Friday, May 13, 2011
If you know who Yoovie is, you know what is going on.
If you don't know, Yoovie was a user who was incredibly motivating. She was brutally honest in her blogs. She had to kick her own butt on a regular basis to loose her weight, and she did so openly and honestly. Yes, she could be crude. And yes, she had a unique personality.
It was this unique person here I was drawn to. Her brutal honesty with herself was amazing. It helped me become more and more honest with myself on my journey. She inspired me in more ways than just weight loss.
Anyhow, she has had to take her page down. Complaints about comments and such. I guess the most recent was a picture she posted. It absolutely amazed me. I don't know exactly what it was about that pic, but it captivated me. The woman had such a beautiful body. She was exposing her 6pack abs, and the bottom portion of her breasts. She was not nude. And it was not a pornography image. Heck, it was not even a nude image.
But someone didn't like it and reported it. That was the last straw for her. She removed her page. I found where she is blogging now, and will continue to follow her as many Yoovie fans already have.
(If you are looking for her, message me. I'll send you the link to her blog site)
Anyhow, I was starting to blog offsite from SP as well recently. I began to realize I have more of a story to tell than just focusing on my weight loss. I was clogging up my blogs with "other" stuff. Decided to take it elsewhere. I was posting links to my other blogsite so anyone who wants to follow can.
FYI, I am on blogger.com. My username is bluerose73. I have a few blogs going. One is My life. The other is my weight loss journey. I will post links to these blogs when I can get them. They are down for maintenance right now.
Anyhow, I am so disheartened by what has happened. I still beleive spark is a great sight. There are incredible tools here.
But I am confused. I don't really know if I want to continue blogging here. I know by standing up for what I beleive in, I'm opening myself up to criticism and censorship. I'm not interested in either.
Friends of mine feel free to let me know how you feel. Share your viewpoints. That is why I value your friendship. We don't have to agree on every viewpoint. That is what makes us all unique. We have our OWN MINDS!!! I love that.
But now I'm going to worry that if I am open and honest about something, I will be asked to remove it. If I post Merry Christmas who will I be offending? Will I be asked to take it down? What about the motivational pics I find? I am not stealing them and using them for commercial puroposes. I am keeping them close so I can see them again and again. Am I going to be asked to remove them from my sight now too?
At least on this external sight, I still feel free to write, and post as I want to.
I am personally leaning towards blogging externally, and posting links to my blog sight here.
Any friends, feel free to follow my blogs, comment there, or here. I will still get the messages.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Today is a bit of an oddity.
I got dressed up this morning. I really wanted to remember what it feels like to get dressed up nice again. That and I ran out this morning to deliver a resume for a position here in town. I wanted to look nice when I walked into the place.
I have also been online with a friend from Calgary. He is hiring. I am interested. It pays more than here. It is also a chance to move back home to Calgary. Be with my kids again. Here's hoping...
Despite being dressed up, I am planning on going running today at lunch. I have my gym bag with me to change.
But my tummy hurts. I think I may have to give up chicken wings. I just can't seem to digest these deep fried foods anymore.
Yeah. I know. May seem funny, but it really isn't. I am actually in pain today. I have even taken pain killers.
It's frustrating. With my food allergies, I am discovering more and more foods I can't eat. I have completely cut pork out - I can't digest it anymore. Causes too much pain. Now chicken wings. Potato chips have been on that "list" to watch for a while too.
It just sucks. Sometimes we all want a little treat. I get it. Yes. It is changing my eating habits for the better. Forcing them to change though. That's the frustration. I wish I could choose. Occassionally enjoy a few wings. I only had 6 last night. And I'm in this much pain? Give me a break!
It is just frustrating me beyond belief. Everyone else in the world can treat themselves once in a while. Me? Not so much anymore. No wheat products of any kind. EVER. That means no pizza. Pasta. Breads. Cereals. My favorites!
Well, I've dealt with that. Now to have to give up a few more of my guilty pleasures! Give me a break already. Okay, so when I was eating wheat products, I couldn't eat potato chips. Didn't really miss them back then. I never ate wings. Thought they were too many calories for what? mostly skin and bone? forget it.
So why is it bothering me so much now? Guess something else has me stressed out. I'm just getting frustrated over the small things now.
