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OCD and Me

Thursday, July 31, 2014

In the past there was a saying "when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping." They didn't realize it at the time but they were suffering from OCD. They went shopping because thing were tough and hard to cope with. When you shop you should purchase things you need or a reward for yourself.

For the last couple of months I have been shopping with no control. I am on medication for OCD; however, it appears that it is no longer working. I realized what was happening to me last Sunday. It scared me beyond words to experience this debilitating disease again. My psychiatrist is out of town. This is not in my counselor's area of expertise.

Although I cleaned my closet out a few months ago, my closet is filled with clothes from wall to wall. The counselor thought I should try to return as many items as I could. Most of the items were over 30 days and I don't have the return receipt. I will not go and beg them to take the items back because the OCD made me do it---yuk, yuk, yuk

Let me tell you a little about how I have felt over these months. While I was sitting at the computer I felt great. My justification was that I deserved these things--I have been very good lately. I would be soaring. When I finished an order and would walk away from my computer, my mental condition would drop through the floor. I always returned to the computer because it made me feel good and I wanted to recapture the good feeling.

Until my psychiatrist returns, I am training my self to understand that I have rewarded myself more than enough and I will buy nothing else. Sometimes it works and sometime it doesn't. As I was writing this it dawned on me that this sounds like a junkie. I only use prescribed drugs (they can't be addictive), I don't drink, and I don't smoke cigarettes.

Just sharing!

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SUBMOM2 8/1/2014 9:59PM

    Hi Bettie,

I'm sorry you had this setback, but it sounds like you are trying to get it under control. Telling us about it is a good way to shed some light on it and maybe shopping will lose its appeal. Is there something else you can do when you feel like shopping? Maybe a walk around the block? Go to the library? I wish I could offer more help. Hang in there!

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    I can completely understand as I have had 2 friends who had an actual addiction to shopping. I ended up having to move in with one of them because she was so out of control that she was buying duplicates of expensive things like large pieces of electronic exercise equipment. The other purchased $30,000 worth of hobby stuff and had to declare bankruptcy. Problems like this can be so compelling.

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KERRYG155 8/1/2014 8:38AM

    That sounds really difficult to deal with. Sorry your doctor is not available to help you. Is there a method to help you put stuff on a wish list and not finish the sale? Not dealing with it that's the only idea I have. emoticon

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Want to Screen Yourself for OCD????

Friday, July 25, 2014

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BMCOLLEY 7/25/2014 12:43PM

    Alice what do you mean when you write "I scored 31 without taking any question?" Did you ever read the article I put together that explains the symptoms of OCD? The problem could be that you have symptoms of more than one problem. If that is the case, one may be stronger and override the OCD symptoms.

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AUNTALICE2 7/25/2014 11:47AM

    I scored 31 without taking any questions. I don't understand that. I have never had any OCD episodes in my life. A lot of other things but not that. emoticon

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BMCOLLEY 7/25/2014 10:58AM

    I would say you are the average of our society. Almost everyone has some degree of OCD, but the majority of our society does not need any type of treatment.


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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/25/2014 10:41AM

    I've had OCD in the past but my score was 2 today.

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The Machines

Friday, July 18, 2014

Earlier I informed you all that I was going to join the machine race. Well, I have decided to remain where I am because the machines would be nothing if humans did not build and repair them.

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SUNSHINE5268 7/22/2014 11:32AM

    high five on that one..... GREAT post! emoticon Power to the PEOPLE :)

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ZANYGIRL1 7/20/2014 12:14PM

    That's very true!!! emoticon

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KERRYG155 7/19/2014 10:33AM

    That's true. We get dependent on them and then when they need repairs we're in trouble!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/18/2014 10:06PM

    I have a love/hate relationship to technology. It's nice when it works.

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AUNTALICE2 7/18/2014 9:29PM

    There is such a thing as too much technology.......but I don't know where I would be without my computer! emoticon

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Words Can Make a Difference

Monday, July 14, 2014

I was working on the Start screen when I noticed that I was feeling really good sitting here. I checked the screen and, -lo & behold!- there were words popping up. Some of the words were “You can do it! Ready! let’s go Keep it up! etc.

This is called subliminal seduction. I love it because it helps me to keep going when I feel like giving up.

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KERRYG155 7/14/2014 9:53AM

    Good words to start your day!

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    I like it too. It's good to feel encouraged and empowered.

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NANCYPAT1 7/14/2014 1:49AM

    Wow what a great thing to have on the computer -- will have to check and see if I can use it too.

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PRAIRIECROCUS 7/14/2014 1:22AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Do You Remembers the Cylons?

Sunday, July 13, 2014

For those of you needing a refresher or has never seen the tv show Battlestar Gallicta. Well, these people were traveling on space ships looking for a place they could call home.

They built robots, some looked human, to take care of the 13 colonies. Anyway, the robots took over because they thought they could do a better job than the humans.

Well, I feel as if I am in that movie. I have to continually turn my computer off so that the contact between the computer and the Spark will synch. Or the computer can't find the Spark which means I have to download it again.

The Jawbone tugs at me every 15 minutes to get up and get going. I keep telling it that I changed the notice time to 1 hour. It does not believe me as it keeps prickling my arm.

Then every store that I shop at puts commercials on Spark People. They are actually following me from my computer to Spark People. Can you imagine the temptation?

I have decided the machines (Cylons) have the upper hand so I am going to join them. Yuk! Yuk! Yuk! Yuk!

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KERRYG155 7/13/2014 8:43PM

    Yep, they know every move we make including every site we visit on the computer. Kind of scary!

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    LOL!! I loved Battlestar Gallactica! The cylons looked cool!

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