Saturday, July 10, 2010
I'm in complete shock-When I first started Spark 2 years next month, it was selfishly to occupy my time,I was so use to working 40+ hours a week and had to stop working suddenly. OK so I began Spark, after a few weeks,I became semi-serious, my B/P was up, as was my cholesterol. I thought my weight was OK, needed to lose a few pounds. Looking back though,and remembering I was close to either 1348 or 142-one of those number's. The more I was active on Spark, the more serious I became on being healthy.
There hasn't been one food item I've eaten these past almost 2 years that I didn't like.I just ate more in moderation ate more fruit,vegtables,less butter,cut down on fried foods, used the nutrition tracker, and exercises. The exercise;s became at first done grudgingly but I actually came to enjoy them, along w/ tracking on Spark's exercise tracker. One thing, well 2 things I pretty much cut out of drinking-ice tea (sugar) and soda-just those 2 drinks brought my weight down 10-12 pounds. I made it a habit to see my Dr. every 6 months for lab work, make sure all my number's,especially my cholesterol was in check. That came down, but not enough-I do believe it is hereditary,as my Dad too had high number's. I'm due back in September for another lab draw-last one was 225 which has been the lowest I've ever seen.
I have after 6 kids always wanted to be at my high school weight, 118-but knew it was probably a dream. Well it happened this morning,I am at 118!!! I'm finally into size 4!! Me who over 2 years ago was up to 10-12, and wore the jumper denim one piece dress to "hide it all"-I can be compulsive so will not weigh myself all the time-haven't been anyhow-
I will continue to do what I'm doing-eating/thinking and doing healthy!!!Probably what has gotten me this far is too, the friends I have made here. Anyone "new" keep active on Spark, oh yea,drink your water too!!! Everyone here has been so supportive, when I'm up/down/crying/laughing, my friends here listen and motivate me. I am ever so grateful to Spark for all their tools to make me a success, and last but never least all my friends here who have kept me going when I thought I couldn't go any more. Love you all!!!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
I noticed that I had some comments on my blogs and didn't acknowledge people who took the time to support and cheer me -I am so,so sorry, I didn't realize.... to all who have stood beside me.
John-John got to the hospital at 645am, surgery due at 730am. Well at about 815am, the Nurse came in, said they unexpectedly had to use an instrument on the man before us, which meant they had to cleanse/sterilize the tool for John. Of course that give me the time to doubt if what I was doing was the right thing. Because John can't talk, I wondered-should this procedure just have been done in his office? When we did it last time in the office, too many complications followed. I was definitely getting nervous. John's oxegan has only been in the low 90's, and have had to keep oxegon on him 24/7 since Saturday. I took John to the hospital Tuesday evening for a chest x-ray which did come out negative -still why the moist cough and low oxegan??? (John's yawning now-be right back). Come to find out the pharmacy gave me a children's dose for his aerosol Treatments! So Praying that now since John will be pain free by tomorrow, and the right dose for his breathing treatment, John will be back to normal by tomorrow. Were suppose to be in the 80's tomorrow, and think we all need to "get out of dodge"!
I just had to Thank everyone for your concern/support/encouragement. John's brother Michael ordered a easel so the other day,I wrote John's name,birthday and his sisters and brothers name. John actually was tracking this!! (one Dr. in front of John said John was blind) -bedside manners anyone!!?? so anyhow, John and I will work daily with this---Thank you everyone, you'll never know how comforting all of you are to me,Thank you -Kathleen
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
The other day when I said I was so happy was because I found a nurse, yes after almost a year. I didn't want to jinx it by getting my hopes up-no I'm not superstitious! (knock on wood!)
That morning when I woke up 3 things in a row happened good. I don't even remember the other 2, just that Cindy has accepted the position. My only nurse Marie trained her Fr-Sun, and the agency even payed her! Complicated story but the Waiver program obviously only would pay for one nurse but Cindy's agency "picked up the tab" She came in last night to work by herself-within 15 minutes my John had started with a seizure, within minutes it was full blown, and # 1 John-John is safe # 2 she didn't flip out!!! She said she's in for the long haul! She is so kind, talks to John gently, tells him whats she's doing, talks to him like the adult he is, and not baby talk. What will I do 3-4 nights a week??? Oh that's right SLEEP !!!