Maybe this job offer in Calgary is a good thing. Just the change I've been needing for a while now. ..
and my new weight loss blog:
Well, I'm back from my run today. It didn't go as well as I'd hoped. I ran out for a mile. Then I ended up walking back to work. My lungs just felt too heavy. And I was chilled. Rather than make myself sicker, I just called it a day.
It's starting to look like I won't be able to get in a descent run before the 10K on Saturday. No biggie. My body seems to need the rest.
Now to find something to do tonight. Movie? Maybe. Don't really want to go alone though...
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Just tossing it out there. For anyone who is interested in following where my twisted mind takes me on this journey we all call life.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Look at that suit. Gorgeous, isn't it. How do you expect to be able to wear it with the rolls you've got?
Okay, I get it takes time to get rid of the rolls, but yours aren't going anywhere! Give me a break. It's time to step it up.
Yes, I get your training for a marathon. Good for you. Training is great. But here you are sitting at your desk having to talk yourself into going running today???
GIVE ME A FRIGGIN BREAK!
Get off your butt and get out there. Yes, it's going to be hard today. You've been sick for 3 days. Of course it'll be hard.
IT'S THE HARD STUFF THAT WILL GET YOUR BUTT INTO THAT BIKINI!!!
I've got these two bikini's. Brand new. Sitting on my shelf. Waiting for me to be able to fit. I am close. But that extra tummy I've got makes them look less than stellar. Time to get there.
I don't expect to look like these models. But definitely better than I do now.
I need to keep running. Cardio. Keep the HR up and burn fat. But I also have to work on toning those areas. My butt and legs will work themselves out. Running kicks butt... Literally. But it doesn't do much for the abs.
I need to do some toning. Abs/back. and arms. Okay. Planning what to do here is taking on too much today. But I need to realize it needs to be done.
Today is a running day. Get out there and let those shoes taste pavement. It'll feel so great to get out there and run. Get rid of some of this nervous/anxious energy. It will also feel so accomplished when done. It's a huge mountain I'm climbing - my marathon training. But every small step in towards my goal is a step in the right direction. And I need to keep taking them. There is a time frame. Exactly 23 weeks from next Sunday is race day.
26.2miles. Some uphill regions. The worst two - almost 300' up in about 1 mile. the next - about 170' up in just over 2miles. Those are huge climbs. They will sap your energy. I need a good solid running base to be able to make it. Even if I allow myself to walk these two climbs. Walking a 15min/mile takes energy too, especially uphill. I need enough energy to seriously kick butt on the rest of the course. If I do, then I have a chance of finishing on time.
What can I do today to reach this goal tomorrow? I can run W5D1HM - run6min, walk3min, repeat 7x. Speed training today. I can do this. I can knock it out of the park.
And I can stop texting my room mate. He's in a mood. Trying to get through to him will only hurt me. Sap my energy. So not worth it.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
The above link is to my online blog. I am venting my problems with my room mate there. Feel free to check it out and leave feedback. I'm feeling kind of lost today about a few things.
Anyhow, on to my ongoing challenge. Today is day 41. I am finally feeling better. Enough to go running today. I am going online to see how the last week before the 10K is tapered. I am excited to run my race this Saturday. I am going to sort of loose my marathon training week, but that's okay. I have a few extra weeks I can play with.
The scale was still at 224.5 today, so I adjusted my tracker. It's up from my 222.5 low, but not so bad. Now I'm hoping to get back down again soon.
I am still a little weak, but I guess that's to be expected. I didn't eat all that well while I was sick. But I did sleep lots. Could have gotten more water in too. I just couldn't seem to do it. Oh well. Listen to the body right.
I need to find a path for me. I need something to focus on for the next while. Why is in my other blog, so I won't go into it here. It's got me anxious though. Actually, downright scared again. I really don't know what to do. Yes, I do. Find a path and go. Follow it, no matter what happens this week. Period.
Anyhow, I hope you are all having a great day. What are you going to do today to reach your goals tomorrow? Are you going to let today just pass you by? Or are you going to take full advantage of the time you have been given to reach your goals, whatever they might be?
Hmm. I just looked at the 10K program. 4 runs at about 60min each. Not much less than I'm doing now. So it looks like I won't loose my training week. I will instead get 2/3 of it in by the end of my race Saturday. That's good. I like that.
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