Thursday, June 07, 2012
I have been struggling BIG time with my weight loss over the past year. Before being told I could not be a bus driver (a job I LOVE) I was on my way to losing 70# following Weight Watchers. Until I have my hip replaced I can not work let alone walk alot. The past few weeks have been some what of a ray of hope for me. I have lost 2# here; gained 4/10ths #; lost 6/10ths#; stayed the same; lost 6/10ths #. My boyfriend KNOWS how I am struggling & I really do need encouragement & positive comments to help me continue on my weight loss journey. However yesterday after my WW weigh in I texted my boyfriend & told him I lost another 6/10ths #. When we talked later in the afternoon he said that it was a minuscule number that it really doesnt count as a lost. I WAS FLABBERGASTED!!!!! How dare he say it really didnt count. Then he proceeded to let me know that he can not understand how I can be struggling with the weight loss. All I asked from him was alittle positive encouragement. I have been very positive with him & his quitting smoking & I never have told him I am disappointed in him when he buys a pack of cigs to help him get over the urge. I keep all comments to myself knowing positive comments help him. In the past when this has happened I turned to food & binged like crazy. This time I told him I needed his support & his negative comments only hurt me & worse of all they sent me to food for comfort. I DID NOT turn to food this time but I did go have a long hard cry down by the river where it was peaceful. I felt better & I came up with non food rewards for the small goals I meet. I am rewarding myself for the next 25# (a mani/pedi); 30# (a sexy penior set); & 50# (a weekend getaway in Northern Wisconsin). I have told the boyfriend what the rewards are & when they will be appearing. He told me those were nice rewards & he even showed me the penior set we can both agree on. I have come to the conclusion that I will just keep my weight loss progress (good & bad) to myself so the only way he knows how I am doing is when I show off my reward just so I do not have to hear ANY negative comments. Maybe I am wrong with keeping the gain/loss from him but I am trying to keep the negative thoughts & comments from sabotaging my weight loss.
(I have been known to be alittle (alot) vindictive at times but I would LOVE to go to the boyfriend & say nananan nanner & show what I can do without the negative comments or thoughts)