Its been a struggle, as you my Friends know. John is my life, a part of me, and hope no one thinks "I'm opening my mouth all the time with all my woes" I hope I share the good of myself with the bad, because that's what I believe friends do, share-----
Last but not least, keep my John in your Prayers, he goes for surgery 4/29 at 9am for that darn urethral stricture that has come back. I know it hurts John, and am trying to keep John comfortable as possible until this procedure is done. I love him, what can I say, John is a part of me as are all my kids.--Thank you again my Dear Friends for standing by me, I know it's been a strain, and at times Ive broke down, but I'd like to believe I do have a pretty good disposition, and do think,say,act positive! to all!!-Kathleen
Thursday, April 08, 2010
What is it good for? Absolutely nothing!!!!! wasn't there a song that had this title in the 60 or 70"s? Unfortunately war is needed, ironic that it contributes to Peace in the world, unfortunately the reason's for war is greed, power, religion,oil but mostly the belief's of people. The people who are willing to die for what they believe in, most who are called to fight because they are told to, not really ever knowing WHY they are willing to die, only that their Commander in Chief has issued the few words: We are at war.
As a mother I agree what is war good for? Absolutely nothing-as a citizen of the Untied States, I can understand. But the understanding is becoming weaker by the day. Too many people in higher ranks, our government is I believe not doing enough to pull out our troops. Too many people are dying.War can be traced back to the Indo-European root *wers-, "to confuse, mix up." In the Germanic family of the Indo-European languages, this root gave rise to several words having to do with confusion or mixture of various kin.
you have me convinced-war = confusion. I come from a military Family,who my Mom can date us back to the American Revolution. When our Men and women come back from war, as generations before us, it doesn't end there. They have to deal with not only the physical deficits they may have encountered but the mental deficits as well. One of my Son's will never have that fun, carefree look anymore thanks to the destruction he had to see "over their". Unfortunately it doesn't stop with him, it spreads to all around him who love him, his Family.
I pray that all the men and women return safely from any and all wars, and the people who don't,I not only thank you, but your Family as well for enduring/supporting and loving that man you sent off to war.
I just don't know what to say anymore. I feel and sense what my Son saw the other day has changed him-again- so please God, bring Michael home with that "smirk" he so often had, but most important God, please bring my child home safe and sound. Thank you
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
For all who are sick of hearing about the nursing shortage I've been having constantly, don't bother reading this because here we go again. I know I'm sick of it as well.
OK so Linda started Sunday,lives about 6 miles from here,ideal for both of us. At 7p, she showed up (on time) that's a plus. And than it began to unravel from there. John's shower? didn't bother to shave my John-it takes 2 so of course I was in their. Didn't wash his back,water was not hot.John back to bed(she couldn't lift-John is only 140#'s) Couldn't straight cath,I had to do it. 9pm meds due,clock says 915pm, 1030PM I said I was going to bed. She asked if there was anything NOT TO DO, such as noise to wake me (micro/TV) I thought well maybe there is a chance and she was just nervous-asked me if at 4am she could call home with her cell,check on her Family-I said of course. So off to bed I went, but I had the "TV" in my room could see John, back up I went! (hadn't seen her in 45 minutes) came downstairs and there she was on the stairs exercising!!!!!!!!!!! talking on the cell phone 1215am. So between seeing on the TV,and hearing,every 15 minutes I hear her flippen cell phone,her in John's room talking on it. John not even turned,her not giving him fluids. Caught her at 515am using my stability ball!!! The worse part was John lost his pillows and his neck was hyper-extended! Try breathing or swallowing in that position. My God, theses people are Nurse's! The more I see,the more I know how good I was as a Nurse. I sent her home at 630am
Next up--thought I had someone that was decent,had her scheduled tonight,she wanted to work every wed,and Thur. Guess what? She called me yesterday morning said her Husband has a job,and can't work here, because she doesn't have a babysitter. I was stunned,I don't even remember what I said,I know my tone was, well, less than nice.
I'm getting sick of it people,I really am. I'm about to just resign from even looking,maybe that might help. I even had someone e-mail me with a e-mail address of sexynurse!!!!???????. What in God's name is happening to the Nursing Profession, or is it all over the place Ohhhh I'll get by, I always do but..........
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