July 23 BodyMedia

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

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ROSIE777 7/24/2012 9:27AM

job my sweet friend you are doing GREAT! Report Inappropriate Comment

Today's Kick in the Butt

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Looks like I didn't really need a kick to get out the door. I was able to do it not long after waking up.

I'm back from todays run. C25K week5 day1. My average hr was down - 138. And I never reached zone 3 for my heart rate. Guess that just means my heart rate is starting to drop. No biggie. But I do want my average to be low 140's...

2.8miles in 33minutes. Not too bad.

  

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ILIKECACTI 7/24/2012 9:48PM

way to go!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRICIAE2 7/24/2012 12:34PM

I'm on Week 2, Day 1! Keep up the good work! Report Inappropriate Comment

ROSIE777 7/24/2012 9:32AM

job sweet friend you are doing GREAT, keep going strong. Report Inappropriate Comment

OLIVIANIGHT 7/24/2012 8:56AM

Good for you! I'm just starting week 1 day 1 today, bit nervous! Report Inappropriate Comment

Emotional stuff. Today's thoughts

Monday, July 23, 2012

Today is my first day on this new job. I actually was able to get my butt out of bed at 5:15am. I even got dressed and went for a run. I cut it short - was starting to have pains at the half way point. Between that and the runny nose and watery eyes, I decided to just call it a short one. I guess I've gotta deal with my allergies being worse when I run early like this.

I was beyond bitchy when I woke up this morning. I actually had to catch myself and talk myself out of it first thing. I have no idea why I'm so stressed actually. I just am. I've gotta fix that.

The run itself was kind of nice. Cool air. Quiet. Maybe I'll try to focus on that and try to turn my thoughts towards enjoying my mornings.

I gave myself a half hour before I had to run this morning. It went okay, but I was a little late getting out the door.

I wonder if I shouldn't just eat a piece of fruit before I go running, and save breakfast for when I get home. I think I'll do that tomorrow. I definitely don't like eating so soon after waking up.

So I guess I'll have to work on that. Now I've got about 25minutes before I have to get in the tub, get dressed, and leave for work. I need leave for work in an hour. It's kind of nice to have this time.

I'm going to have to work this all out. Get used to it. Actually start to enjoy it. It's one of those "change your mind, change your life" things.

I am so worried about work today. Not sure why, I just am. This time, I'm just not sure. I need to get back to work. So what am I not sure about? I guess I'm just gun shy. More so than I've been in a long LONG time.

I guess I'll just put it out of my mind for now. I need to focus on making the most of today.

  

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SUSANSERENE 7/24/2012 12:33AM

Just saw your blog and sure hope you had a good first day on the new job! Yes, it's a huge stressor to begin almost anything new but you did awesome starting your day with a run! Wow! What a confidence booster, girl! Can't wait to hear how it went! Good luck on your 2nd day! Hugs! Report Inappropriate Comment

ILIKECACTI 7/23/2012 10:53PM

All change is stressful! Way to get up and run early to start out on a good foot!! Report Inappropriate Comment

DRKYASHI 7/23/2012 1:49PM

Good Luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

TREP13 7/23/2012 11:32AM

Good luck on the new job! Report Inappropriate Comment

JUSTME29 7/23/2012 11:13AM

New jobs are stressful anyway, and you've been out of work for a while. Of course you're stressed out, and that will make you grumpy. I hope today goes well for you, and I'm sure tomorrow's run will go even better than today's. Take some non-drowsy allergy medicine and hit the road, and be grateful that it's cooler than it has been for your runs. Report Inappropriate Comment

AKIMBERLYQ1 7/23/2012 9:00AM

Wish you luck on your job today.. psst we are cheering you on!! on getting up and moving that bod! Report Inappropriate Comment

July 22 BodyMedia

Monday, July 23, 2012

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LRK4CHRIST 7/23/2012 8:31AM

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Why is this such a hard thing to do???

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I mean seriously.

My challenge - to eat 6x/day. 3 meals and 3 snacks.

I just can't seem to do it. It's not that I'm not hungry and wanting to snack. It's just I can't seem to do it.

I go to the fridge. I come away with nothing.

Because of my food restrictions right now, it's hard to find things. But almost all fruits and vegetables are fair game. I have about 8 pieces of fruit in the fridge as I am writing this.

But I don't want them.

What is my problem? I like fruit. But I look at them. I decide I don't want them. Can't figure out what I do want. So I close the fridge and decide to wait. Right now it's because it's almost time to start to cook supper.

So what. If I got up and started cooking now, it'll still be about an hour to supper. It's not like a piece of fruit will ruin my meal.

I get that it's not chocolate, or pasta, or some rich heavy snack. I can't eat chocolate. I really should take it easy on the pasta, because in a few weeks I won't be able to have much of it for a while.

I know I'm just plain angry.

I'm angry that I am so hungry. I'm angry that it's so much more work to feed myself. I'm angry that anyone else can just walk into the grocery store and pick something up. Heck, they can walk into a fast food place and get something to eat. Not me. Between food allergies, and food allergy testing/restrictive cleansing diet for the testing, I can't.

I'm also finding I may not ever go back to some things. I won't eat anything that has citric acid on the label anymore. I think that's what contaminated me over the past year and had me getting sick again.

I still can't eat excessive fat. Deep fried foods, yuck! My body rebels against it.

Sugar - FORGET IT! After what happened a couple of days ago when I tried to have a "treat", no way.

But that's the hardest one to cope with. Do you have any idea how many things have sugar in them? At least I'm learning how to make home made ice cream, my own version of prego, BBQ sauces, fruit syrups and fillings , etc. But seriously. It's a lot of hard work.

Right now I have 12 - 500ml jars of fruit sauces. 4 cherry. 4 blackberry. 4 raspberry.

Wait a minute. I'm not on a strict cleansing diet for the next few weeks. I can add some of this fruit to cottage cheese. That will be so yummy!

At least I have one more snack idea.

  

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VLKSHA 7/23/2012 8:21AM

Sounds like you are trying to deal with new emotions as you look at food. Is eating a job and no longer an enjoyment? Is healthy-ish food starting to be "bad" in your mind? Is control getting more important than eating? I could be way off, just a thought. Report Inappropriate Comment

JUSTME29 7/23/2012 12:29AM

I have the same problem, and I don't even have any dietary restrictions. I have a bowl full of my favorite fruits on my table, a tray of assorted veggies (that I've taken the time to wash and cut already), cottage cheese, string cheese, and assorted other healthy tasty snacks in my fridge and I don't want any of them. Report Inappropriate Comment

ILIKECACTI 7/22/2012 9:28PM

Right now snacks are bad news for me. I just have so little self control... I know eating smaller meals more times per day is ideal... but that's just more times to overeat for me at this time. I wish I wouldn't be hungry... Report Inappropriate Comment

TATTER3 7/22/2012 8:03PM

Keep going!!! Report Inappropriate Comment