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Challenge Accepted.

Saturday, November 02, 2013

So this week, I weighed in early @ WW because I will be busy tomorrow. I lost 4.6 pounds. Normally I would be over the moon. I guess I just expected more. You know watching the Biggest Loser...I want double digits every week. Yes. I know it is not healthy. Yes. I know it all. But that is what I wish would happen.

In reality, I am 14 pounds lighter than I was 2 weeks ago and it is amazing how your body really embraces the difference. You move a little quicker, you have more energy. Just 14 pounds made a difference. I will take it. emoticon

So...As I started off saying...Challenge Accepted...guess I should mention what it is.

This week I picked up a basket of fruit and vegetables from an organization called Growing Power www.growingpower.org/ which really encourages healthy food within communities that may not have access to it.

Well, I am not sure if I have ever stated this, but I hate veggies. There are some that I will eat, but I am not always happy about it. I know that fruits and veg are an important part of just staying healthy in general. So I thought, invest in an organization that was really making change and challenge myself to find ways to add more things I need into my daily routine.

So in the basket there were:
Micro Greens
Kale (I am pretty sure)
Green beans
Beets
Broccoli
Celery
Radishes
Jalapeño Peppers
Onions
Carrots
and an unknown squash.

I have been searching for recipes....but I will hopefully have multiple updates on how I used the veggies. If anyone knows how to use micro greens or the unknown squash...please let me know. emoticon

  


Detox Sucks...

Monday, October 28, 2013

So I probably should be writing a cheery, happy blog, but I am not in a happy place right now. So I weigh in with WW every Sunday and this past Sunday, I lost 9.2 pounds. On Sunday I was elated. On Sunday I was over the moon and pumped. Today...today I am grumpy.

I wanted to eat out in a restaurant so bad tonight. I could literally taste it in my mouth. I even did this weird thing that I tend to do and drive in circles...trying to fight off the craving for a juicy, greasy burger.

One would argue that you must live life in moderation. And I will. Just not now. I know me, if I fall off in the early stages, I will be setback a good month. First I have to jump start and detox myself, then I can be trusted to eat a burger with no fries.

To make matters worse, my BF, whom I love to death, order Chinese take out for his dinner. But I did it, I made it home and I made an omelet...Okay scrambled eggs with spinach and mushrooms. emoticon emoticon and had that for dinner. However, as the fried food smell wafted through the air...I became so cranky.

But you know what, I made the choices to put me in the position and it is up to me to get myself out of this position. One choice at a time.

In case you are wondering, I decided to have one square of chocolate. It was a nice small indulgence. Then I banged out my issues to my anonymous friends. Now I am relaxed and content again.

Night All

  
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FINCHFEEDER80 10/29/2013 11:53AM

    Great job on the 9.2 pounds! I don't necessarily drive around in circle, but I will stare at things, like if I'm at the store I'll pick up something that I know I probalby shouldn't get, and just hold it and stare at it. Most of the time I can convince myself to put it back down.

I'm glad you're having a better morning so far!

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BLUEDIVA76 10/29/2013 10:52AM

    Thank you for the pep talks. I woke up happy, smiley and focused. emoticon

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PEZMOM1 10/29/2013 8:32AM

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.DUSTY. 10/29/2013 12:01AM

    Yes the first couple of weeks can be really rough! But it does get easier. Just keep saying no to yourself and get through each day.

It helps to have your meals planned out and your refrigerator stocked with good foods and also it would be really nice if the boyfriend would cool it with the takeout.

The "driving around in circles" is not weird. It's like walking up and down the grocery store aisles. There's even a term for it when it comes to eating disorders, "cruising".

I'll say it again, it WILL get easier.
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Stay Strong!

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UNSWEETMAMA 10/28/2013 11:24PM

    One choice at a time.
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PLATINUM755 10/28/2013 10:44PM

    I glad everything worked out for you...Just a suggestion, have a chat with the BF. This is YOUR journey, YES! Support would be much appreciated! Set some boundaries, they're good for all us!

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Highs Followed by Drama...DON'T HIT THE RED BUTTON!!!!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

My life...my life should be a sitcom. I know a lot of people may say that, but my friends will be the first to tell you that the most dramatic things happen to me. I promise. LOL!

So last night, I received my official letter. I have been accepted into an MBA program at Alverno College where I received my undergrad. This has been 7 years in the making and one day...much like trying to get healthy, I decided to get up and just flippin' do it already.

Well this awesome news was overshadowed by the fact that my BF doesn't think things through and when he went to go bring in the groceries from my car, he left the gate open and my escape artist puppy ran FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Even though he is almost one...he is the most spazzy, timid, chicken butt dog I have ever seen. Oh, did I mention he doesn't come when called...EVER! We have taken puppy class, clicker training, personal coaching, doggy therapy. Nothing.

So there is my boyfriend, who is a large guy with joint issues, out chasing this dog over a 2 block radius. Weaving in and out houses. Cutting through yards. Playing hide and seek. Just as you thought you lost him...through the blackness two glowing eyes.

After 2 hours, we finally got him in the house. Drama.

So after all that...We get to bed and I am off this morning to do a stress test. I wasn't having chest PAIN, just chest FULLNESS. I guess either way, they wanted to make sure I was okay.

