoticon

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SAILOR64 1/21/2013 10:46AM

    It's hard to think about and even harder to put down in writing how you feel somethings, especially when you look back.

You seem to be on the right track, and I would like to suggest one thing. Read something motivational for 15 minutes twice a day. I do it first thing in the morning and right before I go to sleep at night. I believe it fills my thoughts with positive energy and helps me to stay focused on the positive things in my life.

Congrats on your 1st 40 days, and the next 40 too.

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WILDFLOWERMA 1/21/2013 9:35AM

    Thank you for sharing your truths. I can certainly relate to the fears that come when you are picking up momentum and don't want anything to deter you. I've had the all or nothing approach in the past and ended up crashing and not getting back up many times. You are smart to be examining your feelings and potential obstacles now. This time around, I'm trying to have a healthier attitude towards food. Eating clean as much as possible, but not throwing everything out the window if I indulge in a bagel with cream cheese or steak tips. They are choices & we are fortunate to be able to make healthier choices from moment to moment.

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PENOWOK 1/21/2013 8:58AM

    I love that you are taking this seriously and making the plan. You have to plan the work and work the plan to have success and you are certainly on track for that! I believe you can do it! Steer clear of the naysayers and watch out for the emotional eating that so many of us struggle with-myself included! If you believe, when you are feeling the fear, take it to God and He will take it away. God bless you.

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BRASKIN 1/21/2013 8:06AM

  There are no bad foods....only some bad choices. Good for you for sorting it all out and making time to reflect! emoticon

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FITMARTI 1/21/2013 6:27AM

    Nice blog

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ELIZABETH5268 1/21/2013 2:30AM

    Good job, you are on your way!

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SPSPSP1 1/21/2013 12:33AM

    Congrats on your progress! It took me a year to consistently adopt these healthy habits/mindset. Until that point not much weight came off. Now I'm in the groove and starting to utilize these tools for other parts of my life. Remember- It's okay if you stumble. Just pick yourself back up!

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FAT2GAINHEALTH 1/20/2013 11:54PM

    great blog... fear of failure still looms in my mind.
always has been a great part of my personality.

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FATHINSN 1/20/2013 11:03PM

    WooHoo for 40 days!

As long as you keep focusing on your goals and never let any obstacles hinder you, you will keep on going strong!

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JULESRULES2013 1/20/2013 10:12PM

  just keep swimming (or water jogging) :)

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AJB121299 1/20/2013 10:06PM

    Nice blog

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PHOENIX1217 1/20/2013 9:38PM

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings! So motivating to us all!!

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JACKIE542 1/20/2013 9:11PM

    Really good blog, I would just say try to do your strength, I didn't and now I am catching up. You are doing a great job. emoticon emoticon

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LBECKER63 1/20/2013 8:37PM

    I am only on day 3 of this journey, so day 40 sounds like a great accomplishment to me! Way to go! I completely understand the fear issue. I think a big majority of this job, at least for me, is mental. I need to learn to become my own positive coach. You sound like you are well on your way. Congrats!

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KIMZEE71 1/20/2013 6:18PM

    Great blog! You should be proud of yourself. I finally feel like I am getting in the groove too! Thank the Lord! emoticon

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LBEILMAN 1/20/2013 5:43PM

    That word "moderation" is a big one! I still haven't figured that one out! I'm pretty new to SP...and was getting frustrated because I wasn't losing (and I have a lot to lose).... today I figured out that I cannot "eyeball" the correct size of my portions..I must weigh and measure. I'm hoping to see a loss next week. GREAT JOB on your journey! You sound so POSITIVE! I hope I'm feeling that on day 40 too!

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SPRINGBABY80 1/20/2013 5:06PM

  Great for you and good job, keeping pushing to do your best. Good luck.

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ELEGENT95 1/20/2013 4:22PM

    This is pretty awesome, and just about everything I've thought about since joining sparkpeople. Thank you for putting into words what I couldn't.

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SEEINGCLEARLY53 1/20/2013 4:22PM

    emoticon , made me think,,,,thanks!

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What I Learned Today

Sunday, January 13, 2013

So this is what I learned today:

1. House cleaning can be good exercise - specifically, cleaned out the fridge, washed shelves, removed drawers, sparkly clean healthy foods shining back at me

2. For right now, I really do need to eat lightly during the day, and save more calories for the night time. I've been doing that since I started SP a month ago, and today thought, hey, I can have a bigger lunch. Nope..... Wound up eating over my calorie limit tonight. But I'm ok :)

3. I was able to start employing the tools I learned this week in Spark Coach, about how to recognized what's happening re: emotional eating, how to stay grounded, self talk etc. I was able to have that conversation with myself, realized I wanted to eat because I was bored, and was there something else I could do instead.
.......Well, for this first time out, it wasn't instead but in addition to, but I'm ok with that. Learning.

4. I came home and put together my first Vision Board. Spark Guy had talked about doing this in a coaching session last week? and I had started cutting out pictures and got poster board and glue. But hadn't put it together yet. He talked about it again yesterday. So this was my thing to do, when I felt the urge to eat emotionally.

5. I did it - and it came out really cool!!

That's it for now - thanks blog readers, love your comments and support!

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CAM2438 1/20/2013 6:21AM

    Have a great day! emoticon

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ANGIEN9 1/14/2013 8:42AM

    Sounds like you are doing the most important part of the Spark People program...learning!! Keep up the good work. It is truly a learning process and everyday is a new adventure!! I try to do a little house work everyday. I have a cat and he is hairy, so need to dust and vacuum regularly!!

