Just another day

Thursday, March 12, 2009

First off, thank you everybody for your comments. I really appreciate them! Especially for when I am feeling low, I can look back and see all the positive remarks, and that really helps!

I hate easter...and I love it! My sister brought home reese's peanut butter eggs, (2 for me) and a bag of the chocolate eggs. Uggg. Well, my cat loves the foil wrappers of the little eggs, so what do I do? Eat a ton of eggs so that I can make a big foil ball for my cat, that she plays with for a minute. Sigh. Waste of calories, and time. Fickle cats.

I was still down a pound today, and I am officially out of the 240's. I hate the 40's mainly because it is WAY to close to the 50's. I never want to hit 250. I hit 249 once, and I worked out like a mad woman on speed for a week or so to get myself away from it. I am quite pathetic when I actually think about it. I have started to lose weight SO MANY TIMES. Each time I fall off of the wagon, saying that I will get back on after this holiday, or that party. The funny thing is, I made myself the way I am. I am a procrastinator. I am Severely Obese, and no matter who I want to blame...Mother for the childhood drama, dad for not caring for me like he does the others, sister for being selfish....it really is all my fault. I choose to eat that piece of chocolate instead of going for a run. I choose to eat McDonalds when I am hungry (or not) instead of a healthier substitution. These are all my choices, and now, I have to make a huge decision. Am I ready to lose weight? Am I ready to be the person that I want to be? Am I ready to drop the barrier that has kept me "safe" all these years. Truthfully...YES!!!

I want to be thin for the following reasons:

I want to live long enough to grandchildren.
I want children!
I want to attract a wonderful man and get married so I can lead to a) and b)
I want to wear cute outfits
I no longer want to be the designated ugly and fat friend
I want boys to buy me drinks
I want to be hit on
I want to flirt and not see people get grossed out
I want to dance and not feel self concious

Yup, I am SO ready. The weight is coming off, and I am on a mission to see that it KEEPS coming off!!

This is the start of a new me!!

  

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ROSESOFLOVE 3/13/2009 10:43PM

That has to be incredible feeling being out of the 240's...I can't wait for that to happen to me! I guess I'll find out on sunday morning. Report Inappropriate Comment

XAN921 3/12/2009 2:40PM

Those Reeses Peanut Butter Eggs... oh how I want one lol. I'm only on day 4 of my diet, and a co-worker had a whole pack of them and kept offering me some... No no no I said, but gosh it sucks, so I'm right there with you on hating/loving easter. I loved it when I could eat all the goodies but I hate the thought of it now. Anyway, I seemed to relate to this blog so I figured I'd say HI Report Inappropriate Comment

I am conquering the night!

Monday, March 09, 2009

Well, who doesn't love their fave music blasting away while booty shaking to the beat?? I LOVE it, and I am now using it to conquer my nights. Instead of eating, toss on the ipod, and dance out the frustrations of the day. An hour of that last night, and I was panting away. Then I proceeded to do 120 crunches, making me feel real sore and great at the same time!!

This will be a great way to conquer the night time, and to calm myself down after, I proceeded to start my weight loss scrap book!!

I am feeling good today, and I can't wait till weigh in next week!!!

  

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FITSPICE 3/10/2009 1:22AM

Loves it! Back in 2005 before I could get my gym membership, I danced for 30 minutes at first (on the days that I didn't do Tae Bo) and then worked up to whenever it was time to stop lol. Let me tell you, it is a GREAT workout and you will see the weight burnoff. Good work! Report Inappropriate Comment

I hate nighttime

Thursday, March 05, 2009

The evenings are my weakness. I need to find another outlet besides food. UGG.

I ate SOOO much last night. It was almost like someone took over, and I sat back and watched as I consumed food. Every kind of food, veggies, breads/cereal, chocolate and chips. I finally stopped, and I was like...what have I done?

This is the way it always goes for me though. This is technically my second time on Sparkpeople. The first time I lost 30lbs. THough I have gained it all back. This time I am here for the long haul, SO...I have to drink more water and herbal teas, and find something else to do in the evenings. Sucks when I am stuck in the middle of nowhere, and its cold. It will be better when it warms up, then I can go for walks, or canoeing, :) I can't wait for the ice to melt. Right now, I am tending a soar knee. SIGH. I hate restrictions..LOL

Today is a new day, and I am within my calorie range. I WILL NOT CHEAT TONIGHT

  

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LUVYA04 3/6/2009 2:06PM

Hang in there. My weakness is all day lol. I've started to buy the big bags of baby carrots and just leaving a couple of hand fulls on counter between my 3 yr old and myself we eat them all. Report Inappropriate Comment

WOOTSIE1 3/5/2009 1:19PM

Hey! You are in Canada too! That is great! I know the night time munchies... and well, it takes a lot of self-control. I bought some pitas and hummus, so I space my meals out (4,5,6 meals a day depending on calories) and usually have something crunchy last (toasted pita with hummus, peanut butter on toast, carrots and light ranch, baked waffle pretzels with salsa and a bit of shredded cheese, apples and peanutbutter). Drink a glass of water before and during eating, and it will make you feel more full. :) Oh, and some small at home exercises sometimes take the focus away- cruches, squats, calf raises, back extensions (all on here too which is great!) TTYL, Jenn Report Inappropriate Comment

i cheated

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Why, on day two, does everyone have to bring donuts?? Geez...its like..bobbies trying to lose weight...give her chocolate..SIGH
oh well, tomorrow is a new day, with new challenges. I am still somewhat within my calorie range...just on the higher side. Sigh

Tomorrow is yet another day!

  

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SPARKLESSENCE 3/4/2009 10:27PM

Hey, Bobbie! Give yourself a pat on the back for managing to stay within your calorie limits! You were only on Day 2, and I think it takes about 4 days - at least for me - to get in the healthy-eating groove. Donuts are my weakness, too. They've got calorie counts for them on the Spark tracker, though...for both Krispy Kremes and Dunkin Donuts. The Krispy Kreme info is under the user-generated (third) button on the tracker... Good for you on 3/4, though - I saw your message in the EE huddle :) - Sara Report Inappropriate Comment

SHEROO 3/4/2009 9:42PM

There will always be them donuts-the world is full of holes. Report Inappropriate Comment

My first blog entry!

Monday, March 02, 2009

Today is the first day of the rest of my life, I am feeling good!!

I am getting rid of the things/people in my life who bring me down, and I am looking at the positive. I will lose weight, I will be in control of my life again! I am a good person, and I will remember this EVERY day!

I am happy to be back with Spark! Its a great tool towards success!!