So I prepared...new walking shoes, workout clothes, MP3. Ready to get a good walk in. What they don't tell you is they are going to put that sucker on an insane incline and crank it up. Now I can easily do 30 minutes on the treadmill at 1.8 - 2.2 and get a mile in. Uh Uh...I was holding on and I heart rate shot up in 30 seconds. I went from 99 to 180 in 1.5 minutes. Literally.

Apparently while I am gasping for air and cursing people in my head...my legs were dragging a little. They thought I was going to fall...Which I wasn't, I was just tired. So they slammed the red button. I jerked, flew back and yelled at them all at the same time.

Apparently...in my fit I screamed, "Never hit the red button. Do you NOT watch movies. NEVER HIT THE RED BUTTON!!!!"

Dramatic. HAHAHAHA. I look back now and think Good Lord....why are I so dramatic???

On the good news I have no blockage at all and my heart is wonderful. The bad, and obvious news, I need more cardio in my life.

Guess I should utilize my gym membership huh. :) emoticon

  
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BLUEDIVA76 10/25/2013 10:28AM

    Thanks all for the support. And I am happy to report by puppy gave me a drama free night. LOL!

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SKYRUNHER 10/24/2013 3:35PM

    Oh my God, your blog made me laugh.. I was on the treadmill once going a fair clip when the power went out.. then almost as soon as it went out it came back on.. that was an adventure.. so when I read about the red button.. I couldn't help remembering mine.. thanks the chuckle!


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BEHAPPY0201 10/24/2013 3:20PM

    Glad to hear your heart is good - that can be so scary. I'm trying to get cardio in before I get to that point because I can feel it coming.

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FINCHFEEDER80 10/24/2013 2:34PM

    Glad you got your puppy back in, and SUPER glad your heart was ok! Now, go get some cardio in and make it stronger!!

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Just Keep Swimming and Overcome Fear

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Today will be my 5th "Fear Factor" swim class. For my readers that assume that it some sort of cool class that teaches you how to dive with sharks or swim with jelly fish, you would be sorely disappointed.

It is a class for people TERRIFIED emoticon of the water. To help them over that fear and teach them how to swim. Now, I have been working on my water issues for awhile and will get in water willingly. However, I won't get into water that is higher than my chest and I am 5'9.

Last week the instructor took the class over to the deep end. Well, took everyone but me. I got close to the edge and sheer panic took over. I will save you the re-enacted drama. Suffice it to say there was lots of tears, sniffling and shaking.

Eventually, they left me alone and the other instructor/life guard came over to assist me and calm me down. I felt like a big ole baby. But, after I calmed down and relaxed I managed to get one foot over the black line to where there was nothing under me. This was while holding on to the wall, a life guard noodle and the life guard was glued to my hip.

I don't want to go tonight. So why am I, because I made a promise to myself to finish the class and eventually learn how to swim.

I grew up in such a negative family that was literally gripped with fear. I am afraid of everything and most days it is an absolute struggle not to let that fear overtake my mind. This swim class will be...I hope...the first of many fears that I can conquer. My bucketlist is growing and I want to be able to cross some things off.

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BLUEDIVA76 10/24/2013 1:28PM

    Thanks Brad. I'mma trying. :)

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BRADMILL2922 10/23/2013 4:37AM

    Good for you! Keep swimming!

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BLUEDIVA76 10/22/2013 11:02PM

    Thank you for the encouragement. I actually had a great class tonight. No tears. emoticon

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MEDEAREBORN 10/22/2013 3:31PM

  "We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face ... we must do that which we think we cannot." - Eleanor Roosevelt.

Imagine how powerful you'll feel when you swim your first lap! You can do this!

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SETTIMIA 10/22/2013 3:30PM

    YOUR ATTITUDE IS REALLY INSPIRING, GO GIRL YOU CAN DO IT.

I TOO HAD A FEAR OF WATER, BUT MANY YEARS AGO TAUGHT MYSELF, AS I WAS TOO EMBARRASSED TO GO FOR CLASSES. I WISH I HAD YOU ENCOURAGE....

SWIMMING IS AMAZING AND A GREAT ALL ROUND EXERCISE.

HERE TO SEND YOU ENCOURAGEMENT, THIS SITE IS AMAZING AND SUCH GREAT PEOPLE ALWAYS HERE TO GIVE ADVICE

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This Road Feels Sad and Familiar

Monday, September 30, 2013

Sigh. Just sigh.

Two years ago, I started a journey. I managed to lose 33lbs. And then it happened. I fell in love and fell into stretchy pants. Both were completely forgiving of my love of all things decedent. In fact, my BF is more overweight than I am with his own set of food issues. But together...for the past two years, we have indulged. Not in life...But in calorie laden road to an early death.

I am not saying that I plan to cut off all indulgences. I personally think having a 5 course tasting menu paired with rich wines is perfectly acceptable if done once every 4 months. What I am saying is that something needs to change.

At this point...anything needs to change for the better. I will take anything.

  
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JOHNWBROCKSR777 10/1/2013 6:05AM

    “God is gracious.” you can do this...life is worth it...one step at a time...Stay the course!

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ALIHIKES 9/30/2013 11:59AM

    Best wishes for you and your BF in becoming healthier and more fit! emoticon

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NEPTUNE1939 9/30/2013 11:51AM

    May God bless your efforts to choose a healthy life style. You can do it. All the tools you need are here - emoticon

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