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BODDHISATTVA123 1/13/2013 11:17PM

    Thanks :)

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SUNSHINE99999 1/13/2013 11:16PM

  did some house cleaning this weekend myself. I hope your week is good.

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Setting Goals - and Celebrating that I'm Still here!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Yesterday's Spark Coaching video was all about the looking for the motivation behind the wanting to lose weight, and making That the goal.

I'm all about Goals right now - short term, long term, meeting goals. This is new for me. Although I have accomplished a lot in my life, and plan on accomplishing a lot more :), still, I have never really consciously set goals for myself. It's time!

So it's been a month now on SP, and there have been ups and downs. Lost 7 pounds, gained back 3, so net loss=4 pounds. Given that this was over the holidays and a work retreat, I think it's not so bad. But I think the bigger take away for myself is, that I'm still here. Hasn't that been the issue for so many of us? Trying to get with a program to lose weight, and get fit - and then feeling like we've failed and giving up? That's sure been true for me.

Still here, still here.... Learning a new way to be. It's settling in for the long haul, welcoming myself to the active New. For the first time not giving up if I ate something - or more than something - that wasn't on "the diet". Or not exercising exactly according to plan. I love the quote that came up on the SP page the other day:

It's what we do every day, day in and day out - not what we do occasionally. The idea that I/we don't have to be perfect, all or nothing, that this is a process and we need to be our best friends in it - this is new. Be my own best friend? Encourage myself? Speak to myself with kindness, love and encouragement? New. New New New New New.

You know, we can say that we want to try something new, but we actually don't know what it's going to be like until we DO IT. emoticon

So what is my underlying motivation? I think this is going to unfold - the first things that have come to mind is, wanting to stand out for who I am, not stand out because I'm fat. I am so tired of being "different", the fat one, the one who doesn't "fit. Is that a goal? I think it is.

Goal #1: Losing weight and Getting fit - to be able to stand out and shine for who I am, not because I'm fat.

Goal #2: Be that athlete that I know is inside of me. The sea kayaker, the skier, the hiking-across-Europe person, the biking in Tuscany woman. Becoming the athlete that I know I am.

Goal #3: Look beautiful. Wearing beautiful clothes, shopping in Paris, wherever I like. Being the size where I can look how I feel!!

Goal #4: Being able to travel wherever I like, my size no longer being an obstacle. Whether that's going to Bhutan, or Antarctica, or sailing in Croatia - being able to embrace the experience fully, no longer having to worry about "will I fit"? Will people be looking at me funny? Sitting down at a cafe in Paris, and easily and comfortably fitting into the chair and behind the table.

So that's it for today... Again, what's foremost on my mind right now, is the Keep Going aspect to SP, Keep Going. You are Welcome Here - We are all Welcome Here.

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MARIANNE9855 1/20/2013 10:46AM

    I have so many of the same goals- basically being comfortable everywhere I go and not letting my size hold me back. In my dreams i walk everywhere in comfort forever- then I wake up disappointed that I am no longer that person. I want to be that person when I wake up too. I am in my 50s too and I want to get that back before it is too late, it sounds like you do too.

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ANGIEN9 1/12/2013 5:53PM

    Great Blog!! Keep up the great job you are doing!! And emoticon (celebrate) your achievements!!!
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OK Blogging, here we go...2013 on the horizon

Sunday, December 30, 2012

So started SP on 12/10/12, 20 days ago. Lost 7 pounds so far in the first 2 weeks. Of course then we've had the holidays which have thrown me off, mostly 1. not knowing how to count calories on the meals I've been eating, 2. thrown off my exercise schedule on some days, preparing meals and getting house ready for guests, and 3. eating out of my comfort zone.

I think I'm a little afraid, almost like things are going too well and this is when I fail? It's certainly happened so very many many times before. One of the things I really like about SP - and Spark Coach which I signed up for and am using - is the whole emphasis on Consistency. There are going to be set backs, and some not so great days. But weight is not lost or gained by a single meal, or a single day. It's all about consistency. I keep reminding myself of this - which is so different then what I've done before.

Looked in the mirror again today, from afar at the gym, but still, I looked. This all started when I was in the mirror along with everyone else in the NH group, right before our performance. And I saw myself, even though I was trying not to look, I saw myself. In relation to everyone else. And there I was - am - the really fat one. Really fat one. 100 pounds over weight. Obese. Really obese.


But this is what pushed me to start SP the next day. I've been exercising at the gym, cardio, went up to 50 minutes today. Bought weights at Sports Authority this afternoon, 5 pounders, plus 1 8 lb to go with the one I already had.

Stay focused B. Keep going forward. You're doing good, really good. Keep looking in the mirror - you really need to do that, to keep focussed on the goal. And I was really brave and posted a picture of myself from Paris from last year.

So here's to consistency, to really being on the journey, to commitment and courage and staying the course.

More to come.....

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ANGIEN9 1/5/2013 6:28PM

    Sounds like you have found the right website. We can do this together!!


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PCASEY7 12/31/2012 1:22AM

    Welcome to SP! You've already achieved a lot and just take it one day at a time! Best of luck in 2013!

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ZAHNASGRANDMA 12/30/2012 11:12PM

    Your here, have a plan and working your program, so good for you, WooHoo! One step at a time, one day at a time and should you slip, just start fresh an hour after your fall. We are all human, some of us just bigger humans.

I am glad you found Sparks

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SALIJACKT 12/30/2012 10:40PM

    Great start, don't let the holiday slip keep you down, I had trouble tracking a bit too, but I'm determined to be right back as soon as possible.


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KATRINAKRAUT 12/30/2012 10:32PM

    You are so right. Rome wasn't made in a day...and neither are we. one step at a time and away we go!

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